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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Friday and my vacation as Susan end’s early

Okay it is Saturday morning as I write my blog from Friday. Now my plans for Friday was simple I had some things I needed to do in the morning as my male self. Well I could have probably done them as Susan but I wanted some male time in the morning as I have said Susan although she is a big part of who I am maybe the biggest part my male part is still there and part of who I am and I need that too. Plus, I did want to do some things as my male self with my pretty nails. Now in years past I have gone out as my male self with nails but I always kept them in my pockets unless there was something, I had to do like pay for something. This week I did go out for a few hours on Monday and try to keep my nails visible and I really got no reaction so today I wanted to test it again. My goal was to be up by 5 and on my way. Find a Starbucks till 7 when a few of the stores I wanted to go to open. I need some things from Lowes which opens at 6 and also Fred Meyers which opens at 7 and is almost right across the street. Maybe get breakfast someplace and then maybe a little more shopping and try to be home by 11am to get ready as Susan with the hope of being out by 12 or 1 pm at the latest. I figured I could stay out till 9 or 10 pm tonight and that would give me 9 to 10 hours as Susan. the only thing I had not decided was my nails. Do I get them off tonight which would mean going to the nail salon around 6 pm and then finishing up the evening without nails or do it Saturday morning which because of things I need to do would almost for sure mean going in as my male self to get them removed which would be interesting but I have time to decide that. Now I do have some training I need to do this weekend on my computer, several hours I need done by Monday so that will mean I can actually do a lot of time at Starbuck if I want.

Well I actually got up a little before 5 and as my male self it is quick to get ready, 15 minutes at most so I was out the door just a little after 5 so I googled Starbuck’s near where I wanted to go that open before 6. There were a couple and one I have gone to before several times as Susan that is only 5 minutes away from Lowe’s and Fred Meyers so I figured that would be perfect. I got there about 5:15 and went in and even though they have a drive through there were about 10 people sitting inside. I went to the counter to order and it was all woman, 5 young ladies working here this morning I ordered my drink and payed and even when my drink was done, I reached out and took it from the one ladies’ hand. I did everything I could to make my nails as visible as possible and not one word was said. I know they saw them but it leaves me with the question. Did they just not care and thing it was no big deal for a male to have pretty, long red nails or did they not know what to say and were afraid if they said something I might be offended.

I sat down at a small table with 2 to my right and on to my left which had a young man at it. There was barely enough room between the tables for me to get through. Across from me was a table with 4 men at it and it looked like they were doing a Bible study and a few more along the window working on their computers and no one seemed to pay me any attention and my nails were clearly visible especially when took a drink, I focused on my work. About 5:30 2 state patrol officers came in and got a drink and then sat down at the big table next to the men doing the Bible study and a few minutes later more showed up. in all 7 State Patrol officers came in I guess for their morning break. Also, a young lady sat down at the table to my right still only about 2 feet away. No one seemed to care or even notice I had bright red nails. So, I got up and asked the lady next to me if she would watch my computer while I used the restroom being very sure she could see my nails. She said yes and went right back to what she was doing. I little before 6 2 young men cam in and just sat down at the end table. Turns out they were employees that started at 6. Now Lowe’s opens at 6 but I will only need about 20 minutes there so my plan was to get there about 6:45 get what I need and then over to Fred Meyers as it would be after 7 plus I still had about 30 minutes or so in the trading I was doing, they are all about an hour long. Well the two young men started working and the first thing they did was go around and clean tables and as they came by mine, they asked if they could clear my garbage off my table yes, I also had a muffin this morning so I said yes. As they cleared things 1 of them said he loved my nails, wow my first compliment on my nails as my male self. I thanked him and just said I love having them and at that point the other one said they really were nice. It was about 6:40 when I finished what I was doing and I left for Lowes.

I got to Lowe’s right on plan and went in. I looked around a little but what I needed was fertilizer, weed killer and moss killer for both my yard and drive way you know all the things you need to get your yard ready for the winter. Again, no comments on my nails even from the man at the checkout. I went over to Fred Meyers and went in and it turns out they have a big Starbucks just inside the main door. I went to the men’s section as I need some clothes mainly seat shirts for the winter as most of my shirts are short sleeves. Now they had a lot but almost all had hoods which I don’t want and the few that didn’t have hoods have logos on which by the way I find funny as you get one with a logo on so you are basically giving the company free advertising but you also pay more because it has their name on it. Well I just wanted a plain sweatshirt and couldn’t find one so I will have to keep looking. I did do some grocery shopping while I was here but nothing refrigerated as it will be a while before I get home again, I went through the checkout and the lady said nothing about my nails. It was about 7:45 when I left and took my groceries out to my car and put them in the trunk. I saw my computer and thought the Starbucks here is big, has a lot of people in it and as it is in a store it is really bright so I grabbed my computer and went back in to do another training session.

The lady at the counter who took my order said nothing about my nails. I got a small table by the front and by a lot of people. No one paid any attention to me. It was just about 8 when I started my next session and I just focused on it and didn’t look around I guess maybe a man having long nails is not that big a thing. It was just after 9 and I was almost done with this session when my phone rang and as I looked at it. It was from my Mom’s doctor’s office so I figured it was the results from the test I dropped off Monday so I answered it. Well it turns out some of the results came back bad and they had the place my mom is redo the test and they wanted to see my Mom right away. Now my Mom knew I was on Vacation this week and I had told her I was doing day trips and wouldn’t get back till late in the evenings but I did call and check on her every day, how I got away with having nails all week. Well I asked shat was wrong and it could be serious and, in my mind, I am thinking I have long acrylic nails which I can’t get off quick what am I going to do, I was so glad I didn’t do Susan this morning. It will take me about 15 minutes to get to where my mom is and another 30 minutes to get her to the doctor’s office so I told him the earliest I could get her there was about an hour maybe a little after 10 am. That is when I got lucky as he said the Doctor has an opening at 11:30 and I told him we would be there. I called my Mom to tell her about the appointment and also to check up on her.

