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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Wednesday night dinner at Podnah’s pit BBQ

This weeks Wednesday night dinner is at Podnah’s Pit BBQ, this is a new place and none of us have gone here before so we are looking forward to it. It will be a smaller turnout as it is the night before Thanksgiving. Now I can go this week because of the holiday so I am looking forward to it. Now I got home late almost 6 so it would be a rush as dinner is at 7. It took me about 40 minutes to get ready and out the door. I was parking at 7 so I was just a little late as I had about a block walk.

I got there and Melissa, her wife, Jennifer and another girl was there already so I was the last to show up but we did have 5 of us out tonight. Now it is a smaller place but very friendly. I would say it is very similar to Southland Whiskey Kitchen which we go to all the time. Our waitress came over and took our order and she was really nice but not overly nice and I don’t mean that in a bad way. Our group goes out all the time and we always get wonderful service and most of the time it seems we maybe get better service then tables around us and I often wonder if it is because we are transgender and if they are worried about maybe offending us or just really curious about us and want more interaction with us. Our waitress tonight was awesome but she really treated us no different than the other people here. We all ordered, I had the Chicken fried steak.

Our food came and it was good. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversations. It was a nice night out with friends and we had a great time. I would recommend this place if you like BBQ food. it was about 8:30 when we finished and called it a night as tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I am sure we all have busy days. I got home about 9 and I wanted to do a little cleaning as I have family coming over tomorrow so I just started cleaning as Susan.

Now years ago, when I didn’t go out as Susan and big day was sitting around the house as Susan watching TV or cleaning so it was kind of reminiscing of years ago. Well anyway about 10 I had some things to take out to the recycling container so I walked out the front door still in my dress and heels and as I walked out my neighbor’s car was driving by. Well I figured it would look strange to just turn around and walk back into the house so I just kept going and didn’t look their way. N ow the one thing I didn’t think about is I live on a dead-end street so as I walked across my drive by the garage door, they actually pulled into my drive to turn around and I was caught in their headlights. I never looked their way just continued as I was and they backed out and drove off. Now the good news is the car came from my neighbors next door who does know about me but I don’t think it was my neighbor.

Well it was a good night and I enjoyed my time as Susan. Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

November 29, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday dinner at St Jack Restaurant

Okay it is Sunday and Julie; Melissa and I are having dinner at St Jack Restaurant in Portland. Now I have never heard of this restaurant so I am looking forward to going to a new place, I think Julie has been here before as her male self. Julie is in town for a couple days; she actually leaves tomorrow but said she could get out for an early dinner 5 pm. Now I am really busy right now and really hadn’t planned on going out today but I really wanted to go as Julie only gets back here a couple times during the winter and I didn’t want to miss spending time with her, she really is more like family. My goal was to get the things I had to do today done early and then start getting ready by 3 at the latest as I am picking Julie up at 4:30 so I have to leave my house by 4. I really like it when Julie and I ride together as it is way more fun and gives us a chance to talk and spend time together. Well I didn’t finish everything I needed to do today but it was time I had to start getting ready. I took my time and was out my door by 4 as planned. I got to Julies about 4:25 and Julie was just finishing getting ready. We talked for a few minutes before we were out the door on our way to meet Melissa for dinner. I did get a couple selfies in the car just in case I forgot to get pictures later which happens a lot.

The ride to the restaurant took about 25 minutes and gave Julie and I a good chance to talk and just made the drive that much more enjoyable. 10 years ago, I never would have thought I would be picking someone up and driving to dinner with them as Susan, I really have come a long way. We got downtown just a little after 5 and found a parking spot about a block away and walked to St Jacks, we walked through the door at 5:10 which was perfect as Julie had made reservations for 5:15 so we were seated right away, Melissa walked in right behind us so it really was perfect timing. Now our group does Wednesday night dinners and we go to a lot of different restaurants but we are always looking for new places to go and it is easier I think to try new places in a smaller group as you don’t know how busy they are or how big of tables they have, seams the trend now for restaurants are more what I would call boutique style. Smaller in size for more of an intimate dining experience and of course a little more expensive instead of the big restaurants that caters to big crowds.

St Jack is smaller on size but very nice and yes more expensive you are looking at $25 to $50 for a dinner but the food is wonderful. Our waitress was awesome and so friendly, I think in places like this you really do get better services as the wait staff doesn’t have as many tables to take care of. I ordered their Bavette which was awesome by the way. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversations. I would highly recommend this place if you want a nice dinner. As I said a little more expensive and not something, I would do all the time as I do have a budget but every once in a while, a girl hast to splurge on herself. I think this would be a good option for our groups Wednesday night dinners but would probably get a smaller turnout due to the price as we do try to keep most of the dinners in the $10 to $25 range.

After dinner we sat and talked and Melissa got our wonderful waitress to get a few pictures of us, I of course forgot about it, the reason I got the selfies earlier. When I was first going out it was all about getting pictures, I bet I would get 20 to 30 ever night just on my digital camera (yes pre cell phones), now thousands of pictures later I am not really thinking about it and I think part of it is I am really not thinking about the fact I am out as Susan, I am out dressed as a female. I am just out as me and really most of the time I am not even aware of how I am dressed; I am just me and that is a wonderful feeling. There are two pictures one with the flash and one without, couldn’t decide which was better so you get both.

