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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Sunday Susan time and shopping

It is Sunday and as I have not gotten out much this month yet I wanted some more Susan time and I also needed to write my blog from Saturday night at the Escape so I figured a little Starbucks time. I also need to pick some things up at the store so that will also be on my list. it was a little after 3 when I started getting ready and I was out the door and at the Starbuck’s by my house by 4:15. A quick selfie in the car before I went in. They were not busy and I was able to get a table along the window, I like these tables as I can plug my computer in but also it is more in the middle and very visible not like I am hiding in a corner. I put my computer on the table and went and got in line to order my drink. Now the staff here all knows me pretty well as I do come here a lot for my personal Susan time. The young man behind the counter welcomed me back by name before I even ordered or paid so he remembered not only me but my name which makes you feel wonderful. I got my drink and sat down and wrote my blog from Saturday night at the Escape.

It really is a relaxing way to spend a couple hours, just sitting at Starbuck’s as Susan with a drink, sweetened green tea and working on my blog, e-mail or even work. It just feels so perfectly normal and I really don’t even think about how I am dressed other then seeing my nails or the long hair out of the corner of my eye. I am just here as myself and today that is Susan. I stayed here till a little after 6 before I headed for Walmart to do some shopping. It is really nothing for Susan well just everyday things I need and some food so I guess it could be for Susan also depending on when I eat it or use it. It is funny as years ago I would go shopping for Susan’s stuff as my male self. Then I started shopping for Susan as Susan and now I do shopping for my male self as Susan so I guess I have come full circle. I really have grown over the last 10 plus years.

I left Starbucks about 6:30 and went to Walmart to do some shopping, it was fun just walking around just ding my day to day shopping and really didn’t think much about how I was dressed. I got my groceries and left and stopped by Panda Express and got some dinner to go and headed home. it was a short and relaxing time out.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

March 10, 2020 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday Susan time and some shopping

Well it is Thursday and it turns out I have today off as I have to work this weekend so I figured I would get some Susan time in. now there are some things I needed to do and I figured why not do them as Susan. now I need to go to Costco as I am running out of some things so that was on my list as well as a stop at Walmart to get some Susan stuff, makeup, I need some mascara, face powder, lipstick and a few other things. I got up at 7:30 to get ready and take my time preparing for the day. I did my makeup pretty light as I wanted to blend in the best I could although I did do the false eye lashes. I am getting better at them but I need to have time when I do them in case I mess up, at least till I get better. I was ready by 9 am and yes, I think I did my best job on my false eye lashed today. It is only the 3rd of 4th time I have done them but they look great and I really can’t even tell I have them on so I must have got them on right.

The plan today is Costco, Walmart and a visit to the Cemetery to put flowers on my Dads grave. Now this means going down towards the south east side of Portland so I figured I would go to the Costco on Airport way and as it was still before 10, I decided the Walmart I would go to is the one by Troutdale so that was where I headed for first. I got to Walmart and it was still cold out so I wore my coat and went in. Now as I said I needed several things for Susan, some Q-tips, Baby Oil as I am used the last of mine last night to remove my lip stick, I use Maybelline Lip Ink and you have to have baby oil to get it off. So, as I put it on this morning, I knew I had to come home with baby oil today. Also needed some face powder, more of the lip ink as I am just about out of my favorite color, and also some perfume as I am almost out of that. The perfume I like is called Fantasy by Brittny Spears. I originally bought this one because it was pink and cute but I really like the scent. Last was some mascara, I try to replace mine every 6 months at the most as I don’t like putting things that are old that close to my eyes the problem is, I never really run out of mascara as I don’t use it that fast. It was just before 10 when I left here and headed back to Costco.

I got to Costco about 10:15 and went in. I have a Susan Costco card as they let me ad my female self to my account. I grabbed a cart and started shopping. Mostly just stuff I needed for the house, toilet paper, paper towels, laundry soap, fabric softener, batteries, dove bar soap, and I think there were a couple other things I picked up oh and some flowers for the Cemetery. Then it was up to stand in line. now this Costco has a self-checkout and the lines are way shorter there so that is where I went. As busy as they were no one seemed to pay any attention to me. I loaded my stuff in the car and then went to get some gas as long as I was here of course the line for gas took longer then the line in the store. I did get a quick selfie in the car as I waited. After I got gas it was off to the Cemetery.

I got to the Cemetery a little after 11 and there was a big funeral today so lost of traffic so it took me a little while to get to where my Dad is. Now this is where they seemed to be working, there was 5 men in this section prepping a whole, a couple working on replacing the temporary markers with head stones and probably 5 men weeding and trimming the bushes around the edge. They were all at least 30 feet from where I was but I did wonder if they noticed me, I don’t think from that distance they would have figured it out that I was not female. I placed the flowers and stayed there probably 20 minutes. I can’t explain it but I just feel better about going here as Susan even though my Dad never knew about this side of my life.

From the Cemetery I headed back for home, as I got close, I realized it was almost moon so I stopped at Wendy’s for lunch, they were actually pretty busy but mostly woman here, some with children but a couple groups of 4 or 5 woman out for lunch. I got my food and sat where I could watch the news on TV as I ate. Now I have till about 3 today before I have to be home so I still had a few hours so I left and went to the Starbucks I go to near my house. I got there about 12:40 so I still had 2 ½ hours.

I went in and they were pretty busy, I couldn’t get one of the tables along the window as a matter of fact the only table open was in the front corner so that is where I set up my computer to relax and write my blogs and catch up on e-mails and some work. I wrote my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner and started on this blog also while it was fresh in my mind. I stayed here till 3 before heading for home as I have to be someplace by 4 and I need time to get home and wash away all traces of Susan.

It was a really fun and relaxing day and I got a lot of stuff I had to done and the best part I did them as Susan. it is funny as 15 years ago I would go out as my male self to get things for Susan and now I go out as Susan to get things my male self needs. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.


February 28, 2020 Posted by | shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday and a little shopping and dinner at Amaro’s table

Well today is Wednesday and I actually have the whole day to be Susan. my plan was to do a little shopping and I was going to Washington Square. Now I got up today and got ready, taking my time as I plan on being out all day and then going to Dinner tonight. The perfect test for the Setting spray bought yesterday. I have never used one so it will be a good test. My goal was to leave home by 9:30 but I was a little late as at the last minute I decided to wear my corset to give me a good figure, I also decided to wear my darker hair. If I can get my makeup just right, I think it looks good on me. It was about 9:45 when I left home and for some reason it was still like rush hour traffic. I didn’t get to Washington Square till about 10:30. I parked by Nordstrom’s and went in, of course I got a quick selfie. Now Washington Square is smaller than Clackamas Town Center but you don’t realize till you go to one right after the other. I went down to Macy’s and looked at some of their clothes I found a dress I liked but it was too small. I also looked at Shoes here.