In my mind I am figuring out time schedules, we would have to leave her place no later than 11 and it was now 9:15. I had less then 2 hours to figure out what to do about my nails. I googled nail salons near me as time was important and I believe most nail salons open at 10. Well if you ever google nail salons they are pretty much every place and it turns out there is one here at Fred Meyers just on the outside around the corner from where I am and they open at 9:30 it is called Julie’s Nails and spa. Now even though it does say spa they are about the same price ass other nails salons but at this point I really wasn’t worried about the cost, they were close, their web page said they remove acrylics and most important they open in a few minutes, plus their web page said grand opening so I figured they were new and wouldn’t be busy and I could get in fast as a walk in if I got there right when they opened. I walked my computer out to my car and walked around the corner of the building and there they were as it was just a little after 9:30 they were open I walked in and I was the first one there. Now this looks more like a spa as it has the pedicure chairs along the left wall a reception desk as you walk in the front door but instead of little tables for doing nails it is one big half circle table almost like a bar that you sit at and all done in nice dark hard wood flooring. It really is elegant inside.

The lady at the desk introduced herself as Julie the owner and asked if she could help me. I said yes, I wanted to get my nails removed and I showed her my nails. She said of course but why they are so pretty. Now I could have made up a story but I just told the truths well mostly. I told her I got them for my vacation and I needed them removed before I go back to work. She called one of the girls out and they showed me to a seat. The lady doing my nails was named Kim and she also was really nice and also asked me why I was getting them removed as they looked so nice. I told her the same thing my work place is just not ready for a man with long, pretty red acrylic nails. She told me it was $15 to take them off or $26 if I wanted a manicure also. Now I had looked at their web page so I know whew the prices and what they offer so I told her I know from previous times getting acrylic your nails are week and as I already have week nails, I wanted a gel manicure as that would strengthen my nails. She smiled and said of course that would be $36 and I said fine but I wanted them to look as natural as possible. She brought over the nail’s withy the colors on them and pointed out a few of the ones that are natural and on the nail samples they really did look natural and I thought about it but I had one chance. If I picked one and it was too noticeable, I would not have time to change so I just told her clear. Now a few more girls came out as they had about 8 people working here at this time of the morning including 1 man. Most of the woman came over and looked at my nails before Kim started and told me how lovely they looked and why I didn’t keep them which I really wanted to.

Kim started and this salon has little air filtered vacuums that go under your hands to help keep the dust down when the file and grind your nails which is nice. Kim started on my nails and the first nail was the hardest as I watched her grind off the red and then it was on to the next nail. Once the color was off, she shortened them all up and then continued to slowly grind them down. She got one hand down to where most of the acrylic was off and then had me put my hand in a bag with acetone to soak the rest off. This was a nice surprise as usually when I have had them removed, they just grind down to your natural nail and this takes more of your natural nail off or worse they pry the nail off which really damages the nail. She did a wonderful job removing my nails and you really couldn’t see any damaged to the nail or even tell I had acrylic nails. Now being their grand opening, I figured they would not be busy but that was not the case. By 10 there were 6 other women in here getting their nails done, wow 10 in the morning and there were 7 of us including me. Well I was talking with Kim and although it was their grand opening, Julie had just bought this salon 3 months ago and renamed it so there has actually been a salon her for years.

With that done she did my manicure trimming my cuticles. Now it was time for the Gel polish and Kim asked again if I was sure I just wanted clear and not a color. All the nail samples were still next to me and they all looked so pretty but I stayed strong and jokingly told her I would have kept the long red nails is I wanted color but I just can’t go to work with color so yes let’s go with the clear. She put a few coats of clear on and my nails look wonderful although they are the shortest, they have been since I removed them after Diva Las Vegas. I will say this is the best experience I have had with getting acrylics removed and the nails look wonderful and there was no additional damage done to my nails taking them off. I would highly recommend Julie’s nails and spa if you want to remove acrylics or any nail service. And all the staff here was wonderful and told me to come back anytime and that was as my male self. I paid the $36 on my credit card and gave Kim a $10 tip as she was wonderful and other then being shiny my nails look natural. It was 10:45 when I left here and headed to pick my mom up.

I got my Mom to her appointment and it turns out to be an infection that medicine will take care of so nothing serious which is good but it really got me thinking. Had I gone out as Susan today I would not have had time to get rid of the nails and also change back to being male. Of course, I would have chosen being my male self and keeping the nails as showing up at my mom’s as Susan without the nails would be pointless but this is a concern as it was last year with my dad.

This is one of my longest blogs I think and if you read the whole thing thank you.

Please be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is am doing now.

November 9, 2019 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday and some early Susan time

Well it is Thursday and I had a wonderful time yesterday at the Oregon Coast with my friends. It was a full day of Susan. today I have things I have to do later in the afternoon and so I wanted to start my day early to get as much Susan time as possible. My goal was to do what I did Monday Morning as my male self. I got up at 5 am yes 5 am to start getting ready. Today I am wearing my leggings and my maroon sweater top that looks really cute although as it is tighter, I need a better figure then I really have so that means wearing my corset. Now with my long nails it was a little harder to lace it up the back and it put me a little behind but I have a figure that looks great. My goal was to be out the door by 6 which I didn’t make as it was about 6:15 when I left. My first stop was IHOP at Cascade station for breakfast. I went here on Monday as my male self with my acrylic nails and wondered if they would recognize me. Now with traffic I got there a little after 7 and went in. they were not busy maybe 10 other people spread around. The lady came and showed me to a table and was really nice but I didn’t see either of the two ladies that were here on Monday. I ordered the same thing I had Monday and waited for my food. I had a nice breakfast and then left a little before 8 and drove down the street to the Starbuck’s. I have gone to this one many times as Susan but again on Monday I was here as my male self for a couple hours.