We had a wonderful time but as always it was time to leave, it was about 7:30 when we called it a night. Julie had to get up early to get a few things done before she heads south again for the winter and I still had things I needed to do tonight that I didn’t get done earlier today. We said our good bye to Melissa and walked back to my car and I drove back to Julie’s house to drop her off and we talked the whole way. It really was such a fun night. I dropped Julie off and realized it may be several months till we can get together again.

Now I had to make a stop and get gas but I also still need to do my holiday shopping for Thanksgiving. I am having some family over and yes, I have put it off so I stopped at Fred Meyers and parked right by their main door, I was surprised how few cars there were as it was only a little after 8. I walked to the door and figured it out. Although this is their main door it is not the door closest to the grocery department and so they lock this door at 8. Now I had two choices, get back in my car and drive around the corner and park or just walk along the building which is what I did. Now they were actually pretty busy which I figured for this tome of year. Now I had planned on this and that was the reason I wore a skirt and sweater top but I did also wear my ankle boots with 3-inch heels so I still was a little over dressed for shopping although I did see a couple other woman in dresses and heels inside.

It took me about 30 minutes to find everything I needed well almost everything as I did forget one thing, I should have made a list. I am sure I got some looks but really, I don’t even pay attention any more. I went to the check stand and paid for my groceries and the lady checking me out didn’t seem to react to me any different and talked to me just like anyone else. I got the groceries out to my car and then drove over and got gas before going home. it was a fun night but I didn’t get home till almost 9:45 so a later night then I planned. Now I will have the fun on thanksgiving of knowing all the food was bought as Susan and wondering what my family would think if they knew the food they were eating was bought by Susan. What ii am most thankful for is my family, both on my male side and yes, my Female side you are all very important to me. Love you all

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Have a Happy Thanksgiving every one

November 28, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday and a trip to the Oregon Coast

Okay it is Wednesday and I am going to the Oregon Coast with some friends. I did this a couple years ago by myself and had fun but this year I Texted Cassandra and she said she wanted to go and I also posted in our group and Michele said she would go with us and Dawnie and April said they would meet us there so we have 5 of us going. It should be a lot of fun. Now I was meeting Cassandra at her house at 11 and my plan was to go out early and do a little shopping and maybe stop at a Starbucks but as always I got a late start and didn’t leave my house till almost 10 so if there was traffic I would be pushing it to get to Cassandra by 11. Now I wore my shorter hair as it holds up better in the wind which you always have at the beach and my new grey sweater dress with black tights and tennis shoes and as I was going to be gone all day I did takes some foundation and my hair brush as we are going out to dinner tonight with our group at Mothers Bistro and I wont have time to come home so I will have to do a touchup at Cassandra’s house. By the way this first picture to the left is in the morning shortly after I left home and the one to the right is almost 12 hours later with really no touch up other than some powder, I think my makeup held up well. I love this lipstick as it looked as good at the end of the day as it did when I left. It is Maybelline Superstay Matte Ink in the color Ruler. Now I got over near Cassandra’s and still had about 20 minutes and one I forgot my lipstick which I wasn’t sure I would need but also, I noticed I was getting low on it this morning so I stopped at Fred Meyer’s to pick up more. Well they were out of this color so I went to the Target which is near by and they actually had it but I got the last one so I guess this is a pretty popular color. Now it was on to Cassandra’s house.

I got there just before 11 and Cassandra was ready so we just had to wait for Michele who got there a little after 11. It was about 11:30 when we got on the road, Cassandra drove and Michele and I got to ride like princesses. Funny as my male self I much prefer to drive but as Susan I like to be chauffeured. Now it is not that far but there was traffic so it took about 1 ½ hours to get there. Dawnie and April called me to see where we were and I told them we would get there about 1 and we decided to meet at Mo’s for lunch. We got there almost right on time just a couple minutes after 1, got to love Google Maps as it is pretty good at figuring the time to someplace. Dawnie and April had got there just before us and we actually parked almost right next to them. Now this is a smaller city on the coast so you really never know how people will react but none of us really cared we just walked in as if it was the most normal thing. They were a little busy with lunch but we got a nice table right in the corner looking out the big picture windows at the ocean, what a beautiful view for lunch. We all ordered lunch and of course I got their clam chowder. We had a wonderful lunch and great conversation. Above is Cassandra and me at Mo’s. after lunch we walked out on the peer to get some pictures. Now it was mid 50’s but sunny and if you were in the sun it was actually warm and the best part no wind. I don’t think I have ever been to the beech when there was no wind, it really was a beautiful day.

Now we all had to get pictures so I got a quick selfie and then we all took turns getting pictures of each other.

It was hard because of where the sun was so we were limited on the angles so we couldn’t really get one with the ocean behind us they were all angles with the coast line behind us. Now Dawnie and April had not got down here yet and Cassandra, Michele and I were all taking pictures of each other and a lady walked up and asked if we wanted her to take a picture of all of us and we said yes. So, she took several pictures of Cassandra, Michele and me. When she was done, she asked if we would take a few pictures of her and of course we said yes so Cassandra took her phone and got a bunch of pictures of her so she would have some. After that we talked with her briefly and she told us hoe pretty we all were and how our makeup looked awesome and she finished it with she had not done makeup in years. Of course, a lot of genetic woman can get by without makeup because they have such naturally beautiful skin and unfortunately that is not the case for us. This is the three of us.

