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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Wednesday night dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen

It is Wednesday night and our group, well a few of us are meeting for dinner at the Southland Whiskey Kitchen. We have gone here several times and the food is wonderful and mid-priced, $12 to $25 depending on what you want. I am really looking forward to it as I have not been out since last Wednesday nights dinner, family issues to take care of. Looks like it my Susan time will be limited again so I have to really make the most of it when I get it. But tonight, I will get a few hours with my friends over a nice dinner and what can be better then that. I got home about 4:30 and started getting ready right away. I really do look forward to being Susan, going out with friends and especially getting ready, deciding on an outfit, what dress and heels and of course how to do my makeup. My makeup is pretty much the same as I have found what works for me after years of trial and error, really the only thing I do different is how intense I do my eyes and which color of lipstick. For tonight it will be a little more intense and dramatic. Now it is hard to explain why I enjoy doing my makeup so much as I know woman who hate doing their makeup but for me it is relaxing and enjoyable. I have talked to several girls who feel the same way and yet I don’t know why I feel this way, but that really doesn’t matter. I enjoy it and that is good enough for me.

It was about 6 when I was ready and on my way. I got in my car and opened the garage door and was on my way. I think back a few years and I would carefully look outside and make sure no one was out and if they were wait for them to go inside which during the summer sucked as sometimes I would wait an hour. Now I just go. Now I am not saying I am coming out to everyone, I am not going up to my neighbors and saying guess what I am Susan part time but I am also not hiding it, if they see me they see me so be it. I can’t tell you how wonderful it feels to look at life and who I am this way but it did take me many years to get to this point and a lot of help from my friends.

I got downtown a little after 6:30 and found a parking spot about 3 blocks away and again a few years ago this would have terrified me but I just got out of my car and went and paid for parking and walked to the restaurant, the funny thing is I really wasn’t even thinking about how I was dressed or being Susan, I was just me. I got to Southland Whiskey Kitchen a little before 7 and went in. They were not that busy and the lady asked how many in our group. I said 4 for sure maybe 6, as I was talking with her Melissa n=and her wife came in and Barb right after, this is our core Wednesday night group right now. We got a booth that was big enough we could squeeze 2 more in if we needed which we did. Dee and Gina showed up, Dee is a local girl in our Group and Gina a girl from the Seattle area who was down visiting. They are both going on our Mexican Cruise in October and are sharing a room. I think this was a chance for them to meet before the cruise as Cassandra has been trying to help some of the girls find cabinmates for the cruise to help with the cost. I think I have met Dee before but this was the first time I met Gina and they are both really nice.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered dinner. This really is a wonderful social event as in smaller groups it is more personal and easier to talk with everyone. Don’t get me wrong as I really like and want more girls to come out but if they don’t it is still a wonderful event. Now one of the things besides the cruise we talked about was our group and how to get more girls interested in going out and should we even keep doing the Wednesday night dinners if we can’t get more girls to come out. Now my feeling on this is a big yes, even if it is just a few girls it is worth it. I think going out to these places and letting people see us and interact with us in even a small way is good as they can see we are no different then them, we are just out for a nice dinner and conversation with friends. It takes the mystery out I think. The other reason is to be out with my friends. For me it is not about where we go but my friends ii go with. For those who don’t know I don’t drink, never really have and I am not a bar person. I have maybe gone to bars a dozen times as my male self. Susan goes to these places because her friends go there and for better or worse when we first started going out it really was LGBT bars where we could go and be safe and feel accepted. Over the years that has changed.

When I first started going out it was to go as a group for safety and support, over the years I have become more comfortable and confident as Susan and pretty mush go where I want and will go by myself. I really no longer need the group for that but I do need them for the friendships I have made. My best friends are in this group, and some are more like sisters, family. The going out now is to see them and spend time with them. I really am lucky to have such wonderful people in my life and I would not be who I am without them.

We ordered dinner and our food came and it was wonderful as always, I would recommend Southland Whiskey Kitchen for a good dinner. The staff here is wonderful and our waitress remembered a few of us from last time, I guess we are a little more memorable then the average customer but still makes you feel good. It was just before 9 when we finished and paid our bills, we did talk a little longer till just after 9 before leaving. We said our goodbyes and I walked back to my car and again I really never thought about being Susan or how I was dressed I was just me. I really think if you can get to that point people accept you better as you come across as nothing is wrong and this is just who you are.

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July 22, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and some relaxing Susan time at Starbucks

It is Sunday and I am going to get a little relaxing Susan time at Starbuck’s. I really do love going out with my friends as they are so wonderful but I also enjoy a little me time as Susan at Starbuck’s. Starbucks is a place you can go and there really are a lot of people there by themselves. I got home a little after 2 and started getting ready. I got to the Starbucks by my house around 3:30 and parked and went in. they were a little busy but there was one open table by the window so I set my computer on it and went and ordered my drink. Once I had my drink I sat down and got out my computer. This was the first time I really looked around and as I said they were busy but today it was mostly young girls. There were 5 groups of 2 to 4 girls and I would guess the oldest age between them was maybe 15. I don’t know why but this is when I feel the most uneasy as I think young girls are more aware of people around them and I did notice a couple of them looking at me but I just smiled back and that seemed to work.

