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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Sunday and my drive to Reno

Okay it is Sunday and I am driving to Reno today. I got up about 4:30 am and started getting ready with the hope of being on the road by 6am. I took my time getting ready as I wanted to look good especially my eyes as that is what people will see with the mask on so yes, I did false eye lashes today, yes most of it will be in my car. I was all reedy and had my car loaded and was pulling out of my driveway at 6:07. Now I decided to break it up into to days for 2 reasons, first to go all the way to Las Vegas is a 15-to-16-hour drive which means I would need to leave at lest by 2am which means starting to get ready by 12:30am so I would get little sleep and with the weather being bad the next 2 days just didn’t want to chance it. The second is I got a pretty good rate at Silver Legacy in Reno, $56 for Sunday night. I set my GPS and I was off.

The drive down was bad weather all the way, I had rain all the way to Klamath Falls sometimes hard but when I got there it was also really windy. I stopped and got gas and got some snacks and a drink for the 2nd half of my trip. As I crossed into Northern California the rain really started coming down hard and between there and Reno, I got 3 warnings on my phone for severe weather warnings. Now normally I go down through Alturas and down to Reno but my phone had me take another route south to Susanville so I tried it, won’t do that again. I checked it when I got to Reno and it saved me 19 miles but the road was narrower and a lot more ruff and the speed limit was only 55 all the way. The road through Alturas has a speed limit of 65 and more of a main road and better kept, I really don’t think it saved me any time just miles.

Now as I said when I left home, I set my GPS and it told me it was 565 miles and I would arrive at 3:04pm just under 9 hours, I pulled into Silver Legacy’s parking garage at 3:11 only 7 minutes later and I did make 3 quick stops on the way down. Amazing it can be that close on a trip that long. I parked and only took my small suitcase, computer and my makeup bag and went into the lobby to check in. I only had 2 people in front of me so it was a short wait. I got up to the counter and gave the lady my name, she pulled up my reservation and then said I see you are on one of the lower floors I can upgrade you to a deluxe room on a higher floor for the same price if that is okay. I said sure and thanked her. once she had me all checked in, she pointed to the elevators to the upper floors. As she handed me my packet she said, “I just have to tell you that you make a beautiful woman.” I thanked her again and was off to my room. My room is on the 29th floor has a beautiful view of downtown Reno. It was 4pm now almost 11 hours after I did my makeup and it still looked good, I tried the Maybelline 36-hour full coverage active wear foundation and I am liking it. these pictures were taken at 4:30 pm with no touchup. Now I did put a little powder on for the shine and then it was time to go get some dinner.

I went downstairs to the little café and went in. now they have some tables inside and some on a little patio by where everyone walks by and the young man sat me down at one of the outside tables so I could watch the people go by and of course anyone walking by could see me so I guess they were not worried about me being there. I had a nice dinner and then I wanted to check out the casinos. Now the other reason I picked this casino is there are actually 3 casinos connected by a walkway so I don’t have to go outside in the rain and all are owned by Caesars.

I wanted to gamble a little at each one to get players points. I started as Circus Circus and it was sad, this use to be a big casino but now only has 7 tables games and tonight none of them were open. I walked over to Silver Legacy and they had more tables but again as far as Blackjack only 4 were open, 1 $15 table and the other 3 were $25 and all were full. I walked over to the other tables and they were other games so I walked back and there was now 1 seat open at a $25 table so I sat down and bought in with $200 and started playing. I was up and down, I played about an hour and walked away with $230 up $30. I walked next door to Eldorado and they also had a lot of tables but only 3 open blackjack tables all $25, wow this is Reno on a Sunday night, I wonder what Las Vegas will be. Now their tables were not busy so I sat down at one and again bought in with $200 and started playing. There were 2 other people at the table a man next to me and a lady at the end and the dealer. The dealer was awesome by the way and I don’t remember her name but she is from China and I am guessing the other 2 were also as she was talking to them in, I am guessing Chinese. And me in English. I saw the man look at me a couple times and wondered what he was thinking. Finally the dealer told me he loved my nails, turns out he does nails for a living and we all kind of talked about nails. The dealer didn’t think she could shuffle the cards with long nails and I told her she would get use to them. She laughed a little and I am guessing told him what I said and then he said something to her and I got part of it, as I herd gel and she said yes, they would have to be shorter. It was kind of fun. Well I was doing well and then she had to shuffle the decks and it changed, she got hot so we all quit and I walled away witb$255 up $55 so my little stop in Reno cost me $56 and I won $85 so I am up for the trip. Now I headed up to my room for the night.

It was a little after 8 so I wrote this blog and watch a little TV. My plan for tomorrow is to be on the road between 8 & 8:30 with hopes of being in Las Vegas by 4pm to check in.

