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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

A Saturday night dinner out with friends at Irving Street Kitchen

It is Saturday and normally I go to the Escape which is fun and I get to hang out with friends but tonight we are doing a dinner with just a couple of us. Now we have talked about maybe doing a Saturday night dinner once a month or so but that can take a little more effort as on a weekend you really need to make reservations so you need an accurate head count. Any way ate last Wednesday night dinner we talked about it a little, well Julie and I as Melissa was not able to make it this weekend so Julie and I decided to go have dinner and try someplace new, I let Julie pick as she knows more about places to eat. Now I had texted Cassandra to try to get her to come out to Wednesday dinner as it has been a while since she has been out but she couldn’t make it but she did say she might try for Saturday so I dangled the carrot in front of her that Julie and I were going to go out for dinner thinking that might give her the extra push to try to get out.

Friday night Julie texted me we had reservations at 7:15 at Irving Street Kitchen which to be honest I had never heard of, again the reason I let Julie pick. I texted her back to see what tie I should pick her up just assuming we would ride together and also mentioned I had tried to talk Cassandra into going. Well it turns out Julie had also texted Cassandra and she was going so she made reservations for 3. It was going to be an awesome knight out and like any woman I was already going through my mind as what dress I would wear and how I wanted to look. It really is so funny as when I go out as my male self, there really is little thought put onto what I wear but that is not true for Susan. I actually went through 3 dresses and finally settled on my red and black one. Now with that picked out I knew how I wanted to do my makeup. Yes, for the most part my makeup is the same other than lipstick shade and subtle changes in eyeshadow and blending of it, I kind of have my look. The main thing is instead of the bright red lipstick I love I went for a darker red more of a brick red but a very nice shade.

I was on my way to Julie’s a few minutes before 6, I did get a couple selfies in the car just in case I forget to get pictures later. Again, it is funny as when I first started going out everyone had their cameras and we all took so many pictures. Now I don’t even think about it. I think it is because Susan is such a normal part of my life and who I am. Now the funny story as the weather was bad today, we had a couple thunder storms go through. While I was getting ready, I could hear the thunder and see the flashes of lightning and hear the rain pounding on the roof and a couple times my lights flickered. Well it turns out both Julie and Cassandra lost power, Cassandra for just a little while but Julie had to get ready and do most of her makeup with flashlights and a small mirror Infront of the window. Julie’s power came on abut 10 minutes before I got there so she was able to finish up and double check everything with lights on. It was almost 6:30 when we left for dinner.

We got downtown and we were wondering about parking as this part of town is busy and it is a weekend night but luck was with us as we parked right across the street from the front door. We walked in and Julie checked on our reservation as we were about 15 minutes early so we sat at the bar and waited for Cassandra. Cassandra showed up about 5 minutes later and it was great to see her again, I really do have wonderful friends and Julie and Cassandra are probably my best friends. We have done things together both as our female selves and also our male selves. They really know the most about who I am in all sides of my life, I never would have thought this possible 10 years ago. Now Irving street kitchen is a nice place, looks like it was built in an old warehouse very open but very nice inside. It is a cool place to go.

We were shown to our table and our waitress was awesome as really everyone here. We looked over the menu to see what we wanted. now the menu is a little limited and it is higher priced than we normally go to so not sure it would be good for the whole group. Any way they had several things that talking to our waitress she said could be more of a family style well enough to share so that is what we did, we got their beef ribs which was a lot of food and a few side dishes to share and we really had more food then we could eat. We had a wonderful dinner and even got in a conversation with a couple next to us, they were visiting from Austin Texas. Julie talked with the wife for a while and Cassandra and I talked with the husband. It really was fun.

Again, the night went by so fast and soon it was 9:30. I just can’t believe how fast time goes when I am Susan. we paid or bills yes, the waitress split it up and let each of us put a 1/3 on our credit cards which was nice as I don’t carry cash very often. Now it was time to say goodbye and leave but as Julie and I rode together our night was not over yet. We got back to Julie’s a little after 10 and she said she had some ice cream inside if I wanted to come in and as it was Saturday night and I love ice cream and I got to spend more time with Julie how could I say no. we went inside and Julie dished up some ice cream and we just sat and talked. It didn’t seem like that long but tie did get way from us as before we knew it, it was mid night. wow the night went so fast. I thanked Julie for the ice cream and it was time to leave, it was a late night. it was after 12:30 when I got home and after 1 am by the time I was cleaned up and in bed but what a wonderful evening we had. And yes, I forgot about getting pictures so the selfies I took was all I had. I really wish we had got a picture of the 3 of us at the restaurant. I really hope we can do this again.

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October 1, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

July Fourth and some Susan time

Happy Fourth of July everyone, I hope you have a safe and happy one and as we celebrate today and celebrate our great country and the freedoms we have, remember those freedoms cost some people everything. We have more freedoms here than in any other country. I hope you all cherish what we have and not willing to give them up. Once you lose a freedom it is hard to get back.

