Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Monday night zoom meeting

It is Monday again and that means another Zoom meeting with my friends. I got home and started getting ready. I took my time tonight as I had a lot of time. I was all ready by 6:30 so I got a few pictures and figured I would finish my blog from Sunday as I am behind. I went a head and started the meeting at 6:40 so it would be ready when other girls wanted to log on and to my surprise Danika signed on almost immediately and right after her was Nicole, Jan & Lynn, Jennifer and Emily so by 6:55 we had 7 of us logged on so I didn’t get to work on my blog but that was okay.

By a little after 7 we had everyone logged on and tonight, we had 12 of us, Danika, Nicole, Jan & Lynn, Jenifer, Emily, Melissa, Danielle, Trish, Patty, Jeanie and me. It was great to see and talk with everyone tonight. Now one of the subjects tonight was about eye lid lifts, yes one of our ladies had some droop in her eyelids which we will all face at some point, well it turns out if this effects your peripheral vision it is covered by medical insurance. Well when she went in for her consultation, she told the surgeon she was transgender so he was going to do a little more for her. Now she joined us tonight as the day she was supposed to have her surgery she woke up with a head cold so it was postponed but it was interesting to hear about what she plans on having done. Now I have no plans to transition or go full time but I also realize that time and age have an impact on your life, body and looks. I have talked with a few girls who wonder how long they can continue dressing before their age make it hard and for me, I don’t see an age that will happen at least at this point although I may have to tone it down some, plus we have some older members that look awesome when they go out.

We also had one of our ladies who had top surgery and yes, we have another one who will get theirs in a few days so that was the next topic. Now I think all of us has at least thought about having real breast and yes that include me also. Yes, when I am Susan, I do wish I had real breast as it would make it so much easier and yes fun. The thing is for me when I am not Susan, I don’t even think about it. Any way it was fun and interesting to hear about the procedure and how she feels now that it is done. These were to good topics tonight.

We talked a little more and yes Jennifer had a question tonight, what was one or more if the events in your life that you really remember that changed your life. Now for me the most important really wasn’t an event but some of the people I have et who helped me grow and accept this side of me. I got thinking about this and yes there was Lori who helped me get out of my car for the first time, Alice who would e-mail me and get me to join her when she came to Portland, Cassandra who talked me into joining her yahoo group which became the Rose City t-girls, and so many others but it is more then that. There are those who really had small impacts that really were bigger than you think. There was a girl named Rachel who talked me into going to dinner with her one night, this was early on when I maybe got out once every 4 to 6 months, well that night after dinner we stopped into Embers and that was the night, I met Cassandra and joined her group and started going out once a week. Had I not gone to dinner that night I night never have met Cassandra or at the very least it would have been month or years later. You never know who will have an impact on your life. Now I only mentioned a few here but there are so many who have had such a huge impact on my life and they really ate my best friends or more like family. I can’t imagine my life without them and the thought that had I not made that first outing or met these girls early on how different my life would have been and not in a good way.

Now on to my event and again there have been many that stick out but one I always come back to. If you read my blog, you know I love long nails and it is something I have always wanted to have and yes if I could have them all the time I would. Ay way it was back in the mid 1990’s and I had been dressing at home and yes sometime making late night drives but I really wanted to try acrylic nails and at this time I really didn’t know much about how they were done or removed. Well I had a 3-day weekend so I summoned all my courage and booked a hotel room for Thursday, Friday and Saturday night and told my roommate I was going camping. I then called and made an appointment to get my nails done. My plan was to get them done and spend the days in my hotel room and maybe make some late-night drive. Now I did go as Susan to get my nails done and this really was my first outing other then going through a burger king drive through. As I said I really didn’t do much that weekend other than fulfilling a lifelong dream of getting my nails done and I have loved them ever since. Now the funny thing is the next week at work I was talking with one of the ladies I worked with, the only one with acrylic nails and I complimented her on them and commented on why the other women at work didn’t get their nails done and I still remember what she said to me, she said you have no idea how expensive having nails like this is, and she told me she spent almost $1,000 a year at tat time to have her nails done. Well in my mind I was thinking I do know how expensive they are as I just spent almost $300 dollars on a hotel room for 3 night, $30 + tip to get acrylic nails and then 3 days later $15 + tip to have them removed and I only had them 3 days, way more expensive in a per day then what she spends. Now there were other event, going to Diva Las Vegas the first time, first tome going to a restaurant for dinner, first time to Starbucks or shopping, first tine flying but for me the nails was the one big thing and I still love getting them done today. Take some time and think back on your life and the big events you have had and the people you have met and they may seem small but all those things have an impact on you and your life.

We talked some more till about 9 and then girls started signing off and it was not long after the meeting came to a close for the night and now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner.

Stay safe and be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new on my life.

July 23, 2021 Posted by | zoom | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday Susan time at Starbucks

Well it is Sunday and I slept in to 8:30 and yes, I am stiff and sore from my yard work yesterday. I didn’t start getting ready till noon. My plan for today was simple, go grocery shopping as I didn’t do that yesterday and go to Starbucks and work on my blog. I still have my blog from Wednesday nights dinner at Who Song and Larry’s and yesterday and going to the Escape. Yes, I have found I am falling behind in my blogs. I took my time getting ready as I wanted to try for a good daytime look, I used my rose-colored eye shadow and a brick red lipstick and was happy with the look. I was all ready by 2pm. Now it was off to the grocery store.

