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Wednesday night dinner at Mothers Bistro

It is Wednesday and our group is doing dinner tonight at Mothers Bistro, we have gone here many times and it is always wonderful. Normally we get a big turnout the last few times it was 10 or more but tonight only 4 of us responded so it looks like a small group tonight. Might be the weather as it is in the 90’s today and it can be hard for us in the heat as we all need more makeup then the average lady plus some of us have padding on to get the right curves, it is hard and takes work to be female. Now I did manage to slide out of work early which is nice as it gives me time to enjoy getting ready and also, I will have enough time to pick Julie up. Normally I get hoe between 5:30 and 5:45 and sense it takes me about a half hour to get back downtown Portland it is normally a rush but I was home tonight by 4:20. I texted Julie to see if she wanted a ride, I was pretty sure she would as it is just way more fun to go together plus it gives us a chance to talk on the way there and home. I was ready and on y way to Julies a little after 5:30 and got to here house a little after 6.

Julie had left the door open for me so I went in and she was just finishing up getting ready. We had both chosen to wear light summer dresses as it is over 90 right now. I really do need to go and get some more summer dresses and some casual dresses more that I could wear during the day. Melissa has some really cute but casual dresses she wears and looks awesome in; I think she got them at Old Navy so I will have to go there and look. It was about 6:15 when we were on our way and going into Portland there was no traffic so it didn’t take long. I found a parking spot right on the corner in front. We went in and Melissa was already there so we went and got a table, well booth and waited for Nicole to arrive. Now the staff here is awesome but really everywhere we go, we seem to get treated really well. Our waitress came and took our drink orders. Just about that time Nicole came in so we were all there. Of course, I had to get my selfie for my blog.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered. These Wednesday night dinners are really a great social event and gives us a chance to talk and get to know each other better or catch up on what is new in our lives. It really is no different then what other people do when they go out. I really can’t explain why it is so much fun as the whole time I am out I am not thinking about how I am dressed. It really is just friends going out for dinner.

Our waitress brought our drinks and we all ordered dinner and yes, I had my normal meal, Chicken fried Chicken. It really is good. Melissa and Julie also ordered their normal dinners also. Soon our dinners came and we had a nice dinner as the 4 of us sat and talked, it really was a fun and enjoyable evening and of course the food was awesome. Now Nicole was also out Saturday night at the Escape with me but it was still nice to get to see her again. When she was down earlier in the summer her older daughter came with her and I had told her daughter I would sing Karaoke with her the next time she came down so on Saturday night I had told Nicole about my singing the last couple weeks with other people and that I was ready to sing with her daughter and she texted her the song I wanted to do, I’ve had the time of my life, so her daughter texted her back she would practice for when she comes down next so at some point I will be singing with her daughter.

We finished dinner and sat and talked and of course more pictures were taken, Melissa took a selfie and it was awesome, she looked so good in the picture but then she always looks good as did Nicole and Julie. Really, we all put effort into looking our best and although I know we don’t pass I think we do a good job trying to present ourselves like ladies and that is what it is all about. I am sure we got a few looks from people but no one stared or pointed at us or said anything and to me that is passing. I did get a picture with Julie; wish I had got one with Nicole and Melissa and maybe a group picture. Wil have to work on remembering that next time.

Julie ordered a desert and I am trying to be good so I didn’t although I know I will have a few bites of Julies as the desserts here are on the big side. We sat and kept talking and soon it was after 9:30, it is amazing how fast the time goes when I am out with my friends. Our waitress came with our bills all split out, as I said our waitress was awesome. She told us her name but as usual I forgot as I am bad with names and it is 4 days later, I am writing this blog. I really do need to get back to writing my blog the next day.

We all left and said our goodbyes out front before we went our separate ways well not Julie and I as we rode together. It is a way to keep the evening going a little longer as Julie and I kept talking on the drive back to her house. We got to her house a little after 10 and I dropped her off. The next couple weeks Julie won’t be out as she need to go south and get her other house ready for the winter and then she will be back for a little while before her and Trixie head south for the winter. They like to go someplace warm for the winter, it will be sad when that happens as I won’t get to see her every week but I am sure she will come up every once in a while, and in the spring just as the flowers come back so will they.

I dropped her off and drove home. it was a wonderful night made even more special by spending it with my friends. When I first started going out it was all about being out as Susan now it really is about spending time with my wonderful friends. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 1, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night BBQ

Okay I am once again more than a week behind in posting my blogs so back in time we go. On August 14th Julie had a BBQ at her house and she invited about 20 girls over for the BBQ, what a wonderful thing to do. Now one of the nicer things was she invited some of our new members and the spouses so they could meet other spouses. We actually have a lot of members who are married or in relationships with women. I would say over half of those showing up came with a significant other. Now we will test my memory of who was there, the one bad thing about waiting so long to write my blog. Julie and Trixie of course as they hosted it. Peggy and Cassandra as Peggy helped, Kimberly. Kris, Karren, Joan, Mellissa and her wife, Patty and her girlfriend, Danika and her wife, Jennifer and her wife, Veronica, Jennie, myself and I am sure I am missing 1 or 2 as I am pretty sure we had 20 there.

