Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday Susan time and yes laundry.

Well it is Saturday and I get to spend the afternoon and evening as Susan. but first last night on the way home from work I stopped and got a pedicure; bright red polish and it looks great. The lady doing my pedicure asked if I also wanted a manicure so I took the opportunity and told her that would be next Friday. I was

there about an hour and so enjoyed it. before I left, I set up my appointment for next Friday and told them I wanted a full set of acrylics. Yes, I got a few pictures of my pretty toes.

Saturday, I got up and had my monthly work zoom meeting which lasted till about 10:30 then I went out and did a little yard work I needed to do. It was about noon when I started getting ready as Susan but first was to put a load of laundry in, yes, I am going to wash everything I am taking to Las Vegas so they are all fresh and clean. While the wash ran, I did

my makeup and got ready, it was perfect timing as when I finished getting ready, I had 1 minute left on the wash, wash cycle is 1 ½ hours. I hung up my clothes to dry, yes Susan’s clothes do not go in the dryer. I put the next load in and figured I could run down to the Starbucks right by my house, it is ¼ mile away so really close. I figured I could sit outside and enjoy the sunny day for 1 ½ hours and then run home really quick and hang start my next load, I have them 4 loads I want to do.

I got to the Starbucks by my house and went in and the one lady greeted me by name. they were actually really busy inside, 3 people by themselves, one big group of 6 young people and then several couples but no one sitting outside so that is where I sat, yes, I brought my long sweater which I found going through my stuff to wash. It is about 65 out and sunny but still a little on the cool side as their tables are on the shady side of the building. Now I had only been sitting here a few minutes when a man came up to the table next to me, partially in the sun and asked if he could have the other chair at my table and I said yes. Now it was fun sitting out front here and watching the people walk by and yes, the cars, I did see several cars go by with people I know as I am really close to my house. Now while I was her Julie called me to see what I was doing and if I was planning on going out tonight so we decided to get together and have dinner. She will call me when she is ready and I will pick her up. Now as I sat here 2 women walked up and went in, now they had masks on so I am not sure but I think one might have been trans. Well when they came out the one, I thought might be trans handed me a card and yes, she was trans, her name is Alicia. Well they sat down with me and we started talking. It was interesting and the first time I have ran into another Transgender person at Starbucks. Well another lady came over who new them so now there were 4 of us sitting out front talking.

We talked for a while and it was very enjoyable. As we talked a man walked up with a mask on, it turned out to be Nicole, she was in the traveling through the area and I am thinking she stopped at Goodwill and saw me sitting out front and came over to say hi which was so nice. She only stayed a few minutes but it was great to see her again. Hopefully she can make it down for dinner again soon. Well I talked more with Alicia and her wife who I later found out is also a trans women and the other lady with them her boyfriend likes to dress up and she is okay. Well we ended up sitting there and talking till 4:30 before they had to leave. I stayed a few minutes longer before heading home to take care of my laundry. It was about 4:50 and I was waiting for Julie to call me so about dinner so I decided to go to the Starbucks in Orchards as that is about halfway to Julies house and I need to charge up my computer and I figured I could get a start on this blog. It was about 5:50 when I left to go pick Julie up.

I got to Julie’s about 6:15 and we talked for a little bit before we left. We were going out to dinner and Julie thought there was a Chinese restaurant down on NW 21st av. We used to go to House of Louie till they closed. We drove downtown talking the whole way, it was so nice. Well we didn’t find one but we were close to Swagat which has Indian cuisine so I parked and we walked back the 2 blocks to get some food. We have gone here several times and they have good food. Julie and got a table and sat down for a quiet dinner and wonderful conversation. It was such a great idea Julie had about going out to dinner. Now the sad part is we will have another Wednesday night dinner this Wednesday at Outback steak house and then I will be in Las Vegas and when I get back Julie will have gone south for the winter, I will really miss our riding together. After dinner we sat and talked till a little after 9. Thanks for taking me out for dinner.

We walked back to the car and I drove Julie home and we talked all the way. It really was an enjoyable evening. I dropped Julie off and drove home, now I am looking forward to our Zoom meeting and our Wednesday night dinner and yes next weeks trip to Diva Las Vegas.

Be safe and thanks for reading my blog.


October 19, 2021 Posted by | Dinner out, Starbucks | , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday Susan time

Now it is a Holiday weekend as Monday is Columbus Day, I have to work but I still want to wish everyone a Happy Holiday as I know some people get it off.

It is Saturday and yes, I get to spend most of the day as Susan, I did have a few things to do early in the day so I didn’t start getting ready till about 12:30, now I did take my time as I wanted to relax and enjoy my time getting ready, I also wanted to try a new eye look makeup look. I watch a lot of videos on makeup great way to learn and one that caught my eye was a smokey look with blacks and grey. Now I had to fudge a little as my grey was darker so I used my silver on the inner corner of my eye, black on the outer corner and the darker grey above all that faded out to the eyebrow. In all I was happy with the look as I usually can’t get the black shadow to blend right. It was about 2pm when I was already so I got a few pictures and then I was off walking out my front door to my car as I needed to do some grocery shopping and that means a trip to Walmart.

I got to Walmart and went in and got a cart, yes, I have a few more things to get today, I spent about 30 minutes here shopping, yes, I probably could have done it faster, my male self would have but I was just enjoying being out as Susan. I paid for my groceries and then drove back home. I once again parked in the driveway and took 2 trips bringing in my stuff to put away. It may sound silly but doing things like this helps make Susan feel a real part of who I am. For many years Susan was just in the house and then just a special night out to an LGBQ bar and even our Wednesday night dinners which I truly love but it is a special outing with other transgender people. There is just something about doing something so common and everyday type things like grocery shopping that is special to me and I can’t explain it any better than that.

