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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song and Larry’s

It is Wednesday and once again I get to go out as Susan and have dinner with my friends. This really is a wonderful thing that 10 years ago I never would have thought possible. Now we picked Who Song and Larry’s in hopes Julie could join us one last tie before she heads south for warmer weather for the winter but she had an early flight and wouldn’t be able to make it which was sad but she will be with us in spirit. I got home late from work so I started getting ready right away as I wanted to get there a little early as they have awesome homemade chips and I love their bean dip so I figured I could get there early and get our name in for a table and have a snack. I was ready about 6:15 and since it only takes about 15 minutes to get there, I would be early. I texted Melissa to confirm how many we had, counting e-mails I figured 5 or 6. Melissa texted back that she had made reservations for 5. I got there and usually parking is bad but not tonight so I got a spot almost right in front. I went in and checked in and then went to the bar to get my drink and some chips with bean dip.

Melissa showed up about 10 minutes later and then barb. It was about 6:50 when the girl came and said our table was ready although I think we could have gotten it faster if we asked as they were not busy tonight, everyone was back in the big room and that is where our table was also. There were a lot of people back here including one big group of maybe 20, turn out it was a birthday party for a young girl about 10 or 12, all the kids were eating at the end of the table closest to us and the adults the other end of the table. Kris showed up right at 7, it was nice to see her out as this maybe one of the last times we see her for a while. She is moving up to the Seattle area for a year for schooling. The last to show was Jamie, she is a member of our group who lives in Arizona, I met here at Diva Las Vegas back in 2018. She has followed my blog for years and we e-mailed some and when we were at Diva Las Vegas we met and hot it off and she joined our group as she travels for work. Well this week she is in town working and got to join us. It was so nice to see her again and get to talk with her. now I did get a few pictures with her later in the evening, this was the best.

We all talked for a while before we ordered. Our waiter who we have had several times before was awesome as always. Now the staff came out to sing happy birthday to the young girl at the next table so we all joined in with everyone to sing to her. We went back to talking, well about 10 minutes later the birthday girl came over and gave Jamie a big cupcake as they had extra and wanted to know if she wanted it. Jamie accepted and thanked her; it was so sweet. Now besides our waiter we had another young man who would come by and see if we needed anything and I think it was even the Manager stopped by one time to see if we needed anything and if we did just let him know. Now I always joke about the wonderful service we always seem to get, any way one of the moms at the next table was standing there and after he left she smiled at me and said wow you ladies seem to get the best service so I guess it was not just my imagination.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and I took several pictures of all f us and texted them to Julie as she missed tonight. Of course, one of the pictures had to be a selfie of me. Our food was

wonderful and we just had a wonderful night out. After we ate Jamie shared her cupcake with all of us and it was really good. We sat and talked for a while and got to hear about the group in Arizona Jamie belongs to. they go out pretty regular but not as mainstream of places as we do. Our group really has grown over the last 12 years from just one LGBT club, to a few different ones, to just picking a restaurant and going. Portland metro area really is accepting and we can pretty much go where ever we want with no problems and that is such a wonderful thing.

It was now 9 and people were leaving and the big group went by and a some of them told us goodbye and the one that I had talked with before about the service told us how nice we looked and wished us a goodnight. That made the evening. Now they are open till 10 but soon we found we were the only ones left inside just sitting there talking. It was about 9:45 when we called it a night, the lady at the front desked thanked us for coming in and told us to come back. Now we have been coming here for years, and I am not sure but this might be the one we have gone to for the longest that we still go to. The first time we went here as a group for in December of 2009 for our holiday dinner. I have even met Peggy once here for dinner years ago.

Well we all said our goodbyes which is always hard, I won’t see Jamie again till Diva Las Vegas, yes at this point I am planning on going and so is she. I would have liked to get together with her again before she left but the only night, she had open was Friday night and I had something I just couldn’t get out of. We left and went our separate ways and it was a little after 10 when I got home and washed away all the traces of Susan and went to be.

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October 19, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday dinner at Amaro’s table in Vancouver

It is Wednesday and once again I get to have dinner with my friends and tonight we are going to Amaro’s table in Vancouver. I so look forward to these outings as not only do I get some much-needed Susan time but I get to spend time with my friends. Now we have gone here several time before and as always, we are always treated wonderful and the food is really good. Julie actually found this place for us to go. Our group has come a long way over the years from just going to Embers to going to a few other LGBT clubs, to going to Harvey’s Comedy club, to doing Wednesday night dinners at a few places and now that has grown to Maybe 10 to 12 places we go on a regular basis and we are looking for new places to go as we branch out into the world.