Grabbed my purse and I was on my way to Fred Meyers for my weekly shopping. I got there and went in and did my shopping for the week. Yes, this is a simple thing and not very exciting but it is an everyday type activity that I can do as Susan. Over the last 10 to 15 years Being Susan has gone from something I did in secret at home, to going out to LGBTQ friendly places, to going out to pretty much anyplace to doing everyday things as Susan. now being Susan is a part time thing for me and by that, I mean just a part of who I am but she has become a normal part of me and who I am. I did my shopping and was back home before 3 and parked in my driveway and took my groceries inside and put them away just like anyone else. I grabbed my computer and it was time to go to Starbucks.

I thought about going to the one by my house but this time of year their tables are on the sunny side of the building but the umbrellas give you some shade. I drove over and all the tables were taken so I decided to go to the one at Cascade station as they have probably 15 tables outside. I got there about 3:30 and parked out front and just like the Starbucks by my house they were really busy but I could see 2 open tables outside. I grabbed my computer and went in and they were just as busy, 5 people waiting for their drinks and 6 people in line in front of me. I finally got up to the counter and ordered my drink and went and stood in the line to get my drink. As I stood there I looked outside and all the tables were now taken and there was only on small table in the corner by the back door so I went and set my computer up on it and then went back to wait for my drink, this is the busiest I have seen this place.

I got my drink and went over and sat down and started working on my blog from Wednesday nights dinner at Who Song and Larry’s. Now this week I was busy and got behind on my blogs and probably will be that way for a week or two so be patient with me catching up. I finished my blog and caught up on some e-mails and so work. It was fun people watching and yes again it was there were more females here today. It was about 4:45 and I saw one of the tables open outside so I picked up my stuff and moved out to that table. I really like sitting outside with all the people. I started working on my blog from Saturday but didn’t quiet finish it as it was almost 6 and I still needed to get something to eat. I left and drove home and made dinner and spent the rest of the evening watching TV. Now I am looking forward to tomorrow and Monday’s night Zoom meeting with my friends.

Stay safe and be happy with who you are and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog.


 

July 22, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday and going to the Escape

Well it is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight, now I don’t normally include my male side in my blogs but today is an exception. As I said in my last blog, I had some stuff to do today well actually it is working in my yard, something I have wanted to do for a few years and just didn’t have time. before my dad passed away, I would take my parents to Laughlin every spring and on one of the trips I had been talking about planning a palm tree in my front yard and both my parents thought it was a great idea. Well I decided to do it so today I got up before 6am before it got to hot to start my yard work, removing a 3 foot by 25-foot strip of grass on the very front of my yard by the sidewalk and planting 3 palm trees, 1 for my dad, 1 for my mom and 1 for me. Took longer than I thought and I didn’t finish till about 3pm. Now I bring this up as I kind of keep to myself with my neighbors but as I was working right by the sidewalk on the street a couple of them stopped by as I was working and talked to me and the new neighbor across the street to the right came over and introduced himself to me and we talked for a little while. Nothing was said about my dressing so still don’t know if they know but I suspect they do, but this is the most interaction I have had with my neighbors at one time. will include a picture of my project at the bottom.

Well it was 3pm when I finished and I was hot and sweaty but time to start getting ready to go out as I had posted I would be at the Escape around 5pm as Nicole was in town tonight and wanted to meat early before karaoke starts and it gets loud and a couple others said they would be early. I took a nice long shower and started getting ready. Now I was a little slower getting ready as I am a little sore as I don’t normally do work like this. I was all ready by 4:45. I grabbed my purse and was out my front door to my car in the driveway and was on my way.

I got to the Escape about 5:10 and had to park on the street about a ½ block down and walk back. I went in and Tina was already there sitting at the bar so I stood and talked to her for a bit. We went over and got one of the small tables before they got to busy, besides the chairs at these tables have backs which are way more comfortable. It wasn’t long and Nicole showed up. It was so great to see them in person, I haven’t seen Nicole in person in over a year and a half. Well Jan and Lynn also showed up early as did Michelle so we kind of pulled the next table over close to ours as these tables are really for 4 people and we now had 6. We ordered food and yes, I got the Chicken sandwich which is really good and probably healthier than a burger.

Michelle and Lynn both played the video poker machines for a little while and both won some money, 1 about $30 and the other $4 but still a win. When I play slot machines it is always the machine that wins. Renee also showed up which was nice but as we had a bigger group it was hard to talk with everyone as we were spread out a little. the zoom meetings are fun but just not the same as talking in person. Now it was pretty busy here for as early as it was and the group of ladies at the next table would cheer when ever someone new came in and after a couple times, they had the whole bar doing it, almost like in the old TV show Cheers where everyone yelled Norm when he came into the bar. It was pretty cool as I am sure it made people feel welcome when they came in.