It was almost 3:30 now and I still had the rest of the day and as it is supposed to rain tomorrow, I did want to go put flowers on my parents grave, this has also become a Susan thing. I never shared this side of me with them when they were alive but some how this seems right. Of course that would mean a stop at the Fred Meyers at Johnson Creek to get the flowers. I grabbed my computer and walked out to my car to leave, as I pulled out of my driveway the neighbor man was out working in his driveway. He waved at me so I waved back and drove off, now it is his wife who knows about me so I am 99.99% sure he does also. I got there just before 4 and went in and got a couple small bouquets and paid for them and was on my way. I got to the cemetery a little after 4 and there were 3 other groups well couples in the same section, I was going to visiting their loved ones. Now I didn’t have to walk past any of them but there was one couple probably 100 feet from where I was going but I really didn’t care. I went and put the flowers on their grave and spent about 20 minutes here, probably should have brought a coat as it was just a little chilly out. I did get a couple pictures as I always do, again this is another one of those everyday type things people do. It really is hard to believe it has been 4 months since my mom passed away and a little over 3 years for my dad. It does get easier but I still think about them every day and that may be my Susan side. Now as I walked back to my car I went by another section and there were 3 deer out there eating the flowers off the grave sites so I don’t think my flowers will last to long. I did get a few pictures with the deer in the background, they are hard to see but one was smaller and may have been a younger deer as it stayed pretty close to the one deer.

I left here and decided to stop at the Starbucks in Orchards on my way home and write my blog from Wednesday nights dinner. I am really trying to get caught up on my blogs. I got there just before 5 and went in. there was one man sitting at a table and 2 ladies waiting for there drinks but really this one is not busy inside as it has a drive through. Now as I said it was a little chilly at the Cemetery so I got a hot chocolate and sat down to work on my blog. Well I got thinking about how I have grown as Susan and the wonderful friends I have made over the years so I sent out a few e-mails to people I have not herd from in a while. One was Alice she really was my first friend as I met her one of the first few times I went out and we exchanged e-mail addresses so she would always e-mail me when she came to town and I would meet her at Embers, she really did help me become more comfortable going out. now she was also older than me by quite a bit and the reason I am telling this is her e-mail bounced back as undeliverable as the account has been closed and this was my only way to contact her, it just makes me wonder. Here is a blog from 2008 when I was out with Alice with a picture of us. I wrote my blog and just played on the internet for a while. It was about 7 when I left Starbucks.

I went home to make dinner yes it will be a late one so just making something light, a little salad and a bratwurst and some corn as I didn’t want fast food. The rest of the night I will just watch TV till bedtime as I look forward till tomorrow. Now on a side note Diva Las Vegas is 2 weeks away, as a matter of fact 2 weeks from today I will have my acrylic nails for my Vegas trip and I am so looking forward to it.

Be happy with who you are and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.


October 11, 2021 Posted by | crossdress, Starbucks, Susan Time | , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A little quiet time as Susan on Sunday.

Well it is Sunday and yes, I get a little Susan time today. Now I had no plans for the day other then I wanted to spend part of it as Susan. now according to the weather yesterday it was supposed to start raining this morning and rain through Tuesday. I made myself an early lunch a little after 11 and then started transforming into Susan. I was all ready a little before 1 so I sat down to watch some TV. Last night I recorded the Bionic Woman as it was a 2-part show and I didn’t want to stay up till midnight plus this way I could fast forward through the commercial, amazing as I watched the 2 hours of it in less than 1 ½ hours. It was only about 2:30 now and it actually looked pretty nice out, mid 70’s and partially sunny so I decided enough sitting around my house. I decided to go to the Starbucks right my house for a while and figure out what I would do.

It only took a couple minutes to get to Starbucks and I went in and ordered my drink and of course the one lady greeted me by name. I talked with her for a bit while she made me my drink, turns out she just moved here a couple months ago from the East coast. I got my drink and went and sat out front as I said it is in the mid 70’s and I wanted to enjoy this weather before it is gone for the winter. There were a couple other groups at the tables outside who I think had the same idea. I stayed here till about 4 while I played on my computer and thought about what I wanted to do. Now I had fixed me a big lunch so I wasn’t really hungry but new I had to have something but what. I decided to go to McDonalds but before you say anything my plan was to go through the drive through and then go down to the waterfront and eat at one of the picnic tables along the river and then take a little walk along the river, a good plan.

I went to the McDonalds at Jantzen Beach as from there it is a short drive back across the river to the waterfront. As I was getting my food the wind picked up a little and this was the change. By the time I got back across the river to the waterfront, maybe 5 minutes the wind was really blowing and although it was still 74 out the wind made it feel a lot colder. Now I did have a coat so that was not the problem really it was the wind, it really messes up my hair so in the end I sat in my car and ate my dinner in the parking lot looking out over the river. Not what I had planned but a nice view. You can also guess I did not go for a walk either. There were actually a lot of people out walking but all the women with long hair (and a couple of men) you could really see it blowing in the wind. This is the one time I really wish it was my own hair as wigs do not do well in the wind, but I really like the advantage of changing up my look with different wigs as you can see from my blogs.

It was a little before 5 when I decided to leave the waterfront as it was still really windy and yes, I just decided to go to the other Starbucks by my house and sit inside for a while and work on my blog and send out the information for our Monday night zoom meeting. I went in and yes was greeted by name by the one young man who always seems to be here, you know it really does make you feel good when they remember you. I got my drink and sat down to get some things down on my computer including starting this blog. Now as I sat there a man walked by and said hi and asked me how my day was going and I immediately thought about yesterday at Starbucks. I said hi back and told him it was good and he just moved on and went and sat 4 tables down and that was it. turns out he knows one of the workers here who came out a couple times and talked with him so he was just being nice. Now as I sat here, I did get a call from my brother so I talked to him for a little bit and also got a call from one of my friends and we talked for a little bit, he wants to get together this week which will be fun as we haven’t got together in months, although he doesn’t know about Susan. I stayed here till about 7 before leaving and heading home for the evening as there was a Hallmark movie, I wanted to watch at 8pm. As I said it was a quiet and relaxing day but fun.

