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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday at the Escape

I was looking forward to tonight, another chance to relax and be myself. Now I know a few girls wont make it out so it may be a quiet night but I was still going out. Now I was ready by 5:45 and with my computer in hand I was on my way. I got to the Escape by 6 and went in, there were only 2 people there at this time. I ordered dinner and did some work on my computer while I waited to see if anyone else would show up.

Cristine showed up at 7 and it was just the two of us till 8 when Jan and Lynn showed up. It was good to see them, I really enjoy spending time with my friends. Karaoke started and it was still a small crowd, our group and maybe 6 others. Missy and her friend also showed up. It was after 10 and I was getting ready to leave as it had been a long day when Laura M and her friend showed up. They had gone to a hockey game tonight, Laura got to go as her female self and she had a great time. I stayed a little longer to before leaving. It was a good night out.

Kind of a short post but still a good time. Thanks for reading

September 25, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finally a chance to get out as Susan

Okay it has been a little over 2 weeks since I have had a chance to be Susan, My last outing was as short one just to get my nails done so I was looking forward to tonight. It really is amazing how much I miss my feminine side when I can’t express it. I get to go out to Sweet Home and see some of my friends and of course things are back to normal and I should be able to get back to going out twice a week and now I am looking forward to my vacation coming up in a few weeks. I will have 7 days of being Susan and of course will get my nails a pretty red. I hope do get together with some of my friends that week, Maybe some shopping, Movie, dinner or lunches maybe even a trip to the beech. I will have to post in our group the and see if any of my friends are available that week. Any way back to tonight.

I started getting ready as soon as I got home from the gym, yes I am still going to the gym almost every day. I joined the gym 3 months ago and I think I gone to the gym everyday only missing 8 days in all that time. It was nice to take a nice relaxing shower and start transforming into being Susan. The time I take becoming Susan is so wonderful and calming to me. I spent about an hour in a half getting ready for my night out. One of my Facebook friends Dixie Mo may make it out to meet me tonight if she can in boy mode though.

I got to Sweet Home at 6:30 and went in. Chris and Roxy were there already, it was great to see them again, I really do miss my friends when I can’t get out. Now it wasn’t really busy yet but it was just good to be out. I ordered dinner which was awesome as always, maybe a little to much as I didn’t eat it all as I had to save room for Cheesecake.

Robyn also showed up tonight and it was good to see her again. It was nice to talk with her. It was such a relaxing fun night out. Heather also made it out, she is one of the wonderful friends I have made here at Sweet Home. I always look forward to seeing her as she always has a hug to give, I really like that about being female as it seems it is so natural for woman to hug each other and everyone needs hugs. Angie also showed up another friend I have made here who is also really nice. Actually all the people here are wonderful and treat me like any other person here. Next Friday Angie is having her birthday party here and it is a cat theme and she wanted to make sure we would be here. I am looking forward to it although I won’t be able to stay out late next week.

Diana also showed up tonight a little after 10, She hasn’t been out for several months so it was good to see her again. Chris and Roxy had already left so it was just the 3 of us. Karaoke was going on and it is fun to listen to as some of the singers are really good. It was almost 11 when Dixie Mo showed up. It was nice to meet her even if she wasn’t able to be her female self tonight. She is a member of the Emerald City t-girl group in Seattle and was in town tonight. It was nice to talk with her. We had a chance to get to know each other and she was interested in our group and how we get such good turnout. We talked and I explained about our new web page and how we are going to new places and our Wednesday night dinners at new places. WE even talked about Harvey’s Comedy club. Dixie Mo may try to get some of the girls from the Emerald City to come down and go to Harvey’s.

I am looking forward to Harvey’s this month as our favorite Comedian Julie Scoggins will be in town this month. It is always a fun night going here. Our group really does do some fun things. Dixie and I talked for a while before she had to leave as she was driving back home tonight. It really was nice meeting her.