Well I have today off work and am going to a BBQ at 4 but that leaves me the morning and early afternoon free so I am going to exercise some of my freedom and spend a little time as Susan. I got up a little after 7 with the hope of being ready by 9. Now for some reason I was slower today maybe because it was the morning and I really had no place I had to be so I took my time and enjoyed my time getting ready. I was ready a little after 9 and looking cute. I chose to wear my black leggings that come down to the upper calf, sandals, a maroon top and of course as this is more of a tight fit, I put on some hip pads to widen my hips and my corset to take in my mid-section. It really does give me a bice shape and other then being slightly taller I blend in well this way and yes, I did put my fake nails on to complete the look. Now as it was a little later, I decided to go right to Clackamas Town Center and do a little shopping as I think they open at 10 and that should be just about the time I get there. I was right on as I was pulling into the parking lot right at 10. I parked by JC Penny’s and went in.

I really had nothing I was looking to buy just looking but was hoping to find a nice dress. I checked out their shoe section first and then over to the clothing. They only had a couple of dresses and they were petite sizes and that just wasn’t going to fit. I guess this time of year is not a big dress time. I wondered out into the mall and did some window shopping and went into a couple other stores but more just to pass some time. Eventually I made it to the other end and Victoria Secret and I went in. I pretty much go here every time I am at the Mall as Susan but I bet I have only been in Victoria Secret 2 or 3 times as my male self and once was to get fitted for a bra. I looked around and a young lady came up and asked if I needed help. I told her I was looking for my favorite bra it is called So Obsessed and they don’t have them in the store anymore so she showed me one similar to it but it just didn’t look or fee the same. It is funny as I have bought many bras and never really gave it much thought till I found this bra and it is just so comfortable and with the padding I really don’t need anything else. I had originally bought 2 of these and back before diva Las Vegas during their buy one get one free sale I found them on line and bought 4 more so I am good for a while but as of now they are still available online. I left and walked back through the mall and left it was a little after 11 now.

Now on my way home from here I go near the Cemetery my Dad is at so I decided to stop there but first a stop at Fred Meyers to pick up some flowers. There is one just down 82nd Ave a mile or two so that is where I went as I also needed a new lipstick and some snacks; I need to bring to the BBQ later. I spent about 15 minutes here shopping and getting flowers and then I was off to put flowers on my Dad’s grave. I have come here several times with my Mom and other family but whenever I have come here by myself it is as Susan. My Dad never met me, or new about Susan the daughter he had but I like to visit his grave as Susan I guess in a way it is my way of introducing her to him.

I got to the cemetery about noon and there were a few people there but it is a big place so not really that bi of a deal. I parked and walked to his grave site and put the flowers down. There were a couple woman sitting on benches that I passed but they never even looked at me. Now it was a nice day and while I was here the 2 ladies left so I went and got my computer and sat on the bench a little way from the grave site and wrote out my blog from last Saturday night. It was a little after 1 when I left and headed for home well not home but the Starbucks by my house as I haven’t been there for a while.

It was about 1:45 when I got there and went in., they were a little busy but they had a table open by the windows so I sat my computer on it and went and ordered my drink. One of the girls behind the country greeted me by name and said it had been an asked if I had any plans for the 4th. I just told her a BBQ later and she said it was good to see me again as sit had been a while which it has. I have gone to many Starbucks over the years and have always been treated wonderful at all of them. I got my drink and sat down and posted my blog I wrote earlier and then just caught up on some e-mails and other thing I needed to do on my computer. Really nothing I couldn’t do from home or as my male self but it is just so much more fun and relaxing to do this at Starbucks as Susan. I got a couple selfies at Starbucks in the car.

Well I kind of lost track of time and soon it was a little after 3 and I need to be at the BBQ at 4, luckily, I am less than 5 minutes from home and it will only take me 5 minutes to get to the BBQ so I still had time. I got home about 3:20 and removed my nails, hair, clothes and the corset and right into the shower to wash away all traces of Susan. It was a fast turnaround and yes, it is a lot faster to be my male self then Susan. I got to my BBQ as my male self-right at 4. It was a fun day but I was sad I had to change from Susan so early and I wonder what everyone would have thought had I shown up as Susan. That won’t happen but it is fun to think about.

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July 7, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, T-girl, transgender | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night out at Escape, getting back into the routine.

It is the Saturday after Thanksgiving and I hope and pray you all had a wonderful one. Mine was good a little quiet, I had my mom over for the day and cooked dinner. It was a little different this year as I did the same thing last year for both my parents. It has been 9 weeks since my Dad passed away and it does get easier but there are certain things that you remember, things you did together and those can be hard. it was a good day though. Any way as I said it is Saturday night and I am going out to the Escape for a few hours. I had hoped to be there by 5pm but I didn’t get home till after 4:30 so I set my sights on 6 and started getting ready. I knew the dress I was going to wear. It was about 5:45 when I was ready and went to the closet for my dress and of course changed my mind and went with my black and gold dress instead. Got my nails on and was out the door. I got to the Escape just after 6 and parked right in front and went in.