Now I am looking forward to Monday’s zoom meeting and Wednesday nights dinner and then next weekend, there is a chance my brother will come to town but if not, it will be a weekend of Susan and on Saturday I am thinking of making a drive to the coast again for the day for 2 reasons, one I just want to go but 2 I want to try an all-day makeup look to see how well it holds up to get ready for our trip to Las Vegas. On October 25th Cassandra and I will drive all the way to Las Vegas, 15 hours in the car and I want to get a look that will still look good enough when we get there to at least go and check into the hotel. Now I know a few of you wonder why I would do such a long trip in a car as Susan, for me it is the experience. When I go to Las Vegas it is my chance to be Susan 24/7 and do the whole trip as Susan. the only thing I will have on this trip that is my male self is my drivers license and a credit card, nothing else from my male side. It really is an experience to do this as I really have no choice but to be Susan on this trip. By the way there is still time to sign up for Diva Las Vegas if you are interested.

Be safe and be happy, thanks for reading my blog and be sure and follow me on my blog.

September 27, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks, Susan Time | , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday Susan time and another first for me

Well it is Saturday and I get some Susan time. I got up and did some yard work as it is going to rain the next few days so it was about noon when I started getting ready. now I really had no plans although I did want to go to Home Depot and get some fertilizer for my yard and maybe stop at Costco for gas and to pick up a few things and of course there will be a Starbucks stop or two. I did a more dramatic eye look, darker smokey eye look and yes did winged eyeliner and it actually turned out pretty well today and yes, I went for a bright red lipstick as with the mask it will really only be at Starbucks where people will see it. I was all ready by about 1 and on my way. My first stop was Costco for gas and then I went inside and looked around, I really only needed a few things and the trip was mainly for gas. From here I stopped at Home Depot and got my fertilizer, hard to believe I go here as Susan. now I was close to Cascade station and I figured I could check out a few of the stores there as today is a beautiful fall day, right about 80 and no wind.

It was a little after 2 by this time and I hadn’t eaten yet so I decided to start at the Starbucks and get a drink and a bagel. Now they were busy so I had to park a little way away. I went in and actually they were not busy at all. As I stood there waiting for the lady to come take my order the young lady making the drinks greeted me by saying, Hi Susan are you getting a sweetened green iced tea today? Yes, she remembered me and I said yes so by the time I paid for my drink I had it already. Now as I said it was a nice day so I went outside and sat down, I couldn’t get one of the tables in the shade but there was one that was partially shades by an umbrella so that was where I sat. I got a quick picture and then I posted my blog from last Mondays Zoom meeting and then just started doing some work on my computer. Now I do get asked occasionally what work I am doing. I actually own some stocks and as hard as it is to believe I find it interesting to follow them and read about them and research stocks I may want to buy in the future. Yes, I have turned this part of my life over to Susan. a table opened in the shade and as the umbrella was not helping me much, I moved to that table by the building. Now I had been here about an hour or so and pretty much everyone was sitting outside as I said it was the perfect fall day.

Now as I said it was another first because as I sat here, I suddenly heard a mans voice say, wow did you get your hair done today it looks amazing. I looked up from my computer and there was a man standing there probably 40’ish. I thanked him for the compliment as what else can you do. He then went on to tell me how pretty I was and that he had seen me here before and just had to come meet me and sat down across the table from me. Now this is really flattering but as I have said before I am in no way attracted to men. He introduced himself to me as Michael. Now this has happened to me a few times before in Bars but this was a first at Starbucks. Now in the daylight I knew there was no way he could believe I was anything other then transgender so at least I didn’t have to worry about that. We talked briefly and yes; I gave him my name as what can you do when someone asks. He then said he would like to get together sometime and asked for my phone number. I politely told him I didn’t think my girlfriend would like that and that seemed to take care of it, yes, I lied about having a girlfriend but it seemed the easiest way out without hurting his feelings. We talked a few minutes more and he told me he drove shuttle to the airport so he comes here pretty regular. Well he finally said goodbye and left but now I have this to think about when I come here as I do like this Starbucks also as it is a great place to stop when I am out shopping. I stayed here about 15 more minutes before putting my computer in my trunk and walking over to DSW and Ross Dress for less to look around.

I didn’t find anything I liked so I walked down to Best Buy and looked around a little yes it was all about just being out. it was a nice day out. It was almost 5 now so I walked back to my car and decided I would go get something to eat. Now I have gone to IHOP and Sherries by myself but there is something about going to a sit-down dinner place by yourself and in the end, I drove over to Orchards to the Wendy’s I normally go to and got something to eat. It was a little after 6 when I finished eating and I wanted to finish my day at Starbucks and work on my blog but if I went to the one by my house which closes at 7:30 I would only have about an hour so I decided to go to the Starbuck here in Orchards right by Wendy’s. I have gone here before but usually early morning or afternoon but I figured it would give ne the most time as I am basically there already.

I went in and got a drink and sat down and it turns out this Starbucks is open till 9 so I actually have a little more time tonight. I got my computer out and started writing this blog and catching up on e-mails and just relaxing as Susan, I just figure this is a more fun way to spend time then sitting at home as Susan on my computer. Now I had been here about 15 minutes when another man came in and got a drink and sat down at the table right next to me and got his computer out and I thought about what happened earlier after all we were the only 2 in the place so why did he sit so close but he never said a word to me while I was there so it was probably just so he could plug his computer in also. I stayed here till a little after 8 before heading home for the night. it was a fun and relaxing Saturday.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for reading my blog and be sure to read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 26, 2021 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , | 1 Comment

A quiet Sunday as Susan and a nice drive

Well it is Sunday and I really hadn’t planned on having Susan time today but as I had the day free, I decided to spend it as Susan. I decided I would take a drive up the gorge and maybe check out Multnomah Falls. Yes, it is a rainy day but there are supposed to be some sun breaks and I was hoping with the weather they would not be that busy. My plan was to leave around 9 so I got up early and got ready. now as you all know who read my blog, I love makeup and trying different looks and today was no exception. Today though I was going to try and find a makeup look that would go well with my black wig, I don’t wear this one often as if the makeup is not just right, I don’t look good. I spent about 2 hours getting ready and yes used more rose color eye shadow and a softer color lipstick and, in the end, I was pretty happy with how it turned out and I did get a few pictures. I wore black leggings and a grey sweater top and my white and pink tennis shoes in case the weather cooperates and I can get out and walk around at the falls. I also took my ankle boots just in case I stop someplace where I don’t have to walk a lot, a girl hast to be prepared.

