Thursday of my vacation and a pretty simple day, just a little Starbucks time and a quick stop at the store

It is Thursday of my vacation and going to be a pretty simple day. I got most of my yard work done yesterday so this morning I finished the rest up and then cleaned my house so it was early afternoon before I was done with things. I did want a little Susan time though so I did clean up and do my makeup and get ready. I did a pretty casual look today and tried a lighter lipstick. It was after 3pm when I was already. Now I do want to go to bed early tonight as I want to get up early Friday morning so I can take a nap later in the day so this means eating earlier also. I decided to go to Wendy’s as I found a gift card in my purse as I was cleaning it out for my trip.

I went to Wendy’s in orchards as it is right next to the Starbucks there. I went in and they were a little busy including a group of about 10 teen age boys, I did notice one of them looking at me a few times. I got my food and sat down and ate it. I was only here about 20 minutes or so and then went next door to Starbucks. Yes today was more about just being out a little while as Susan. I got my drink and sat down and did a little work on my computer. Mainly figuring out my stops for my drive Friday night. My plan is to stop every 3 hours (about 200 miles) or less for a short break and to get gas. Right now I am planning on Seven Feathers casino, Redding, Stockton, Lost hills (which is just a small town) and then Palm springs. These are all between 198 and 250 miles each although I am not sure what is at lost hills as it is just a big junction I-5 & Hwy 46 but there should be a gas station there. My plan is for a nice easy drive and my hope is to be at Julie’s around noon Saturday, maybe a little earlier. By the way as big as the population of California is on I-5 between Stockton and Santa Clarita there really is nothing and that is abut 320 miles so I may have to wait till there to get gas.

I stayed at Starbucks till a little after 5:30 before leaving and I made a quick stop at Fred Meyers to pick up some stacks. I already have my chocolate covered raisins to keep me awake and some beef jerky but I decided I wanted some cookies also. traveling at night there really isn’t a lot of options to stop for food but there is no traffic. I have checked it several times this week with my GPS and the time ranges from 15 ½ hours to as high as 19 hours if I hit the LA area in the morning on a weekday. I got home a little after 6pm and watched TV till 9pm before washing away my makeup and going to bed.

Friday I plan on getting up at 6AM and going to the gym. Take care of a few things in the morning and then pack everything and load my car. I hope to lay down between 1 & 2 and sleep till 5 or 6 and then get up and shower and get ready for my trip and yes I am going to do a light eye makeup look and lipstick which I have narrowed down to 2 choices, one pretty neutral and the other a little more noticeable. but other than when I stop no one will see me and I think the red nails will be what gets the attention.

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Cold Sunday and a funny Susan story

It is Sunday and another cold day, 25 degrees out and I still have 5 inches o snow on the ground but I am planning on going out for a little bit. I did take a short drive this morning as my male self to check the roads. It was about 12:30pm when I started to get ready. Today is did a purple eye shadow and pinky-red lipstick. I was ready a little before 2pm and took some pictures including outside with the snow. I got in my car and off I went. With the cold the snow didn’t melt and all the roads are packed snow about 1 inch thick. I carefully drove to my Sunday Starbucks and got there just after 2pm. I could see a couple people working inside but the sign on the door said they closed at 12:30 do to the weather. I got back in my car and tried calling the Starbucks right by my house but no answer. I decided to see how the freeways were and headed towards Orchards. I called the Starbucks on 88^th street and they had just closed because of the weather. I got to the Starbucks in orchards and they were also closed. I called the one by Vancouver mall and they were closed and the one on Mill Plain was closing at 3pm and it was already after 2:30pm so it wasn’t looking good. I decided to try one more, the ne at Cascade Station as it would give me a chance to see what the freeway into Oregon looked like for tomorrow morning. Well it turns out they re open till 4:30 today so I would have about 1 ½ hours which was good.

The freeway seemed fine and I got to Starbucks at Cascade Station just before 3 and went in. They were actually pretty busy considering the weather. I ordered a hot chai tea latte and sat down to work on my blog for yesterday. Now as I sat here working I realized that my female clothes are not designed for this cold of weather especially my shoes. Now all y female shoes fit but only on is big enough to wear socks and today I had worn my female boots and with just tights my feet did get cold. I finished my blog and will post later tonight. I also sent out information on our zoom call for tomorrow and our Wednesday night dinner which will be at Mothers Bistro weather permitting. I actually have 8 of us already planning on going if the weather is okay. It was nice to be out even if just for a short time. I stayed here till almost 4:30pm before leaving.

On the way home I was thinking about dinner and pizza sounded good so I called COSTCO and ordered a pizza to pick up as I had to go by there. I got to COSTCO at 4:45 and went in and my pizza was ready and I was surprised as they were not that busy. I left and headed for home, it was almost 5pm and here is the funny part. As I drove by the Starbucks right by my house I was surprised to see they were open. I guess when I called them must just have been too busy to answer the phone or maybe it wasn’t working so I guess I could have just gone here today had I known.