Rachel also made it tonight, She helped us find Sweet Home after we were kicked out of the P-club. I got a chance to talk with her for a while which is always nice. It was almost 11:30 when I called it a night. It really was a fun night out. and now I am looking forward to Saturday night at the Escape and to see more of my friends. Thanks for reading


September 24, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Quick trip for a manicure

Okay a quick blog tonight. I will be out of town next week and wont have any chance to be Susan for probably 2 weeks. Now I really need a manicure as my nails are a little long and starting to get to the point the gel polish needs replacing. I could probably make it another week but not two. I had a lot of things I had to get done after work today and so I knew I would have to go to the nail salon as my male self so I didn’t want to go to the nail salon I have been going to as they only know me as Susan. I figured it was a chance to try a new nail salon. I found one called Creative nails which would be on my way home and I have never been there before. So I called and set up an appointment for 6. Well it turns out I got down with my stuff a lot faster and there was no traffic so now I was at that point of what to do.

20160908_172219[1]I would have be able to get home and have about 40 minutes to become Susan and still make it or I could go early as my male self. well I took the chance and raced home to change before going to the Salon. It was probably one of my fastest times getting ready and I think it turned out well.

I got there right at 6 and went in. It is an older shop but nice and the 2 ladies there were really nice and treated me just like any other woman. Now they do everything by hand with files and no electric grinders of course it takes a little longer.

It took about 5o minutes to do my nails and they look lovely. They were really nice and told me to be sure and come back. Now on my way home I did stop at Subway to get something to eat. It was a short night out but still fun.

Thanks for reading

September 8, 2016 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , | 1 Comment

Starting September off at Harvey’s Comedy Club

Okay it is Saturday and our group the Rose City T-girls are going to Harvey’s Comedy club tonight. This is one of the most fun things we do as a group. Now it is funny as all through the day I was thinking what I should wear, I even found myself twice in my closet looking at my dresses. I have never put that much though into what I wear when I am not Susan. Now normally I see how my makeup is going and pick my outfit based on that but tonight I had my outfit all picked out. My red and black dress and so I did my makeup with that in mind. It is a fun experience to spend the time and effort to look your best and as pretty as you can. One of the simple joys of being female and I get to experience that in part of my life.

I was ready to leave by 6 and on my way. It was so wonderful to be on my way out for a fun night with friends. I got to fox & Hounds at 6:30, again I parked and got out of my car and walked in without a second thought, like it was the most natural thing I could do. Darcy was the only one here so far so I joined her. It is the first time I have met her and she seems really nice. She is one of our newer members of our group. We had a good chance to talk as we waited for others to show up.

It wasn’t long and others showed up, Cassandra, Melissa, Laura H. Lisa, Jan and Lynn. We had a nice time talking till it was time to walk to Harvey’s. It was a nice night for the walk maybe just a little on the cool side. We got to Harvey’s about 8:30 and Cristine was already there.

It wasn’t long and the rest showed up. Barb, Rebecca, Barbs neighbors, Jeanie Amy, Julie and Trixie. We had 17 for tonight’s show and it looks like it will be a good size crowd tonight. It was good to see all of them, I really do enjoy time with my friends. Sear was working tonight our favorite bar tender but Kim our Melissa an me at Harvey's 9-3-2016favorite waitress was off this weekend on vacation and we all missed her. We all look forward to hugs from her. Of course we had to take some picture and we took a lot of them tonight. This is Melissa and me before the show.

Soon it was time to go in for the show and it was a big crowd which is always more fun. Now as I said Kim was not there but the waiter that took care of us was really nice and he did a good job and really all the staff here is wonderful. I also took a couple pictures with Julie but they came out blurry, so sad.

The show started and it was really good. Tonight all 3 of the comedians were awesome. There is nothing like a night out with friends laughing and having a good time. I wish I could remember their names. I looked at Harvey’s web page but turns out they already had next weekends schedule up. It was a really fun night though.