I left home and drove out I-84 and saw a sign that said the parking lot was full and also something about a permit which is something new but I figured I would go check it out. now it is only about 40 miles not as far as I thought but was a nice drive. I got there and yes, the parking lot was full so I drove down the old highway and drove by it just to look but couldn’t find any roadside parking either so today would just be a nice drive. I decided to drive up to Hood River just for something to do as I have not been here in years. I got to Hood River right about 11am and planned to drive back the Washington side but did stop at a McDonald’s. Now Hood River is not real big and I don’t suppose they have a hug Transgender population but I figured if Nicole could go out in all the small towns, she goes to in Washington why not me. I went in and ordered some food and sat and ate it and really no one paid any attention to me although I am sure I got a few looks. After I ate, I drove across the bridge and headed back towards home. It was a nice drive and gave me time to think.

Now from time to time we get girls who question this side of our lives and that goes for me also. One of our girls posted a question to the group on how do we explain this to people and this got me thinking about it again. It really is a hard thing to explain to people, it is hard to explain even to myself. Why do I dress this way? Why do I like to go out as a female? What is the purpose or point of it? All are really good questions that is am sure we have all thought about and tried to justify to ourselves and others. For me this was my biggest issue growing up and what kept me from enjoying this part of who I am for many years. I will give you my answers to these questions and they are just that, how I feel about these.

The short answer is I have no idea and I am sure that is not the deep wisdom you were hoping for. It is like asking why someone buys a white car over a red or blue car, why someone buys a Toyota over a Ford or Chevy, why someone likes a certain food. The simplest answer is it is who we are. I am who I am and that is all I can be. I like makeup, I don’t know why. I like pretty and long nails, I don’t know why, I like pretty dresses, I don’t know why. We get so hung up on trying to figure out why we are who we are instead of enjoying who we are. I know some women who hate long nails, who hate heel, who hate dresses and yes some even hate doing makeup, go figure. It doesn’t change who they are any more then my love of these things changes the person I am inside. For my friends both as Susan or my male self, if you were talking to me on the phone there is nothing that would give me away. The only way any of my friends would be able to tell is to see me. I am still the same caring friendly person no matter how I am dressed. Society has created these little boxes that everyone should fit into and if you don’t it seems some people can’t process what they see. As society we really need to get pass the outward appearance of people and see them for who they are. I will date myself a little here but there use to be a TV show called the Dating game from the late 60’s & early 70’s where one person asked questions of 3 people hidden behind a curtain and it wasn’t till, they picked that they got to meet. The other person could be older than you, younger, a different race or nationality and I think that is a great way. We tend to form opinions about people and judge them simply on how they look and I think we miss out on meeting a lot of wonderful people. The friends I have made as Susan are some of the most wonderful people you could every meet. So I guess what I am saying is don’t worry so much about why you are like this but focus on enjoying who you are as everyone is special in their own way. Wow I guess the drive was longer than I thought.

I got back to Vancouver a little after 2 and yes, I had my computer with me so I figured I would stop at Starbucks but there was a problem, my hair. Now yes, I have gone to the Starbucks with different hair before but it was really more the style of the wig not the color. Showing up with black hair would be a big change so I decided to go to the Starbucks by Vancouver mall, I have gone here a couple times over the years but not enough that anyone would really remember me. This one does not have a drive through so it really is a good place to people watch. I got my drink and sat by the window facing the door so I could watch the people come and go. Now there was one young girl that I just have to mention as she walked in and looked towards me and turned around and walked back out and yes I was thinking it was me but she went to her car and got her mask which she had forgotten and came back in. now the funny thing is she had what I think was a sucker in her moth as I could see the stick, sticking out so she had her mask around her chin and yes the whole time she was in here that was how she wore it. this is not about wearing a mask or not of if they do anything or not but I am just wondering why she went back out to get it if she wasn’t going to wear it. I stayed here till about 4:30 before going to get something to eat.

I decided to go to Cascade station as I wanted to go to the Ross Dress for Less and I figured I could do the Panda Express there. I got there and went into Ross and looked around, found a couple dresses but not in my size, I really envy smaller ladies. I walked over to the Panda Express and went in, there were 5 people a head of me so I had to wait and it was cold. They had their air conditioning going and it was actually colder inside then outside and it was only 64 degrees outside. I got my dinner and went and sat at a small table outside under the breeze way. Now as I sat and ate dinner it did rain and it turns out I was just under the cover as less then 10 feet away from me it was all wet from the rain. It was actually a cool way to eat and watch the rain.

I left here and normally I would go to the Starbucks near my house and work on my blog but again I didn’t want to go there with my different color hair. The reason is these places I always go to as Susan on a regular basis they only see me this way and it may sound silly but I am sure they think I am full time as they never see me any other way and I like that. Going with such a dramatic change in hair color may make them wonder.

I decided to go to the Starbucks on Mill lain as it is on my way home and yes, I have gone here before but not really regular so I doubt they would remember me. I got there just before 6 and went in. I got my drink and sat down to work on my blog from today. I only stayed here till a little after 7 before going home as I had some laundry to do before bed. I also sent out the information for our Monday night zoom meeting.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

I also booked my hotel for Diva Las Vegas next month. A lot more expensive this year as it is over Halloween. I will be there for 8 nights and that Friday and Saturday before Halloween is almost ½ of what my room will be. We will arrive on October 25th and leave November 2nd. Yes, I will have acrylic nails, I plan to stop on my way home Friday night October 22nd and get my nails and have them removed on November 3rd, I am so looking forward to this.