Be happy with who you are and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 24, 2021 Posted by | casino, Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2021, Las Vegas | , , , , , , | 1 Comment

The start of my vacation and a little Susan time at home

Okay I am on vacation for a 1 ½ weeks going to Dive Las Vegas. It started Friday night on my way home. I stopped at Julies nails to get my acrylic nails and yes, I am doing it as my male self as this salon I have never gone to as Susan. Now of course it is easier as I will have my face mask on. I got there just before 4:30 which was my appointment time and went in and they were ready for me so I sat down and the lady started on my nails. She asked me what I wanted and I told her a coffin shape but just a slight coffin shape. I tried them in 2019 but they were a little more pointy than I wanted. She started on my nails and it was so relaxing. Now 5 other woman came in to get their bails done and it was interesting, only one was getting a fill, the rest were like me and getting a full set and all of them were getting stiletto, the sharp point ones for Halloween week. The one next to me was talking to the lady doing her nails and told her she didn’t know how she was going to be able to do her job with them. Now the shape of my nails this year is perfect and I think it is because she did it a little differently. When I got them done 2 years ago the lady cut it to the length I wanted and then shaped them, tonight she left them a little long and then cut the shape of the coffin and trimmed them back till I liked the shape of course they are just a little longer then I planned but that is okay. Now it was time for color and I picked out a bright red. It took about 1 ¼ hours and I walked out with a beautiful set of nails. Now it was home to start laying things out so I can pack them tomorrow for my trip

I got home and did my blog from Monday night to test out my new nails, if you read it, we talked about wigs and I made the comment about the cost but if it is important to you, not worry about it. well I also talked about how expensive my hotel room will be next weekend and then I thought about what I am willing to spend on my nails. Well I decided instead of leaving early Monday morning like 1am and driving all the way to Las Vegas I am going to leave Sunday morning between 6am & 7am and drive to Reno and spend the night at Silver Legacy, got a pretty good rate.

Saturday, I got up early as I do want to go to bed by 9pm tonight so I can get up early Sunday to transform to Susan for the week. My plan for today is to just be Susan around the house as I get ready for the trip but I also wanted to go to Starbucks with my nails as my male self and see if I got any comments. I went to the one at Cascade Station and got there about 8 and went in. they were not busy so I went to order my drink and normally it is all females working here but today there was a young man working the counter so I ordered my hot chocolate and paid for it wondering what he would think. Well he noticed and told me how awesome they looked and he wished he could have acrylic nails more; seems he only gets them occasionally also. I agreed and told him I only did them on my vacation. Well we talked for a little bit as I told him I was going to Las Vegas. I spent about 2 hours here working on my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner and getting use to my nails. Now as I sat at the table by the window, I looked at my nails and I just wasn’t happy with them. What looked like a bright red in the nail salon on the sample nails but looking at them in the daylight they really were more of an orange red which may be good for Halloween but as I said I wasn’t happy as I only get to do this once or twice a year and I wanted a red.

I left here about 10 and drove to Allure nail spa off 162nd Ave in Vancouver and went in to see if I could get a color change. There were several women getting their nails done but they were able to fit me in. I did get a young man and he did a great job and about 30 minutes later I was walking out with a beautiful red and they look awesome. I am now all ready for my trip.

I went home and had lunch and then did a simple makeup for the day at home as I git all my stuff packed and ready for my trip. I had everything done by 4 except for what I will wear tomorrow and my makeup of course. The rest of the evening I watched TV and worked on this blog and yes, I am getting use to my nails. It will be sad in 11 days when I have to have them removed.

I am now planning on getting up early and becoming Susan with the hope of being on the road by 6am.

October 24, 2021 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Manicure & pedicure, Susan Time | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Monday night zoom meeting

Well it is another Monday night and that means we will have our weekly zoom meeting. I got home and had plenty of time so I took my time and enjoyed getting ready. I was all ready by 6:30 so I had time to relax and watch a little TV, I did get a few pictures but as it was dark outside and the LED lights just make the pictures look washed out so none good enough to post tonight.

I started the meeting just before 7 and girls started signing on. Tonight we had 12, Jennifer, Melissa, Danika, Danielle, Nicole, Jan & Lynn, Christa, Emily, Trish, Tori and me. It was great to see everyone and catch up. We did talk a little abut Diva Las Vegas which is 1 week away now, Jennifer and I are both looking forward to it and getting our nails done. I will get my nails done Friday night on my way home and Jennifer will get hers done on Sunday. I think next time maybe we should go together. We also talked about next weeks zoom meeting as I will be I Las Vegas and not able to host the meeting Melissa will be running it so we can keep it going.