Now I rushed to get there and it turns out I was one of the first ones to arrive which was nice as I got to talk with Peggy for a while. I met Peggy back in the fall of 2008 and she is so nice. She is so supportive of Cassandra and really all of us t-girls in the group. Now I don’t want to sound like I am playing favorites because all of my friends in the group are awesome and such a big part of my life but Peggy, Cassandra and Julie are really my best friends on both sides of who I am. They know both sides of me and we have done things together both as female and our male selves and that is something years ago, I would never have thought possible. I would have never thought I would tell people about both sides of me. There are a few other girls who have met my male side also.

Well with traffic it took a little while for everyone to arrive but we had a nice time visiting while we waited and of course there were all kinds of snack, Julie and Trixie really went over board on food and drinks. Julie was the grill goddess as she grilled all the steaks for everyone and did a fabulous job. Soon we were all seated at the table to eat. Now it was one long table so now you could only really talk with those around you. I got to sit between Peggy and Julie and Cassandra, Jennie and Veronica were across from me so that was really my little group I got to talk with. It was a lot of fun. Now of course I took some pictures of the group and of course I had to get a couple with our hostess Julie. It was such a fun time and went buy way to fast.

It was almost 10 when we had finished eating dinner, desert and talking and girls started to leave. We all carried some things inside but Julie would have a lot of cleanup after. We all asked if we could help but Julie said she would take care of it tomorrow. It really is so wonderful of Julie to host such an awesome event, thanks so much Julie, and Trixie and Peggy for helping. To open your home like this takes a special person.

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August 24, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and a BBQ at Julie’s house

The Fourth of July was a busy day, I was out a Susan till after 3 went to a BBQ at 4, got home from the BBQ about 6:30 and then Julie texted me to see if I wanted to go watch the fireworks with her and Trixie, in male mode of course so I sad yes and was out the door again. The only reason I bring this up is while we were watching the fireworks Julie thought we should do a BBQ at her house on Saturday which is only 2 days away. So, I said I would come. She texted a couple other girls but being such short notice, they couldn’t make it so it would be just the 3 of us so that brings me to today, Saturday.

I started getting ready at 2 and of course it is a more casual day so I chose my black & white summer dress and sandals. I did my makeup and yes, I went with a red lipstick as I just love the color red. Now I have been using Maybelline Superstay and they have two kinds I like, the matte ink and the liquid and today is the liquid. Both stay on really well even soap and water won’t take them off I need to use baby oil on a cotton ball. I can eat or drink whatever I want and it stays looking great. I was on my way and got to Julies right at 4. I got a quick selfie in the car just in case I forgot to get pictures later. I have started doing this as I don’t think about pictures as much as I use to. years ago, when we went out all the girls had their cameras or phones out taking pictures but as we have gone out more and taken so many pictures over the years it just not as big of a deal. I can’t tell you how many pictures I have but it is in the thousands. If you think about it this is my 1190th blog which means even if it was just 1 picture per blog that is a lot and early on it was more like 10 or 20 pictures.

I rang the doorbell and Julie opened the door and she also was casual in a summer dress, but hers was longer than mine. Well we went in and sat at the counter and talked as we ate chips and dip, one of my favorite snacks. Julie, Trixie and I just relaxed and sat and talked and it really was fun. Before we new it, it was almost 6 the time went by so fast. Julie fired up the grill and she put the steaks on, it didn’t take long and soon we were eating, we ate inside as the weather was a little on the cool side as it was only about 68 outside. The food was awesome, Julie and Trixie wonderful cooks, Trixie did the salad and baked potato and Julie grilled the steaks. And after dinner there was ice cream. It was so wonderful. After we finished, we went and sat in the living room and continued talking. I was shocked when I looked at the time and it was after 9. Where had the time went. It did not seem like I had been here over 5 hours. I thought it was time to call it a night so I thanked them for inviting me and we said our goodbyes. It really was a wonderful evening with wonderful friends. I really am a lucky girl to have such awesome friends.

Thanks Julie and Trixie for inviting me into your home for a BBQ it was awesome. It was a good idea I got the selfie in the car as I put my purse down when I got inside and of course my phone was in it and I never once thought about getting my phone out or getting a picture. Really wish I had gotten some though.

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July 8, 2019 Posted by | family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape, awesome

Okay it is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight and I am really looking forward to it. I always enjoy my time out as Susan but tonight it should be a good turnout as a few of our newer members are meeting once again in Portland on Saturday and coming out, Shae and her wife Reanna, Sindee and her wife Dee, Betty and Robin all of whom I have met just once and only in the last month or so, I am looking forward to getting to talk with them more and get to know them better. Now I am guessing they will be there between 7 & 8 but I am going earlier, by 6 hopefully earlier. Okay tis is a longer blog then normal as it was a special night out and worth the read.