We talked for a while and caught up, Nicole is in town for the weekend with her wife and was able to get out for a few hours tonight and will be back down on Wednesday night and hopes to make dinner so I am trying to figure something out on the east side of Portland to make it easier for her to get there. The Wednesday night dinners are taking some thought now as some of the places we went are closed, some have smaller table size and with more restaurants closed those that are open seem busier but then they may have less seating also. Any way I am trying to find a few new places but it is nice to be able to make reservations but it seems more restaurants are not doing reservations either. I really would like to get a bigger mix of places we go so we have a greater reach of interaction with people. We have talked about this in our zoom meetings and we all feel that the more interaction we can have with people the better as it lets them see we are no different then they are. I think that is why I like going to Starbucks so much.

It was a nice evening and soon it was 7:30 and karaoke started up and it got louder and it was hard to talk even with those right next to you. Tina and Nicole stuck it out for a little but bit by a little after 8 they were done. I figured I would stay till 9 and then go home as I am really tired not only from getting up so early today but the yard work I did. It is fun to listen to some of the singers well mainly the ones who sing songs I know. By 9 it was really busy in here almost like it was before the shutdowns. Well I was thinking of leaving but Patty showed up so I stayed to talk with her. yes, I can easily get distracted from leaving, I hardly ever leave when I planned to. It was almost 10 and just Jan, Lynn, Patty and I were left and I was ready to leave so I went and paid my bill and came back sat down to listen to one last song. Well as I sat there someone hugged me from behind, it turned out to be Dan. He had come out to see who all were here. Well I couldn’t leave now as I had to talk with him a little, it has been over 2 years since I have seen him. We talked for a little while but I was really feeling the long day. It was about 10:30 I just couldn’t take it and said my goodbyes and walked out to my car and

headed for home.

I got home and sat down on the couch for a minute to rest before going up to bed and the next thing I knew I woke up and it was after 1am, I had fallen asleep. I made my way upstairs and washed my makeup off and got into bed. Tomorrow is another day and yes some more Susan time.

Stay safe and be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

July 19, 2021 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, friends | , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry’s

Well it is Wednesday night and that means getting together with my friends for dinner. Tonight we are going to Who Song & Larry’s on Vancouver on the Columbia River. Now o put it out to the group and got 7 that said they would go so I called Monday night to make reservations. Well turns out for more then 6 the earliest they could get us in was 7:45 so our dinner would be a little latter this week. Well on Tuesday 1 of our girls canceled but another wanted to come with a friend which would move us to 8 and I figured the difference at a table between 7 or 8 wouldn’t matter so I told them yes and I would call on Wednesday when they opened and make sure. Well Wednesday I called and I was right there was no problem with 8 so I emailed back we were all set. Well a little latter got an e-mail they were dropping out and later on another dropped off so we were down to just 5 of us. I figured I would just go a little early and update how many we had when I got there instead of calling again.

I got home from work and took my time getting ready as I had time tonight and I wanted to look good. I did a dark smokey eye but used a little silver on my lid to brighten it up, thought it looked good. I was all ready by 6:30 so I got a few pictures. Now it only takes 15 minutes to get there so I waited till 6:50 before leaving as I said I wanted to get there just a little early. I got there at 7:05 and parked and went in. it is funny as years ago I would never want to be the first one anyplace and I would have waited in my car till I saw another girl go in but I didn’t even think about it just got out of my car and walked in. I told the girls at the front counter we would only have 5 tonight and they were fine with it. so I went to wait in the bar for others to show up and our table to be ready.

I sat down and ordered a sprite and an order of their Cheese and Bean dip, which is awesome by the way, I could make a meal out of this. My bean dip no more them came when the young lady came and told me my table was ready, it was only 6:15, I guess a smaller group was easier to seat. I grabbed my drink and dip and she took my basket of chips and we went to my table to wait for the others to show up. Julie was the first to show up at 6:30 and Barb shortly after and then Jan & Lynn so we were all there. We talked for a little bit and then we ordered. I got my usual chicken & sour cream enchilada. We talked some more as we waited for our food. Now I always forget to get pictures when I am out with my friends which is strange as when I first started going out it was all about the pictures but luckily tonight Julie remembered and she got a couple pictures of us and texted them to her daughter. Julie came out to her daughter a few months back and she was telling her she was going out with the girls tonight and her daughter wanted a picture so I got to be in it with Julie, don’t we look cute together. I wonder what her daughter thought?

Our food came and we had a nice dinner with good conversation. Now what is funny is we not only had our waiter but another waiter checked on us a couple times and brought us more chips and salsa and I think it was the manager came by to see how we were doing, he also talked to me briefly when I was in the bar for a few minutes waiting on my bean dip. We always get great service here but really pretty much any place we go we have good service. Now the food here is really good but bigger portions and yes, I had trouble eating all mine, probably because I filled up and chips and bean dip. Don’t worry I did eat it all but I should have left a little. it was so nice to be out with my friends for dinner, the 15 months of the lockdown were really hard, you don’t realize how important something is till it is gone and being able to go out and get together with my friends is such a blessing.