It was about 8 when we got to Jennifer’s weekly question. The question was how many wigs doe we have and how many do we actually wear. Now there are lots of thoughts on wigs, and you can spend from $30 to several thousand dollars and again the views I express are mine and mine alone and is not the only right choice. I do have a few wigs I spent $200 to $300 on and I love them but I tend to go for the lower price ones $30 to $50. I view them s being disposable. Some girls have them re styled me I just buy a new one. The key though is find one that fits you and is comfortable to wear. The other thing you may be wondering is spending that much on a wig is it worth it and that is all up to you. I know a lot of woman that go get their natural styled every couple weeks and also getting it cut and colored and can spend $40 to $200 each time so my advice is not to think what others think or feel but decide for yourself. I will spend $40 to $50 + tip to get my nails done for a week and then another $25 to $40 to have them removed when I get home and for me it is worth every penny. We all have things that is important to us, life is short so be happy.

Well back t the question, seems most of the girls have 6 to 10 and 2 or 3 that their wear and some when they find a wig, they like they but extra’s as with so many things you find you like they quit making them. Even a few of the girls who have grown their natural hair out have kept some of their wigs. Now me I actually like wigs as I can change up my hair style and color very easily and if you follow my blog, you can see some of the different looks. Yes, I have my favorite but I have maybe 4 I wear the most and a few others less frequently and a few I never really wear, in all I have 14 different wigs, by the way if you see one you think looks really good on me or even t so good feel free to let me know. There are time I love the way I look in each of them and also tines not so much depending on my makeup, outfit and lighting.

Well it was about 8 :45 when girls started to sign off and by a little after 9 it was down to just Jan and I and we ended up talking till almost 10pm before we signed off. It was a wonderful evening. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner at Outback Steak house and yes getting my nails done on Friday night and my trip to Diva Las Vegas.

Be happy with who you are and be true to yourself. Thanks for reding my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life

October 22, 2021 Posted by | zoom | , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday Susan time and yes laundry.

Well it is Saturday and I get to spend the afternoon and evening as Susan. but first last night on the way home from work I stopped and got a pedicure; bright red polish and it looks great. The lady doing my pedicure asked if I also wanted a manicure so I took the opportunity and told her that would be next Friday. I was

there about an hour and so enjoyed it. before I left, I set up my appointment for next Friday and told them I wanted a full set of acrylics. Yes, I got a few pictures of my pretty toes.

Saturday, I got up and had my monthly work zoom meeting which lasted till about 10:30 then I went out and did a little yard work I needed to do. It was about noon when I started getting ready as Susan but first was to put a load of laundry in, yes, I am going to wash everything I am taking to Las Vegas so they are all fresh and clean. While the wash ran, I did

my makeup and got ready, it was perfect timing as when I finished getting ready, I had 1 minute left on the wash, wash cycle is 1 ½ hours. I hung up my clothes to dry, yes Susan’s clothes do not go in the dryer. I put the next load in and figured I could run down to the Starbucks right by my house, it is ¼ mile away so really close. I figured I could sit outside and enjoy the sunny day for 1 ½ hours and then run home really quick and hang start my next load, I have them 4 loads I want to do.

I got to the Starbucks by my house and went in and the one lady greeted me by name. they were actually really busy inside, 3 people by themselves, one big group of 6 young people and then several couples but no one sitting outside so that is where I sat, yes, I brought my long sweater which I found going through my stuff to wash. It is about 65 out and sunny but still a little on the cool side as their tables are on the shady side of the building. Now I had only been sitting here a few minutes when a man came up to the table next to me, partially in the sun and asked if he could have the other chair at my table and I said yes. Now it was fun sitting out front here and watching the people walk by and yes, the cars, I did see several cars go by with people I know as I am really close to my house. Now while I was her Julie called me to see what I was doing and if I was planning on going out tonight so we decided to get together and have dinner. She will call me when she is ready and I will pick her up. Now as I sat here 2 women walked up and went in, now they had masks on so I am not sure but I think one might have been trans. Well when they came out the one, I thought might be trans handed me a card and yes, she was trans, her name is Alicia. Well they sat down with me and we started talking. It was interesting and the first time I have ran into another Transgender person at Starbucks. Well another lady came over who new them so now there were 4 of us sitting out front talking.

We talked for a while and it was very enjoyable. As we talked a man walked up with a mask on, it turned out to be Nicole, she was in the traveling through the area and I am thinking she stopped at Goodwill and saw me sitting out front and came over to say hi which was so nice. She only stayed a few minutes but it was great to see her again. Hopefully she can make it down for dinner again soon. Well I talked more with Alicia and her wife who I later found out is also a trans women and the other lady with them her boyfriend likes to dress up and she is okay. Well we ended up sitting there and talking till 4:30 before they had to leave. I stayed a few minutes longer before heading home to take care of my laundry. It was about 4:50 and I was waiting for Julie to call me so about dinner so I decided to go to the Starbucks in Orchards as that is about halfway to Julies house and I need to charge up my computer and I figured I could get a start on this blog. It was about 5:50 when I left to go pick Julie up.

