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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Wednesday dinner at Southland whisky kitchen

It is Wednesday and that means going out to dinner with my friends which I so look forward to. now we are going to Southland Whisky kitchen where we have gone many times before. They have wonderful food and reasonable prices probably $15 to $25 depending on what you have. Now I got off early this week so I was home by 4:30 so I had time to get ready and even time to pick Julie up so I texted her to see if she wanted to ride with me, I was pretty sure she would say yes. I started getting ready and doing my makeup, I really enjoy my time doing my makeup as I slowly see the transformation and Susan start to appear. It really is a wonderful feeling. Now Julie texted me back and accepted my offer so I told her I would pick her up about 6:15. I was all ready and on my way. I got to her house at 6:12 and went in. she had just finished getting ready and so we were on our way. Now I expected a little more traffic but there was none and we got downtown by 6:35. Now parking in this area can be hard but I lucked out as the street right past Southland Whisky kitchen I decided to turn right and there was a spot a half block up. I think this is the first time I have not had to drive around looking for a spot.

Julie and I walked over and went in, they weren’t really busy but it took a few minutes to get a table big enough for us as we had 8 of us confirm we would be here tonight. We are getting a good turnout on our Wednesday night dinners lately usually 6 to 10. About the time our table was ready Melissa walked in so we went and sat down. Kris showed up right after we sat down. Now I had to get my nightly selfie of course. We ordered some drinks and waited for the rest to show up and we didn’t have to wait long. Patty and her girlfriend showed up followed by Jennifer and her wife. Now we had sat at one end of the table and left the other end for them as Jenifer’s wife wanted to talk to Patty’s girlfriend. They are both supportive but I think they wanted to talk and see how each are dealing with it as it is a different dynamic to a relationship. Now my dressing is just part of who I am and makes me who I am and we always think it shouldn’t matter but then again if I walked in on a lady I was seeing and she had on a short hair wig and a fake beard and mustache it would catch me off guard. Part of my being Susan is dressing and presenting as I do is what I find attractive in woman. A woman with nice makeup, hair, nails and in a dress and heels is perfect. Now that being said I would support them but I would be different so I can understand it and I think it is awesome of them making it work.

Now our waitress was awesome, she has waited on us before when we were here, her name is Evelyn and she is wonderful. She took our orders and then we all talked as we waited for our food. These dinners are really great as we all get to sit and talk which for some reason as Susan I enjoy. My male self is not big on just sitting around and talking, I feel I need to be doing something. I also think as Susan the reason I like talking more is I don’t feel like I am hiding things. Now I know I am not completely honest about everything in my life as Susan to everyone but on my male life I feel I am hiding half of who I am and that can make it hard to talk to people and open up. The girls in the group all understand that as they have gone through it also.

Now I had to get a picture with Julie tonight as I always forget and the picture just turned so cute with us, we both look so awesome. Our food came and as always it was wonderful, I have tried several things and they are all good but my favorite is their pulled pork and BBQ chicken thigh and for a side dish their cheddar au gratin potatoes are awesome. We all sat and talked as we ate and had a wonderful time.

After dinner we sat for a while, a coupe of the girls ordered dessert, I was good and didn’t as I am really trying to cut sugar out of my diet, yes, I still drink pop but I am avoiding as much as I can. Julie got an ice cream dessert and it looked good; well it was good as I did have 2 bites but that was all, Evelyn our wonderful waitress brought our bills and she split them up for us which is always nice. It was almost 10 when we called it a night. it really was a wonderful night out with my friend, my t-girl family.

Julie and I walked back to my car; I still can’t get over how easily I walk down the street as Susan now. The drive home was nice as Julie and I talked more. It really is way more fun to go out with someone and Julie is just so wonderful to spend time with. It is funny as when I first started going out it was all about being out as Susan and in a way it still is, the reason I go to Starbucks for nights like tonight it really was all about being out with my friends, where we go or what we do is not that important, it is being out with my sisters.

I dropped Julie off and drove the rest of the way home as my night came to an end but it was a wonderful night out and I look forward to when I can go out with my friends again.

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August 10, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Rock Bottom

It is Wednesday again and that means Wednesday night dinner. We are gong to Rock Bottom in downtown Portland. We have gone here many times over the years, and it is always good food and wonderful service. Now we had posted it and only had 4 say they would be here and 1 maybe so it could be one of our smaller groups. Now normally I ma rushed to get ready as I usually don’t get home from work till 5:30 or later but tonight was a good night. I snuck out of work a little early as I will work extra tomorrow and then traffic for some reason was good, so I got home about 4:50 which was nice. Now with the extra time I would have tie to go pick Julie up so I texted her and she said that would be wonderful. Its only a little but out of my way but way more fun to have someone with you for the ride and no sense in both of us paying parking and gas. Of course, this would mean I would have to rush again but so worth it. I was ready and out my door by 5:45 and on my way to pick Julie up.

