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Sunday and some relaxing Susan time at Starbucks

It is Sunday and I am going to get a little relaxing Susan time at Starbuck’s. I really do love going out with my friends as they are so wonderful but I also enjoy a little me time as Susan at Starbuck’s. Starbucks is a place you can go and there really are a lot of people there by themselves. I got home a little after 2 and started getting ready. I got to the Starbucks by my house around 3:30 and parked and went in. they were a little busy but there was one open table by the window so I set my computer on it and went and ordered my drink. Once I had my drink I sat down and got out my computer. This was the first time I really looked around and as I said they were busy but today it was mostly young girls. There were 5 groups of 2 to 4 girls and I would guess the oldest age between them was maybe 15. I don’t know why but this is when I feel the most uneasy as I think young girls are more aware of people around them and I did notice a couple of them looking at me but I just smiled back and that seemed to work.

I started off by writing my blog from last night at the Escape, as I have said I really do like writing my blogs as Susan when I am out as Susan. It just seems more honest and real although I don’t know why. I thought I would ad a picture to this blog from my trip to Diva Las Vegas that I thought was cute. Now it is relaxing here at Starbucks and I seem to get more done as I don’t have the distractions I do at home (TV) plus there is just something about being out as Susan. This week I am looking forward to dinner on Wednesday with my friends as we missed last week because of the Fourth of July, I hope everyone had a happy and safe fourth. It is a day we celebrate our countries birthday, the freedoms we have and remember all those who gave everything for those freedoms. I really do believe we live in the best country in the world, no offence to my sisters in other countries but I am proud of what we have her in America.

Now beside doing my blog, sending an e-mail to our group about our Wednesday night dinner and just playing around on my computer Starbucks is a great place to people watch as you really do see a wide range of people here, young, old, male, female, casual dressed and even one lady in heels and a tight dress. Trust me she could get away with that look anyplace. It is funny as when I am out at Starbucks I am really not thinking about how I am dressed or even about being Susan verses my male self. I am just out being myself. There is just something so wonderful when you accept who you are and just be that person. I really think when you can do that you come across to others more naturally and that helps them accept you.

I stayed at Starbucks till 6:30 when they closed and the I decided to go get something to eat at Subway and I went to the one close to my house. Now this is something that is new to me as I go here also as my male self, but they do seem to have a bigger turnover in employees here. I generally don’t go to the same places both as Susan and my male self. I am trying to eat better as I want to lose some weight before our cruise, I have actually lost 6LB in the last 2 weeks, I have been trying to cut out dairy as I read that is one of the worst things for belly fat and that is my problem area. It is hard though as I really do love an ice-cold glass of milk but it is something Susan needs to do.

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A few of my more recent blogs

A few hours on a Sunday afternoon

Saturday and a full day of Susan, going to the gun range to shoot.

Wednesday night dinner at Old Spaghetti factory

Saturday at the Escape

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

Saturday May 19 2018 red dress party

Thursday night and having dinner with Charlene and her wife

Tuesday and my vacation comes to an end after 12 days

Sunday and the drive home from Palm Springs to Portland

Saturday and we leave Las Vegas to take Julie back to Palm Springs

Friday last day of Diva Las Vegas.

Thursday and we are going to tour the Hoover Dam

Tuesday night of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Day 3 of Diva Las Vegas drive from Palm Springs to Las Vegas


July 9, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday trip to the nail salon before going to the Escape

It is the last Saturday of June and I am really looking forward to going out. Between being sick and other obligations, my Susan time has been limited. Now my plan as usual is to try to get to the Escape early between 5 & 6 as this gives me a little more time out and parking is way better. I got home around 3 and started to get ready and of course the first thing I notice I a chip on my nail polish on my toes, it has been at least 6 weeks since my last pedicure. I also noticed one of my nails had what looked like a crack but was really just where the corner was separating from the acrylic. yes, I needed to go to the nails salon. I called Dream nails and it turns out they were busy and Anny couldn’t get me in till 5:30. Now I had a decision to make, be late to the Escape or not get my nails done and I am sure you can guess my choice. I told her I would see her at 5:30 and finished getting ready. I was all done with my makeup and picked a more neutral lipstick, a mauve color and now it was time to get dressed. Now as I was getting a pedicure that would mean no panty hose and flip flops so I picked my white and black summer dress, here is a picture of me from our trip to Hoover dam wearing the same dress.