I got to Julie’s about 6:15 and we talked for a little bit before we left. We were going out to dinner and Julie thought there was a Chinese restaurant down on NW 21st av. We used to go to House of Louie till they closed. We drove downtown talking the whole way, it was so nice. Well we didn’t find one but we were close to Swagat which has Indian cuisine so I parked and we walked back the 2 blocks to get some food. We have gone here several times and they have good food. Julie and got a table and sat down for a quiet dinner and wonderful conversation. It was such a great idea Julie had about going out to dinner. Now the sad part is we will have another Wednesday night dinner this Wednesday at Outback steak house and then I will be in Las Vegas and when I get back Julie will have gone south for the winter, I will really miss our riding together. After dinner we sat and talked till a little after 9. Thanks for taking me out for dinner.

We walked back to the car and I drove Julie home and we talked all the way. It really was an enjoyable evening. I dropped Julie off and drove home, now I am looking forward to our Zoom meeting and our Wednesday night dinner and yes next weeks trip to Diva Las Vegas.

Be safe and thanks for reading my blog.


October 19, 2021 Posted by | Dinner out, Starbucks | , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry

Well it is another Wednesday and I get to have dinner with my friends. We are going to Who Song & Larry in Vancouver. I called last night and made reservations for 12 and today when they called to confirm my reservation, I changed it to 14 yes, we have a big group tonight including 4 wives/significant others. Now I got home little early and as it is in Vancouver, I am not picking Julie up we are just going to meet there as it is kind of in the middle between us. Any way I had plenty of time to get ready tonight. I was all ready before 6 so I finished off my blog from Monday nights zoom meeting and posted it. It was about 6:15 when I left for Who Song & Larry’s.

I got to Who Songs and Larry by 6:30, yes, I actually like getting here early and sitting in the bar. I parked and started in and saw Lynn coming across the parking lot so I waited for her. we went in and I checked in and it turns out they were getting our table ready already. Jennifer and her wife showed up right after us and by that time our tables was ready so we were shown to our table. Now our waiter came over and yes, I ordered their cheese & been dip which is awesome, I could make a meal out of it, by the way they give you house made chips and salsa for free. Now girls started showing up and by 7 almost all of us were there but we kept talking instead of ordering to wait for the rest. Tonight we would have 13 total, yes one got held up at work and couldn’t make it. So we had Jennifer & Mary Anne, Cassandra & Peggy, Jan & Lynn, Julie & Trixie, Claire, Barb, Sherri, Karen and me. It was great to see so many but it was hard to talk with everyone even though I sat towards the middle of the table.

Now it was a fun night and we all ordered our dinner and yes, I got the same thing I always get. Now I did try to talk with everyone but with such a big group it was hard and I mostly talked to those right around me. Now there were a few other group here 3 to 6 people but really, they were not real busy tonight. Now we did talk about Diva Las Vegas which is less than 2 weeks away. Jennifer and I talked a little about getting our nails done for the trip, yes, we are both getting acrylic nails although I think mine might be a little longer than hers. I know she is going to love getting the done. I also talked with Cassandra, she is still planning on going and us driving down together but there is still a small chance she may have to cancel do to work related issues but we are staying positive. Claire and I talked a little and she is really interested but just can’t make this one work but I really thinking about the spring. We had a nice dinner and then sat and talked till about 9 before paying our bills and yes, our waiter got them all correctly split out which with a big group like this was amazing.

Now as we got ready to leave, we all stood together for maybe 10 minutes by the table so we could all talk was great to get to talk with Karen for a few minutes which was nice as I haven’t seen her for a while as it is hard for her to make the dinners. Also got to talk to Sheri, this is only her second dinner with us and her second time going out. she actually drove over this afternoon from Eastern Oregon and got a motel for the night so she could join us, how awesome is that. Now here is the funny thing she is staying at a motel just off the highway maybe a mile from here, nothing fancy but clean but it is a 1 story motel and you can park right outside your doors it is easy to get to your car. Now that is not the funny part what is funny is years ago before I was really going out other than just late-night drives, this was the same motel I picked for a weekend so I could get my first set of acrylic nails. Now for me this was back in the late 90’s so probably 25 years ago. Makes me wonder how many other trans people have stayed here for the same reason.

Well after about 10 minutes standing by the table talking, we left and walked out and of course the staff we passed either thanked us for coming or asked us to come back again. They have always treated us awesome here and I really want to support them as I know a lot of restaurants are struggling. Now we may have to wait till after Christmas as the Christmas ships start on December 3 and they will be really busy then as it is a great place to watch them so if we don’t come back here before then we probably won’t get in at least with a big group.

Outside we all said our goodbyes for the night which is always sad and walked to our cars. It only took me less then 15 minutes to get home and washed away Susan for the night. now I am looking forward to this weekend and some Susan time and yes, I do have some plans. Friday night on my way home from work I am going to stop and get a pedicure at Julies Nails for Las Vegas which will be really fun. The other thing I want to do is some laundry, yes, I am going to start getting ready for Las Vegas and that means I will be washing some of my clothes to freshen them up for the trip.