The evening was wonderful and after we finished eating, we sat and talked for a while. It was about 9:30 when we paid our bills and left and yes, every employee, we passed either told us good night or to be sure and come back. We got outside and it was just a little on the cool side and I only bring this up as if we had had our original group of 8 our table would have been outside which at 7:45 when the sun was still up would have been nice but by now, we would have been a little cold and probably left earlier. I said my goodbyes to Barb and Julie and followed Jane & Lynn to their car as they had brought me a little present, well I knew what it was as they had told me they were bringing it. Thanks Jan & Lynn for it, can’t wait to use them.

I walked back to my car and then I was on my way home. It was after 10 when I got home which isn’t that late but have had a lot going on at work and I have been starting work at 6 this week which means I have to leave home by 5:20 so it will be a short night tonight but so worth it. I quickly washed my face to remove my makeup and then was off to bed. Now I am looking forward to the weekend when I will get to spend part of Saturday and Sunday as Susan, I do have stuff to do in the mornings so it won’t be till the afternoons but still will be fun.

Stay happy and healthy and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new on my life.

July 18, 2021 Posted by | Dinner out, friends, who song & larry | , , , | 1 Comment

Monday night zoom meeting

Well it is another Monday and the start of the week and that means spending time with my friends on a zoom meeting tonight. I got home from work and started getting ready, now tonight I did a more casual look and was pretty happy with how it turned out. I was all ready by 6 so had time for a few pictures and to relax and watch some TV. It is still strange not to call and talk to my mom. I logged on and started the meeting a little before 7 and waited for ladies to log on.

It was a little before 7 and girls started to log on. It is always nice to see my friends, tonight we had 11 of us in in 10 windows. Tonight we had Nicole, Jan, Lynn, Jennifer, Jeanie, Melissa, Danika, Emily, Danielle, Tori and me. Now the good thing about the Zoom meetings are everyone gets to be involved but also it allows you to join in even if not here locally. Tonight 2 of our ladies were from up by Seattle, one from Thailand and yes Jennifer was on vacation in Utah visiting family. Jennifer came out to her family over the last year and some have seen pictures and joined us on our zoom meetings but tonight she was at her daughter’s house as Jennifer and logged in for a while to join us, how awesome is that.

We talked for a little while just catching up and yes, I brought up this weeks Wednesday nights dinner at Who Song & Larry’s, Jan, Lynn and Danika are planning on going. It was about 8 when we got to Jennifer’s question of the night. how does this side of us influence how we see the world and women? It was interesting to hear some if the girl’s thoughts. Now for me there are several things, first I understand how long it takes for women to get ready, hair, makeup and clothes, jewelry. There is a lot to getting ready, the women I have dated I have never rushed them or said anything about how long they take. For the men out there if you have never done makeup before you just don’t understand, be patient as they get ready. the other thing is I have a better understanding of how the world sees them. For a man it really is all about how well you do things but for women they are viewed on that plus other things. Most of the time how well they do things is not what they are judged on first, sometimes it is not even in the top 5. Now I love doing my makeup and trying to look pretty but if that was all I was judged on or if that was the Most important thing people saw in me every day, I would not like it. what I am trying to say is don’t just judge someone on how they look or who they are, get to know them. We need to get away from judging people this way on everything. If we al took the time to get to know each other, if we could accept others have different beliefs, views, even political views. The key is to accept the differences and find things you can agree on and that would make the world a better place.

Now I like to dress and yes, I am transgender, now I don’t think everyone has to like what I do, or how I live my life but they do need to respect my right to be who I am. We talked a little more and yes some was about makeup. we had a wonderful evening. It was about 9 when girls started signing off and soon it was Jan, Lynn and me, we talked for a little while longer before we signed off for the night. now I am looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner.

Stay safe, be happy and treat others how you want to be treated.

Thanks for reading my bog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

July 17, 2021 Posted by | zoom | , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and a little Susan time at Starbuck’s

Well it is a beautiful Sunday and I get some Susan time. yes, I basically get 4 partial days a week right now, Monday evening for our Zoom meeting, Wednesday evening for dinner, Saturday afternoon and evening and Sunday afternoon and evening. Yes, I do have a lot more time on my hands now and I am trying to fill it and take my mind off my mom’s passing away. Some is yard work something I have wanted to do for a few years and hadn’t gotten to and yes Susan time as it relaxes me and takes my mind off of things in my life.

It was about 1pm when I started getting ready and yes today, I did a little different look, the purple eye shadow and a bright red lipstick. My plans were simple a drive along the river, Starbuck’s and maybe stopping and getting dinner so I figured I would rock the bright red lopstick today. I was already a little after 2 and walked out to my car and was on my way. I drove up to Beacon Rock state park just to check things out, this was one of my favorite places to go hiking years ago, my friends and I would go here a few times a year although I haven’t been up here in probably 10 years. It is nice as it is only about 50 minutes from my house. Now I didn’t get out of my car as in Washington you need a permit to park at a state park or pay for it and as I was just here to check it out, I figured it wasn’t worth it after all this was just to take a drive. I left here and was planning on going to Starbuck’s from here and decided to go to the one at Cascade station as it is on my way home but mostly it is because they have a lot of outside tables, 3 out front and 10 on the side patio which I like as it is almost always out of the sine and sun so very pleasant to sit outside.

