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The last Friday of 2016

Well it is here the last Friday and the end of 2016. It is funny and sad as I have seen a lot of posts on Facebook from people about 2016 and they are glad to see it go as it was so bad, mostly because of the deaths of some of our favorite and beloved actors and singers and there were a lot this year. And although here were many issues in 2016 there were a lot of good things also and I myself like to look at the good things. so that is what this blog will be about plus my going out tonight. There will be links to other blog posts from this year throughout this blog if you also want to look back with me, All the links will be to my blog about the events and not to their web page.

Tonight will be my last opportunity to go out as Susan this year so I was going to take advantage of it. Cassandra texted me to see if I was going out since Roxy and Chris would not be at Sweet Home and of course the answer was yes. I was going even if only to eat dinner and if no one else showed up I would leave by 8. Well Cassandra said she would be there then so I wouldn’t be by myself. Don’t get me wrong as it is always more fun with someone else with you but you really need to be able to be happy with yourself to be truly happy. If you cannot find joy in your own life and need others to make you happy it is hard. Focus on the good things in your life and let the rest go as life is to short to dwell on the negative.

I got to Sweet Home at 6:30 and had to park a block away so I figured they would be busy but they weren’t. I got the table Chris is always at as a matter of fact all the tables were empty. A few people at the bar and a few playing video poker. Sometimes I get here early and sometime late like when I have a nail appointment on a Friday usually before a vacation to get my nails painted red. Any way I ordered dinner as I was hungry. They have wonderful food here and looking back over the year Susan’s biggest expense was food while she was out. Yes this year I added lines for Susan in Quickens which I use to follow my expenses for the year. Some of the places we have gone for dinner this year are Morton’s Steak House, Who Song & Larry, Southland Whiskey Kitchen, A dinner I had with Julie which was awesome, Alexis Greek food, Hobo’s, Rock Bottom, McMenamins Ringler Pub, Diner with a friend visiting from Canada Stephanie Shostak, Henry Tavern, Benihana, Spaghetti Factory, We really have gone to many new and fun places as a group. Now this is what I mean about being positive, I could think about all the times I couldn’t make it out to dinner with my friends which there were more of but I look to the times I did and the fun I had.

There were also out trips to Harvey’s comedy club again which I did not make everyone but the ones I did were wonderful and I bought new dresses for some of them, January, February, April, May, June, July, August, September, October, December. These are wonderful memories I have with my friends. Okay my pitch for keeping a blog or diary, it is a great way to look back over your life and remember the fun things you did and how you grow as a person, you can do it with a blog which I do, Blogs can be set for public view, just friends, or private and word press actually lets you set Ii t on individual blogs so you can have some public and some private. when I started my blog it really was just for me to remember and I never thought people would find it and read it and keep coming back to see what I am doing. It is kind of a humbling experience to think people follow my life as Susan and I thank each of you as I do consider you all part of my extended family. Well back to Friday night.

I got my food and just then Robyn showed up. It was good to see her again as I said it really is more fun when you are out with friends. Cassandra showed up next and it turned out to be just the 3 of us for the night. Cassandra and I talked about Las Vegas and going to Diva Las Vegas. We are still planning on staying downtown as the room rates are so much cheaper. and there are so many casinos right next to each other where o n the strip they are so spread out. We are trying to talk Robyn into going also. I think it would be great to have a big group from Portland go. I was looking back and I went to Diva Las Vegas in 2010, 2011, 2013, 2014, 2015 so this will be my 6th time going and I am so looking forward to it. Cassandra and I checked out hotels downtown for prices and they seem to be about the same and no resort fees. Cassandra is going to book both rooms so we can get two together. If you have never gone to Diva Las Vegas there is nothing more fun then spending time in Las Vegas as your female self. Okay here is a link to the Diva Las Vegas page and not my blog.

Cassandra and I played with our group web sight and she showed me some of the improvements that have been made. It really is a wonderful web site and we have full control over it as we own it. Well it got late and Robyn left and soon it was time for Cassandra to leave as she was DJing on Pal talk at 11 the chat room she follows. I paid my bill and was getting ready to leave when a lady came over to talk to me. She had been meaning to come over and talk with us and was sad Cassandra and Robyn had left but we talked for a little while. Her name was Leah and she was really nice. She had been playing video poker by our table and had heard some of our conversation and thought we were wonderful as we had been talking politics. Now you have to remember when we do talk politics it is not about who won or party sides it is about how people on both sides take it so personal and serious. I see it online and in real life. people have attacked both verbally and in person those who voted against them. Family and friends have been divided and lost over this election. This should not happen, we are first and most important Americans. We stand together. We can disagree on things and that is okay but we are still all American. The last time our country had such a divisive divide over politics was when we had the Civil War which also divided neighbor against neighbor and family against family and we know where that went. We are one country Indivisible with liberty and justice for all. United we stand, it is time to put differences together and work together to make our country work for all. Opps got a little off track but I hate seeing all this fighting between people and friends.

Any way Leah and for a while and of course she had some questions and of Susan & Leahcourse thought I was beautiful which I always love to hear. She told me a little about her family and even had to get a picture of us together to send to her daughter, So of course I had to take one for my blog. She even introduced me to her Husband. It was fun. It was almost 11 when I left but I had a fun night.