Stay safe and be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and sharing this part of my life with me and be sure and read my most recent blogs to see what is new in my life.

October 16, 2021 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Monday night zoom meeting on Columbus Day

Happy Columbus Day

It is Monday (Columbus Day) and although where I work does not recognize it as a Holiday I do. Any way I had to work but being a holiday traffic was not bad so I actually got home earlier than normal so I had plenty of time to get ready today so I took my time. Now tonight I tried a little different look specifically my eyebrows, I tried a thinner brow arch and was pretty happy with it, still trying to figure out the best look for me. I was all ready by 5:45 so I had lots of time before our meeting started. I did get some pictures and then finished up my blog from Sunday and posted it online.

I started the meeting at 7 and girls started to log on, tonight we would have 11 of us, Jennifer, Melissa, Nicole, Christa, Jan, Lynn, Danielle, Jeannie, Emily, Tori and me. Now as normal we spent a little time catching up which was nice but we got to Jennifer’s question early as it was a really good one although it was really for those who are transitioning and living full time. now being October 11 it is not only Columbus Say but also national coming out day and that was what the question was about. It was about coming out to people and how many times? Now for most of us that don’t transition we may never come out to anyone or if we do it is usually very limited, maybe a spouse or family member but for those who do go full time and live as their true self it usually means coming out over and over again as you have to tell everyone and it is not something you can do one time. Now I have never come out to anyone although one of my neighbors found out and I admitted to it.

I had never really thought about it but yes if you do come out you may be doing many times of a long tine as you really can’t get everyone all together at one time and then there are the tings you don’t think about, drivers license, social security, doctors office, dentist, passport, bank accounts and so many more. Now some will be easier at least emotionally then others but most likely there will be sone you know that you will lose. I have often thought about what it would be like usually my co-workers and although I don’t know how they would take it but from what I know of them I think 60 to 70 % wouldn’t care either way. The rest would probably be divided between those that would have a problem with it and those that would think it was great.

Now it was interesting to hear what the others had to say and it usually starts with coming out to family and friends and then work and yes it seems to be as hard each time as everyone is different and you have to deal with each one separate and I realize I would approach telling my family different then work. This would be a hard thing to do but from listening to them they came to a point they could no longer not do it. The stress on them before they came out was way more then the stress of telling people and yes, they did lose some people in their lives but most say it was over all positive and worth it for them. Again I have not done this so I really only imagine what they went through.

The follow up question was what is the one thing most people ask about this and it really came down to 2, first for those who are married of in a relationship was what was going to happen to the relationship and how was the other person handling it. ow again I have no firsthand knowledge on this but at least in our group it seems the spouses and partners are okay and even supportive and I think when that happens it really helps the rest of the family be okay with it.

The other question is are you gay when you transition (or even present as female) most people believe you are then attracted to men, they confuse gender with sexual preference. Now I am not saying that for some there is the attraction to men but again my opinion from what I have observed I would say 60% are still just attracted to woman. The rest will either be attracted to both or maybe just men and that is all okay, be who you are. Now what I have noticed personally as I have had this question many times is some even when you tell them can’t understand it or just don’t believe it. yes, I present a lot as female and when I do part of that is taking on the roll of being female. That being said I am not at al attracted to men, part of my being Susan is to present as what I find attractive, I try to remove all my body hair as I find nothing attractive about hair on the body or face. Now I have had this conversation with people and I have had those that almost argue with me that I am wrong and I am attracted to men. Gender expressing and being the gender you are and who you are sexually attracted to are 2 different things.

The last question that was asked and I really haven’t had this question really and that was about your body specifically, surgical status and what body parts you have or don’t have and I was shocked that this would even be a question asked as I personally would never think of asking that. Please don’t ask that question, a person’s medical treatments and what they have done with their body is their choice alone, be respectful. Now some girl will talk about it and tell you and that is also fine but it is their choice to tell you or talk about it. mow my opinion and again this is my view only, if you see me out and are really interested and not trying to be rude you can ask me anything. Now I may tell you I am not comfortable answering a question (usually personal stuff like where I live or work) but other than that I will try to answer your questions as I feel or think and again it is just y views and may or may not be how other feel or think. We are all different and feel different or view things different and that is fine.

We actually spent most of the night talking about these questions and yes, we had a lot of similar thoughts and some differences. It was about 8:30 when girls started signing off and a little before 9, we were down to just 4 of us so we ended the meeting for the night. It was a really good night. now I am looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner at Who Song and Larry’s.

Be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 13, 2021 Posted by | zoom | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and a typical Fall Day for Susan on Columbus Day weekend.