I started getting ready at 4 as like always I wanted to take my time as I rally wanted to look my best. It really is funny how much time, effort and thought I put into how I look as Susan. I was done with my makeup by 5 and now it was time for my dress and that took some work, I actually pulled 4 dresses out tonight but ruled one out as it was the one o wore last time they were here when I met them, yes, I did look back at my blog to see what I wore. So now I had 3 and all are kind of tight so they look better with my corset which I wear most of the times I go out. Now I know a lot of people may think corsets are uncomfortable and not needed but I bought mine for two reasons, 1st yes, I wanted a nice figure but also, I tend to slouch a lot (poor posture) the ne negative thing I hear and the corset forces me to sit up straight. Now I don’t find it uncomfortable actually other then getting in and out of the car. Now I will admit it is hard to pick something off the floor if you drop it and yes if you over do it you can get out of breath but other than that I really don’t notice I have it on. Now the good thing is I am finding even without it I have better posture and sit up straighter so it really has helped. I tried on all three dresses before settling on the second one it really is one of my favorite dresses as it is pretty and classy looking. Yes, tonight I have that feeling any young lady would have going out for a special event and it is a wonderful feeling. Here is a picture taken later in the evening by Robin, thanks.

Now I was ready a little after 5:30 so I would be pushing it to be there by 6 so not going to get there as early as I hoped. It was right at 6 when I got there and went in. now, I have been posting this in our group as I knew we would have several new girls out and I was trying to encourage others and see if we could get a big group out tonight. I was able to park in the lot along the curb which is better then on the street and I went in. I put my computer on one of the long tables and then went up to order. Well I ran into Jan and Lynn, they were already there which was great as it was just 6. I ordered my dinner and drink and went back to the table. I took my computer back out to my car as if we did have a big group and I was moving around to talk with people I didn’t want to have to watch it plus I wanted to talk with Jan & Lynn. The 3 of us sat down and it wasn’t long and Kimberly showed up who is also one of our newer members, she has been out with the group 5 or 6 times now. Well before I ate, I figured I should get a quick selfie for the night.

Now I usually try to go in order of who shows up but girls started showing up and I lost track of who came when. I actually got out my phone and started putting names in so I could try and remember everyone who showed up, some came later and some had left but over the night this is what we had and I probably missed a name or two. We had 17 T-girls, 3 wives and 3 or 4 friends so our group was 23 or 24 tonight and it wasn’t that busy so we were the main group here tonight. I can’t remember the last time we have had such a big turnout. So, let’s take a shot at the names and again if fi miss someone I am sorry. Jan, Lynn, Kimberly Melissa, Robin, Shae and her wife Reanna, Betty, Chris, Roxy, Sindee and her wife Dee, Julie, Kris, Summer, Kate, Joan, Lauri and of course me. Also, Betty had 3 friends Adrian, Nancy and her husband, plus there was one other T-girl who is not part of our group but knew a few of the girls from online who showed up and I think her name was Kitty. Wow what a huge group so much fun. Our newer members are Shae, Sindee, Betty, Robin, Summer and Kimberly and I think having that many newer members out at one time is probably a record.

Chris and Roxy showed u and it was great to see them again. They mostly go to Sweethome on Fridays and I really need to go there again as it is a nice place to go and I had met a lot of people there that I follow on Facebook it is just hard for me to get out on Fridays early enough as Chris goes there after work and usually leaves by 7 or 8 and it would be 7 to 7:30 before I could get there. Funny as it used to be just Friday nights, I could get out on but things change, it was great to see them again as I have known Roxy for 11 years and Chris probably almost as long.

Melissa also came out which she does sometimes but usually leaves early but she stayed a lot later tonight as she was also meeting and talking with all our members. Kate was here also and it was great to see her again as it has been several months since she has been out as she has had a lot of things going on which I understand. It was great to talk with her again and we talked a little about Diva Las Vegas and she is thinking of going, still time to sign up if you want to go. I really tried to talk a little with everyone tonight as we did have newer members and I wanted them to feel welcome. I remember when I first went out there were 3 t-girls, Alice, Lori and Cassandra that reached out tome and made me feel welcome and that was so helpful and special and rally helped shape the lady I am today and I hope they know how much I appreciated it. I talked some with Kimberly early in the night she has some killer long red nails.

It was also wonderful to talk with Betty, Shae and Sindee, I was kind of selling them on Diva Las Vegas and they all said they want to go although Sindee and her wife may not be able to work it out this year but it would be so awesome if they all went and I know they would all have a blast. They really are wonderful people and it is great to get to know them and have them as friends. It really is funny as I have way more friends as Susan and a lot closer friend. Julie and Cassandra are my two closest friends and probably know the most about me of anyone. I think this happens as I don’t have to hide parts of my life from them. Yes, when I was first going out, I didn’t disclose my male side to anyone but I am pretty much over that, yes people I just meet or outside the group I am not as open but once I get to know people in our group, I am pretty open about myself and that is a wonderful feeling.