Now I had another dilemma, it was only 4:15 and I was all ready and I really don’t like just sitting around the house all dressed up so I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house till it was time to go get my nails done. It only took a couple minutes to get there and I went in. they were not real busy so I had no trouble getting a table and got out my computer and took care of some work, wrote my blog from Wednesday, and just relaxed as I waited till it was time to go to the nails salon. Now people came and went and a few sat down at tables but it never really got really busy. It is a good place to people watch though. It really was funny how fast time went. Soon it was 5:15 and I decided to leave and go to the Nail salon which again only takes a couple minutes.

I parked and went in and yes, they were busy, 2 getting their nails done and 5 getting pedicures and 2 waiting but I had an appointment so I only had to wait a couple minutes. Anna would do my nails but another girl did my pedicure, she has done my pedicures several times and always does a great job but I do not know her name and feel bad asking so I guess I will just go on not knowing. I really do love coming to the nail salon and getting pedicures, so relaxing. Sad most men will never experience this simple joy in life. She did a wonderful job and soon it was time for the polish, I had picked out a really bright red called Ferrari which I have had before and really love the color, so wish I could do my fingers in the same color. Soon my feet were done and looked so pretty and now it was time for my nails.

I moved over to Anna’s table and she started on my fingers. She removed the old gel polish and filed them down to get them ready for the acrylic fill and of course noticed the bad nail before I pointed it out to her so she removed all the acrylic on that nails. It really is a fun and relaxing time. She asked if I wanted them shortened and I said yes even though I really didn’t. She put the new acrylic on my nails and shaped them and got them all ready for the polish. Of course, I used the same color I have been for months, Wedding dress but I kept thinking about the pretty red on my toes and so wished it was on my fingers. Now they were busy the whole time with people waiting, so glad I always call for an appointment. It was 6:50 when I was all done and left the salon with my pretty nails.

I got to the Escape about 7:20 and as I feared all the parking was full in the lot so I parked out on the street, I don’t think I have ever had to park on the street here as I always get here early. I went in and Bobbie was there at one of the tables closest to where they do Karaoke, are normal table was full. I talked with Bobbie a little before going up and ordering dinner. I noticed Lee was here at the Bar so I went over and talked with her a little, she was here with another lady and was not sure if they were on a date so I only talked to her for a few minutes before going back to the table. My food came and I ate my dinner they really do have great food here.

I was just finishing my dinner and Robyn showed up. It was nice to see her out she is coming here on a more regular basis now which is always nice. Now as it got later it started to get busier as this is the last weekend of Pride and it was going to be a big night I think. Another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us now. By 9 it really was busy and we had others sitting at the other end of our table which I really don’t mind as I didn’t think we would have any more girls show up but Lauri. And it is nice to kind of chat with them. They have 2 long tables that sit 10 and then several 4-person tables and they were all full.

Karaoke started and it is fun although it gets loud and you can’t really talk any more. Those who sang did really well and even the few that didn’t we still clapped as they had the guts to get up and sing. Several of the songs I had never heard before and a few were ones I really likes and those I sang along with, quietly from our table of course. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up. I stayed a little long but I was getting tired. I can remember a few years back when we didn’t go out till 9 and we closed the bars down. Now by 11 I am done. I paid my bill and said my goodbye’s and called it a night. It was so wonderful to be out with my friends and also get my nails done. I really do need to try to get back to getting my nails done on a week night though.

On a side note this week for some reason all my blogs I shared on my Facebook page disappeared and I mean disappeared. I can find no trace of them. I checked my activities log and even downloaded my history file and there is no trace of them. I am not really good with Facebook so if any of you out there have any ideas what happened please let me know. I will see if this one post to it and if not, I may try and post in manually and see what is going on. I tried to contact Facebook but that is harder then finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so I don’t know what to do now.