I then walked down to JC Penny’s and looked around; they also had a huge closeout section up to 60% off. Also checked out their shoe department but didn’t find anything. I walked through the mall and checked out a few other stores including Victoria’s Secret, I love looking around this store and it was actually one of the busier stores in the mall. I walked through the food court as it was lunch time but I really wasn’t hungry, could be because of the corset I am wearing. So back down to the mall and walked around a little more and then I went into Dick’s Sporting Good. I looked around a little before going back into the mall and back to my car it was a little after 1 when I left and headed for home well at least closer to home. This mall is the farthest from where I live and I have to go on 3 different freeways and all can back up during rush hour so I didn’t want to chance it. It took me about 45 minutes to get back close to home so I decided to go to a Starbucks by Vancouver Mall as I didn’t want to go to the one, I normally go to as I had different hair on today and they have only seen my in one hair style.

It was just about 2 pm when I got to the Starbucks I picked and went in. they were a little busy mostly to go orders as this one does not have a drive through. I got a table by the window and ordered a drink and a cookie. I checked my e-mails and answered some and then just caught up on some news and pretty much just killing some time and people watching. Starbucks is a wonderful place to go for a couple hours and just relax. Now as I said I was people watching and I noticed a man probably in his 40’s on a cell phone waiting for his drink. He had slightly greying hair and a mustache but he also had a beautiful set of acrylic nails and they alternated between green and red and each one had a design on them and they were probably ¼ inch long. Now I know a couple of the girls in our group have acrylic nails, Jan and Kimberly and they are keeping them even in their male modes but the fact this man had a mustache I don’t think he dresses so I found that interesting. He got his drink and was gone. I stayed here till a little after 4 before heading for home to get cleaned up and go meet my friends for dinner. It was about 4:30 when I got home.

Now I thought about taking the corset off but really it is pretty comfortable other than limiting how you move so I decided to keep it on and see how I feel tonight as by the time I get home from dinner I will have had it on for about 12 hours. Now I wanted to change my shoes to heels, put a skirt on and pantyhose instead of the leggings I wore today so that was a little work. It is a lot harder to do these things when you really can’t bend over much and when you bend as much as you can you can’t breathe so it took a little time and effort. Once that was done, I touched up my makeup which held up pretty well, maybe that setting spray does work, Thanks Karen for the tip. Next came my normal hair well at least the one I wear to Starbucks as it was only 5:15 now and I had 2 choices. Sit at home till 6:30 before going to dinner or going to my Starbucks for about an hour and you guess which one won out. it was about 5:300 when I got to Starbucks and went in. I got my table along the window and something to drink and started on my blog from today. I stayed here till 6:30 before heading to meet my friends for dinner.

I got to Amaro’s table about 6:45, parked and went in, Melissa and Karen were already there so I joined them and waited for the others to show up. we had 6 say they would be here tonight. I did get another quick selfie. By the way this is my makeup I put on at 9 am this morning, the only thing I did was a little face powder to cut the shine down. My makeup held up really well. By 7 Kimberly had shown up with her wife and Barb also made it so all 6 of us were here tonight. It was good to see everyone. We talked for a little bit before we ordered dinner. Now our waiter was awesome tonight but every time we have come here the staff has been wonderful. I ordered my normal classic fried chicken which is wonderful.

We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation, we sat and talked for a good 30 minutes after we finished eating. It was a wonderful night. it was about 9:15 when we called it a night. Karen wanted a few pictures so I took a couple of her outside on the side walk and she looked awesome. She also took a few pictures of me. Now Barb has an electric car so she parked over at the PUD to charge her car and walked the 12 blocks to Amaro’s so I gave her a ride back to her car so we could plan tomorrow. Barb and I are going shopping and to lunch. She gave me her address and I am going to pick her up so we can ride together, it will be a fun day. I got home just before 10 so I have worn my corset for over 12 hours and I will admit I was ready to take it off, the last hour was ruff. I think 10 hours is about the max I can wear it comfortably.

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February 5, 2020 Posted by | Dinner out, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Tuesday and some shopping with Karen

Well it is Tuesday and I am going shopping with Karen, as you can tell from my blog I didn’t make it out Sunday to Starbucks but I did go and get a pedicure and manicure at Julie’s Nails. I was in the area as my male self and stopped in. I have only gone here as my male self so they don’t know about Susan and by the time I got done it was after 5 so there wasn’t time to go home and get ready and go out. now back to today. I don’t have the day free till about 5:30 so I was going out to do a little shopping and posted to the group and Karen wanted to go so we planned on meeting at Clackamas Town Center at 10 am for a little shopping and lunch. Traffic was a little more than I thought so I texted Karen I might be late and she was also running a little behind so we were good. Well shortly after I texted her traffic opened up and I got there right before 10 so I parked by JC Pennies and went into Barns & Nobble right next door to kill some time till Keren got there, I did get a selfie to start the day. It was only about 10 minutes and Keren called me and said she was parking also by JC Pennies so I told her I would meet her by their main door.

I got down to meet Karen and we were off on our shopping adventure. It really would be a fun day as I have known Karen for several years but this is our first-time shopping together so being just the two of us it would give us a good chance to talk and really get to know each other. Now being as we were in Pennies we started there as they have a nice discount section. Karen found a couple items she liked and I found 2 dresses a back one and a red one both really pretty but they are size 16 but stretchy. Now I wear between a size 16 & 18 depending on how they size them so we both went in to try our items on. Now both mine have zippers up the back which I try to avoid as well let’s face it I am not as flexible as woman and I can’t do zippers by myself. Now they were a little tight but I was able to get them on and the pull them up high enough I could reach over my shoulder and zip them up little by little, not really graceful or sexy but then I dress at home by myself so no one will see the trouble I have. As I said they are just a little tight but I am working on dropping some weight, I am down 10 LB since December 1st . I decided to buy mines as did Karen, My Dresses were only $28 each which I was happy about. A lot of time I go out and never buy anything as it really is just about being out as Susan.

