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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Friday afternoon with Stefi & Marilyn and then to Sweethome Friday night

Well I will pick up where I left off. I left Starbuck’s about 2 as I wanted to go to ULTA at Lloyd Center before I met Stefia and Marilyn. See I needed a new lip liner and some other makeup plus as a card member of ULTA I get special offers one of which was for a free eye shadow wheel for my birthday. A strange coupon as they sent it to my e-mail on the 28 of the month after my birthday and it was only good during the month of my birthday which really only gave me 3 days to use it but luck was with me as I was out today.

Now I always park by Nordstrom’s at Lloyd Center which I have done for years. That way I never forget where I parked but they have closed the Nordstrom’s here which is sad. Well I still parked about the same place but went in the mall entrance there. ULTA is of course at the other end of the mall so off I went strolling down the mall. It is funny as I know some people take a double look and it may be for many reasons, wondering if I am a real woman I hope but more than likely to confirm I am in fact a man dressed as a woman but very few give me that look of disapproval that I have noticed. I really believe most people don’t care how you dress or look as long as you are not causing a problem. Now I did have one lady stop me ever so briefly to tell me she loved my outfit and the way I looked which was nice and of course I thanked her.

I went into ULTA and there were 2 men coming out and they both had on as much if not more makeup then I had on but other than the makeup they were dressed as men so maybe makeup is catching on in the male population. I found my Lip Liner and a foundation yes I buy cheaper foundation to use on my neck and save my MAC foundation just for my face as this system works well for me. The lady at the counter got me my free eye shadow which is 5 shades of browns which will be wonderful for daytime look. She chatted with me for a few minutes, wishing me a happy birthday and asked how it was and what I did for my birthday which was nice.

Well I made my way back down by the old Nordstrom’s as that is where we were meeting, Stefia was running a little late but Marilyn was there so I sat with her and we talked while we waited for Stefia. We had a nice conversation which is something Susan loves to do. Stefia showed up about 2:40 and we talked about what we wanted to do. We decided to walk a couple blocks to the old New Port Bay restaurant which closed and has a new place there now and see what they had for Happy Hour. It is now called Prime Rib Chocolate Cake.

They have a really good Happy Hour menu and as we got there right at 3 they were not at all busy so we got a nice booth by the window. Stefia and I both ordered a salad and of course we all got drinks, mine was a coke. Stefia took a couple pictures Susan & Marilynof Marilyn and me so of course I gave her my phone so I could have a picture of us for my blog. now remember I left home today at 9:40 and have not touched up my makeup in over 5 hours so not looking as fresh as I should. By the way the salad was wonderful here will have to go back again. we sat here till a little after 5 just talking and of course by 5 it was getting really busy here. before we left Stefia asked our waitress who was wonderful also if she could take a picture of all of us which she did of course. Stefia, Susan and MarilynAs we were leaving we got another waitress to take our picture under their sign by the door. It was a really fun couple of hours and went by so fast.

We walked the 3 blocks back to Lloyd Center and down through the mall to by where we all parked. the  we said goodbyes and went our separate ways. now I was not really dressed for going to Sweethome as I pretty much always where a dress or skirt but as it was after 5 now I knew with rush hour traffic it would take me well over an hour to get home so I made the decision to go right to sweethome as I had my computer with me and I knew Chris gets there between 5 & 5:30. well it was the right choice as it took me till almost 6 just to get there.

Chris was inside playing pool so I sat down at our table, yes we get the same table every week. I got out my computer and caught up some e-mails. it is sad in a way that I only seem to reply to e-mails sent me so it is easy to loose touch with people so that is one of my New Years resolutions and that is to try to e-mail friends more regular even if all I have to say is hi.

Well I was finishing up on my e-mails and in walks Lilly. I haven’t seen here since the Halloween party, she has a lot going on in her life right now. it was great to see her again. well I put my computer away so we could talk. it is funny as she brought up that she is also getting a lot of friends request on Facebook from people with no information which I had just mentioned in my blog earlier. well we all talked about it and it seems we all feel the same. We are not going to approve someone we don’t know and have no information on so please if you want to send a friends request send me a message and let me know a little about you so I don’t have to feel bad for rejecting you and you don’t feel bad about being rejected. I had a great time talking with Lilly and hope she can get out more now.

Michele and Petra also made it tonight. Petra talked Michele into going to Diva Las Vegas with her this year so we have 5 for sure going. I think the cost will keep some of the other girls from going this year as room rates are way to high because of March Madness, if you stay Sunday through Friday night, 6 nights you are looking at $1,100 or more for a basic room with all the fee. Yes all the hotels now charge a resort fee on top of their room rates so they can lie to you with cheaper rates and then stick it to you at the end. some are only $15 but Caesars which is in Bankruptcy now has started charging $25 per night or more depending on the hotel. what a rip off, for this you get free local phone calls, something they never charged for before plus who doesn’t have a cell phone. Free wi-fi, who is sitting in their room on a computer plus almost everyone has a data plan on their phone. Can you tell I am a little unhappy about this. Well enough of the bad I am still looking forward to Diva Las Vegas.