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July 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

My Sunday time again

It is Sunday and yes, I am getting some Susan time. I seem Sunday is turning into my Starbucks day. I don’t know why I enjoy this quiet time so much but I do. I was trying to think back to my first time going to Starbucks and I think it was late summer of 2009 about 9 years ago. At that time, I would go about 7 pm and stay there till they closed at 9. It is funny as I would drive to a Starbucks about 15 miles from where I lived as I was so afraid of running into someone I knew. Back then I would just go and surf the internet on my computer. It really did help me grow as it was one of these nights I first came across the Diva Las Vegas web page and decided to go in the spring of 2010. It really doesn’t seem like that long ago, time really does fly when you have fun. It is hard to believe I have kept this blog since 2006 although back then there really were not a lot of entries and they were pretty short. It is fun though to go back and read the early blogs and remember what id did. I still think keeping a blog or diary about yourself is a wonderful thing to do even if you just keep it private so only you can read. It really is a window into your past and your life. My friend Nicole is doing a blog and w=she keeps it private but she was having fun with it as she can post pictures of her and also track how many times she goes out. You really don’t think about things like that and a blog is a great way to track that. I post in my blog every time I go out as Susan or at least try to. Now there are a few times usually at Diva Las Vegas where I break a day up into to blogs just so they are not too long, I try to keep them about 1,000 words but is still gives me a good idea plus early on I didn’t always write about going out. This is blog 1081 and my 83rd blog of 2018 and we are not yet half way through the year. That means I am averaging about 3 times a week going out as Susan.

Well back to going out today. It was a little later when I got home and I briefly debated if I should get dressed and go out, well not much of a debate really as Susan always gets her way. It was about 3:45 when I got to Starbucks. They were not really busy inside as far as people sitting but there were a lot of people coming in and getting drinks to go. Now the main reason I almost didn’t come out today as it was really hot, almost 90 degrees out and bright sunshine. Susan does not do well in really hot weather as my makeup tends to melt. The Starbucks I go to faces the sun and so it really does get kind of warm inside plus I like to sit by the windows as I can plug in my computer plus I like the view.

I got my drink and the first thing I did was write my blog from Saturday, I really do like writing my blog when I am out as Susan as it just seem more personal to me. Once I got my blog done I logged onto my Princess Cruise planner, I have the app on my phone but easier to do things on the computer. I am trying to get all my information in it as Cassandra says it is way easier and faster if you can have all this stuff done before the cruise. I got some of it done but my passport is at home so I will do that later. I really wasn’t paying attention and it was about 5:30 I looked out and it was raining, the sun was gone and the temperature had dropped by about 15 degrees as my phone now said it was 76 out. Wow this is strange weather we are having here the last couple days. I stayed here till they closed at 6:30 and then went to Subway just down the street to get something to eat. By the time I left Subway it was partly sunny again and 80 degrees out again. I got it to go and went home to eat. It was a pretty ordinary day out but I got some things done I needed to do and had some Susan time as well so it was a great day.

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June 18, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A few hours on a Sunday afternoon

It is Sunday afternoon and I have some time free again and that means Susan time. I got home about 2:45 so it is a little later than normal but I want my Susan time. I started getting ready and as my time was limited I didn’t take as long getting ready. It is amazing as it really is not about doing a better look when I take longer it is more about enjoying the experience. Kind of like eating I guess, I can take smaller bites and savor the food or bigger bites and eat faster but in the end the result is the same if that makes sense. Any way I was ready by a little after 3:30 and drove to the Starbucks by my house, I got there at 3:40 and they looked busy. I actually had to park away from the building which is rare. There were even a couple people sitting outside at the tables under the cover of the building as it was raining so I was wondering if I would get a table. As I walked in I could see 1 table open by the window. I was right they were busy. The counter in the back had 1 open chair the long table had 7 people sitting at it, the big round table had 6 and all the chairs were takes as were all the small tables except for the 1 and there were 7 people in line. I didn’t take a chance and set my computer on the only table open and then went and joined the people in line. when I finally got to the front of the line the young lady making the drinks looked over at me and asked if I wanted my normal Grande sweetened green ice tea and I said yes so, she was already making my drink before I paid. I guess that means I must come here to regular as not only do they remember my name but also what I want to drink. The lady took my order and I paid for it and by that time my drink was ready. So, there was no waiting. I sat down and got out my computer and there was still a line of 6 to 8 people and that lasted for probably 20 to 30 minutes it was a really busy rush and probably one of the busiest I have seen it here although it would eventually slow down.