I started off by writing my blog from last night at the Escape, as I have said I really do like writing my blogs as Susan when I am out as Susan. It just seems more honest and real although I don’t know why. I thought I would ad a picture to this blog from my trip to Diva Las Vegas that I thought was cute. Now it is relaxing here at Starbucks and I seem to get more done as I don’t have the distractions I do at home (TV) plus there is just something about being out as Susan. This week I am looking forward to dinner on Wednesday with my friends as we missed last week because of the Fourth of July, I hope everyone had a happy and safe fourth. It is a day we celebrate our countries birthday, the freedoms we have and remember all those who gave everything for those freedoms. I really do believe we live in the best country in the world, no offence to my sisters in other countries but I am proud of what we have her in America.

Now beside doing my blog, sending an e-mail to our group about our Wednesday night dinner and just playing around on my computer Starbucks is a great place to people watch as you really do see a wide range of people here, young, old, male, female, casual dressed and even one lady in heels and a tight dress. Trust me she could get away with that look anyplace. It is funny as when I am out at Starbucks I am really not thinking about how I am dressed or even about being Susan verses my male self. I am just out being myself. There is just something so wonderful when you accept who you are and just be that person. I really think when you can do that you come across to others more naturally and that helps them accept you.

I stayed at Starbucks till 6:30 when they closed and the I decided to go get something to eat at Subway and I went to the one close to my house. Now this is something that is new to me as I go here also as my male self, but they do seem to have a bigger turnover in employees here. I generally don’t go to the same places both as Susan and my male self. I am trying to eat better as I want to lose some weight before our cruise, I have actually lost 6LB in the last 2 weeks, I have been trying to cut out dairy as I read that is one of the worst things for belly fat and that is my problem area. It is hard though as I really do love an ice-cold glass of milk but it is something Susan needs to do.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what’s new with Susan

A few of my more recent blogs

A few hours on a Sunday afternoon

Saturday and a full day of Susan, going to the gun range to shoot.

Wednesday night dinner at Old Spaghetti factory

Saturday at the Escape

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

Saturday May 19 2018 red dress party

Thursday night and having dinner with Charlene and her wife

Tuesday and my vacation comes to an end after 12 days

Sunday and the drive home from Palm Springs to Portland

Saturday and we leave Las Vegas to take Julie back to Palm Springs

Friday last day of Diva Las Vegas.

Thursday and we are going to tour the Hoover Dam

Tuesday night of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Day 3 of Diva Las Vegas drive from Palm Springs to Las Vegas


July 9, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am looking forward to going to the Escape tonight but first a couple side notes. Somehow this past week all my blog post that had gone to my Facebook page disappeared, there is no trace of them any where on Facebook. Don’t know what happened or if I can get them back on Facebook. The good news is the blog I posted tonight for last week also posted to my Facebook page so any of my Facebook friends if you want to see older blog posts you must go to my blog. I will put some links at the bottom of my blog to the more recent ones. Also, if any of my Facebook friends have any idea why/how this happened or how I can get them back I would appreciate the help. Also, our Mexican cruise is just a little over 3 months away, still time to sign up if you want, you can check out our groups web page for more information. We still have 25 signed up to go and we all have to pay by the end of the month so that is when we will really have a good idea of how many are going.

The second thing is for those following my blog you know I have had acrylic on my nails now for well over a year and for the last several months a slightly pinkish color called wedding dress. Now over that time really no one has said a thing but a lot of the women I work with now have really nice nails. A few that had short no polish or polish half worn off now have acrylic nails. Well Friday one of the young ladies I work with who wears no makeup and has always had short unpolished nails came up to me, mind you I really don’t interact with her that mush at work so I hadn’t notice she got her nails done. Anyway, she asked me how often I get my nails done. I just smiled and said every few weeks as needed. She then showed me her nails and how much they had grown out and said you can really see the grow out and its only been 2 weeks. I just smiled and said that’s because you have color and it shows more like it was nothing. She looked at me and said it is pretty cool though. I just smiled and said looks like your nails grow fast and that was the end of the conversation. Well back to my blog about tonight.

As I said I haven’t gotten out much the last few weeks so I was going to make the most of tonight. I started getting ready a little after 3 as I wanted to get to the Escape early, I wanted more time as Susan and I also needed to write my blog form Last Saturday. I have been lax on writing them partly because of time but also, I so much more enjoy writing them when I am Susan. I took my time getting ready and I wore my long black and white dress that is a little tight. This is an old picture of me in the dress, I guess I need a newer one. I was all ready buy 4:45 and on my way. I got to the Escape a little after 5 and there were all kinds of parking, another reason I like to get here early.