Julie and I talked a lot and I really enjoy her company when we are out and yes, we talked a lot with the newer girls, everyone in our group is so awesome. Even Julie stayed out till 11:30 or so it was a wonderful night. it really is sad as it gets later and girls start to leave and, in a way, especially some of our newer ones as they don’t live local so it is hard to tell when you will see them again as it is dependent on when they can get back to Portland. I talked a little with Summer and she really is nice and also Robin who I was able to get a selfie with. I really should have gotten pictures with some of the other girls.

It really was a fun night and sad when Shae and her wife left and then Sindee and her wife and then girls started to leave, always hard to say goodbye. I finally paid my bill and it was about 11:45 when both Julie and I left and I think there was still 8 of our group there. What a wonderful turnout tonight, I really do have a wonderful family here in the group. 11 years ago I would have never thought this possible.

Thanks for reading, a little longer tonight and if you made it to the end thank you. Be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is knew with Susan.

Just an update, Cassandra, Veronica and I have all booked rooms for Diva Las Vegas and also Fran one of our members from the other side of the state and we have maybe 8 others thinking about it so we could possible have 12 or more from our group go again this year and that would be awesome.

January 20, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday night dinner at Roots

Okay it is Thursday and I am going out for dinner. I wasn’t able to make the Wednesday night dinner this week so I had texted Julie to see if she wanted to get together on another night and she had Thursday free so wee decided to go to dinner. Now the plan is for me to pick her up at 6:30 and have dinner at 7, Julie picked the place and made reservations. She picked Roots restaurant and bar in Camas WA. Now I have never herd of this place so it would be a totally new place for Susan to go which is always fun.

I got home about 4:30 so I started getting ready right away as I am a little out of practice as far as getting ready on a schedule, the good thing is I had picked out my outfit last night and new just how I wanted to do my makeup. Now I say this as there is a lot that goes into being female and it is easy to overlook something, Last Saturday when I got home from being out and was getting ready for bed, I noticed I had forgot to do my eyebrows, not a big thing but noticeable if you are looking closely. Sunday when I went to Starbucks, I made one last look before leaving home and sure enough I had forgot my eyebrows again so I quickly did them and then was out the door. When I got to Starbucks, I noticed I had forgot my ring and bracelets. Now as a male I don’t wear any jewelry not even a watch so it should be no big deal but I was aware I was missing it the whole time I was out. So tonight, I took a good look before I left to make sure every thing was right and I looked my best. It was about 5:45 when I left for Julie’s.

I got to Julie’s a little after 6 and she had just finished getting ready so we had about a half hour before we had to leave so we sat and talked and I got to hear all about the cruise and see the pictures and there were some really good pictures, I am so sad I missed it. It was so wonderful to see Julie as she is one of my best friends, her and Cassandra are more like family, Sisters. They had such a wonderful time on the cruise. Julie and Cassandra were girls from the time they left all the way till the flight home and Julie had red nails the whole time and loved it.

Soon it was time to leave for dinner and we got to the Restaurant just a few minutes before 7 and went in. now for Julie this was also a first as her and her girlfriend come here several times a year as her male self but Julie acted as if it was totally normal. It really is hard to go places as your female self that you also go as male if you are keeping the two separate. Now this is a really nice place and more on the high end but very elegant. Our waiter was wonderful and gave us time to talk before we ordered. We had a wonderful time talking. Finally, we ordered, Julie and I split an entrée and appetizer.

We had a wonderful dinner just two girlfriends out for a relaxing time. We talked more about the cruise and of course Diva Las Vegas which is lees than 5 months away (end of March) hard to believe how fast it is coming. We also talked about our group. Our food was wonderful a really nice place so I would recommend it but be prepared to spend some money but once in a great while it is worth it to treat yourself. Now I did get a quick selfie but I really wish I had gotten a picture with Julie.

Soon it was after 9 the night went by so fast, we were the last two in the restaurant as they close at 9 but they never said a thing as we sat and talked. It was about 9:20 when we left such a fun night. Thanks Julie it was a blast. I drove back to Julies and dropped her off before heading for home. Now I love my Susan time at Starbucks but so much more fun when you can go out with someone else. It was a little after 10 when I got home so not to late even though I get up early for work but it was so worth it as I have really missed spending time with my friends the last few months.

I am so looking forward to going out more and getting Susan back to a more normal part of my life. Be sure and ready my newest blog to see what is new in my life.

