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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Out at the Escape

Saturday is here and it will be the 4th night in a row I will be out as Susan. But first a quick update on the go fund me account for Cristine, we were hoping that on January 28 we could get 28 people to donate $10. We actually got 35 and many donated more than $10. Thanks to all of you.

I started getting ready early as I wanted to be to the Escape by 6. I decided to wear my blue dress as I haven’t worn it in a while, here is a link to an old blog that has a good picture of the dress I wore. This is one of the fun things of a blog as I can go back and see what I did and pictures from my outings when I remember to take them.

I got to the Escape just before 6 and as luck would have it as I pulled into the lot someone pulled out so I got a parking spot right in front of the door. They were a little busy tonight and there was a group at the big table we try to get so I took one of the small ones. Well I turns out Brittany was already there and she was at the other big table and came over to get me. I am so use to being the first one here didn’t even notice her. I went and joined her and we had a chance to talk as we waited for other to show up. Laura M was the next to get her followed by Cassandra.

Brittany couldn’t stay long but it was great she made it out and we got to talk. Elaine also showed up and joined us. We met her a while ago and she has been coming out more with pour group on Saturdays. Kate and Melissa also showed up, It was good to see them. We talked a little about Diva Las Vegas both are thinking of going. We actually have a lot of girls thinking of going this year. Jamie also showed up, she is one of our newest members and this was her first time out with the group. It was nice to meet her and get to talk with her. Bambi, Kris and Lorie also showed up so we had a really big group tonight. It really is fun to get together and go out with your friends.

Now by the time Karaoke started it was really crowded seems tonight was the night everyone wanted to go out. It was an awesome night out with my friends as always. it was about 11:30 when I called it a night.

This week I hope to go to Wednesday night dinner, out on Friday and of course Harvey’s on Saturday

January 29, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night out the 3rd night in a row

It is Friday night and I will be going out for the third night in a row, guess I am making up for earlier in the month when I couldn’t get out. Now a quick update on my friend Cristine, She is still in ICU but has been breathing on her own for a day now but with difficulty. Our group started a go fund me account for her to help with medical expenses and on January 28 we are trying to get 28 of her friends to each donate $10 as she has been in ICU for 10 days now. We really miss seeing her out with the group.

I started to get ready by 4 as I was looking forward to getting out as early as I could. I always enjoy my time getting ready, so relaxing. I was on my way and got to sweet Home just before 6. Chris and Robyn were already there, Robyn had been here since 5. She actually got here before Chris tonight. I ordered dinner as I was hungry and then Robyn and I talked a while about Cristine. It is good to talk with other friends about this as it helps us all process it.

It was good to be out with friends for a while. Roxy showed up a little later as did Laura H. and Lisa so we had 6 of us out tonight. Now there was a good crowd here tonight for Karaoke, Craig is sick so Betty is filling in as the KJ for Karaoke. It was nice to see her again. Don’t get me wrong I really like Craig and he does a great job but the only time I get to see Betty is when she fills in.

karaoke started and there was a long list of people to sing, a lot of the regulars here on Friday but also some new people. It is fun to listen to the singing but what makes it special is being out with my friends, out with people. It got later and soon it was just Robyn and me left of our group and I was getting ready to leave when Robyn said Diane called and was on her way. I decided to wait with her till Diane showed up. It was about a half hour till Diane showed up. It was good to see her again. I stayed for just a little while longer before calling it a night. Now I am looking forward to Saturday night and seeing more of my friends at the Escape.

Susan Miller at Clackamas Town CenterThanks for reading.

January 29, 2017 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night and out for a manicure and pedicure.

Now I really needed to go and get a manicure today. It has only been 13 days since my last manicure but I actually broke a nail really bad yesterday and another one today. I got home and got right in the shower to start getting ready. I got out of the shower at 4:30 and called the Nail salon to see if I could get in tonight. It is nice as when I call she knows it is me so I must be in her phone system now. She was able to get me in at 5:30 so I was on my way getting ready. Now going casual doesn’t take as long and I was ready by 5:10 so I decided to checkout the go fund me account we set up for cristineCristine our friend in ICU. We had raised $645 in the last 20 hours, thanks to all who have helped.

I left for the nail salon at 5:20 and was there only a couple minutes later. It is nice it is so close. Now they were not at all busy. there was one lady just finishing getting her nails done. I picked out my color for my toes and was seated right away for my pedicure. I really didn’t need a pedicure but I so enjoy it and I am trying to work out a schedule so I get a pedicure and my acrylic nails the night before I leave for Diva Las Vegas. If I go every 2 weeks it will work out perfect and I will be getting my acrylic nails on March 23, just 8 weeks away.