I went in and got our table and set up my computer before going up and Ordering dinner. Yes, I had a Hamburger but it is my first one in a week. Lindsay was working tonight, it was great to see her. She used to work her all the time but got another job and now only fills in when they are short staffed. Really all the staff here are wonderful. I went over and sat down and wrote my blog from Saturday. My dinner came and I ate it as I worked on my blog. Now they were not really busy tonight as there is a big jazz festival going on downtown at the water front. I finished my blog and then just played on the internet as I passed rime waiting to see if anyone else would show up.

It was a little after 7 when Michelle showed up so at least I wouldn’t be here by myself. We talked a little she had gone to Reno a couple weeks ago for a few days and we also talked about our Mexican cruise and of course our group and Wednesday night dinners. Cassandra use to send out text messages which we have stopped and are trying to get our members to go to the group and see what we are doing and where instead of texting them as that is a lot of work. It was just Michelle and me for a long time but a little before 9 Jan & Lynn showed up so we had 4 of us. We talked a little more about our cruise, Jan is growing out her hair for the cruise and tonight she didn’t wear a wig. Her hair is still a little short but it really looked cute on her. She will be luckily not to have to wear a wig on the ship. I have always been torn on this as it would really be nice and a lot easier to have my own hair long enough to look feminine but it is also really nice to be able to change my hair style as easy as choosing a different wig. There are good and bad about both.

Karaoke started a little after 9 and there were some new people here tonight to sing and they all really did well. It was hard to talk though with the music but as usual I sang along with the songs o liked. It was about 9:30 and Narcissista showed up. She is not actually a member of our group but comes here every few weeks. I got a chance to talk with her a little between songs. Laurie also didn’t show up tonight and she shows up almost e very Saturday around 10, missed seeing her even though I usually leave shortly after she arrives as I am not the late-night girls I use to be. Also, haven’t seen ate for a while. I texted her last week and she has been traveling a lot for work but should be back soon. Looking forward to seeing her again. Also, haven’t seen Julie for a while as she has been on Vacation. I am hoping she will make Wednesday night dinner this week as I really miss talking with her. I really do have some awesome friends (sisters) and I really do miss them. Cassandra is still taking a break and I really miss her also, I would love to get together with her also even in m ale mode if necessary. They are such a big part of my life now, my family.

It was a little after 11 when I called it a night, but it was such a fun night. I am going to try to get out Sunday for a little Susan time and write my blog and relax as Susan. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what’s new on my most recent blog.

A few of my more recent blogs

A few hours on a Sunday afternoon

Saturday and a full day of Susan, going to the gun range to shoot.

Wednesday night dinner at Old Spaghetti factory

Saturday at the Escape

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

Saturday May 19 2018 red dress party

Thursday night and having dinner with Charlene and her wife

Tuesday and my vacation comes to an end after 12 days

Sunday and the drive home from Palm Springs to Portland

Saturday and we leave Las Vegas to take Julie back to Palm Springs

Friday last day of Diva Las Vegas.

Thursday and we are going to tour the Hoover Dam

Tuesday night of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Day 3 of Diva Las Vegas drive from Palm Springs to Las Vegas


July 8, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday trip to the nail salon before going to the Escape

It is the last Saturday of June and I am really looking forward to going out. Between being sick and other obligations, my Susan time has been limited. Now my plan as usual is to try to get to the Escape early between 5 & 6 as this gives me a little more time out and parking is way better. I got home around 3 and started to get ready and of course the first thing I notice I a chip on my nail polish on my toes, it has been at least 6 weeks since my last pedicure. I also noticed one of my nails had what looked like a crack but was really just where the corner was separating from the acrylic. yes, I needed to go to the nails salon. I called Dream nails and it turns out they were busy and Anny couldn’t get me in till 5:30. Now I had a decision to make, be late to the Escape or not get my nails done and I am sure you can guess my choice. I told her I would see her at 5:30 and finished getting ready. I was all done with my makeup and picked a more neutral lipstick, a mauve color and now it was time to get dressed. Now as I was getting a pedicure that would mean no panty hose and flip flops so I picked my white and black summer dress, here is a picture of me from our trip to Hoover dam wearing the same dress.

Now I had another dilemma, it was only 4:15 and I was all ready and I really don’t like just sitting around the house all dressed up so I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house till it was time to go get my nails done. It only took a couple minutes to get there and I went in. they were not real busy so I had no trouble getting a table and got out my computer and took care of some work, wrote my blog from Wednesday, and just relaxed as I waited till it was time to go to the nails salon. Now people came and went and a few sat down at tables but it never really got really busy. It is a good place to people watch though. It really was funny how fast time went. Soon it was 5:15 and I decided to leave and go to the Nail salon which again only takes a couple minutes.