Well we headed out into the mall and walked down to Nordstrom’s as Karen was looking for some makeup from Clinique, she likes but Nordstrom’s didn’t have it so we headed for Macy’s as they also have a big cosmetic section. Really, we were just having a fun time walking along and talking. On the way we pasted Torrid, Karen had never been in one so I said we had to go in and look. Well we looked around and Karen found the clearance section actually the lady working here pointed it out ass they had just put things in that section on sale, buy 1 get 2 free. Well Karen found a really cute sweater and a coat, not really a winter coat but a nice warm coat but couldn’t find a 3rd item and the sales lady sensing a sale said she could probably work something out. well I was looking at the coat Karen was trying on and it really was cute and heavier than anything I have. Yes, I really don’t have outside Susan stuff so I went and looked and they had one in my size also. Buy the way the reason Torrid is nice is I am a size 1 there. So, I asked Karen if she had found a 3rd item and she said no so I suggested I get the coat so Karen would have 3 items for the sale and I would give her a 1/3rd of the price which she liked. Of course, now Karen and I both have the same coat so we look like twin sisters if we both wear them. Back into the mall and down to Macy’s where Karen found what she was looking for and then on the way out she stopped at the Urban Decay counter to pick up a setting spray. Now I have never used one but talking to the lady there I decided to get one and try it. Mostly my makeup does fine as it is usually for only a few hours but for days like today where I will be out all day or when I go to Diva Las Vegas my makeup does show some wear by the end of the day so this will be something new for me to try. Yes, it is a more expensive day then my normal trips out as I have now bought things at 3 different stores and usually if I buy anything it is just one. Really does feel like a girl’s day out shopping.

It was shortly after 12 now so we decided to go get lunch, we settled on California Pizza and off we went. Now really the mall was not that busy and neither was California Pizza so we got a table right away. I did get another quick selfie here. We ordered lunch, yes, we both had a personal but it came with a salad so all is good. We just sat and talked and had a wonderful lunch. I really do like this going shopping with someone else as it just makes it more fun. Thursday I will go with Barb and Friday with Peggy if everything goes well. We sat here for over an hour before we got back to our shopping. We walked across into DSW to look at shoes. They have sone really cute ones but hard to find in my size. I do want to get another pair of casual sneaker type shoe’s for Diva Las Vegas this year so that will be on my to-do for this week also some casual outfits.

Well we left here and back into the mall, we got down to Macy’s home furnishings and they had some woman’s clothes in the front so we went in to look at them. While in here I took a few pictures of Karen and she got a couple of me which is nice. I can get selfies of my face but you can’t get a full body selfie, you need someone else to take those pictures. Thanks Karen these pictures look great. We spent a little more time walking around the mall just talking before heading for Pennies and the exit to where we had both parked. It was really fun and we walked out together and it turns out Karen parked right opposite my car; we could not have planned it any better. It was a really fun day out with her.

It was only 2:30 and I was able to beet traffic so when I got close to home it was only 3 and I have till 4:30 so I stopped at the Starbucks’s near my home for a warm drink and to right my blog from today. It has been a really wonderful day. I am not sure what I will do tomorrow as I really do have the whole day tomorrow, I will go out to dinner with my friends but I will also have the day free to be Susan.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing now.

February 4, 2020 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday quiet time at Starbucks

Okay it is Sunday and I am gong to get some Susan time at Starbucks. One of my goals for this year is to go out at least 136 times (136 blogs) as that would be my best year 2016 of 135. That means I need to average 11 times per month but more then that I really do enjoy my time at Starbucks. There are things I need to get done on my computer and it is fun to do them as Susan, plus it is just more fun to blog about Susan when I am out as Susan. now with that I am already planning my next vacation. I an taking the first week of February off as I have vacation time I need to use and I have some things I need to take care of mostly around the house. I won’t be able to get my nails done but my hope is to get out a little each day and maybe get a couple of full days in.

Well I have about 3 hours of work I need to do and I do need to write my Blog from last night at the Escape and maybe start this blog so I figure I need 4 to 5 hours at Starbucks. I often wonder what they think when they see me sitting here by myself for that long but I have seen other people here by themselves for long periods of time but I think they are students studding. Well I started getting ready about 2:30 with the hopes of being to Starbucks by 3:30, they close at 8:30 and that would give me 5 hours. I was pretty close as I got to Starbucks about 3:50 and went in. they were a little busy, all the tables along the window were taken, I like them as I can plug my computer in and if I am going to be here almost 5 hours I will need to. well I set my computer on one of the middle tables and went up to order my drink. The girls all said hi and the young man ho waited on me remembered my name and asked me how I have been so chatted with him for a few minutes before I ordered as there was no one in line behind me. Well this worked out great s by the time I got my drink and was walking back to my table the lady at one of the tables by the window left so I just sat my drink on tat table and then went and got my computer and moved it over. Starbucks really is a good place to go and people watch and most people here are busy either working / doing school work, reading or involved in a conversation with someone and really pay no attention to people around them. If you are looking for a place to go this is a great place.

Now to break it up I spent the first hour doing some of my work and then I switched over to write my blog from last night. it is so much more fun doing my blog as Susan as I feel more like I am writing about myself, Susan writing about Susan not my male self, writing about Susan. that may sound strange but it makes total sense to me. Well after I finished my blog I went up and got a hot chocolate and a cookie. Well the young man at the counter got talking to me again and he asked what I do here, if I was working, or just chilling out as he put it. I told him a little of both, I just found it less distraction here as if I was at home, I would have the TV on and he understood that as he does online classes and he knows how easy it is to get distracted. I actually thought about telling him I write my blog here but didn’t. I really think they all think I am full time as I only come here as Susan and for right now I want to keep it that way, I don’t think it would matter or that they would treat mem different but Starbucks is my Susan place and I want to keep that. With my blog done and posted it was back to do some work. I actually do get more done here in a shorter time as there really are less distraction.

It really does bring normalcy to my life as Susan, now I am not saying being Susan is not normal but for years I hid in my room never even imagining I could go out side as Susan. by coming to Starbucks as Susan and doing some work that my male self would normally do and being here where others are doing kind of the same thing it just reinforces the feeling that Susan is more than just something I do on the side for fun, she is a functioning part of my life and actually contributes to who I am. Again, this makes sense to me. Plus, when Susan buys things it is kind of like she earned some of the money she spends. 2 years ago, I started tracking what Susan Spends in Quicken (yes, I use Quickens) and I also put in money she gets as we have gotten a few small checks from the State of Oregon from the law suit back in 2012 with the Pclub. I don’t think what they have collected so far has even kept up with the interest they are charging Chris Penner but I figured I would keep track and if you are wondering my male self is generous as in the last 2 years Susan has spent more money on herself then my male self. Got a little sidetracked there but I really do think being out as Susan and actually doing some of my work has really helped me embrace this side of me.