November 10, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, family | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Little Susan time Sunday afternoon

It is Sunday and I am going to try and sneak a couple hours of Susan. My Dad is not doing well at all the last few days, Friday being the worst. Today he is a little better and they have some friends over so I am going to take advantage and sneak out. The plan was a quick trip to Starbucks for a couple hours. Now I have been going to the one just a little further away, about a ½ mile as it is bigger with more seats. I got all dressed up and was on my way by 3. I got to Starbucks and took a quick selfie before going in. there were no cars parked in front so I figured I would have the place to myself, but I was wrong. Probably the busiest I have seen this Starbucks, only the long bench table with high chairs and one table right in the middle open, there were probably 20 people here, I guess they all walked here. I took the open table and put my computer on it and went and ordered my drink.

Now I have been coming to this one for two reasons, one it is bigger and also, I have been coming here as my male self also. As a matter of fact, I stopped here last night for a couple hours to do some work. I got up to the counter to order and it is the same young girl who took my order last night as my male self. I ordered my drink and kind of watched to see if there was any sign she recognized me but as far as I could tell she didn’t. with my drink in hand I went back to my table and sat down to do some work on my computer. Now my plan for the night was to stay here till 6 or 6:30 then go home clean up and then go check on my parents. I got my work I had to get done, done and then started checking e-mails and Facebook. I got a text from Julie who wanted to know if I went out last night and I texted back no and that with my Dad I didn’t know when I would be out but I was out for a little bit now. She asked how long I would be out and if I wanted to meet and talk and of course I did as I really miss her. We agreed to meet at the Starbucks on Mill plain off I-205 which I have been to before, of course she would be in boy mode.

I got there a little after 5 and Julie was already there, she was shorter though as I had my ankle boots on with heels and she was in sandals. We both got a hot chocolate and sat down and started talking. We talked a little about my parents and where my Dad is which is not good and then we talked about other things more pleasant such as our group and the cruise coming up. I won’t be going but I am looking forward to all the pictures and stories from Julie and Cassandra about the trip. It really did help me take my mind off things going on in my life. Julie is so awesome and I am so lucky to have her as a friend. Last week I got to spend a few hours with Cassandra and Peggy who are also wonderful and take my mind off things. Even yesterday one of my longest friends who I have known for 35 plus years came over and we talked although he doesn’t know about Susan or this side of my life it was still nice to have friends you can count on. It was such an enjoyable evening and I didn’t want it to come to an end but I knew it had to.

It was about 6:45 when I told Julie I needed to go and she understood. She gave me a big hug which really did make things better. I got in my car and headed for home to change. I was almost home when I got a call from my mom and of course the worst popped into my head. Everything was okay and she was just calling to tell me they were going to bed early; my dad had calmed down some and she was really tired as she didn’t sleep well last night worrying about my dad so I didn’t need to stop by. I stopped and got gas and then stopped at Subway to get a sandwich before going home. Now I have family coming into town again this week so I am guessing Susan will be hid away now for a while and I am not sure when she will be back out but she is always with me inside and that will have to be enough for the short term.

September 16, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

It is Wednesday and our group is going to Hobo’s downtown for dinner which is a really nice place with good food. I posted in our group to see who all was going and so far, only have 2 that said yes and 2 maybes so may be a smaller group. I got home and started getting ready as I wanted to get to Hobo’s early for 2 reasons, just to make sure someone was there in case any girls showed up early and yes also to work on my blog as once again I am behind in writing them. I got done with my make by a little after 5 and was starting to get dressed when Julie texted me to see when I planed on going. I texted her back and said I was almost ready to leave and asked if she wanted me to pick her up, not that far out of my way and way more fun to go with someone then by yourself. Now years ago, it was because I just didn’t want to be out by myself but that is not the reason today. Today going out as Susan is about 2 things, being out doing normal things every other woman does but 2 and probably most important is being out with my friends. I have made some awesome close friends that are more like family and I miss when I don’t get to see them. Julie texted me that would be great so I told her I would be there in about 30 minutes and quickly finished getting dressed and was on my way.

I got to Julies house which is pretty much all finished after her remodel and she was already to go but she did take a few minutes to show me what was new and of course we got a couple pictures in her front room. It was turning out to be a fun night. Julie and I left and drove to Downtown Portland and parked just around the corner from Hobo’s, there were actually quiet a few parking spots tonight. We got to Hobo’s and went in and got a table and now we waited to see who all would show up. The table had 4 chairs but we could probably fit 6 around it if more showed up.

Barb was the first to show up followed by Kate and then Joan so we had 5 which was just perfect as we had room at the table but everyone could talk with everyone which is always nice. We talked for a bit and had some appetizers which Julie ordered, Thank Julie. Then it was time to order dinner. The food here is really good but more of a medium price range. My two favorite things here are the Chicken Parmesan which I had last time and their Prime Rib, I went with the Prime Rib tonight although I ate more of the appetizers then I should have.