They were not as busy as last week and I was able to get my usual table in hopes others would show up, I posted in our group I would be here between 6 & 7. I went to the bar and ordered dinner and my drink, Sprite as I don’t drink. It is funny as when I first started going out, I think I was the only girl that didn’t drink, now I would say it is 30% to 40% and some of those who do drink have one or two and then switch to pop. There was a young lady at the bar that came over and talked to me, her name was Nicole and she thought I looked beautiful, now she had been drinking but I still took it as a compliment. I really do love being complimented on how I look as Susan, in my male life never really give this much thought. I stood there and talked with her for 5 to 10 minutes before going to my table. I no more than got my computer out and my dinner came so I ate it while responding to an E-mail. A few weeks back I went through some of my friends I have not heard from in a while and sent them an e-mail. I got a reply from Kendra who I have not seen in probably 6 years. She is still doing well and took a break from being Kendra but it is coming back again. I have learned this from myself. I could probably stop dressing if it was a life or death issue but Susan would always be with me, a part of me and I would think about her and dressing all the time. I am hoping one of the times she gets to Portland she will have some Kendra tine and we can get together. It is so easy to lose touch with people especially when you only know one side, or part of them.

Well as I finished my e-mail Nicole showed up, she came down from the Seattle area to go out with us. She gets down here 4 to 6 times a year and I always look forward to seeing her. I remember the first time I met her at Washington Square mall. It was February of 2014, yes, I cheated and looked it up in my blog. Wow I have known her for almost 5 years and she goes out almost twice a week now. I really have made some wonderful friends. She ordered dinner also. Bobbie also showed up so there were 3 of us. We ate and talked and it was so much fun. She was telling me how she brought several dresses down for tonight as she was not sure what she would feel like wearing and of course I told her how I changed my mind on what I was going to wear tonight and also my first Diva Las Vegas in which I too almost everything. I had enough dresses on that trip to wear 2 every day plus and several skirts and capri and enough tops to also have 2 a day just to be safe. It is so much fun being a girl. Nicole also has a blog that is private and that is okay, I would encourage everyone to have some kind of record of your life for later on, she writes what she ore and where she went and puts pictures of her outfits. I look Back on my blog all the time, how I found when I met Nicole. Now I did take a selfie when I first got here should have gotten a picture with Nicole.

Now the girl I met at the bar when I first got here came over again so I got to introduce Nicole to Nicole, how cute. We talked for a few minutes and another girl name Melinda came over. I have never met either of them before but they wanted up to dance with them, yes, they have both been drinking. Well I explained I was not a dancer but this didn’t seem to register with them as they took hold of my hand and pretty much pulled me to the floor, well I wasn’t fighting to hard. so now Nicole and Melinda, and Bobbie, Nicole and I were out dancing the best I could. Now I know my body does not bend the way theirs does but I tried as I could, of course I had my corset on which also limited my movement. We probably only dance 5 or 10 minutes before we went back to our table and I was a little out of breath, yes, the corset does limit your breathing. Melinda talked with us a little more before she went back and joined her friend.

Robyn also showed up as did another girl from our group. There was also another transgendered woman here with I assume her wife but they sat together at a small table. I did wave at them but wasn’t sure if I should go over as they seemed to be on their own and I didn’t want to interrupt them. 9 pm came and Karaoke started so it got a little loud and hard to talk but it was still fun. Nicole stayed later tonight as she made it till a little after 10pm, she usually leaves at 9 when Karaoke starts. She might make it down in December but if not, she will be down in January. It was sad to see her leave but it was a great night, I did tell her the Starbucks I am going to now a she did pop in on me once at the Starbucks by my house as her male self of course. Would be so fun if she could meet me at Starbucks as Nicole.

Laurie also showed up just before 10 so we actually had 5 of us tonight, a smaller group but a lot of fun. I stayed till a little after 11 before paying my bill and heading home. It was a fun night out a I got to see my friends. It is hard when you don’t see your friends as they are a big part of one’s life. Cassandra has not been out much and with the holidays, she is really busy so I am guessing it will be after the first of the year before we can get together again and Julie is out of town for a few months although she may come back for a few days from time to time and I am hoping we can get together. I did talk with Cassandra on the phone the other night for almost an hour as we are planning on Diva Las Vegas next March as we both want to go that is if I can get the time off. The week they picked is not good for me at work but I am hoping to work it out. We are talking about going earlier and then leaving the Friday it ends so we only have 1 weekend in Las Vegas s it has gotten expensive. 5 years ago, we went for 9-night, 2 weekend and stayed on the strip and we paid lees than $400. Looking quickly online for the next Diva Las Vegas we are looking at $650 to $900 for 9 night and 1 weekend if we stay downtown and $1400 to $1900 if we stay on the Strip. I actually like the downtown more as the hotel casinos are no as big and massive so easier to get around and go between casinos plus you can find $5 blackjack. On the strip it is $10 on a weekday, $15 in the evenings and who knows about weekend. I like to play for fun so much rather have a cheep table. It was a wonderful night out though.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in Susan’s life.

November 25, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Sunday and some more Susan time.

It is Sunday and I find myself with the late afternoon and evening free and so that means some Susan time. Well not totally free as I do have some work I need to do but it is on the computer and I figured Susan could do it at Starbucks. I got dressed and was ready to leave by a little after 4. Now I thought about going to the Starbuck’s by my house as I am getting out early but as I do have some work to do and they close at 7 where the other is open till 8:30 I went with the other one as it gives me an extra 1 ½ if needed. Besides I have come here enough that a few of the girls are remembering me now. I took a quick selfie in the car before going inside.