September 19, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks, Thoughts on Crossdressing | , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday and yes, I got some Susan time

Well it is Saturday and yes, I am getting some Susan time this weekend, my brother was supposed to come up and we were going to go golfing but with the forecast for heavy rain and thunderstorms we decided to postpone it a couple weeks and as such that leaves my weekend free. Now I did have a few things I wanted to do today but luckily Susan could do them all. I needed to run to Costco, Home Depot and I wanted to drop some stuff off at Goodwill, yes getting rid of some of my parents stuff, something I have been putting off but felt it was time. I did a more dramatic eye makeup look as I figured when I go into places, I must wear a mask so I wanted my eyes to make a statement and yes, I did go with a red lipstick but more of a brick red and again the only place this will be visible is in my car or when I stop at Starbucks which will happen or when I figure out what I will do for dinner. I got dressed and was all ready by 11am and today I wore my maroon long sleeve sweeter top and my jeggings which are a cross between leggings and jeans of course that meant my hip pads. It was a nice casual look for the day. I got a few pictures and was on my way.

My first stop was the Goodwill by my house there were a couple cars in front of me so I only had a short wait. The young man who helped me never said a thing. I left here and headed for Home Depot, my one toilet seat broke so Susan will replace that today, yes, she can do minor home repairs. I got to the Costco by the airport and went in and found what I needed and was on my way. My next step was Costco I needed a few things and I wanted to cash my rebate check. Went in and picked up the things I needed, toilet paper and some cleaning supplies and some snacks including some peanut butter cookies which I really should not have bought but they are so good. I paid for my stuff and then went to the membership area to cash my rebate check. There was only 1 young man working it as I stood in line behind 4 other people. As I stood there, I wondered what he would say. I was next in line when a young lady came up and opened the next spot and waved me over. I handed her my rebate voucher and was waiting for her to ask for ID when she told me they changed it and don’t cash them any more I had to spend in the store. She did say I didn’t have to spend it all as they will give change back and as I had already done my shopping I just left.

Now on the way home it actually got a little sunny out so I drove down by the waterfront and figured I would take a short walk. There were not many people probably because of the weather so I parked and got out of my car. I walked about 200 feet and it started to get windy I mean really windy so I turned to walk back to my car which luckily, I was walking into the wind. I did get a couple quick pictures and looked down towards the bridge and I could see a dark cloud and I could see the rain coming so I walked quickly back to my car and just beat the rain. I went home and unloaded my car and fixed my toilet and brushed out my hair as the wind kind of meshed it up.

It was a little after 2 and I decided to drive to the Starbucks in Orchards and catch up on e-mails and do a little work on my computer. I got my drink and sat down at a table inside facing the door so I could people watch as people came in. Now, I had been here about 30 minutes when it got dark and really started to rain hard and that turned to hail and yes, the ground looked like it had a layer of snow on it. The hail only lasted maybe 10 minutes or less but the heavy rain lasted almost 30 minutes and I found myself watching it. I stayed here till about 4:30 before leaving to go get dinner.

I decided to go to Sherri’s by Vancouver mall and get something to eat. I got there about 4:50 and went in and they were not busy, only 2 booths were taken, one with an older couple and one with a lady and her little boy. My waiters name was Justin and he was really nice and never miss gendered me and we had a nice conversation about the weather today and what was going on, turns out he is ex-military and was in Afghanistan till he got injured so I made a point of thanking him for his service. I ordered my dinner and yes, I got the country fried chicken dinner, one of the reasons I came here. Now as I said they were not busy which surprised me being a Saturday evening. Well I must have timed it just right because about 5:15 people started coming in and it was a pretty steady stream of people and soon most of the tables were taken. It was about 5:30 when I finished and had paid my bill and as I left, I walked by 2 couples who were waiting for a table.

I decided to go to the Starbucks near my house that is open till 7:30 but on the freeway traffic slowed way down almost to a stop as we had another heavy rain and hail again as a matter of fact a few of us actually pulled onto the shoulder and stopped as it was not worth the risk. It only lasted about 5 minutes and again the road was white. It has been a really stormy day today. I got to the Starbucks right about 6 and went in and got my drink and sat down to relax.

I went in and got a drink and sat down to work on today’s blog and just spend a little relaxing time as Susan. There were a few other people inside yes with the weather no one was sitting outside. I stayed here till about 7:20 before leaving for the night. I went home and watched some TV till bedtime and yes, I get another day as Susan tomorrow. I am not sure what I will do but part of the day will be spent as Susan. The problem right now is the mask mandates and I won’t get into if it is good or not but as Susan I want to be out where I can be seen and yes, the mask makes it easier to pass but also covers part of my face so I am less visible. The few places I can be inside and take the mask off are restaurants when I am at the table or in a place like Starbucks where I can sit at a table and have a drink without my mask on or I have to be outside. I am so ready for things to return to normal.

Be safe and be happy with who you are and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 18, 2021 Posted by | shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday Susan time.

Well it is Sunday and I get some time this afternoon as Susan. now other then doing my blog from Saturday and a little grocery shopping I have nothing planned but yes it will be as Susan. I started getting ready a little after noon and today I tried a little different makeup look. Now I had bought a foundation that was not right for me, I would say to dark but really had kind of an orangey look to it so it has just sat there. Well today I decided to mix it with a lighter shade and see if I could get a darker look without being orange. It seems to have worked and it gave me a darker skin tone almost like a deep tan. I did do a somewhat dramatic eye look and of course bright red lips, yes, I love my red lipstick. In all I was pretty happy with the look. I was all ready a little before. Now my plan for today is to go to the Starbucks by my house as they are open till 5:30 now and do my blog from yesterday and then go grocery shopping. Figure out something for dinner and then to the other Starbucks by my house as they are open till 7:30 to finish off the night.

It only took a couple minutes to get to the Starbuck and I went in. This Starbucks does not have a drive through so you must walk in. inside there were 2 people waiting for drinks and a couple sitting at a table. Now one of the workers walked by and said Susan right and I said yes and she said good to see you back. Now I have come here a couple times lately but I was surprised she remembered me. We talked briefly while I waited for my drink and then sat by the window as it was a little windy outside today. Now I had been here about 20 minutes and suddenly it was a steady stream of people coming in and yes some were sitting at tables, it is good for people watching. I worked on my blog from Saturday and yes as I sat here, I did see a couple people I know come in but I just kept my head down to my computer and kept working.