Dee also showed up, she changed her girl name from Jackie when she moved from Bend. She is retired and traveling now and is in Portland for a week. She bought a travel trailer and is going to travel around the country which will be fun. she is also planning on being in the Las Vegas area during Diva Las Vegas. Roxy also made it out tonight so we had a pretty good turnout

Morgan also showed up and I am not sure how long it has been since I have seen her so it was really nice. Morgan and her partner have done the Karaoke at the Halloween party for several years but this last one they couldn’t make so it may have been a year or more since we have talked. it was nice to get to talk with her and get to know her better one of the good things about smaller groups.

Karaoke started and of course Chris and Morgan both sang and did great. it was a really fun night but as always it must come to an end. It was almost midnight and it was just Morgan and me left from our group, Morgan had one more song to sing. after she sang we were going to call it a night. Morgan left and I went up and paid my bill. Well Michelle from the other group was singing and I liked the song so I sat down and listened to her and next Was Jessica who I have also got to know from their group so I stayed for her song.

I got up to leave and the man at the next table called me over to talk. Well he told me how beautiful I was which was nice as what girl doesn’t like to hear that. I thanked him and I could see where this was going but before I could say anything he asked me if I would like to go out sometime. Wow now I have had men hint at it before but this is the first time I have actually been asked out. What a boost to my ego, but the simple fact is I am nit at all interested in or attracted to men. after all I think one of the reasons I try so hard to look as pretty as possible is I really love the feminine look. I thanked him for such a wonderful compliment but explained to him I was not at all interested in men. I think he took it well as I was as honest and open about it as I could be. he wished me a goodnight and I was on my way out to the car.

now the one bad thing is when I left this morning it was sunny out and warm as it actually got up to 60 today so I didn’t think to bring my wrap. well it was now about 35 out and cold so till I got my car warm I was cold but it was still a wonderful day.

Thanks for reading.

January 31, 2015 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Rose_City_T-Girls, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Relaxing day as Susan out shopping.

Well Friday morning I slept in as I had the day off, I got up at 8 and started getting ready with the hopes of being out of the house by 9. Well that didn’t work as it was about 9:40 when I left. This was kind of a last minute Susan outing but I went ahead and texted Stefia to see if she would be out today and wanted to get together. Turns out she is meeting Marilyn this afternoon and invited me to join them so I am planning on that. So with that I was out the door and on my way to Clackamas Town Center for a little shopping. I am actually looking for a new pair of heels as my favorite pair is looking kind of worn out, they are 5 years old and also a new nightie for my trip to Diva Las Vegas.

I got to Clackamas just a little after 10 and parked by Macy’s and went in. now Macy’s has a big mark down section where you can find some good deals but what I noticed is the items they are clearing out are seasonal. When I met Stefia here a couple months ago I found a few really cute things but they were summer type stuff a couple of them I haven’t worn yet and now it is all the winter stuff they are starting to clear out. Sweaters, and coats and long sleeve items not things I would want for Las Vegas in the spring when it will be in the 80’s there. So seeing nothing I ventured out into the mall and walked down to Sears. Now being a weekday and in the morning the mall was really not that busy but that didn’t bother me as I really didn’t care how busy they were.

I looked around Sears and they had a really cute ankle boot with 3” heel on sale for $24.99 so I tried it on. I got it on but it was just too tight and all they had was a 10 med, if it had been a half size bigger I would have gotten it as it really was cute. I checked out their clothing and sleepwear but didn’t see anything I liked so back out into the mall.

I stopped at H&M and looked around. I found a couple necklaces I liked and bought them, nothing big or fancy just a gold colored chain. From hear I walked through Victoria’s Secret which is always fun. One of the sales ladies came over and asked if I needed any help and I said I was just looking. She then told me about their new bra they just got in and asked if I would like to try one on. Wow I was so tempted but I passed as looking at it I realized it was designed to push a natural breast up there was not enough material in it to hold my breast form in place but it was still cool she was willing to let me try one.

I walked to the other end of the mall and went to JC Pennies and looked at their shoes and sleepwear. Looks like none of the stores have many open toed heels right now probably because it is still winter. They had some cute sleepwear but nothing I liked or at least would look good on me. Funny as I noticed that the sleepwear is either really sexy (Small, Tight and designed to show everything off) or very plain. They had a couple cute items or at least they would have been if they had been in better colors. I think they still have their winter nighties in stock.