I got to Starbucks about 4:15 and went in and again they were a little busy, maybe 20 people but again 1 table along the window, I like these tables as I can plug my computer in if needed. As there were about 5 people in line I set my computer up on the table before going to stand in line. I figured most of them would be staying as this Starbucks has a drive through. Sure, enough everyone in front of me Got a drink and found a place to sit so it is pretty busy here. Now I had to stand in line to wait for my drink and yet it felt so normal. I still amazes me just a few years ago the excitement, fear and terror I felt going out even to Embers which was very TG friendly and I was meeting friend so I would be alone and now I walk into Starbucks like it is the most natural thing I could do and never give it a second thought. In some ways I do miss that feeling but the fact I pretty much go where ever I want without fear is awesome as it has opened a whole new world to me.

I got my drink, today is the sweetened green ice tea which is really good and then went and sat down and started my work. Now last night when I was here there were several women in dresses so today I did wear my black dress, nothing to sexy more of I guess a casual dress and as it had bare shoulders I decided to wear my little white knit half top. Now this little white top I actually bought probably 6 years ago but have never worn it till now as when I have worn bare shoulder dresses I was always at a bar or club and wanted the bare shoulder. It is actually a cute look, I had to get another selfie.

I sat here and did some work for about an hour before I took a break and wrote my blog for last night as I got out for a few hours, yes twice in 2 day. Then it was back to work although I am checking the score of the world series on my computer. Another reason for coming to Starbucks, if I was at home I would have the game on and be watching it while I tried to work and I know from past experience I don’t get a lot of work done with the TV on so I guess Susan is good for me as she keeps me on task.

Now by 6 the crowd had died off here and there was only 6 other people here all working on computers. Starbucks is a great place to go with a computer. It would be interesting to know for sure how many times I have come to Starbucks over the years as Susan, my blog has 191 blogs that have that in the tag lines so I am guessing it is at least that many times, although some of those time I was probably out shopping or doing other things and stopped in a Starbucks on my outing. My blog goes back to 2006 although the first few years I didn’t get out more than maybe once a month if I was lucky. This blog is my 1105 blog so I have been out at least that many times as Susan which is hard to believe. 10 years ago, I would never have imagined going out even 100 times let alone that many times in basically 10 years. I have come a long way over the years as Susan and it is because of some of the wonderful friend (family) I have met. Some of them are my closest friends and they really are more like my family. I hope they all know just how special they are to me.

I finished up my work about 7 so I still had time, I worked a little on my blog for today and then just goofed around online and figure I will finish my blog tomorrow as I am not sure what all I will do before going home. Now as I have not had my acrylic nails now for probably 3 months with all that has been going on I have gone back to the way I use to do my nails, You can read about it on my nail tip blog. This is one of the great things about a blog as you can go back and find out about things you did. I would incur age everyone to keep a blog even if you keep it private for just you to see. Now don’t get me wrong I do love getting my nails done and having nice (pretty) nails all the time but in my male life I do have to keep them shorter and a very natural color where with this I can have long pretty nails when I am out as Susan. Tuff choice nice nails all the time or pretty, long, red nails when I am Susan.

I left Starbucks about 8:15 and went over to Subway and got a sandwich to take home. It really was a relaxing afternoon and evening and I am looking forward to getting out more. Be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what’s new in my life.

October 30, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Family update on my Dad

On Thursday evening our Lord called me Dad home to heaven. He passed peacefully in his sleep and is now at eternal peace in heaven. He was 91 ½ .

As far as I know he never knew about Susan (his daughter). The next few weeks will be really busy and Susan will be put in the closet as my brother and other family will be around a lot and right now the focus hast to be on taking care of what needs to be done and on my Mom.

September 22, 2018 Posted by | family, T-girl | , , , , , , , , | 24 Comments

Saturday before Diva Las Vegas, out at the Escape.

It is the Saturday before Diva Las Vegas and I am going to the Escape tonight to spend some time with my friends. I won’t be out here in Portland with them for a couple weeks. I started getting ready early as I wanted to stop at ULTA and see if they had some self-tanning lotion. Yes, I want a little more of a tan before I go to Las Vegas, something my male side could care less about. Any way I was ready by 4:45 and on my way. I got to ULTA and went in and looked around and found what I wanted. The lady at the checkout complimented me on my nails. Now it has been over 3 weeks since I got my nails done. They really do look good but they are getting pretty long at lest for my male side. I left ULTA and went to the escape and got there about 5:30 and went in and ordered dinner.

It wasn’t long and Kate and Cassandra showed up. It was great to see them again. WE sat around and talked mostly about Diva Las Vegas as we are all going. Kate will get there on Sunday and Cassandra, Julie and I will get there on Saturday. Cassandra, Peggy and I will leave early Friday morning and drive to Palm Springs to drop Peggy off and pick up Julie. It is going to be so much fun. Of course, I will have my long pretty nails. I will get my nails done on Thursday and then it will be 12 days of living as Susan. I was talking about it and Kate is also thinking of getting her nails done, it would be her first time and I know she will enjoy it. I told her when I was going and she might meet me and get her nails done with me. It really would be fun to go to the nail salon with someone. Now there were a couple of ladies and a man with them that came over and talked with us for a while before they left. I really do like meeting and talking with new people.