I got to Julie’s house about 6:10 and she was just finishing getting ready. The two of us were on our way by 6:15 so we had time even with traffic which it turns out there was none so we got downtown Portland about 6:35 and I was circling around the block to go to the parking garage but luck was with us as I found a parking spot on the street about a block away. It cost a while .70 cents for parking till 7 when they stop charging. Over the years I can’t count the number of times I have put .40 to .70 on my credit for parking, with the fees on credit cards I don’t know how they make it worthwhile? Tonight, Julie picked up the parking so the .70 went on her credit card.

We walked the block to Rock Bottom and went in and they were not busy so they could seat us right away even though most of our girls were not here yet. We got a big booth that could fit 6 and ordered drinks as we waited. Melissa was the first to show up followed by Jennifer and Kris and even Karen showed up, so we had all 6 of us here. Drinks came and our appetizer, Julie got one of their pretzels for the table, thanks Julie. Now Barb showed up, so we had 7 and no seat for her but the staff quickly put a couple tables near by together and moved us over there. Like I say the staff here is wonderful as really then staff at every place we go is.

We all ordered our dinners and then sat and talked. Kris sat to my right and Julie and Jennifer were across from me and as tonight I was on the end, they were the main ones I talked with. I did talk with Keren and Mellissa a little but Barb was way down on the other end so kind of hard to talk with her which was sad as she is leaving on her extended summer vacation in a few days so it will be a month or two till she gets out with the group. But it was fun to sit and talk.

Our food came and yes, I got their Chicken Fried Chicken which is really good. Kris and Barb also ordered it tonight. We all sat and talked as we ate. About halfway through another one of our girls showed up, she was in male mode though. She just got off work and as she works nearby, she walked over to join us for a little while, so we had 8 of us tonight. Now I will admit when she first sat down next to me I pause and wondered who this man was sitting down but then I recognized her, I have seen her a few times in her male mode but some of the girls had never met her this way which is always fun. It is funny as when I first started going out, I wouldn’t give any information about my male side and now a lot of the girls have seen me as my male self, but it is always fun to guess who the person is.

After we ate we sat and talked and had a great time, by the way tonight I didn’t finish my chicken so I took a piece home as leftovers which I pretty much never do as I know the likely hood of me eating it is small but I have high hopes. It was after 10 when we called it an evening and I think we were some of the last people in there. We all walked out together and pause out front to say our goodbyes as we all parked different directions. Now I took my phone out to check the time and realized I hadn’t gotten a picture tonight, so I took one with the city street behind me. Keren walked part way with Julie and I as she parked in the same direction at least for a block. I joked with them if 10 years ago they thought they would be walking the downtown streets of Portland at night as their female self and Keren said not even a couple years ago, she would have thought this possible.

Julie and I got to my car and off we went as I drove Julie home and we had more time to talk. I still can’t believe how much Susan like to have conversations. There really are some differences between my make and female side and one of the biggest is how much more comfortable and outgoing I am as Susan and I think that is because I am not hiding who I am. Now the drive home took awhile as the exit we take was closed for construction, so we had to go through part of the city. I dropped Julie off at her house and was on my way home and yes once again there was construction that had the freeway down to 1 lane and what should have been a 25 minute ride home became 45 minutes so it turned out to be a late night for Susan but so worth it.

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August 4, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s

It is Wednesday and that means dinner with my friends and tonight we are going to Hobo’s downtown Portland. It has been over a year since we went here for dinner, last time was back in June of 2018. Now I only posted last night and we have 12 going tonight if everyone makes it. Now it was a long drive home as traffic was bad and all I could think about was I would be late. Now the reason was thinking this is I drive almost right by this part of Portland on my commute home and this is about the midpoint of my commute so as I inched along and I watched it get later and later and I could see the traffic the other way which I would also be in later coming back I was thinking how would I make it by 7pm. Normally I get home about 5:30 give or take 15 minutes but today I pulled into my garage at 5:50 I had 1 hour and 10 minutes to get changed and become Susan and get back downtown. Now on the way home I worked out what o would wear and how I would do my makeup and that always makes it easier so it was right into the house and the race to get ready was on. I was ready and pulling out of my garage as Susan at 6:23

Now luck was with me as the traffic had cleared the way I was going ad most of the way it was at or above the speed limit. I got downtown about 6:45 and I saw Jan & Lynn walking down the street so I went and found a parking spot about 2 blocks away, I did get a quick selfie before getting out of the car. Now it is so amazing how easily I can get out of the car and walk the couple blocks as Susan, I have come a long way in my comfort level as Susan. I got inside and Jan, Lynn and Dannie were there. Now Hobo’s usually is not that busy at this time of night so I didn’t make reservation and there was no problem. We went upstairs where he could put some tables together for our group and we waited for others to show up.