I parked and went in and yes, they were busy, 2 getting their nails done and 5 getting pedicures and 2 waiting but I had an appointment so I only had to wait a couple minutes. Anna would do my nails but another girl did my pedicure, she has done my pedicures several times and always does a great job but I do not know her name and feel bad asking so I guess I will just go on not knowing. I really do love coming to the nail salon and getting pedicures, so relaxing. Sad most men will never experience this simple joy in life. She did a wonderful job and soon it was time for the polish, I had picked out a really bright red called Ferrari which I have had before and really love the color, so wish I could do my fingers in the same color. Soon my feet were done and looked so pretty and now it was time for my nails.

I moved over to Anna’s table and she started on my fingers. She removed the old gel polish and filed them down to get them ready for the acrylic fill and of course noticed the bad nail before I pointed it out to her so she removed all the acrylic on that nails. It really is a fun and relaxing time. She asked if I wanted them shortened and I said yes even though I really didn’t. She put the new acrylic on my nails and shaped them and got them all ready for the polish. Of course, I used the same color I have been for months, Wedding dress but I kept thinking about the pretty red on my toes and so wished it was on my fingers. Now they were busy the whole time with people waiting, so glad I always call for an appointment. It was 6:50 when I was all done and left the salon with my pretty nails.

I got to the Escape about 7:20 and as I feared all the parking was full in the lot so I parked out on the street, I don’t think I have ever had to park on the street here as I always get here early. I went in and Bobbie was there at one of the tables closest to where they do Karaoke, are normal table was full. I talked with Bobbie a little before going up and ordering dinner. I noticed Lee was here at the Bar so I went over and talked with her a little, she was here with another lady and was not sure if they were on a date so I only talked to her for a few minutes before going back to the table. My food came and I ate my dinner they really do have great food here.

I was just finishing my dinner and Robyn showed up. It was nice to see her out she is coming here on a more regular basis now which is always nice. Now as it got later it started to get busier as this is the last weekend of Pride and it was going to be a big night I think. Another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us now. By 9 it really was busy and we had others sitting at the other end of our table which I really don’t mind as I didn’t think we would have any more girls show up but Lauri. And it is nice to kind of chat with them. They have 2 long tables that sit 10 and then several 4-person tables and they were all full.

Karaoke started and it is fun although it gets loud and you can’t really talk any more. Those who sang did really well and even the few that didn’t we still clapped as they had the guts to get up and sing. Several of the songs I had never heard before and a few were ones I really likes and those I sang along with, quietly from our table of course. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up. I stayed a little long but I was getting tired. I can remember a few years back when we didn’t go out till 9 and we closed the bars down. Now by 11 I am done. I paid my bill and said my goodbye’s and called it a night. It was so wonderful to be out with my friends and also get my nails done. I really do need to try to get back to getting my nails done on a week night though.

On a side note this week for some reason all my blogs I shared on my Facebook page disappeared and I mean disappeared. I can find no trace of them. I checked my activities log and even downloaded my history file and there is no trace of them. I am not really good with Facebook so if any of you out there have any ideas what happened please let me know. I will see if this one post to it and if not, I may try and post in manually and see what is going on. I tried to contact Facebook but that is harder then finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so I don’t know what to do now.

Any way thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with my on my most recent blog.

July 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at McMenamins

Well it has been a busy couple weeks and part of it I was sick and couldn’t get out, actually didn’t feel like going out so it has been almost 2 weeks and I am really looking forward to dinner out with my friends. I am actually planning on getting there early just to have a little more Susan time. I got home from work and started getting ready right away, I wanted to get there with my computer by 5:30. It was just before 5 when I was ready to leave and took time to double check that it was McMenamines and then I packed up my computer and I was on my way. I got downtown Portland and had to drive around a little looking for a parking spot but finally found 1 right across the street and parked.

I went in and they were really busy, the busiest I have ever seen them by a long way so I got a table in the corner room and set up my computer. I then went and ordered a drink and some Scooby snacks (mini corndogs) so good. It was so wonderful to be out again, can’t tell you how much I miss it when I can’t go out. I spent the next hour on my computer catching up on e-mails and the things I didn’t do when I was sick. It was about 5:50 and I texted Melissa to let her know how busy they were. She texted back was looking for parking so I waited. It was 7 when she texted me she was here with Nicole and was wondering where was. Now this made me wonder so I quickly checked our web page and sure enough I was in the wrong place. We go to several McMenamins and I thought it was ringlers pub at the Crystal Ballroom when in fact it was the Tavern and pool hall. I had looked and just saw McMenamines and Crystal Ballroom and miss where it said not the one at Crystal Ballroom. Luckily, they are not far apart so I texted back I was on my way and quickly paid my bill and left. I got to the correct one about 7 :25 when I got there so it was fine but I felt a little silly.

Now Melissa, Nicole, Barb, and Kris were already there so I joined them and we talked for a little while before we ordered. It really was so nice to be out again with my friends. We talked a little about our web page, our cruise coming up in October and of course Diva Las Vegas, Esprit, and just where we would like to go out for dinner and if we should try to mix up the nights to see if we can get more girls out. We all ordered dinner. The food here is good although it is bar food but still a fun night out. We were just finishing up dinner and Stacy showed up so we actually had 6 tonight in all. After we paid our bills we sat and talked for a little longer. It was after 9:30 when we called it a night. It really was fun and so great to get out again.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my latest blog to see what is going on in my life.