I finished my work about 7 and tool a little time to start my blog for today at Starbucks of course I will have to finish it later after I get home but I wanted to write what I could as Susan. if I can get most of it written here I can finish it up quickly when I get home and as I will stop for something to eat it will be almost 9 when I get home and as I get up early for work I need to be in bed by 10 or shortly after. I was trying to think when I first went to a Starbucks without going through all my blogs the best guess is the summer of 2009, I made my first trip to Starbucks. Back then I spent an over an hour getting ready, drove 30 minutes to a Starbucks 15 miles away, spent an hour or so there and then 30 minutes home and cleanup time. Now I go to a Starbucks less than a mile from my house, wow how things have changed. Now toward the end a man came in and at first, I thought I saw him take a picture of me so I was kind of watching him. Well it turns out he was taking pictures all over the inside and walking back into the back room and taking notes. I am thinking they might be planning a remodel inside but either way I am sure I am in some of the pictures he took.

It was about 8 when I left Starbucks and I just went home to get something to eat. It was a fun outing. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

January 20, 2020 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and finally a chance for a little Susan time at Starbucks.

It is Sunday and I am going to get a little Susan time at Starbucks. This is one of my goals for this year as I really do enjoy my quiet time at Starbucks, I can go there and do some of my work and also catch up on my blogs and e-mails. Yes, I could sit at home and do it just as easy but it is nice to be out as Susan with other people. It is a place you can go and no one really cares or bothers you as there are a lot of people who go her by themselves with their computers. Well I have a couple hours of work I need to do and to write my blog from last night at the Escape and also catch up on e-mails so I figured I needed about 4 hours. The one I usually go to is open to 8:30 not the closest to my house but less then a mile away. My goal was to get there by 4.

I started getting ready about 2:30 and was on my way and got to Starbucks about 3:45 and went in. They were not super busy about 15 people inside but there was a table along the window where I could plug my computer in which is nice if I am going to be here for a while as my computer is getting old and my battery only last about 2 ½ hours now. I set my computer on the table and went up to order my drink. The young man behind the counter greeted me and asked how my holiday was calling me by name which is nice as it has been a couple months since I have been here. We talked briefly before I ordered, it is just a really good feeling to be treated so nice, really all the people here are great and for that matter I don’t think I have ever been to a Starbucks where I wasn’t treated nice. Maybe that is one of the reasons I like going here. Starbucks was really the first mainstream (non-LGBT) place I went and I think that may be why I like coming here so much. My selfie in the car before going in.

I got my drink and started on my work. Now I have not come out to anyone I work with about this part of my life but it is nice I can actually do some of my work as Susan and that helps make Susan part of my everyday life not just a side note in my life. It really does help make Susan a normal part of my life plus it brings a smile to my face as I wonder what work would think if they knew. Now our group has had a lot of discussion lately about coming out to people and I will give my thoughts on it. For me I look at it this way, I am not transitioning and Susan is just part of who I am and so I don’t feel the need to tell everyone. I figure if I am not going to be Susan at work they don’t need to know. Kind of like I don’t talk golf with my friends who don’t like golf. Now I will admit I have thought about what some of my friends would say and there are a few I have thought about telling but I just don’t see the benefit of telling them and risking a friendship. Now I know what some will say, if they are really your friend, they will accept you but I look at it like politics. I have some very liberal friends and some very conservative friends. I respect their views and as such we don’t talk politics. For me this falls into the same category. That being said this is how I feel and what is right for me it does not mean that everyone hast to feel the same as we are all different. Now if you are transitioning then yes, I feel you should tell others or if you are in a relationship with someone, they have the right to know as your life and theirs intertwine. Now I did not tell any of the women I was in a relationship with but back then I had convinced myself I could stop for the right woman. I know now that is not true so yes if or when I get in m my next relationship Susan will have to come up which is very scary.

Anyway, back to our group, one of our girls who is heading in the way of transitioning had as her goal to come out to her Mother in 2019. Well she worked on it, talked with others, got information from them when they came out. Had all kinds of information, and talking points for all the possible arguments and was working up the courage. Well about 1 ½ weeks before Christmas she went over to her mom’s house to come out to her. she said it was the hardest think she had done. Well she came out to her mom and was ready with all her talking points and what actually happened was her mom told her she loved her and accepted her for who she was. well a week later she did the same thing with her sister and got pretty much the same reaction. So, she posted this in our group and several of the girls have posted back about their experiences coming out. It really did bring out a lot of good discussion and that is great. I really thank her for being so open about her experience. Our group is such a wonderful group and we have members who have fully transitioned and live full time to those who are struggling to take that first step out the door and every place in between and I hope this can help some. I know a lot of girls think they can never make it out and they see others making it look so easy and that may make it harder but trust me we were all there that first time. I wrote a blog several months back about my first attempt to go out and how hard it was for me, actually took me 4 times going out to get out of the car. If you are interested here is the blog of my first timeout. I look back on those nights and now how I travel as Susan to Diva Las Vegas and live as Susan for almost two weeks at a time and it seems those are to different people but they are not.

The best advice I can give is there is nothing wrong with you if you are transgender. It is who you are. Try and find some friends even if just online but if you can find some friends to go out with you have hot the lottery. The friends I have made in our group are my best and closest friends and some I view more as family. They have changed my life in ways I never imagined possible and I would not be the person (lady and man) I am now without them. We are all different but also the same in some ways.

Well I stayed at Starbucks till about 7:30 before leaving and stopping at Burger King drive through for some food before going home. it was a fun few hours and I got a lot done. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new and remember Diva Las Vegas is March 29t to April 4th. If interested sign up for their mailer. Hope to see you there. We will have at least 4 from our Portland group going but I am hopeful we will have closer to 10 or more.

January 6, 2020 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday and my vacation as Susan end’s early

Okay it is Saturday morning as I write my blog from Friday. Now my plans for Friday was simple I had some things I needed to do in the morning as my male self. Well I could have probably done them as Susan but I wanted some male time in the morning as I have said Susan although she is a big part of who I am maybe the biggest part my male part is still there and part of who I am and I need that too. Plus, I did want to do some things as my male self with my pretty nails. Now in years past I have gone out as my male self with nails but I always kept them in my pockets unless there was something, I had to do like pay for something. This week I did go out for a few hours on Monday and try to keep my nails visible and I really got no reaction so today I wanted to test it again. My goal was to be up by 5 and on my way. Find a Starbucks till 7 when a few of the stores I wanted to go to open. I need some things from Lowes which opens at 6 and also Fred Meyers which opens at 7 and is almost right across the street. Maybe get breakfast someplace and then maybe a little more shopping and try to be home by 11am to get ready as Susan with the hope of being out by 12 or 1 pm at the latest. I figured I could stay out till 9 or 10 pm tonight and that would give me 9 to 10 hours as Susan. the only thing I had not decided was my nails. Do I get them off tonight which would mean going to the nail salon around 6 pm and then finishing up the evening without nails or do it Saturday morning which because of things I need to do would almost for sure mean going in as my male self to get them removed which would be interesting but I have time to decide that. Now I do have some training I need to do this weekend on my computer, several hours I need done by Monday so that will mean I can actually do a lot of time at Starbuck if I want.