As 2016 ends and we look forward to a new year I am thankful for all my friends I have made who accept me as I am, you are all wonderful. Have a Safe and Happy New Years.

Thanks for reading and being part of my life both in person or online.

December 31, 2016 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Morton’s Steakhouse.

It is Wednesday and I was really looking forward to going out to dinner with my friends. It has been a while since I have been out for a midweek dinner. Cassandra had made reservations at Morton’s Steakhouse in downtown Portland. It is a higher end restaurant but it was our Christmas dinner. Now our reservation was for 7 but Cassandra was going to try to be there by 6 so that was my goal also. I started getting ready at 4 as I really love this time, doing my makeup and planning what to wear and how I want to look for the night. It doesn’t matter what happens during the day everything is better once I start becoming Susan.

I was ready and on my way by 5:30, I got downtown Portland and was parking a block away by 6. It is funny as Morton’s Steakhouse is only 2 blocks from our Attorney’s office and I actually parked in the same place I parked a few years back when we had our last meeting with our attorney. Now I haven’t talked about the P-club for a while and there really is no new information. We have gotten a little money as they have collected maybe $30,000 so far and that was divided up between those in the suit. They may sound like a lot but the sad thing is it doesn’t even cover the interest he is being charged on the verdict. We may never collect all of it but every time he gets money the state will take some and give it to us and he will once again be reminded what he did was wrong. Well back to our dinner, I walked the block to Morton’s and went in, they were packed. The Lounge was full. I walked through the lounge which really was small. One lady stopped me and told me how cute my heels were which made me feel good. The Lady at the door asked if I was with the T-girl group and I said yes. Turns out because of the size of our group we got one of their special dinning rooms which they had all set up for us.

Group at Mortons Steakhouse 12-28-2016 (8)She showed me to the room and Sophie was already there so I wasn’t the first to arrive. Now I had to get a selfie to remember the night. It was good to see Sophia and we got to talk a little as we waited for others to show up.

Cassandra was the next to arrive, she said we had 15 signed up for tonight’s dinner which was nice. It would be a fun night with that many. No down to business Cassandra and I talked about Diva Las Vegas. It is hard to believe it is only 3 months away. Now we are planning on driving down again so it will be a road trip.

Yes I will get my nails done on Thursday night, pretty long acrylic nails. We will leave early Friday morning and drive straight through to Las Vegas, it takes about 16 hours so we will get there between 8 and 9 pm. We are planning on staying downtown at the Freemont Hotel Casino. It is cheaper then staying on the strip and as we are staying 8 night there. The following Saturday we are planning on driving to Long Beach California and going out to Hamburger Marry for T-girl nights which is the first Saturday of every month. We did this a couple years ago and had a blast. After that we are still deciding if we will come home on Sunday or stop off in San Francisco. I don’t have to be back to work till that Wednesday so as long as I have time on Tuesday to remove my acrylic nails I am fine with when we get home. Now as I said Cassandra and I are going Julie is a strong maybe. Veronica will meet us there and I will be sharing a room with her to keep cost down so I have more money for fun things. Sophie and Melissa are thinking of going as is Brenda and a few others from our group. It will be so much fun. Cassandra is going to book our rooms so we can get rooms next to each other. Now that we have that all worked out back to tonight’s dinner.

Group at Mortons Steakhouse 12-28-2016 (6)Brenda showed up and I almost didn’t recognize her as she has let her hair grow out and looked great. Julie also showed up and I got to sit next to her and we got to talk all night. Julie will be finishing up her vacation in Palm Springs and is planning on coming to Las Vegas with us. I hope she makes it.

Emma also showed up and I think I have met her once or twice before although she doesn’t go out much with the group. It was nice to talk with her and get to know her a little more. now a sideGroup at Mortons Steakhouse 12-28-2016 (11) note Morton’s Steakhouse had special menus printed up for us and of course I had to take a picture as it said Rose City T-girls Christmas dinner on the top, how awesome is that. Melissa, Laura, Lou (AKA Lisa), Joan, Bambi, Kris, Jamie and her girlfriend showed up and Cristine was the last to show up. Wow Cristine is almost always one of the first there. Any way all 15 showed up which was awesome.

Now it was time to order and as I said it is a higher end restaurant so the prices are higher but wow the food was awesome. Now I went the Pork chop and potatoes which was really good. The side dishes were big and meant to be shared so I also got to try some Broccoli and Creamed corn and that was also really well. The wait staff here was awesome and every one of them referred to us as miss which made us feel great. Now of course Julie and I had to compare nails as she also got a manicure for tonight of course she got to have red on her nails so hers were prettier. It is fun talking about going to the nail salon or makeup, you know a little girl talk.

After dinner Julie and I shared an ice cream Sunday and even between the two of us we couldn’t finish it. I really did eat way to much but it was all so wonderful. Now after IMG_03061dinner we got one of the waiters to take a group picture of us and I just have to include it. What a fun night.

Now Morton’s Steakhouse closes at 10 pm so I was hoping not to be out to late but time went by so fast. Soon it was 10:30 and they never said a thing to us about us being late. We all paid our bills and were getting ready to leave and several of the wait staff came over and thanked us for coming in and invited us back, what great customer service. I would highly recommend them if you are looking for a good dinner out as a treat.

