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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday and a BBQ at Julie’s house

The Fourth of July was a busy day, I was out a Susan till after 3 went to a BBQ at 4, got home from the BBQ about 6:30 and then Julie texted me to see if I wanted to go watch the fireworks with her and Trixie, in male mode of course so I sad yes and was out the door again. The only reason I bring this up is while we were watching the fireworks Julie thought we should do a BBQ at her house on Saturday which is only 2 days away. So, I said I would come. She texted a couple other girls but being such short notice, they couldn’t make it so it would be just the 3 of us so that brings me to today, Saturday.

I started getting ready at 2 and of course it is a more casual day so I chose my black & white summer dress and sandals. I did my makeup and yes, I went with a red lipstick as I just love the color red. Now I have been using Maybelline Superstay and they have two kinds I like, the matte ink and the liquid and today is the liquid. Both stay on really well even soap and water won’t take them off I need to use baby oil on a cotton ball. I can eat or drink whatever I want and it stays looking great. I was on my way and got to Julies right at 4. I got a quick selfie in the car just in case I forgot to get pictures later. I have started doing this as I don’t think about pictures as much as I use to. years ago, when we went out all the girls had their cameras or phones out taking pictures but as we have gone out more and taken so many pictures over the years it just not as big of a deal. I can’t tell you how many pictures I have but it is in the thousands. If you think about it this is my 1190th blog which means even if it was just 1 picture per blog that is a lot and early on it was more like 10 or 20 pictures.

I rang the doorbell and Julie opened the door and she also was casual in a summer dress, but hers was longer than mine. Well we went in and sat at the counter and talked as we ate chips and dip, one of my favorite snacks. Julie, Trixie and I just relaxed and sat and talked and it really was fun. Before we new it, it was almost 6 the time went by so fast. Julie fired up the grill and she put the steaks on, it didn’t take long and soon we were eating, we ate inside as the weather was a little on the cool side as it was only about 68 outside. The food was awesome, Julie and Trixie wonderful cooks, Trixie did the salad and baked potato and Julie grilled the steaks. And after dinner there was ice cream. It was so wonderful. After we finished, we went and sat in the living room and continued talking. I was shocked when I looked at the time and it was after 9. Where had the time went. It did not seem like I had been here over 5 hours. I thought it was time to call it a night so I thanked them for inviting me and we said our goodbyes. It really was a wonderful evening with wonderful friends. I really am a lucky girl to have such awesome friends.

Thanks Julie and Trixie for inviting me into your home for a BBQ it was awesome. It was a good idea I got the selfie in the car as I put my purse down when I got inside and of course my phone was in it and I never once thought about getting my phone out or getting a picture. Really wish I had gotten some though.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in Susan’s life.

 

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July 8, 2019 Posted by | family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape, awesome

Okay it is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight and I am really looking forward to it. I always enjoy my time out as Susan but tonight it should be a good turnout as a few of our newer members are meeting once again in Portland on Saturday and coming out, Shae and her wife Reanna, Sindee and her wife Dee, Betty and Robin all of whom I have met just once and only in the last month or so, I am looking forward to getting to talk with them more and get to know them better. Now I am guessing they will be there between 7 & 8 but I am going earlier, by 6 hopefully earlier. Okay tis is a longer blog then normal as it was a special night out and worth the read.

I started getting ready at 4 as like always I wanted to take my time as I rally wanted to look my best. It really is funny how much time, effort and thought I put into how I look as Susan. I was done with my makeup by 5 and now it was time for my dress and that took some work, I actually pulled 4 dresses out tonight but ruled one out as it was the one o wore last time they were here when I met them, yes, I did look back at my blog to see what I wore. So now I had 3 and all are kind of tight so they look better with my corset which I wear most of the times I go out. Now I know a lot of people may think corsets are uncomfortable and not needed but I bought mine for two reasons, 1st yes, I wanted a nice figure but also, I tend to slouch a lot (poor posture) the ne negative thing I hear and the corset forces me to sit up straight. Now I don’t find it uncomfortable actually other then getting in and out of the car. Now I will admit it is hard to pick something off the floor if you drop it and yes if you over do it you can get out of breath but other than that I really don’t notice I have it on. Now the good thing is I am finding even without it I have better posture and sit up straighter so it really has helped. I tried on all three dresses before settling on the second one it really is one of my favorite dresses as it is pretty and classy looking. Yes, tonight I have that feeling any young lady would have going out for a special event and it is a wonderful feeling. Here is a picture taken later in the evening by Robin, thanks.