Susan Miller at Harvey's 9-3-2016After the show the Headliner came over and talked with us for a while. Turns out he also plays in a band and invited us to his show next weekend which was really nice. We even talked with the other comedian on the way out. It was a wonderful night.

It was a little chilly walking back to Fox & Hounds after the show so I was glad I brought a sweater. It was a wonderful night out and a great way to spend a Holiday weekend. This is a picture of our group after the show walking back to Fox & Hounds that20160903_235507 Cassandra took. such a cute picture.

Thanks for reading.

Oh almost forgot I am still going to the gym pretty much everyday. Saturday I started my 12th week of going to the gym and I think I have only missed 4 day. Today I did 40 minutes on the optical on level 12 going forward, 15 minutes going backwards on level 4. Worked out on some of the weights for a while and finished up with 15 minutes on the tread mill on a 15% incline at a speed of 3 miles per hour. Felt really good afterwards.

September 4, 2016 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Out at Sweet Home

The weekend is here and I get some time to relax and be Susan. I really look forward to this as it is a big part of me and my life. It took me years to reconcile both sides of who I am. I am often asked about me and my life and how I feel. I really think for some it is hard to understand, I mean they can understand someone who wants to transition or feels they are the opposite sex but when it comes to someone who feels they fit into both genders it can be hard. By this I mean I feel I am male at times and am happy as male but I also feel at times I am female and happy when I am female. Now that being said I am more comfortable in the feminine role and when I am Susan. There is something peaceful and relaxing about being Susan.

I am often asked when I will transition and be my true self and to that I always answer the same. I am my true self not. I have no desire to transition. If I did Transition to female I would still be a crossdresser for the simple fact I would still need my male side and would have to crossdress the other way to male. You see I am not complete without both sides of me. Now that being said there are things I like about being Susan so much I would do them all the time if I could and yes the top of the list is my nails. I really do love long pretty nails and if I could I would have long red nails all the time. It really is a shame men can’t have pretty nails in todays society. Now I have been going to a nail salon now for almost a year every 2 to 3 weeks now and they are a little longer then most men would wear and shaped a little better but so far no issues. Well enough about this and on to Friday night.

I got to Sweet home at 6:30 and went in. Chris and Roxy were there and a few other people were at their table so I sat at the next table where I could still talk with them some. I also had my computer so I was Able to catch up on some work. I ordered dinner which was awesome as always. Now a couple time people came and sat at my table which was fine and nice as I did get a chance to talk with them. One of the reasons this is a nice place as the people who come here are really nice and friendly.

Now it was a quiet night here as the other main group that comes here are away for the Holiday weekend so it won’t be really busy. It was about 9 when Jeremy and Tina came in. I met them a while ago and have talked with them on several occasions. They sat at my table and we had a nice conversation. They really are really nice. I really have met some wonderful people here. Now talking with them they are still trying to understand my duel gender rolls but then it took me years to understand it. I think it is easier for people to understand one gender or the other. I guess that is a good way of looking at it as I have a duel gender and need both of them at different times. It was a fun night but it was almost 10 PM and has been a long day as I got up early so I called it a night.

Now I am looking forward to Saturday night as we are going to Harvey’s Comedy Club which is always a fun night and I am already thinking about what I should wear.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful weekend.

September 3, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Awesome day golfing with friends

Okay it is Sunday and we are having our Rose City T-girl golf tournament at Wildwood golf course. I have been really looking forward to this. Now we are playing a best ball scramble and have 4 teams. This is a fun way to play as it really doesn’t matter how good you are as everyone hits and then you take the best hit and all hit from there. Now I was picking Julie up at 10:30 and we were riding together.