I got home and as you know I am pretty sure all my neighbors know about me and just don’t say anything but only one of my neighbors have met me as Susan. I do have a house behind mine that is on a flagged lot and their driveway goes right by my driveway and pretty much keep to themselves. I only say this as with the weather I am parking in my driveway so I don’t open my garage door and let the cold air in. well I parked my car and as I was getting my pizza out of the back seat they came walking by me on their driveway, about 10 feet from me and the lady said hi to me as they passed by. I just smiled and said hi to them and went about what I was doing and they kept walking but it was still light out so I am sure they got a good look at me. I do wonder what they thought.

I went inside and ate dinner and watched TV for the rest of the night. It was about 11pm when I called it a night and went upstairs to remove my makeup and go to bed and of course had to take off the red nail polish.

7Now I am looking forward to the week ahead and dinner on Wednesday night weather permitting.

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Saturday and a bitter cold snowy day at home.

For the next several days we will have high temperatures in the mid 20’s and lows in the mid-teens. I got up today a little later, about 9am and there was a dusting of snow on the grounds. I got ready and went to the gym as normal and worked out for a little over an hour. When I came out I had about an inch of show on my car and it was snowing. I decided to go to COSTCO and get gas even though I still had over a ½ tank as in weather like this I want to be safe. It was almost noon when I got home and had a quick lunch before I started getting ready. With the snow today my plan was to go to Starbucks right by my house as worst case I can walk it if needed. I took my shower and when I started my makeup it was really snowing and the flakes were the size of gold balls and very beautiful watching it come down. I did my makeup and for my eyes I used my rose-colored palette and did a coppery lipstick with gloss. I was happy with the look. I was all ready by 2pm and took a few pictures, including a few outside. I also saw I now had about 4inches of snow on my car and driveway, yes with the cold weather I parked outside so I could keep my garage door closed. It was still snowing so I was a little worried about driving but was going to give it a try.

I decided to call the Starbucks by my house and see how late they were open and Breann answered the phone and said they were closing at 2:30pm because of the weather, and as it was already a little after 2pm now that really wasn’t a good option so I called the Starbucks I go to on Sundays and they had just closed because of weather. I called a couple more and they were either closing or I got no answer so I guess Starbucks is not an option today. I got on my computer and checked the web cameras for traffic and everything north of Vancouver had snow on the roads and pretty much no cars, even Vancouver had a couple inches of snow. This is what I was worried about with the weather. It looks like today I will be staying home, which is not how I like to spend time as Susan.

For to many years my only option for being Susan was at home and now that I go out as when I am Susan and be around people. Even when we have our zoom calls I don’t always dress as I am just at home. It seems over the years I have grown as my female self and now it is more about expressing my female side then just dressing. By the way the only fun part about this weekend is my nails. as you all know the last time I had them done I had a red color put on, my ring finger with some glitter over it. Well with the weather this weekend I figured I would not go many places and stay pretty close to my home so last night I painted the rest of my nails a bright red for the weekend. One of the great things about having acrylic nails with gel polish on them is you can put regular nail polish on them ad then take it off with regular nail polish remover and not mess up your nails so yes I do have beautiful nails this weekend till Sunday night. Well this got me thinking about my nails even more.

At work I don’t worry about my nails and yes I have done a few bold looks over the last year. Last spring a French fade, color on the corners of my nails, snowflake, and this year red with a snowflake on it. Well on Sunday mornings when I go to church I put a nude color over it as I really don’t want my nails to stand out there and it works well, it evens covers the red. Well as I said sitting at home today looking at my nails I got thinking. When I do my Susan vacations I get a nice red on my nails and after my vacation, (1 or 2 weeks) I go in and get the color removed. Why couldn’t I just keep my 3-week appointment and put the nude color on my nails for the last week. Maybe something to think about. I guess I could do that when I am not on vacation also, get color on my nails and then cover it up when I need to. I could remove the nude color on the weekend and for Wednesday night dinner. Maybe even find a subtle pink color to cover the brighter color. I guess sitting at home snow bound got my mind wondering a little bit.

I watched some TV while working on my blogs as I am once again way behind. It was a little after 5pm before I made dinner. After dinner I did go out front of my house for a little bit as I had to cover up my palm trees to keep them safe from the weather and I wanted to knock the snow off the cover as I was worried about the weight. As I stood on the sidewalk I had a coat on and my back was the street one of my neighbors drove by, but I doubt they saw anything other than maybe the long hair. Tonight I am going to watch 2 movies, Appollo 13 and the Guardian which are both great movies. It was a good day although I was sad about not going out. I am hopeful tomorrow will be better and I can get out. I actually stayed up till midnight tonight before going to bed

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Saturday and going to the Escape tonight

It is Saturday December 30^th (the 6^th day of Christmas) and of course I plan on a little Susan time today ending with going to the Escape tonight. As always I got up and started my Saturday b going to the gym and then came home and did some work around the house. It was a little after noon when I was ready to transform myself for the rest of the day. Now I do want to go to Willamette National Cemetery and put flowers on my parents’ grave as last weekend I didn’t make it and looking at the weather forecast today looks the best. I did a casual look today, leggings and my purple sweater top. I also tried an ombre lip look where I lined my lips with a deep red called Maybelline lip ink in the color Exhilarator, kind of thick and then filled in the middle with a mauve pink called Maybelline lip ink in color Lover. It actually turned out really well and made my lips look a little fuller although the photos don’t show it really well. Yes I still love playing with makeup and trying different looks.