Now tonight I got home later then normal about 5:45 so it would be a rush, luckily tonight’s dinner is not far and will only take me less than 15 minutes to get there. I started getting ready at 5:50, I had just started and Julie texted me to see what time I would be there. Now I love my Susan time and I love getting ready and doing my makeup even when I have to rush but I really enjoy it more when I can take my time but tonight time was short. On the way home I had decided what dress I would wear and that is always something that slows me down as I almost never wear the first thing I pick. I texted Julie I hoped to be on my way by 6:30 and sure enough I was leaving home at 6:30. It took me a little over 10 minutes to get there and then it was finding a parking spot. Now normally when we have come here, I have not had an issue but tonight was different I drove around the blocks 3 times before I saw someone backing out about a block away so I parked and walked to Amaro’s table.

Now Melissa had called and made reservations as this is a small place, the bad thing was they only had 2 big tables and both were reserved so we would be split up as we have 9 that confirmed for tonight. I walked in and Melissa, Jan and Lynn were already there and to my surprise they had one of the big tables. Turns out one of the other groups canceled so we would all be able to sit together which is nice. I picked a seat towards the middle o the table so I could talk with everyone. Julie showed up next and it was great to see her, this may be her last Wednesday night dinner as she leaves for warmer weather early next Thursday, yes, we are trying to talk her into one last Wednesday dinner before she goes. Our waitress came over to get my drink order and told me what cute boots I had on, I wore may ankle boots tonight and she said several of the girls noticed them when I came in, of course I thanked her. I really do love getting compliments on how I look, it just makes you feel good inside. Barb and Kris were the next to show up, it was great to see both of them. It has been over a month since Kris has been out. It as just a few minutes after 7 when April and Dawnie showed up, they live south of Portland and had a 1 ½ hour drive to get here. They have come out with the group now several times so all 9 of us were here. Now I did get a quick selfie.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered. I of course ordered my normal dinner here, yes, I have my favorites at all the places we go and I tend to stick to them. I guess I am a little predictable. I had their classic fried chicken which is really good and comes with mashed potatoes and a honey butter to put on them, so good. We talked as we waited for dinner and I got a chance to talk some with April and Dawnie which was nice as I don’t know them that well. I really do enjoy talking with people and getting to know them when I am out as Susan.

Our food came and it was awesome and our waitress was wonderful her name was Haleigh. She was just so nice and treated us wonderful. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation, just a wonderful night out made special with my friends. Now it was time for dessert which I am trying to cut out so I passed but a few of the girls ordered some and shared it so I did have a few bites. We sat and talked till after 9:30 before we called it a night. it really was fun and I am looking forward to next weeks dinner and seeing my friends again. We all said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. It really is funny as I need a couple days a week as Susan to keep balance in my life. My female side really is a big part of my life and who I am, you could say she makes my life complete.

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October 12, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Rock Bottom

It is Wednesday once again and that means I get to go out with my friends for dinner, one of my most favorite things to do. I look back just a little over 10 years, 2008 and before and going out was just a dream mostly. Then I found our wonderful group the Rose City T-Girls and my life really changed. Not only was I able to go out on a regular basis but I met some people who really have become friend and actually some of them are my best friends. Back then it was just the thought I might be able to go out now I go out to dinner with my friends like anyone else. I would say it is almost common place but that would take away from how special this time is with my friends. Now tonight we were going to the Rock Bottom in Portland and they have really good food and always a fun time. Now today I would get home late so it would be a rush to get ready and be down town Portland by 7. I got home about 5:10 and started getting ready. I like to pick Julie up so we can ride together but for that it means I need to leave my house by 5:45 and I was not sure I could do that so I didn’t text her and I figured I would see where I was when I was done with my makeup. I was just finishing and git a text From Julie to see if I was going to be late. It was about 5:35 and all I had to do was get dressed now so I texted her I could pick her up if she wanted I figured I would be ready to leave in 10 minutes which would put me right at 5:45. She said yes so I texted her I would be there hopefully by 6:15 and I finished getting dressed.