We said our goodbyes and left, Sophie Cassandra and I walked together as we all parked the same area, actually Cassandra parked one car in front of me. we have a wonderful group and so supportive. It is amazing how far I have come as Susan with the support of my friends here in the group. If you live in Oregon or Southwest Washington or you come to Portland and want to go out you are more than welcome to join us or our group the Rose City T-girls.

Thanks for Reading and have a Happy and Safe New Years.

December 29, 2016 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Manicure and pedicure and a little Starbucks time.

It has been 2 weeks since my last manicure and I really wanted to go get a manicure and pedicure tonight. A chance to be out as Susan for a little while. This is always such a fun and relaxing experience that woman get to enjoy. I got home at 3 and was going to call and make an appointment but figured I would take my shower and do some of the prep work first. I got out of the shower and shaved and was ready to start my makeup by 3:20. I called Dream nails to see if I could get in, Annie answered the phone and new who I was so I guess she has my number stored in her phone system. She asked what time I wanted to come in and I was planning on 4:30 which gave me an hour to finish getting ready but for some reason I said 5 so she said she would see me at 5. Now it was time to enjoy the time getting ready and doing my makeup.

It was 4:15 when I finished my makeup so I was way ahead of schedule. I was getting ready to start getting dressed when the phone rang so I answered it and ended up talking to my parents for about 15 minutes. I no more than hung up and my brother called, wow I am popular today. Any way I talked to him for about 15 minutes all the time wondering what they would think if they knew how I looked as I was talking to them. full makeup and wearing a bra and panties. I got off the phone with him and looked at the clock and it was 4:45. I had 15 minutes to get dressed and hair on, pack up my computer and get to the nail salon. Luckily it is close as it was 4:56 when I pulled out of my garage.

I walked into the nail salon right at 5 and Annie was waiting for me so it was right to the table. She filed off the top of the gel polish and then put the remover on them and the little clamps t hold them on and then took me over to start my pedicure. I sat and soaked my feet as she finished up another lady. It was about 15 minutes before she came over to do my pedicure. Now I have never sat with those clamps on my fingers that long but it is amazing how often you want to brush hair off your face or do something else with your hands when you can’t.

Annie asked me what color I wanted for my toes and as I got here right at 5 I didn’t have time to pick out a color so I told her something red and she said she had a red she really liked and went and got it. It is a deep darkish red with a little bit of shimmer or sparkle to it and looked pretty so I said it was fine. this is the first time I have let someone else pick out the color and it really is a pretty color. Now I really do love getting a manicure and pedicure as it is so relaxing, a wonderful way to treat yourself. The soaking, leg massage, lotion and oil, hot stone rub my legs never look or feel better then after a pedicure and they stay that way for a couple days, silky soft skin. She got done and put the color on my toes and it was beautiful, so wish I could get it on my fingers also.

now it was time for the manicure so we went over to the table and she scraped the gel polish off, trimmed the cuticle and evened out the nails. I filed them down at home before I came to get the length I wanted. that way all Annie had to do was shape them which she did. Next was the polish and I got the same gel polish I did last time as I really like it. it is a clear polish with just a hint of rosy pink. well it depends on the light as to how rosy pink it is. in certain light it just looks clear but in others you can defiantly see the rosy pinkish color. Now I have been coming here to Dream Nails for over two years, my first visit was 9/18/2014, yes I looked it up in my blog, although the first year was not that often but the last year starting last January I have come here to get my nails done every 2 to 3 weeks and I love it. I would encourage everyone, male or female to do this at least once and see how you like it. I am sure you will do it again.

It was 6:30 when I was all finished and I once again had pretty toes and fingers. Now I didn’t want to go home yet one of the reasons I brought my computer so I drove across the street to Starbuck. Now as I said before I am getting more comfortable as Susan. A few years ago I would never have gone to a Starbucks so close to my house as a matter of fact the Starbucks I did go to was about 12 miles away. This one is less than a half mile and is the closest to my house. They weren’t busy maybe 5 other people inside so I had my choice of tables. I ordered a Hot Chocolate and a cheese Danish and got out my computer. I spent a little time catching up on some e-mails and work before turning to more important things. Updating my blog.

This week I will make it out 3 times, tonight of course, tomorrow night for dinner with my friends. We are doing our Christmas dinner and Cassandra set up the reservations. I know we have 10 but we have room for 16 so I am hoping more come out. Cassandra set it up and made all the reservations, Thanks Cassandra. I also plan on being out Friday night also. I have to work early on Sunday so I will not be able to go out and Celebrate New Years with my friend which is sad. They are going to Harvey’s Comedy Club for New Years. I may see if they are meeting at Fox & Hounds first and if so maybe I might go have dinner there with them before the show and then go home when they head for Harvey’s.

Tomorrow night at Dinner Cassandra and I are going to talk about Diva Las Vegas and set our plans. Veronica is thinking of going but wants to know whet we are doing and also Julie will be there and I think / hope she is going so we should be able to have it all worked out soon. It will be good to see Julie again as it has been a while as the Holidays always make it harder to get time to go out.