Now I was ready a little after 5:30 so I would be pushing it to be there by 6 so not going to get there as early as I hoped. It was right at 6 when I got there and went in. now, I have been posting this in our group as I knew we would have several new girls out and I was trying to encourage others and see if we could get a big group out tonight. I was able to park in the lot along the curb which is better then on the street and I went in. I put my computer on one of the long tables and then went up to order. Well I ran into Jan and Lynn, they were already there which was great as it was just 6. I ordered my dinner and drink and went back to the table. I took my computer back out to my car as if we did have a big group and I was moving around to talk with people I didn’t want to have to watch it plus I wanted to talk with Jan & Lynn. The 3 of us sat down and it wasn’t long and Kimberly showed up who is also one of our newer members, she has been out with the group 5 or 6 times now. Well before I ate, I figured I should get a quick selfie for the night.

Now I usually try to go in order of who shows up but girls started showing up and I lost track of who came when. I actually got out my phone and started putting names in so I could try and remember everyone who showed up, some came later and some had left but over the night this is what we had and I probably missed a name or two. We had 17 T-girls, 3 wives and 3 or 4 friends so our group was 23 or 24 tonight and it wasn’t that busy so we were the main group here tonight. I can’t remember the last time we have had such a big turnout. So, let’s take a shot at the names and again if fi miss someone I am sorry. Jan, Lynn, Kimberly Melissa, Robin, Shae and her wife Reanna, Betty, Chris, Roxy, Sindee and her wife Dee, Julie, Kris, Summer, Kate, Joan, Lauri and of course me. Also, Betty had 3 friends Adrian, Nancy and her husband, plus there was one other T-girl who is not part of our group but knew a few of the girls from online who showed up and I think her name was Kitty. Wow what a huge group so much fun. Our newer members are Shae, Sindee, Betty, Robin, Summer and Kimberly and I think having that many newer members out at one time is probably a record.

Chris and Roxy showed u and it was great to see them again. They mostly go to Sweethome on Fridays and I really need to go there again as it is a nice place to go and I had met a lot of people there that I follow on Facebook it is just hard for me to get out on Fridays early enough as Chris goes there after work and usually leaves by 7 or 8 and it would be 7 to 7:30 before I could get there. Funny as it used to be just Friday nights, I could get out on but things change, it was great to see them again as I have known Roxy for 11 years and Chris probably almost as long.

Melissa also came out which she does sometimes but usually leaves early but she stayed a lot later tonight as she was also meeting and talking with all our members. Kate was here also and it was great to see her again as it has been several months since she has been out as she has had a lot of things going on which I understand. It was great to talk with her again and we talked a little about Diva Las Vegas and she is thinking of going, still time to sign up if you want to go. I really tried to talk a little with everyone tonight as we did have newer members and I wanted them to feel welcome. I remember when I first went out there were 3 t-girls, Alice, Lori and Cassandra that reached out tome and made me feel welcome and that was so helpful and special and rally helped shape the lady I am today and I hope they know how much I appreciated it. I talked some with Kimberly early in the night she has some killer long red nails.