I got there just before 4 and parked out front, 2 of the 3 tables by the door were taken and at least half the tables on the patio, today must have been lady’s day. There was 1 man by himself, 3 couples and the rest were ladies, by themselves or in groups and the ages were from probably high school to seniors. I got my computer and went in, this one does not have a drive through so they are always busy inside so I had to stand in line behind 3 other small groups and thinking I hope they don’t take the table I want outside, there is 2 right outside the door on the patio so in the shade of the building instead of under an umbrella. I got my drink and the table was still open so I set my computer up and got a couple pictures at the table when I felt no one was looking.

Now this is on a busy street and there is a lot of shopping here so lots of people walk by and yes, a lot of people go in and get a drink, this is a real busy Starbucks so good for people watching. I started off by finishing my blog from yesterday and got it posted. I also took some time and caught up on some e-mails, it was just a relaxing afternoon. I stayed here a couple hours till a little after 6 before I got hungry and decided to walk over to Panda Express which is just across the driveway and they have an outside eating area also although most are in the sunshine. They were also busy so I walked in and waited in line. I got my food and went outside and there were still a few tables and one was partially behind a tree so I sat at that table and was mostly in the shade. I sat and had a nice dinner, now again years ago when I first started going out, I would never have thought of sitting outside in full view of everyone but now I don’t even think about it.

It was about 6:30 when I finished and walked back down the street to my car. It was a wonderful day. I got home about 7 and watched a Christmas movie I taped off Hallmark today, A Nashville Christmas Carol, yes, I am watching Christmas movies again. Now I am looking forward to Monday nights Zoom meeting and this Wednesday’s dinner. Stay safe and be happy with yourself and find what makes you happy.

Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

July 12, 2021 Posted by | Starbucks, Susan Time | , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday Susan time after a long, stressful and emotional week

Well it is Saturday and I am really looking forward to some Susan time after this past week. Wednesday was my mom’s funeral and it was a really emotional time. she was in the Navy so she was laid to rest right beside my dad with the full military honors. Now if you have never seen one you should as they do an awesome job, 6 members of the military from each branch bring the coffin out and place it in front. Then they do the 21-gun salute, play taps, very emotional and then the remove the flag from the coffin and do the folding of it and then the presentation of the flag to the family, in this case my brother and me. The other thing is this kind of made it final, she passed away almost a month ago but tis day it seemed so final as it leaves a hole in your life, I will miss her a lot. Well as I said it is Saturday and I had some yard work to do this morning before it got to hot so it wasn’t till after I ate lunch that I started getting ready.

I took my time as I wanted a look that could go from day to evening just in case I decided later to go to the Escape for dinner. My main plan was my weekly grocery shopping and then to Starbucks to work on last Monday’s blog, yes with the busy week I am way behind. I was all ready by a little after 2 pm so it was off to Fred Meyers for shopping. Now I have been parking my car in my driveway so I just walked out the front door and went to my car. I got to Fred Meyers and went in to shop. I only spent about 30 minutes here and then was on my way home again. I got home and just parked in my driveway and got my groceries out and walked into my house like anyone else would. Years ago I had to park in the garage and make sure no one was outside when I cam or went. Now I didn’t see any of my neighbors out but the I really wasn’t looking for them. I put my groceries away and then grabbed my computer and I was off to Starbucks.

It was about 3:30 when I got to the Starbuck’s by my house and went in. Now, they have 5 tables out front and 4 of them were taken and no one sitting inside so I had a decision to make on where to sit. I really wanted to sit outside with the other people but it was kind of windy out. Now it is not like I am going to be talking with them but just nice to be around the other people. I got my drink and the one table was still open outside so I went out and sat down. The far table had a lady reading a book at it, the next table had a young man and woman at, the next table had 2 ladies at it, then my table and the table behind me had a family at, man and woman and 2 kids.

I got out my computer and wrote my blog from Mondays Zoom meeting and posted it. now I had some e-mails to catch up on, both Susan and my male side. Yes, I have separate accounts and logins on my computer so I don’t cross my male self with my female self. Now it was going through pictures from this past week. I use OneDrive mostly for Susan but I also have a male account also and one of the wonderful things about OneDrive is you can share folders. I created a family folder and in that I put the folder with all my dad’s pictures in it, did the same for my mom and then general pictures folder that I have been scanning in family pictures into. Once I had all the pictures in there it was time to share them with my family. Most of my mom’s family is back in the Midwest and my dad’s family is in Florida and with the distance and their ages they didn’t make it out so this is a way they can see it. yes, I did wonder what they would think if they knew it was Susan doing this and e-mailing them.

Now it was nice out today about 85 but, in the shade, it was perfect except for the wind, I did sit facing the wind so it wouldn’t mess up my hair as bad. I did have to push the hair out of my face a few times. It was a very relaxing day and just what I needed. By about 5:30 I was the only one sitting outside as the rest had left but I didn’t feel like moving all my stuff inside and the wind had died down a little. I checked my e-mail and saw Lauri posted she was going to the Escape tonight and a few others posted they would be there also so I decided I would go for a little while as I needed to get dinner anyway. It was about 6pm when I saw Lynn post her and Jan were getting ready and going to be there. Now I thought about it and decided I needed to go home and change as I was pretty casual today so a little after 6, I left for home to freshen up.