It is so relaxing to get a pedicure and manicure and is one of the fun things I get to do as Susan. I would encourage everyone to try it at least once. now as I said they were not busy and the once lady that was there left shortly after I got there so I was the only one there till she was almost done with my pedicure. As she was painting my toes another lady came in for a pedicure. As a matter of fact one of the nail techs were doing another nails techs nails. It was funny as 3 of the ladies working here had beautiful red nails and the 4th was getting red on her nails. they told me it was for Chinese New Year. It would have been fun to get red also on my fingers but just wouldn’t be able to pull it off at work.

Now it was time for my manicure and it is just as much fun. There is something about being pampered and having someone do your nails. It is such a fun and enjoyable way to spend some time and I have always been treated wonderful here by all the people working here. Dream nails is a wonderful salon and I would recommend them highly. It was about 6:40 when I was all done and had pretty toes and fingers.

Now I went across the street to Starbucks as they are open till 8 and got a hot drink and did my blog for Last nights Dinner which was fun and we got it worked out to set up a Go Fund me account for Cristine. Now Starbucks was busy probably 18 people there but they were only 4 groups so there were tables open. I ordered a hot chocolate and enjoyed some quiet time. I actually enjoy spending time as Susan at Starbucks as I can be out and do things I would normally do at home. What did we do before laptops. I stayed there right up till 8 when they were getting ready to close. Now I have come to this Starbucks maybe 10 to 15 times over the last year or so usually after getting my nails done so I wouldn’t consider myself a regular but as I was leaving Sarah one of the ladies who works here said your name is Susan right, and I said yes. it was nice to be remembered, then she wished me a good evening. It is little things like this that make you feel good. This is wonderful customer service and really several of the Starbucks I have gone to over the years learned who I was and remembered me by name. It was a good night out even though it was short.

January 27, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner with friends.

It was Wednesday and I was looking forward to going out to dinner with my friends. The first half of January I didn’t get out because of the weather so I am going to make up for it now. We were going to House of Louie for Chinese tonight. Also I was looking forward to catching up with my friends and of course getting an update on Cristine. She is still in ICU on life support. We did set up a go fund me account for her to help with the expenses. My blogs for cristinea while will have a link to it, here is a picture of her. She has been one of our most active and supportive members and was one of the first to join our Rose City T-Girl group here in Portland. A little background on her, she was also instrumental in changing some of the laws in Oregon for the LGBT and testified in Salem Oregon before the house committee over 10 years ago to help pass some of the laws that protect everyone in the LGBT here in Oregon.

I started getting ready early as I wanted to be downtown by 6, yes a little more time for me to be out. I timed it perfect as I got there right at 6 and found a parking spot right on the corner almost in front of Fox & Hound. Now I had to walk past Fox & hound down to the middle of the block to pay for parking. I was walking back when I saw a Police officer by my car, he looked at me as I was walking back and asked if it was my car and I showed him my parking ticket and he wished me a good evening and went to the car that was 2 spaces in front of me which was parked in a loading zone and I am sure that car got a ticket. Now I know there is a lot of negativity towards the police but this officer was very professional and polite to me. I know they have a hard job and most of the time when you have interaction with them it is not the best of circumstances but just think what it would be like without them. I support our men and woman in blue.

I got inside Fox & Hounds and got a drink. I texted Cassandra to make sure she was meeting here before we go to House of Louie which is only 2 blocks away. Turns out she was caught in traffic and figured she wouldn’t make it till 7 so she would go right to House of Louie. Julie texted me she would meet me at Fox & hounds so I waited for her. She got there about 6:50 so she probably had a little traffic to deal with also. It was good to see her again as this may be the last time I see her till Diva Las Vegas as she is going on vacation till then and will be out of the area. It was nice talking with her till 7 when we headed over to House of Louie well with one detour. We were about half way when she noticed she didn’t have her phone so we walked back to her car to get it. It was funny as we were walking and talking didn’t even once think about how I was dressed, we were just two woman walking along.

WE got to House of Louie and Cassandra and another girl was there. Looks like it will be a small group tonight especially without Cristine. She went out almost every Wednesday night for dinner with us. WE talked for a little bit and then ordered as we were all hungry. Right after we ordered Bambi and Kris showed up. It was good to see them again. They are coming out a lot more regular which is nice. Also Danielle showed up. She is one of our newer members and this was her first time out with the group. It was nice to meet her and get a chance to talk with her and get to know her. Kelly also showed up a little later so we had 8 of us tonight.

Of course a lot of the conversation was about Cristine. She is still on life support although they were able to get her to breath on her own for about 3 hours before they had to put her back on the ventilator and they even got her up for a short walk which is wonderful news but she has a long way to go. Bobbie called Cassandra and we were able to talk to her somewhat as she was awake and Bobbie held the phone so we could talk to her, she can’t talk back as she still has tubes in but Bobbie said she was smiling hearing our voices.