It was also wonderful to talk with Betty, Shae and Sindee, I was kind of selling them on Diva Las Vegas and they all said they want to go although Sindee and her wife may not be able to work it out this year but it would be so awesome if they all went and I know they would all have a blast. They really are wonderful people and it is great to get to know them and have them as friends. It really is funny as I have way more friends as Susan and a lot closer friend. Julie and Cassandra are my two closest friends and probably know the most about me of anyone. I think this happens as I don’t have to hide parts of my life from them. Yes, when I was first going out, I didn’t disclose my male side to anyone but I am pretty much over that, yes people I just meet or outside the group I am not as open but once I get to know people in our group, I am pretty open about myself and that is a wonderful feeling.

Julie and I talked a lot and I really enjoy her company when we are out and yes, we talked a lot with the newer girls, everyone in our group is so awesome. Even Julie stayed out till 11:30 or so it was a wonderful night. it really is sad as it gets later and girls start to leave and, in a way, especially some of our newer ones as they don’t live local so it is hard to tell when you will see them again as it is dependent on when they can get back to Portland. I talked a little with Summer and she really is nice and also Robin who I was able to get a selfie with. I really should have gotten pictures with some of the other girls.

It really was a fun night and sad when Shae and her wife left and then Sindee and her wife and then girls started to leave, always hard to say goodbye. I finally paid my bill and it was about 11:45 when both Julie and I left and I think there was still 8 of our group there. What a wonderful turnout tonight, I really do have a wonderful family here in the group. 11 years ago I would have never thought this possible.

Thanks for reading, a little longer tonight and if you made it to the end thank you. Be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is knew with Susan.

Just an update, Cassandra, Veronica and I have all booked rooms for Diva Las Vegas and also Fran one of our members from the other side of the state and we have maybe 8 others thinking about it so we could possible have 12 or more from our group go again this year and that would be awesome.

January 20, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday and some Susan time going to the Escape

It is Saturday and yes, I am going to the Escape tonight. Now I have the night free and I am looking forward to a fun night out. I started getting ready early as I wanted some extra time out as Susan. I took my time and was ready about 3:45 and I chose my grey/white dress that is clingy in the right parts and a little thicker so warmer as we are getting into the colder weather. I didn’t get a picture of the dress tonight but found one on an old blog if you want to see what it looks like. Now I was ready but what to do, little early to go to the Escape and really a little over dressed for Starbuck’s. I decided to go to the cemetery and visit my Dad, this will be the second time Susan, the daughter he never knew visits him. The Cemetery is only about 15 minutes south of the Escape so I figured that would be perfect. There was a little traffic but I got there about 4:15, now I figured they would not be that busy as they close at 5 but there were actually a lot of people there, I forgo this is Veteran’s Day Weekend. I want to thank all the Veteran’s, past, present and future who have served and gave so much for the freedoms we have. Tomorrow, Sunday November 11th is the 100th anniversary of the end of WWI, the 11th day of the 11th month at the 11th hour a very special date and time.

Well as I said it was a little busy but my Dad is in a newer section so where I was, I was the only one but I could see probably 20 other people in the nearby sections, really not that far as they are divided by walk ways. This is a huge cemetery as it covers 270 acres Now this is the 4th time I have been here twice as Susan and twice as my male self and I always notice dear tracks. Turns out they come in and eat the flowers people leave and they must be use to people here as they seem to not be bothered by people here. Here are a couple pictures of the section opposite of where I am and you can see the dear and someone at a gravesite on the left and the dear are between them and their car. It really is beautiful here. My dad loved the outdoors, fishing and hunting and I know he would love the fact the dear are here around him.

I stayed here for about 20 to 30 minutes and it is fitting I was here on this weekend as my dad and mom are both veteran’s. It is still hard as I miss him even though I know he is in a better place. It really hits home when there is something we use to do together. I wonder what he would think of this side of me, I really am the same person, I mean I think, act and treat people the same. Now when I left there were several people in the next section over near the walkway and I even passed two woman on the walkway as they were going in as I was going to my car. Now I will admit I was probably the only one here in a dress and heels but with my wrap on most probably wouldn’t have noticed, by the way heels on grass in a cemetery is a little tricky. I did take a couple selfies here as I wanted something to remember this by. This is not the best picture but it has my Dad’s head stone by my left shoulder. It was about 4:45 when I left the Cemetery and headed for the Escape.