June 30, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

My Sunday time again

It is Sunday and yes, I am getting some Susan time. I seem Sunday is turning into my Starbucks day. I don’t know why I enjoy this quiet time so much but I do. I was trying to think back to my first time going to Starbucks and I think it was late summer of 2009 about 9 years ago. At that time, I would go about 7 pm and stay there till they closed at 9. It is funny as I would drive to a Starbucks about 15 miles from where I lived as I was so afraid of running into someone I knew. Back then I would just go and surf the internet on my computer. It really did help me grow as it was one of these nights I first came across the Diva Las Vegas web page and decided to go in the spring of 2010. It really doesn’t seem like that long ago, time really does fly when you have fun. It is hard to believe I have kept this blog since 2006 although back then there really were not a lot of entries and they were pretty short. It is fun though to go back and read the early blogs and remember what id did. I still think keeping a blog or diary about yourself is a wonderful thing to do even if you just keep it private so only you can read. It really is a window into your past and your life. My friend Nicole is doing a blog and w=she keeps it private but she was having fun with it as she can post pictures of her and also track how many times she goes out. You really don’t think about things like that and a blog is a great way to track that. I post in my blog every time I go out as Susan or at least try to. Now there are a few times usually at Diva Las Vegas where I break a day up into to blogs just so they are not too long, I try to keep them about 1,000 words but is still gives me a good idea plus early on I didn’t always write about going out. This is blog 1081 and my 83rd blog of 2018 and we are not yet half way through the year. That means I am averaging about 3 times a week going out as Susan.

Well back to going out today. It was a little later when I got home and I briefly debated if I should get dressed and go out, well not much of a debate really as Susan always gets her way. It was about 3:45 when I got to Starbucks. They were not really busy inside as far as people sitting but there were a lot of people coming in and getting drinks to go. Now the main reason I almost didn’t come out today as it was really hot, almost 90 degrees out and bright sunshine. Susan does not do well in really hot weather as my makeup tends to melt. The Starbucks I go to faces the sun and so it really does get kind of warm inside plus I like to sit by the windows as I can plug in my computer plus I like the view.

I got my drink and the first thing I did was write my blog from Saturday, I really do like writing my blog when I am out as Susan as it just seem more personal to me. Once I got my blog done I logged onto my Princess Cruise planner, I have the app on my phone but easier to do things on the computer. I am trying to get all my information in it as Cassandra says it is way easier and faster if you can have all this stuff done before the cruise. I got some of it done but my passport is at home so I will do that later. I really wasn’t paying attention and it was about 5:30 I looked out and it was raining, the sun was gone and the temperature had dropped by about 15 degrees as my phone now said it was 76 out. Wow this is strange weather we are having here the last couple days. I stayed here till they closed at 6:30 and then went to Subway just down the street to get something to eat. By the time I left Subway it was partly sunny again and 80 degrees out again. I got it to go and went home to eat. It was a pretty ordinary day out but I got some things done I needed to do and had some Susan time as well so it was a great day.

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June 18, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A few hours on a Sunday afternoon

It is Sunday afternoon and I have some time free again and that means Susan time. I got home about 2:45 so it is a little later than normal but I want my Susan time. I started getting ready and as my time was limited I didn’t take as long getting ready. It is amazing as it really is not about doing a better look when I take longer it is more about enjoying the experience. Kind of like eating I guess, I can take smaller bites and savor the food or bigger bites and eat faster but in the end the result is the same if that makes sense. Any way I was ready by a little after 3:30 and drove to the Starbucks by my house, I got there at 3:40 and they looked busy. I actually had to park away from the building which is rare. There were even a couple people sitting outside at the tables under the cover of the building as it was raining so I was wondering if I would get a table. As I walked in I could see 1 table open by the window. I was right they were busy. The counter in the back had 1 open chair the long table had 7 people sitting at it, the big round table had 6 and all the chairs were takes as were all the small tables except for the 1 and there were 7 people in line. I didn’t take a chance and set my computer on the only table open and then went and joined the people in line. when I finally got to the front of the line the young lady making the drinks looked over at me and asked if I wanted my normal Grande sweetened green ice tea and I said yes so, she was already making my drink before I paid. I guess that means I must come here to regular as not only do they remember my name but also what I want to drink. The lady took my order and I paid for it and by that time my drink was ready. So, there was no waiting. I sat down and got out my computer and there was still a line of 6 to 8 people and that lasted for probably 20 to 30 minutes it was a really busy rush and probably one of the busiest I have seen it here although it would eventually slow down.