Well I actually got up a little before 5 and as my male self it is quick to get ready, 15 minutes at most so I was out the door just a little after 5 so I googled Starbuck’s near where I wanted to go that open before 6. There were a couple and one I have gone to before several times as Susan that is only 5 minutes away from Lowe’s and Fred Meyers so I figured that would be perfect. I got there about 5:15 and went in and even though they have a drive through there were about 10 people sitting inside. I went to the counter to order and it was all woman, 5 young ladies working here this morning I ordered my drink and payed and even when my drink was done, I reached out and took it from the one ladies’ hand. I did everything I could to make my nails as visible as possible and not one word was said. I know they saw them but it leaves me with the question. Did they just not care and thing it was no big deal for a male to have pretty, long red nails or did they not know what to say and were afraid if they said something I might be offended.

I sat down at a small table with 2 to my right and on to my left which had a young man at it. There was barely enough room between the tables for me to get through. Across from me was a table with 4 men at it and it looked like they were doing a Bible study and a few more along the window working on their computers and no one seemed to pay me any attention and my nails were clearly visible especially when took a drink, I focused on my work. About 5:30 2 state patrol officers came in and got a drink and then sat down at the big table next to the men doing the Bible study and a few minutes later more showed up. in all 7 State Patrol officers came in I guess for their morning break. Also, a young lady sat down at the table to my right still only about 2 feet away. No one seemed to care or even notice I had bright red nails. So, I got up and asked the lady next to me if she would watch my computer while I used the restroom being very sure she could see my nails. She said yes and went right back to what she was doing. I little before 6 2 young men cam in and just sat down at the end table. Turns out they were employees that started at 6. Now Lowe’s opens at 6 but I will only need about 20 minutes there so my plan was to get there about 6:45 get what I need and then over to Fred Meyers as it would be after 7 plus I still had about 30 minutes or so in the trading I was doing, they are all about an hour long. Well the two young men started working and the first thing they did was go around and clean tables and as they came by mine, they asked if they could clear my garbage off my table yes, I also had a muffin this morning so I said yes. As they cleared things 1 of them said he loved my nails, wow my first compliment on my nails as my male self. I thanked him and just said I love having them and at that point the other one said they really were nice. It was about 6:40 when I finished what I was doing and I left for Lowes.

I got to Lowe’s right on plan and went in. I looked around a little but what I needed was fertilizer, weed killer and moss killer for both my yard and drive way you know all the things you need to get your yard ready for the winter. Again, no comments on my nails even from the man at the checkout. I went over to Fred Meyers and went in and it turns out they have a big Starbucks just inside the main door. I went to the men’s section as I need some clothes mainly seat shirts for the winter as most of my shirts are short sleeves. Now they had a lot but almost all had hoods which I don’t want and the few that didn’t have hoods have logos on which by the way I find funny as you get one with a logo on so you are basically giving the company free advertising but you also pay more because it has their name on it. Well I just wanted a plain sweatshirt and couldn’t find one so I will have to keep looking. I did do some grocery shopping while I was here but nothing refrigerated as it will be a while before I get home again, I went through the checkout and the lady said nothing about my nails. It was about 7:45 when I left and took my groceries out to my car and put them in the trunk. I saw my computer and thought the Starbucks here is big, has a lot of people in it and as it is in a store it is really bright so I grabbed my computer and went back in to do another training session.

The lady at the counter who took my order said nothing about my nails. I got a small table by the front and by a lot of people. No one paid any attention to me. It was just about 8 when I started my next session and I just focused on it and didn’t look around I guess maybe a man having long nails is not that big a thing. It was just after 9 and I was almost done with this session when my phone rang and as I looked at it. It was from my Mom’s doctor’s office so I figured it was the results from the test I dropped off Monday so I answered it. Well it turns out some of the results came back bad and they had the place my mom is redo the test and they wanted to see my Mom right away. Now my Mom knew I was on Vacation this week and I had told her I was doing day trips and wouldn’t get back till late in the evenings but I did call and check on her every day, how I got away with having nails all week. Well I asked shat was wrong and it could be serious and, in my mind, I am thinking I have long acrylic nails which I can’t get off quick what am I going to do, I was so glad I didn’t do Susan this morning. It will take me about 15 minutes to get to where my mom is and another 30 minutes to get her to the doctor’s office so I told him the earliest I could get her there was about an hour maybe a little after 10 am. That is when I got lucky as he said the Doctor has an opening at 11:30 and I told him we would be there. I called my Mom to tell her about the appointment and also to check up on her.

In my mind I am figuring out time schedules, we would have to leave her place no later than 11 and it was now 9:15. I had less then 2 hours to figure out what to do about my nails. I googled nail salons near me as time was important and I believe most nail salons open at 10. Well if you ever google nail salons they are pretty much every place and it turns out there is one here at Fred Meyers just on the outside around the corner from where I am and they open at 9:30 it is called Julie’s Nails and spa. Now even though it does say spa they are about the same price ass other nails salons but at this point I really wasn’t worried about the cost, they were close, their web page said they remove acrylics and most important they open in a few minutes, plus their web page said grand opening so I figured they were new and wouldn’t be busy and I could get in fast as a walk in if I got there right when they opened. I walked my computer out to my car and walked around the corner of the building and there they were as it was just a little after 9:30 they were open I walked in and I was the first one there. Now this looks more like a spa as it has the pedicure chairs along the left wall a reception desk as you walk in the front door but instead of little tables for doing nails it is one big half circle table almost like a bar that you sit at and all done in nice dark hard wood flooring. It really is elegant inside.

The lady at the desk introduced herself as Julie the owner and asked if she could help me. I said yes, I wanted to get my nails removed and I showed her my nails. She said of course but why they are so pretty. Now I could have made up a story but I just told the truths well mostly. I told her I got them for my vacation and I needed them removed before I go back to work. She called one of the girls out and they showed me to a seat. The lady doing my nails was named Kim and she also was really nice and also asked me why I was getting them removed as they looked so nice. I told her the same thing my work place is just not ready for a man with long, pretty red acrylic nails. She told me it was $15 to take them off or $26 if I wanted a manicure also. Now I had looked at their web page so I know whew the prices and what they offer so I told her I know from previous times getting acrylic your nails are week and as I already have week nails, I wanted a gel manicure as that would strengthen my nails. She smiled and said of course that would be $36 and I said fine but I wanted them to look as natural as possible. She brought over the nail’s withy the colors on them and pointed out a few of the ones that are natural and on the nail samples they really did look natural and I thought about it but I had one chance. If I picked one and it was too noticeable, I would not have time to change so I just told her clear. Now a few more girls came out as they had about 8 people working here at this time of the morning including 1 man. Most of the woman came over and looked at my nails before Kim started and told me how lovely they looked and why I didn’t keep them which I really wanted to.