I parked and went in and they were busy but there was one table by the door so I set my computer on it and went and stood in line. now looking at the workers at least 4 of them were here on Monday including the young lady who would take my order. I chatted with her as she took my order but I don’t think she recognized me after all this Starbucks is really busy and as my male self, I really didn’t stand out from any one else other then for my nails. Now I had to wait for my drink and again they had 3 people making drinks and 2 of them were here on Monday. The lady who called my name for my drink was also the one who made my drink on Monday and the same thing I don’t think she knew either like I say they are really busy. I went and sat down at my table which has 4 chairs and was next to the big table I was at on Monday. It is amazing how busy this Starbucks is on a week day morning. All the tables were full inside yes, I had a man ask if he could sit at my table and I said yes and most of the tables outside were full. Again, a nice day out sunny but mid 50’s so a little cool but that didn’t stop people from sitting outside. Most of the time there was 10 or more n line to order and probably just as many waiting for their drinks. It is a good place to people watch.

Well the first thing I did was write my blog from yesterdays trip to the Oregon Coast, we had a wonderful day and got lots of pictures so be sure and check out my blog from yesterday. I stayed here a couple hours taking care of some work I also needed to do on my computer and as it was busy people would come and go and I had a few more people ask if they could share my table and none of them seemed the least bit bothered by me or even curious as they never said a thing although a few times we did talk mostly about how busy it was here. It was a little after 10 when I left as I wanted to do a little shopping. I actually like Cascade station for shopping as they have a nice mix of stores and today with the weather it was perfect as it is an outside mall. I went over and parked by Staples and went in and looked around, I like looking at computer stuff after all my current laptop is at least 5 years old and my desktop even older so at some point I will need to get a newer one but right now they both work well.

I left Staples and walked next door to ULTA and looked around, I did pick up some face powder as I am almost out but it was fun to look at all the different makeup. From here I went next door to Nordstrom’s Rack and looked around. A lot of girls say this is a great place to shop but as much as I like it, I don’t think I have ever found something in my size I liked, but I would have to go back through all my blogs to find out for sure. From here it was down to DSW to look at shoes. Didn’t find anything here either so it was next door to Ross Dress for Less, I really like this one and have found a lot of things here but not today. I found 2 really cute dresses but they were just too small for me. From here I walked all the way to the end to best Buy and looked around checking out all their electronics. When I was done here, I had to walk all the way back down to my car just like all the other people here shopping.

I left Cascade station and it was about 12:30 so I drove down to COSTCO as I needed to pick some things up. Of course, COSTCO is busy anytime you go there. Now what is cool is I have a Susan COSCO card. I joined a couple years ago and I saw that you could have a card for another person at your address but the drawback was they had to show ID. Well about a month after I joined, I went in one night as Susan and talked to them and explained about being transgender and I live part of my life this way. Well they gave me a card with Susan’s name and picture on it and listed her and my domestic partner. So, I looked around for a little while and then went and got what I needed, shampoo, conditioner and dove bar soap. On the way out I stopped and got a hotdog and drink, $1.50 you can’t go wrong. And I sat down at the tables with all the other people and ate it. On my way out I also got some gas for my car. It was about 1:45 when I left here and headed back closer to home.

Now at 6 I have some online training I have to do and yes this is more like a chat room, it has video so I will have to be my male self so I figure I have to be home no later then 5:30 at the latest so I can clean up and remove all traces of Susan well accept for the nails of course. I will have to make sure I keep my hands on the keyboard and not reach up and scratch my face. Well I thought about what I could do so I decided to go to Starbuck’s for till about 4 then go get something to eat and be sure and be home by 5. Being a nice day, I thought it would be nice to sit outside so I wanted to find a Starbuck’s that faces the west as I might be chilly if you are not in the sunshine so I decided to go to the Starbucks by Vancouver mall. I went to this one before and it also has no drive through so it can get busy. I got there a little after 2 but they had no outside tables so I went ahead and went inside. I got a table right in front of the window as they were busy but the biggest group was at the big long table, it seats 16 and there was only 1 open chair and it was filled with men that were probably all in their late 60’s or older. I guess this is where all the retired men come. I got my drink and sat down and started on this blog. Again, it was a steady stream of people coming in to get drinks but most left.

It was a little after 4 when I left to go get something to eat, now I wasn’t really hungry but I needed something. I stopped at Panda Express and got something to eat. I was right on time as I got home right at 5 so I had an hour to clean up. by the way I was ready to be done as I have worn my corset for 11 hours and although it is really pretty comfortable 11 hours is a long time. Tomorrow is Friday and I have most of the day to be Susan, some things I have to do in the morning but I am hoping to be able to go out by 10 or 11 as Susan. I am not sure what I will do but the big decision is my nails. I either have to get them removed tomorrow night or if I wait and do it on Saturday morning but would probably have to go as my male self. I have to be someplace at noon and it will take me almost an hour to get there and the nail salons don’t open till 10 so I would not have time to go as Susan and then get home and change before I go. In a way it does sound fun to go in as my male self and see what they think. Well I will make that decision tomorrow afternoon.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing next.

November 7, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Tuesday, Susan day out and lunch with Mikaela

It is Tuesday and I pretty much have the whole day today which is awesome. I am meeting Mikaela for lunch at the Olive Garden in Clackamas at 11. Now last night when I went to bed, I had my day planned out. Get up early 6:30 am and work out, get ready by 9 am and go to Clackamas promenade and look around till I meet Mikaela for lunch at 11 am then after lunch across the street to Clackamas town center for more shopping before heading back towards home and finishing up at Starbucks in the late afternoon and evening. Well it was a good plan and I did most of it. My alarm went off and I thought I hit the snooze but woke up at 7:30 so I worked out but didn’t start getting ready till after 8:30 so it was right about 10 when I left home and depending on traffic, I probably wouldn’t have much time before I met Mikaela. I got to Clackamas about 10:30 so not a lot of time, but I need have one pressing need. The bad thing about working out right before I got ready is a drank a lot of water afterwards and you can figure the rest out. I had about 20 minutes so I went to Clackamas town center and went into Barns and Noble to look around, it is a book store and a great place to go if you have time to kill as you can browse the books and read a little and of course they have a rest room. It was about 10:50 when I left and drove across the street to meet Mikaela. Now there were almost no cars at Olive Garden so I parked almost right in front of the doors. Mikaela got there about the same time as she was standing by my door when I got out of my car. Now she was working in the area so she was in boy mode but still able to meet me for lunch. It was great to see her again. We seem to get together about once a year, I think the last time was February 2018 when Mikaela, Melissa and I met for some shopping. Well the reason there was no cars as they don’t open till 11 so we stood there at the door with a couple other people for a few minutes till they opened. It really was wonderful to see her again.