I did some work on my computer and wrote my blog from yesterday about going to the gun range and the Escape, it was a really fun full day for Susan. Now in that blog ai talked about my lipstick I have been wearing and how well it lasts so today I wore the same brand but a more neutral color and I did get a picture in the car before I came in. now it really is a lot of fun here when it is busy as it is great for people watching which is one of the reasons I like coming to Starbuck’s. there really is something relaxing about spending a few hours at Starbucks and catching up on things I need to do. I am just one of many people who come here and it is a fun way to spend an afternoon, way more fun than just sitting at home doing this stuff. I got my bog done and then spent some time catching up on some work I had to do, computers make life so much easier. Now there was a young lady that was at the next table and she met a man here so I really wasn’t paying attention other than she was on crutches. Anyway, it was about 5 and the man left and she was getting ready to leave so I just had to ask her about her foot and what happened. She told me she had tripped at home and thought she sprained it. I jokingly told her she should come up with a better story like she tripped saving someone before they got hit by a car and she thought that was funny. Well she left and I was back to my stuff on my computer and about 15 minutes later she came back in and came over and talked to me a little more. Seems she is looking for people for some kind of home-based business and thought I would be perfect. I talked with her a little bit and she wants to meet with me to give me more information. Any way she gave me her number and told me to let her know when I had some time and wanted to learn more about her business opportunity. Now I am not big on these type of things but it might be interesting just to do it as Susan and get the information, will have to think about this though. stayed here till they closed at 6:30 but that is where my typical Sunday night ends as I got gas yesterday so now it was just getting something to eat.

I decided to go to Subway as I am trying to eat better. I went to the one not far from my house which I have gone to many times as my male self although it has been a while and they seem to have a high turnover at Subway. Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog.

June 16, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Sunday and a little Susan time at Starbucks to catch up on my blogs

It is Sunday afternoon and I have some tie free so I am going to Starbucks to catch up on my blogs and then e-mails and if time a little work. For a long time, I would write my blogs the next day and it was almost always at home and I was usually my male self when I did them. But lately I have been trying to do them as Susan somehow it just seems more fitting to write about Susan, about her time out and what she did as Susan. It may seem silly but I feel when I am Susan writing about my time as Susan it is more like I am writing about myself. I don’t really view Susan and my male self as different people as it is still me, still who I am but just more personal this way. So, it will be a Susan day at Starbucks.

It was a little after 2 when I got home and started getting ready. Now as I am on my own schedule as I am not meeting anyone or have to be there at a certain time I was free to take my time and enjoy the experience. I really can’t explain why I so enjoy my time getting ready but I do. It was a little after 3 when I was ready and I looked cute and casual which is what I go for when I go out during the day to Starbuck’s, I want to blend in. I got to the Starbucks by my house about 3:15 and went in, they were busy but there was 1 table open by the window so I set my computer on it and went and stood in line to order. Now they have a few new people working here so they don’t know me but as always, they treated me wonderful. I must say I have never had an issue at Starbuck’s with the staff or customers.

I got my drink and got my computer out and started my blog for Wednesday nights dinner at Hobo’s. now the one bad thing ab out writing it several days later is remembering what all went on. I also took time to send an e-mail to our group the Rose City T-girls about Wednesday nights dinner this week as I want to see if I can get a bigger turnout. Took me 2 tries as the first time I only sent it to the first 10 members. Luckily, I remembered Cassandras tip that it takes a while for them to go out as it was sent to all 200 members. Last time I did this I kept hitting send as I thought it had froze and it sent it several times. It took about 10 minutes for all of them to go out. Of course, I was writing my blog while it sent.

Starbucks is a really relaxing place to go and spend some time and catch up on work or what every you have to do and it is a fun place to people watch too. Now I chose to wear my leggings today with a cute top so I was watching what other females were wearing today. I chose wisely as I would say 60% of the females who came in had on black leggings also. This really is important as I know I don’t pass so if I can match what other females are wearing that is one less thing that stands out about me. I have been asked many times about passing and the sad thing is most transgenders will not pass 100% of the time all the time, there are always little things that ad up and eventually someone will figure it out. To me passing is able to go out as Susan and have people treat me with respect, the same respect any other female would get. I know the people ate Starbuck’s know I am not female but they always call me Susan or refer to me as She or her and to me that means I have passed.

Now there were times it was slow here, at one point I was the only one here and a few people came in and got drinks to go and then some finally sat at the tables. I really think it is easier when they are busy, of there are lots of people here you are not the focus. If you are the only one sitting at a table then everyone notices you. I stayed here till they closed at 6:30 before leaving, on my way out one of the ladies said have a good evening Susan, I love it when they call me by name. I left and went to Costco as I needed gas and then it was time to figure out what I wanted to eat. Now I have been going to Wendy’s but as I had a Hamburger last night I decided to go to Subway and it turns out there is one across the street.