I did some work on my computer and wrote my blog from yesterday about going to the gun range and the Escape, it was a really fun full day for Susan. Now in that blog ai talked about my lipstick I have been wearing and how well it lasts so today I wore the same brand but a more neutral color and I did get a picture in the car before I came in. now it really is a lot of fun here when it is busy as it is great for people watching which is one of the reasons I like coming to Starbuck’s. there really is something relaxing about spending a few hours at Starbucks and catching up on things I need to do. I am just one of many people who come here and it is a fun way to spend an afternoon, way more fun than just sitting at home doing this stuff. I got my bog done and then spent some time catching up on some work I had to do, computers make life so much easier. Now there was a young lady that was at the next table and she met a man here so I really wasn’t paying attention other than she was on crutches. Anyway, it was about 5 and the man left and she was getting ready to leave so I just had to ask her about her foot and what happened. She told me she had tripped at home and thought she sprained it. I jokingly told her she should come up with a better story like she tripped saving someone before they got hit by a car and she thought that was funny. Well she left and I was back to my stuff on my computer and about 15 minutes later she came back in and came over and talked to me a little more. Seems she is looking for people for some kind of home-based business and thought I would be perfect. I talked with her a little bit and she wants to meet with me to give me more information. Any way she gave me her number and told me to let her know when I had some time and wanted to learn more about her business opportunity. Now I am not big on these type of things but it might be interesting just to do it as Susan and get the information, will have to think about this though. stayed here till they closed at 6:30 but that is where my typical Sunday night ends as I got gas yesterday so now it was just getting something to eat.

I decided to go to Subway as I am trying to eat better. I went to the one not far from my house which I have gone to many times as my male self although it has been a while and they seem to have a high turnover at Subway. Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog.

June 16, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Saturday and a full day of Susan, going to the gun range to shoot.

It is Saturday and today is our groups day at the gun range. Now I know this is not the typical transgender thing to do but our group really does try to do mainstream things and everyday type things ad yes there are women out there that like and shoot guns just like in our group. This is also not a political thing it is just some of our members have guns and like to shoot and what better way to do that then as our female selves. Jan and Lynn have hosted this for several years and have done an awesome job and I am excited as this is the first year I have been able to make it. This does mean a long day for Susan though as I will have to leave home at 8:30 am to get there by 9:30 and we will probably be there till 4 and no we will not be shooting all the time as we will have a BBQ and some socializing also.

I started getting ready at 7:30 and was ready about 8:40 so just a little behind when I wanted to leave. I was in my car and yes, I needed gas so I stopped to get gas and also ran into Albertsons to pick up some chips and cookies and pop for today. Jan and Lynn are providing hamburgers and I wanted to bring something and I forgot to pick it up last night. Now I do go to the Nail salon by my house and also Starbuck but not Albertson and the reason is I go to Albertsons as my male self but it was early and I normally go in here at night. It was a quick trio in and out as I was worried I would see someone I know, can’t keep my head down like I can at Starbucks. I didn’t see anyone I knew and that was good and soon I was on my way but behind schedule.

I got to the range about 9:45 and Jan and Lynn were there setting up. Now the weather today was a mix of everything but snow, we had sun where it was hot out, clouds where it was cold, light rain, heavy rain and even a little hail. Now todays event was from 9:30 till 4 or so and I was wondering how it could go so long although I did come prepared. I brought 2 rifles and 2 handguns including my new one and 200 rounds for each but even that would not last 6 plus hours. Well we got set up and did a little shooting and of course talking and it was fun, by the way my new gun works well. It was a little before noon and Wilma and her wife and daughter showed up so we had 6 of us here today, I was hoping more but it is a drive. It was great to see Wilma again as it has been a couple years. Well it was about 12:30 when we broke for lunch and Jan got out the grill and cooked up some awesome hamburgers, I guess I will have to find something else for dinner tonight at the Escape. We had a great lunch and got a chance to talk and catch up. It was really fun. It really was more about being with friends then the guns and shooting just like when I go to the bars it is about the people I am with that makes it special.

After lunch Jan broke out her shot guns and we did a little clay shooting, this is little discs that get shot out and you try and shoot them with shotguns, kind of like bird hunting. Jan, Lynn and Wilma did better than I as they hit some of them. I missed everyone I shot at but it was my first tine shooting this way. Little harder shooting moving targets. It was a lot of fun though. It was amazing how fast the day went and soon it was after 3:30 and it got dark and looked like it was going to really rain so I got my stuff loaded in the car and said my goodbyes and thanked Jan and Lynn for setting this up as it really was fun. Here I brought 4 guns and all that ammunition and only shot 2 of my guns and maybe 100 shots but as I said it really was about being there with my friends. On the way home, I realized I didn’t take a picture and regret it as I don’t have a picture of me shooting a gun, well there is always next year.

It was 4:45 when I got home and quickly unloaded my car and touched up my makeup and of course put on heels and I was on my way to the Escape as I wanted to get there early and catch up on my blog from Wednesday night dinner. It was about 5:30 when I got there and ordered some food, breakfast as I was not that hungry but wanted to order something. I ate and wrote my blog from Wednesday as I wanted for others to show up. Rebecca from up by Seattle was the first as she arrived at 7, she had the evening off and drove down just to go out with our group. She usually comes down for Wednesday night dinners but her schedule is a little mixed up right now. It was nice to talk with her as we waited for more to show up.