Kim started and this salon has little air filtered vacuums that go under your hands to help keep the dust down when the file and grind your nails which is nice. Kim started on my nails and the first nail was the hardest as I watched her grind off the red and then it was on to the next nail. Once the color was off, she shortened them all up and then continued to slowly grind them down. She got one hand down to where most of the acrylic was off and then had me put my hand in a bag with acetone to soak the rest off. This was a nice surprise as usually when I have had them removed, they just grind down to your natural nail and this takes more of your natural nail off or worse they pry the nail off which really damages the nail. She did a wonderful job removing my nails and you really couldn’t see any damaged to the nail or even tell I had acrylic nails. Now being their grand opening, I figured they would not be busy but that was not the case. By 10 there were 6 other women in here getting their nails done, wow 10 in the morning and there were 7 of us including me. Well I was talking with Kim and although it was their grand opening, Julie had just bought this salon 3 months ago and renamed it so there has actually been a salon her for years.

With that done she did my manicure trimming my cuticles. Now it was time for the Gel polish and Kim asked again if I was sure I just wanted clear and not a color. All the nail samples were still next to me and they all looked so pretty but I stayed strong and jokingly told her I would have kept the long red nails is I wanted color but I just can’t go to work with color so yes let’s go with the clear. She put a few coats of clear on and my nails look wonderful although they are the shortest, they have been since I removed them after Diva Las Vegas. I will say this is the best experience I have had with getting acrylics removed and the nails look wonderful and there was no additional damage done to my nails taking them off. I would highly recommend Julie’s nails and spa if you want to remove acrylics or any nail service. And all the staff here was wonderful and told me to come back anytime and that was as my male self. I paid the $36 on my credit card and gave Kim a $10 tip as she was wonderful and other then being shiny my nails look natural. It was 10:45 when I left here and headed to pick my mom up.

I got my Mom to her appointment and it turns out to be an infection that medicine will take care of so nothing serious which is good but it really got me thinking. Had I gone out as Susan today I would not have had time to get rid of the nails and also change back to being male. Of course, I would have chosen being my male self and keeping the nails as showing up at my mom’s as Susan without the nails would be pointless but this is a concern as it was last year with my dad.

This is one of my longest blogs I think and if you read the whole thing thank you.

Please be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is am doing now.

November 9, 2019 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday and some early Susan time

Well it is Thursday and I had a wonderful time yesterday at the Oregon Coast with my friends. It was a full day of Susan. today I have things I have to do later in the afternoon and so I wanted to start my day early to get as much Susan time as possible. My goal was to do what I did Monday Morning as my male self. I got up at 5 am yes 5 am to start getting ready. Today I am wearing my leggings and my maroon sweater top that looks really cute although as it is tighter, I need a better figure then I really have so that means wearing my corset. Now with my long nails it was a little harder to lace it up the back and it put me a little behind but I have a figure that looks great. My goal was to be out the door by 6 which I didn’t make as it was about 6:15 when I left. My first stop was IHOP at Cascade station for breakfast. I went here on Monday as my male self with my acrylic nails and wondered if they would recognize me. Now with traffic I got there a little after 7 and went in. they were not busy maybe 10 other people spread around. The lady came and showed me to a table and was really nice but I didn’t see either of the two ladies that were here on Monday. I ordered the same thing I had Monday and waited for my food. I had a nice breakfast and then left a little before 8 and drove down the street to the Starbuck’s. I have gone to this one many times as Susan but again on Monday I was here as my male self for a couple hours.

I parked and went in and they were busy but there was one table by the door so I set my computer on it and went and stood in line. now looking at the workers at least 4 of them were here on Monday including the young lady who would take my order. I chatted with her as she took my order but I don’t think she recognized me after all this Starbucks is really busy and as my male self, I really didn’t stand out from any one else other then for my nails. Now I had to wait for my drink and again they had 3 people making drinks and 2 of them were here on Monday. The lady who called my name for my drink was also the one who made my drink on Monday and the same thing I don’t think she knew either like I say they are really busy. I went and sat down at my table which has 4 chairs and was next to the big table I was at on Monday. It is amazing how busy this Starbucks is on a week day morning. All the tables were full inside yes, I had a man ask if he could sit at my table and I said yes and most of the tables outside were full. Again, a nice day out sunny but mid 50’s so a little cool but that didn’t stop people from sitting outside. Most of the time there was 10 or more n line to order and probably just as many waiting for their drinks. It is a good place to people watch.

Well the first thing I did was write my blog from yesterdays trip to the Oregon Coast, we had a wonderful day and got lots of pictures so be sure and check out my blog from yesterday. I stayed here a couple hours taking care of some work I also needed to do on my computer and as it was busy people would come and go and I had a few more people ask if they could share my table and none of them seemed the least bit bothered by me or even curious as they never said a thing although a few times we did talk mostly about how busy it was here. It was a little after 10 when I left as I wanted to do a little shopping. I actually like Cascade station for shopping as they have a nice mix of stores and today with the weather it was perfect as it is an outside mall. I went over and parked by Staples and went in and looked around, I like looking at computer stuff after all my current laptop is at least 5 years old and my desktop even older so at some point I will need to get a newer one but right now they both work well.

I left Staples and walked next door to ULTA and looked around, I did pick up some face powder as I am almost out but it was fun to look at all the different makeup. From here I went next door to Nordstrom’s Rack and looked around. A lot of girls say this is a great place to shop but as much as I like it, I don’t think I have ever found something in my size I liked, but I would have to go back through all my blogs to find out for sure. From here it was down to DSW to look at shoes. Didn’t find anything here either so it was next door to Ross Dress for Less, I really like this one and have found a lot of things here but not today. I found 2 really cute dresses but they were just too small for me. From here I walked all the way to the end to best Buy and looked around checking out all their electronics. When I was done here, I had to walk all the way back down to my car just like all the other people here shopping.