Now I have been sitting here at Starbucks and not paying attention to the time and it is now a little after 8 and they are closed. The young man had to come remind me, wow I guess time flies when Susan is having fun. I left Starbucks and headed for home. wow my feet are cold wearing flip flops. I don’t know how girls wear them in the winter when it is cold out. It only took a couple minutes to get home so I am finishing my blog at home. I am not going to put the matte polish on my nails because I want to show them off to Julie tomorrow night. It should be interesting as the last time I did go to work for several days with shinny nails but tomorrow will be busy and I will have a lot more interaction with co-workers.

Well thanks for reading and I hope you all had a Merry Christmas and have a safe and Happy New Years this weekend.

One last thing as today Carrie Fisher pasted away, she was best know as Princes Leia in Star Wars one of my favorite movies. She will be missed and my thoughts and prays go out to her family. So sad.

December 27, 2016 Posted by | Dream Nails, Manicure & pedicure, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday before Christmas

It is the Friday before Christmas, I have all my shopping done and so it is a night for Susan to go out and have some fun. I do want to take this opportunity to wish all of you my online family a Merry Christmas and Holiday season. Now I 12291735_10207947700874614_2758177720103809167_odidn’t get any pictures tonight but thought I would post a couple from last year. I really do love this time of year.

I got home a little after 5 and started getting ready as I was going to Sweet Home. Cassandra texted me she also was going out so I was looking forward to seeing her again. I took my time getting ready to be sure and enjoy it. I was ready and on my way by 6:30. I got to Sweet Home a little before 7 and had to park about a block away. Chris and Robyn were already there12307337_10207947700914615_5697100067396019937_o and Roxy showed up right after me.

Now they had their breaded Chicken dinner which is always awesome so I ordered it for dinner. They really do have great food here and I was hungry. Laura H. and Lisa showed up and also Cassandra so we had 7 of us out tonight.

Cassandra and I talked about Diva Las Vegas as we are both going. We are planning on staying downtown as it is cheaper as we are planning on getting there on March 24th and leaving either April 1st or 2nd. Of course I will get my nails done for the trip. I am hoping we can get more girls from our group to go as a few years back when we had 11 of us from Portland it was so much fun. We also talked about other thing, it was a fun night.

Now the other group that comes here had a birthday celebration so they had a big group tonight. They really are a fun group. Heather was here tonight and always good to see her. We talked for a little while which was nice. I actually talked with several of the other group which is always nice, We really are accepted here.

Laura, Lisa, Cassandra and I talked some more about our dinner coming up Wednesday, we are going out for a late Christmas Dinner. It will be a lot of fun and good to see some more of my friends. Karaoke started and it was fun to listen to the singing. It was good but not many Christmas songs. Yes I am a big fan if Christmas songs.

It was almost 11:30 when I called it a night. I went up to pay my bill and got talking with a couple girls at the bar. Now the funny thing is I was so busy talking with them when I went to sign my credit card slip I started signing my male name. I caught it and crossed it off and signed Susan but wonder if I have ever done that before without realizing it. It was a fun night out.

Next week I will go get my nails done, Go to Dinner and again on Friday so I should be out 3 times. I will not be able to make it out for New Years though which is sad.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight.

December 25, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Cold December Saturday

It has been a few cold, icy and snowy days here in Portland, we got a couple inches of snow and some ice on Wednesday and it pretty much shut down the city and we still have it 4 days later. Now I didn’t make it out Friday but I was determined to make it out Saturday. Now the 3rd Saturday of the month our group has been going to Salem to go out with the girls down there. Now with the weather and it appears they had more ice down there most of them were staying home. I also wasn’t sure if any would be out here in Portland at the Escape but that didn’t matter. I was going out. At the very least I would go and have dinner and play on my computer for a little while.

I took my time getting ready as I really enjoy this time. Now it is cold out but I decided to wear my maroon dress. Now with this dress I do my makeup a little Susan Millerdifferent including a deep wine lipstick. Of course I got a quick selfie. I got to the Escape a little after 6 and there was really no one here, maybe 6 other people.

I set up my computer and ordered dinner, a chicken Caesar salad. I am trying to eat healthier although I did order some fries later. Now as I said I wasn’t sure if anyone else would show up but I was out and I was going to enjoy it. Now while I was ordering there was a man across the bar showing his friends his new shirt and I thought it was great although one of his friends didn’t get it at first. The shirt simply said “Number 1 Star Wars fan” with a picture right below it of the USS Enterprise star ship.

I ate my salad and played on my computer, catching up on e-mails and some work. Now a small group of woman came in and sat at the next table. They weren’t there long, maybe 30 minutes. just long enough to eat and they were gone. It really was a slow night here, I guess the weather didn’t just keep our group home.

It was maybe 8 or a little after when another one of our members showed up so I wasn’t alone any more. she ordered dinner and we talked some. she is also planning n going to Diva Las Vegas next year. I am looking forward to it as it is such a fun event and a chance for me to be Susan for 12 days straight and of course have long acrylic nails.