It was about 2pm when I was already. My plan was simple go to Fred Meyers in Johnson Creek and get flower and pick up some foundation I ran out of, go put the flowers on my parents grave, then go to Starbucks on Airport way and 122^nd till it was time to go to the Escape at 5:30pm. It was about 56 degrees when I left home and dry but I did take my coat just in case. It took about 25 minutes to get to Fred Meyers and I went in to get flowers and then into the cosmetic section. I use a few different foundations but one of the drug store brands I like is the Cover Girl outlast full coverage foundation. I find it works well for shorter outings of 6 hours or less. The other thing I like about this one is I actually use 2 different shades in a way to contour my face a little. I use 845 warm beige on the center of my face and 857 warm tan on the outer part of my face, neck and under my cheek bones and then blend them together. It works well for me. I paid for my items and then was on the way to the cemetery which is less then 10 minutes from here.

I got to the cemetery and got my flowers and went to put them in the little cups you stick in the ground and t started to rain a little and as I was close to the car I got my umbrella. I walked out to the grave site which is about a foot ball field length and by this time it was raining pretty good. I placed the flowers and spent about 10 minutes here before I headed back to the car, yes even with the umbrella I was getting a little wet. I saw about 10 to 12 deer in different parts of the cemetery which is always nice. It was a little after 3pm now and time to go to Starbucks and yes by the time I got to the freeway (about 10 minutes) the rain had stopped and there were some sun breaks, bad timing on my part.

I got to Starbucks on Airport way and went in and they were not that busy. It was a little after 3:30 now s I had 1 ½ hours as I am less then 10 minutes from the Escape here. I got my drink and sat down to work on Tuesday’s blog when I had dinner with Cassandra and Julie at Amaro’s table. I finished t and posted it and started on Wednesday nights blog. I stayed here till 5:20 before heading to the Escape. I got to the Escape at 5:30 and went in and they were not that busy as I kind of thing Saturday night will be there big night being New Years Eve. I sat down at a table as I know a few girls will be here tonight.

One lady I have seen here a few times who has come over and said hi to me came over to talk to me and her and her friend ended up sitting at the next table and talking to me for w long time, her name was Deniese and her friend was Harry and they were both really nice. We talked till Jennifer arrived a little after 6pm and even then we all kept talking. I really enjoy interaction with other people and yes they did have some questions especially once I told them I was not full time. I think a lot of people don’t think about that as I always go to the Escape as Susan so that is the only way people have seen me, same for my nail salon. I think in these cases people just assume I am full time, now I am not saying one is better then the other but it is who I am and what is right for me.

It was nice to talk with Jennifer and yes we did discuss a little politics which I tend to avoid but there are those I know I can talk to who may think the same I do and those who may disagree with me but still accepts my views and even if they disagree with me. By the way it would be nice if we could all talk about our political views and have the other person just say we will agree to disagree and move on. Boths sides of politics seem to demonize the other side now and when you view the other side that way things fall apart. Poppy also showed up and we got on to other topics. It was nice to have them here tonight. We ordered dinner and had a nice time. kitty stopped by briefly but couldn’t stay long. back to just the 3 of us we continued talking and just having a nice time.

At 8pm Karaoke started and it got a little louder. Deniese at the next table came over and wanted to get a picture with me which I never turn down although I should have gotten one on my phone to post. Jan and Lynn showed up about 8:15 so we had 5 of us now. Jan and Lynn had been shopping and had matching outfits tonight which is not unusual but it was complete from the pants, top, sweater and even the snowflake earnings. It really is cool they do this. They ordered dinner and Lynn put her name in to sing. We listened to the music and talked between the songs. Poppy left about 8:30 and by 9 Jennifer left. I stayed till about 9:45pm before I paid y bill and called it a night. It was a fun day and now I am looking forward to Sunday and Monday as I have a 3-day weekend.

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Saturday and a beautiful day to get a little Susan time.

It is a beautiful Saturday out today, low 80’s and just a very slight breeze so I was looking forward to a little Susan time this afternoon. I did get up and go to the gym for 1 1/2 hours and took care of a few aprons I had to do and of course had a little yard work to take care of so I figured it would be later in the day or Susan. When I had everything done, I came in and started getting ready and took my time to enjoy doing my makeup. Well it turns out the things I had to do today didn’t take as long as I thought and I was all ready by 2:30pm so I decided to go to the Starbucks right by my house and work on my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner and take care of some other work. Of course a got a few selfies first.