Well it was back into the mall and back to Macy’s for one last look around before heading out to my car. They had some really cute nighties and I thought I had found the place to shop but then I looked at the sizes. All were small or medium and there was no way I was going to fit into one of them so I was still out of luck but it had been a fun day.

It was a little after noon when I got in my car and left. I got over by Lloyd Center as that is where I am meeting Stefia & Marilyn at 2:30. It was about 12:40 so I figured I would stop at a Starbuck’s a few blocks from the mall for a snack and a drink and to play on my computer. I needed to go through my friends request on Facebook.

It is funny as I get a lot of friends request on Facebook and I have been trying to figure out where to accept them or not. Most of them you cannot see any information about them or even their pictures so you really have nothing to go by as to who they are. You would think they would maybe send a message to say who they are and why I should friend them. The only thing I can go by is mutual friends and that really doesn’t tell me much. So here is my comment on this. If you want to be friends with me on Facebook please send me a message and let me know a little about you, those get approved a lot faster. If I just get a friends request and I have no information to base it on most likely you will be denied. I went through about 70 request and deleted about 60 of them as I just had nothing to base a decision on and that is a shame as you may be a wonderful person.

It is amazing how busy this little Starbucks is, it has been a steady stream of people coming in and almost every seat is taken. As a matter of fact I had to sit at a long table on a stool when I first got here. Luckily a table with chairs opened and I moved to it as it was just more comfortable then the stool. I have caught up on all my e-mails, it helped that I did most last night.

Pedicure 1-29-2015Now as I promised here are a couple pictures of my Manicure and Pedicure. It is far harder to get a good picture of the manicure as I had to use the web cam on my computer as I didn’t have an extra hand free to take the picture. The color is OPI Red very pretty color.

I so love having pretty nails and wish I could have them all the time. Maybe someday it will be common for men to have pretty painted nails. I bet if more men went to the nail salon and tried it this would happen a lot faster as everyone looks better with nice looking hands. Manicure 1-29-2015Not a great picture of me but the focus of the picture should be the nails. It is amazing how feminine they make my hands look. They were a little long to start with but he filed them even and gave them a square tip look and wow instant girl fingers. I will have to remove the nail polish tomorrow though as I work on Sunday. I will also miss the Super Bowl with my friends as I will get off work just before it starts so by the time I got home, got dressed as Susan and got to where they are watching the game it would almost be over so no football for Susan this weekend.

Thanks for reading.

January 30, 2015 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finally time to get out and get a manicure and pedicure.

Well I finally had time to go and get a manicure and pedicure tonight. It is funny as I had planned to go every 4 to 5 weeks and that just didn’t seem to work out this time as I was looking back on my blog and it has been 8 weeks since I got my last one. I called Dream nails as soon as I got home and was able to get an appointment for 5:30 which was plenty of time as it literally takes me less than 5 minutes to get there. I started getting ready about 3:45 and I was ready to go by 5 pm so I had a little time to kill so I watched a little news.

I got to Dream nails right at 5:30 and went in. Anna the lady who did my nails last time was sitting by the door and greeted me which always make you feel welcome. I was hoping she would be doing my nails again tonight as she did a fabulous job last time and was very pleasant. Well it turns out if they take appointments in turn unless you make it with a specific nail person so I got a male nail tech who was going to do my nails tonight. Now it is funny as my first thought was not the man and then I thought wow that is not right for me to judge him just for being a man. So I went over and sat in the chair and put my feet in the water and he started working on my feet.

Pedicures are so relaxing and feel so wonderful, if you have never gotten one you really should. They massage your feet and calf muscles and then rub in lotions and oils till your skin is silky smooth. Now he did a really good job but it never really spoke to me and I wondered if he was unsure of me or not sure what to say so that was a little bit of a disappointment but I guess I could have tried to start a conversation also and didn’t so I guess I really can’t fault him for that. There were a couple other ladies that came in but they just got manicures.

Now with my toes done we moved over to the manicure table and he started on my fingers. Manicures are nice but the point of a manicure is to get your fingers looking pretty, pedicures are for relaxing and of course getting your toes pretty. Well it turns out I have tomorrow off work as I have to work Sunday so I went ahead and had the same bright red polish put on my fingers. They look so cute and he actually shaped them a little which made them look so much better even though they are short. He really did do a nice job on my nails.

Well while I sat and let the polish dry I talked a little win Anna, it is funny I probably talked more with her in the 15 minute my nails were drying, she is really nice. I will have to remember to ask for her next time when I get my nails done. I am thinking I will get a manicure and pedicure in 6 weeks as that would be about a week before I leave for Diva Las Vegas and then I will make an appointment to with her to get my acrylic nails the night before we leave. That way my toes will look awesome for the trip also.