After we both had eaten yes I had my fries we played pool. now I am not that good at pool but I had a good night. The first game she broke and didn’t sink any balls. On my turn I sunk 6 in a row to get down to my last ball but that was as far as I got as I couldn’t get a good shot at it again and she slowly sunk her balls and then the eight ball. The next game started the same she broke and didn’t sink a ball and again I sunk 6 in a row getting down to my last ball. my next turn I sunk it and the 8 ball to win so we each had won a game. The next game was a little more even and slower but I also won that one. The fourth game I was a head and made a shot at the 8 ball missing and scratching the cue ball and I loss the game so we each won 2. it was a good night.

Karaoke started and we talked some more and listened to the singing. There were a few more people here now but still only 10 or 12 including us. It was one of the slowest nights I have seen here but it was still a fun night out. It was probably 11 PM when we called it a night. It was a good night out and with the Holidays upon us I probably wont get out much the next two weeks or at least I do it will be a spur of the moment chance. So with that being said I would like to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy and safe New years.

Thanks for reading.

December 18, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Out on a Tuesday night for a manicure and a little Starbucks time.

Okay I didn’t make it to get my nails done on Saturday so I am going tonight. I got home a little after 3 and started getting ready. I always like to get part way ready so I can more easily judge what time I can make it out. It was about 4 when I was just finishing up on my makeup so I called the nail salon for an appointment. Normally Annie answers the phone so I asked if I could get in for an appointment and gave my name and I herd the voice say she is not here. I forgot one of the nail technicians is named Susan. Any way I got an appointment for 4:30 so I did rush a little getting dressed. I got to the nail salon about 4:20 yes it is really a short drive from where I live. There were 2 other woman waiting so I sat down and started looking at all the pretty colors on the sample wheels. So wish I could just pick a red and go to work with that color. The lady next to me asked if she could look at it as she forgot the number of the color she wanted. Once she found it she asked what I thought of the color and how it would look on her finger. it was a dark sparkly red and I thought it would look get and wished I could pick it. We talked for a few minutes till it was her turn. seems when the girl told me 4:30 was fine she didn’t know Annie already had a 4:30 appointment. Any way I had to wait a little while which was okay. lots of women go to the nail salon and wait till they can get their nails done.

Annie finished up the other lady and called me over to the table. the lady showed me her nails and asked what I thought and I told her they were beautiful and she agreed, she liked the sparkly red for the Holidays. Annie started on my nails and asked what color I wanted and I told her my normal clear pink. She was still out of it but had another brand of gel polish in a similar color . She showed it to me and it was a clear polish with just a tad more red. Now it looked a little more red when looking at it but I decided to see what it would look like. Annie started on my nails removing the old polish soaking them and filing them. It is funny as when I ask her to trim them she cuts them back kind of short. So today before I came I filed them to the length I wanted so all she had to do was shape them. They are just a tad short but in two weeks when I come back they will be a little on the long side so I guess it is the perfect option. Now it was time for the gel polish. Annie started with a clear base coat and then went for the polish. now looking at the brush it really did look reddish but when she put it on my nail it really wasn’t that red. just gave my nail a really healthy look. Now the second coat went on and my nail bed really does have a nice healthy reddish pink glow to it. She finished with a top coat and my nails look amazing, really healthy and pretty natural. now I am sure in the bright light it may be a little more reddish but defiantly not as noticeable as the sparkly pink I had on my nails the last two weeks. This will be my gel polish unless I am able to do a real color. Here are some pictures in different light, with and without the flash.

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It was about 5:40 when I was done and on my way. Now I am all dressed up and didn’t want to just go home so I drove across the street to Starbuck’s and even though it is only a couple blocks from my house I went in and figured I would hang out here for a couple hours to update my blog and catch up on some e-mails and work. I just don’t find it fun any more to be at home as Susan. If I am Susan I want to be out someplace even if it is just sitting at Starbuck’s. My first thing was to e-mail Marci, she is a friend I have met a couple time when she has come to Portland. She e-mailed me about Diva Las Vegas as she is thinking of going and wanted some information. I really hoe she can go as I think she would have a wonderful time. The dates are March 26 through March 31 2017 so there is still time if you are thinking of going. They will start registering in early January. I have my vacation all set so I will be going. I am really looking forward to it as I missed last year. 10 days of living as Susan and yes I will have long pretty acrylic nails for the trip. I know Cassandra is going and I hope Julie goes, maybe she will let her nails grow out for the trip or maybe even get acrylic nails. We also have several other girls who have expressed interest in going. I think it would be awesome if we could get 10 or 15 from Portland to go.

It is a fun event and there is no cost to attend other then your normal vacation cost, Hotel (you can stay where ever you want although they do have 3 recommended hotels) and then what you want to do. Go out to dinner with the group you pay for your dinner, go to a show or golfing pay for your ticket or round of golf. They have a wonderful group of volunteers who set all these events up without getting paid or anything for their effort other than our undying gratitude and thanks. Now this is not a convention by any means it is just a bunch of girls out on the town although they usually do have a couple makeup sessions at Nordstrom’s or Macy’s if you want some help. You can look at past years to get an idea and be sure and check out the pictures and see if you recognizes some of our group. Okay I guess that is enough about Diva Las Vegas.

I have been here at Starbuck’s for about 2 hours now and have caught up on some work also. it is funny as doing work as Susan can be fun. Wonder what my co-works would think if thy new how I do this work.