Dawnie and April got down to where we were and so we took a bunch of pictures of them also. We probably spent 20 minutes or more taking pictures before we were done. We went back too the cars and Dawnie and April were going to head home but Cassandra, Michele and I drove down the cost a little looking for a place to get some more pictures. We had a beautiful day and we were at the coast someplace we don’t go often and we were not going to miss the opportunity.

We stopped at Boiler Bay State park I think to get more pictures. Now there were other people here and I had to wonder what they thought when they saw us get out of the car and go over to the edge to get more pictures, but we really didn’t care. We took turns getting pictures, I think Cassandra got the most. We were all having a wonderful time. And as I said the weather was perfect. We were only here for about 15 minutes before we left and our next stop was Chinook winds Casino.

We went in and looked around a little before we found the table games, Well Cassandra and me, Michele is more of a slot machine girl. There was an empty table so Cassandra and I sat down, it was only $5 which I like and well Cassandra just bet more and played 2 hands so she was happy. We played for a while and then it was tie for the dealer to shuffle and as there were 6 or 8 decks and he had to shuffle by hand Cassandra went to see how Michele was doing. Another man had sat down by this time so when the dealer had finished shuffling, we started playing even though Cassandra was not back yet. Soon it was tine for a new dealer so our male dealer left and a female dealer came in. finally Cassandra got back and started playing. Well we were not winning big but we were winning so we were happy but as in all things they changed and we started to lose more then we won. Of course, Cassandra playing 2 hands and betting more felt it first and finally she said she was done so she cashed in her chips and she was down $50 I played 1 more hand and lost so I cashed in as it was after 4 so we needed to get going. I actually finished up $50, I guess I got Cassandra’s money. We went and cashed in our chips and then headed for the exit. As we passed the table, we were playing I took a quick selfie to remember by big win well at least I left with more then I came in with. It would cover my lunch and dinner tonight and still leave me a little left over so it was a good day at the casino for me.

Now we have a 1 ½ hour trip back to Cassandra’s without traffic and a 40-minute drive to dinner without traffic and we have a little less than 3 hours before dinner so it will be close. The drive home was nice and we all talked and had a good time. We got back to Cassandra’s house a little before 6 we all went in and freshened up, I was amazed my makeup still looked good and as I said above all I really did was put on a little powder and then we were all of to dinner in our own cars. I got to Mothers Bistro about 6:45 but I took me a while to find a parking spot so it was just before 7 when I walked in and most of the girls were there.

We had a good turnout tonight, Rickie, Judy, Melissa, April, Ellie, Patty, Kelly, Jenifer, Barb, and of course Michele, Cassandra and me, 12 in all tonight. We all ordered and tonight they had their special Chicken Parmesan so that is what I ordered. Now our waitress tonight was Anna and she was awesome. I was talking with Patty, Kelly and Ellie about my lipstick and showed it to them as I had the one, I bought today in my purse. Well Anna our waitress over heard and said she loved it to and that was what she was wearing. It is funny as a lot of woman don’t wear lipstick but it looks so good on ladies. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation.

After dinner as we were all leaving Jennifer still hadn’t paid her bill so I sat with her while she waited and we talked. It was nice to talk with her one on one. She is newer to dressing and going out and still trying to figure out what it all means and how it fits in her life. She asked me if I could would I go full time, now there is a difference between full time and transitioning as there are girls that live full time but have not had any surgeries. Now I have though about this a lot. I have no desire to transition but I do love being Susan. so, this is how I explained how I feel about this. If I won $100 million in the lottery tomorrow. I would spend a lot more time as Susan, probably not full time but the majority of time. I would have pretty acrylic nails for sure at least most of the time. I might even try to grow my hair out. But that would be it. I would still need my male side even if only part time. I just can’t get rid of all of my male side it is a part of me and who I am. I would not be a complete person without both. It was sad to see the day come to an end but it was almost 10 when we left so I have been out as Susan for 12 hours. It was a wonderful day with friends. Sorry this was a little long but it does cover a whole day 12 plus hours

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November 7, 2019 Posted by | Beach, Dinner out, friends, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Old Spaghetti Factory

It is once again Wednesday night and that means dinner with my friends. I really like our Wednesday night dinners as it is such a wonderful social event. I get to go out as Susan like any other woman and have a nice dinner and wonderful conversation with others like me. Now this week I got home late about 5:45 so it would be a rush as it will take me 30 minutes to get there as we are going to the Old Spaghetti Factory on the South waterfront. I started getting ready as soon as I got home and had decided on the dress, I would wear on my way home. I was all ready and pulling out of my garage at 6:22, yes it was a rush so I couldn’t take the time I like to enjoy the experience of getting ready. I got to the end of my street and realized I forgot my bracelets and ring. Now it is funny as a male I don’t like wearing jewelry of any kind not even a watch but as Susan I just don’t feel right so I turned around and went back as it would only delay me a couple minutes. I baked into my drive but didn’t bother with the garage door as I figured it would be fast. I went in and got my jewelry and came back out. Now I walked back out to my car but didn’t see anyone. This is the second time now I have forgot something and went back home and just parked in the drive. I was back on the road and my GPS was telling me it would be 7:15 when I got there but I was hoping traffic wasn’t that bad and I was right. I actually got to the Old Spaghetti factory about 6:50. I parked and got out of my car to go in, it is funny as I didn’t even hesitate.