I got to the Starbucks and they weren’t really busy and being so early I figured I would sit inside for an hour before moving outside to enjoy the fresh air. That way my battery should last. Now as I was walking in I saw the man I usually see on Sunday’s at the other Starbucks I go to, actually I see him somewhat regular here on Saturday when I come here. Now I usually come to this one or the one in Orchards on Saturdays depending on my plans for the evening. This one is perfect for sitting outside, but there is also the thought that I don’t want to go to the same Starbucks 2 days in a row and I wondered if that was why he also comes to this one on Saturdays. I got a table along the window and plugged in my computer and went and got my drink.

I worked on my blog from Wednesday nights dinner at Mothers Bistro and of course people watched, this Starbucks does not have a drive through so everyone comes inside to get their drinks. I finished my log and posted it and then started checking e-mails. I actually get things from Pinterest as I signed up years ago and I always get pictures of nails and I was looking at them and thinking. If you follow my blog you know I have had short acrylic nails for almost 2 years now in a very natural color, slightly pink neutral although a couple times I did push it a little with a snowflake or a French fade. Well I am thinking of trying something new next time I get my nails done. On my ring finger a little more noticeable shade, slightly more pink or maybe a slight Rosey shade on the left corner of my ring finger, kind of like this color on the ring finger but a little lighter, but will have to see if I can work up the courage next time I go in.

It was about 3:45 when I got another drink and moved outside to the table right by the door so I could watch the people come and go. It was such a beautiful day out. This is the weather I love especially when I am out as my female self. I caught up on some e-mails and other things I had to do. Yes I do come to Starbucks a lot as Susan but it is to do things I need to do anyway and just ore fun to do them as Susan at Starbucks then as my male self-sitting at home. In a way it is funny as my Susan time use to be special time for me and now days I have incorporated my female self into my everyday life and by that I me it is part of my normal life. I actually do most of my shopping now as Susan and in some way it has become totally normal. There are times I stop at the store on my way home from a day out and forget to mention it in my blog. usually on Sundays when I leave Starbucks I will stop at Fred Meyers really quick to pick things up and I use to mention that in my blogs but lately I forget to put it in.

I seem to have integrated Susan into my life over the last few years. For years I tried so hard to keep the two sides of me completely separate with no crossing the lines between the two. I think when I started having pretty nails all the time was when things changed. Now I have done this for almost 2 years now but I also did it for a little over a year back in 2017 although back then I kept the acrylic thinner and mostly clear. Same way I would never go someplace as my male self I went as my female self and now I don’t worry to much about it and same goes for going to places close to where I live. Going to Dream Nails was a huge step for me as it is withing a 1/2 mile of where I live and now the same goes for the two Starbucks, as the one I am at today is 1/2 mile and my Sunday Starbucks is about 1 mile away. Yes I do see people I know here sometimes; I just go about what I am doing and I don’t think they even notice me. As a matter of fact today I saw a lady I know who came in and sat right behind me along the window, of course we had our backs to each other, but I could have slid my chair back a few inches and bumped into her. The thing is she never really looked at me and she had left by the time I got up to move outside.

Now some of the girls in our group have come out to people, family or friends and for someone who is part time that is more of a personal choice. For me I don’t see the need to tell people about this side of my life unless it has an impact on them and by that I mean will I be interacting with them when I am Susan. I have no desire or plans to go to work as my female self so really there is no point in telling my co-workers. Now I have gotten some compliments on my nails but only one lady asked me why and I was honest and told her I had week nails which I do and that I liked them which is the truth. Now you could say that was not 100% true but it is pretty close as I do like having nice nails and getting them done and that really has nothing to do with Susan or my female side. On my female side they would be red nails or hot pink color. Now I guess if they really asked me more about it I would probably tell them everything. One of the ladies I work with has a transgender daughter, I actually got her some information from Melissa on services for her and resources and we do talk about her as I always ask how her daughter is doing when I see her, we have different schedules. She knows I have transgender friends but I have never offered more information and she has never asked. I guess what I am saying is I have found the perfect balance in my life and am happy with how things are and that is a wonderful feeling.

I stayed at Starbucks till 5:30pm before leaving and stopped by Panda Express on my way home to pick up dinner. I chose to sit on my deck and eat dinner as it really is a beautiful day out.

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Unexpected Susan time on Thursday

Well it is Thursday and I get some unexpected Susan time today but lets back up a little. we had to cancel our Wednesday night dinner last night do to snow. we were supposed to get a dusting early Wednesday morning but it didn’t hit till mid afternoon and the Portland area got hit hard. I have a 27-mile commute home from work right through Portland and this is how bad it was. I left work and the first 8 miles took me about 20 minutes, the last 9 miles took me about 15 minutes and it took me just over 2 hours to get home so the 10 miles through Portland took me 1 1/2 hours and looking at the freeway headed back into Portland I knew I would never make it. Sherri called me and said she wouldn’t make it so I called Jennifer and Patty and told them we should cancel and Jennifer said she would send out an e-mail. Fast forward to today.