Jan & Lynn were next to arrive, Lynn had her target with her from the shooting range. Her target was a woman being attacked by a Zombie and she almost blew the head off the Zombie and not one shot hot the woman and that was from about 40 feet away, great shooting Lynn. Everyone was coming over to see it and even a couple people took pictures of it. Robyn also showed up so it looked like we might have a good group tonight. It was not real busy but it was still early. Usually 9:30 when Karaoke starts is when it starts getting busy. A little while later Laura M. and her girlfriend showed up as did Narcist and Lauri, even one of our girls stopped by briefly in male mode. It was a good night out for all but a long day. I left home this morning at 8:30am and except for about a 15-minute stop to unload my car and put on heels I was gone all day and evening. It was almost 11 when I called it a day. My makeup held up good all I needed was a little powder throughout the day to keep the shine away. The big win was my lipstick which looked just as good when I got home as it did when I left and that included eating a couple hamburgers at the range (sorry Julie I broke down and had 2 as they were so good) and also eating at the Escape. This is really good lipstick that stays put. It will take baby oil to get it off. I really recommend it although it is a matte color and it is a little heavier then normal lipstick but other then that it is wonderful. This is the red I was wearing and it is a beautiful color. I also have a few other more neutral colors for when I go out in the day.

It was almost 11:30 when I got home, it was a wonderful day out as Susan. Thanks for reading and be sure and see what is new in my life on my most recent blog.

June 10, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Sunday and a little Susan time at Starbucks to catch up on my blogs

It is Sunday afternoon and I have some tie free so I am going to Starbucks to catch up on my blogs and then e-mails and if time a little work. For a long time, I would write my blogs the next day and it was almost always at home and I was usually my male self when I did them. But lately I have been trying to do them as Susan somehow it just seems more fitting to write about Susan, about her time out and what she did as Susan. It may seem silly but I feel when I am Susan writing about my time as Susan it is more like I am writing about myself. I don’t really view Susan and my male self as different people as it is still me, still who I am but just more personal this way. So, it will be a Susan day at Starbucks.

It was a little after 2 when I got home and started getting ready. Now as I am on my own schedule as I am not meeting anyone or have to be there at a certain time I was free to take my time and enjoy the experience. I really can’t explain why I so enjoy my time getting ready but I do. It was a little after 3 when I was ready and I looked cute and casual which is what I go for when I go out during the day to Starbuck’s, I want to blend in. I got to the Starbucks by my house about 3:15 and went in, they were busy but there was 1 table open by the window so I set my computer on it and went and stood in line to order. Now they have a few new people working here so they don’t know me but as always, they treated me wonderful. I must say I have never had an issue at Starbuck’s with the staff or customers.

I got my drink and got my computer out and started my blog for Wednesday nights dinner at Hobo’s. now the one bad thing ab out writing it several days later is remembering what all went on. I also took time to send an e-mail to our group the Rose City T-girls about Wednesday nights dinner this week as I want to see if I can get a bigger turnout. Took me 2 tries as the first time I only sent it to the first 10 members. Luckily, I remembered Cassandras tip that it takes a while for them to go out as it was sent to all 200 members. Last time I did this I kept hitting send as I thought it had froze and it sent it several times. It took about 10 minutes for all of them to go out. Of course, I was writing my blog while it sent.

Starbucks is a really relaxing place to go and spend some time and catch up on work or what every you have to do and it is a fun place to people watch too. Now I chose to wear my leggings today with a cute top so I was watching what other females were wearing today. I chose wisely as I would say 60% of the females who came in had on black leggings also. This really is important as I know I don’t pass so if I can match what other females are wearing that is one less thing that stands out about me. I have been asked many times about passing and the sad thing is most transgenders will not pass 100% of the time all the time, there are always little things that ad up and eventually someone will figure it out. To me passing is able to go out as Susan and have people treat me with respect, the same respect any other female would get. I know the people ate Starbuck’s know I am not female but they always call me Susan or refer to me as She or her and to me that means I have passed.

Now there were times it was slow here, at one point I was the only one here and a few people came in and got drinks to go and then some finally sat at the tables. I really think it is easier when they are busy, of there are lots of people here you are not the focus. If you are the only one sitting at a table then everyone notices you. I stayed here till they closed at 6:30 before leaving, on my way out one of the ladies said have a good evening Susan, I love it when they call me by name. I left and went to Costco as I needed gas and then it was time to figure out what I wanted to eat. Now I have been going to Wendy’s but as I had a Hamburger last night I decided to go to Subway and it turns out there is one across the street.

I got there and it was pretty slow only to woman there. I ordered my sandwich and sat down and ate it. The 2-woman left and a family of 6 came in but that was it while I was there. It was about 7:30 when I left and went home. It was a good and relaxing few hours.