Melissa must have gotten there about the same time as we met in the parking lot walking in so we went in together. Melissa had made reservations as some time they can be really busy but that was not the case tonight. We checked in and said we would wait for more of our group as we had 8 reply they would be here tonight. A couple minutes late Barb and Kris showed up and we were shown to our table. A couple minutes later Danika showed up and so did Ricki, Ricki’s wife usually come out with her but wasn’t feeling well tonight. So, we only had 6 for dinner but that is still a good turnout as I remember when I first started going out a good turnout on a Friday or Saturday night and a LGBT club was 6 to 8 and now, we get that for a midweek dinner most weeks. Our group and members have come a long way in the last 10 years.

Our waitress came and took our orders and she was wonderful. I know I say it all the time about the service we get but it really is how we are treated; we seem to always get great service no matter where we go. Now they really do have great food here but I am Parshall to their Chicken Parmesan which is wonderful so that is what I ordered. Now I did get a quick selfie as I didn’t take the time in the car to get one.

Now as I said they were not that busy but there were some other people at the tables around us and for the most part no one seemed to pay us any attention although there was one man at a table about 20 feet away and I noticed he kept looking over at our table. He didn’t seem bothered by us and I don’t think he said anything to the couple he was with as I never once saw them look at us and it got me wondering what he was thinking. The lighting in here is dime so was he trying to figure out if we were male or female as really all the girls had their backs to him except for myself and Barb, or maybe he was thinking he would like to be able to dress like us. Years ago when we were in Diva Las Vegas Julie and I got talking to a couple young men at a Crap Table and they seemed fine with us and when they left about 10 minutes later one of the men came back and told us how great it was we were out and that he was a crossdresser but had never gone out so you never know. Any way like I said the man other then looking over at me several times didn’t seem to have a problem with us I think maybe he was just curious.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner and such good conversation. It was great to talk with all my friends; some I know really well and some I am still getting to know but they are all wonderful. Soon it was almost 9 and that is the bad thing about coming here as they close at 9. Now we have stayed longer and talked and they have never said anything buy I feel bad when we do that as I am sure they want to get things cleaned up and go home so we try not to stay late. So as much as we hated to see the evening come to an end at 9 we left. Now I will look forward to Saturday night when I can go to the Escape.

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October 26, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song and Larry’s

It is Wednesday and once again I get to go out as Susan and have dinner with my friends. This really is a wonderful thing that 10 years ago I never would have thought possible. Now we picked Who Song and Larry’s in hopes Julie could join us one last tie before she heads south for warmer weather for the winter but she had an early flight and wouldn’t be able to make it which was sad but she will be with us in spirit. I got home late from work so I started getting ready right away as I wanted to get there a little early as they have awesome homemade chips and I love their bean dip so I figured I could get there early and get our name in for a table and have a snack. I was ready about 6:15 and since it only takes about 15 minutes to get there, I would be early. I texted Melissa to confirm how many we had, counting e-mails I figured 5 or 6. Melissa texted back that she had made reservations for 5. I got there and usually parking is bad but not tonight so I got a spot almost right in front. I went in and checked in and then went to the bar to get my drink and some chips with bean dip.

Melissa showed up about 10 minutes later and then barb. It was about 6:50 when the girl came and said our table was ready although I think we could have gotten it faster if we asked as they were not busy tonight, everyone was back in the big room and that is where our table was also. There were a lot of people back here including one big group of maybe 20, turn out it was a birthday party for a young girl about 10 or 12, all the kids were eating at the end of the table closest to us and the adults the other end of the table. Kris showed up right at 7, it was nice to see her out as this maybe one of the last times we see her for a while. She is moving up to the Seattle area for a year for schooling. The last to show was Jamie, she is a member of our group who lives in Arizona, I met here at Diva Las Vegas back in 2018. She has followed my blog for years and we e-mailed some and when we were at Diva Las Vegas we met and hot it off and she joined our group as she travels for work. Well this week she is in town working and got to join us. It was so nice to see her again and get to talk with her. now I did get a few pictures with her later in the evening, this was the best.

We all talked for a while before we ordered. Our waiter who we have had several times before was awesome as always. Now the staff came out to sing happy birthday to the young girl at the next table so we all joined in with everyone to sing to her. We went back to talking, well about 10 minutes later the birthday girl came over and gave Jamie a big cupcake as they had extra and wanted to know if she wanted it. Jamie accepted and thanked her; it was so sweet. Now besides our waiter we had another young man who would come by and see if we needed anything and I think it was even the Manager stopped by one time to see if we needed anything and if we did just let him know. Now I always joke about the wonderful service we always seem to get, any way one of the moms at the next table was standing there and after he left she smiled at me and said wow you ladies seem to get the best service so I guess it was not just my imagination.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and I took several pictures of all f us and texted them to Julie as she missed tonight. Of course, one of the pictures had to be a selfie of me. Our food was

wonderful and we just had a wonderful night out. After we ate Jamie shared her cupcake with all of us and it was really good. We sat and talked for a while and got to hear about the group in Arizona Jamie belongs to. they go out pretty regular but not as mainstream of places as we do. Our group really has grown over the last 12 years from just one LGBT club, to a few different ones, to just picking a restaurant and going. Portland metro area really is accepting and we can pretty much go where ever we want with no problems and that is such a wonderful thing.