I got there and it was pretty slow only to woman there. I ordered my sandwich and sat down and ate it. The 2-woman left and a family of 6 came in but that was it while I was there. It was about 7:30 when I left and went home. It was a good and relaxing few hours.

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June 6, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Memorial Day and I have the day off and that means some Susan time

It is Monday and I have the day off so Susan gets some time out. Now I am meeting Barb, Melissa and her wife for lunch at 1 pm so I have the whole morning. My plan was to get up early and go to Starbucks for a few hours till the mall opened and then do a little shopping till it was time to meet my friends for lunch. It was the perfect plan for the day or at least I thought. Well things didn’t go as I planned as I got up late so I was behind to start. It was almost 10 by the time I was done with my makeup and getting dressed. Now for today I wanted to ware my corset. Well I had it just about on and as I tightened when you guessed it the ties broke and so I had to take it off and fix it and start over. I got it off and redid the ties and put it back on but was having trouble getting it tight. Turns out I missed one of the eyelets and it just won’t tighten up and so once again off it came and I redid the ties making sure not to miss an eyelet and once more on it went and this time I could get it tightened up. It was now a little after 10 am and I was ready to leave and go have fun. Now I had a choice. I could drive to the mall and have maybe an hour and skip Starbucks or go to Starbucks and have almost 2 hours. Well I needed to do my Blog from Sunday and so Starbucks won out.

I got to Starbucks and went in and got a drink and sat down at a table and started on my blog, I really do like the idea of writing my blog as Susan when I am out. It just seems to make the circle complete. Now I had been there about 10 minutes and the same lady I know that I saw yesterday came in again today. What are the odds, again I just kept my head down and kept doing what I was doing. She got her drink and left. I still find it funny that in all the times I have come here I have never seen her here accept for the last 2 days. I stayed here till a little after noon before heading for my lunch with my friends.

I got downtown Portland about 12:30 and found a parking spot about a block away from where we were having Lunch, Papa Haydn. Now being the middle of the day, a holiday and a nice warm day outside there were all kinds of people walking the streets and I was just another person out. I went in and got a table and it was only a few minutes later Barb showed up. We talked as we waited for Melissa and her wife to show up, they arrived right at 1 pm. We talked a little mire before ordering lunch. Now the food here at Papa Haydn is good but they have a limited menu. The real reason for going here is their dessert menu, they have awesome desserts. Melissa and her wife split a dessert as did Barb and I. it was so good and so rich. I didn’t even eat half of it. It really was a wonderful lunch and after noon. It was after 2:30 when we finished and all said our goodbyes and left.

I got home about 3:30 so I had to rush as I had to be someplace by 4 and in my male mode which I just barely made. It really was a wonderful day.

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June 2, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and some Susan time including trip to nail salon

It is Sunday and once again I have some free time in the afternoon and evening and that means Susan time. I still need to write my blog from Wednesday and now Saturday so I am behind, sorry to those who follow me I will try to get them out quicker. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home a little later so it was almost 3 when I started getting ready which is something I totally enjoy. It really is relaxing to take the time and do my makeup and transform into Susan. It was 3:45 when I was ready including my corset, and as I was putting on my bracelet and ring I was looking at my finger nails which really do look wonderful. They are a little long and do show some grow out so if you look at them there is no denying I have acrylic nails. As I looked at them I was thinking about the week ahead, my only Susan time will be Wednesday for dinner and I will be rushing to make that and then again Saturday and also will be a rush to get there by 7. I do have Monday morning but that is a holiday and I am sure the nail salon will be open so it is either today or more then a week more and it has already been 2 ½ weeks. Usually I call Dream Nails before I get ready but this was a last-minute decision so I called and Anna said she could get me in at 4:45 so now I had that dilemma, what to do for 45 minutes.

I decided although it was short I would go to the Starbucks by my house as it is right across the street from the nails salon and work on my blog for Wednesday night till my appointment. I got there right at 4 and they were busy but mostly takeout so there were a couple tables open. I got my drink and started on my blog. I had only been here a few minutes and someone I know, kind of work with walked in and I saw him in line to get a drink. I just kept my head down and kept working on my blog as he got his drink and left. Now about 15 minutes later another lady I know, works where my parents are living came in and once again I just kept my head down and kept working. I little m ore nervous about her because as far as I know my parents have no idea about this part of my life. She also got her drink and left. Wow only here for 45 minutes and saw two people I know. I finished my blog and posted it at 4:40 so had just enough time to get to my nail appointment.