Well it was about 6:45 when I left, Anna got my keys out of my purse for me so I wouldn’t mess up my nails and told me to come back soon which made me feel good as a matter of fact the other lady there and even the man who did my nails thanked me for coming in and wished me a nice evening. It was a fun time and my fingers look awesome. It will be sad to have to remove the nail polish, too bad I can’t keep it.

Well as I was not ready to go home yet I drove out to Starbuck’s and that is where I am not. They weren’t really busy and when I got up to the counter to order the man behind the counter asked me what I wanted tonight and called me by my female name Susan which took me by surprise as I didn’t remember telling him my name but then I realized I always pay with my Susan credit card and he must have remembered my name from that, how awesome is that. Having a nice hot drink and chatting with some friends on face book, catching up on e-mails and of course updating my blog. What a wonderful evening it has been. The simple joys of being a girl.

Tomorrow as I have the day off I think I will go out and maybe do a little shopping in the morning and early afternoon. Then of course Friday night I will be going out with my friends. What a wonderful start to a weekend.

Thanks for reading.

January 29, 2015 Posted by | nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A rare Saturday night out with friends

Well it was a wonderful day Saturday, I got down with my male stuff early and I thought why not go out as many of the girls were going to the Escape bar and grill on Sandy. I got home at 6:15 and started getting ready right away and I think I set a record as I was leaving my house at 7. Now I got to the Escape by 7:30 and Cassandra, Cristine, Laura, Samantha Petra and Michele were already there. We have come here before a few times and always had a fun time.

It was so nice to be out with my friends on my birthday as consider them all part of my family and they all wished me a Happy Birthday. Cassandra had her computer set up in the corner where she was chatting on line. Turns out one of the girls in the chat room who had seen me the other night wanted to chat with me, seems I made a good impression the night before online. it was kind of fun chatting online even though I am not very good at it as I have a hard time following so many conversations. I chatted for a while then went back to the tables with the other girls to talk.

Jamie Lee and Kris also made it tonight along wit Victoria so we had a really good turn out for something we decided to do on Thursday. several of the girls played pool and for a while the rule of the game was to scratch on the 8 ball, as a matter of fact 3 games in a row the winner won because the other person scratched while they were trying to sink the 8 ball.

Now they also do Karaoke here on Saturday night and it is really good. some of the singers were really good and Laura got up and sang a few songs and did great. It was a fun night and I had a wonderful Birthday that I was able to share part with my Family on my male side and also with Susan’s wonderful Family. I really am a lucky girl.

I stayed there till about 11:30 and had a wonderful time. It would be nice if the group maybe started going out on Saturday nights also sometimes and try new places, Maybe some dinners. It would be so nice if we could get the group more active and do some new things.

Thanks for reading.


January 25, 2015 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Friday night fun

Well it has been another long and busy week for my male side, so much going right now that I really look forward to my Susan time. tonight is going to be so much fun as I really need to relax and just be Susan for a while. I actually got home early today so I so I planned on going out earlier tonight as if that ever really happens. seems when I have more time Susan takes longer getting ready and that is okay as I really enjoy the whole transformation time.

I did my makeup a little brighter with pins and purple eye shadows tonight as I had decided to wear my Salmon colored dress. Now I didn’t get a picture tonight but here is one from when I wore it last at Harvey’s. well I did make it out early tonight as I was ready by 6 and at Sweethome by 6:20.

I got inside and Cassandra, Chris. Cristine and Samantha were all there and Cassandra and Chris had their computers out so with 5 of us around one able with 2 computers on it there wasn’t room for mine so I just put it under the table and instead enjoyed good conversation plus watching some of Chris’s videos on his computer and of course Cassandra’s video chatting. I even got to chat a little for Cassandra. It was actually fun and I got a few nice comments on how I looked from the other people in the chat room.

Well we actually had a good turnout tonight as Jan, Lynn, Petra, Roxy and Laura also showed up. it was going to be a fun night. Now a funny thing. Chris from our group had a birthday on January 19 and it turns out that Michele from the Karaoke group , also has a birthday on the same day, Happy Birthday to you both. so of course they were talking about that last week and again this week. Now think of the odds as we have about 7 of us that come here every Friday and maybe another 8 to 10 that come somewhat regular. the Karaoke group has maybe 20 that come regular so in that small number to have one person from each group with a birthday the same day but it doesn’t stop there. Jonnie from the Karaoke group also shares my birthday Tomorrow, Saturday, so of course she came over and gave me a hug and wished me happy Birthday as I also wished her one and we talked for maybe 15 minutes about our plans for our birthdays. I guess January is a good month for Birthdays.

