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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Tuesday, Susan day out and lunch with Mikaela

It is Tuesday and I pretty much have the whole day today which is awesome. I am meeting Mikaela for lunch at the Olive Garden in Clackamas at 11. Now last night when I went to bed, I had my day planned out. Get up early 6:30 am and work out, get ready by 9 am and go to Clackamas promenade and look around till I meet Mikaela for lunch at 11 am then after lunch across the street to Clackamas town center for more shopping before heading back towards home and finishing up at Starbucks in the late afternoon and evening. Well it was a good plan and I did most of it. My alarm went off and I thought I hit the snooze but woke up at 7:30 so I worked out but didn’t start getting ready till after 8:30 so it was right about 10 when I left home and depending on traffic, I probably wouldn’t have much time before I met Mikaela. I got to Clackamas about 10:30 so not a lot of time, but I need have one pressing need. The bad thing about working out right before I got ready is a drank a lot of water afterwards and you can figure the rest out. I had about 20 minutes so I went to Clackamas town center and went into Barns and Noble to look around, it is a book store and a great place to go if you have time to kill as you can browse the books and read a little and of course they have a rest room. It was about 10:50 when I left and drove across the street to meet Mikaela. Now there were almost no cars at Olive Garden so I parked almost right in front of the doors. Mikaela got there about the same time as she was standing by my door when I got out of my car. Now she was working in the area so she was in boy mode but still able to meet me for lunch. It was great to see her again. We seem to get together about once a year, I think the last time was February 2018 when Mikaela, Melissa and I met for some shopping. Well the reason there was no cars as they don’t open till 11 so we stood there at the door with a couple other people for a few minutes till they opened. It really was wonderful to see her again.

We were seated at our table and our waitress was awesome her name was Christina. We ordered lunch and sat and talked and had a wonderful time. I really do like getting together like this as it really gives you a chance to talk. I found out what was new in her life and she found out what was going on in my life it was just so much fun and went by so fast. We talked a lot about being Trans and what it means at least to us. We are a lot alike but there are differences as she is transitioning and I am not but we look at life the same way. It is so wonderful to be able to be different and yet the same and respect each other for who we are. I say this in hopes some of my friends on both the left and right can realize this also works in politics. We don’t have to agree on everything or vote for the same person but we do need to respect each other’s right to believe in what they do and vote the way they feel is right. That is how our system is designed to work, we need to quit this attacking of others who vote different then us. Opps got a little political but it is important as I love all my friends even if they vote different then I do. Before we knew it, it was 12:40 we had been there talking for almost 2 hours. Well Mikaela had to get back to work as she had an appointment at 1. It was sad to see it come to an end but I will see her again hopefully not as long between. We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways, her back to work and me over to Clackamas Town center for a little shopping.

I parked outside JC Pennies and went in as I wanted to look at their dresses as they usually have some good sales, the problem is finding them in my size. I looked around for a while and then went out into the mall. I stopped at one of the mall directories to see what stores were here and where I wanted to go when a young man came up to me and started talking to me. I am not sure what he wanted or if he knew I was trans, he is from Pakistan and just came to our country and was looking for a job and friend. He started by asking where around here he could go to meet people and I really didn’t have an answer other then a bar. He seemed nice so we talked a little more and then he asked about me and if I was single or seeing anyone. I told him I was single and he asked if I was looking for someone which really at this point, I am not. My life is so busy and with Susan it is complicated for a relationship. We talked a little more, he was 27 and has a girlfriend back home but is looking for someone here and he said I was very pretty. Now I am not the least bit interested in men but I will admit it gives your ergo a bust to be hit on by someone half your age. Now I don’t know how much of what he said was true but it still made me feel good. I told him I had to get going and wished him luck finding a job but I probably talked with him for 15 or 20 minutes.

I walked around the mall and stopped in a lot of stores looking around really not looking for anything special it is more about just being out as any other woman. Of course, no trip to the mall as Susan would be complete without stopping in Victoria’s Secret, this is probably the best part of being a woman. The clothing options for woman are just so much better than for a man, men’s clothing really is boring. I spent a couple hours it so it was a little after 3 when I left and head back home or actually the Starbucks by my house. It took about an hour with traffic as it was rush hour, okay rush hour traffic is slow and lanes come to a stop and then go and I have to say it doesn’t matter what lane you pick it is slow. I say this as I see people switching back and forth thinking they are going to go faster when all they are doing is cutting people off and possible causing an accident. I saw one guy switching lanes so many times all to try to go faster and he almost hit a couple cars and I point this out because I got tired of him passing me. Yes, he actually passed me 6 different times and, in the end, he was 2 cars behind me when we got across the bridge.