It wasn’t long and others showed up, Mellissa, Julie, Kris, Christie, Patty and her girlfriend Kelly and Jennifer in all we had 11 tonight which was awesome considering the late posting of dinner tonight. We sat and talked for a little bit before we ordered. Now they have really good food here dinners will run you $20 to $30 so a little more than our normal dinner but not bad. Now I had a choice to make as they have really good Chicken Parmesan and also a wonderful Prime Rib and I love both. How do you decide, well luck was on my side as Julie was the first to order and she ordered the Prime Rib and it turns out that was the last of it so I ordered the Chicken Parmesan, of course Julie would share a little piece of her prime rib with me which was so sweet of her.

Now I sat in the middle of the table so I could try and talk with everyone but with such a big group it was hard. our Wednesday night dinners are really a wonderful event as it gives us a chance to talk and get to know each other better in a quiet, relaxing atmosphere. Plus, it was also a special night as it was also Lynn’s birthday so we all wished her a happy Birthday, we should have sung to her though but I think she had a good birthday with us.

Now we had a wonderful dinner and great conversation. I got an e-mail from a newer member to our group asking what she could expect if she came to one of our events and I had never really thought about that probably because no one ever asked me that. I had to think about it and all I could come up with s it is no different then going out with people you know. We really don’t do anything special we are just a group of friends out having dinner. Yes, we dress different then most people would think we should but we are just out having dinner and enjoying our friendship. I know for me I really am not even thinking about how I am dressed, maybe because Susan has become such a natural part of who I am but I would think a lot of the girls are not focused on how they are dressed. They are just being themselves. I think this is the main thing to remember is we are just being who we are like you are.

Well after dinner we all sat and talked for a while, I really think none of us wanted the night to come to an end as we were all having so much fun. There is just something about being out and being who you are and being accepted. It was almost 10 when we all left. Julie, Dannie and I walked across the street and walked through CC Slaughters to see what was going on. We use to go here all the time, now I think the only time we go here is to walk through it when we are in the area and only when Julie is with use. It really was a wonderful night.

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July 27, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Amaro’s Table in Vancouver

It is Wednesday night and we are having dinner in Vancouver at Amaro’s Table; we have eaten here before back in February and it is very nice but a little small so Barb who picked tonight’s dinner made reservations as it looks like we will have 8 to 10. Now I love the Wednesday night dinners but they are hard to make as I get off so late, it Is usually 5:30 give or take 15 minutes when I get home so it is always a rush as most places we got take at least a half hour to get there but tonight is closer so I have a little more time which is nice as it was almost 5:40 when I got home. now I have figured out the secret to getting ready fast. Chose your outfit the night before and don’t change your mind. So, when I got home my dress was on my bed along with my heels and it was just a matter of doing my makeup and getting ready. I was ready and pulling out of my garage at 6:20 and on my way and tonight it should only take about 10 minutes to get there. I got downtown Vancouver at 6:35 and found a parking spot right on the corner opposite the door, yes parking is easier in Vancouver and they stop charging at 6 which is nice also.

I went in and Barb, Jonnie and Nicole were already there so I sat down between Barb and Nicole. Our waitress came over to see if I wanted a drink and of course I did so I ordered my usual, a sprite, yes, I drink the hard stuff. Actually, I have never cared for Alcohol, growing up my parents would let me have a little at home if I wanted and it never became that big of a thing. Yes, I can drink a beer or a little wine now and then but if you give me options, they would be the last on my list. I often joke with some of the girls that my best friend on my male side of over 35 years who doesn’t know about Susan, if you told him you saw me in a bar dressed as a women, I really think he would be more shocked I was at a bar.

Well it wasn’t long and Melissa, Julie and Kris showed up so we had 7 and 2 had to cancel so that would be it for the night. I think back to when I first started going out if we got 6 or 8 on a Friday or Saturday night at Embers which was an LGBT club, we were having a great night. now we can get 7 at a small restaurant in downtown Vancouver. We have come a long way in the last 10 plus years. Well we all ordered dinner and then sat and talked and with the smaller group it was easy for everyone to be involved in the conversation which is always nice. Now our waitress was awesome tonight but really, we pretty much always get wonderful service and I sometimes wonder if they try a little harder because we are transgender. Don’t get me wrong as I love the great service but part of what I am going for is to be accepted and treated like any other woman not necessarily better but equal.