Traffic was not bad and I got to Julies about 6:10 and went in. she was just finishing getting ready, we talked briefly and then we were on our way. The good thing about this time of night is everyone is headed out of Portland and not into it so traffic was good and we got downtown about 6:45 and I went to the parking garage a block away to park. It was a nice walk over to the Rock Bottom; it still amazes me I can walk the city streets as Susan without even thinking about it now. They were not busy and were able to seat us right away so Julie and I went and sat down. It was only a few minutes and Jennifer showed up followed by Barb and then Patty and her girlfriend Kelly and then Jeanie so we had 7 of us tonight. Again, looking back 10 years 7 of us out was a big night even going to Embers an LGBT club on a Friday or a Saturday and now we can get 5 to 10 on a Wednesday night dinner at just a restaurant. We talked for a little bit before we ordered our dinner. I of course got my Chicken fried Chicken which is awesome but they have other good food here also. I did get a quick selfie at the table.

We sat and talked as we waited for our food and the group was small enough that almost everyone could get in on the conversation. Julie and I sat more to the middle so we could be in all conversations. Patty’s girlfriend Kelly sat next to me so tonight I got a good chance to talk with her and get to know her which was nice. I really like this as it is nice to get a genetic girl’s perspective on this and she is very supportive of Patty which is nice. I know we all want someone to accept us for who we are and we or at least I think it should be easy if someone really cares about you, they should accept you for who you are but life is not always that simple. Now I tend to dress how I find women attractive. I am drawn to woman who have nice long nails, longer hair, nice makeup and yes red lipstick. Women who wear dresses or skirts and high heels. Now I am not saying I wouldn’t date or get to know a woman who doesn’t dress this way but this is what catches my attention. I will also admit if I was involved with a woman like this and one day I came home and she had on a short hair wig, maybe a beard or mustache and was trying to look like a man it would shock me. Now I would like to think I would be supportive of her but that being said I would also need to have her sometime be the lady and do the makeup and what I am saying is the woman that can accept this in their partner are wonderful and those that can also support them and even share it with them they are truly awesome and we have some truly awesome wives and girlfriend to some of our girls in the group.

Our food came and it was awesome as always and our waiter was wonderful and treated us awesome, always addressed us as ladies. Now there has been a lot on line about using the correct gender. Yes, I think everyone should be addressed how they identify and people should respect that as that is just good manners and being polite and treating people with respect. That being said I also realize people are human and will make mistakes and I look to when I go to Diva Las Vegas. I travel with Cassandra but while we are traveling, she is in boy mode. To me she is Cassandra and her or she and I have a hard time using anything else. We are not perfect. Now this is where I will get in trouble. There are those out there that just refuse to use anything other then your birth gender and if they are doing it on purpose that is wrong as they should not do that. This makes them a jerk or what ever other 4 letter word you want to put in but the one thing it does not do is make them a criminal. I cannot support arresting them or fining them for this, I still believe in our right to freedom of speech. Cities that have these laws are wrong, think of it this way in one of these cities someone can call you every nasty discussing name, put you down and scream at you and they are just exercising their right but if they miss gender you they can be arrested. It is wrong but we have certain freedoms in this country and I am not willing to take someone’s rights away as I don’t want anyone to take my rights away. My opinion only for what it is worth.

We had a nice dinner and then sat and talked till after 9 as we usually do. These Wednesday night dinners are so much fun and go by so fast. It was about 9:30 when we called it a night and we all left. It really was a fun night and now I got to drive Julie home so for us the night was not over. We were able to talk some more on the ride back to her house. I really enjoy this as soon she will head south for warmer weather for the winter and I will not get to see her as often and that will be sad. It was just before 10 when I dropped her off at her house and headed for home myself. What a wonderful night.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life. I am also going to take a week off in early November as I have some vacation time to use. Not sure what I will do but I know some of it will be Susan time.

October 6, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

A Saturday night dinner out with friends at Irving Street Kitchen

It is Saturday and normally I go to the Escape which is fun and I get to hang out with friends but tonight we are doing a dinner with just a couple of us. Now we have talked about maybe doing a Saturday night dinner once a month or so but that can take a little more effort as on a weekend you really need to make reservations so you need an accurate head count. Any way ate last Wednesday night dinner we talked about it a little, well Julie and I as Melissa was not able to make it this weekend so Julie and I decided to go have dinner and try someplace new, I let Julie pick as she knows more about places to eat. Now I had texted Cassandra to try to get her to come out to Wednesday dinner as it has been a while since she has been out but she couldn’t make it but she did say she might try for Saturday so I dangled the carrot in front of her that Julie and I were going to go out for dinner thinking that might give her the extra push to try to get out.