Happy Columbus Day Weekend

Well it is Sunday of Columbus Day weekend and a typical Fall Day, overcast with intermittent showers and windy and the leaves are blowing off the tree. It really is a beautiful time of year and my male self loves this Susan not so wild about the wind. By the way if you are wondering about the orange font, I am using it is because it is fall and Halloween is coming. Now I had some stuff to do so once again it was about 1pm when I started getting ready as Susan. now I have no plans so I took my time getting ready, it is such a relaxing time doing my makeup and transforming myself to Susan. I tried a different eyebrow look a little more straight then arched and a raisin-colored lipstick. As I was looking for something to wear, I came across another casual dress I had forgotten about so that was my choice for the day.

It was a little before 3 when I was already, now I had parked in my driveway and it was really raining at this point so I got a few pictures as I waited for the rain to let up. It is funny as years ago I would wait for none of my neighbors to be out before leaving my garage and now my car is in the driveway and I am waiting on the rain. I only had to wait a few minutes till it slowed down unlike years ago when I could wait an hour or more for all my neighbors to go inside. I quickly walked out to my car and was on my way, yes, I figured I would just go to Starbucks and work on Yesterday’s blog.

It only took a few minutes to get to Starbucks and it had stopped raining but was still windy out and no one was sitting outside and there were quiet a few cars in the parking lot. I walked in and they were busy, the 4 big tables down the middle were all taken by groups of 3 or 4, 2 sitting at the counter along the front window, an older couple at the back table and 2 young girls in the big chairs in the corner and the 6 small tables along the window where I like to sit only 1 was open, it is probably the busiest I have seen it here at least in a long time. now there were 2 people waiting for their order and 2 in line to order so I didn’t take a chance and set my computer on the one table and then went and stood in line to order. Now it looked like most or the young people were doing schoolwork and the older ones just socializing. I got my drink and sat down to work on my computer. Now the bad thing is the wind was blowing in such a way that every time the front door opened you could feel it blow in. now it is more fun here when it is busy as I enjoy being around other people even if just sitting there on my computer.

Now around 5 some of the people left so it was more like normal. It was nice though as I could watch the trees blowing in the wind and the rain come down through the windows. There is something about watching the rain that is calming. Now I did text Cassandra to see how she was doing and I ended up calling her and we talked for a while, I did step outside one the side of the building away from the wind as I don’t like to be on my phone in public, I think it is rude to the people around, again my feeling and not picking on anyone who does that. We talked for a little bit about our upcoming trip and it turns out there is a small chance Cassandra will have to cancel her trip which would be sad, she has a lot going on right now and I know how that goes so there is a slim chance I will be driving to Las Vegas by myself which I have done once before. Now time wise I can make it work as I could leave on Sunday and drive to Reno before going on to Las Vegas the trip hoe would be a little harder as we leave Las Vegas on Tuesday and I have Wednesday off but that is the day I will have my acrylic nails removed so I would have to make sure I got back to Vancouver early enough for that. But I may come back on Friday though and skip the Halloween weekend as it would save me more than half on my hotel cost. Well enough of that I am going to stay positive that Cassandra will make be able to go. If all goes right 2 weeks from tonight, I will be at Cassandra’s house so we can leave early Monday morning.

Now I stayed here till about 6pm when the sky started getting really dark and it looked like it was really going to rain. I decided to just hit McDonalds on the way home in hopes of beating the rain. I went through the drive through and got my food and was about halfway home when it started to poor down rain, I actually had to slow down on the drive home. I got

home and ate dinner and then tried to get a few pictures of my outfit for the day, I have a hard time getting a good picture like this. I spent the rest of the night just watching TV till bedtime.

Now I am looing forward to Monday nights zoom meeting and Wednesday nights dinner. Next weekend I will be picking out what outfits I want to take to

Las Vegas and getting ready.

Stay safe and be happy, thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life

October 12, 2021 Posted by | Susan Time | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday Susan time and some thoughts on being female

It is a quiet Sunday as Susan and so I thought I would give some of my thoughts and views on Crossdressing and being transgender. Now again I will give my disclaimer as this is only my view and how I feel this in no way is how everyone feels or thinks. I get some comments and e-mails sometime from my blog and some are pretty good, by the way if you leave I can look and see your e-mail which I as a rule don’t do as I feel your privacy is just as important but every once in a while I will get a comment where they don’t want their comment public but just want to ask a question and that is the case in this one. I have been e-mailing one girl about going out and passing and she doesn’t think she passes well enough to go out so I thought I would share some of what I have told her and again this is just how I feel about this. If you read my blog from yesterday when I took my drive to the coast, I had a lot of time to think about this.

First it does not matter if you are fully transitioning or crossdressing part time at home you are Transgender, anyone who explores or expresses the opposite gender fits this category. Now I am not transiting or plan to but my female side is a real and an important part of who I am. When I am Susan, I take on the role of being female (no this is not about sex or sexual attraction) but who I am and how I act and interact with others. Now those who fully transition will talk about gender dysphoria and for a long time I thought this was just something they went through but I came to realize we all feel that on some level. If I can’t express this side of me, I get stressed out and irritable and I have trouble sleeping as when I go to bed, I find myself thinking about dressing and when I will be able to. Now I am not saying it is the same as those who transition fully but it is a range of the feeling.