I am not sure how many from our group will be at the Escape tonight but I am looking forward to being around people and having a good time. I got to the Escape and it was pretty busy, only one parking spot on the curb so I took it and went in. the big table we normally get was open so I sat down and got out my computer and then went and orered some food. It was just a little after 5 and I figured if anyone from my group showed up it would be at least 7 so I had a couple hours to kill and I knew just how, I still needed to write my blog from Thursday when I had dinner with Julie, so much fun and such a great friend, she really is just like family to me. I spent about an hour writing the blog whie eating and also watching the Oregon Duck’s football game. It was fun and relaxing and it was nice to have the people around me although most were at the bar. I also spent some tie catching up on e-mails and what some of my friends are doing on Facebook. Now I will say I have snoozed people on Facebook for 30 days which I found out you can do. I do not want to see nasty things about one side or the other on the political spectrume. I don’t mind post of what you believe or feel is right but I do not want the name calling or demanizing the other side as I feel this only makes it worse and devides our country even more. We all see the post about bulling kids in schools or online and I feel this is the same thing and I don’t want to be a part of it, I love all my friends regaurdless of who youu voted for and so in showing respect for all of you this is my way.

It was about 7 when Bobbie showed up so at least one other was here. I finished up what I was doing on my computer or more like my computer finished up as my battery went dead about 7:30. I use to get about 5 hours on my battery but tonight only a little over 2 but I am thinking it was because my computer was cold as I kept it in the trunk till I got to the Escape and it was kind of cold out tonight. Bobbie and I talked a little but we were both watching the football game. It was also getting busier as a couple groups of people came in. it is nice gettng here early and having some me time and also gives me a chance to get a table.

A little afterv8 Jan and Lynn showed up so there were 4 of us. It was so ood to see them again as I was looking forward to talking to them about the cruise. Jan bought a new wedding ring for Jan and one day on the cruise she rented a tux and surprised her by proposing again and I think they renewed their wedding vows, how special is that. Lynn was so happy with her ring and we talked about it for a while and I forgot to ask about if they did renew their vows. By the way Lynn knows both my parents and has for years, kind of a funny little side story of Susans life. It really is a small world when you tthink of it. Lynn and I discovered this probably 6 years ago give or take a year. I really am sad I missed the cruise but there was just now way this year. I am hoping the group will do it again in a coupe years.

At 9 Karaoke started and it is always fun although very hard to talk as it gets loud. Now a lot of the songs that were sung including the first 5 or 6 I have never heard before so either they are obscure songs or newer ones as I listen to the oldies station on the radio, oldies as in the 80’s, I rmember when oldies were 60’s. now 2 woman came over and told me how pretty I was and one of them really liked my dress which is a cute look be sure and check out my old blog to see the picture but remember tonight I have my corset on so I have more curves then in the picture in the old blog. I really do love it when people tell me I am pretty or they like my dress or makeup, it just makes you feel good. Laurie showed up a little after 10 and it was good to see her again, she usually gets her later and I remember the days I always went out afetr 9 or 10. I did get one selfie here at the Escape. Well I got two but one was with anoher lady and I forgot to ask if I could post the picture. I had noticed her all night trying to take selfies with her friends and struggling to hold the camera and push the button so I showed her my trick. Set yur self timer for 2 seconds and that way you can push the button and then hold it out to get the picture plus this way those in the picture can see the screen timer and know when the picture will be taken

It was a little after midnight when I left for home. It was a wonderul night out and the time at the cemetery was special. I really do like going there as Susan as in a way my dad finally knows his daughter. Thanbks for reading and be sure and check out my most rescent blog to see what is new in my life.