Jolene also made it tonight, she got there a little later than last week as she went to the Q-Center for a Transgender meeting. this is all new to her as she still hasn’t fully dressed even at home. she did come out to her children last weekend and it seems to have gone okay as they still want to be a part of her life even though they don’t fully understand which is understandable as Jolene is still trying to figure it out.

I got several compliments on how I looked and my dress. Michele told me that the color really suited me which made my night. later on two ladies at the bar told me how great my dress was and how nice I looked. I chatted wit them for a few minutes. One had a little dog in her purse so of course I had to pet the dog.

Cassandra and I talked about Dive Las Vegas we are so looking forward to it. this weekend I need to register and book a hotel room. I was looking online and room rates this year are sky high. if I can’t work a deal I will be paying about $1200 plus tax for the same room I paid $345 last year including tax. Now we are staying 2 extra nights. we are actually planning on arriving this year on Saturday and leaving a week later on Sunday so there are 2 extra nights both a Saturday but still a lot for a room that I may spend 7 hours a day in sleeping. Right now we are planning on driving to Reno on Friday and staying one night there and doing the same coming home instead of doing LA this year. I of course will get my nails done and do the whole trip again as Susan. For sure Cassandra, Peggy and I will drive down, Julie and Petra will meet us there but that is all we have going for sure. I think having it in March this year may have been a bad idea as with such high room rates I think that will keep a lot of girls away.

Karaoke stared and of course Laura, Chris and Lynn all sang and Cassandra brought some cupcakes Peggy made for Chris and my Birthdays and they were so good, Thank you Peggy for such a wonderful treat.  it was a really fun night.

It was after 12:30 when I called it a night, yes this has been the latest I have stayed out on a Friday in a while, I think it was all the sugar in the cupcakes. in the end it was Cassandra, Jan, Lynn and myself that stayed this late. I went over and wished Jonnie a Happy Birthday again as it was now after midnight and actually our birthdays. what a fun evening and a great start to the weekend.

January 24, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Dinner with friends

Well it has been a busy week so far and I have not been in bed before 11 pm each night so I really should have stayed home but I couldn’t pass up tonight as Cassandra was going to be out for the first time in 2 months as she has been really busy. she did find a little time to dress but not enough to go out, not sure how she survived. Also Julie would be out tonight plus we were going to House of Louie for Chinese tonight. What a wonderful night it would be.

now as I couldn’t stay out late I started getting ready early so I could go out early as I knew Cassandra would be at Fox & Hound by 6 so that was my goal. I got to Fox & Hound by 6:30. Julie, Cassandra and Chris were all there. we sat and talked for about 20 minutes before we walked over to House of Louie.

We had a nice walk over for dinner, Cristine was already there waiting for us. Now we are always treated wonderful here and I really think they look forward to our coming in which is nice. we all ordered dinner and talked while we waited. It wasn’t long and Jamie Lee and Kris showed up. we had a wonderful time and as always it went way to fast.

At 9 we all walked back to CC Slaughters and the rest of the girls went in but I had to call it a night. As I was walking back to my car I ran into Joan who was just arriving. We chatted for a few minutes, it was nice to see her. It really was a shame I couldn’t stay out later.

It was a fun night though. One last thing, I did get my vacation so I will be going to Diva Las Vegas, Hope to see you there.


January 22, 2015 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Staring my weekend off right on a Friday night with friends.

Well this has been a long and busy week so I am really looking forward to tonight and spending time with my friends. it is so amazing how just thinking about time as Susan can have such a calming affect on me. well I got off work a little early so I figured why not go out early. this is always great as it allows me more time to get ready and to enjoy myself. it is funny as I so enjoy the whole transformation process from the shower and shaving to the moisturizing, the doing my makeup and finally the picking out of my outfit for the night. I actually spent almost 2 hours getting ready tonight and although I would like to think the extra time made me look that much better I no it didn’t but on the inside it did as I enjoyed ever moment. everyone should find something in their lives that they love to do and then make time at least once a week to do it, the world would be a much happier place I think. my tip for the day.

I was on my way by a little after 6 which is probably the earliest I have been out on a Friday in a long time. I have gotten in the habit of taking my computer now o Friday nights as it is a little slower to start at Sweethome so I can catch up on e-mails and Facebook friends. I got there and the parking lot was full so I had to park on the street. now there was a spot just out of the driveway and I have parked here many times but tonight I briefly thought about parking up the street as this is the same way I had parked earlier in the week when my car was hit. well I still parked there but I did think about it a couple times throughout the evening.

Chris was the only one there from our group so far as he gets here about 5:30 so I joined him and as he was on his computer I got mine out too. of course Chris wanted to hear about my car and how it got wrecked so we talked as we both played on our computers.