I got to Dream nails and Anna was still finishing a lady so I had to wait about 5 minutes. Now there were 5 other women in here, 2 getting their finger nails done, 2 getting pedicures and one waiting on her friend. Anna started on my nails and we talked a little, Anna pretty much works 7 days a week, she is the owner although I do think a couple days she may either come in a little later or leave a little early. I encouraged her to take some time off for herself and this goes for everyone. Take some time for yourself, life is to short to just work all the time. You will be so much happier and more relaxed. Anna did a great job on my nails as always and it was so relaxing. Now I did notice the two women getting pedicures looking over at me every once in a while, but what else do you have to do at the nail salon as I kind of watch other people also to see what they are getting done. Well as I was watching them the one lady who was very petite I did notice her shoulder and arm muscles were really defined and she did have kind of a raspy voice and I don’t know why but I wondered just wondered if she had transitioned at some point. I tell people this all the time that even if you are really passible there are subtle things that by themselves won’t give you away but as they ad up well may give you away. I do not know about her and I would never say anything but being transgender myself there was enough to at least put the thought in my head. It was just before 6 when Anna finished my nails and they looked wonderful as always and shorter.

Now what to do as my usual Sunday is Starbucks till 6:30, go get gas and then onto Wendy’s before going home but the Starbucks by my house will close in 30 minutes and as I have tomorrow off I can stay out later. I decided to go to Cascade station by the airport as I wanted to run into Target and also the Starbuck’s there is open till 9. I got to Target and ran in as I needed to pick a few things up which didn’t take long and then it was off to Starbucks’s. I got there about 6:45 and parked right out front and went in. They were also busy but there was one table right in front of the window so I put my computer on it and went and stood in line to get my drink.

Soon I was happily sitting at my table with my drink and on my computer working on my blog for Saturday night. Now for years I would always write my blog the very next day which I really try to do but there is something special about writing Susan’s blog as Susan at Starbuck’s. now as I sat there a young girl came in who was very tall, guessing 6’4″ and she also had low wedge heels on about 2″. Now she was very skinny and a really pretty face but I saw her glance at me on her way to order. Now I am not in any way saying she is not a female but after she ordered she went and sat at the very opposite side of Starbucks from me even though where she would pick up her drink was right by me and that was the door she used and there were also places to sit closer. I also noticed her look at me several times. Now I am more likely to believe that she was worried people might think she was transgender if they saw her by me then her actually being transgender but again it did make me think. I have actually noticed a lot more really tall females lately as I do work with one who is 6’5″ but there are now 3 more females I work with and 1 is the same height as me 6′ and one is a couple inches taller and the third is at least 5″ taller than me and none of them you would mistake as not being female. Now tall women are still a was smaller percentage but there is hope for taller t-girls.

I got all my work done and it was about 8:45 so I left Starbucks and even though it was late I decided to stop at Wendy’s for something to eat. Now being this late they were not that busy. I ordered my food and the lady who waited on me told me she loved my nails. I thanked her and told her I had just got them done. She told me she wished she could have nails like mine and I told her all it took was to make a little time to get them done. She smiled and said she made time for the gym and didn’t have time for her nails. I smiled back and told her I made time for my nails and not the gym. Which got me thinking I really need to get back to my exercising. I use to stop at the gym almost every day, and then I bought an elliptical for my home and now I hardly use it. I am going to have to try and change that as I really do want to lose some weight for our cruise this fall.

I ate my dinner and then headed for home. It was almost 10 when I got home. It was a good night out. I sat down on the couch to watch a little TV before changing back from Susan to go to bed and fell asleep on the couch. It was a little after midnight when I woke up and went up to bed. I had worn my corset for over 8 hours. Now I have people who ask how I can ware a corset and really it is easy. I got mine at Orchards corset and I e-mailed them my measurements and they recommended the size I needed and they were right on. It really fits well and is very comfortable. The only two things it is hard to get in and out of the car as I have a smaller car and also not really comfortable sitting in y car seat. I also can’t bend over to pick something up or put shoes on or off without getting out of breath. Other then that it is really comfortable and it makes me sit up straight and keeps my shoulder back so I have really good posture and of course a really nice shape. The good way out ways the bending issue.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

Thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Another Sunday and a little Susan time

Another Sunday is here and once again I have the afternoon free and that means Starbucks and some Susan time. I have my blog from last nights Red Dress Party which was so much fun to write and some e-mails to catch up on and even a little work. I think back several years when I would just be Susan at home and watch a little TV, and then came the late-night drives. Back then I could only dream about going out and never thought I would be able to. Now I go out and it is the most normal & natural part of me. Well as I said a had a few hours so I got ready and got to Starbucks a little before 4 which gave me about 2 ½ hours before they close. It really is a fun way to spend a couple hours doing something you have to do. I also got to people watch a little but after last nights Red Dress Party and people watching there it was a little plain here.