We were seated at our table and our waitress was awesome her name was Christina. We ordered lunch and sat and talked and had a wonderful time. I really do like getting together like this as it really gives you a chance to talk. I found out what was new in her life and she found out what was going on in my life it was just so much fun and went by so fast. We talked a lot about being Trans and what it means at least to us. We are a lot alike but there are differences as she is transitioning and I am not but we look at life the same way. It is so wonderful to be able to be different and yet the same and respect each other for who we are. I say this in hopes some of my friends on both the left and right can realize this also works in politics. We don’t have to agree on everything or vote for the same person but we do need to respect each other’s right to believe in what they do and vote the way they feel is right. That is how our system is designed to work, we need to quit this attacking of others who vote different then us. Opps got a little political but it is important as I love all my friends even if they vote different then I do. Before we knew it, it was 12:40 we had been there talking for almost 2 hours. Well Mikaela had to get back to work as she had an appointment at 1. It was sad to see it come to an end but I will see her again hopefully not as long between. We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways, her back to work and me over to Clackamas Town center for a little shopping.

I parked outside JC Pennies and went in as I wanted to look at their dresses as they usually have some good sales, the problem is finding them in my size. I looked around for a while and then went out into the mall. I stopped at one of the mall directories to see what stores were here and where I wanted to go when a young man came up to me and started talking to me. I am not sure what he wanted or if he knew I was trans, he is from Pakistan and just came to our country and was looking for a job and friend. He started by asking where around here he could go to meet people and I really didn’t have an answer other then a bar. He seemed nice so we talked a little more and then he asked about me and if I was single or seeing anyone. I told him I was single and he asked if I was looking for someone which really at this point, I am not. My life is so busy and with Susan it is complicated for a relationship. We talked a little more, he was 27 and has a girlfriend back home but is looking for someone here and he said I was very pretty. Now I am not the least bit interested in men but I will admit it gives your ergo a bust to be hit on by someone half your age. Now I don’t know how much of what he said was true but it still made me feel good. I told him I had to get going and wished him luck finding a job but I probably talked with him for 15 or 20 minutes.

I walked around the mall and stopped in a lot of stores looking around really not looking for anything special it is more about just being out as any other woman. Of course, no trip to the mall as Susan would be complete without stopping in Victoria’s Secret, this is probably the best part of being a woman. The clothing options for woman are just so much better than for a man, men’s clothing really is boring. I spent a couple hours it so it was a little after 3 when I left and head back home or actually the Starbucks by my house. It took about an hour with traffic as it was rush hour, okay rush hour traffic is slow and lanes come to a stop and then go and I have to say it doesn’t matter what lane you pick it is slow. I say this as I see people switching back and forth thinking they are going to go faster when all they are doing is cutting people off and possible causing an accident. I saw one guy switching lanes so many times all to try to go faster and he almost hit a couple cars and I point this out because I got tired of him passing me. Yes, he actually passed me 6 different times and, in the end, he was 2 cars behind me when we got across the bridge.

I have some work I need to do this afternoon but I can do it from my computer, well actually Susan can do it from my computer. 30 years ago, I couldn’t imagine leaving my house as Susan, 20 years ago it was late night drive, 10 years ago it was going out late at night to a LGBT club and now I am sitting in a busy Starbucks doing my work. I really wish I could have been going out like this 30 years ago. I spent a couple hours doing my work and then started on this blog from today. I can’t tell you how wonderful it is to type with my pretty nails and see them on the key board. I am not looking forward to the end of the week when I have to remove them. I either have to go Friday evening to get them removed or I could go first thing Saturday morning but if I do that it would have to be as my male self most likely. I stayed here till a little after 7 before leaving. I stopped by burger king and got something to take home.

Tomorrow I will Meet Cassandra at her house at 11am and we will go to the coast for a few hours. I am really looking forward to it as I have missed seeing her as she doesn’t get out much anymore.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

November 5, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Monday blog my day out both as male and female with acrylic nails

I got up early and worked out as I want to get back into that. It was about 6am and I did have to do something as my male self after 9 so I couldn’t dress till then but I wanted to see what would happen if people saw my pretty nails as a male so I went to Cascade station by the airport and decided to stop at IHOP for breakfast. They weren’t busy at that time of the morning. Now I am sure both the waitress who took my order and the one who brought it saw my nails as I was not trying to hide them and they said nothing. I am thinking of going back here later in the week as Susan for breakfast now. From there I went to the Starbucks and did some work I have been putting off on my computer. Now I got to the Starbucks a little after 7 and they were not busy at all maybe 6 people all on computers so the only table by a plug in was the big corner table that sits 6 so that was where I put my computer and went and ordered a hot chocolate. Now about 7:30 it was like the flood gates opened and people started coming in. this Starbucks does not have a drive through and for a while the line was never less then 10 people. And soon all the tables were full and I had a few other people ask if they could share my table which I said yes of course. There was a lady next to me with her son, a man next to her doing some kind of work and then a lady on my other side reading a book. Again, my nails were plainly visible and they didn’t seem to pay any attention and never said a word. I sat here till about 10 and it never got slow, several other people came and shared my table and again not one said a thing about my nails. if you go to this Starbucks get there before 7:30. Now it was time to take care of what I had to do. My mom had gone to the Doctors office for some lab work on Saturday and I had to drop off one of them at the lab today. I went in and stood in line hiding my hands now. When it was my turn I went up and told the lady I was dropping off for my mom, she asked me her name and date of birth and when she looked down to put it in the computer, I quickly put it up on the counter. I don’t think she saw my nails and now I was on my way home to get ready as Susan.