Jan and Lynn also showed up tonight and it was good to see them also and Michele also was there. Michele is also going to Diva Las Vegas although she will arrive on Monday and only be there till Friday. We have several girls going for their first time, Kate, Laura M. and Michele. I know they will have a fun time. Now I am not sure how many we have going from our group but I do know Melissa and her wife, Laura M, Kate, Brenda, Veronica, Michele, Keri, and of course Julie, Cassandra and myself so we will have at least 11 from Portland in Las Vegas. It really is fun when we have a big group from Portland going.

Now it got busy as it always does as Karaoke started. It was fun but it got loud and was hard to talk. Lorie showed up a little before 10 as she is our late-night girl so we had a good turnout tonight. It was nice to talk with everyone and just enjoy a fun night out with friends. As Susan I am way more social then my male self. It was a good night out. Next will be Thursday when I start my stretch of Susan. Thanks for reading and be sure to keep up with what is new in my life on my most recent blog.

April 8, 2018 Posted by | T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday at the Escape, getting there early

It is Saturday and I am going out for the evening to the Escape, not sure who else will be there but that is okay. My plan was to get there early and do some studying before others showed up. The next couple weeks my Susan time will be limited mostly sur of the moment outings which can also be fun. It is nice though to know when you will be going out though as it gives you time to plan and think about it and plan.

Well I started getting ready about 3:30 with the plan of being ready by 5. I was right on schedule. Now if you have been following my blogs you know I bought a corset several weeks ago from Orchard Corset and I have been wearing most times I go out as I have found it really does nice me a nice shape. Well I tried putting it on a little lower as my shape is not quiet the same as the typical female and this actually works better as it gives me better hips. Also wearing it so much has made it fit better and easier to lace up as it has somewhat formed to my body. It is the last thing I put on before my dress and hair. So tonight, I got it all on and had a nice shape. Now it was time for my dress. I had several on the bed and tried a couple but my blue and black one which was the second one I tried was the one I was going for tonight. Well I put the other 4 back in the closet and had the one I was going to wear but I decided to see if I could tighten the corset a little more as I have had it on for about 10 minutes now and yes to my amazement I could. So, I guess the trick is put the corset on and move around a little and then tighten again. Looking in the mirror I would say my waist was 4 or 5 inches smaller than my hips, I had an hourglass shape that looked great. The dress was on and the hair and I looked great. Corsets really do give you a nice shape.

It was just after 5 and I got my stuff and went down to the garage to get in the car, I have a smaller car. Wow getting in was hard and I couldn’t breathe. By the time I was in the car I had to sit a moment and catch my breath. Sitting in a low car seat with a corset, especially if it is tight is not real comfortable and a little hard to breathe. It is only a short drive but I was gals when I got to the Escape, it was just as hard getting out of the car. I went in and was glad I would be sitting on a hard chair that doesn’t sink down. I put my stuff on a table and noticed Lee over at the bar. She is one of our newer members, only her 3rd time out. I went over and said hi to her and she came over and joined me at the table.

She was here with her Sister, yes, she has come out to her sister and she is supportive of her which is great. Now it is funny as each time she has come out she has come out with someone different, tonight being her sister, they were actually meeting 2 other women tonight and then going someplace else. Wow she has come a long way fast I still have not come out to anyone from my male side although at least 1 of my neighbors know and I am guess more do. The five of us sat and talked for about an hour till it was time for them to leave at 6:30 as they had 7 pm reservations. I told them how great it was they were supportive of Lee especially her Sister. They were all really nice. On the way out, Lee’s Sister thanked me for looking after Lee which was nice and of course made me feel good.

Now I was by my self at least as far as our group but there were some people around me at tables. I got my book out and started reading. I discovered long ago I am not a reader, some people love to read books I have always believed if a book was good enough to read it would be a movie. Anyway, reading a boring text book is not easy. This I going to be a long couple of weeks and I am not sure I will get through the whole book. I read about an hour till Kate showed up. I was glad when she got there as it gave me a reason to put my book away which probably is not the right attitude.

Kate and I talked for a while mostly about why we like to dress and we still really can’t explain it. Kates girlfriend knows she dresses but Kate just told her that she goes out as Kate and she is taking it well, but that is how we got on the topic of why we dress. I really don’t have a defining reason why, I guess it is like asking someone why they like ice cream or chocolate. The reason is they like the taste, it not like you can give a long list of reasons you just like it. I just like dressing up and being Susan. I can spend an hour getting ready to go sit at Starbucks for a few hours and do work, my blog, e-mails or just goof off on the computer. Something I could do just as easy at home or even as my male self at Starbucks so it really doesn’t make sense. When I am at Starbucks I do kind of people watch but not as much as I use to and I am not really thinking about how I am dressed or how I look, hopefully cute. There really is no reason I can come up with other then I am just being me, just being who I am. I think so many of us want to be able to point to one thing, one point in time, one event that happened to us and say this is why but I have never found that. This is just who I am and I have accepted that and I think that makes all the difference. If you can accept yourself for who you are that is all that matters.