Now I will address passing in public and I may draw fire for this but again my views, we don’t pass. Now the vast majority of us will never pass 100% of the time, now there are a few that do really well and usually they transitioned and a young age. Now I am not say people look at them and say they are transgender but if they spend enough time around us, they will notice little things and then another and eventually there will be enough that they will wonder. I work with a lady, a Cis women who is really tall and I have had people ask if she is trans and there have been a few times people have actually asked her and she is never happy when that happens. Now for me when we talk passing it is all about how people react to me. I go out a lot and I am the first to tell you I don’t pass. Maybe sitting down in a dark bar from a distance but if they talk to me or get a close look at me, they will know. But even if they know and treat me as a female, address me as her/she to me that is passing as I am out being accepted as a female. I go to Starbucks all the time and I know they I am not female but they always treat me like any other female and that is passing.

Now with having to wear masks it is a little easier to pass now but it does take a lot of the fun away from going out. Now the biggest thing you can do when you are out is smile, it makes you look better, more friendly and puts people at ease and most people will smile back. The other thing is to be self-confident; I was telling people to act this way but truly be confident and act as though this is perfectly normal as it is. You are doing nothing wrong; you are not broken or strange you are just you. We are all different in ways be we are all normal people. People react to you how they perceive you are and if you come across confident and that this is the most normal thing in the world most people will accept that. Be happy with who you are. The main thing I want to get across is be who you are and be proud and don’t be afraid to go out. Life is too short to be unhappy or hide in your closest.

Now back to today, it was late in the afternoon when I got dressed and took my time. it was a little after 4 when I was ready so I decided to go to Starbucks for a little while. I got there and went in and yes was greeted by the young man there as I said above, they always treat me well and like any other woman. Now I just spent a little time her enjoying being out and playing on my computer. I also finalized my events for Diva Las Vegas and pre-paid for a couple of the dinners this year, yes it is 3 weeks away now and I am looking forward to it, not just being Susan for 12 days straight and having Acrylic nails but also seeing some of my friends I have made over the years some of whom live in other parts of the country and the only time I get to see them is at Diva las Vegas.

I am now looking forward to this weeks Zoom meeting and Wednesday night dinner. Be happy with who you are and get out and enjoy life. Feel free to comment or contact me if you if you have a question or just want to talk but remember it is all my opinion and feelings and nothing more. Thanks for reading my blog.

October 8, 2021 Posted by | Thoughts on Crossdressing | , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday Susan time and a drive along the beach

It is the first Saturday of October and I am looking forward to a full day as Susan. now part of today is to do a full makeup in the morning and see how it holds up all day to get ready for my drive to Las Vegas. Now when I planned this the weather this weekend was supposed to be showers s I figured it would not be that busy at the beach, well that changed and it is sunny and should be around 70. I got up at 7 and started getting ready my goal was a nice daytime look, I used browns for my eye shadow and yes, I did false eye lashes to set them off and I was really happy with the look. My plan was to drive to Astoria Oregon, then Seaside, down to Lincoln City and then back home. In all about 300 miles and 6 hours or driving plus stops. I was ready to leave by 8:30, I got a few pictures and was on my way.

I got to Astoria and looked for a Starbucks to writ my blog from last Monday but the only 2 were little ones in Fred Meyers and Safeway so I drove on to Seaside as they have a stand alone one. I got there about 10:45 and got a couple pictures in my car, one showing my eye shadow which I think turned out well. I went in they were not real busy so I got a hot chocolate and a muffin and spent about an hour doing my blog. I left here and drove on into Seaside towards the beach and again traffic was bad mostly because of all the people out walking and crossing the streets, like last time I was not going to get close to the beach so I got back on Hwy 101 and drove down to Cannon beach to see if it was any less crowded. I got to Cannon Beach and drove into town and the same thing, traffic barely moving and people every where walking around, looked like the Las Vegas strip with all the people so I figured it would just be a drive today. I figured I would drive on down the coast and see if I could get some pictures from the overlooks. As I was driving out of town, I saw people taking pictures in front of an Elk and wondered why they didn’t get closer till I saw it move. Actually there were 4 Elk walking around one of the parking lots eating on the flowers and shrubs and really only moved if people got to close to them and then it was just to move a little bit.

I got back on Hwy 101 and stopped at several overlooks of the ocean and yes at some I got some pictures. It is funny as I had no trouble getting out and looking around but with people there, I didn’t want to take selfies in front of the people. A few of the overlooks weren’t too busy and I did get some pictures. Now if you have never driven this it is a beautiful drive and I would recommend driving north to south as the ocean is on the right and easier to pull off into the overlooks, it is really worth the trip. Now as I went south it did get a little warmer about 72 but the further south, I went the more windy it got. Some of the pictures my hair was really blowing so I am skipping those pictures from the blog. Now I really didn’t notice anyone really watching me but then I really wasn’t paying any attention to them either.