November 11, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Thursday night dinner at Roots

Okay it is Thursday and I am going out for dinner. I wasn’t able to make the Wednesday night dinner this week so I had texted Julie to see if she wanted to get together on another night and she had Thursday free so wee decided to go to dinner. Now the plan is for me to pick her up at 6:30 and have dinner at 7, Julie picked the place and made reservations. She picked Roots restaurant and bar in Camas WA. Now I have never herd of this place so it would be a totally new place for Susan to go which is always fun.

I got home about 4:30 so I started getting ready right away as I am a little out of practice as far as getting ready on a schedule, the good thing is I had picked out my outfit last night and new just how I wanted to do my makeup. Now I say this as there is a lot that goes into being female and it is easy to overlook something, Last Saturday when I got home from being out and was getting ready for bed, I noticed I had forgot to do my eyebrows, not a big thing but noticeable if you are looking closely. Sunday when I went to Starbucks, I made one last look before leaving home and sure enough I had forgot my eyebrows again so I quickly did them and then was out the door. When I got to Starbucks, I noticed I had forgot my ring and bracelets. Now as a male I don’t wear any jewelry not even a watch so it should be no big deal but I was aware I was missing it the whole time I was out. So tonight, I took a good look before I left to make sure every thing was right and I looked my best. It was about 5:45 when I left for Julie’s.

I got to Julie’s a little after 6 and she had just finished getting ready so we had about a half hour before we had to leave so we sat and talked and I got to hear all about the cruise and see the pictures and there were some really good pictures, I am so sad I missed it. It was so wonderful to see Julie as she is one of my best friends, her and Cassandra are more like family, Sisters. They had such a wonderful time on the cruise. Julie and Cassandra were girls from the time they left all the way till the flight home and Julie had red nails the whole time and loved it.

Soon it was time to leave for dinner and we got to the Restaurant just a few minutes before 7 and went in. now for Julie this was also a first as her and her girlfriend come here several times a year as her male self but Julie acted as if it was totally normal. It really is hard to go places as your female self that you also go as male if you are keeping the two separate. Now this is a really nice place and more on the high end but very elegant. Our waiter was wonderful and gave us time to talk before we ordered. We had a wonderful time talking. Finally, we ordered, Julie and I split an entrée and appetizer.

We had a wonderful dinner just two girlfriends out for a relaxing time. We talked more about the cruise and of course Diva Las Vegas which is lees than 5 months away (end of March) hard to believe how fast it is coming. We also talked about our group. Our food was wonderful a really nice place so I would recommend it but be prepared to spend some money but once in a great while it is worth it to treat yourself. Now I did get a quick selfie but I really wish I had gotten a picture with Julie.

Soon it was after 9 the night went by so fast, we were the last two in the restaurant as they close at 9 but they never said a thing as we sat and talked. It was about 9:20 when we left such a fun night. Thanks Julie it was a blast. I drove back to Julies and dropped her off before heading for home. Now I love my Susan time at Starbucks but so much more fun when you can go out with someone else. It was a little after 10 when I got home so not to late even though I get up early for work but it was so worth it as I have really missed spending time with my friends the last few months.

I am so looking forward to going out more and getting Susan back to a more normal part of my life. Be sure and ready my newest blog to see what is new in my life.

November 10, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, family | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Dad’s funeral

On Tuesday was my Dad’s funeral, it was with full military honors as he served in the Navy. It was very emotional and very special. The military honors, 21-gun salute, playing of taps and finally the presenting of the flag to my mom was so incredible. It has been a long few weeks and I still have things to take care of but I am hoping to get back to somewhat normal and get some Susan time.

October 11, 2018 Posted by | family | , , , , , | 1 Comment

Family update on my Dad

On Thursday evening our Lord called me Dad home to heaven. He passed peacefully in his sleep and is now at eternal peace in heaven. He was 91 ½ .

As far as I know he never knew about Susan (his daughter). The next few weeks will be really busy and Susan will be put in the closet as my brother and other family will be around a lot and right now the focus hast to be on taking care of what needs to be done and on my Mom.

September 22, 2018 Posted by | family, T-girl | , , , , , , , , | 24 Comments

   

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