Thanks for reading and have a great day, Happy Holiday Season, Merry Christmas or how ever you celebrate this time of year.

You can read about some of my trips to Diva Las Vegas in my blogs




All my blogs from Diva Las Vegas as the first couple years I wasn’t smart enough to year date them


December 13, 2016 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday and a fun day planned

Saturday is here and I have a fun day planned. I am going to get a manicure and then depending on the time I may go to Starbucks before going to the Escape to spend some time with my friends. Now I have gotten really comfortable as Susan and as going out over the last few years, the nail salon and Starbucks I have been going to is really close to my house.

Now Saturdays I have my routine dialed in which is both good and bad I guess. I go to the gym, come home shower, partially become Susan, update my blog for Friday night, go get lunch, come home and finish becoming Susan and then out for the evening.

I started at the gym for about an hour in a half and got home just before noon. Took my shower and shaved and then a couple spritzes of perfume, panty hose and my victoria Secret bra which by the way is the most comfortable bra I have. I really can’t tell I am wearing it and with the padding it gives me about a “B” cup. Last some mascara followed by my jeans and a shirt. Now I am ready to update my blog. It is fun doing my blog this way with the smell of the perfume. I finished my blog at 1:30 and figured I would go get lunch Subway and then come home, after I ate I would call and make my nail appointment. Now I wear a large coat so you really can’t tell I have a bra on and I guess the mascara is noticeable but the good thing is Subway they are making your sandwich and not really looking at you till you pay and I guess they can probably smell my perfume but they have never said anything.

Well I got in my car and left and realized I need gas so I stopped and got gas first. Looking at my speedometer I saw I was do for my 40,000 maintained really soon so I called Toyota to see if I could get in next week. They were all booked up but had an opening today at 2:30 so I took it. I went and got my Subway and then headed for Toyota. I got to Toyota and checked my car in and took my food into the waiting area, there were about 15 other people in here waiting. There were a couple seats open by the fire so I put my food down and took off my coat and sat down to eat. As I looked down I could see the bumps on my chest under my tee shirt. That when I remembered I was wearing the bra and had Mascara on. Luckily I had worn a dark shirt so the hot pink color of the bra wasn’t visible. The only two sitting near me were two woman one looked like she was asleep and the other was reading a book so I just went a head and ate my lunch and tried to forget about everything else. It was almost 4 when I left Toyota and headed for home. There would be no time to get a manicure today before going to the Escape. That will have to wait till Tuesday, I guess I will go then and then to Starbucks.

I got home about 4:20 and did a quick shave again to make sure my face was smooth and then started my makeup for going out tonight. It was about 6 when I was ready and on my way. I got to the Escape and they were busy, there was one big group there having some kind of a party. Nicole was there at a small table eating. Now I wasn’t sure how many of our group would show up but I decided to ask the other group if they would be using both big tables. The guy thanked me for asking and said he thought they could get by with just the one so Nicole and I took the other in hopes others would show up.

Nicole and I sat and talked and caught up, it was good to see her again. I also ordered dinner, a Chicken Caesar salad. The other group was having a lot of fun and seemed like a fun group, they were doing a gift exchange and having a great time. They were trying to get a group picture and the guy I talked with earlier asked if I would take a picture for them and of course I agreed and soon I had 4 of them hand me cell phones to take pictures of them. They all thanked me and I 20161210_223827[1]went back and talked with Nicole some more and of course took one quick selfie of myself. I think my makeup turned out well tonight.

Laura H. and Lisa showed up and that would be all of our group for tonight. It was good to see them and the 4 of us sat there and talked. Of course Laura and Lisa played some pool and Lisa one a few games, she is getting better at pool. Nicole left a little before 9 as she needed to stop by Ikea and pick something up before they close and she wanted to do it as Nicole. Nicole has really grown over the last couple years. I still remember that first time I met her, it was at Washington Square when I was out shopping. We said our goodbyes till the next time she is in town early January.

Now a couple of the girls from the other group came over and talked to me for a while which was nice. I really do love meeting new people. Now I always wait for them to ask about me and for some reason they never did, We talked about heels and makeup and the one told me a lot about herself and family. it was just nice everyday conversation which I loved.

Karaoke started and it got really busy as all the regulars that come for Karaoke showed up. It was fun to listen to the singing as some of them are really good. Of course Laura and Lisa both got up several times and sang. And some sand Christmas songs which I love.

Two women came in and sat at the bar and the only reason I noticed was as I was looking around one of them was staring at me. Now I always wonder if they know me when I see someone really looking at me, so I kind of looked away and back to talking with Lisa and Laura. Now a couple times I glanced back and she was still looking at me. Finally she walked over to me and I still didn’t know who she was so I was pretty sure she didn’t recognize me. any way she just came over to tell me how beautiful I was or in her word “how F***ing gorgeous I was”. I never get tired of hearing that as I am sure most females love to her that. I thanked her and told her how pretty she and her friends were and they were. I talked with them for a little bit which was nice. It is just so nice and much more fun to go out as Susan.

I listened to some more singing before calling it a night about 11:30. It has been a fun day and a good weekend. Now I am looking forward to Tuesday night as I will get out for a couple hours for a manicure and Starbucks.