Kate and I were beginning to think we would be the only ones tonight but then Laura M and her girlfriend showed up and shortly after Teri Lee showed up. She is one of our newer members and came down from the Seattle area. I have exchanged messages with her so it was wonderful to meet her in person. She was meeting another girl she became friends with through our group named Andi who also came out tonight. I met Andi at Diva Las Vegas last year and she joined our group. It was good to see her again and get to know more about her. She actually met Teri Lee a couple weeks ago for Teri Lee’s first time out, tonight is her second and she was doing really well. Our group the Rose City T-girls is really a wonderful social group, but what makes it so special is the help it gives to helping new t-girls come out in the world. It really is a wonderful feeling, like earlier tonight when Lee’s sister thanked me for helping Lee it made me feel good but I have to admit I really love the feeling of helping someone new come out and become themselves. I remember my first time out and the next few times and the girls who helped me. Lori the girl who tapped on my car window and asked if I was going in just as I was about to leave for the 4th time without getting out of my car. Alice who I met after going out just a couple times and mad me feel so welcome and helped me get over my sheer terror. Cassandra who formed this group that I have been part of now for years. They all has such big impacts on my life and if I can do that for just one girl then I am the lucky one.

Another girl also showed up so we had 6 of us here tonight and we all had a great time talking and yes it was a busy night as there was standing room only. It is always fun when there are so many people here but it also makes it loud and hard to talk especially when Karaoke started but it was a fun night. Even talked with a few of the regulars here not from our group which is always fun. It was a really good night out, of course I stayed out later then I planned.

It was about 11:30 when I called it a night. I had been here about 6 hours but didn’t seem like it. I paid my bill and said my goodbyes. I went and got in my car and wow as hard ass it was earlier getting into my car it was worse now. Don’t get me wrong, I love my new corset and I am thinking of getting another but the drive home was hard, sitting in the low seat sunken in I was really uncomfortable. All I could think about was getting home and taking off the corset. May have been a little on the tight side but hopefully I will get use to it as I love the look it gives me, bit only short drives when it is tight.

Little long tonight but thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

February 25, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight; not sure how many will be there as I know a couple girls are out of town. Okay before I start this blog I want to make a side note. Last Saturday I went to the Escape and I wore an old corset that I got at one of the clothing exchanges we had, doesn’t really fit but it did make me sit up straight and gave me great posture which I liked and I mentioned I was thinking about now buying one that actually fits. I was surprised as I got several comments, e-mails and instant messages on this topic and again surprisingly every one recommended Orchard corset so on Wednesday night I decided to check out their web page. They have a wide selection and the prices were a lot less than I expected. Well I decided to measure myself and send in and see what they recommended although I had the one I liked. Thursday, I got home from work and I had an e-mail reply from them of the one they recommended and it wasn’t the one I liked. The one they reamended was the 305 well as I looked at it I decided to order one, not the one they recommended but the one I liked as they had a purple one on sale. Well any way I ordered it Thursday night and to my surprise it was actually delivered today, 2 days later so yes, I am going to wear it tonight. It really is pretty and I guess is more designed to wear over your cloths but I think for me that would be a bit much so it will go underneath.

I started getting ready a little before 4 as I was excited to try my new corset, I got my makeup done and I started getting dressed and I knew the corset would have to be one of the last things as I can’t really bend over with it on so I put me heels on before the corset. All that was left was my dress and wig so it was time for the corset. Now I did glance at the instructions, not one of my normal things and I saw they recommended the first few times not to tighten it too much to break it in. now with the front all hooked shut it was time to lace up the back. Now this is not an easy thing to do especially as my arms are not flexible enough to reach far up my back. It took a lot more effort than I thought but it did give me a nice shape and pulled my tummy in just a little big in the hops as well I have no hips. Probably why they recommended the shorter one.

I was on my way by a little after 5 and yes, it is really hard to get into a car when you can’t bend your mid-section. Also, not as comfortable when you sit on a seat that sinks in, I would not want to drive far wearing this. It does change the way you sit, stand and walk though and that is really good. I tried a new lipstick tonight that is really more of a pink color and I liked it although red is still my favorite.

I got to the Escape about 5:30 and parked right in front of the door and went in. there were only a couple people here but this is probably the earliest I have ever gotten here. Now the one big table was reserved so I took the other one and it was a good thing I did as about 20 minutes later another big group came in and they pulled 4 of the smaller tables together for them. I ordered dinner and felt a little bad taking up such a big table when I was not sure if anyone else would show up. I caught up on some e-mails and just played on the internet. By 7:30 it was really getting busy and a couple ladies sat down at the far end of the table which was fine as I didn’t feel so bad now. Kate showed up a little before 8, I was glad to see her as it is always more fun when you have someone else with you. Somehow going to a bar by yourself is not something I am big on. Kate and I talked for a whole and we got talking about makeup. I told her one of the YouTube channel (Julia Graf) I like to watch for tips on makeup and she took a picture of my computer screen with her phone to remember it something I have done before. We had a nice time just talking.