I got home and freshened up my makeup, just a little darker on the eye shadow and a little more eye liner. Now it was time to change, black panty hose, black skirt and a maroon top and of course my 3″ ankle boots. Brushed out my hair and I was ready to go by 6:30. I walked out my front door and walked t my car in the driveway. My next-door neighbor was working in his yard, not sure if he noticed me but we have talked several times the last few days as I have also been doing some work in my front yard. I know his wife knows so pretty sure he does also as probably most if not all of my neighbors.

I got to the Escape just before 7 and this week I did not luck out so I had to park on the street about a half block away and walk back. As I walked down the street a man passed by me on a bike and said hi so I said hi back. I got inside and ordered my dinner and sat down at a table closer to the bar well more accurately a little farther from the speakers as it gets loud in here when they start karaoke which now starts at 7:30 instead of 9:30. Well Michelle from Gresham came over and joined me looks like she got here before me this week and saw me come in. she had already eaten so we talked a little as I ate. It was about 7:45 when Jan & Lynn showed up so we had 4 at our table, yes, they got rid of the big, long tables that sat 10 and put small tables in with 4 chairs for Covid. It was a little after 8 when Lauri showed up so she pulled another chair over and we got cozy. Now you may ask why I listed Michelle from Gresham and that is because we had another Michelle from Long View show up tonight a few minutes later. I met her once before at least 1 ½ years ago but good to see her again. Yes, we use to list the Michelle’s from where they were as at 1 time, we had 7 girls in our group named Michelle and there were times we could have 5 of them out at an event. I think Michelle was our most popular name in the group at one time.

A little after 9 Renee showed up, she is one of our newer members, well she has been a member for a little while but Monday was her first Zoom meeting where she met people and she came out tonight to meet us. It was great to meet her in person and get to know her a little which was hard as I said with karaoke it was loud and hard to hear unless you were right next to the person. About 9:30 Laura M showed up with her girlfriend, it was great to see her again also. It is still hard to think some of these girls I have not seen for more than 1 ½ years because of the Covid shutdowns, it is so wonderful we are getting back to normal. Now again I had planned on just getting dinner and staying long enough to see who came but in the end again this week it was after 11:30 when I said my goodbyes and left. It was a fun evening. Now I am looking forward to some Susan time Sunday and our zoom meeting on Monday, yes right now I am getting 4 days a week and 3 right in a row.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for reading my blog, a little longer then normal and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

July 11, 2021 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, friends, Starbucks | , , , , | 1 Comment

Monday night zoom meetings with friends

It is Monday and that means doing a zoom meeting with my friends but also being the first Monday night of the month we invite spouses, significant others and guest and we do a breakout room for those who want to talk amongst themselves, usually spouses and significant others. It is a way they can talk and get support. I have been looking forward to this as my Susan time the last month has been limited and I won’t make the Wednesday night dinner this week as I have family coming into town Tuesday for the week for my mom’s funeral.

I got home from work and started getting ready, tonight will be casual as I have put most of Susan away for the week. I did take my time doing my makeup though as this always relaxes me and I need that today as the rest of the week will be stressful and emotional. I did my smokey eye makeup look and was pretty happy with how it turned out, I really do like this look. I did get a couple pictures with my eyes closed to try and show off my eye makeup. I was all ready by 6:30 so I had a ½ to wait for the meeting to start, these are the hard times as I would normally call and talk to my mom during this time.

I started the meeting just before 7 and waited for people to sign in and it didn’t take long. Tonight we had a good turnout 15 in all but what made it wonderful is we had 3 spouses, 2 guests (Jennifer’s stepdaughters) and 3 new members joining our group for the first time. we had Melissa, Jennifer, Danika, Danielle, Mailli, Trish, Tori, Lorna, Mary, Mary Anne, Driel, Marissa, me of course and also 3 new members Chris, Emily & Renee, welcome ladies. It is always wonderful when we have new members, I really think the zoom meetings have made it easier. You can pop on and see who is there and meet people and if you are uncomfortable eave really easy from your home verses driving someplace, having to get out of your car and walk in and find the group and then if you feel uneasy reverse everything to leave. Of course I think once someone has made it out, they are more likely to stay out with us. We have had several girls make their first appearance at our zoom meetings.

Well we talked for a little while and then it was time to start the breakout room for the wives, now we only had 3 tonight so it was a smaller breakout room then normal as Jennifer’s Daughter in-laws stayed in the main room. Well one of the main topics was makeup and it started off with lipstick specifically how we keep our lipstick on when we eat. Now I use a Maybelline lip ink if you like matte look or super stay 24 hour if you loke shiny, which I love and a few other girls also wear this too and you pretty much need baby oil to get it off. Jennifer started with this but she found one she likes from Morphe cosmetics that she is wearing now. It is fun to talk about makeup with the girls. From this we moved onto false eye lashes and yes, I have gotten pretty good at putting them on although I don’t wear them that often. Now the first ones I tried I was given and guessing she bought a bunch and they were probably the cheaper ones as they had a real thick band and were really heavy and stiff so hard to get on and not comfortable, yes, I could tell I had them on. Well when I was out shopping with Jennifer we went into ULTA and I got talking to the lady and she helped me find a really nice set called Ardell wispies, the band is very light and almost invisible and I can’t even tell I have them on which made all the difference. Now it did take some practice but I have gotten pretty good at putting them on without to much trouble so that was the topic. The trick is a good magnifying mirror and tweezers for me. I like these as they really do look natural so I would recommend them, $10 to $12 for a package of 5 pairs and if you take care of them, you can get multiple wearing’s.