It was now 9 and people were leaving and the big group went by and a some of them told us goodbye and the one that I had talked with before about the service told us how nice we looked and wished us a goodnight. That made the evening. Now they are open till 10 but soon we found we were the only ones left inside just sitting there talking. It was about 9:45 when we called it a night, the lady at the front desked thanked us for coming in and told us to come back. Now we have been coming here for years, and I am not sure but this might be the one we have gone to for the longest that we still go to. The first time we went here as a group for in December of 2009 for our holiday dinner. I have even met Peggy once here for dinner years ago.

Well we all said our goodbyes which is always hard, I won’t see Jamie again till Diva Las Vegas, yes at this point I am planning on going and so is she. I would have liked to get together with her again before she left but the only night, she had open was Friday night and I had something I just couldn’t get out of. We left and went our separate ways and it was a little after 10 when I got home and washed away all the traces of Susan and went to be.

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October 19, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday dinner at Amaro’s table in Vancouver

It is Wednesday and once again I get to have dinner with my friends and tonight we are going to Amaro’s table in Vancouver. I so look forward to these outings as not only do I get some much-needed Susan time but I get to spend time with my friends. Now we have gone here several time before and as always, we are always treated wonderful and the food is really good. Julie actually found this place for us to go. Our group has come a long way over the years from just going to Embers to going to a few other LGBT clubs, to going to Harvey’s Comedy club, to doing Wednesday night dinners at a few places and now that has grown to Maybe 10 to 12 places we go on a regular basis and we are looking for new places to go as we branch out into the world.

Now tonight I got home later then normal about 5:45 so it would be a rush, luckily tonight’s dinner is not far and will only take me less than 15 minutes to get there. I started getting ready at 5:50, I had just started and Julie texted me to see what time I would be there. Now I love my Susan time and I love getting ready and doing my makeup even when I have to rush but I really enjoy it more when I can take my time but tonight time was short. On the way home I had decided what dress I would wear and that is always something that slows me down as I almost never wear the first thing I pick. I texted Julie I hoped to be on my way by 6:30 and sure enough I was leaving home at 6:30. It took me a little over 10 minutes to get there and then it was finding a parking spot. Now normally when we have come here, I have not had an issue but tonight was different I drove around the blocks 3 times before I saw someone backing out about a block away so I parked and walked to Amaro’s table.

Now Melissa had called and made reservations as this is a small place, the bad thing was they only had 2 big tables and both were reserved so we would be split up as we have 9 that confirmed for tonight. I walked in and Melissa, Jan and Lynn were already there and to my surprise they had one of the big tables. Turns out one of the other groups canceled so we would all be able to sit together which is nice. I picked a seat towards the middle o the table so I could talk with everyone. Julie showed up next and it was great to see her, this may be her last Wednesday night dinner as she leaves for warmer weather early next Thursday, yes, we are trying to talk her into one last Wednesday dinner before she goes. Our waitress came over to get my drink order and told me what cute boots I had on, I wore may ankle boots tonight and she said several of the girls noticed them when I came in, of course I thanked her. I really do love getting compliments on how I look, it just makes you feel good inside. Barb and Kris were the next to show up, it was great to see both of them. It has been over a month since Kris has been out. It as just a few minutes after 7 when April and Dawnie showed up, they live south of Portland and had a 1 ½ hour drive to get here. They have come out with the group now several times so all 9 of us were here. Now I did get a quick selfie.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered. I of course ordered my normal dinner here, yes, I have my favorites at all the places we go and I tend to stick to them. I guess I am a little predictable. I had their classic fried chicken which is really good and comes with mashed potatoes and a honey butter to put on them, so good. We talked as we waited for dinner and I got a chance to talk some with April and Dawnie which was nice as I don’t know them that well. I really do enjoy talking with people and getting to know them when I am out as Susan.

Our food came and it was awesome and our waitress was wonderful her name was Haleigh. She was just so nice and treated us wonderful. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation, just a wonderful night out made special with my friends. Now it was time for dessert which I am trying to cut out so I passed but a few of the girls ordered some and shared it so I did have a few bites. We sat and talked till after 9:30 before we called it a night. it really was fun and I am looking forward to next weeks dinner and seeing my friends again. We all said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. It really is funny as I need a couple days a week as Susan to keep balance in my life. My female side really is a big part of my life and who I am, you could say she makes my life complete.