Jolene showed up in boy mode, she still has not really dressed up even at home as she is just discovering Jolene and her other self. she has had these feelings for years but has never really acted on them. she is now trying to understand them and how they fit into her life. this can be a hard and scary thing to be going through so I am glad she has found our group. The one thing I know well about the gender community and I am doing my best to explain to her is that transgender are a wide and varied group and we all have similarities and differences and what is right for one may not be right for someone else and she needs to figure out what is right for herself. it took me many years to really understand who I am, who Susan is and who my male self is and how they all fit together to make one complete person. As with any social group there can be pressure to lean one way or another to fit in, well maybe fit in is a bad choice of words but we all like to feel we are not alone and others share are values and needs so if you are the same as me then we are both okay. I hope this makes sense. the one thing we all need is to be who we are and not let others make that decision for us.

I could tell Jolene was a little nervous so I did my best to make her feel welcome. I introduced her to everyone as they came in. we also got a chance to talk some more and I found out more about her, she is going through a lot right now as her wife found out about her feelings and it did not go well. I think that is why she reached out to me through my blog.

Cristine showed up and we were all talking, Cassandra will be out Wednesday night for dinner, the group is doing Chinese food that night. Cassandra has not been able to get out for almost 2 months and we are all sure she is going through withdrawals over it. Any way as busy as she and Peggy have been they don’t have time to do a Super Bowl Party this year so we are talking about meeting at Sweethome for the game. we also got talking about Petra and Michele as we have not seen them for a while. well just as we were talking I looked up and they walked through the door. It was nice to see them again. Roxy also showed up for a little while so we had an okay group for the night. the bar was really busy though and Levi was behind the bar tonight again.

Craig from the Karaoke group got the Karaoke stuff out early tonight bit it was because he wanted to play some music videos and some of them were well shall we say interesting. Karaoke started about 9:30 and Jolene stayed late enough to hear some of the singers. It was a fun night and it was sad to see it come to an end.

Chris and I were the last of our group to leave. We paid our bills and it was a little before midnight when we left. now I am writing my blog and I am trying a new program called Windows Live Writer, I can’t seem to get my Word program to connect to my blog anymore. I and not sure about this programs yet, it is not as easy and straight forward as Word but it does have a lot of extra features as it is designed for blogging and it appears I have full access to my blog including comets and previews so that is cool.

Diva Las Vegas is coming fast March 22-27 so check them out

January 17, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A rainy night so what could be better than a warm drink at Starbuck’s

Well it has been one of those weeks you can’t wait for it to get over, when your Monday starts off bad all you can do is hope the week gets better. So I guess I should start there, my beautiful new car was hit on Monday while I was at work so I have been dealing with the Insurance, auto shop and of course the police as it was a hit and run on a stolen vehicle. This is not how I wanted to spend my week. Well anyway tonight I really needed some Susan time to relax so I decided to come to Starbuck’s.

Just getting ready to go out made me feel so much better and I didn’t even care that it was raining. I got to Starbucks’s about 6:20 so I will have almost 3 hours here tonight which I need. It will give me a chance to catch up on my e-mails which I haven’t been doing this week just too much going on. Of course where I am sitting I can see my car and the damage on the back. Yes the auto shop I am taking it to is so busy it will be a few weeks till they can get it in so Susan will be driving around in a damaged car for a while but this shop does really good work so I am willing to wait as I want it fixed right.

I guess a lot of people thought the same as I did about going to Starbuck’s as there are about 15 people sitting in here so it is good for people watching plus there is a steady stream of people coming in to get a drink to go.

Now on to more important things. I am still planning on going to Diva Las Vegas but haven’t herd for I have the vacation time and with all that has been going on I forgot to check on it. I hope to find out soon so I can start making plans, hotel reservations and maybe do some shopping for some new clothes as I have to have a few new outfits for the trip. I had also hoped to get in for a manicure and pedicure this week but that didn’t happen either so my goal is next week as I really need well maybe want one. Now for Diva Las Vegas we have stayed at the same hotel for several years even though it has changed names 3 times from the Imperial Palace, to the Quad and now the Linq. It is a really nice hotel but room rates are high right now as the dates they picked this year is during the final four of College basketball. The other thing that makes me a little nervous is the company that owns this hotel and many others in Las Vegas filed bankruptcy today in Chicago but another judge in Delaware intervened as another group of bond holders filed there to force Caesars into bankruptcy there. I am not sure how this will affect any reservations made plus you usually have to pay at least one night up front. It will be interesting to see how this plays out over the next couple weeks.

Either way I am looking forward to going as it is such a fun time. If you have never heard of Diva Las Vegas or just want some information on it you should check out their web page and some of the pictures from last year. It really is a lot of fun plus what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas or on the web.

Well I must catch up on some work now so thanks for reading.