We also talked about makeup in general and of course Jennifer’s daughter in-laws told us how good we looked and asked how we got so good and I told them a lot of practice and watching YouTube videos. the 2 I like the best are Nikkie Tutorials and Julia Graf, both are really good and teach you how to do it, Actually it was Julia Graf who tested the Maybelline lip ink and after I watched the video I bought some to try and loved it. it did seem funny that we were giving tips and pointers to a couple Cis woman but then we do need more makeup. Cis woman just have to even out their skin tone and enhance their looks where unfortunately I have to cover up stuff and reshape my face with makeup. now one of Jennifer’s daughter in-laws 2 kids joined on for a little while and even her 1 son but he wasn’t that interested in the talk about makeup so didn’t stay long. Don’t get me wrong he is supportive of Jennifer just not interested in makeup.

Now it was time for Jennifer’s question and it was kind of a follow up of last weeks. After we purged what was the first thing we bought. Well for me it was lipstick as my purge was to get rid of my makeup. now if you follow me, you all know I love long acrylic nails but my favorite makeup is lipstick. Yes, I have a weakness for lipstick. I probably have 20+ different shades and brands and some I have multiple of the same ones, I probably could go the next 10 years without buying another lipstick. As a matter of fact back I think the end of October because I had to wear a mask all day at work I would wear lipstick every day to work and did that all the way till almost the end of June, 9 months and still have a lot of lopstick. Now we also let everyone especially the new ladies that these questions are just for fun and if you don’t want to answer them that is fine as we want everyone to feel comfortable and only share what they feel like.

It was after 9 when the breakout room ended and they signed off but we were still talking in the main room. It was a lot of fun and we got to know the 3 new members better and they really seem nice so we are all hoping they will join in again and maybe join us for a Wednesday night dinner. It was after 9:30 when we ended the meeting. It was sad to see it end but I did need to get to bed as I am going into work early tomorrow so I can get off early as I have family coming to town in the early afternoon for my mom’s funeral on Wednesday so I wont be out as Susan till next weekend, but I am looking forward to that as I will need the calming relaxation I get from being Susan as the rest of the week will be very stressful and emotional.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in my life and maybe check out some if my older blogs too.

July 10, 2021 Posted by | zoom | , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Happy Independence Day and some Susan time

Happy Independence Day

This is my bog on how Susan spent Independence Day the day we celebrate the birth of our great nation, 146 years ago. Now I try to keep politics out of my blog but not only is this a day I get to spend as Susan but it is a day, we celebrate our country and freedom so if you are offended by this you may want to skip this blog.

I am proud to be an American and I am proud of our great country, I stand for our national anthem and place my hand over my heart for the pledge of allegiance. I truly believe we live in the best country in the world no offence to my friends in other countries. Yes, I have a US flag outside my house I fly with pride. Here are a couple YouTube videos I love and they have special meaning at this time of year, you might want to check them out. one is God Bless the USA by Lee Greenwood, Mike Rowe the one percenters, the other is about the inspiration behind our national anthem the Star Spangle Banner.

Now I had some things to do early in the day and yes one was a BBQ between 10am and 2pm to celebrate the 4th of July, now yes these are my male sides friends so I would not be able to be Susan to later in the day and that was fine with. I got home from my BBQ a little after 2 and started getting ready. Now as I got ready for the rest of my day, I was thinking about what to wear, several of the wives at the BBQ earlier had red, white and blue outfits on and I don’t have anything patriotic for the day something I will have to fix that for next year. I thought back several years when Cristine was alive she always wore red, white and blue for the 4th of July. I was all ready by 3:30 for the day as Susan.

Now it was time to figure out what to do I turned on the TV on to check the Hallmark Chanel and yes, they are doing Christmas movies again, Christmas in July. Now this got me thinking about my mom and not being able to celebrate our countries birth with her, Sundays we spent together and yes, she loved watching the Christmas movies. Well I set up the DVR to record a few and decided I had to go someplace so I figured I would go to Starbucks and write my blog from Saturday. I thought about it and decided to go to the one at Cascade Station by the airport for one reason as they have a huge outside seating area on the east side of the building out of the sun and wind and I wanted to be outside today. I got there about 4:30 and got my drink and found a table outside, I think a lot of people had the same idea as 8 of the tables were taken. I finished my blog, caught up on some e-mails and did a little work and just had a really nice relaxing afternoon. Now before I knew it, it was almost 8pm, I had been here over 3 hours. I put away my computer and was on y way.

I got home and yes watched a couple Christmas movies I recorded.

Stay safe and be happy and thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

July 5, 2021 Posted by | Holiday, Starbucks | , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and some Susan time and yes I made it to the Escape again.