I have some work I need to do this afternoon but I can do it from my computer, well actually Susan can do it from my computer. 30 years ago, I couldn’t imagine leaving my house as Susan, 20 years ago it was late night drive, 10 years ago it was going out late at night to a LGBT club and now I am sitting in a busy Starbucks doing my work. I really wish I could have been going out like this 30 years ago. I spent a couple hours doing my work and then started on this blog from today. I can’t tell you how wonderful it is to type with my pretty nails and see them on the key board. I am not looking forward to the end of the week when I have to remove them. I either have to go Friday evening to get them removed or I could go first thing Saturday morning but if I do that it would have to be as my male self most likely. I stayed here till a little after 7 before leaving. I stopped by burger king and got something to take home.

Tomorrow I will Meet Cassandra at her house at 11am and we will go to the coast for a few hours. I am really looking forward to it as I have missed seeing her as she doesn’t get out much anymore.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

November 5, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Labor Day Monday and some Susan time

Happy Labor Day everyone!

It is Monday, Labor Day and I have the morning and early afternoon free and what better way to enjoy it then as Susan and some shopping. Yes, I actually got up at 6:30 am to get ready with hopes of being on my way by 8. Now it is kind of different to get up in the morning and become Susan, usually just during Diva Las Vegas I get to do this as the rest of the time it is later in the day. it is fun starting the day this way. I was all ready and, on my way, a little after 8. Now my plans for the day are simple, want to go to Clackamas Town Center for a little shopping, stop at the cemetery and put flowers on my Dads grave, hard to believe it has been almost a year since he passed away (September 20 2018) and of course some time at Starbucks to write my blog for Sunday but other then that the rest I will just wing it and have fun.

I was on my way and figured I would start at Clackamas Town center but as I was driving, I realized it was just before 9 and I don’t think they open till 10 so a quick change in plans and so I got off the freeway at Johnson creek and went to the Fred Meyers there to get flowers as the Cemetery is not far from there and I could stop there first. I went in and looked around a little before picking out my flowers and then I was off to put them on my Dads grave. Now being a Holiday I was not sure how busy the cemetery would be. I got there and picked up a holder for the flowers and then went and parked by the section my Dad is in, there was one other car and a man and woman at a grave site in the wall on the path I will walk on. I got out and put the flowers in the cup and started up the path now it actually splits so I walked behind the wall and above but I knew they could see me. I got about half way up and realized I walked past a water faucet and I could have put water in the holder so I walked back down past them again and got water. I was on my way back up and as I passed by where they were the lady spoke up and asked if she could ask me a question. Now of course we all know what came to my mind but I said sure and it turns out she just wanted to know where I got the flower holder so I told her and she thanked me.

I got to my Dads grave site and placed the flowers. As I said it is hard to believe it has been almost a year. I never told my Dad about this side of my life, about Susan the daughter he didn’t know he had. Now whenever I come here by myself it is as Susan. I spent about 20 minutes here. Now I did get a quick picture as I left. Now I was off to Clackamas Town Center. I got there just after 10 and parked by Pennies and went in. I have found a few really cute dresses here and was hoping to find another. Now they had a big selection and most were on sale for 40% to 50% off but again my size I just a little bigger than the average female. I found two I really liked and they were less then $40 with the discount but they only had up to a size 16 so I headed out into the mall to look around. Now I really didn’t need anything but I always hope I find something. It is funny as my male side it is very logical when I buy things, do I need them, will I use them do I really need them. My female side is a little more, well is it cute and does it fit. Yes, my female side has my male side wrapped around her little finger. I looked around Macy’s, H&K, Nordstrom’s and of course Victoria’s Secret, I even went into the spirit Halloween costume shop. Yes, they are up already.