Now I ordered their classic fried chicken which is awesome but what really makes this a wonderful dinner option is it comes with mashed potatoes and a honey butter to go on it which is wonderful, I would highly recommend this as a dinner choice. Well we all sat around and talked as we ate and had a wonderful time. People came and went and I did see a couple people look over at us mostly men and I always wonder what they are thinking and if they are secretly wishing they could dress up and go out with us. Mostly people didn’t pay any attention to us though. It was so nice to spend time with my wonderful friends; this is actually Nicole’s 3rd time out with us in a month which is awesome a she lives a couple hours away.

We finished dinner and a couple of the girls ordered dessert, I was a good girl and didn’t as I am trying to cut sugar out of my diet which is hard. I know Sprite has sugar in it but what I am talking about is the cookies, chocolate and all the other deserts that I was eating way too much as I have no will power when it comes to them. If I don’t eat them, I don’t miss them but once I have some I crave more. I wonder if this is how people who smoke feel. Our waitress kept checking on us as I said she was awesome; I wish I had got her name. If you are looking for a nice place in Vancouver for dinner Amaro’s Table should be at the top of your list.

Now the night went by so fats as they always do and as we sat there talking, I noticed it was getting dark outside a sign it getting late but we were just having so much fun. Soon it was dark and we all knew it was time to call it a night as it was after 10. We all paid our bills and said our goodbyes which is always hard. some of these girls are my best friends and really more like family, sisters. I really am blessed to have such wonderful friends in my life. We all left and again one of the great things about dinner in Vancouver is the parking as we were all able to park close. Now even thought it was after 10 when we left, I only had a 10-minute drive home so still got home about the normal time.

It was a wonderful night out as always and I am already looking forward to Saturday when I will once again get to go out. Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new with Susan.

July 20, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Henry’s

It is Wednesday and we are doing dinner at Henry’s Tavern downtown Portland; Cassandra is setting this one up and made reservations. One of our members from Nebraska is in town for a couple days so Cassandra is coming out for the night I am looking forward to it as it will be good to see Cassandra again but also Robin as I have not seen her since Diva Las Vegas. Bow it turns out we will have a good turnout as a lot of girls want to go, we have 16 going with 1 maybe.

Now I get home later now so it is always a rush and tonight there was a lot of traffic so it was almost 5:40 when I got home so I started getting ready right away. I can get ready in 45 minutes if I have to but I don’t get the time to enjoy my transformation but it was about being downtown by 7 and I wasn’t sure how bad traffic would be going into Portland. Now I had my outfit all picked out from the night before and I knew just how I wanted to do my makeup so that helps. Well things went just right and I think I set a record as I was pulling out of my garage at 6:15. 35 minutes from walking in the door as my male self to leaving in my car as Susan. my luck held as there was no traffic going into Portland and I went right for the parking garage a block away. I was walking into Henry’s right behind Cassandra, Robin and Veronica at 6:35 so I had time to spare.

It was great to see them again; I saw Cassandra a while back at a Wednesday night dinner as she comes out every once in a while, but I have not seen Veronica or Robin since Las Vegas back the beginning of April which is not that long ago just seems like it. They told us they would have our table ready by 7 so we went into the bar to wait. Jan, Lynn, Melissa, Dawnie and April were all there waiting. Now this is the first time I have met Dawnie and April, Cassandra and Robin know them from online but it is the first me they have come out with the group. Actually, it is the first time April has ever been out which is always fun. There is just something about sharing someone’s first time out as you think about your fist time out. My blog from last Sunday talked a little about my journey as Susan from when I first figured out, I liked this side of my life and I got some good feedback on it so I think this coming Sunday when I go to Starbucks I think I will write about my actual first real night going out as it may help some still struggling with this part of their lives.

Well we sat and talked and waited till it was time to go to our table. Jennifer & her wife Marge, Kimberly, Barb, Rickie and her wife Judy, Kris and Joanie so we had 17 here tonight one of our bigger turnouts. Years ago, we were happy if we could get 8 to 10 out on a Friday or Saturday at Embers which was a LGBT bar and very Trans friendly and now, we are getting 17 out on a Wednesday night just for a dinner at a restaurant. We have come a long way. Now I tried to sit closer to the middle of the table so I could talk with as many as possible but with 8 on one side and 9 on the other there was just no way to talk with everyone. We ordered drinks and appetizers, Henry’s has an awesome large pretzel and cheese dips and also chicken tenders so I ordered 1 and Cassandra the other and we split. Really didn’t need that much before we ate but it was so good.