Happy 4th of July


Well it is Saturday July 3rd and I did get some Susan time. I had some things to take care of early in the day so it wasn’t till about 2 when I started getting ready. Now my plan for the day was pretty simple, go to Starbucks and write my blog from Wednesday nights dinner at Outback Steak house and get something to eat. No grocery shopping today as I did it the other day as I didn’t want to have to go to the store today as they will ne busy with people shopping for the 4th of July. I was all ready by 3:30 and really liked the way my eyes turned out as I used browns including a coppery/goldish brown which looked really good, and I was on my way. I got to Starbucks and it was beautiful out low 80’s so I thought about sitting outside but it was pretty windy. I went in and ordered my drink, my kiwi starfruit refresher but they were out of kiwi so the lady recommended a Strawberry Acai berry refresher so I tried that one.

I sat down at a table inside and got my computer out to work on my blog from our Wednesday night dinner. I got my drink and it was also really good although I think I like the kiwi starfruit better. Now I checked my e-mails and Lauri posted she was planning on going to the Escape tonight and it got me thinking. I haven’t been there I probably 1 ½ years so I posted back I might stop by and asked what time she would be there. She hopes to be there by 8:30 so I still need something for dinner as I don’t want to eat that late. I finished my blog and just played on my computer for a while, figured it was better then sitting at home watching TV. I stayed here till 6:45 before leaving.

Now my plan was to stop at IHOP at cascade station for dinner and then get to the Escape between 8 and 8:30. Well as I drove, I started thinking, I know that is dangerous, but why not just go and have dinner at the Escape, so I called them to make sure they still did dinner and they do. I got to the Escape at 7:15 and got lucky as someone was leaving as I pulled I so I was able to park in the lot. I got out of my car and grabbed my computer and started in, as I walked in a young man greeted me and said it was good to see me again which was nice and I paused for a moment as I tried to figure out who he was. Well it was James the KJ, he has lost some weight and looked good. they had no one sitting outside but there was probably 20 people inside mostly sitting at the bar. It did seem a little strange as I have not been here for 16 months and I was pretty much going here every Saturday night. I did recognize a few of the people at the bar but none of the bar staff. I stood in line to place my order, when it was my turn the young man behind the counter asked to see my ID, yes, I was carded in a bar, it has been a long time and I thanked him as it made me feel good. I was looking forward to pancakes but they don’t do breakfast in the evenings so I was going to get a burger but the lady sitting at the counter recommended the grilled chicken sandwich so I tried that.

I sat down with my drink and got my computer out as I waited for my dinner. I started on todays bog but my food came in about 10 minutes so I didn’t get much done. The grilled chicken sandwich was really good and yes this may surprise you but this is the first time I have had a chicken sandwich. Now things have changed here they now start karaoke at 7:30 instead of 9 so it started to get loud. I had seen Michelle come in but she went to play video poker, I think she didn’t see me as she was probably expecting me to get here later. Well after I finished my food, I took it to the bus station and went over to where she was and said hi so she would know I was here and then went back to my table. It was only about 5 minutes and Michelle joined me evidently the video poker machines were not friendly tonight.

We talked for a little while and got caught up, I have not seen or talked with her in 1 ½ years so it was really nice. It was almost 8 and Tina showed up, I met her once before the shutdowns and she did join some of our zoom meetings early on but it has been a while for her also. Now several of the people singing karaoke I knew as they use to come here before so it was kind of like it use to be. It was about 8:15 when Lauri showed up and a little later Laura W. also showed up so there were 3 of us tonight which was a good turnout considering this was just a couple e-mails late this afternoon about going.

We tried to talk mostly between songs but it was hard as it was loud. Now by 9 they had a pretty good crowd here and the tables were not 6 feet apart but people did try to space themselves out the best they could. It was fun to listen to the music again and some of the songs were good well all were good but songs I knew and liked. Michelle was the first to leave around 10 and Tina not to long after but it was great to see them both and talk with them. Soon it was down to just Lauri and me when this young man came over named John, I think I met him before well he said it was good to see me again and sat down at our table and started talking to me. He seemed nice and it didn’t take long to figure out he was interested in me which did make me feel uncomfortable as I am not at all attracted to men. I did get lots of compliments on how I looked, you know pretty face, pretty eye and yes, I do like the compliments but still strange coming from a man. He talked to me for probably 30 to 40 minutes before asking for my phone number which caught me off guard and I just said not know, I probably should have been straight forward and told him I was not interested but I was trying to be polite which may come back on me next time I am here. Well he left and it was just down to Lauri and me again for a bit, Mama K who has worked in the kitchen ever since have been coming here got off work about 11 and she came out and joined Lauri and me at our table, she is really awesome so the 3 of us talked for a while and before I knew it I looked at phone and it was after 11:30, I had only planned to be here till 9:30 or 10. The night went by so fast and it was fun to just be out again.

I went up and paid my bill and said my goodbyes to Lauri and Mom K and then I was on my way. As I was walking out to my car 2 ladies outside who had been at the next table to us said bye to me and wished me a good night, one of them looked familiar so it is possible they remembered me from before but either way it felt good and I wished them a good night also. It was a little after midnight when I got home but it was a fun night out.

Now I am looking forward to Sunday and spending the afternoon and evening as Susan. stay safe and be happy with who you are. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

Happy 4th of July

July 4, 2021 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Starbucks | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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