I left Cascade station and it was about 12:30 so I drove down to COSTCO as I needed to pick some things up. Of course, COSTCO is busy anytime you go there. Now what is cool is I have a Susan COSCO card. I joined a couple years ago and I saw that you could have a card for another person at your address but the drawback was they had to show ID. Well about a month after I joined, I went in one night as Susan and talked to them and explained about being transgender and I live part of my life this way. Well they gave me a card with Susan’s name and picture on it and listed her and my domestic partner. So, I looked around for a little while and then went and got what I needed, shampoo, conditioner and dove bar soap. On the way out I stopped and got a hotdog and drink, $1.50 you can’t go wrong. And I sat down at the tables with all the other people and ate it. On my way out I also got some gas for my car. It was about 1:45 when I left here and headed back closer to home.

Now at 6 I have some online training I have to do and yes this is more like a chat room, it has video so I will have to be my male self so I figure I have to be home no later then 5:30 at the latest so I can clean up and remove all traces of Susan well accept for the nails of course. I will have to make sure I keep my hands on the keyboard and not reach up and scratch my face. Well I thought about what I could do so I decided to go to Starbuck’s for till about 4 then go get something to eat and be sure and be home by 5. Being a nice day, I thought it would be nice to sit outside so I wanted to find a Starbuck’s that faces the west as I might be chilly if you are not in the sunshine so I decided to go to the Starbucks by Vancouver mall. I went to this one before and it also has no drive through so it can get busy. I got there a little after 2 but they had no outside tables so I went ahead and went inside. I got a table right in front of the window as they were busy but the biggest group was at the big long table, it seats 16 and there was only 1 open chair and it was filled with men that were probably all in their late 60’s or older. I guess this is where all the retired men come. I got my drink and sat down and started on this blog. Again, it was a steady stream of people coming in to get drinks but most left.

It was a little after 4 when I left to go get something to eat, now I wasn’t really hungry but I needed something. I stopped at Panda Express and got something to eat. I was right on time as I got home right at 5 so I had an hour to clean up. by the way I was ready to be done as I have worn my corset for 11 hours and although it is really pretty comfortable 11 hours is a long time. Tomorrow is Friday and I have most of the day to be Susan, some things I have to do in the morning but I am hoping to be able to go out by 10 or 11 as Susan. I am not sure what I will do but the big decision is my nails. I either have to get them removed tomorrow night or if I wait and do it on Saturday morning but would probably have to go as my male self. I have to be someplace at noon and it will take me almost an hour to get there and the nail salons don’t open till 10 so I would not have time to go as Susan and then get home and change before I go. In a way it does sound fun to go in as my male self and see what they think. Well I will make that decision tomorrow afternoon.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing next.

November 7, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Tuesday, Susan day out and lunch with Mikaela

It is Tuesday and I pretty much have the whole day today which is awesome. I am meeting Mikaela for lunch at the Olive Garden in Clackamas at 11. Now last night when I went to bed, I had my day planned out. Get up early 6:30 am and work out, get ready by 9 am and go to Clackamas promenade and look around till I meet Mikaela for lunch at 11 am then after lunch across the street to Clackamas town center for more shopping before heading back towards home and finishing up at Starbucks in the late afternoon and evening. Well it was a good plan and I did most of it. My alarm went off and I thought I hit the snooze but woke up at 7:30 so I worked out but didn’t start getting ready till after 8:30 so it was right about 10 when I left home and depending on traffic, I probably wouldn’t have much time before I met Mikaela. I got to Clackamas about 10:30 so not a lot of time, but I need have one pressing need. The bad thing about working out right before I got ready is a drank a lot of water afterwards and you can figure the rest out. I had about 20 minutes so I went to Clackamas town center and went into Barns and Noble to look around, it is a book store and a great place to go if you have time to kill as you can browse the books and read a little and of course they have a rest room. It was about 10:50 when I left and drove across the street to meet Mikaela. Now there were almost no cars at Olive Garden so I parked almost right in front of the doors. Mikaela got there about the same time as she was standing by my door when I got out of my car. Now she was working in the area so she was in boy mode but still able to meet me for lunch. It was great to see her again. We seem to get together about once a year, I think the last time was February 2018 when Mikaela, Melissa and I met for some shopping. Well the reason there was no cars as they don’t open till 11 so we stood there at the door with a couple other people for a few minutes till they opened. It really was wonderful to see her again.

We were seated at our table and our waitress was awesome her name was Christina. We ordered lunch and sat and talked and had a wonderful time. I really do like getting together like this as it really gives you a chance to talk. I found out what was new in her life and she found out what was going on in my life it was just so much fun and went by so fast. We talked a lot about being Trans and what it means at least to us. We are a lot alike but there are differences as she is transitioning and I am not but we look at life the same way. It is so wonderful to be able to be different and yet the same and respect each other for who we are. I say this in hopes some of my friends on both the left and right can realize this also works in politics. We don’t have to agree on everything or vote for the same person but we do need to respect each other’s right to believe in what they do and vote the way they feel is right. That is how our system is designed to work, we need to quit this attacking of others who vote different then us. Opps got a little political but it is important as I love all my friends even if they vote different then I do. Before we knew it, it was 12:40 we had been there talking for almost 2 hours. Well Mikaela had to get back to work as she had an appointment at 1. It was sad to see it come to an end but I will see her again hopefully not as long between. We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways, her back to work and me over to Clackamas Town center for a little shopping.

I parked outside JC Pennies and went in as I wanted to look at their dresses as they usually have some good sales, the problem is finding them in my size. I looked around for a while and then went out into the mall. I stopped at one of the mall directories to see what stores were here and where I wanted to go when a young man came up to me and started talking to me. I am not sure what he wanted or if he knew I was trans, he is from Pakistan and just came to our country and was looking for a job and friend. He started by asking where around here he could go to meet people and I really didn’t have an answer other then a bar. He seemed nice so we talked a little more and then he asked about me and if I was single or seeing anyone. I told him I was single and he asked if I was looking for someone which really at this point, I am not. My life is so busy and with Susan it is complicated for a relationship. We talked a little more, he was 27 and has a girlfriend back home but is looking for someone here and he said I was very pretty. Now I am not the least bit interested in men but I will admit it gives your ergo a bust to be hit on by someone half your age. Now I don’t know how much of what he said was true but it still made me feel good. I told him I had to get going and wished him luck finding a job but I probably talked with him for 15 or 20 minutes.