I got up and had about 3 inches of snow in my yard and maybe a 1/2 on the road so I got ready for work. I did leave a 1/2 hour early. Now it turns out Portland was hit the hardest. I got to Marine drive headed south and traffic on the freeway came to a stop. 3 1/2 hours later I had made it to where Columbia Blvd. comes on the freeway, less than a mile, there were times I turned off my car and sat for over 30 minutes before we would move a few car lengths. Well a lot of cars were turning onto the onramp and going the wrong way to get off the freeway (the cars and trucks that did come up it when they saw the traffic turned around also) well 8 cars in front of me went this way so I just followed in line along with several cars behind me. But I never made it to work, I did stop at the gym on my way home and work out as I needed to relieve some stress, I got home a little after 11 and had a quick lunch and decided a day of Susan was just what I needed, roads in Vancouver were not bad as freeway was up to speed limit.

I started getting ready at noon and took my time and as soon as I started my makeup I felt so much better. I again tried a daytime look, no eye liner and more neutral browns on my eyes and mauve lip color that actually went really well with my sweater top I wore today, I was also happy with the way my eyebrows turned out today. I was all ready by 1:30pm and I decided some time at Starbucks to write my blog from Monday nights dinner with Sherri was just what I needed. I got a few pictures and grabbed my computer and off I went. I did want to go to Costco and get gas as I am now just below 1/2 and with bad weather in the forecast through the weekend I wanted a full tank so I decided I would go to the Starbucks by Vancouver mall which I have only been to a few times as Susan. I stopped at Costco and the lines for fuel were the shortest I have seen in a long time, just 2 cars at the pump and I was the next car so it was a quick stop.

I got to the Starbucks just after 2pm and went in, this one also doesn’t have a drive through so good for people watching. There was just a group of 4 at the far table so they were not busy. I ordered my drink and sat down. Now a few people came in but it was pretty slow. I checked out a few things online and caught up on some e-mails before starting my blog from Monday. It was just before 3pm when one of the girls working here put a sign on the door and then came and told me they were closing at 3 as they were short staffed because of the weather. I was not done with my blog yet but I shut down my computer and left, wish I had known this when I first got here.

I drove back by my house and was going to stop at the Starbucks right by my house but they had a sign in the window they were closing at 4pm and it was almost 3:30 now so I decided to go to the Starbucks I go to on Sundays it is only a 1/2 mile away. I walked in and they were really busy which was a good sign, I asked at the counter and they said they were open normal hours so I ordered another drink. There was 1 big table open and 1 small one along the window in between 2 men so I sat down there so I could plug my computer in. I finished my blog from Monday nights dinner and posted it and started working on todays blog. I plan to stay here till 5pm or so and then go home and have dinner. I will need to get to bed early as I need to go in early tomorrow as I will have all my work from today and also Friday’s work to do tomorrow so it will be a long day.

It is amazing though how even after such a stressful morning being Susan for a few hours has made all that stress go away. Being able to express this side of me, my feminine side really does make me feel better when things go wrong in my life. I really believe if you have problems or stress in your life find something that makes you happy and do it. It was a good day today.

I got home about 5:40pm and made dinner and watched a little TV, it was about 9pm when I washed away Susan for the day and went to bed. now I am looking forward to the weekend and some Susan time again weather permitting as we have a chance of snow Saturday night and then snow or rain through next Wednesday so we might have this weather for a while.

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Sunday and the last day of my 2-week vacation.

It is Sunday and the last day of my 2-week vacation, it went by so fast. Tomorrow is Halloween and the next 2 days at work will be busy for me. Now I did go and get my nails shortened and the color removed yesterday as I did have a meeting this morning and I didn’t want to show up with long red nails. It is always sad when my vacation ends and I have to go back to more normal nails although now that I am keeping them a little long for a man and perfectly shaped with acrylic on them and yes a very neutral nail polish it does make it easier. Now I have thought about my nails over the last 2-week and I have decided that going forward I will be getting a full set for my vacation, no don’t worry I am not giving up on nails. I will just work either my vacation or my trip to the nail salon for a fill with my vacation. Typically when I go in for a fill my nails are between 3/16 and a 1/4 inch long so I think with a nice red polish on that length they will look great so I will go in for my fill and not have them shortened and get a red color on them. that way I don’t have to damage my nails by removing the acrylic to get extensions put on.