It was about 1 when I was all ready and on my way. Now I really have no plans this week other then going to the coast on Wednesday with Cassandra. So, I decided to go put flowers on my Dads grave. Whenever I have gone by myself it is always as Susan the daughter he never met. I stopped at the Fred Meyer’s on Johnson Creak to pick up the flowers, of course I got a quick selfie in the car. Yes, I am wearing an older wig that I cleaned up last night, I think it looks better then the dark hair on me, I think I just look better in lighter color hair. I walked in and went to the flower section and picked out some flowers, now this is right across from the cosmetic section and they have it set up like a store within the store as there is one way in and out and they have a cashier there. I have seen a lot of stores doing this now as I guess to much was getting stolen. Well as I was walking past to go to the checkout by the doors the lady said she could ring me up if I wanted so I said sure and went over. She was very nice and the first thing she said was how much she loved my nails which made me feel good as it was my first compliment on my nails today. I walked to the door where the self-checkout is and as I walked through, I showed the lady my receipt she thanked me and also complimented me on my nails.

From here I went to the cemetery and put the flowers on my Dads grave. I always wonder what he would have thought about this side of my life. I think he would have accepted it and been proud of me. I spent about 20 minutes here and before I left, I got a couple more selfies. Now I had to figure out what I would do so I figured I could stop at Cascade Station and do a little shopping as this would get me closer to hoe so I wouldn’t have as much traffic. I got there and my first stop was of course Ross Dress for Less. I went in and looked at dresses and they had a cute grey sweater dress and I thought it would look great with my black leggings or tights so I bought it, only $14.99. I really do like Ross as you can get some good deals there. I also made a quick stop at Nordstrom’s Rack, and ULTA and even went into Staples and Best buy to look around. Really wasn’t looking for anything but it was just about being out. It was almost 4 now so I left and drove over to a Starbucks I have gone to on Mill Plain in Vancouver. It is a smaller one with a drive though so I usually is not busy and they have plugs for almost every table so you can plug in your computer. I went in and there was one man on his computer at one table and 2 women at another sitting and talking and that was it. Well first things first I had to use the little girls room actually Starbucks is good as their rest rooms are single use gender neutral. I cam out and there were two woman that had just ordered and were standing back just a little out of sight so I went up to order and as I got to the counter I could see them better and one of them I use to work with, what are the odds? well I kind of had my back to her so I went ahead and ordered and again the lady taking my order complimented me on my nails. I went over and set up my computer at the corner table and then went back up to wait for my drink. Well they called her name and she walked right by me to get it and I just looked the other way. Now to my horror they went and sat at the next table to where I set up my computer. Luckily, she sat on the same side of the table as what I had my computer set up for.

Now what do I do it would look funny to pick up my computer and leave so I went over and slid in with my back to her and sat down. Now it has been about 6 years since I have worked with her but it was wired to be sitting next to her. I was glad I wore this hair as I does hang down and hides most of my face from the side but again as like last night these tables are close and I could hear their conversation if I listened. Now they only stayed about 20 minutes or so but it seemed longer. as they got up to leave her friend told me she loved my nails and wished she could have them but with where they work now, they can’t. I thanked her and di kind of look up but the lady I knew didn’t seem to be looking at me. I sat here and worked on my blog from today. Now I did get a lot of compliments on my nails but only when I was Susan so I am thinking maybe people don’t know what to say or are afraid to say anything about a man with pretty red acrylic nails. I stayed here till about 6:30 before I left to go get something to eat. I stopped at Subway on my way home and got a sandwich. It has been a long day but so much fun.

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November 4, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Sunday and the start of my vacation kind of

Well it is Sunday and I am on vacation for the week kind of. I do have some things I need to do around here so I couldn’t go anyplace but I will have a lot of Susan time this week, I hope. I am hoping I can have a little Susan time each day at least which brings me to my nails. Now my plan was to go to the nail salon and get a manicure and polish for the week. There are a few things I have to do that painted nails will be a little hard but I so want to get my nails done. Now the last several weeks I have been growing out my nails and using OPI nail envy which is a wonderful hardener and it works well as I have week nails. Well last week I broke 3 nails but really only lost a little length but they still look good but that got me thinking about getting acrylics and I said I would make up my mind today. Well actually I made it up yesterday as I broke yet 2 more nails and one was bad and with that, I called the nails salon and set up an appointment for Sunday at 4 to get a full set of acrylic nails. In a way this is good as I won’t be able to take the polish off when I am not Susan kind of forcing me to do things with the nails.

Now I have no real plans this week as I said there will be times, I won’t be able to be Susan and I will have to figure out that as I go. I would like to go to the coast one day as Susan, I did that once before and had fun. Now I was thinking it was last year but it turns out it was over 3 years ago, October of 2016 when I went to the beach, Wow didn’t think it was that long ago. I am sure there will be some shopping also this week. Well I have time to figure out what I will do so back to today. I made my appointment at Natural nails as I have gone there a couple times for a pedicure. I really thought about going back to Dream nails as I really like them but thought I should go there for a manicure first instead of acrylics as I went there for over a year with short acrylics and am afraid if I went and got acrylics there they would expect me to keep them and at this point not planning on doing that.