I stayed here till about 11:45 and it was not busy at all. I really thought on a Holiday there would be a lot more people out shopping. But it was nice and relaxing to just wander around the mall. I did get one selfie in the mall and you can see behind me there was no one. I left here and decided to stop at Cascade station by the airport on my way home. I got there about noon and this was totally different as there were people everywhere. I went into Ross and looked around and again found nothing I liked that would fit me. I also went into ULTA and looked around and a quick stop at Best Buy just to look. It was nice just to be out. I then drove down the street to Target to look around. I checked out their makeup section, I had bought an eye shadow here last year and really liked it, kind of a silver that I use on the inside corner of my eye and it was really good, made by Maybelline. I wanted to get another one and maybe a few more shades as it was only $2 or $3 but they didn’t have them. It is really hard to find single colors as they all seem to be pallets of eye shadows and I have a few but I find I use just a few of the colors and it seems like a waste. I did buy some other things I needed but nothing really for Susan.

I left here and then was debating about getting something to eat or just going to Starbuck. I decided on Starbucks as I figured I could get something to eat after on my way home. of course, I went to the ne I go to all the time. I did think about going to the one right by my house as I won’t be out late but wound up at my regular one. It is still within a mile of home, so different then 10 years ago when I drove a half hour, about 18 miles cross town to go to Starbucks. Now Starbucks was also busy and there were only a couple seats at the counter and 1 table in the middle so I set my computer on the table in the middle and went and ordered my drink and a cookie. The young man at the counter was awesome, he is new and I think this is his first week but he treated me wonderful, always referred to me as Miss. I got my drink and cookie and sat down and started working on my blog from last night.

Now I really do want to get back to doing my blogs faster but there is just something about being out as Susan and writing my blog as Susan. I got the blog done and figure I will post later tonight. I also started this blog and wrote about what I did earlier that way all I will have to do is finish it later. I had been here about an hour and a table opened by the window so I moved over, I plugged my computer I just so others would think I moved because I needed to not just because I wanted to sit by the window. A little later someone I know came in, now that is the other advantage of where I sit as people coming in are looking to the counter where they order so they really cant look at me till they order or really get there drink and start to leave or go find a seat so I just kept my head down. Now it turns out he didn’t leave and he sat at the table behind me and got his computer out. So here we sat with hi behind me looking at my back. He only stayed about 45 minutes but it was an interesting feeling.

I stayed here till about 3:30 before I left and went to Pana Express to get something to eat. Then it was time to go home and change back to my male self. I got home about 4:15 and my day of Susan came to an end but it was fun. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 3, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Tuesday out, going to meet up with Peggy for some shopping

Okay Tuesday morning I got up a little later after all this is my vacation. Peggy and I are going to meet at Clackamas Town Center at 2 so I do have some time before we meet. I got all ready and was on my way, I got to Clackamas about 10:30 and decided to go to the Promenade across the street mainly because I wanted to go to the Nordstrom’s Rack and look at purses and shoes and yes, I am using my new purse today to see how it works. So far, I am liking it, there are things I don’t like about it but a lot more things I like and I think it is just a matter of getting use to something new. My first stop was Nordstrom Rack and they had a nice selection of purses but none in the style I am looking for, very few black ones and the ones they did have were either small or huge so I headed back to the shoe section where they actually have a nice selection up to size 12. Now I am a size 10 to 11 depending on the toe width. Now to my surprise there were 4 other women in this size section looking for shoes and yes even 1 man. I had to wonder to myself if he was looking for himself. I looked around for a while and even tried on several pairs. I found 1 ankle boot that fit but it had the long pointy toe which I am not a fan of, I think they make my feet look bigger.

I also walked down to Kohls and looked around for a bit and also stopped in beauty first to look around but this is more of a beauty salon so I didn’t stay long. I then walked down to Target and looked around for a while. It is funny as I have come here before and shopped all these stores but I would always park as close as I could to the door, go in and then drive through the parking lot to the next one. Now I just walk between them and leave my car parked. It was now after 12 and I am meeting Peggy at 2 at Nordstrom’s in the mall so I figured I would drive over to the mall as there is a Starbucks there and get a drink and a snack as I haven’t eaten yet today. By the way wearing a corset helps you cut down on what you eat, yesterday I had my lunch at the mall and never thought about eating as I wasn’t hungry, at least till I took off the corset last night. I may actually loose a little weight this week. I am also not wearing the corset today 12 hours yesterday was enough so taking a break.