Friday night Julie texted me we had reservations at 7:15 at Irving Street Kitchen which to be honest I had never heard of, again the reason I let Julie pick. I texted her back to see what tie I should pick her up just assuming we would ride together and also mentioned I had tried to talk Cassandra into going. Well it turns out Julie had also texted Cassandra and she was going so she made reservations for 3. It was going to be an awesome knight out and like any woman I was already going through my mind as what dress I would wear and how I wanted to look. It really is so funny as when I go out as my male self, there really is little thought put onto what I wear but that is not true for Susan. I actually went through 3 dresses and finally settled on my red and black one. Now with that picked out I knew how I wanted to do my makeup. Yes, for the most part my makeup is the same other than lipstick shade and subtle changes in eyeshadow and blending of it, I kind of have my look. The main thing is instead of the bright red lipstick I love I went for a darker red more of a brick red but a very nice shade.

I was on my way to Julie’s a few minutes before 6, I did get a couple selfies in the car just in case I forget to get pictures later. Again, it is funny as when I first started going out everyone had their cameras and we all took so many pictures. Now I don’t even think about it. I think it is because Susan is such a normal part of my life and who I am. Now the funny story as the weather was bad today, we had a couple thunder storms go through. While I was getting ready, I could hear the thunder and see the flashes of lightning and hear the rain pounding on the roof and a couple times my lights flickered. Well it turns out both Julie and Cassandra lost power, Cassandra for just a little while but Julie had to get ready and do most of her makeup with flashlights and a small mirror Infront of the window. Julie’s power came on abut 10 minutes before I got there so she was able to finish up and double check everything with lights on. It was almost 6:30 when we left for dinner.

We got downtown and we were wondering about parking as this part of town is busy and it is a weekend night but luck was with us as we parked right across the street from the front door. We walked in and Julie checked on our reservation as we were about 15 minutes early so we sat at the bar and waited for Cassandra. Cassandra showed up about 5 minutes later and it was great to see her again, I really do have wonderful friends and Julie and Cassandra are probably my best friends. We have done things together both as our female selves and also our male selves. They really know the most about who I am in all sides of my life, I never would have thought this possible 10 years ago. Now Irving street kitchen is a nice place, looks like it was built in an old warehouse very open but very nice inside. It is a cool place to go.

We were shown to our table and our waitress was awesome as really everyone here. We looked over the menu to see what we wanted. now the menu is a little limited and it is higher priced than we normally go to so not sure it would be good for the whole group. Any way they had several things that talking to our waitress she said could be more of a family style well enough to share so that is what we did, we got their beef ribs which was a lot of food and a few side dishes to share and we really had more food then we could eat. We had a wonderful dinner and even got in a conversation with a couple next to us, they were visiting from Austin Texas. Julie talked with the wife for a while and Cassandra and I talked with the husband. It really was fun.

Again, the night went by so fast and soon it was 9:30. I just can’t believe how fast time goes when I am Susan. we paid or bills yes, the waitress split it up and let each of us put a 1/3 on our credit cards which was nice as I don’t carry cash very often. Now it was time to say goodbye and leave but as Julie and I rode together our night was not over yet. We got back to Julie’s a little after 10 and she said she had some ice cream inside if I wanted to come in and as it was Saturday night and I love ice cream and I got to spend more time with Julie how could I say no. we went inside and Julie dished up some ice cream and we just sat and talked. It didn’t seem like that long but tie did get way from us as before we knew it, it was mid night. wow the night went so fast. I thanked Julie for the ice cream and it was time to leave, it was a late night. it was after 12:30 when I got home and after 1 am by the time I was cleaned up and in bed but what a wonderful evening we had. And yes, I forgot about getting pictures so the selfies I took was all I had. I really wish we had got a picture of the 3 of us at the restaurant. I really hope we can do this again.

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October 1, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Le Bistro Montage

It is Wednesday and that can only mean one thing, Wednesday night dinner and tonight we are going to Le Bistro Montage, last time was back in June. We have gone here a few times before and it is really good food and atmosphere and wonderful service but than our group seems to get good service every where we go. Now it can be a rush on Wednesday as I get home so late but today I was able to sneak out early so I got home a little before 4:30 which was nice as it gave me more time to get ready and enjoy it but also I would have time to pick Julie up if she wanted to ride with me which I figured she would as it is way more fun to go together and have someone to talk with on the ride. I texted her to see and I was right so I told her I would pick her up between 6 & 6:15. It really is not that much out of my way and as I said way more fun. Now again 12 years ago I would never have thought about this as I wouldn’t let anyone know anything about me really including what kind of car I drove. But things have changed and I am way more open with my friends and some of them are my best friends and I love and trust them so much.