Well I stared getting ready about 2:30 so I could take my time. I have said it many times but I really enjoy the whole getting ready and transforming myself to Susan, there is just something so calming and peaceful about it. I was all ready by 3:45 and got to the nail salon a little before 4 and went in after taking a quick selfie in the car. I went in and they were really busy, 6 people getting pedicures including a husband and wife and 5 getting nails done. The man at the first table told me to pick a color and have a seat at the last back table, only one open. I picked a red gel polish and sat down. It was only a few minutes and a young lady sat down to do my nails. She asked what I wanted so I showed her the picture of the French fade from my last blog and said this is what I was looking for. She replied a coffin shape and I said yes. I wanted to show her a picture as a coffin shape can be very slight or very dramatic and I wanted a more subtle coffin shape. When I got them done for Diva Las Vegas this year they a little pointier than I wanted although I liked them but wanted them not as pointy this time.

She started working on them, now I have come here a few times for pedicures and they really don’t talk much to any of their customers, they play really relaxing music and it is pretty quiet but she did talk to me a little, it was a really relaxing experience and she did a wonderful job. It took a little over an hour and I enjoyed every minute of it, I really think getting your nails done is one of the simple joys in life that most men will never experience. Now they are just a little shorter than I planned on getting but they look awesome and I am happy with them. It was about 5:20 when I left with my beautiful nails. I can already tell I will hate it at the end of the week when I have to get them removed.

My next stop was Starbucks as I wanted to write about today while it was still fresh in my mind, I got there and they were once again packed. Other then seats at the counter there was on small table by the front that was open. There are 5 tables in this area and they are about 2 feet apart so you are really close to the people round you so its s kind of fun. I went and ordered a hot chocolate as it is a little cold out tonight. The lady at the counter remembered me by name and that always makes me feel good. She even complimented me on how I looked. With my drink ordered I went and sat down and got out my computer and set it up before I went up to see if my drink was ready but before I could here come the lady who waited on me with my drink. Now as I said these tabled are so close, I could hear the conversation of the man and woman to my left if I listened and the lady to my right I could see what she was doing on her computer if I looked and I am sure they could look over and see what I was doing on my computer if they wanted to but everyone just went on with their own business and we didn’t pay any attention to each other although I wondered if they noticed my nails as I am kind of proud of them. I really do wish that men could have nails like this and no one would care.

I stayed at Starbucks till about 7 then went and got gas, and then to Wendy’s for something to eat before heading home. now I have the whole week off work to spend time as Susan although there are a couple things I have to fit in this week as my male self which will be interesting with my pretty red nails. Also talked with Cassandra and we are going to the coast on Wednesday afternoon and hoping to get a couple other girls to go.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am up to this week and what is new in my life.

November 3, 2019 Posted by | Acrylic nails, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday and some unexpected Susan time

Well it is Sunday and I have been trying to go to Starbucks’s as Susan for a few hours to write my blogs but today I had some things I needed to do at home so that was my plan. I figured I could do a little so I went a head and put on mascara and eye shadow and a little lipstick and then it was to do some stuff around the house. Well as I was cleaning, I came across my corset which I haven’t worn in a while and I figured I would put it on and see how it affected the things was doing. So now I had my corset on and of course now I had to put on a bra. Now I got thinking as the corset is always the last thing I put on as it really does limit what you can do as far as bending over. So, I slowly changed from my male cloths to some Susan clothes and my ankle boots and yes, it is harder than you think in a corset. So, as I went back to what I was doing I was really thinking about Susan. now I have seen videos of woman who do their eye makeup first and then their foundation and the rest of their makeup and I have never tried that and as I stood there Infront of the mirror I was almost ready to go out as Susan so I decided to see if I could do my make up without messing up my eye makeup or lipstick so the challenge was on. Of course, first had to shave and bending over with the corset on was not easy. Well to my surprise I was able to do the rest of my make up and the only issue was a little on my lipstick but tat was an easy fix with just a little more lipstick. So yes, you can do your eye makeup first. So now I was all ready and looked good and suddenly doing the things around my house didn’t seem as important. It was Starbucks time, I will go early and come home earlier and finish what I started.

I grabbed my purse and computer off the couch and off I went to Starbucks. It was only 2:30 so a lot earlier than I normally go and I wondered how busy they would be. Now I was about half way there when I thought about that and looked at my computer in my bag next to me and realized I had it at the escape last night and never recharged it and I don’t take my power cord to the Escape because there is no place really to plug it in. so I turned around and went back home to get it. I backed into my drive and parked and got out and went in through my front door. I didn’t see any of my neighbors and I would be quick and besides as much as I come and go, I figure most have seen me or at least this woman driving my car. I got my power cord and walked out the front door and across the street one house to the left the lady there was also walking out to her car. She looked at me and waved and I just waved back. Now I really don’t know her as she keeps to herself as do I and it was a way off so I am thinking if she doesn’t already know she at this distance it wouldn’t make a difference.

I got to Starbucks and went in and it was packed. All the tables along the windows were taken, the one big long table was full and all of the small tables were taken as was the front counter and the back counter there was only 2 seats available. I literally had my choice of two seats. Believe it or not there was even a couple sitting at a table outside. This is the busiest I have ever seen it so I put my computer on the back counter by the door and went and stood in line to get my drink and as I did I kind of looked around and counted the people. There were 53 people in here. I got my drink and got my computer going and yes the first thing I noticed was my battery was at 16% so it could be a short day here as the only places to plug in your computer is the front counter or the 3 tables along the window or maybe the big chairs in the corner. I had to hope someone would leave.

I worked on my blog from Saturday night and kept watching my battery go down. I got the warning at 10% and it was still just as crowded. I was down to 5% and that is normally when my computer shuts down and today was no different. My screen went black. I was really looking around now and the two young girls at the table by the window looked like they were getting ready to leave so I pulled out my cell phone and used that, I figured I could kill a few minutes and see if they were leaving. It was about 5 minutes and they got up and left. Normally I wait a little before I change tables but as crowded as it was, I didn’t want to miss my chance so as they were going out the door I grabbed my purse and drink and move it over to that table and then my computer and plugged it in. and it was just in time as I had no more then moved over and another lady came in with a computer, looked around and took the seat I had just been in.