I took care of what I needed to do today and was home by a little after 1pm so I started getting ready for my day as Susan, yes I have been Susan almost full time now for 16 days. I took my time and yes I tried a winged eye liner today and used my purple eyeshadow pallet. I was happy with the look and already for my days as Susan by 2:30pm. I went to my normal Sunday Starbucks to work on my blogs and catch up on e-mails. I got there and went in and got my drink and sat down along the window. I send Greer a message to see if she wanted to meet me as she is back in town and lives close. She replied she would stop by for a little while so I worked on my blog till she got there.

It was a little after 4pm when Greer showed up, it was nice to see her again and catch up. she just got back from a long vacation where she went and visited several friends. Part of the trip was to figure out who she is and how Greer fits into her life. I always tell girls this, don’t let others influence you on how you should live your life as what is right for me may or may not be right for someone else. Well she has determined what is right for her is to go full time and I am happy for her. she is not sure about all the surgeries but she will be Greer 24/7 now.

Now I have over the years thought a lot about that for myself and I will admit there are times I think maybe I should but deep down I know that is not right for me and there are 2 main reasons. First and most important I do like my male side and second there are times I don’t want to be Susan. When I am doing yard work or even at the gym working out and getting dirty or hot and sweaty I do not want to be Susan, yes I do like having long nails at the gym but as my female self, Susan does not like getting dirty as it ruins the look and I certainly do not want to get Susan’s clothes dirty. I just spent the last 16 days pretty much completely as Susan and it was fun but also a lot of work and to tell you the truth I am looking forward to a little break from this side of my life. Yes I do love doing my makeup but if I had to do it everyday for the rest of my life I am sure there would be times I would rather skip it. Think of anything you love, something you like to do, r eat or even that special person in your life. If you had to do that or eat that or be around that person 100% of the time that would be hard as we all need a little space or freedom from time to time. I really think that is why I am so happy with my life as I do get to take a break from being my male self. Some people can’t imagine why I or anyone would want to be the opposite gender, and sone of the girls in our group can’t imagine why I don’t want to transition but for me I can’t imagine not being able to express both genders and both sides of me. Trust me once you figure out who you are and what is right for your life the world and life in general is a wonderful place.

Greer and I talked for a while and I heard all about her trip and the good thing is her daughter is supportive of her transitioning as is her wife although her wife and her have split up they are still on good terms and her wife is supportive of her being her true self she just can’t be in a relationship with her. I actually know several girls who have transitioned and their ex-wives are still good friends with them they just couldn’t stay married so I am happy she at least has their support. I told her a little about Diva Las Vegas and how much fun Las Vegas is. She only stayed till about 4:30 as she was meeting someone for dinner.

I stayed a little longer and finished my blog from Saturday and caught up on some e-mails and just had a relaxing time here. I do come to Starbucks a lot as Susan but I do that for 2 reasons, first there are things I need to do on my computer and it is just more fun as Susan at Starbucks but also I find if I try to do this at home I get sidetracked to easy, yes by the television. I will turn it on just for a little noise and then I get interested in something, probably why I am writing this blog almost a week later.

It was about 6pm when I packed up and went home to make dinner and watch TV for the rest of the night. It was a fun and relaxing afternoon and now I am looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner. yes we will do our weekly zoom meeting tomorrow night but I will not be Susan for that as I will probably get off work late and Tuesday morning I have to go in early and also being Halloween I want to hand out candy and yes I could do that as Susan as I have said before I am sure all my neighbors know but it is one of those nights I just don’t want to spend as Susan.

Thanks for reading my blog and sharing this part of my life with me and remember my opinions or views are just that, mine and in no way speaks for others.

Labor Day weekend Saturday and some Susan time.

It is Labor Day weekend and I get to spend most of it as Susan. I got up and went to the gym to work out and as I haven’t been as regular on the weeknights I did almost a 2-hour workout. I did 45 minutes on the elliptical, spent time on several machines, 4 for my arms, 3 for my legs and one for my stomach, after this I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes to cool down, a good workout today and I plan to go Monday morning as I have Monday off work. I did make a couple stops on the way home for things I had to do so it was almost noon when I got home. I had a few things to do around the house so it was a little after 1 when I started getting ready for my day as Susan. I took my time as today I was going for a nice daytime look, a smokey eye with browns and my rose blush lipstick, I was happy with the look. I was all ready a little after 2pm so I grabbed my computer and out the front door I went to my car. I got to Starbucks and realized I forgot to get pictures at home so I got a few in my car.

I went to the Starbucks right by my house as I am once again a few blogs behind and I wanted to get all caught up. I got there and they were busy, most of the tables inside were taken as well as the little sitting area with the bigger seats, several people waiting for their drinks and 4 ladies in front of e ordering so I had to stand in line. I ordered my drink and stood waiting for it as I wanted to sit outside today as the weather is perfect and there are 2 tables open outside. I got my drink and went out and got my normal table right by the front door and started to work on my blogs.