I started getting ready right after I texted Julie. I can’t explain the feeling I get as I slowly transform into Susan, there is just something so relaxing and therapeutic about doing my makeup and becoming Susan. I have a hole different outlook on life as if all the things in my male life just go away. I really love that feeling and for a few hours nothing else matters and that is a wonderful feeling. I am not saying you have to dress up or become someone else but find something in your life that you can feel this way about. I was ready a little after 5:30 and on my way. Now as I said it is not really out of my way at least by distance but it does ad a little more time but that is okay as I so look forward to the time I get to spend with Julie and my friends. I got to Julies a little after 6 and Julie was just finishing getting ready so it was perfect timing. We talked for a couple of minutes before we were on our way to dinner, two girlfriends out for dinner with more friends. Now we had 9 or 10 say they would be here tonight but things come up and this week was bad as we were down to just 4 of us now. We got there about 6:40 and parked about a block away and walked over together and Melissa had just got there so we went in.

They were not busy at least not yet so we were shown to a table, now what is cool is they have some smaller tables that seat 8 to 10 bit they also have a couple big tables that seat 20 or more and that is where they put most people so we were at one long table with people either side of us, they did leave a seat or two between people but it is a nice dinning experience as you kind of feel you are part of a bigger group. Now as we waited for Jeanie to show up, I got a couple pictures including this one with Julie that just turned out so cute. Jeanie showed up just a couple minutes after 7 so we were all there. Now I do like it when we can get a big group out but it is also nice when there are small groups as it is easier for everyone to be involved in the same conversation. Melissa and Julie sat across from Jeanie and myself so it was very easy to talk with everyone.

Our waiter came to take our order and I did think about something different but in the end, I had the same thing I do every time I have come here their chicken fried steak which is really good. Now about 7:30 people started coming in and it got a little busy which is nice as I really like to be out with other people as I think, hope they can see we are really no different other then how we present ourselves. We were just 4 friends out for dinner.

Our food came and it was awesome, Melissa also ordered the same thing she had last time she was here. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and just a delightful evening of friendship. Now it was time for desert and I was so looking forward to their Oreo cheesecake but they did not have it tonight instead they had a praline cheesecake with cinnamon so I ordered that and everyone helped me eat it. It was really good but I still like the Oreo Cheesecake better and I hoe they get that back by the next time we come here. It really is amazing how fast the night went and soon it was 9:30 and yes dark outside as Fall is here and the days are shorter. It is funny as years ago I loved the fall and winter as it got dark early, yes back then Susan would not leave her house till it was dark outside. Now I will go out anytime so I really like the summer better. We all paid our bills and it was time to go our separate way. We said our goodbyes at the door and Julie and I walked back to my car. Julie and I got a little more time together as I drove back to her place to drop her off. It was such a fun night. it was about 10 when I dropped her off and headed for home and the end of my Susan time. It really is sad when I get home and have to go back to my male self.

Now I do get people who read that and think I am talking about transitioning and no that is not what I mean as I am happy with and need both sides of me, male and female to be complete. What I mean is it is like when you come back from Vacation. You hate that it is over but you know it can’t go on forever. You go back to your regular life and look forward to your next vacation, it is kind of like that. I know that Susan will be out again and soon as I try to get out 2 to 3 times a week as I really do need that special Susan time. It is both sides that make me the complete person I am.

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September 29, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner and going to Southland Whiskey Kitchen

It is Wednesday night and we are doing dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen which is really a nice place and has great food, even though I have the same thing when we go there. Now I have never mentioned this but they are known for their selection of Whiskey. Now I don’t drink so this really means nothing to me and I couldn’t tell the difference between the lowest priced or the highest priced but on Wednesday nights they do a ½ priced on all Whiskey $12 or higher so if you are a Whiskey drinker, Wednesday nights are the night to go. Now only Melissa and Barb posted they would be there so it could be a small group tonight.

Now I got home a little after 5 and I started getting ready and I rushed it as I wanted to be on my way by 6 or shortly after, I figured it would only take about a half hour to get there but parking in this area is not good and it can take some time to find a place to park. It took me just under an hour to get ready and I was on my way a little after 6 and going into Portland there is no traffic so I got there by 6:30 so I had time to look for parking. Now where I normally go, I watched 4 cars in front of me turn that way so I decided to go straight and that was the right choice as there were 3 parking spots right on 23rd a block past the Whiskey Kitchen and right Infront of the parking pay station so now walking. I was going to be early which is okay. Now I didn’t think of taking a selfie before getting out of the car and that means there would be no pictures tonight as I usually don’t think about it once I meet up with my friends.