I finished my blog and got it posted and it pretty much stayed busy till about 4:30 when people started to leave well two big groups. There was a group of 9 at the big long table and 10 at 3 of the small tables they had pulled together. I spent a little time catching up on more e-mails, I still have a few girls I wanted to reach out to and see how they are doing. Now I took a selfie in my car before going inside and I took a couple inside. I don’t know what the lighting is in Starbucks but I have never gotten a picture inside a Starbucks that looked good. I held the phone at the same angle, and same distance. Ii am also looking forward to some vacation time, I have the first week of November off although I do have things both weekends, I have to do so really it is just Monday through Friday but there will be some Susan time. I don’t think I will get acrylic nails for that but I am really thinking about getting a manicure and some red polish. I have been taking care of my nails and using a nail hardener on them and they look really nice right now. About an 1/8 of an inch and if I can go two more weeks without shortening them, they should look really nice with polish.

I stayed here till about 5:30 before going and getting gas for my car and then getting something to eat. Stopped at Subway and got something to take home. it was only a few hours out as Susan but it was so relaxing.

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October 21, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday Susan time and a much-needed pedicure.

It is Sunday and I get to have a little Susan time and the first thing I need is a pedicure. The polish on my toes are chipping off pretty bad and they look bad of course this time of year I don’t show them off but I see them and that is bad enough. Now I know it has been awhile so I looked back through my blog to see when I got my last pedicure and it was July 14th 3 months ago. I started getting ready early so I could get out early. I was ready by 3:15 and now I had a decision to make. Where do I go to get my pedicure? Now the last couple times I went to Natural nails and they are nice and do a great job but very quiet and they really don’t talk to you, and it just not me I have noticed it is very quiet in there. The other option is Dream nails where I was going. I went there almost every 2 to 3 weeks for over 2 years and it really is a wonderful place and all the girls knew me and talked to me. I really want to go back to Dream nails but wonder what they would think as it has been about 15 months since I was there last and I would not be going as often as I use to. well in the end I called Natural nails and made an appointment for 3:30.

I got there right at 3:30 and went in and they were ready for me. Now usually when I go to the nail salon most are getting pedicures bit not today. There were 5 women in their all getting fills on their nails and I was the only one there for a pedicure. I picked out a really pretty red and sat down. Now today I had a young man do my pedicure, this salon is actually owned by a man and there are a couple of them working here. Now I have had men do my nails before and they really do, do a good job. Now getting a pedicure is just so wonderful and relaxing it really is one of life’s simple pleasures. I got the Tropical deluxe with lavender cream. It took about an hour. Now 2 other ladies came in and they both wanted nail fills, I was almost done when a couple ladies came in to get pedicures. Now with my toes paint I just had to wait a little for them to dry before I left, of course I had to get a quick picture, such a pretty color.

I left the salon about 4:45 with my beautiful toes and headed for Starbucks. I got to Starbucks and they were not busy at all so I had my choice of parking spots right in front of the door. There were only 4 people in there so I set my computer on a table by the window and went up to order my drink. The young man at the counter remembered me from last week by name which made me feel good. I ordered my drink and I broke down and also got a cookie. Now we talked for a few minutes and he asked me about my day so I told him I had just come from getting a pedicure. He said that sounded wonderful and he should get one. I told them they really are wonderful and he asked where I went so, I told him about both places depending on if he wanted really quiet and relaxing or a little more conversation. I got my drink and sat down at my table and started on my blog from last night at the Escape. I also got a selfie in the car.

I spent about 2 hours here doing my blog, catching up on e-mails and just surfing the internet. It is one of the great things about the internet as you can take your computer any place and have something to do and even get work done and for me that means I can go and be Susan. It was almost 7 when I left and once again as I was leaving the young man wished me a good night by name. Starbucks really does have wonderful employees. I have gone to so many different ones over the years and in every one I have been treated wonderful. I stopped picked up a hamburger from Jack in the box on my way home since I didn’t have one last night. It was a relaxing fun day and my toes look awesome.

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October 15, 2019 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A nice fall Sunday and some Susan time at Starbucks.

Now today was a beautiful fall day, clear skies and upper 60’s and yes I wanted some Susan time but I also had things I had to do around home to get ready for the winter one of which was my yard so I wasn’t sure I would get my Susan time. I went out to do my yard work and I really pushed it in hopes of Susan time. It was about 3 when I finished and came in dirty, and hot and so I needed a shower and I figured as long as I had to get cleaned up, I might as went get made up and go to Starbucks. It was about 4:20 when I was all cleaned up and looking pretty so off to Starbucks, I went to have some Susan time and get caught up on my blogs as I am behind on two of them. Starbucks wasn’t really busy as I think most people are out enjoying the weather. I got my drink and set up my computer and wrote my blog from last Wednesday night dinner at Rock Bottom.

Now before I started my Saturday blog I had a lot of e-mails to catch up on, a few girls I know are going to be in Portland this week and also next week and were wondering about getting together with our group so I sent them e-mails as I am sure we will do a Wednesday night dinner both weeks. I have known both for several years and they are both wonderful people and I always look forward to seeing them. One I only know from Diva Las Vegs and she couldn’t make it last year the other her and her wife comes to Portland every so often and it is always great to get together with them. As I said I have made some wonderful friends as Susan. It really is hard to believe how wonderful of a life I have with Susan in it.

Well I got through all my e-mails and that took some time. I also reached out to the girl I was hoping would make it last night as I really hope she can make it out and I really want to help her. years ago, I had a few people who really helped me when I was first going out. They showed me so much support and kindness and I don’t think I would have made it out without them. I could never repay them for their kindness but I hope by helping others I am in some way repaying them.

With all that done it was time to write my blog from Last night at the Escape. I got that one all done but will wait till tomorrow to post. I have a lot of people who get my blog by e-mail and I don’t want them to get them to close together as I don’t want them to feel I am spamming them. So, with that blog done and save on my computer for posting tomorrow now I have time to just relax and surf the internet and do a little people watching. As I said it is not real busy but there are people coming and going and it is funny as some people come in to get drinks to go even though they have a drive through although the drive through is really busy so it may be faster. Also, I think people order drinks online for pickup and they have to come in to get those also.