Now I got to talk mostly with Kris to my left, April to my right and then Kimberly, Cassandra and Joanie across from me, the rest I talked a little with but I had to talk past people which is hard. It was nice to talk with April being her first time out and she did awesome. I really wouldn’t have known had she not told me. Now I did get a couple selfies, one in the car and one in Henry’s but I wish we had gotten a group picture of everyone as it was such a good turnout tonight. Our waiter tonight was awesome but then again, every time we have come here, we have always been treated wonderful and had awesome servers.

Our food came and we ate dinner and kept talking, conversations going on at both ends of the table and in the middle and it was just a wonderful night out with my awesome friends. Now it was all I could do to finish my dinner after the appetizers I had earlier but I some how managed, several of the girls took home leftovers but I have never been big on leftovers plus I was always told to clean my plate when I was growing up and that is a hard habit to break, probably why I have a hard time loosing weight. That dinner was over it was time for dessert and of course it all looked good and I so wanted some but as I was full and I really am trying to cut sweets out and hopefully lose some weight I managed to get my will power up and just say no. a few of the girls did order dessert including Cassandra across from me, she got the half order of a brownie Sunday and trust me a half order could feed 2 easily and it came with 2 spoons. She tried to get me to have some and I thought about having 1 bite but I know me and there is no such thing as 1 bite for me. I have will power only as long as I don’t have any, once I start eating sweets it’s over.

After we finished, we sat and talked for a while before some of the girls started to leave, it was about 9:30 when the first left but some of us stayed as I know for me, I just didn’t want the night to end. Cassandra, Robin, Dawnie and April all wanted a picture of them together so I took several of them for them. It really will be a wonderful memory for Dawne and especially April of her first night out. I have a few pictures from early on but none from my first night out as yes that was before smart phones with camera’s. Makes me feel old to admit that. By now we had all paid our bills and even though they put an 18% tip on parties over 8 as do almost all restaurants when we asked our waiter about this he said he didn’t as he wanted to trust in his smile and service and I can tell you that was the right choice as I am sure he did better then the 18%, he really was great.

At the end it was just Veronica, Robin, Cassandra (they all road together), Joanie and me and we left a little after 10, it really was a wonderful night out and again how easily we all waked to our cars. Years ago, it was everything I could do just to get out of my car now I don’t even give it a second thought. Life really is wonderful as Susan with my friends.

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July 13, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry

It is Wednesday night and our group is having dinner at Who Song & Larry’s on the Columbia river. Last time we were here was back in December so it has been a while. Now we had 8 post they would be there and 2maybes so it should be a good turnout tonight. I got home from work late so it would be another fast transformation, I really like it more when I can take my time and enjoy getting ready. I talk to some of my female friends and a lot of them don’t like the time it takes to do full makeup and I keep wondering if I will get to that point someday. After all some of them have been doing makeup every day for 40 years so I can understand why they may not find it as fun as when they were teenagers. I just hope I never lose the enjoyment of doing my makeup and I don’t think I will. This is my 1,187th blog post so that means I have gone out as Susan that many times plus all the times early on when I just dressed or did my makeup at home and it is just as much fun today as back then. Wow it is hard to believe I have written that many blogs. Well I started getting ready at 5:30 and was ready and on my way by 6:15. Now as I was leaving it looked like it might rain so I took my coat and I was right. I got about a block from my house and the bottom fell out, it was raining so hard for a few miles that cars on the freeway were only going about 30 and there was thunder and lighting also something we don’t see around here very often. As I got close the rain slowed down which was nice and by the time, I got to the parking lot it had stopped.

I took advantage of the break in the rain and went right in. they didn’t look that busy so I went to see if we could get a table for 8 to 10 and the lady at the counter said she would go see what they had. While I was waiting Melissa and her wife walked in, I thought that was them behind me when I pulled into the parking lot. They had a table ready wo the of us went and sat down and waited for the rest to show up. It wasn’t long and Barb showed up followed by Jan & Lynn and then Kimberly and her wife so we actually had wives here tonight which was awesome. Our waiter came and took our orders, we have always had wonderful service here and tonight was just the same. Now I know some girls get caught up in how well they pass and that can be a driving force and can keep some girls from ever going out. Tonight, we all passed, not because they really believed we were female but because they accepted us as females and treated us that way. I am sure we got some looks but we were able to enjoy a dinner out as friends like everyone else and that is what it is all about.