I walked the block and went inside to get a table and of course they all remembered me and asked how many we would have. I told them 3 for sure but maybe a couple extra yes, I was hoping. They got us a table right up front for 6 and told me if more showed up, they would figure it out which was nice. Now as I said we have come here many times and always treated wonderful; the last time was a little over a month ago and the waitress we had that night who we have had several times before came over and talked to me, her name is Elaine and she is wonderful. Now it turns out we were not sitting in her section so we had a young man as our waiter and he was also awesome but it was a let down not to have Elaine although she did stop by out table several times to talk to us and also said goodbye on her way out after her shift. Anyway, a little before 7 Melissa and her wife showed up and a few minutes later Barb so we had 4 of us tonight.

We ordered dinner and yes, I got the same thing I always do as it is just so good. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation which is always a recipe for a wonderful night. as always it went way to fast and you can tell it is getting to the end of summer as by the time, we left it was dark out but it was still somewhat warm out but I know the cold weather is coming. We left and I walked the block to my car and went home. it was a little after 10 when I got home, but it was a great night out with friends.

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September 22, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Old Town Pizza

It is once again Wednesday and that means going out to dinner with my friends and tonight, we are going to Old Town Pizza downtown Portland. We have gone here many times over the last few years and always treated well and good food. Now I got home late, 5:45 so it would be a rush to get ready and be there by 7 so I the way home I decided what I would wear and how I would do my makeup, actually my makeup really is the same with maybe which color lipstick I wear. I got ready as quickly as I could and was out the door at 6:30 and there was a little traffic so I got there right at 7 and found a parking spot right in front of the door. As I got out of my car Jennifer walked up so we walked in together.

Melissa and Patty were already there and shortly after I got there Barb and Kris showed up, barb is back from here vacation and we were all looking forward to hearing about it. Dawnie and Aril also showed up, I think this is their second time out with the group so we had 8 of us here tonight. We are getting good turnouts for our Wednesday night dinners which is good. We talked for a while before we went up and ordered some food. Several of us ordered pizza to share so there was more then enough food to go around. I of course got my Canadian Bacon and Pineapple which is my favorite pizza.

Now I was between Jennifer and Patty with Melissa and Barb across from me so these were the ones I got to talk to the most although I did manage to talk with Kris, Dawnie and April some. I even got my Selfie for the night. Our food came and we all sat and ate pizza, (a few of the girls had Salads also) and talked and just had a wonderful time. The Wednesday night dinners really are a wonderful event as we get to talk and get to know each other better. I think that is why we are getting such a good turnout for them.

After we finished eating, we just sat and talked it really was a nice evening out made all the more special by my friends. I had got a text from Julie earlier wishing us a fun time, she is out of town for a few weeks and we all missed her tonight. It was probably 9:40 when we called it a night, it is amazing how fast these nights go. It was a little after 10 when I got home.

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September 7, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Mothers Bistro

It is Wednesday and our group is doing dinner tonight at Mothers Bistro, we have gone here many times and it is always wonderful. Normally we get a big turnout the last few times it was 10 or more but tonight only 4 of us responded so it looks like a small group tonight. Might be the weather as it is in the 90’s today and it can be hard for us in the heat as we all need more makeup then the average lady plus some of us have padding on to get the right curves, it is hard and takes work to be female. Now I did manage to slide out of work early which is nice as it gives me time to enjoy getting ready and also, I will have enough time to pick Julie up. Normally I get hoe between 5:30 and 5:45 and sense it takes me about a half hour to get back downtown Portland it is normally a rush but I was home tonight by 4:20. I texted Julie to see if she wanted a ride, I was pretty sure she would as it is just way more fun to go together plus it gives us a chance to talk on the way there and home. I was ready and on y way to Julies a little after 5:30 and got to here house a little after 6.

Julie had left the door open for me so I went in and she was just finishing up getting ready. We had both chosen to wear light summer dresses as it is over 90 right now. I really do need to go and get some more summer dresses and some casual dresses more that I could wear during the day. Melissa has some really cute but casual dresses she wears and looks awesome in; I think she got them at Old Navy so I will have to go there and look. It was about 6:15 when we were on our way and going into Portland there was no traffic so it didn’t take long. I found a parking spot right on the corner in front. We went in and Melissa was already there so we went and got a table, well booth and waited for Nicole to arrive. Now the staff here is awesome but really everywhere we go, we seem to get treated really well. Our waitress came and took our drink orders. Just about that time Nicole came in so we were all there. Of course, I had to get my selfie for my blog.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered. These Wednesday night dinners are really a great social event and gives us a chance to talk and get to know each other better or catch up on what is new in our lives. It really is no different then what other people do when they go out. I really can’t explain why it is so much fun as the whole time I am out I am not thinking about how I am dressed. It really is just friends going out for dinner.