Now the Starbucks is right inside the main entrance and of course parking I bad there so I had to park way out and walk in. as I got close I saw the Sprint store which is where I have my cell phone through. I have had my current phone and plan now for almost 3 years (in May) so I am interested in what they have to offer and of course a new phone. I decided to go in and talk to them as Susan of course I kept it general and didn’t tell them I was a current customer. Now there were two girls working and one had on this beautiful red lipstick of which I just had to compliment her on as you don’t see a lot of woman wear red lipstick. Anyway, the other girl helped me and she was very nice and gave me all the information I wanted. I am planning upgrading my plan and getting a new phone as it appears I might even save just a little money each month or at least be cost neutral. The question is do I do it today as Susan or come back later as my male self. Well I have all day to think about it plus I will be here again on Friday with Mikaela.

Now the Starbucks was right next to the sprint store so I went in and got a snack and killed some time till it was time to go meat Peggy. I met Peggy just before 2 and it was great to see her, always more fun to be out with someone else as you have someone to talk with. Now for the first 30 minutes we just kind of wandered the mall talking and catching up, Peggy told me about her vacation she just got back from. It was very enjoyable.

Once we had caught up we went to Nordstrom’s as Peggy was looking for a lipstick and I needed more foundation, I really like the MAC Studio fix. I can use regular foundations if it is for a few hours but if I am going to be out any length of time the MAC just holds up better. The lady that helped us was awesome, her name was Sandra. She helped Peggy find just the right lipstick for her and also a blush and then of course got my foundation which I already knew what I wanted. She then told us they were doing a makeup event March 4 to 10th and asked if we wanted to come in for a makeover. This really sounds fun and I am thinking about it I just couldn’t commit this far out. She gave each of us her card with the dates on it and told us she would be there on the 9th & 10th if we wanted to schedule with her or any of the girls could do our makeup.

We checked out a few more stores before going for a mid afternoon lunch, we went to the Cheesecake Factory. Now we were good and both ordered salads. We had a wonderful lunch and again sat there talking, our waiter by the way was awesome and checked back on us regular to see how we were doing. After we finished we sat and talked some more, it was a wonderful time. It was about 4:30 when we left and went back into the mall, we decided to check out a few more stores because if we left now we would both be caught in rush hour traffic so why not shop a little more and let traffic die down.

Peggy found a really cute pinkish dress and some really cute sparkly tennis shoes, I was just having fun looking around. The funny thing is she was also looking for things for Cassandra. We spent about another hour in the mall before heading for our cars. It was about 5:30 and we would still have traffic but hopefully not as bad. We actually parked only a few cars apart. Hopefully I will see Peggy again in a few weeks when we go to Harvey’s Comedy Club, Julie Scoggins is coming and she is one of our favorite comedians. Now believe it or not on my way home I hit no traffic so I was home by 6 well not quite as I stopped at the Starbucks by my house for a little while. It really is funny as I never thing or go to Starbucks if I am not Susan. I think I have only gone here maybe 4 times as my male self and 3 of those were time I was on vacation and had my nails painted, Starbucks is defiantly a Susan outing.

Now there were about 10 people here at the table next to me was 3 ladies and 2 men and I noticed one of the girls kept glancing over at me. N ow the interesting thing is as she would glance at me there seemed to be something familiar about her. Now I am pretty sure I don’t know her and it was just the fact she was looking at me that made me feel this was. I stayed here till about 7:30 but I was a little hungry and I was trying to figure out what I wanted to eat.

Now they opened a Domino’s pizza a few blocks away and I have gone there 3 times over the last 3 to 4 weeks and I liked the idea of going in there as Susan just to see. Now they do ask for a phone number when you order so that was my only concern. Now I have herd you can get a phone number from Google for free to link with your own number. Well a quick search and I found google voice. Just to see what would happen I selected a phone number and wow, it was attached to my account and linked to my cell phone. I can send and receive text messages make calls and if I want have them forwarded to my cell phone.

I got to Domino’s and went in, now there are about 7 people working here and 2 of them one female and one male have been there each time I have been there. I ordered my pizza and gave them my new google phone number. About 10 minutes later out came my Pizza and the girl said here you are Susan have a good night and I was on my way home. It has been a wonderful day. Thanks Peggy for going shopping with me.

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February 7, 2018 Posted by | Nordstrom's, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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