Now Kimberly’s wife has gone out with her before I think but this was the first time meeting the group so I think it was great we had 2 other wives here tonight. Melissia’s wife was seated right across from Kimberly’s wife so they talked most of the night. of course, we all got to talk with her and learn a little about her, these dinners are great for that as they are smaller groups and, in a setting, where it is easy to talk. Of course, we also could look out the windows on the Columbia river and see the rain and lightning although it was tapering off now. Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner, the food here is really good by the way. It was nice to talk with everyone, and have a wonderful night out with my friends. Barb is getting ready for her yearly trip for the summer so it maybe a few months before she is out with the group again. I really do have some wonderful friends as Susan.

After we ate, we sat and talked some more, Kimberly’s wife is really nice and I hope she comes out more with the group. We actually have quiet a few wives or significant others that are supportive of their spouse and even come out with them which is so awesome. It was after 9 when we all called it a night, as we walked out it was a little cool for the end of June but at least it wasn’t raining. We said our goodbyes and made our way to our cars. It is always sad when these evening end but I know Susan will be out again and I will get to see and spend time with my friends.

I got home and got ready for bed and removed my makeup and that is when I know my evening is over, when I see my male self-looking back at me. Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is knew in my life as Susan.

June 30, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen again

It is Wednesday night and the group is going to the Southland Whiskey Kitchen, we have gone here several times before the last time was last July. Now I didn’t think I was going to be able to go tonight as I had family things but they fell through and that allowed me to go tonight so I was happy. Of course, this would mean rushing to get ready and get there by 7. Now I didn’t get home till 5:40 so I started getting ready as soon as I got in the door, on the way home I decided what I would wear and that always makes it easier. It took me 40 minutes to get ready and I was out the door and on my way by 6:20.

I got downtown where Southland Whiskey Kitchen is and found a parking spot about 2 blocks. Now there are several places we in this area we have gone to and all are good but parking can be hard to find as it is all street parking. It was a nice day a little on the hot side but still a nice day for a walk down the street. I got to the restaurant and they were a little busy but Julie had made reservations and was already there so I joined her as we waited for others to show up.

It was nice to sit and talk with Julie, I really like the Wednesday night dinners as we get a chance to talk and get to catch up on what’s new in our lives. It wasn’t long and others started showing up. Christie, Dana and Stacylee showed up so there were 5 of us tonight. We all talked for a while before we ordered just in case as we thought we might have one more. It was about 7:15 when we ordered.

Now we talked about a lot of things, one was passing. I get asked a lot about passing and how to do it. The thing is it is very hard to pass 100%. To me passing is being able to go out and be treated like any other woman. When I go out, I realize I don’t pass but when I go out and am treated with respect. Now I do get looks but for the most part I don’t even notice it anymore and I am always treated wonderful where ever I go. I guess the Portland area is good for this.

We had a wonderful dinner and conversation, we sat and talked after we ate till after 9. Stacylee was the first to leave, she lives 2 hours away and drives down to have dinner with us which is awesome.

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June 16, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Le Bistro Montage

Wednesday and dinner out at Le Bistro Montage but first a little side note. One of my neighbors knows about Susan and I wouldn’t be surprised if all my neighbors know, that being said. Tuesday I came home and I normally back into my garage, as I got to my house I say my neighbor across the street coming out of his garage in his electric wheelchair so I quickly pulled in to my drive forward and as my garage door was opening I saw my neighbor headed my way. By the time I was pulled in and started shutting the door he was half way up my drive so I just let it come down. Will be interesting the next time I talk with him.

Well back to Wednesday night, I got home about 5:20 and I started getting ready as soon as I got inside. Now I knew I had to get ready fast so Tuesday night I picked out my dress and had it setting out. I didn’t get to take my time with my makeup as it was more important to be to dinner on time. I was ready and on my way by 6:10. I got downtown about 6:30 and found a parking spot a block away and walled to Le Bistro Montage.

Barb was just parking out front so we walked in together. Now Melissa and her wife were waiting in the bar. It wasn’t long and Jennie, Julie, Rickie and Judy showed up so we went out and were seated at our table. Kris was there already so we had 9 of us tonight. Now the tables here are long tables so you can sit next to other people if they are busy but that was not the case tonight.

Now we sat and talked to give time incase any others showed up as we did have a couple others say they might make it but they didn’t so about 7 a few ordered appetizers, Julie got Frog Legs and Melissa’s wife got Alligator bites. The Appetizers came and I tried a frog legs and it was pretty good, tasted like chicken but maybe just a little more salty but good. I also tried the Alligator bites, in a way it also tasted like chicken but with a fishy taste, I wasn’t as keen on this probably wouldn’t order it but I can say I have tried it.