It was a little after 4 when I got to Lincoln city and it was really windy here, all the woman walking around their hair was flying so I drove just a little further south and decided it was time for something to eat. I drove back to Pign Pancake which is where I had breakfast last time I came here in March of this year. I went in and they weren’t that busy, I was shown to a booth by the window and did get a quick selfie. I looked at the menu and yes, I picked out the country fried steak. Now the waitress who came over to take my order had beautiful French fade acrylic nails and sparkly pink eye shadow. Of course I had to compliment her on her nails as they really were beautiful and of course she thanked me and complimented me on my eye makeup. Now I always worry when I do this as I don’t want it to sound like I am fishing for a compliment. Now again I must have timed it right as I had been here about 15 minutes and people started coming in, I guess it is about 4:30 when people start going out for dinner.

I had a nice dinner and it was just before 5 when I paid my bill and headed for home. The drive home I came back Hwy 8 by Spirt Mountain casino and I did briefly think about stopping in but figured I will be in Las Vegas in a few weeks so just kept driving. I got home just before 7pm. It was a wonderful day and a nice drive. Now here is a funny fact about going to the coast from my house, it is 90 miles to Astoria going through Longview, 91 miles going to Seaside by Hwy 26 and 106 miles to Lincoln city by way of Hwy 8, really not that far for any of them. It was a good day and when I got home my makeup still looked okay with just a few areas I could fix with my compact powder. I did stay up till a little after 11 before removing my makeup and going to bed this gave me the 15 hours I wanted to see how my makeup would hold up. Now yes if I was going out someplace I would need to redo it but it should be good enough to check into the Flamingo when I get there after the drive. Now I am looking forward to Sunday and a little more Susan time, it will only be late afternoon into the evening probably just a short trip to Starbucks.

Stay safe and be happy with yourself and thanks for reading my blog and be sure to read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 4, 2021 Posted by | Beach, Susan Time | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Deschutes Brewery

Well it is the last Wednesday night of September and we are going to Dinner at the Deschutes Brewery in Portland. We have gone here before back in December of 2017 so it has been a while so I was looking forward to it. Now I like to take my time getting ready but it seems on Wednesday I have been getting home later as traffic is getting back more too normal and tonight was no exception. I pulled into my driveway at 5:02 pm and went into my house to get ready so it would be a quick transformation tonight. Now as I said I do like spending 1 ½ hours getting ready but I can do it quicker. The trick to getting ready faster is to know beforehand exactly how you are going to do your makeup and what you are going to wear which I had been thinking about on my way home. I did my makeup and was happy with the look and got dressed and walked out to my car and was on my way at 5:31, just 29 minutes to get ready which may be my fastest time getting ready. now I was on my way to pick up Julie.

I got to Julies house just before 6, I did get a couple pictures in the car before I went in, she was just finishing getting ready so we sat and talked for about 15 minutes before we left, I really enjoy this time. we finally left and had a nice conversation on the way. We got downtown and found a parking spot about 2 blocks away, Barb parked just a few cars back so we all walked together to Deschutes Brewery. We got there and Jennifer and Danika were already there, shortly after Claire and Trish showed up so we were all there by 7. The lady came outside and told us our table was ready so we went in and sat down. We talked for a bit till our waitress came over and took our orders, I had one of their burgers as they are really good. Now we sat and talked and had a nice time, I did get a picture with Julie.

Our food came and as always it was really good, I also had one of their house made craft root beer which is really good also. It was a really nice evening out and after diner we sat and talked as they weren’t that busy. Now Jennifer asked our waitress to take a group picture with her phone, Claire also gave her, her phone for a pictures so you guessed it I had her take one a couple with my phone. Now I did ask everyone if I could use it in my blog and they all said yes so here we all are, left to right is Danika, Jennifer, Trish, Barb, Julie, me and Claire. We stayed here till a little after 9 before we paid our bills and left. We did stand out front for a little bit and talk and decided where our next 2 Wednesday night dinners will be, I don’t remember this coming weeks on but in 2 weeks we will be at Who Song and Larry’s in Vancouver again.

We all walked towards our cars, well Claire walked home as she lives only a few blocks away. It is always sad to see the evening end. Julie and I talked as I drove her back to her house; it will be sad as Julie will be going south for the winter here in a few weeks and I will have to make these drives by myself. It was a little before 10 when I dropped Julie off and headed for home. It was a wonderful night out with my friends.

Now I am looking forward to the weekend and some Susan time, they are saying it will be a showery weekend so I am thinking of driving to the cost for the day mainly for the ride.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 3, 2021 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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