Our waitress brought our drinks and we all ordered dinner and yes, I had my normal meal, Chicken fried Chicken. It really is good. Melissa and Julie also ordered their normal dinners also. Soon our dinners came and we had a nice dinner as the 4 of us sat and talked, it really was a fun and enjoyable evening and of course the food was awesome. Now Nicole was also out Saturday night at the Escape with me but it was still nice to get to see her again. When she was down earlier in the summer her older daughter came with her and I had told her daughter I would sing Karaoke with her the next time she came down so on Saturday night I had told Nicole about my singing the last couple weeks with other people and that I was ready to sing with her daughter and she texted her the song I wanted to do, I’ve had the time of my life, so her daughter texted her back she would practice for when she comes down next so at some point I will be singing with her daughter.

We finished dinner and sat and talked and of course more pictures were taken, Melissa took a selfie and it was awesome, she looked so good in the picture but then she always looks good as did Nicole and Julie. Really, we all put effort into looking our best and although I know we don’t pass I think we do a good job trying to present ourselves like ladies and that is what it is all about. I am sure we got a few looks from people but no one stared or pointed at us or said anything and to me that is passing. I did get a picture with Julie; wish I had got one with Nicole and Melissa and maybe a group picture. Wil have to work on remembering that next time.

Julie ordered a desert and I am trying to be good so I didn’t although I know I will have a few bites of Julies as the desserts here are on the big side. We sat and kept talking and soon it was after 9:30, it is amazing how fast the time goes when I am out with my friends. Our waitress came with our bills all split out, as I said our waitress was awesome. She told us her name but as usual I forgot as I am bad with names and it is 4 days later, I am writing this blog. I really do need to get back to writing my blog the next day.

We all left and said our goodbyes out front before we went our separate ways well not Julie and I as we rode together. It is a way to keep the evening going a little longer as Julie and I kept talking on the drive back to her house. We got to her house a little after 10 and I dropped her off. The next couple weeks Julie won’t be out as she need to go south and get her other house ready for the winter and then she will be back for a little while before her and Trixie head south for the winter. They like to go someplace warm for the winter, it will be sad when that happens as I won’t get to see her every week but I am sure she will come up every once in a while, and in the spring just as the flowers come back so will they.

I dropped her off and drove home. it was a wonderful night made even more special by spending it with my friends. When I first started going out it was all about being out as Susan now it really is about spending time with my wonderful friends. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 1, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night BBQ

Okay I am once again more than a week behind in posting my blogs so back in time we go. On August 14th Julie had a BBQ at her house and she invited about 20 girls over for the BBQ, what a wonderful thing to do. Now one of the nicer things was she invited some of our new members and the spouses so they could meet other spouses. We actually have a lot of members who are married or in relationships with women. I would say over half of those showing up came with a significant other. Now we will test my memory of who was there, the one bad thing about waiting so long to write my blog. Julie and Trixie of course as they hosted it. Peggy and Cassandra as Peggy helped, Kimberly. Kris, Karren, Joan, Mellissa and her wife, Patty and her girlfriend, Danika and her wife, Jennifer and her wife, Veronica, Jennie, myself and I am sure I am missing 1 or 2 as I am pretty sure we had 20 there.

Now I rushed to get there and it turns out I was one of the first ones to arrive which was nice as I got to talk with Peggy for a while. I met Peggy back in the fall of 2008 and she is so nice. She is so supportive of Cassandra and really all of us t-girls in the group. Now I don’t want to sound like I am playing favorites because all of my friends in the group are awesome and such a big part of my life but Peggy, Cassandra and Julie are really my best friends on both sides of who I am. They know both sides of me and we have done things together both as female and our male selves and that is something years ago, I would never have thought possible. I would have never thought I would tell people about both sides of me. There are a few other girls who have met my male side also.

Well with traffic it took a little while for everyone to arrive but we had a nice time visiting while we waited and of course there were all kinds of snack, Julie and Trixie really went over board on food and drinks. Julie was the grill goddess as she grilled all the steaks for everyone and did a fabulous job. Soon we were all seated at the table to eat. Now it was one long table so now you could only really talk with those around you. I got to sit between Peggy and Julie and Cassandra, Jennie and Veronica were across from me so that was really my little group I got to talk with. It was a lot of fun. Now of course I took some pictures of the group and of course I had to get a couple with our hostess Julie. It was such a fun time and went buy way to fast.