January 15, 2015 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Saturday night out at Starbuck’s

Well it is Saturday night and I am going to Starbuck’s. I usually go to Starbuck’s during the week but today was special. I was contacted by a t-girl named Jolene and she is just starting out after suppressing her feelings all her life. She e-mailed me about 2 weeks ago and we have been exchanging e-mails since and she has a lot of questions and she wanted to meet and talk. Now I know how hard it is to make that first step and I was lucky to have had a few t-girls, Alice, Lori and Cassandra who really helped me when I was first trying to go out and so I wanted to help Jolene. I told her I would meet her at my favorite Starbuck’s and gave her the address and we agreed to meet at 5:30.

Now I started getting ready by 3 as I really hoped to be there by 5 so I could do a little work before Jolene got there. It is funny as I changed my mind about what I was going to wear again. Now eve going to Starbuck’s I put thought into what I wear so I look good but as I was meeting someone else I did take a little more time. I wore my yoga pants with a cute long black and white top ad of course my boots, it really is a cute look.

I got there a little after 5 and got a hot chocolate and found a table and did some work while I waited for Jolene. There were a few other people here today but they weren’t as busy as I thought they would be on a Saturday night.

Jolene showed up at 5:30 in boy mode as she has never dressed up completely. Of course she recognized me from picture on my blog and I recognized her from the picture she had sent me. She looked a little nervous at first but as always the need to be who we are finally pushes us to get past that nervous feeling and she was taking that first step. She sat down and we started talking.

We started off trying to figure out where she falls in the T-girl world as that can be the hardest part. I figured I should know a little bit about her before I started answering questions or giving advice as what is right for me may not be right for her or anyone else. So often we can get caught up in our lives and what we want and need and we just assume everyone else should feel the same and that is not always correct.

We talked a little about makeup as she has never really put makeup on. Now this can be the hardest thing to learn for a t-girl. I gave her some ideas and tips and of course a YouTube video she could watch. I also recommended going to Victoria Sinclair’s Over the Rainbow as she does transformations for men and teaches makeup. I think back to when I first started wow some of the looks I came up with were scary and the money I wasted on makeup that was wrong. Too bad Victoria wasn’t around then. The other part to learning makeup is practice, lots of practice. I also recommended the Esprit to her as that is a good place to start if you have never been out. We even talked a little about Diva Las Vegas.

I hope I helped her some as I know how scary these first step are, we all feel so alone when we start out. It is awesome once we realize we are not alone. We had a nice time talking and it is amazing how fast the time went by. Before we knew it, it was 8:45 and they were getting ready to close, wow did not seem like we were there for 3 hours. I hope I didn’t talk too much.

Jolene seemed nice and I think I made a new friend tonight. I invited her to come out with our group whenever she wants and when she is ready to join the group. I do think she will come out with us. Building friendships with others that feel the same as you do can make this journey so much easier. I know how much my friends have helped me become the lady I am.

Thanks for reading

January 10, 2015 Posted by | Advice and tips, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

End of the week fun

Well another busy week is over and time for Susan to get out and have some fun. It is amazing how much I need and look forward to my Susan time. Some people exercise, some do yoga or mediation or any one of a 100 things to relax and relieve stress and for me and many other crossdressers it is as simple as dressing up and when we can’t for one reason or another it is hard on us. But all this would be taken care of with a few hours as Susan tonight.

I started getting ready and I could just feel myself relaxing, I spent about 2 hours from the time I got into the shower till I was ready to walk out the door and enjoyed every minute. I was getting dressed and I knew what dress I was going to wear but when I got it out of the closet it just didn’t feel right so I selected one of my newer black dresses. It is a little short when I sit but very cute. It is amazing the thought I put into what I will wear as Susan and how often I change my mind. For example Saturday I am going to my favorite Starbucks for a couple hours, a new girl named Jolene contacted me and wants to talk and we have e-mailed back and forth for a couple weeks now. She is just starting out and has never gone out as a matter of fact she will not be dressed when we meet. But I have still gone back and forth over what I should wear. As a guy I would wear jeans and a tee shirt but this is Susan and she likes to always look nice. So any way back to tonight, I had my cute dress on and was on my way by 6:15. Traffic was lite for a Friday night so I was to Sweethome by 6:30 and of course being early I found a parking spot right in front.

Chris and Cassie were inside, Cassie in boy mode. I joined them at the table and broke out my computer as I had some e-mails I really needed to catch up on, yes my male life had been so busy this week I even put off a lot of online stuff Susan does during the week us a few things my male side had also put off. It wasn’t long and Cristine joined us. The 4 of us sat and talked well Chris played some pool also and of course we ordered dinner and ate as I was hungry as I skipped lunch today so I could get out early as Susan. We had a nice time.