I started getting ready a little after 8 A.M. Yes I spent almost 2 hours getting ready and doing my makeup to go golfing. It really was fun just getting ready for a day on the golf course. I was ready just a little before 10 and was on my way to pick up Julie. I got to her house right on time and Julie had on the cutes golfing outfit. Of course I had to go inside and say hi to Trixie, She was there but wasn’t going golfing with us. Soon we were on our way talking the whole way, it really was a fun drive. We got there at 11:30 and Dan, Laura M, Sophie and her brother, Peggy, Cassandra and Veronica were already there.

we all went to the club house where Cassandra and Peggy had gift bags for all of us. Wow so nice of them. now the teams were as follows. Team 1 Cassandra, Veronica, Julie and Lisa. Team 2 Dee, Sophie, Michelle. Team 3 Melissa, Laura H, Laura M and Sophie’s brother. Team 4 Dan, Kelli, Peggy and me. Now Wildwood remolded their club house and deck area and it really is beautiful.

We all went up to the driving range for a while and warmed up by hitting some balls. I had some really good shots, it was a shame to waist them on the driving Julie and Susanrange. Soon it was time to get ready to golf and of course I had to get a picture with Julie. What a cute picture.

All the groups got together and we went over the rules, Cassandra and Peggy had prizes for the longest drive, Longest put, 4 KP’s (closest to the pin) and of course the winning team. They really put a lot of effort and work into setting this up and deserve a lot of thanks.

Now it was time to tee off and we all went to the 1st tee to get some pictures, both team and individual and of course I had toSusan ready to golf get one. Wow I am holding my club like a sword ready to do battle. The weather was perfect low 80’s and no wind, well it was a little hot if you were sitting in the sun.

The teams started teeing of and we were on our way. Peggy and I were in the same cart so we got a good chance to talk which was really nice, Peggy is really awesome. I really do need to get together with her for dinner. We even talked about my vacation in October and we may get together a couple of the days.

WE had a great time golfing and everyone had some really good shots and some not so good but playing a scramble evens them out. I had one hole that we used all of my shots. Now we finished the front 9 at 4 under par for our team so we new we were in the running to win. The back 9 we dig good to and in the end we finished 6 under par which was enough to win as the other teams were 4 under and the other 2 were 2 under par. So really all the teams did really well. That being said I played all 18 holes with 1 ball, That is right I didn’t lose a golf ball today. I can’t remember the last time I played 18 holes without losing at least one golf ball. I also came close on one of the par 3 for the KP. My shot was about 4 feet from the pin but my team mate Kelli put hers a little closer, I guess if I had to lose that hole I was glad it was Kelli who beat me.

It was a slow round but we never fell behind the groups in front of us. We finished golfing at a little after 6 and then went back to the club house and sat on their beautiful deck area for a BBQ and of course the prizes. It was a wonderful day and I am sure everyone had an awesome time. We had a wonderful social time while we ate. The course was wonderful, the staff awesome, I would give Wildwood a 10.

It was sad to see the day come to an end, it was a little after 8 when we left. It was nice having Julie ride with me as it made the ride home so much better. We talked about how we did golfing and of course we talked about Peggy’s beautiful nails, she had a really pretty reddish pink color on them and of course we both noticed and wished we had them. We got to Julies house and I went in for about 15 minutes so I could say hi to Trixie and we could talk a little. I left her house a little after 9 so it was about 9:30 when I got home. Almost 12 hours after I left this morning. I was amazed how well my makeup stood up. My lipstick was a little worn but the rest looked okay. Probably my hair took the worst beating today but I new that would happen.

It really was a fun day and I want to Thank Peggy and Cassandra for setting this up and of course all my wonderful friends in our group I got to spend the day with.

Thanks for reading

August 31, 2016 Posted by | Wildwood Golf course | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape.

Saturday night at the Escape is always a fun night and I was looking forward to it as always. I got to the Escape at 6 as I wanted to be a little early so I could do my blog from Thursday and Friday. I was just finishing my blog when Laura and Dianna showed up, it was a little after 7. I wasn’t sure how many would show up tonight as 16 of us are going Golfing on Sunday. The 3 of us talked for a while, Dianna was having trouble getting onto our new web site. Seems she forgot what her password was. This gave me a chance to reset her password so she could get back on. It was kind of funny as Jenny showed up and had also forgot what she used as a password too.