Now as I did I couldn’t help but notice my nails outside in the natural light they are a very translucent pink and yes you can tell easily. Any way it was a week ago when I was at Dream Nails and asked Anna to go thicker on the acrylic which really made my nails stand out as you can also clearly tell I have acrylic on them from the thickness. Now over the last week just one lady at work asked to see them and told me they looked nice and of course the young lady at McDonalds drive through who complimented me on them other wise nothing. Any way I bring this up as I have been thinking a lot about my nails and my next trip to the nail salon. My first thought was to maybe try a pale pink just on my pinky finger as that is the least visible and easiest to hide finger but then I thought why not just pick a neutral color maybe a pale pink and just go for it. any ways I have been looking at ladies hands a lot more this week and I don’t know why I have seen a lot more pinkish colors and maybe it is just I am thinking about them. some are very subtle and some not. The problem is what I have is translucent so it is kind of see through which means other than the pinkish color my nail looks natural where if I go with a regular gel polish even a light shade will be the same all the way to the end of the nail. With that they would look the same in all light types. There was one lady that had a beautiful light pale pink but when I saw it inside and when she left and I saw it outside it looked the same. My nails right now stand out the most outside so at work it is a little less noticeable, where if I try something else they will look the same no matter what the lighting is. Well I have 2 more weeks to think about it so I guess it will depend on the reactions I get over the next 2 weeks.

It is funny though to think about it as just a few years back acrylic nails or painted nails were just a weekend thing and now I am thinking about what color my acrylic nails will be at work. Now I know when I post stuff like this I get questions about transitioning or going full time and no that is not what this is about, I have zero interest in changing my body and even being full time is not something I want. After 2 weeks of being Susan for Diva Las Vegas I am ready for a little break, but I have said many times the one thing I would do all the time if I could, would be acrylic nails so really nothing has changed.

I worked on my blogs and got Monday nights zoom call posted, Wednesday night’s dinner which I will post later tonight and also wrote the one for Friday nights dinner with Greer which I will post Sunday Morning. Now I spent a little time checking things out online. I decided to check prices on airline tickets to Las Vegas just to see although right now I am planning on driving. Alaska & Southwest were the cheapest a few under $200 but most between $200 and $400, also checked United and they were $350 to $700 and hardly any direct flights. I can drive it in my car and will only use 60 to 65 gallons of gas so even at $6 a gallon it would be less than the cheapest flight plus I have a car to use when I am there so looks like I will be driving.

It was a nice afternoon and people came and went and a few times all the tables were full outside and this is a great one for people watching as there is no drive though here so everyone hast to go inside to get their drinks. Just like my nails now a few years back I would have never sat outside right by the door, I really have come a long way over the last several years and a big reason is our group and the incredible friends I have made. Growing up I thought there was something wrong with me and I never thought this would be more than something I hid at home and didn’t share with anyone, now Susan is an important part of my life and who I am.

I stayed here till about 5:30 before leaving for home. I decided to stop at Panda Express and get dinner to take home and partly to see if the same lady was there from last time, if you read my blog from last Saturday I mentioned about going in there the night before as my male self and she seemed to know how I wanted my meal. She was there and waited on me again. I ordered a plate with rice and instead of asking me my 2 sides she asked if I wanted the orange chicken and teriyaki chicken which I said yes. she dished up the rice and orange chicken and handed it to the next girl who had cut up the teriyaki chicken and as she handed it to her she said, “this lady would like teriyaki sauce on both the chicken and rice” so I am pretty sure she knows and doesn’t care. I got my food and went home to eat.

I had a nice dinner and watched a couple movies I recorded off Hallmark, no, not Christmas movies right now. It was a little after 11 when I went and washed Susan away for the night and went to bed. It was a fun day, now I am looking forward to a little Susan time on Sunday Afternoon and of course Monday as I get a 3-day weekend. Have a Happy Labor Day weekend.

Find what makes you happy in life, thanks for reading my blog and sharing this part of my life with me and indulging me on my talk about nails as the 2 things I love in life is Makeup and long pretty nails.

Sunday and day 2 of my stay-at-home vacation

I woke up today at 8am and the first thing I saw was my pretty red nails. Now I had no plans today other then a little time at Starbucks latter, my normal Sunday Susan time. Well I decided to go to the gym again for a little workout. Now this is my attempt to get healthier and yes, I am interested in seeing if anyone notices my nails or says anything. I got to the gym just before 9am and went in. The same girl that greeted me yesterday greeted me again today and I made no attempt to hide my nails as I scanned in but she never said a word about my nails. Now being earlier then yesterday and also being Sunday they were not as busy, maybe 30 people here today and more women than men.

I started with my 30 minutes on the elliptical, now I kind of watched people today and noticed most are looking up at the TV screens they have about 15 of them across the front or they have their cell phone on the control panel in front of them. No one really seems to look at the other people working out even when they walk by. Now when you are done you have to wipe down your equipment and that is when my nails are most visible. Now I went over to get a paper towel and spray and there was another there at the same time so as she reached for one roll of towels I reached for the other and our hands were only a few inches away so she had to see my nails and never said a thing or even looked at me just went about what she was doing. A couple times women were using machines right by me and I tried to make my nails as visible as possible and nothing. I guess the people at the gym just don’t care.