Now one of our newer girls to the group was going to come out tonight. I met her I think at the Halloween party which was her first time out anywhere and tonight would be her first time out in public. She had a friend that was coming with her for support, that first few times out is the hardest. Well it was about 8:30 when Lee showed up with her friend, a co-worker she came out to named Anne. That is something I have never done tell a co-worker so she is ahead of me on that. Now I could see she was really nervous but she was also so happy to be out, I remember those feelings when I was first going out. I was glad she joined us. Her friend Anne was so much fun and just so happy and supportive of Lee.

Now the bad thing is Karaoke started so it was hard to talk and hear but between the songs we did our best. Now I was actually amazed how comfortable the corset was, of course being new it wasn’t laced up super tight. It does make me sit up straight and it actually gives me that little arch in the lower back females have. The only bad thing is t is thick and really keeps your midsection warm, great when it is cold out but probably not good on hot days.

Now we were talking and of course I had to ask about how Lee came out to Anne, I have often thought about who I could come out to but that is one thing I have not done. Of course, now that we were asking questions Anne asked about my breast and till she said something I hadn’t noticed but the corset had pushed some flesh up and I actually had some really nice cleavage which you can see in the picture above. I guess another bonus of the corset. That’s when I told them about the corset I had bought and was wearing. At least I know it was not noticeable I had one on, Kate also mentioned she had also noticed. Lorie showed up just before 10, seems she was here last week and I had left just before she arrived. We had a smaller group tonight but still fun and I got to know a little more about Lee and her friend Anne. Lee was also getting more relaxed as the night went on. She went up a couple times to the bar by herself and even was talking to some of the other people here. It really does get easier the more you go out.

Now normally by 10:30 I am ready to call it a night but we were having so much fun, I really do enjoy when we have girls out for the first time, makes me think back to my first times going out. Besides the bar was packed and it was hard to even move around, probably one of the busiest nights I have seen here. Any way I knew it was getting late but there was always a line at the bar. They took a break in the Karaoke and played a dance song for the group at the next table celebrating a birthday and the dance floor was packed and there were only 5 people in line at the bar so I took the opportunity to go pay my bill.

It was getting late and Lee and Anne called it a night so I was thinking I should do the same. I looked at my phone and it was almost 12:30 am, wow this is the latest I have been out in a long time. I said my goodbyes and I was out to my car, again not easy getting into the car and yes as I said I was actually pretty comfortable in the corset all night but wow getting into the car was harder and it was not easy sitting in the front seat. I do have a small car that I sink down in the seat. The other thing with a corset is it is hard to twist to look behind you, it really does limit how your midsection moves. By the time I got home I was ready to take the corset off, I have had it on for almost 8 hours, I wonder what it would be like if it was really laced up tight. Any way I took it off and picked up the box it came in and the instructions and I noticed where it talked about not lacing it too tight the first few times you wear it, it also says you should only wear it 1 to 2 hours the first times too let it get broke in, opps. Any way I am thinking now of buying the corset they recommended to me

It was a good night out. Next Saturday we are doing a dinner at the City Grill in downtown Portland which I am looking forward to. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what’s new in my life on my most recent blog. By the way I would recommend Orchard Corset if you are looking for a corset.

January 28, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

T-girl Mexican Cruise, yes we are doing it!

Well I have had little time to get out as Susan over the last few months and it looks like it will be a while till I can get some Susan time. I did want to write and let you know our group is doing a Mexican Riviera Cruise and it will be so much fun and we already have 7 of us who have booked rooms. I am so looking forward to this cruise. It is put together by our group but it is open to all. If you are interested please check out the link below and then Contact Cassandra for information on booking with our group. I am including her e-mail below with information. It is October of 2018 so you have time to save money for the trip. I look forward to seeing you all on the high seas.

Hi Everyone!
 Don’t miss the most EXCITING event the Rose City Tgirls have ever put together. A 7 day Mexican Riviera Cruise with ports in Cabo, Mazatlan and Puerto Vallarta on the Star Princess with Princess Cruises. You are the first to hear about it and you can book early to receive a great incentive! We are going to send this out to everyone we know and get as many as we can throughout the US to attend. We already have 11 total people committed with 8 of them being Tgirls and this is the very first email we have even sent to anyone in regards to it. It will only get bigger and BIGGER! You have plenty of time to save your $$$ as the cruise wont be until Sat, Oct 13th 2018 to Sat, Oct 20th 2018 leaving and finishing in Los Angeles.  I don’t have the exact cost but it is approximately $1250.00 per person based on double occupancy for BALCONY ROOMS. In other words, if you want your own room, it would be approximately $2500.00. This includes all fees and taxes. You are welcome to upgrade for more money to bigger rooms or get an interior room for less money.

If you book your room by Aug 31st and ONLY by Aug 31st, you will get free ALL YOU CAN DRINK ALCOHOL (must be drinks under $10), soda, and juice for the entire cruise!!! There will be NO exceptions for this offer after Aug 31st.