I stayed here till about 3:30 before leaving and going over to Fred Meyers and doing a little shopping. Really shopping for 1 person is pretty easy and doesn’t take that long so I was home and putting my stuff away before 5. Now it was what do I do for dinner. Now I did have a big lunch before I started getting all pretty, a big salad and a chicken breast so I wasn’t really hungry but knew I needed to eat something or I would be snacking later tonight. I decided to go to Wendy’s in Orchards. Now like the Starbucks at Cascade station this is the other place I do go both as my male and female self. I got there about 5:15 and went in and there were a few people inside eating. I got my food and sat down to eat. I have said it a lot in my blogs but when I am Susan, I really don’t want to just sit at home reason I will stop at Starbucks after I eat and finish up some stuff I need to do on my computer. It is funny as for years Susan was hid in my house and now, she is out in the world and yes even doing some of my work and in the past some of my training classes for my male self, I always say my male self supports Susan but, in a way, I guess Susan is earning a little bit of my money by doing some of my work this way. Computers have really helped make things easier and more fun. I was only here for about 20 minutes before leaving for the other Starbucks near my house.

I got to the Starbucks just before 6 and went in, and yes, a couple of the employees greeted me by name as I really do come to this Starbucks a lot. It’s that old saying with all the money I spend at Starbucks I should own stock, wait I do own stock in Starbuck’s so I guess I am supporting myself. Now I did think about sitting outside but still just a little to windy for Susan, yes, the one drawback of having long hair. There were 6 tables along the window with 3 people at them but the spacing was such I took one between a young lady and a young man, we were probably 5 feet apart and I did ask if it was okay with them, yes, I interacted with them and both said it was fine. Now I did send out the notice to our group about our Monday night Zoom meeting and then finished up on a little work. Yes, the work was some training for work as we get little bonuses if we do this and it is Susan’s contribution and her way of helping out plus I get a kick out of wondering what my co-workers would think if they new this was how I did it.

I also started on today’s blog as I really want to have it done before our zoom meeting tomorrow. This coming week I really need to keep up on it as I will have family in town next weekend so there will be no Susan time and no chance to get caught up on my blogs. It was about 6:20 and 2-woman came in and got drinks and went outside to sit and I could see I made the right choice to sit inside, one of them had her hair in a ponytail but the other didn’t and I could see it blowing in the wind and she had her sunglasses on her head trying to hold it back and was still occasionally having it in her face. By 6:30 4 other women had joined them and yes all of them either pulled their hair into a ponytail or a bun non their heads.

I stayed here till 7:30 and then I went home for the night as I had a load of laundry to do and I wanted to watch a Hallmark movie I recorded today called a Winter Princess, Yes that is another wonderful thing about being Susan as I love movies like this. It has been a good weekend and now I look forward to tomorrows Zoom meeting with my friends.

Stay safe and love who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recant blog to see what is new in my life.

Now I do post my pictures in my blog but I also post my favorites on my Flickr page and I thought I would share a few links to my favorites from the past year if you care to look. By the way none of my pictures are touched up I just post the ones that turn out well.

This one I was able to create some nice Cleavage in and thought it was an overall great picture

This one my skin looks flawless and my eyes bright with the purple eye shadow

This one I tried looking away to get a casual look and I liked it

This one was just a little out of focus by accident but it turned out well and I loved my eyes

This one was all about my smile I loved the way it looked


September 13, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday Susan time and a little shopping

Well it is Saturday and I get to spend some time as Susan after I do some things in the morning. I left home early in hopes I could be home by noon. Thing went well and I had everything done by 11 and as I was by Cascade station, I made a quick stop at the Starbucks to finish my blog from Monday and post it. now this is the one Starbucks I do go to both as my male and female selves. I got my drink and finished and posted my blog and was on my way home a little before noon. Now I did this for 1 main reason, today I want to do a little shopping and yes, I am going to go to Clackamas Town center and this will be a good place to stop on my way home as Susan.

I got home about 12:30 and started getting ready, I took my time today as I wanted to try a more daytime look, my eye shadow will be just browns some deep and others more neutral but going for a soft smokey eye look and for my lips more of a mauve pinkish color. I was all ready by 2 so I grabbed my computer and walked out the door to my car and was on my way. I got to Clackamas Town center about 2:30 and parked by JC Penny’s and went in, now being a Saturday afternoon they were pretty busy which I expected. Now I did need to buy something but mostly it was just to window shop but of course you never know. Next weekend my brother is coming into town and we are going golfing and I need some golf balls so I wanted to go to Dick’s Sporting goods, I might have been here before as Susan but not Susan’s normal stop. Now it is funny as when I first started this journey it was always my male self, buying stuff for Susan, over time Susan started buying her own stuff and the last couple years Susan is doing more shopping for my male self so I guess I have come full circle.

I walked to the far end of the mall yes Dick’s is at the opposite end of the mall and went in. I browsed the golf equipment and looked things over before getting what I needed and they had a sale by 1 box of balls get a second free so I got 2 and went to the checkout. Now in Oregon you must pay for your bag so they usually ask but the girl at the checkout never asked so I requested one and to my surprise was told they were out. Well I walked all the way back and out to my car as I didn’t want to carry them loose. I went back inside and looked around, I checked out the dresses and heels in Penny’s before going back into the mall.

I worked my way down the mall and went in and looked at some of the earrings in the small jewelry stores and I found some really cute dangly ones but controlled myself as I already have about 15 pairs now and it takes me a while to cycle through them all especially as I have my favorites, yes, the bigger hoop earrings. I also went into Macy’s to check out their dress section and again found some really cute dresses but just not my size. Now as I was leaving Macy’s I walked right past a lady I knew and yes, we did make eye contact as she was looking right at me but I just walked on by as I figure with the face mask on, she wouldn’t figure it out. now I was right by the MAC store and saw Tracy, Sherri’s friend in there so I decided to stop in just to say hi, I ran into her here last Monday as my male self and also saw her at Wednesday night dinner so I figured this would complete the week. We talked for a few minutes, turns out her and Sherri stopped at a bar Wednesday night after dinner to top off Sherri’s first night out, good for her. I bet she had a blast. I walked around the mall a little more and yes passed the lady I knew 2 more tines but she really paid no attention to me so I am pretty sure earlier was just taking in seeing a trans person. Now I only see here about once every other week so it will be interesting the next time but I am pretty sure I am safe. This is the only bright side to having to wear masks.