It was just the 4 of us for a while and for a while looked like we would be it for the night. Laura and I talked a little about golf as we were both golfing Sunday. Dee stopped by for a little bit but didn’t stay long. She is also golfing with us. I also had planned not to stay to late as I am picking Julie up at 10:30 as she is riding with me to the golf course which will be so much fun. That also means I need to be up early to get ready. Yes I will spend an hour or more doing my makeup Sunday morning to go out golfing in the sun and heat for the day. I am sure every woman does that for golfing.

Karaoke started and the normal guy who does it was not there but the man filling in did a good job. Bambi and her girlfriend showed up and also Missy and Lorie. It turned out we had a pretty good turnout tonight and wonderful conversation. It also means I stayed out later than I planned Karaoke was going and some of the songs were ones I new really well so I was singing along with them. I still didn’t have the courage to get up and sing but I was having fun.

It was almost midnight when I left. It was a fun night and now I am looking forward to golfing. More on that to follow.

Thanks for reading

August 30, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A quiet Friday

Friday is here and I was looking forward to going out. Our group the Rosecitytgirls is not very active on Fridays any more and I know Chris is out of town so I might be the only one out but that was not going to stop me. It is funny as 8 years ago Friday night was the big night for our group and now it seems to be Saturday.

I got all dressed and wore my black and white summer dress as it is still really hot out today, upper 90’s. Now I though about what I could do and decided to go to Sweet Home as I wanted dinner. I figured I would hang out there till 9 and see if anyone else showed up. I got there about 6:30 and there were only a few people there. I got out my computer and caught up on some work before going to more important things like Facebook and our web page. It was a little after 7 when I ordered dinner.

Dinner came and it was really good as always, they really do have good food here. Of course after dinner I had to have a piece of Cheesecake. Good thing I am still going to the gym. Tomorrow I will start week 11 going to the gym. I have only loss a little weight but my waist is a little smaller and I do feel a lot better. It is funny as after I work out I should be tiered and I am to a point but I actually feel better than I did before I got to the gym.

It was about 9 when it started to get a little busy but still no one from our group tonight. Well I decided to stay a little longer as I was already out and I had my computer. It was almost 10 when I called it a night as I have a busy weekend a head of me.

Saturday morning I have to get up early to go to the gym. After that I want to go to the golf driving range as I have not golfed in a year and our group is having its yearly Rose city t-girls golf tournament on Sunday at Wildwood golf course. Then I have things I have to do before going to the Escape Saturday night. Yes I will be out as Susan 4 days in a row.

It has been a fun couple days and I am really looking forward to golfing and spending the whole day Sunday as Susan.

Thanks for reading

August 27, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Quick trip to the nail salon.

Okay a short post tonight. I have needed to get to the nail salon and get a manicure as it has been 3 weeks now. I have found that a manicure with Gel polish looks good for 2 weeks and stands up really well. But by 3 weeks it starts to chip in the ends and you are more likely to break a nail and I have worked to hard to get and keep my nails looking nice. After work I stopped at the gym which is in the same complex as my nail salon and worked out for an hour. I am finishing up my 10th week working out and during that 10 weeks I have only missed 4 days which is pretty good I think. Any way after I worked out I called the nail salon from the parking lot to see if I could get in tonight for a manicure. Anna had an opening at 5:30 so I took it. It was just a couple minutes after 4 so I drove home and got right into the shower to get ready. It really is nice the nail salon is so close as I would have never had time to go much further. I was ready and out the door by 5:15 and drove back over to the nail salon. It is funny as when I am at the gym I wonder if someone from the nail salon will recognize my car and me but when I am at the nail salon I wonder the same thing about someone from the gym.