In order to book a room, you must put a $100 REFUNDABLE deposit down and pick your room. The $100 would simply go towards your cruise. You have up to 75 days prior to the cruise to pay it in full.

Since we will be on International Waters, we have already worked out bathroom issues, boarding and unboarding, and checking in as girls. It’s all GOOD!

We have one person with Princess Cruises that is handling all our bookings and questions. If you are truly interested and want to book a spot with us on this cruise, you MUST send me an email to get our code and the booking info and the person to call.

Here is the link to the cruise itself…check out the rooms, the ship, the shore excursions and more….Remember, when you see the internet pricing, rooms START at_____….those are not the best of the rooms. You all get FREE upgrades to the midship area for balcony rooms…

For those that haven’t cruised before, there is unlimited food and restaurants which is all inclusive. There is entertainment every night in the Princess Theater. There are many shore excursions and tours you can go on in the ports. There 5-10 different bars. Swimming pools, hot tubs, outdoor track, fitness center, spa, basketball court, movie theater, and so much more….It’s just endless activities for you to do….



August 15, 2017 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, T-girl, transgender | 6 Comments

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

It is Monday of Diva Las Vegas and we stayed up way to late last night, it was almost 2:30 when I went to bed. I woke up today at 7:30 to the sound of the wind blowing stuff against our window and we are on the 9th floor. It is really windy outside. Well I laid there listening for about 10 minutes and was still tired so I figured I would sleep just a little longer, well the next time I looked at the clock it was 10:21, wow guess I was tired. I got up and got dressed, by the time I was ready t was almost noon. Cassandra was still finishing getting ready so I went downstairs with my computer to post yesterday’s blog, it only takes a couple minutes as I write it at night before going to bed or in some cases I write part of it during the day if I have a little time in the room between things we are doing. After that I took my computer back upstairs and then went down to find Kim as she was in the casino someplace.

I found Kim and we went over and got her a player’s card, if you go to Las Vegas and do any gambling get a card as you will at least get discount offers in the future or maybe some money off dinners. After that we went upstairs to see if Cassandra and Veronica where ready. Cassandra was but she needed to go pick up one of our girls at the airport that was flying in today and Veronica was still getting ready so Kim and I decided to walk over to the Freemont Street and look around. Now luck was on our side as the wind had died down some, wind is not a friend of a wig. We walked around and talked, Kim is having so much fun I am glad she could come down here and spend time with us. It is good for her. Kim wanted to get something to eat as it was almost 1 so we just picked a casino and went in, it was the four queens. We went to their restaurant and we ordered breakfast. We spent over an hour here and just had a wonderful time, it was great too just sit and talk with her as I have known her for several years but I got a chance to get to know a lot more about her which is always nice.

Cassandra texted us to see where we were so we told her and then we walked back to our hotel, stopping at Binions to pick up our picture, yes Kim and I got our picture taken with the Million dollars. We got back to the hotel and went up to the room and Veronica and Cassandra were ready so all 4 of us went downstairs to the casino. Being the middle of the day they didn’t have as many table games open so Cassandra sat down at the $25 table and Veronica and I found a $5 table. We played for a few hours and I was doing well as I was up when the dealer started getting hot ad since we had to leave at 6 to go to the opening dinner of Diva Las Vegas is quit. I bought in with $80 and cashed out $224 so I won back what a lost last night so I am basically even now give or take $20. I know I am not going to become rich off blackjack as I don’t bet enough but I play to have fun and hope to come out a little a head.

We got upstairs about 5:45 and Cassandra was ready for dinner so I changed dresses to something more suited for a night out and then went to see if Kim was ready as Cassandra and Veronica had already gone downstairs. Kim had bought one of those wrap dresses that you wrap around and tie and can make many different looks just by how you do it. Well she was having trouble so I helped her, I have never had to read instructions to figure out how to put on a dress. It took us a couple tries but soon we had it looking like one of the pictures kind of and we were off to meet the girls downstairs for the drive over to Bahama Breeze our favorite dinner of Diva Las Vegas.

We got to Bahama Breeze and there were already a lot of people there. It was good to see some of my friends I have met here over the years, Beverly and Cammie and several others. It is so great to see them again as it has been two years. Others from our group were also here tonight, Melissa and her wife, Karri, Michelle, Brenda, Teresa, Trish, Jessica and a couple others. We actually have 13 here this week so far from our group, one of our better turnouts. We got lots of pictures tonight. We had a wonderful dinner as always, Bahama Breeze is a wonderful place to go and the people who work here are awesome, I can’t say enough about this place. If you are in Las Vegas and want a nice place for dinner try this place. It was a wonderful night and I really enjoyed it.

We left here about 9:30 and went back to our hotel, now Veronica and Kim went down to the casino, Cassandra went to bed and I updated my blog so I could post it in the morning before going to bed. We are golfing tomorrow and need to leave for the golf course by 7:45 which means I need to be up by 6 to get ready and have time to run downstairs and ad pictures to this log and post it before we leave. It is hard to believe it is Monday night already and I have had my nails now for 4 days. I am already thinking about next Tuesday when I must remove my nails which will be sad.

Thanks for reading.

March 28, 2017 Posted by | T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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