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October 12, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Rock Bottom

It is Wednesday once again and that means I get to go out with my friends for dinner, one of my most favorite things to do. I look back just a little over 10 years, 2008 and before and going out was just a dream mostly. Then I found our wonderful group the Rose City T-Girls and my life really changed. Not only was I able to go out on a regular basis but I met some people who really have become friend and actually some of them are my best friends. Back then it was just the thought I might be able to go out now I go out to dinner with my friends like anyone else. I would say it is almost common place but that would take away from how special this time is with my friends. Now tonight we were going to the Rock Bottom in Portland and they have really good food and always a fun time. Now today I would get home late so it would be a rush to get ready and be down town Portland by 7. I got home about 5:10 and started getting ready. I like to pick Julie up so we can ride together but for that it means I need to leave my house by 5:45 and I was not sure I could do that so I didn’t text her and I figured I would see where I was when I was done with my makeup. I was just finishing and git a text From Julie to see if I was going to be late. It was about 5:35 and all I had to do was get dressed now so I texted her I could pick her up if she wanted I figured I would be ready to leave in 10 minutes which would put me right at 5:45. She said yes so I texted her I would be there hopefully by 6:15 and I finished getting dressed.

Traffic was not bad and I got to Julies about 6:10 and went in. she was just finishing getting ready, we talked briefly and then we were on our way. The good thing about this time of night is everyone is headed out of Portland and not into it so traffic was good and we got downtown about 6:45 and I went to the parking garage a block away to park. It was a nice walk over to the Rock Bottom; it still amazes me I can walk the city streets as Susan without even thinking about it now. They were not busy and were able to seat us right away so Julie and I went and sat down. It was only a few minutes and Jennifer showed up followed by Barb and then Patty and her girlfriend Kelly and then Jeanie so we had 7 of us tonight. Again, looking back 10 years 7 of us out was a big night even going to Embers an LGBT club on a Friday or a Saturday and now we can get 5 to 10 on a Wednesday night dinner at just a restaurant. We talked for a little bit before we ordered our dinner. I of course got my Chicken fried Chicken which is awesome but they have other good food here also. I did get a quick selfie at the table.

We sat and talked as we waited for our food and the group was small enough that almost everyone could get in on the conversation. Julie and I sat more to the middle so we could be in all conversations. Patty’s girlfriend Kelly sat next to me so tonight I got a good chance to talk with her and get to know her which was nice. I really like this as it is nice to get a genetic girl’s perspective on this and she is very supportive of Patty which is nice. I know we all want someone to accept us for who we are and we or at least I think it should be easy if someone really cares about you, they should accept you for who you are but life is not always that simple. Now I tend to dress how I find women attractive. I am drawn to woman who have nice long nails, longer hair, nice makeup and yes red lipstick. Women who wear dresses or skirts and high heels. Now I am not saying I wouldn’t date or get to know a woman who doesn’t dress this way but this is what catches my attention. I will also admit if I was involved with a woman like this and one day I came home and she had on a short hair wig, maybe a beard or mustache and was trying to look like a man it would shock me. Now I would like to think I would be supportive of her but that being said I would also need to have her sometime be the lady and do the makeup and dresses.so what I am saying is the woman that can accept this in their partner are wonderful and those that can also support them and even share it with them they are truly awesome and we have some truly awesome wives and girlfriend to some of our girls in the group.

Our food came and it was awesome as always and our waiter was wonderful and treated us awesome, always addressed us as ladies. Now there has been a lot on line about using the correct gender. Yes, I think everyone should be addressed how they identify and people should respect that as that is just good manners and being polite and treating people with respect. That being said I also realize people are human and will make mistakes and I look to when I go to Diva Las Vegas. I travel with Cassandra but while we are traveling, she is in boy mode. To me she is Cassandra and her or she and I have a hard time using anything else. We are not perfect. Now this is where I will get in trouble. There are those out there that just refuse to use anything other then your birth gender and if they are doing it on purpose that is wrong as they should not do that. This makes them a jerk or what ever other 4 letter word you want to put in but the one thing it does not do is make them a criminal. I cannot support arresting them or fining them for this, I still believe in our right to freedom of speech. Cities that have these laws are wrong, think of it this way in one of these cities someone can call you every nasty discussing name, put you down and scream at you and they are just exercising their right but if they miss gender you they can be arrested. It is wrong but we have certain freedoms in this country and I am not willing to take someone’s rights away as I don’t want anyone to take my rights away. My opinion only for what it is worth.

We had a nice dinner and then sat and talked till after 9 as we usually do. These Wednesday night dinners are so much fun and go by so fast. It was about 9:30 when we called it a night and we all left. It really was a fun night and now I got to drive Julie home so for us the night was not over. We were able to talk some more on the ride back to her house. I really enjoy this as soon she will head south for warmer weather for the winter and I will not get to see her as often and that will be sad. It was just before 10 when I dropped her off at her house and headed for home myself. What a wonderful night.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life. I am also going to take a week off in early November as I have some vacation time to use. Not sure what I will do but I know some of it will be Susan time.

October 6, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

A Saturday night dinner out with friends at Irving Street Kitchen

It is Saturday and normally I go to the Escape which is fun and I get to hang out with friends but tonight we are doing a dinner with just a couple of us. Now we have talked about maybe doing a Saturday night dinner once a month or so but that can take a little more effort as on a weekend you really need to make reservations so you need an accurate head count. Any way ate last Wednesday night dinner we talked about it a little, well Julie and I as Melissa was not able to make it this weekend so Julie and I decided to go have dinner and try someplace new, I let Julie pick as she knows more about places to eat. Now I had texted Cassandra to try to get her to come out to Wednesday dinner as it has been a while since she has been out but she couldn’t make it but she did say she might try for Saturday so I dangled the carrot in front of her that Julie and I were going to go out for dinner thinking that might give her the extra push to try to get out.