I also got my vacation set, yes I have the week of diva Las Vegas off and will be going unless something unexpected come up. I will have to get together with Cassandra so we can plan and book our hotel rooms. We are thinking of staying downtown as the room rates are so much lower.

Thanks for reading

December 11, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

A wintery Friday night for Susan

It has been a wintery few days here in Portland snow and freezing rain. Now we are only talking a couple inches which may not seem like much but for this area it is a major event. Usually we get a little snow and it is gone in a few hours to 1 day so when it last a couple days people here freak out, and we are expecting more next Wednesday through Saturday with day time highs in the low to mid 30’s and night time lows in the low 20’s. Now I wouldn’t bring except for the fact this is so rare I really have nothing for Susan to wear in such weather. Any way that is not stopping me from going out tonight.

I got home from work and started getting ready to go out. I am not sure how many or even if anyone will really go out in this weather but as the main roads are pretty clear I am hoping some will. A nice warm shower and then started my makeup, so relaxing and fun after a stressful few days. Once that was done it was time to pick out my outfit for the night. I have a couple sweater dresses that are warm so I picked the grey one. Now for the shoes, I decided to go with a pair of heeled boots I picked up when we had our clothing exchange, they are the ones I wore to the beach in October. Not my first choice to wear with a dress but they looked okay and where good for the weather. All ready I was on my way by 6.

I got to Sweet Home and had to park out on the street and being a residential side street there was about 2 inches of snow and ice so the boots were a good choice. Now they di have 3” wedge heels and walking in the snow wasn’t bad but one I got to the parking lot which had been cleaned it was a little more difficult as it had a layer of ice, last thing I wanted to do was slip and fall in a dress so I walked really slow and careful.

I got inside and they were actually pretty busy. Chris and Roxy were not here and the tables were all full so I went and sat at the bar. Now as I said I wasn’t sure if ant of our group would be out but I still decided to come here as I wanted to go out plus I figured I could at least go and have dinner. Paul got me my drink and it was only a short time and Robyn showed up and joined me at the bar. It is different sitting at the bar especially as I was right next to where people come up and order drinks. It was kind of nice as I pretty much came in contact with everyone at the bar this way and several of them talked with me as they waited for their drinks, plus I got several compliments on how I looked which I always love. It is funny as men in general don’t seem to care as much about this as women do, I mean I have never gone out as my male self and hoped I would get compliments on what I wore or how I dressed but as Susan that is always in my mind when I am getting ready. Trust me all women like to hear they look nice or pretty so compliment them.

Robyn and I talked and of course I ordered dinner, the special was Chicken cordon blue and it was awesome, they really do have good food here. Robyn and I talked more as we enjoyed the evening. I didn’t bring my computer tonight but we were also playing on our cell phones and Robyn showed me a really cute video about a washing machine commercial which I have to post to our new Rosecitytgirls group and of course I will post the link here also. I showed her a few videos I had found and of course a cute Christmas remake. now where we were sitting at the bar we were just opposite the door to the patio where people go to smoke and every time they opened the door we got a blast of cold air. not sure how they could stand going out side just to smoke but they do.

It was a nice time out and very enjoyable, a great way to start the weekend. Next week I may have Tuesday or Thursday night open and I am going to try and get to Starbucks for a while if I do. I really miss that as it is a nice way to spend time  as Susan and get work done, I can kind of merge my two lives together for a little bit. Besides this month I have meetings on Wednesday nights and can’t make our group dinners which is a shame as we have some good ones coming up.

Karaoke started and as it was getting late and I was tired, I went into work early not sure how the roads were so it has been a long day. Robyn and I decided to call it a night. It was fun to be out and I was glad Robyn showed up to keep me company. as I walked to my car it was cold and a slight freezing rain. I really should get some Susan clothes for weather like this but we just don’t have it that often.

Now I am looking forward to Saturday As I am planning on getting a manicure but will skip my pedicure as my toes still look good and with the weather I am not willing to wear flip flops and then Saturday night and going out with my friends. There is a chance that Nicole might make it out, she sent me a Facebook message that depending on the weather she may come to Portland for the evening.

Thanks for reading and have a great day.

As it got close to time for Karaoke it got a lot busier

December 10, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at Harvey’s Comedy Club

Saturday is here and it is our monthly outing to Harvey’s tonight. I was really looking forward to this as always as it is such a fun night out but more important is I have a new dress for tonight. It is going to be so fun. It really is funny how much I look forward to going out as Susan, everything just seems more fun and enjoyable. Now like any girl with a big night out I couldn’t wait and started getting ready early. I not only wanted to take my time to look my best but also to just relax and enjoy the experience. I started getting ready at 4 and took my time. I was ready a little before 6 in my pretty new dress.

Now some of us meet at Fox & Hounds at 7 for a little social time before we go to Harvey’s so I was on my way by 6 figuring I would get there a little early. Well that didn’t work out as traffic was really bad and what would normally take me 20 to 25 minutes took me an hour. I got there just before 7. Now I got lucky and found a parking spot right in front of Fox & Hounds. I was the first one there so I got a drink and a table and waited. I wasn’t sure how many would meet here first but I did know we had 11 going to Harvey’s.