I stayed here till 7:30 and even started on my blog for today at Starbucks so I could get a head and hopefully have them all posted in a timely manner. As I left the young man who served me when I got here wished me a good night by name and that always makes you feel good. It was a relaxing few hours and just what I needed. I probably should have gone and got a pedicure as I need one. My last one was back in July and my nails are starting to look bad and getting pretty long. I stopped and got gas on my way home and then also stopped at Subway to get something to eat. It was almost closing time so I got it to go. The young lady who helped men commented on my perfume and how nice it smelled. It was wonderful outing all the way around.

I got home a little after 8., thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 8, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and a little Susan time at Starbucks

Okay it is Sunday and even though I am getting a later start I am going to go to Starbucks for a while and get caught up on my blogs which I am so far behind on. Now if you read my blog about Saturdays dinner out with Julie and Cassandra, I mentioned the weather and although I didn’t loose power in the heavy rain, I noticed that my gutters were over flowing so Sunday that was my project and I finished cleaning my gutters about 3:30 so I figured I could still get cleaned up and be to Starbucks before 5 and still have 3 hours or so to catch up on my blogs. I had my blog from last Wednesday night’s dinner and last nights dinner out plus I figured I could get a start on todays blog at Starbucks and see if I can get them all posted by tomorrow. I actually got to Starbucks a little after 4:30 so will have a little more time. I did get a selfie in the car again.

I got something to drink and sat down at a table along the window. There was a young girl at the next table, well young to me I am guessing early 20’s and I noticed her looking at me a few times and finally she spoke up and told me how nice I looked and that she loved my boots. Of course, this made my day as how doesn’t love getting compliments. I thanked her and we chatted briefly before she went back to what she was doing, looked like school work and I went back to my blog. I finished my blog from Wednesday nights dinner and posted it and then caught up on some e-mails before starting to work on my blog from inner last night at Irving Street Kitchen. As I was sitting there, I was thinking about what to do for dinner and I remembered I brought home left overs from dinner last night as Julie and Cassandra didn’t want them so I decided that is what I will have for dinner. None of us are big on left overs and I know for me if I don’t wat them tonight, I will never eat them. So that is the plan. Of course, that means I won’t stay here as late as I don’t want to get home and eat them at 9 so I decided I would only stay here till 7 but that still gives me 2 ½ hours here at Starbucks and that is fine. I remember the first times I would go to Starbucks I would drive across town so I wouldn’t run into anyone. I would spend an hour getting ready, drive 30 minutes and get there about 7:30 and of course they closed at 8:30 so I was there only an hour before driving 30 minutes back home and then the time to clean up and remove all traces of Susan.

I stayed here till 7:30 before leaving before going home and heating up the left overs from last night for dinner. It was a quick but fun and relaxing afternoon out at Starbucks.

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October 5, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A rainy Sunday and some Susan time

It is Sunday and it is a rainy day as I fear more will be as we head into fall and then the winter. What better way to spend the day than as Susan at Starbuck’s writing my blog from last night at the escape, people watching and watching the rain out the window. It was a little after 3 when I got home and transformed myself into Susan, so much fun. I was out the door a little after 4 and got to Starbucks a few minutes later. It really is nice to be going to the one so close to where I live. I do see people I know occasionally but I just keep my head down as I work on my computer and pay them no attention and they don’t notice me. Now I did have to park out away as they once again look busy. I guess everyone had the same thought as me on a rainy day. I got inside and there were a lot of people, about 6 in line to order. There were several small tables in the middle but only one along the window so I put my computer on it and went and stood in line to order. The young lady at the counter remembered me although she couldn’t remember my name and felt bad. I told her my name and said it wasn’t an issue. Now with the weather I went for a hot chocolate today.

I sat down and got my computer out to start my blog from last night, instead of calling my name the young lady brought me my hot chocolate which was so nice. Now with a warm drink I sat doing my blog and watching the rain out the window. Now don’t get me wrong Susan really is a warmer, dryer weather girls but I do enjoy watching the rain and storms out the window if I don’t have to be out in them. I finished my blog and caught up on some e-mails. I looked and found Lauri’s e-mail so I could e-mail as she has missed the last 3 Saturday nights and she is probably the most regular one to show up. The Transgender world is still a pretty private place and a lot of girls don’t share a lot about themselves so it can be hard to check on each other. It was a relaxing afternoon and yes, I did want to do some shopping but being Sunday the 2 places I wanted to go to closed at 6 and I just didn’t want to leave Starbucks that early. Now I did get a couple selfie’s, one in the car and one inside Starbucks. I don’t know if it is the lightening inside (it must be) but I cannot get a good-looking picture inside. Maybe the glare from the windows or the lights they have but I have taken pictures holding the phone the same way, same angle, same distance and not one of the pictures from inside looks good. It is funny as everyone always tells me I never take a bad picture but I can assure you I do, I just don’t post them, the advantage of having a blog, you can control what you post.

Now I was here for a few hours and yes, a couple people I knew came in but I just kept my head down to my computer and didn’t look at them and I don’t think they even noticed me. It really is a relaxing way to pass an afternoon and way more fun then just sitting at home. I left Starbucks a little after 7 so there was no shopping as the places, I wanted to go don’t stay open that late on Sundays so instead I decided to stop at Subway and get something to eat. The one I normally go to is going to close soon as I guess they are just not that busy. Yes, I go to this one both as my male self and Susan, probably the only place both sides of me go. My plan was to eat there but it was 7:20 when I got there and it turns out they close at 7:30 so I got my food to go.

I went home and ate before cleaning up and back to my male self. It was a relaxing afternoon. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner as we are going to Southland Whiskey Kitchen. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am up to now.

September 21, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

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