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June 6, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday at the Escape

It is Saturday and tonight is the Rose Festival Starlight parade so I am not sure how many will be out at the Escape and the downtown area will be packed. But I am still going out. Now I do have to share a funny story, as you all know I have had acrylic nails now for over a year and probably for the last 6 months I have had a clear pink that in certain light does look pinkish. Well really no one has really said anything about them accept for the occasional “you nails look really nice” well yesterday I went and got my hair cut not as Susan as this is a male thing I do as I keep my hair short and it really needed to be done. Well the lady who cuts my hair is really nice and after my hair cut as I was paying her she noticed my nails. Well instead of your nails look nice what she said was wow I really love that color. Now I know there is a slight color to them but this is the first time someone has mentioned the color. I thanked her and then she followed with “you know what would look good you can fade the end into a white, not as much as French tip but a faded one, (name of other lady working there) has the same thing and it looks beautiful although hers are a lot longer”. Now this really caught me off guard as I really would like to do that but as I have seen this nail look and it is pretty, here is a picture of what it looks like but I just smiled and said this was enough for now. Now I must have said it a little fast as she apologized and said she hope she hadn’t offended me and I assured her she had not and it was fine. I guess I was just not prepared for someone to recommend how I could do my nails, next time I will handle it better. Now I am looking forward to my next haircut.

Anyway, back to Saturday and it was a busy day as I had things I had to do so it was after 5 when I got home and started getting ready so I will not be there by my usual 5:30. I took my time getting ready even though I knew I was running late and even still I was ready by a little after 6 and on my way. I got to the Escape at 6:30 and as I was waiting for traffic I noticed the parking lot was full so I debated about just going and finding a parking spot on the street but a saw someone come out and get in a car so I was going to luck out. Now there was a lot of traffic and by the time a break came and I could pull into the parking lot 3 cars had left and one more was backing out. I got here at the perfect time and got to park right in front of the door. I went in and all the tables were empty with just a few people at the bar. I sat down at our table and got my computer out and ordered dinner.

Now I had only been here a few minutes and Robyn showed up and right after her was Michelle. I talked with Robyn for a little bit and she showed me her heels she had just bought, very cute and high. My dinner came so I ate and Robyn and Michelle ordered the same thing, yes it was a hamburger so if I do go Sunday I will have to find something else.

Jan, Lynn, Kearren, Kate and one other girl showed up so we had 8 of us here and it was only a little after 7, this was great. Jan, Lynn and I talked about next Saturday as we are going to a gun range, Jan and Lynn are certified instructors and rent a gun range for the day and invite our members to go and shoot some guns and also give them some training if needed. They have done this for the last 5 years I think but this is the first year I am able to go so I am really looking forward to it. Now I know the bun issue is a hot topic right now but this is not meant to be a political issue it is just some girls getting together for some target practice and a picnic and some girl time with friends. If you like guns you can go if you don’t like them you don’t have to go it is just another group activity.

I got to talk with Kearren and Kate a little. Now Wednesday night at Dinner Kate was showing me some of her pictures from Diva Las Vegas and one has me in the background. I kind of think I photo bombed her on this although she is off to one side so maybe she was trying to get both of us in it but it was just such a cute picture I asked her if I could post it on my blog and she said yes. I always like to ask if I can post a picture if others are in it as I think it is the right thing to do.

Now there was a smaller crowd here tonight and a lot of them were people I hadn’t seen her before or just don’t remember but it was still fun and everyone was great as always. The Escape really is a great place to go and very excepting of everyone. Son it w as 9 and Karaoke started. It is hard to talk once the singing starts but still fun to listen to and sing along with the songs you know. Now again there were a lot of songs I didn’t know would even say I had never heard before. Is that a sign I am getting old?

Lauri showed up at her usual 9:45, I kid her a lot about being our late-night girl but I remember when I never went out till it was dark. I don’t think that is her reason though as I just think she is busy and doesn’t get a chance to get out earlier. I got to talk with her a little also so we had a total of 9 girls out tonight. It was a little after 11 when I called it a night and paid my bill. It is always sad to see the evening come to an end. I am hoping to get to go out Sunday late afternoon and evening for a few hours as I really look forward to my Starbuck’s time and I am now 2 blogs behind, Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s and now Saturday night. The funny thing is I like going out as Susan to write my blogs but if I always do this I never get caught up as Sunday I will go out and do my blogs for the previous times but then I will need to find time to write my blog about Sunday at Starbucks.

I also realize a lot of my blogs may be repetitive in nature as I do and go the same places and I am glad so many people read them which I never thought people would but I really use this to document my time as Susan, my life as Susan, where I go, what I do and who is there, kind of my personal diary which I am happy to share. This is my 1075th blog post which means I have been out as Susan at least that many times. So hard to believe as 10 years ago I was happy if I could get out a couple times a year. I really do owe a lot to my friends that have helped me over the years.

Thanks for reading and being part of my life and be sure to keep up with Susan on my most recent blog.

June 4, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

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