Melissa showed up shortly after I did so we had a chance to talk before others showed up. She has been one of our regulars for Harvey’s the last few months. Cassandra showed up next, she also got caught in traffic. Laura H. and Lisa also met us at Fox & Hounds so we had 5 of us here. We talked for a while some about our web page as we had an upgrade to it over the last week. It really looks good and as we find things that can be better we fix them. We hung out here till about 8:30 before walking over to Harvey’s.

Now it was raining a little so I stopped by my car and got my pink umbrella plus 2 others for Melissa and Cassandra. It was a little cold and rainy but it was a nice walk over to Harvey’s. When we got there Cristine was already there and there was a small crowd here already. Now it is suppose to be a good show tonight and a sold out so it will be a lot of fun. Got to talk with Star some she is our favorite bar tender here always good to see her.

Now of course with a new dress I had to get a picture. I had Cassandra take a Susan new dress at Harveys 12-3-2016 (1)picture of me and of course she also had me get a picture of her. I seem to only remember pictures when I have a new outfit or something special going on. Years ago we took pictures, many pictures every time we went out. It really is a cute dress.

Sophie, Lorna, Jeanie, Amy and Cassie also showed up so all 11 of us were her for the show. We all sat and talked till it was time to go in for the show. We even talked some about Diva Las Vegas as Cassandra and I are planning on going and a few other girls are thinking about it. It is Monday March 26 to Friday March 31 if you are interested in going.

We got into the showroom and it was pretty full, not sold out but one of their bigger crowds. Kim our favorite waitress was here, always wonderful to see her. I think we look forward to seeing her and Star as much as we do the show. we really have met some wonderful people as we have gone out.

The show started and it was really good as always. All 3 of the comedians were good and we had a great time. Harvey’s really is a good place to go and see a comedy show, they have really good comedians and treat you wonderful. If you are in Portland check them out. After the show we got to talk with Kim for a while which was nice. I hope she comes to a Wednesday night dinner with us again. Of course I probably wont make the next few as this month will be hard for me to get out on Wednesdays.

Now it was time to walk back to Fox & Hounds where we parked. it was colder and really rainy now so it was good we had umbrellas. Now the bad thing was the Susan new dress at Harveys 12-3-2016 (1)heels I wore were open toed as you can see in the picture. Very cute but only about a 1/4 inch thick so any standing water got on my feet. We hadn’t even gone a block and my feet were wet and of course cold. Probably not the best choice for tonight but they looked so cute with my dress. I really do love cute shoes and dresses. Females have all the best stuff to wear, pretty colors and pretty styles.

WE got back to Fox & Hounds and some of the girls went in for a while. It was late and my feet were cold so I called it a night. It really was a fun night out as always.

Thanks for reading my blog. I started my blog to help me remember my time as Susan and to keep a record of it never thinking others would read it. This is my 903 blog entry, It is hard to believe I have gone out that many times.

December 4, 2016 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Friday night and I am going to Sweet Home

It has been a busy couple weeks but I am going to Sweet Home tonight. I haven’t been able to make it the last 2 Fridays so I am really looking forward to it. I got home late so it was a rush to get ready. I still have the light pink polish with the sparkles so I had to remove the matte polish. It is funny as with the matte polish I thing they look a little more pink but you can’t see the sparkles as well. I was all ready about 6:40 so I was on my way and as I wouldn’t get there early I didn’t take my computer.

I got to Sweet Home and had to park about 2 blocks away and walk. Chris, Roxy and Robyn were all there so I joined them. It wasn’t long and Laura H. and Lisa showed up so we had a nice size group. The special tonight was ribs which I love but they are just too messy for Susan to eat so I ordered something else instead. It was just nice to be out with friends. Heather showed up who is always wonderful to see as she always has a hug for everyone. I really like the fact that women are more free to show emotion and affection such as hugs.

It started off with a smaller crowd here as it really never gets busy till it is time for karaoke. The other group had 2 birthdays they were celebration so I knew it would be busier later. Cindy was also here, we met her on the Friday before Halloween and she is really nice. we talked for quite a while. I really love talking with people and getting to know them better.

There was also a man at the video poker machines who for lack of a better word was hitting on me. He really thought I was pretty which always makes a girl feel good but I am still not use to this type of attention from men as I have no interest in men. It is hard for people to understand that and the best way I can explain it is this. I love being Susan, being feminine. I love the cloths, shoes, hair, makeup and of course the nails. But it is more than just that. It is being what I find truly attractive and desirable. in other words I want to present myself that way. There is just something so perfect and wonderful about the female form.

Now Jeremy and Tina also showed up, I also met them here and they are fun to talk with. I really have made some wonderful friends here. People I never would have met if it wasn’t for Susan. I will say that although living two lives, male and female and having to hide parts from people have been hard but in the long run it has been worth it and I would not change my life for anything.

Karaoke started and I stayed for a while. I was actually the last of our group to leave. It was about 11:30 when I called it a night. A great way to start the weekend. Now I am looking forward to Saturday night and going to Harvey’s as I have a new dress I bought back in October and have been waiting for Harvey’s to wear it.

December 4, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment


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