Friday night Julie texted me we had reservations at 7:15 at Irving Street Kitchen which to be honest I had never heard of, again the reason I let Julie pick. I texted her back to see what tie I should pick her up just assuming we would ride together and also mentioned I had tried to talk Cassandra into going. Well it turns out Julie had also texted Cassandra and she was going so she made reservations for 3. It was going to be an awesome knight out and like any woman I was already going through my mind as what dress I would wear and how I wanted to look. It really is so funny as when I go out as my male self, there really is little thought put onto what I wear but that is not true for Susan. I actually went through 3 dresses and finally settled on my red and black one. Now with that picked out I knew how I wanted to do my makeup. Yes, for the most part my makeup is the same other than lipstick shade and subtle changes in eyeshadow and blending of it, I kind of have my look. The main thing is instead of the bright red lipstick I love I went for a darker red more of a brick red but a very nice shade.

I was on my way to Julie’s a few minutes before 6, I did get a couple selfies in the car just in case I forget to get pictures later. Again, it is funny as when I first started going out everyone had their cameras and we all took so many pictures. Now I don’t even think about it. I think it is because Susan is such a normal part of my life and who I am. Now the funny story as the weather was bad today, we had a couple thunder storms go through. While I was getting ready, I could hear the thunder and see the flashes of lightning and hear the rain pounding on the roof and a couple times my lights flickered. Well it turns out both Julie and Cassandra lost power, Cassandra for just a little while but Julie had to get ready and do most of her makeup with flashlights and a small mirror Infront of the window. Julie’s power came on abut 10 minutes before I got there so she was able to finish up and double check everything with lights on. It was almost 6:30 when we left for dinner.

We got downtown and we were wondering about parking as this part of town is busy and it is a weekend night but luck was with us as we parked right across the street from the front door. We walked in and Julie checked on our reservation as we were about 15 minutes early so we sat at the bar and waited for Cassandra. Cassandra showed up about 5 minutes later and it was great to see her again, I really do have wonderful friends and Julie and Cassandra are probably my best friends. We have done things together both as our female selves and also our male selves. They really know the most about who I am in all sides of my life, I never would have thought this possible 10 years ago. Now Irving street kitchen is a nice place, looks like it was built in an old warehouse very open but very nice inside. It is a cool place to go.

We were shown to our table and our waitress was awesome as really everyone here. We looked over the menu to see what we wanted. now the menu is a little limited and it is higher priced than we normally go to so not sure it would be good for the whole group. Any way they had several things that talking to our waitress she said could be more of a family style well enough to share so that is what we did, we got their beef ribs which was a lot of food and a few side dishes to share and we really had more food then we could eat. We had a wonderful dinner and even got in a conversation with a couple next to us, they were visiting from Austin Texas. Julie talked with the wife for a while and Cassandra and I talked with the husband. It really was fun.

Again, the night went by so fast and soon it was 9:30. I just can’t believe how fast time goes when I am Susan. we paid or bills yes, the waitress split it up and let each of us put a 1/3 on our credit cards which was nice as I don’t carry cash very often. Now it was time to say goodbye and leave but as Julie and I rode together our night was not over yet. We got back to Julie’s a little after 10 and she said she had some ice cream inside if I wanted to come in and as it was Saturday night and I love ice cream and I got to spend more time with Julie how could I say no. we went inside and Julie dished up some ice cream and we just sat and talked. It didn’t seem like that long but tie did get way from us as before we knew it, it was mid night. wow the night went so fast. I thanked Julie for the ice cream and it was time to leave, it was a late night. it was after 12:30 when I got home and after 1 am by the time I was cleaned up and in bed but what a wonderful evening we had. And yes, I forgot about getting pictures so the selfies I took was all I had. I really wish we had got a picture of the 3 of us at the restaurant. I really hope we can do this again.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 1, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Le Bistro Montage

It is Wednesday and that can only mean one thing, Wednesday night dinner and tonight we are going to Le Bistro Montage, last time was back in June. We have gone here a few times before and it is really good food and atmosphere and wonderful service but than our group seems to get good service every where we go. Now it can be a rush on Wednesday as I get home so late but today I was able to sneak out early so I got home a little before 4:30 which was nice as it gave me more time to get ready and enjoy it but also I would have time to pick Julie up if she wanted to ride with me which I figured she would as it is way more fun to go together and have someone to talk with on the ride. I texted her to see and I was right so I told her I would pick her up between 6 & 6:15. It really is not that much out of my way and as I said way more fun. Now again 12 years ago I would never have thought about this as I wouldn’t let anyone know anything about me really including what kind of car I drove. But things have changed and I am way more open with my friends and some of them are my best friends and I love and trust them so much.