Julie showed up which was a nice surprise, she doesn’t get out often on Friday nights but her girlfriend Trixie was out of town and what is a girl to do when she has a free night, she goes out for a girls night out. It was great to see her again. Victoria also made it tonight which was awesome. Now we were all crowded around one table which was cozy but with all the music and noise in the bar it was hard to talk with Julie and Victoria so I went around to the other side of the table and pulled up a stool so I could talk with them. Well remember my saying my dress was a little short when I sit well it’s not bad when you are sitting at a table but now I was sitting out away from the table facing the bar and I was quite aware of how short my dress was and had to keep pulling it down and making sure to keep my legs closed, things guys don’t normally worry about. It was great talking with them for a while. Roxy even showed up for a while so we had 7 of us there.

Several of the girls from the other group, the Karaoke group came over and talked with us, Victoria, Michelle, Jessica, Shyrl and one I can’t remember her name. It is so wonderful that we are so accepted here. Well as it got later Cassie, Roxy and Victoria left which I was sad to see them leave but it did give me a chance to sit back at the table so I didn’t have to worry as much about my short dress.

Jodi was also there, she is one of the bar tenders but she doesn’t work on Friday nights so usually she leave early but she stayed quite late tonight so we got to talk with her, she is really awesome. Also Levi was back tending bar tonight. He use to bar tend here but quit when he got a different job. Well it turns out he quit that job and has a new job starting later in February so he will be back behind the bar for a few weeks which is great. He came around and gave every one hugs and he remembers everyone. Paul the owner is awesome and he really does have awesome people working for him.

Well Julie and I talked some more n everything from makeup yes she had to check out my eye makeup tonight which I think I did a good job on to Diva Las Vegas. We are both planning on going again this year as is Cassandra, Petra and a few others that are maybe’s right now. Diva Las Vegas is so much fun but this year they moved it up earlier to the end of March (March 22-27) which I think may have been a mistake. This is during March Madness and as such room rates are really high. Last year I think we paid about $400 to $450 for the 6 nights all total and this year we are looking at an average room rate of $100 t $130 per night with a $20 per night resort fee so it will be closer to $750 to $900 for the same week. I hope this doesn’t keep people away.

We also talked about our group and how we can get more people out, we are wondering why are numbers seem down and there could be a lot of factors. I mean it is the Holiday season and people are busy with family and friends and we did have several really active members move away the last year or so, It could be are members are feeling better about going out and don’t need the group support as much anymore. I mean when I first started going out the only place I went was where others would be and I would have the support of other t-girls. Now I feel comfortable enough to go shopping, Starbuck’s and pretty much any place I want so now my nights out with the group is more about seeing them then for the support. It could also be that we aren’t trying new things Friday nights and Wednesday nights are the same thing every week. Maybe we need to bring some new activities into the group. I am not saying we stop doing what we are but maybe tray some new things. Maybe a dinner out once a month or a movie night where we all go and see a movie. On Wednesday nights they are trying different places to eat to try and get more girls out maybe one Friday night a month we tray a new bar or club. Maybe we go to Sweethome on a Saturday night once in a while just try to mix it up a little. I will have to think about this and post something to the group. Oh there is one thing we are planning new. This summer the play Wicked is coming to the Keller Auditorium and we are planning on going. We have several going for sure and we hope to get a group of 10 to 15 or more and we are all going to dress up like witches and go. It will be so much fun. I am sure we will get some great pictures for this.

Well Julie played pool and lost to a guy who is pretty good plus the new table is a lot harder to play. Well it was my turn and I played a good game and in the end I made a couple good shots to win, well one of them he did help me on and told me how to hit the ball which was nice of him. So with ne game under my belt I played Julie and we had a good game and I won again so that was 2 games. Next up was Cristine and again I made some really good shot and won my 3rd game so Julie and I played one more game. It was a good game and at the end I had the 8 ball against the side rail and was across the table from it. I decided to try and cut the ball and run it up the rail into the corner pocket. Well I hit the ball just perfect and it slid right up the rail and just barely had enough speed to go in for the win or at least that is what I thought as the cue ball slowly rolled back to where I shot from creeping towards the side pocket. I did everything I could to will it to stop but it also had just enough speed to drop into the side pocket so I scratched on the 8 ball and lost but I had a fun time. By the way while I was playing pool one of the girls from the Karaoke group I think her name was Ann came over and told me how cute my dress was and I thanked her she also told me how good I always look which made my night as what girl doesn’t want to hear that.

It was finally down to just Cristine, Julie and I left from our group. It was almost 1 am when the 3 of us left and the bar was still packed. It was a good night and it was made special by the people and friends I was out with.

Thanks for reading.

January 10, 2015 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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