Now we talked more as we waited for our food. One thing we are working on is how to get more of our group out especially the newer members. We all know how hard that first time or two out can be as we were all there at one point. I think back to the first times I went out and how scarred I was and now it is no big deal. Most of the time when I am out I am not even thinking about how I am dressed and for the most part people don’t care, I don’t even think a lot of people even notice as they are busy with what is going on in their lives. WE also talked a little about our Mexican Cruise this fall still time to sign up if you are interested. It really is fun to be out with my friends.

Our dinners finally came and we all enjoyed our food as I said they really do have good food here. We had a wonderful evening and dinner and no one ordered desert as between the appetizers and our dinners that was more then enough. Besides I really need to get serious about watching what I eat as I do want to lose some weight by our cruise which is coming up fast now. The night went by so fast as it always does and soon it was 9:30 and time to call it a night.

As we left Julie and I walked through CC Slaughters to see what was going on. It was pretty empty but we did see Dee and her partner there. Turns out they have just moved back to the Portland area so we talked with them for a little while before leaving. Now it was time to take Julie home before going home myself. It really is nice to have Julie there as we got to talk more and things are just more fun with friends along. It was a little after 10 when I dropped Julie off and headed for home. It really was a wonderful night out.

Thanks for reading and be sure and see my most recent blog to see what is new.

June 3, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Sunday and the drive home from Palm Springs to Portland

Well it is Sunday and we are driving hoe from Palm Springs to Portland as our wonderful vacation comes to an end. It really is sad as I know my days with my pretty nails are coming to an end. I got up at 2:30am to start getting ready, shower and full makeup all to become Susan for the ride home. Now I have gotten this question a lot why I would want to do all that do the makeup just to spend 16 hours in a car on a drive home. That is a good question and the only thing I can say is it is art of being Susan. When I first went to Diva Lasa Vegas in 2010 I decided I would be Susan, be female for the whole trip start to finish and in all my trips to Diva Las Vegas I have spent the whole trips as Susan. The only thing I take that is from my male life is my drivers license and a male credit card that matches my female credit card just in case I have an issue. This may not make sense to most butt for 12 days straight I am totally Susan, totally female. Now before you say anything no this is not leading up to me transitioning I am happy how I am in my life but for those 12 days I live as a female. That means always dressing as Susan and unfortunately for me I cannot go without makeup as I would look horrible so in this way I am at a disadvantage to females who can skip makeup and look fine. And so, I get up early and do my makeup just to ride in the car as at some point on a 16 hour drive I will have to get out of the car and then I will look my best. Now I will say I am not as fast or excited on day 11 at 2:30am getting ready as I was on the first day of the trip as it really is a lot of work to be female and look good.

I was all ready by 3:30am and Peggy, Cassandra and I were on our way. It is amazing how many cars are on the road in Palm Springs on a Sunday morning at this time. Now I did sleep a little early here and there till the sun came up but I was still tired as it has been a long, busy and fun week. I am so glad I have a couple more days off, one to rest and also to keep my nails a little longer.

We had a good drive home, Cassandra drove the whole way and I got to ride like a princess. We did stop a few times for food, gas and bathroom breaks and I got out of the car without a second thought about anything. I really wasn’t even thinking about how I looked well other than making sure my makeup was fine and not shiny. Really looking back on the whole week, I really didn’t think about being Susan or female other than when I dressed or touched up my makeup. When I was out or at the Blackjack table I was just me now yes when I bet or saw my hands I saw the pretty nails and every once in a while, my hair got in my face but I was just me. Several years back all I was thinking about when I was out, was how I was dressed, that I was out as a female. There was that excitement, fear, now I am just me and that really is a wonderful feeling. Sometimes I do miss the excitement I felt but the fact I will go any place now as Susan is a far better experience.

It was a beautiful drive home, sunshine all the way. Now this is the 7 time I have gone to Diva Las Vegas and only once I went by myself, way more fun going with Cassandra, Julie and Peggy. But if you think about it 16 hours down and 16 hours back and then the times we went through LA I figure over the last 10 years I have spent about 250 hours in a car as Susan with Cassandra. It has really given us a chance to talk and get to know each other. Susan really is a lucky lady to have such wonderful friends.

It was about 8pm when we got to Cassandra and Peggy’s house. We unloaded the car which trust me it is way easier to unload then load as it took some work to get everything in just right so we had room for all 3 of us, ladies do not travel light. My male self could have made this trip with one suitcase but Susan needed 2 big ones and a small duffle bag with makeup and changes for on the way down and back. Susan had 8 pairs of shoes with her and believe it or not I did not have the most luggage. But as a lady you never know what you might need. I also took 14 dresses (only wore 5 of them). One of the fun things of being Susan.

Once on packed I got my stuff in my car and said my goodbyes. It is sad as I have spent some wonderful time with Cassandra and Peggy over the week and I was on my way home. I got home a little after 9 and on packed all my stuff and now I make the Diva Las Vegas vacation over. All that is left is a day and a half of Susan time at home till Tuesday afternoon when I will get my nails done and then back to my male life and the first male clothes I will have put on in 12 days. From past experiences the shoes will feel heavy and the clothes ruff and boring but such is life.