We talked of ways we could help her and the group decided we should set up a go fund me account. This is something new to all of us but it is wonderful that the internet can allow you to do something like this. We had a nice dinner and good conversation and it was just wonderful to be out with my friends. I think we all felt a little more connected tonight as we all are thinking how precious life is now and how important friends and family are.

It was about 9 when we left. some of the girls went to CC Slaughters and I joined them for a few minutes. Just to see what was going on inside. They weren’t busy but it was still early. Well I have to get up early for work so I said my goodbyes and off I went to my car. It was a fun night out and I really enjoyed being with my friends.

Thanks for reading.

January 26, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A fun Saturday night out, my first of the year.

Now I was really looking forward to tonight after being out on Friday night. It is so wonderful to get a chance to be myself and enjoy a little Susan time with my friends. Now tonight our group actually had two options, Speakeasy in Salem and the Escape here in Portland. Now I have wanted to go to Salem to see my friends down there but as I have to get up early on Sundays it is really hard and once again I opted to go to the Escape.

I started getting ready at 4, I really look forward to the time I spend getting ready. Doing my makeup, body lotion, perfume, hair and my outfit it is all fun and relaxing. I chose my black and red dress to wear tonight, I didn’t get a 20160102_203059picture but here is an old one from a year ago when I wore it.

I got to the Escape early a little before 6 and they were already busy, all the big tables were taken. I took one of the smaller tables and set up my computer to pass the time as I awaited others to show up. Cassandra was the first to show up and we had a chance to talk some about Cristine our friend in the hospital, She is still in ICU but doing better. We are all praying for her as it is hard to see a loved one like that. She has been and will again be a big part of our group and family. It is different without her out as she was one of our most active members as far as going out.

Elaine was there also and came over and joined us, she is not a member of our group but has been hanging out with us when we are all there. She is really nice and fun to talk with.

Kate also showed up and it was good to see her. Later in the night got to talk with her and she is really thinking well planning on going to Diva Las Vegas. It was fun talking with her and telling her about our past trips. We are all looking forward to it and we already have 6 of us going for sure. Bambi and Kris were also there and it was good to see them. Lynn also made it tonight even though Jan couldn’t. It was good to see her also. I have really missed spending time with my friends the last few weeks because of weather.

Now there were some other people there that came over and talked to us, Dona and her girlfriend Vickie who were in town from LA visiting friends. It was fun talking with them they seemed really nice. It really was a fun crowd here tonight.

Karaoke started and Lynn did sing and did great. Most of the people who sang were really good. It is fun to listen and sometimes sing along with the songs but it does get loud and make it hard to talk. It was a wonderful night out with my friends. It was after 11 when I called it a night, I was actually the last to leave as I got talking with Dona again.

Thanks for reading and have a great week.

January 22, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Finally a Friday night out

It has been several weeks since I have really been out do to the cold snow and ice we have had. The last time I was out was a quick outing to get my nails done on January 15 other then that I haven’t been out or even been Susan since December 30th. I was really looking forward to it as I really do miss this side of me when I can’t express it. I know it is hard for some to understand this feeling but the best way I can explain it is find something you really like, something you eat, drink or do that really makes you happy and then go without it for a while. That is how I feel about being Susan as it really is a big part of who I am and my life.

I started getting ready at 4 so I could take my time as I said it has been a while. It is so relaxing spending the time getting ready doing my makeup and getting all pretty, this truly is one of the most stress free feelings I have. I got my makeup all done and was happy with the way it turned out, a Smokey eye look with a wine color lipstick. Of course I wore my maroon dress and heels.

I was on my way by 5:45 and got to Sweet Home at 6 and parked about a block away. Now just as I parked it started to really rain, so hard I had to use my umbrella. Now I love my open toed high heels but the one bad thing is they are not designed to keep your feet dry in heavy rain and by the time I got inside my feet were wet and cold and it took a while to get them warm again but it was worth it as they are really cute.

Chris and Robyn were there when I got there so I joined them. They had their pork chop dinner special tonight which is awesome so I ordered one. They really do have good food here. Now it was not really busy tonight as the other group that comes here had another event to go to tonight. Because of that Craig was not doing Karaoke tonight but instead it was Betty, she does it here on Saturday nights. Now I have only met her a couple times but she is really awesome, actually pretty much everyone who comes here is wonderful as it really is your friendly local neighborhood bar, kind of like what Cheers was on that TV show, where everyone knows your name.