I left the gym and as I was close to the Target store and needed a few things from here I stopped on my way back home. I got a cart and got what I needed and as I came off an aisle, I ran into one of my friends and his wife, they don’t know about this side of me. well I had my hands on the handle of the cart so my nails were really not visible but we stood and talked for a few minutes before we went our separate ways, I just kept holding my cart so I doubt they noticed my nails but I was very aware of them at this point and after I got out to my car, I thought maybe I should have just accidently let them see them and see what they say and bring up the topic of Susan and this side of my life. Well something to think about for the next time. I got home a little after noon and made lunch before starting my transition to Susan for the rest of the day.

Now I took my time as I am still looking for that perfect daytime look, well at least for my eyes, I was happy with how they turned out today. I also did my lips a little different. I tired and ombre effect again. Now I have done this before with to shades that were close and you really had to look close to see the effect so today, I tried 2 shades that were further apart in color and it actually looked pretty good, this is supposed to make your lips look fuller. Now the pictures inside my house really don’t show it that well but the one in my car you can kind f see it.

It was almost 3 now so I went to the Starbucks near my house. They were a little busy inside maybe 15 people including the 1 man I have n every Sunday here now for several months. He comes in with his tablet just like I bring my computer. Actually some of the people I recognize as I have seen them here before when I have been here. I worked on my blog from yesterday and posted it and then just played on my computer. I stayed here till about 6 before heading for home.

I got home and made dinner and watched TV the rest of the night. It was a relaxing day and I still have the whole week a head of me, hoping to meet up with Jenifer on Wednesday for a little shopping and Mikaela for lunch on Thursday.

Monday morning I have some things to do so it wont be till the afternoon before I get to be Susan and of course we have our Zoom meeting that night. Be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and sharing this part of my life with me.

Saturday and some Susan time.

I got up today a little before 8 with the intent to go to the gym early but then realized I had my monthly zoom meeting so I had breakfast and did my meeting so I didn’t get to the gym till 10:30am, yes, I am still going 3 times a week. Now it will be interesting to see if anyone says anything about my nails or even notices. Now as I go in a scan an app on my phone and as I did this the young girl behind the counter greeted me and was standing right there so she had to see my nails but said nothing. I did my 30 minutes on the elliptical and yes, I could see my nails on the handle in the mirror in front of me so they were visible. People walked by and as far as I could tell no one noticed. After this I went and did some weight machines and I noticed a man on the stair climber kept looking at me so I am sure he was noticing my nails. I used 8 different machines and on most of them my hands were visible. I finished off with 30 minutes on the tread mill and here my nails were nit real visible. It was about 12:30 when I left the gym and really other then the one man on the stair climber, I don’t think anyone noticed or at the very least didn’t care.

I got home and had lunch a salad yes that is also one of my goals this week to eat a little healthier although being out most of the week I doubt that will happen. I took care of a couple things I had to do around the house so it wasn’t till a little after 2 when I started getting ready for my day as Susan. I took my time as I wanted a nice daytime look for today. It was almost 4pm when I was already so I got a few pictures and decided to go to the Starbucks in Orchards and catch up on my blogs.

I got to the Starbucks about 4:30 and went in and got a drink and sat down to work on my blog and catch up on e-mails. It was nice to be out and yes, I love typing on my computer and seeing my pretty red nails. Now as I look at them, they look so perfect and feminine, the fact Kathy filed the sides and made them narrower they really do look great and make my fingers look more feminine. I will have to remember this when I get longer nails. Now the sad thing is so far no one has said anything about my nails which is kind of a letdown as I love them. I stayed here till almost 7 before leaving and yes, I decided to stop at Wendy’s as it is right across the parking lot.

I went into Wendy’s to order and there were a couple people in front of me in line, they were actually busy inside and the drive through had at least 15 cars in line at 7pm. When it was my turn, I ordered and got my food and went and sat down to eat. Now I did get a quick picture inside as I ate. It was about 8pm when I got home for the night. I watched TV till about 11pm before washing away Susan for the bight and going to bed.

Now for the rest of the week I am still figuring out what I will do, I do know Monday morning I have sone things I need to do as my male self, yes with pretty red nails so it will be the late afternoon and of course our Zoom meeting that night. I also have the gym and yes, I go 3 times a week Saturday, Tuesday and Thursday so over my vacation that would be 4 trips to the gym. My workout is 2 hours on Saturday with a full cardio, and weights for my upper body, Tuesday Thursday I usually do just cardio. Now I am thinking about maybe going every morning, I can do cardio each day, one day also include upper body weights, next day lower body weights and then a day of just cardio and then repeat. It would give me a good chance to really work out and maybe lose some weight

It has been a fun day. Be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.