Now I had to answer the big question I had, how did I do gambling. My goal is to have fun and hopefully break even, if I do that it was a good vacation. Well I counted all my money and I had $62 more than I left home with which may not seem like a lot but I spent about $200 in cash on food, golf and the Dam Tour and another $225 for my share of the gas down and back which means I won almost $500 at the tables over the week, Susan had fun.

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Here is a picture from my trip.

April 24, 2018 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2018, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Saturday and we leave Las Vegas to take Julie back to Palm Springs

It is Saturday and Diva Las Vegas is over for 2018 what a fun time we had but it is sad to see it come to an end. Now I was up late again last night but luckily, I didn’t have to get up as early today. I got up at 7:30 and started getting ready for the trip to Palm Springs. Cassandra and Julie were ready before me but then as they are traveling in male mode they didn’t have to do makeup. It was almost 9 when I was ready and we went down to check out. It has been a wonderful trip and everyone here at the Four Queens have been awesome. As we got off the elevator we ran in to Chris, he was the bell Hop who took our stuff up to our rooms a week ago and of course he remembered us. He asked how our golf tournament went and how we enjoyed our stay. He was so awesome. He even asked how many stayed here and told us if we could get 10 rooms we could get a group discount. He went to the counter and got us some information and a contact name to call next year.

Julie was checking out and the lady asked if she had a player’s card which she didn’t, then she told Julie she could get a discount (over 55) so Julie went and got a player’s card. Of course, Cassandra got hers out ad got the discount and she even gave it to me even though I am only 54 how awesome is this. She even used our comp dollars we had left over. I saved about $100 on my room and between the of us it was almost $500 because of the players card. Even last nights dinner we got a 2 for 1 and used some comp dollars. Really if you go to Las Vegas take advantage of the players card, tip though the smaller casinos I think are better for this as they don’t get the big gamblers so smaller gamblers are treated better. The lady who checked us out went way beyond by letting us know this as we would have paid our bills and been just as happy as we didn’t know. I can’t say enough about her. Cassandra was getting the car and another lady came out and gave me a card for the lady in charge of sales and again she thanked us for coming and told us she hoped we would be back nest year and told me to call the number and they could do a group rate all we needed was 10 rooms and it is like the cruise we are taking. Everyone books their room and just gives them the name we set up and they will all get the group rate. They really want us back next year and that is awesome.

Soon we were in the car and on our way, it was a 4-hour trip to Palm Springs. By the way here is a picture from last night of Julie and I when we played our $100 hand that I missed in my blog yesterday. It was a nice drive and we all talked about how much fun we had. We got to Palm Springs a little after 2 and it was hot, in the 90’s. Peggy and Trixie were waiting or us and it was good to see them again tomorrow Peggy, Cassandra and I will head back to Portland and Julie & Trixie will stay a couple more weeks before they come back to Portland.

We all talked and of course we told them all about our trip and they told us about all the fun they had, we were also texting pictures with them through the week so we already knew about most of what we all did. How did we survive before cell phones and texting? We had a nice afternoon.

Trixie made dinner for us, Chicken and potato’s and it was about 7 when we ate as we let it cool off a little (into the 80’s) so we could eat out on the patio. It was a really fun time. Now we were talking about our trip home and Cassandra wants to leave at 3:30am as she hast to work on Monday and doesn’t want to get home to late. I am off so I didn’t care of course to leave that early I have to get up at2:30am as it takes Susan longer to get ready. It is hard work being a lady but so worth it although I am looking forward to a few days of no Susan as my face needs a break from all these close shaves. After dinner we had some ice cream and talked a little more. It was about pm when we went to bed as it will be a short night.

It has been a wonderful trip and made all the more special with my friends, well they are more like family. I can’t imagine my life without them and I love them all. It has gone by so fast, it is hard to believe I have been Susan for 9 days straight and have had my pretty nails all that time. It will be so sad to have to go and remove the red polish and trim them back short on Tuesday which is only 3 days away.

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April 23, 2018 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2018, Las Vegas, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Friday last day of Diva Las Vegas.

It is Friday and the last full day of Diva Las Vegas 2018, wow the week has gone by so fast. Hard to believe I have had my pretty long nails for a week now. We are going golfing at Wild Horse so than means getting up early once again. I was up at 6:40 to get ready. We left at 8am and got to the golf course just before 9. It was Cassandra, Veronica, Julie, Michele and myself.