Cassandra showed up which was nice as I haven’t seen her for a while actually it has been a while since Susan has seen anyone. it was good to see us getting out again after the weather we have had. We got a chance to talk which I really wanted to with her as one of our girls was rushed to the hospital Wednesday and had to have emergency surgery. All I had gotten was updated text messages from Cassandra on her which Cassandra did a great job of but it is better to be able to talk about it. She is still listed as Critical in CU but has improved a lot over the last couple days. Our group really is a big extended family and we all care about each other. We are all keeping her in our prayers.

We also talked a little about Diva Las Vegas which is only 9 weeks away. We are both looking forward to it as it really is a fun time. I am hopeful we will have a big group from Portland go again this year as it really is fun. I even played a game of pool tonight against Chris but boy it was not a good night for me at pool. I couldn’t sink a shot for anything but it was fun.

Karaoke started and of course Chris sang, it was a different crowd here tonight with the other group gone but it was really fun. It was getting late and Cassandra and I were calling it a night, Betty came over to let us know they had a surprise for Chris and were going to sing Happy Birthday for him as he just had his birthday. It was nice of her to let us know so we could stay for that. It was a fun night and we all sang to Chris. As we left Betty gave us both a hug which was nice. It was a good night and now I am looking forward to getting out more as the weather is more normal for us. I will of course be out on Saturday evening at the Escape so it will be a good weekend.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.

January 21, 2017 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Cold snowy night but made it out for a manicure.

Okay it has been two weeks since I have been Susan much less getting out anyplace. Last Friday night I stayed home as it was really cold out and I was looking forward to going to Harvey’s Comedy club the next night but the cold weather turned into freezing rain on Saturday and we had to cancel our plans. and I was stuck at home. Portland does not do well in wintery weather. The city was pretty much shut down last weekend so I was looking forward to this weekend and of course we got hit with our biggest snow storm in decades or even maybe ever. From 6PM Tuesday till noon Wednesday I got over 15 inches of snow where I live. As a matter of fact I couldn’t get out to go to work as the ground clearance on my car was to low and I just started pushing snow till I stopped. I have never not been able to go to work. Now we are in bitter cold, day time around 30 and nights between 10 and 15 which is really cold here as a matter of fact I think we set a record for this day as far as cold. The freeways are pretty clear but the surface streets still have 2 inches of packed snow and ice. So needless to say I am not going to Portland but I do need to get a manicure as it has been 2 and a half weeks and my nails are getting a little long.

The advantage of going to a nail salon so close to where I live. that even in bad weather I can get there as it is only a few blocks. I got home from work and called to see if they were even open and they were. I got an appointment for 5:30 and started getting ready. It was a little after 5 and I was ready to go. I left home and drove carefully as it was still really icy out, even with the ice and snow it took 5 minutes or less to get there and I was able to park right in front. There was only one lady in there getting her nails done and Annie was ready for me so I didn’t have to wait. It was nice to be out and what better then at the nail salon getting my nails done. It is just so relaxing and normal thing to do.

Annie started on my nails and we had a nice conversation while she did my nails. it was a really enjoyable time, I even talked with the other lady there some mostly about the weather, She still has her chains on her car, I removed mine last night but only because most of my drive to work is freeway and that is mostly clear with just spotty ice. if I was just driving around town I would still have them on for safety. We were the only two customers here tonight I guess the weather kept a lot of people home.

Annie asked if I wanted my nails trimmed back, I probably should have but told her to just file them down a little and square them off. They aren’t overly long well maybe just a little but in two week they will be really long. I will probably have to file them down a little before I come back for my next appointment. I got the same clear gel polish with the hint of pinky rose in it. Really looks pretty. It is funny as I kept thinking about Diva Las Vegas which is coming up fast in 2 1/2 months and I will be here to get acrylic nails and longer for the trip. It was about 6:15 when I was done.

I thought about going to Sweet Home but with the ice and snow on the roads I didn’t want to drive that far so I went across the street to Starbucks which is on my way home. They were not busy just one table with 4 people at it. It is a little chilly so I ordered a hot chocolate, yes I love Starbucks Hot Chocolate. the perfect drink on a cold wintery night.

I of course had my computer and caught up on some e-mails, work and even a Facebook chat. It was a relaxing night and I stayed here till they closed at 8. There were a few times they got really busy 6 to 8 people. It was fun to people watch and of course to see if anyone I knew came in as I am only about a 1/4 mile from where I live. A couple years ago I never would have dreamed of even stopping here this close to home much less sit here for a couple hours. I guess I have grown as Susan and that is a good thing.

I do miss not being out with my friends though. I am hoping that we can get together Saturday night weather permitting. The one thing I have learned is I do not have Susan clothes designed for really cold weather. Probably because we get this type of weather so rare I just haven’t invested in winter girl clothing.

Thanks for reading and have a safe and warn night. Smile

January 15, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments


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