It was a little after 4 when I left here and headed back towards home. I did need to make a stop at Target as the color of lipstick I am wearing today is almost gone and I wanted to pick up a new one. I went in and got what I needed and went to the checkout. Now this Target has about 12 checkout lanes and a self-checkout to but with all the people here today they only had 2 lanes open pretty much forcing people to go to the self-checkout as for 1 item I didn’t want to stand in line behind 6 people with full carts. From here I went to the Starbucks and as I figured 2 of the girls working here were also here earlier when I was my male self. the girl working the counter who took my order was the same one from earlier and she seemed to show no signs of recognition but I am sure she see lots of people each day.

Now they were also really busy and all the tables outside were taken so I sat inside and worked on my blog from Wednesday nights dinner. I had been here about an hour when I saw a couple tables outside open up so I moved out there as it really is a nice evening about 78 out and I just wanted to be outside as I know winter is coming and it will be too cold to be outside. Plus that seemed to be where everyone wanted to be and a great place to people watch. I stayed here till about 6:30 before walking across the street to Panda Express and getting something to eat I did sit at one of the outside tables and eat before heading for home. It was a fun and relaxing day out as Susan. tomorrow I will get to spend the afternoon and evening as Susan again and will have to enjoy it as next weekend my brother will be here so there will be no Susan time.

Be happy and stay safe and thanks for sharing this part of my life with me and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 12, 2021 Posted by | shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday and some Susan time.

Happy Labor Day weekend, hope you are all enjoying it. It is Sunday and I got up and decided to go to a Starbucks early and write my blog from yesterday and post it. I was in male mode and today I got no comments on my nails at all, I did see a couple people glance at me as I sat there in Starbucks writing my blog. I didn’t stay long and was back home about 10am. Now it was slightly overcast and only about 70 out so I decided to get ready early. Now today I wanted a really dramatic eye look, I used more browns and a copper color and was happy with the look and yes today I did false eye lashes. I was really happy with the look. Now probably a little over the top for the daytime but I think this would be a great look for an evening out especially with a black dress. It was a little after 11 when I was already although I used the last of my face powder so that means a trip to Walmart. I decided to go to the one at Delta Park as I figured I could stop at Sherri’s and get some breakfast.

I got there just before 11:30 and went in, they were not busy so I got a table and ordered breakfast. Well I must have arrived just before the after-Church crowd as about 10 minutes later people started showing up and soon, they really busy and yes, a lot of the woman had on dresses or skirts and I was wishing I had worn a dress but I plan to be out for the day so it was probably good I didn’t. I ate my breakfast and made a quick stop at Walmart and got my face powder and yes, I picked up another lipstick which I really don’t need. On the way home I drove down by the waterfront and there were a lot of people walking along the waterfront and it was still overcast and a pleasant temperature out so I parked. I decided instead of walking the waterfront to take the path over the highway to Fort Vancouver, that way didn’t look as crowded. This is a really nice walk and about ¾ of a mile to the front of the fort, I did pass a few people and yes, my makeup was way more then what the other woman were wearing. Now it is not open on Sundays probably why there were not a lot of people over this way. I walked around the little garden area and down to the far end and around the fort. Now by this time the sun had come out and it was getting warm as there is really no shade here so I decided to walk back to my car and yes, I was still passing people but they really didn’t pay any attention to me and some said hi as they passed. It was a pleasant walk although getting warm now. I got back to my car and I was a little on the hot side, in all I walked about 2 miles. Now on my way home I decided to make a stop at the Starbuck’s by my house and get a cold green iced tea and as I had my computer with me, I sat out front in the shade and drank it and did a little work on my computer, catching up on some e-mails. It is only about 80 so if you are not in the sun, it is really pleasant out.

It was about 4 when I decided it was tine to figure something out for dinner. I had a big breakfast so I really wasn’t that hungry but new I had to have something. Well I decided to swing by Taco Bell and get something from the drive through and then drive down by the waterfront, my plan was to sit on a bench and eat as I watched the people walk by. This is something I have never done before. I parked by the condos as it is close to the walkway with most of the benches. I locked my purse in the trunk and took my food and keys and walked about 300 feet to a bench that was in the shade but overlooking the river and sat down and ate my food. People would walk by and to my surprise most said hi or nodded at me and one lady made the comment to the guy she was with that they should come have a picnic down here. Now the bad thing is when I put my purse in the trunk, I left my phone in it so no pictures from here. That is the one thing bad about being female is most of the clothes (the cute ones) don’t have pockets. While I ate, I sat my keys on the bench next to me. I was only here maybe 20 to 30 minutes before leaving but it was fun. It was almost 5 now and I really had nothing more to do but I didn’t want to go home yet so I decided to go to the other Starbuck’s by my house which is open till 7:30 and finish up Saturday’s blog and start on todays as I don’t want to get behind again.

It was about 5:15 when I got to the Starbuck’s and as I walked in the young man greeted me by name, of course I come here a lot, as I have said before just sitting at home as Susan is not that fun. I would rather go someplace even if just to a Starbucks to play on my computer. I got my drink and the lady who handed it to me commented on how pretty my nails were. I sat down and got my computer out and was looking at my nails and yes, I really took a close look. Now as I said in my other blog Friday night I just went and got a manicure with gel polish; these are my actual real nails. It is funny as I have been growing them out for weeks for this weekend and yes, they did look a little long but really never thought of them as feminine looking. Now that they are all shaped up nicely (yes when she shaped them, she did shorten them just a little to even them out) and painted a bright orangey red they really do look perfect and yes feminine. I think my hands look really pretty this way and it will be sad tomorrow when I have to remove the color and yes shorten them down as I think the perfect shape of them would stand out. Just look how pretty they are.