I started getting ready right after I texted Julie. I can’t explain the feeling I get as I slowly transform into Susan, there is just something so relaxing and therapeutic about doing my makeup and becoming Susan. I have a hole different outlook on life as if all the things in my male life just go away. I really love that feeling and for a few hours nothing else matters and that is a wonderful feeling. I am not saying you have to dress up or become someone else but find something in your life that you can feel this way about. I was ready a little after 5:30 and on my way. Now as I said it is not really out of my way at least by distance but it does ad a little more time but that is okay as I so look forward to the time I get to spend with Julie and my friends. I got to Julies a little after 6 and Julie was just finishing getting ready so it was perfect timing. We talked for a couple of minutes before we were on our way to dinner, two girlfriends out for dinner with more friends. Now we had 9 or 10 say they would be here tonight but things come up and this week was bad as we were down to just 4 of us now. We got there about 6:40 and parked about a block away and walked over together and Melissa had just got there so we went in.

They were not busy at least not yet so we were shown to a table, now what is cool is they have some smaller tables that seat 8 to 10 bit they also have a couple big tables that seat 20 or more and that is where they put most people so we were at one long table with people either side of us, they did leave a seat or two between people but it is a nice dinning experience as you kind of feel you are part of a bigger group. Now as we waited for Jeanie to show up, I got a couple pictures including this one with Julie that just turned out so cute. Jeanie showed up just a couple minutes after 7 so we were all there. Now I do like it when we can get a big group out but it is also nice when there are small groups as it is easier for everyone to be involved in the same conversation. Melissa and Julie sat across from Jeanie and myself so it was very easy to talk with everyone.

Our waiter came to take our order and I did think about something different but in the end, I had the same thing I do every time I have come here their chicken fried steak which is really good. Now about 7:30 people started coming in and it got a little busy which is nice as I really like to be out with other people as I think, hope they can see we are really no different other then how we present ourselves. We were just 4 friends out for dinner.

Our food came and it was awesome, Melissa also ordered the same thing she had last time she was here. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and just a delightful evening of friendship. Now it was time for desert and I was so looking forward to their Oreo cheesecake but they did not have it tonight instead they had a praline cheesecake with cinnamon so I ordered that and everyone helped me eat it. It was really good but I still like the Oreo Cheesecake better and I hoe they get that back by the next time we come here. It really is amazing how fast the night went and soon it was 9:30 and yes dark outside as Fall is here and the days are shorter. It is funny as years ago I loved the fall and winter as it got dark early, yes back then Susan would not leave her house till it was dark outside. Now I will go out anytime so I really like the summer better. We all paid our bills and it was time to go our separate way. We said our goodbyes at the door and Julie and I walked back to my car. Julie and I got a little more time together as I drove back to her place to drop her off. It was such a fun night. it was about 10 when I dropped her off and headed for home and the end of my Susan time. It really is sad when I get home and have to go back to my male self.

Now I do get people who read that and think I am talking about transitioning and no that is not what I mean as I am happy with and need both sides of me, male and female to be complete. What I mean is it is like when you come back from Vacation. You hate that it is over but you know it can’t go on forever. You go back to your regular life and look forward to your next vacation, it is kind of like that. I know that Susan will be out again and soon as I try to get out 2 to 3 times a week as I really do need that special Susan time. It is both sides that make me the complete person I am.

Tghanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 29, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner and going to Southland Whiskey Kitchen

It is Wednesday night and we are doing dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen which is really a nice place and has great food, even though I have the same thing when we go there. Now I have never mentioned this but they are known for their selection of Whiskey. Now I don’t drink so this really means nothing to me and I couldn’t tell the difference between the lowest priced or the highest priced but on Wednesday nights they do a ½ priced on all Whiskey $12 or higher so if you are a Whiskey drinker, Wednesday nights are the night to go. Now only Melissa and Barb posted they would be there so it could be a small group tonight.

Now I got home a little after 5 and I started getting ready and I rushed it as I wanted to be on my way by 6 or shortly after, I figured it would only take about a half hour to get there but parking in this area is not good and it can take some time to find a place to park. It took me just under an hour to get ready and I was on my way a little after 6 and going into Portland there is no traffic so I got there by 6:30 so I had time to look for parking. Now where I normally go, I watched 4 cars in front of me turn that way so I decided to go straight and that was the right choice as there were 3 parking spots right on 23rd a block past the Whiskey Kitchen and right Infront of the parking pay station so now walking. I was going to be early which is okay. Now I didn’t think of taking a selfie before getting out of the car and that means there would be no pictures tonight as I usually don’t think about it once I meet up with my friends.

I walked the block and went inside to get a table and of course they all remembered me and asked how many we would have. I told them 3 for sure but maybe a couple extra yes, I was hoping. They got us a table right up front for 6 and told me if more showed up, they would figure it out which was nice. Now as I said we have come here many times and always treated wonderful; the last time was a little over a month ago and the waitress we had that night who we have had several times before came over and talked to me, her name is Elaine and she is wonderful. Now it turns out we were not sitting in her section so we had a young man as our waiter and he was also awesome but it was a let down not to have Elaine although she did stop by out table several times to talk to us and also said goodbye on her way out after her shift. Anyway, a little before 7 Melissa and her wife showed up and a few minutes later Barb so we had 4 of us tonight.

We ordered dinner and yes, I got the same thing I always do as it is just so good. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation which is always a recipe for a wonderful night. as always it went way to fast and you can tell it is getting to the end of summer as by the time, we left it was dark out but it was still somewhat warm out but I know the cold weather is coming. We left and I walked the block to my car and went home. it was a little after 10 when I got home, but it was a great night out with friends.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog for what is new in my life.

September 22, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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