Well no one else showed up so we ordered dinner, our waiter was awesome, both times we have come here we have had awesome wait staff, actually pretty much every place we go we are treated wonderful. We kind of got talking and wonder if we maybe get a little bit better/extra service as they are trying too hard to accommodate us. Our food came and as always it was really good as always. We had a nice dinner and wonderful conversation, just an awesome night out with friends. Now the cool thing about Le Bistro Montage is they wrap your leftover if you have them in aluminum foil and make shaped out of them. One of our girls got a Seahorse, turtle, penguin, a butterfly and I can’t remember the last. I of course had no leftovers so I didn’t get one.

Now was time for desert and Julie was here tonight to help me eat it so I ordered an Oreo Cheesecake which is incredible, I would highly recommend it if you come here. It really was a fun night out. We stayed here till a little after 9 just talking and having a good time. It is always sad when the night is over and I have to say goodbye to my friends and go home and change back to my normal male self.

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June 8, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Old Town Pizza

It is the last Wednesday night of May and we are going to dinner at Old Town Pizza. We have gone here many times and always have a wonderful time and we usually get a good turnout here. Now I love the Wednesday night dinners as it gives us a good chance to talk and socialize. Now today I did get home earlier so I was able to take my time getting ready which I love. now a funny side note, as I got home early, I decided to text Julie and see if she wanted to ride with me as I would have time to pick her up. So, as I was doing my makeup, I was talking into my phone to text her, I love voice texting. Now for some reason my phone was not getting what I said correct, it looked like it was foreign language so after 6 tries I gave up and decided to go the old fashion way and type the message. I would type a word in and it would mix up the letters, I thought my phone was broke but then I looked at it and it looked like German. Some how my phone language for texting got changed, took me a little while to find the settings and change it back. Somehow, I must have hot the right combination of buttons putting the phone in my pocket. I did manage to text Julie and then finished getting ready. Julie texted me back she would love that so I told her I would pick her up a little after 6.

I picked Julie up about 6:15 it really is nice to go together, 2 attractive ladies going out for the night, I know that sounds kind of corny but 10 years ago I would never imagine being able to do this. Julie is such an awesome friend and we had a nice time talking as I drove downtown Portland. We got to Old Town Pizza about 6:45 and went in, we were the first there so we put a couple tables together as we had 8 of us post we would be here. It wasn’t long and others started to show up, Melissa, Kitty, Jeanie, Barb, Michele, & Dana and I think 1 more. I really need to get back to doing my blog right after the event as my memory is not as good several days later. Well we all sat and talked for a while before we went up and ordered. They have really good pizza here and just a nice place to go and have some social time.

Now Dana is new to our group and came out to meet us, she is really nice and we had a great time getting to know her. She just moved to Portland not long ago. I really di like when we get knew girls out as I like meeting new friends. It really is hard to believe but I have more friends as Susan then in my male life even though my Susan time is a small part of my life and the friend I do have are some of my best friends, Casandra and Julie really are my best friends and I am not taking away from my other friends as they are all awesome but Julie and Cassandra probably no me better then anyone. We have done things together both in male and female rolls and I never would have thought that possible.

Our food came out and we all ate as we talked. There was a girl who worked here ad she thought we were awesome, she kept coming out and talking to us and making sure everything was good, she gave us her name and now a few days later I can’t remember it but she was so awesome. It really is nice when you meet someone like her. We had a nice dinner and wonderful conversation; these dinners really are a wonderful time to get to know each other better.

It was about 9:15 when we all called it a night so its not a real late bight out which is nice also as it is a weekday. Now again it was nice having Julie ride with me as we were able to talk more on the way back to her house. It really is wonderful to be able to share so much of my life with my friends. I dropped Julie off and then drove home, it was about 10:15 when I got home but it was such a fun night out.

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June 3, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday Admin meeting at McMenamins Crystal Ballroom

On Sunday we are having an Administrator meeting for our group the Rose City T-Girls at McMenamins Crystal Ballroom downtown Portland. We have gone here many times for Wednesday night dinner and they really do have wonderful food and great appetizers. I really could make a meal out of their appetizers. My two favorites are their pretzels and cheese dipping sauce and of course their Scooby Snacks, (bitesize corndogs). I was dressed and on my way by 1 and got downtown by 1:20 and found a parking spot about 1 ½ blocks away, there were a lot of people out walking the streets today. I got out of my car with my purse and computer without even a second thought. I think back to when I was first going out and I would sit in my car and wait for as many people to go by and hopefully find a time when there was no one between me and where I wanted to go. We have a new girl in our group going through the same thing and I have been trying to reassure her it is not just her as we all went through this at one time or another. Now it uses to be you only paid for parking during the week on the street, then they started on Saturday and now even Sunday till 7pm. I probably should have just parked in the parking garage as the street parking will be about the same $ but they only have 2-hour parking so that will mean two trips out to feed the parking meter.