I walked around the mall and stopped in a lot of stores looking around really not looking for anything special it is more about just being out as any other woman. Of course, no trip to the mall as Susan would be complete without stopping in Victoria’s Secret, this is probably the best part of being a woman. The clothing options for woman are just so much better than for a man, men’s clothing really is boring. I spent a couple hours it so it was a little after 3 when I left and head back home or actually the Starbucks by my house. It took about an hour with traffic as it was rush hour, okay rush hour traffic is slow and lanes come to a stop and then go and I have to say it doesn’t matter what lane you pick it is slow. I say this as I see people switching back and forth thinking they are going to go faster when all they are doing is cutting people off and possible causing an accident. I saw one guy switching lanes so many times all to try to go faster and he almost hit a couple cars and I point this out because I got tired of him passing me. Yes, he actually passed me 6 different times and, in the end, he was 2 cars behind me when we got across the bridge.

I have some work I need to do this afternoon but I can do it from my computer, well actually Susan can do it from my computer. 30 years ago, I couldn’t imagine leaving my house as Susan, 20 years ago it was late night drive, 10 years ago it was going out late at night to a LGBT club and now I am sitting in a busy Starbucks doing my work. I really wish I could have been going out like this 30 years ago. I spent a couple hours doing my work and then started on this blog from today. I can’t tell you how wonderful it is to type with my pretty nails and see them on the key board. I am not looking forward to the end of the week when I have to remove them. I either have to go Friday evening to get them removed or I could go first thing Saturday morning but if I do that it would have to be as my male self most likely. I stayed here till a little after 7 before leaving. I stopped by burger king and got something to take home.

Tomorrow I will Meet Cassandra at her house at 11am and we will go to the coast for a few hours. I am really looking forward to it as I have missed seeing her as she doesn’t get out much anymore.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

November 5, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Monday blog my day out both as male and female with acrylic nails

I got up early and worked out as I want to get back into that. It was about 6am and I did have to do something as my male self after 9 so I couldn’t dress till then but I wanted to see what would happen if people saw my pretty nails as a male so I went to Cascade station by the airport and decided to stop at IHOP for breakfast. They weren’t busy at that time of the morning. Now I am sure both the waitress who took my order and the one who brought it saw my nails as I was not trying to hide them and they said nothing. I am thinking of going back here later in the week as Susan for breakfast now. From there I went to the Starbucks and did some work I have been putting off on my computer. Now I got to the Starbucks a little after 7 and they were not busy at all maybe 6 people all on computers so the only table by a plug in was the big corner table that sits 6 so that was where I put my computer and went and ordered a hot chocolate. Now about 7:30 it was like the flood gates opened and people started coming in. this Starbucks does not have a drive through and for a while the line was never less then 10 people. And soon all the tables were full and I had a few other people ask if they could share my table which I said yes of course. There was a lady next to me with her son, a man next to her doing some kind of work and then a lady on my other side reading a book. Again, my nails were plainly visible and they didn’t seem to pay any attention and never said a word. I sat here till about 10 and it never got slow, several other people came and shared my table and again not one said a thing about my nails. if you go to this Starbucks get there before 7:30. Now it was time to take care of what I had to do. My mom had gone to the Doctors office for some lab work on Saturday and I had to drop off one of them at the lab today. I went in and stood in line hiding my hands now. When it was my turn I went up and told the lady I was dropping off for my mom, she asked me her name and date of birth and when she looked down to put it in the computer, I quickly put it up on the counter. I don’t think she saw my nails and now I was on my way home to get ready as Susan.

It was about 1 when I was all ready and on my way. Now I really have no plans this week other then going to the coast on Wednesday with Cassandra. So, I decided to go put flowers on my Dads grave. Whenever I have gone by myself it is always as Susan the daughter he never met. I stopped at the Fred Meyer’s on Johnson Creak to pick up the flowers, of course I got a quick selfie in the car. Yes, I am wearing an older wig that I cleaned up last night, I think it looks better then the dark hair on me, I think I just look better in lighter color hair. I walked in and went to the flower section and picked out some flowers, now this is right across from the cosmetic section and they have it set up like a store within the store as there is one way in and out and they have a cashier there. I have seen a lot of stores doing this now as I guess to much was getting stolen. Well as I was walking past to go to the checkout by the doors the lady said she could ring me up if I wanted so I said sure and went over. She was very nice and the first thing she said was how much she loved my nails which made me feel good as it was my first compliment on my nails today. I walked to the door where the self-checkout is and as I walked through, I showed the lady my receipt she thanked me and also complimented me on my nails.

From here I went to the cemetery and put the flowers on my Dads grave. I always wonder what he would have thought about this side of my life. I think he would have accepted it and been proud of me. I spent about 20 minutes here and before I left, I got a couple more selfies. Now I had to figure out what I would do so I figured I could stop at Cascade Station and do a little shopping as this would get me closer to hoe so I wouldn’t have as much traffic. I got there and my first stop was of course Ross Dress for Less. I went in and looked at dresses and they had a cute grey sweater dress and I thought it would look great with my black leggings or tights so I bought it, only $14.99. I really do like Ross as you can get some good deals there. I also made a quick stop at Nordstrom’s Rack, and ULTA and even went into Staples and Best buy to look around. Really wasn’t looking for anything but it was just about being out. It was almost 4 now so I left and drove over to a Starbucks I have gone to on Mill Plain in Vancouver. It is a smaller one with a drive though so I usually is not busy and they have plugs for almost every table so you can plug in your computer. I went in and there was one man on his computer at one table and 2 women at another sitting and talking and that was it. Well first things first I had to use the little girls room actually Starbucks is good as their rest rooms are single use gender neutral. I cam out and there were two woman that had just ordered and were standing back just a little out of sight so I went up to order and as I got to the counter I could see them better and one of them I use to work with, what are the odds? well I kind of had my back to her so I went ahead and ordered and again the lady taking my order complimented me on my nails. I went over and set up my computer at the corner table and then went back up to wait for my drink. Well they called her name and she walked right by me to get it and I just looked the other way. Now to my horror they went and sat at the next table to where I set up my computer. Luckily, she sat on the same side of the table as what I had my computer set up for.

Now what do I do it would look funny to pick up my computer and leave so I went over and slid in with my back to her and sat down. Now it has been about 6 years since I have worked with her but it was wired to be sitting next to her. I was glad I wore this hair as I does hang down and hides most of my face from the side but again as like last night these tables are close and I could hear their conversation if I listened. Now they only stayed about 20 minutes or so but it seemed longer. as they got up to leave her friend told me she loved my nails and wished she could have them but with where they work now, they can’t. I thanked her and di kind of look up but the lady I knew didn’t seem to be looking at me. I sat here and worked on my blog from today. Now I did get a lot of compliments on my nails but only when I was Susan so I am thinking maybe people don’t know what to say or are afraid to say anything about a man with pretty red acrylic nails. I stayed here till about 6:30 before I left to go get something to eat. I stopped at Subway on my way home and got a sandwich. It has been a long day but so much fun.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

November 4, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

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