We had a great round of golf and the weather was perfect, warm and no wind. Now as there were just 5 of us we just played straight golf. I had a good round and shot a 92 which was fine with me and that put me in 3rd of 5 rights in the middle. We got back to the hotly to clean up around 2. We all cleaned up and we were going to go to Margarita Ville but decided to stay here on a Friday night and eat at Magnolia again. We went to the Blackjack tables for a while and gambled, I lost $50 before I quit and took my 2 remaining $25 chips and we went over to have dinner. Now for dinner we had all of us, Laura, Kate, Veronica, Julie, Robyn, Cassandra, Tara and myself. I ordered a Prime Rib again, it was only $16.99 tonight and it was good but I will say last nights was better, maybe not that much better. We had a nice dinner.

After dinner we went into the little pub cellar here and had a drink and just talked for a while. It was a nice time and we talked all about Diva Las Vegas and what a fun time we all had this week. It really is a wonderful event and so much fun. I have been Susan full time this week for over 7 days and it has been wonderful although I am getting a little slower at doing my makeup and getting ready. I love being Susan but will be ready for a few days of just being my male self again. We also talked about being out as females and I have said many time I really have had no problems other than so looks and that you can’t get away from as people look at each other. I look at cute girls especially when they are in pretty dresses and heels. If people have different hair or anything that makes them stand out you will at least take a second look and that goes for transgender people also. I don’t have a problem with people looking at me as I really don’t even notice it. Now when one might run into issues are almost always with drunk people (men) and that is no exception as when you are drunk you are more likely to do stupid stuff or things you wouldn’t do if you had not been drinking. I am not saying it is not who you are or drinking makes you different, we all have those things inside we think about others. 99% of people don’t act on things like that but when you have had too much to drink you will sometimes and yes, we did have a couple drunk men that made a few comments and I attribute it to how much they drank as one could hardly get out of his seat. In 10 plus years this was probably the worst thing I have dealt with and I am sure it was the alcohol and I was not going to let it ruin a wonderful vacation and tine as Susan. Off track again.

Cassandra started talking about Blackjack and came up with an idea. We each go to the Blackjack table and get $100 chip and bet on 1 hand but we do it as a team. We had of 5 of us that wanted to do this. Now the way it will work as we paly as a team so we all decide how the hands will be played and if I lose and Cassandra wins she will pass me the $100 chips she wins and we keep playing and we play till we decide as a group to quit. We spent 20 plus minutes talking how we would do this and how we play and we will split what we win between the 5 of us.

We were all ready and we all walked over to the $25 table and bought in and got our $100 chip, now I have bet I think as high as $40 on one hand and have split and or doubled down and had ore than $100 on the table but I have never bet $100 on a hand to start so this will be a first. Now they were putting new cards in play so we had a few minutes while the dealer shuffled and Kate took some pictures and we even got the pit boss to take a table picture of us holding up our $100 chips. Now with all the pictures and of course our excitement we did get a small crowd around our table, I looked back and there was maybe 10 or more people standing there to watch. Finally, it was time and we all putt our $100 out and the dealer dealt the hand. Robyn got an 11 and doubled down Veronica, Julie and I got low hands and Cassandra got a 19, dealer had a 110 showing. Robyn got her card face down, Veronica went bust $100 gone, Julie went bust $100 gone, I went bust $100 gone Cassandra stood on 19. Dealer turned another 10 for 20 and Cassandra’s $100 was gone. All we had left was Robyn and her card was a 3 for 14 and her $200 was gone. One hand and less then 1 Minute and $600 was gone but it was still an incredible hand and had it gone the other way we still may be playing. Don’t get me wrong as it sucks to lose $100 so fast but it was something I have never done and I shared it with my best friends and that made it special and I am sure we will talk about this again and remember it and we are already talking about doing it again next year on the last night.

Now it was getting late and everyone wanted to go up to the room and get packed for tomorrow accept for Veronica as she is here for a couple more days. She wanted to go play Blackjack so I told her I would walk over with her. We got to the table and there was only 2 people playing her table, yes, she has a favorite table that has side bets. It was a $10 table and I still had my 2 $25 chips so I sat down. Well I decided to play $25 and just see what would happen. I won the first hand, and then the second, third, fourth and fifth, I won 5 hands in a row before I lost a hand so I decided I would keep playing I played for about an hour betting $25 to $40 a hand, winning some and loosing some but still had more than I started and was having fun and the people at the table were great. Well all things must come to an end and a new dealer came in and my luck went away. I lost the next 5 hands in a row so I decided to quit. I cashed out and I had $675 my best win of the week.

I went upstairs to my room and I was feeling really good right now. Cassandra was still up so I showed her what I did it was a great feeling. I got my stuff packed and sat down and counted my money just to see where I was. I actually have almost $200 more in cash than I came down with and am sure I spent at least $200 on stuff here this week so I did really well at the tables this year. It was almost 1am when I went to bed so it will be another short night as we want to leave by 9am in the morning and that means Susan needs to be up before 8am to get ready. Cassandra and Julie are traveling back as their male selves o I am sure they will be ready way before me.

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April 22, 2018 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2018, Las Vegas | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

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