The time went by fast as it always does and soon it was after 6. I finished what I had to do and then it was time to leave. As usual it was a trip to Costco for gas and then across the street to Panda Express, I didn’t feel like a hamburger tonight so no Wendy’s. It was a little before 8 when I got home so it was kind of a short night out but still relaxing. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner with my friends.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what is new in Susan’s life on my most recent blog.

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

May 22, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Back to Starbucks for a little me time on Sunday

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

Okay it is Sunday and I have a couple hours and needed to get some stuff done on my computer and what better way than as Susan at Starbuck. I guess it is a trade of as I get more done at Starbucks as there are no distraction like TV but then there is the hour it takes to get ready to go. I got to Starbucks around 3:30 and finished my blog from my Thursday night dinner with Charlene and her wife and posted it. Then it was on to my e-mails. I really have been behind on them not so much answering them but I get a lot that are just information and I have let them go without reading so my inbox is full. Now this really didn’t take so long but needed to be done. And then there was some other work I needed to do. I really do get more done here at Starbucks then at home and it is just way more fun.

I think back to that first time I went to Starbucks as Susan and hos scared I was and it really was just about being out someplace as Susan but over the years it has become so much more. It brings normalcy to my life as Susan. That is the best way I can explain it. I sit at Starbucks and I see a lot of people come in both men and woman and most come in by themselves. Even the people who are in here with their computers most are by themselves doing school work or other work or just relaxing and playing on their computers. That is what I am doing just a normal everyday thing that everyone else does. Being transgender can be hard at times, trying to figure out where you fit in. In that way I am lucky as I have always known where I fit in the transgender spectrum and I know some people hate this term but I am a crossdresser but more than that. The hard part for me was to learn to accept this part of my life, and to that I really owe a lot of it to my wonderful friends. I use that term as I am not transitioning as I like and need both my male and female side. Yes, when I am Susan I consider myself totally female and look at life as I would imagine other women do. I enjoy the makeup, nails, clothes, jeweler, hair and shoes. But I also do nit feel wrong when I am my male self. I really do have the best of both worlds and I would not change that. I think my going to Starbucks is just my way of expressing myself. It is funny though as many times as I have been to Starbucks as Susan I think it is only 5 times I have gone as my male self. It really is not something my male side wants to do so I guess there are differences between the two sides of me. I guess what I am saying is it doesn’t matter who you are what matters is that you accept yourself. Find something you like and then do it. Cassandra has her chat rooms, I have Starbucks, it doesn’t matter what it is but find what makes you happy. Pops a little off topic again.

I finished what I had to do and then just surfed the internet, our website, Facebook and so on. It was a relaxing day at Starbucks and fun people watching. I saw a few people look at me but nothing bad I think they were just figuring out things and I really can’t blame them after all I was also people watching as people came and went. It is a fun way to spend a couple hours and having a laptop makes it all possible. What did we ever do before laptops and cell phones. Well I stayed at Starbucks till they closed at 6:30 and as I was leaving Taylor one of the girls who has worked here for a long time wished me a Happy Mother’s Day. I thanked her and it actually made my night.

Now I do have a normal Sunday routine I guess, Starbuck’s till they close, down to Costco to get gas and then to Wendy’s for something to eat before going home and tonight would be the same, yes Hamburgers 3 nights in a row. I promise no more burgers till at least next weekend. I stopped and got my gas and then to Wendy’s. they were a little busier then the last few times I have been here. Now I have been coming to this Wendy’s for a while and it is almost only women who works here. I have seen a young man that works here I think twice. Now I did not get out last Sunday and so I have only been here 1 before in the last 6 weeks and this young man has never helped me till tonight. Now I placed my order and was getting ready to hand him my credit card and he looked at me and said Susan right, he knew my name which caught me off guard, as I said I have only seen him maybe twice and he has never waited on me. I guess they know me here also. It was about 7:30 when I headed for home.

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May 15, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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