I got inside and they were a little busy but they have a big main room with 3 pool tables and 2 shuffle board table and then another big room with just tables so there was a lot of room turns out I was the first to arrive as Cassandra got caught in traffic and it took her an hour to get here. Now we found a big table as there would be 5 of us with computers and Cassandra brought an extension cord so we could all plug in if we went long. Melissa and Barb here just before 2 and Julie was a little later as she got caught in the same traffic Cassandra did. We all went up and ordered something to drink and appetizers and I was debating between which one I wanted but Cassandra made it easy as she ordered 2 of the pretzel and cheese dips for the table so I got and order of Scooby Snacks for the table.

Now Barb is a new Administrator for the group so we wanted to show her how to do things but also go over and refresh things for the rest of use so we are all doing things the same. Melissa has been managing our web page and by that, I mean setting it up and making updates and making it run right. The rest of us just update events, approve new members and post notices. If you like our web sites look it is all Melissa’s work and she has done a fantastic job, thanks Melissa. Now about 3:15 Cassandra and I had to walk out and put more money in the parking meters, Julie, Melissa and Barb were smart enough to park in the garage. Now today I wore my black skirt with my ankle boots with 3″ heels, it really is a cute look. As I got up from my chair, I rubbed my left calf on the chair and there was a rough spot and I ripped a hole in my nylons on my leg. It was small but I was not happy so the walk out to my car gave me a chance to calm down. I really hate when this happens. Now this area has a lot of drives coming out and the sidewalks are not level and I found it is a challenge to walk on them in heels.

Cassandra and I got back and now we were talking about our rules for the group and what we thought. Mainly approving people. We do require a face picture as we want to make sure who we are letting in. this sometimes is an issue as some girls do not want to post a picture, only members can see it and our thoughts are if you are a member and can see others pictures they should be able to see who you are so we are sticking with this rule. We also talked about admirers and this has always been a tuff topic and we spent a lot of time on this. In the end it all came down to what we all saw as the vision of out group. The groups focus is on helping girls come out and be comfortable in a social environment. Now we are all adults and understand that the trans community is somewhat sexual in nature but that is not the focus of the group. What members chose to do in their private lives is their choice but not what the group is about. In the end we decided not to allow admirers accept in maybe rare occasions. The other topic was face pictures, we require a face picture and sometimes we get those with male pictures. This is a little harder as some new members may not have a female picture and we don’t want to exclude them but then again, we are hoping they will come out so we will hopefully be able to get a female picture of them and they can post it. In the end what we really want is to help t-girls come out and enjoy this part of their life.

At 5:15 it was once more time for Cassandra and I to go out and feed the parking meter again and I got up carefully this time and swung my left leg clear of the chair ass to not catch it again. I probably should have changed chairs after the last time as when I pulled my right leg by the chair you know what happened. I caught the chair again and now I had a small hole on my right calf. I can’t believe I did that. Well now I did change chairs but at this point it doesn’t matter. This is something my male side never had to worry about.

Cassandra and I got back and we all ordered dinner and had a nice time. I got a burger so that is 2 days in a row having a hamburger for dinner but they are good. We all talked as we ate and had a wonderful time. It was such a wonderful day with my friends. It is still hard to believe we are at McMenamins as girls having a meeting about a web site we run. We have come so far over the last 10 to 12 years. Now we did have a couple people talk to us as there was a large group taking a tour and they were standing by our table and that was nice and we even had one lady who took the time to come over and tell us all how nice we looked. As she said we took time and put a lot of effort into how we looked and a lot of woman don’t do that, Her words not mine. She said she told her boyfriend you have no idea how much effort it takes to look pretty. We all thanked her and I think that really makes it all worth while when we go out. She didn’t have to come over but she did and that means a lot.

It was about 7 when we left, it really was a wonderful day. now driving home on a Sunday night, I was thinking about what I could do. I thought about going to Starbuck’s as the one I go to is open till 8:30 but it would be 7:45 when I would get there so I just went home as tomorrow I will be out as Susan and I am sure I will end up there for a while.

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May 28, 2019 Posted by | McMenamins, Out and about as Susan, Rose_City_T-Girls | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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