Well I finished Saturday blog and did start

on today’s but then got sidetracked with some e-mails and catching up on the news, yes, I follow the news as I feel it is important to know what is going on and get your information from both sides so you can decide what is correct and what you believe is true. I was also thinking about tomorrow as I said I have to remove the gel polish to go back to work. I feel I have 3 options, 1 try to remove it myself Monday night as I think I can do it and it would be interesting to do it but the problem with that is if I can’t or something goes wrong, I would be stuck for Tuesday at work. I could also go tomorrow morning as my male self if I can find a salon open on the holiday or tomorrow afternoon as Susan again if I can find a salon open. I am really leaning towards going as Susan as that would be the most fun. I stayed here till 7:30 when they closed and then took a short drive before going home to watch TV till bedtime. It was a fun day

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 6, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday and some Susan time and a BBQ

It is Saturday and I awoke to my beautiful nails this morning. I s love them. Now if you read my blog from Friday when I got them done I also included my going out this morning as my male self with my nails so if you are interested in that please read yesterday’s blog. I will however talk about getting my nails done, I have gone to many Nail salons over the years and really have never had a bad experience but I will admit I do have 2 favorites. One I only go to as Susan (Dream Nails) so that is the only way they know me and the other I only go as my male self (Julie’s nail & spa) so that is the only way they know me. Both do an incredible job and make a personal connection with you and make you feel not just welcome but wanted as a guest, I would highly recommend both. Now today I will be going over to Julie’s later for a BBQ, she texted me yesterday to see if I could make it. her and Trixie made a last-minute decision to host a BBQ today and invite a few of the girls from our group.

Now as I said I was out this morning and didn’t get home till a little after 12, and of course I started getting ready right away. Now I cleaned up a little and started, well finished my makeup. I had done a light makeup this morning as my male self, full mascara, eyeliner under my upper lash line and some medium browns and gold eye shadow. I started with my brows and got them done and then darkened my eye shadow for a more dramatic look and added eye liner on the lower water line and some shadow below my lower lashes. Now it was time for foundation, contour, blush, highlighter, some concealer and finally my red lipstick. I was really happy with my eye makeup today as I was able to blend it into a nice smokey eye look. I finished it off with my black and white summer dress, yes, I wear this one a lot as I really don’t have summer dresses something I need to buy before next summer. I was all ready by a about 1:30. Now I need to be to Julie’s at 5 for the BBQ so I had about 3 hours as yes, I do want to go home first and change and check my makeup before going to Julies. I decided to go to the Starbucks right by my house as it is close and they are open till 3. I figured I could sit outside and stay there till about 4 before going home to change, my battery on my computer should last that long.

I got my computer and walked out my front door to my car and drove the 2 minutes to Starbucks, yes, a few years ago I never would have gone someplace so close to home. I parked and went in, there were 6 people sitting inside and a couple ordering and 4 waiting for drinks but no one sitting outside which surprised me. The great thing about this Starbucks is the outside tables get the morning sun and the afternoon shade. I ordered my drink and waited with the other ladies for our drinks. I went and sat outside and got my computer out, as it started, I texted Julie again to see if I could bring anything she texted back she had everything so I just texted back that I would be relaxing at Starbucks then. Well she texted back she was getting ready and come early. Now I really did need to finish my blog so I texted her I would be there about 4 I wrote and posted my blog and about 3:15 I left and went home to change into my red dress and check my makeup before heading for Julie’s. I like this dress as it is just a little tight and a little low cut and I can get a little nice cleavage with it. I got to Julies just before 4, Julie was finishing getting ready and Trixie was getting food prepped, Trixie does a lot of parties and she does a wonderful job, everything is perfect. I did help a little with getting stuff ready for the table.

Now there would be 8 of us tonight, Julie, Trixie, me, Cassandra, Melissa and her wife and Claire and her wife. Julie, Trixie and I talked as we got things ready. just before 5 Melissa and her wife and Cassandra showed up so we all went out on the deck and sat down and had chis and dip and crackers and cheese, it was so good. we had a wonderful time talking and just socializing. It was about 5:30 when Claire and ger wife showed up so they joined in. it was really enjoyable.

Soon it was time for our master chef to start the BBQ, Julie is really good with the grill, tonight was salad, Baked potato, and either steak or salmon, I had the steak. The food came off the grill and it was perfect, Thanks so much Julie and Trixie. We sat and had an incredible dinner with wonderful friends. It was the perfect start to the Holiday weekend and yes, I had to show off my cute nails. Of course I got thinking about them as I did do gel polish which is not easy to remove. Now normally I would just go to the Nail salon the evening before I go back to work which would be Monday evening but there are 2 problems with this. Monday night is our zoom meeting so I need to be home and not at the nail salon. The other thing is Monday is Labor Day, a holiday so I am not sure nails salons will be open. I may have to try to remove them myself as I can not show up at work Tuesday with these nails.

We had a wonderful dinner and wonderful conversation and even a wonderful dessert, I ate way more then I should have which is nothing new although I did have a small piece of the cake and skipped the ice cream which was really hard to do. Julie and Trixie do these BBQ every so often and they have so much food and it is all so good. Julie also has a really beautiful house with a beautiful deck that overlooks the Columbia River, the perfect home for a BBQ. After dinner we sat and just talked. It was such a magical evening. It was about 10 when Cassandra called it a night and as much as I hated it, I knew the night was coming to an end. The rest of us talked a little more and about 10:30 it was so we all helped Julie and Trixie bring stuff back into the house before we all said our goodbye for the night. it is always hard when the evening comes to an end but I will see Julie, Cassandra and Claire again on Wednesday as we go to dinner at Southland Whiskey kitchen, yes it has only been a couple weeks since we were there but one of our newest members wants to make her first trip out as her female self and she is familiar with this place as the last time we came here she had dinner here as her male self and afterwards came over and met a few of us.

I want to thank Julie and Trixie for such a wonderful evening and the incredible food, you two are awesome, thanks so much. I am truly blessed to have friends like you.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for sharing this part of my life with me. Be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 6, 2021 Posted by | crossdresser, friends, Starbucks, transgender | , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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