It was almost 10 when we had finished eating dinner, desert and talking and girls started to leave. We all carried some things inside but Julie would have a lot of cleanup after. We all asked if we could help but Julie said she would take care of it tomorrow. It really is so wonderful of Julie to host such an awesome event, thanks so much Julie, and Trixie and Peggy for helping. To open your home like this takes a special person.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what I am up to now.

August 24, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday dinner at Southland whisky kitchen

It is Wednesday and that means going out to dinner with my friends which I so look forward to. now we are going to Southland Whisky kitchen where we have gone many times before. They have wonderful food and reasonable prices probably $15 to $25 depending on what you have. Now I got off early this week so I was home by 4:30 so I had time to get ready and even time to pick Julie up so I texted her to see if she wanted to ride with me, I was pretty sure she would say yes. I started getting ready and doing my makeup, I really enjoy my time doing my makeup as I slowly see the transformation and Susan start to appear. It really is a wonderful feeling. Now Julie texted me back and accepted my offer so I told her I would pick her up about 6:15. I was all ready and on my way. I got to her house at 6:12 and went in. she had just finished getting ready and so we were on our way. Now I expected a little more traffic but there was none and we got downtown by 6:35. Now parking in this area can be hard but I lucked out as the street right past Southland Whisky kitchen I decided to turn right and there was a spot a half block up. I think this is the first time I have not had to drive around looking for a spot.

Julie and I walked over and went in, they weren’t really busy but it took a few minutes to get a table big enough for us as we had 8 of us confirm we would be here tonight. We are getting a good turnout on our Wednesday night dinners lately usually 6 to 10. About the time our table was ready Melissa walked in so we went and sat down. Kris showed up right after we sat down. Now I had to get my nightly selfie of course. We ordered some drinks and waited for the rest to show up and we didn’t have to wait long. Patty and her girlfriend showed up followed by Jennifer and her wife. Now we had sat at one end of the table and left the other end for them as Jenifer’s wife wanted to talk to Patty’s girlfriend. They are both supportive but I think they wanted to talk and see how each are dealing with it as it is a different dynamic to a relationship. Now my dressing is just part of who I am and makes me who I am and we always think it shouldn’t matter but then again if I walked in on a lady I was seeing and she had on a short hair wig and a fake beard and mustache it would catch me off guard. Part of my being Susan is dressing and presenting as I do is what I find attractive in woman. A woman with nice makeup, hair, nails and in a dress and heels is perfect. Now that being said I would support them but I would be different so I can understand it and I think it is awesome of them making it work.

Now our waitress was awesome, she has waited on us before when we were here, her name is Evelyn and she is wonderful. She took our orders and then we all talked as we waited for our food. These dinners are really great as we all get to sit and talk which for some reason as Susan I enjoy. My male self is not big on just sitting around and talking, I feel I need to be doing something. I also think as Susan the reason I like talking more is I don’t feel like I am hiding things. Now I know I am not completely honest about everything in my life as Susan to everyone but on my male life I feel I am hiding half of who I am and that can make it hard to talk to people and open up. The girls in the group all understand that as they have gone through it also.

Now I had to get a picture with Julie tonight as I always forget and the picture just turned so cute with us, we both look so awesome. Our food came and as always it was wonderful, I have tried several things and they are all good but my favorite is their pulled pork and BBQ chicken thigh and for a side dish their cheddar au gratin potatoes are awesome. We all sat and talked as we ate and had a wonderful time.

After dinner we sat for a while, a coupe of the girls ordered dessert, I was good and didn’t as I am really trying to cut sugar out of my diet, yes, I still drink pop but I am avoiding as much as I can. Julie got an ice cream dessert and it looked good; well it was good as I did have 2 bites but that was all, Evelyn our wonderful waitress brought our bills and she split them up for us which is always nice. It was almost 10 when we called it a night. it really was a wonderful night out with my friend, my t-girl family.

Julie and I walked back to my car; I still can’t get over how easily I walk down the street as Susan now. The drive home was nice as Julie and I talked more. It really is way more fun to go out with someone and Julie is just so wonderful to spend time with. It is funny as when I first started going out it was all about being out as Susan and in a way it still is, the reason I go to Starbucks for nights like tonight it really was all about being out with my friends, where we go or what we do is not that important, it is being out with my sisters.

I dropped Julie off and drove the rest of the way home as my night came to an end but it was a wonderful night out and I look forward to when I can go out with my friends again.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

August 10, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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