It was only 5:20 when I got there so I was a little early but they were not that busy probably because of the heat so Anna was ready for me, and I sat right down at the manicure table. There was another lady right next to me getting her nails done. It really is so relaxing and fun to get your nails done. I went with clear pink again as it really is a nice look and since I can’t have a pretty red when I am not Susan this will have to work.

It was 6 pm when she finished and my nails looked so nice. I had a little time and I was hungry so I drove to Panda Express and went in and got dinner. I have gone to this Panda Express a few times now and always been treated well here. It may seem funny to talk about something as simple as going to get something to eat but it really is a big deal for a lot of trans people. Just to be able to do the things that everyone takes for granted. 10 years ago it was a heat pounding effort just to go through the drive thru. It really is amazing how far I have come as Susan.

After I ate there is a Starbucks across the street so I went till about 8:30 and caught up on e-mails and other things I needed to do such as checking out our new web page I was only out for 3 hours but it was so worth it and so relaxing.

I got home just as it got dark and walked across the street to get my mail without even thinking about it. None of my neighbors were out. I then decided to water some of my plants outside by my drive. I was only out there less then 5 minutes and I saw no one. It really is nice to just be Susan for a while.

Thanks for reading.

August 25, 2016 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night dinner at a friends

Tonight was going to be a fun night. Susan was going to do something so normal and it may not sound that interesting but it really was. I was going over to a friends house for a BBQ. Now I would not be out in public where people could see me but that was okay. Over the years I have grown from dressing just at home, to going out to transgender places with friends, to going out to just about anyplace and that has really helped make Susan a normal part of my life. Tonight would be just a quiet night visiting a friend, something so ordinary but yet still very special.

I have wanted to get together with Julie sense she got back from her trip so I could hear all about it. Tonight we both had an open evening and Julie invited me over to her house for a BBQ. Now even being something so everyday I still spent over an hour getting ready and doing my makeup, yes I wanted to look my best. I really thin it is the feminine side of me. I did my makeup, cute dress, jewelry and even perfume. Some may think is a little bit much but for me it is the whole experience of becoming, and being Susan. It was about 6 when I left home and boy was it hot outside, upper 90’s so I was glad I wore my summer dress.

It only took about 20 minutes to get to Julie’s, I have been here a couple times before when we went to the Red Dress party as I picked her up and drove. Actually next weekend she is also going golfing with the group at Wildwood golf course so I will pick her up that day also and we will ride together. It makes the drive more fun and as I said before adds that touch of normal to it. I really like being able to do things as Susan that everyone else does without thinking about. It may seem strange to some but a 10 years ago no one new my male name, where I lived, what kind of car I drove or anything else that might have connected my 2 lives together. That line has really blurred the last few years for me and for a lot of my friends and that is a wonderful feeling.

I got to Julie’s and she was all dressed up to, she had on a cute summer dress also but hers was a long one. Now it was still hot outside so we sat in the house where it was 75 for a while and had a snack and drink and just talked. Julie told me all about her vacation and it sounded like she had so much fun. She got to take Julie along and went out several times on the trip. It was about 7:30 when we went out on the deck as the sun was down behind the house and there was a slight breeze and was very pleasant outside. Julie Showed me around her as she Susan at Julie's househas a nice deck and a patio and even a putting green, no wonder she is so good at golf.

We put the steak on the grill and of course had a little time to take some pictures. Now her yard and deck are pretty private but a couple of the neighbors can see it from there upper windows. One has to wonder if they saw us and if so whet did they think, could they get a good enough view to realize who we were or did they just think there were a couple of woman on the deck. Years ago it would haveSusan at Julie house terrified me to think someone might have seen me and now I don’t care that much and more interested in what they are thinking about it.

It really was a wonderful evening out and we got caught up in pictures that we almost forgot about our dinner on the grill. We had to rush a little to get it out and on the table. Now we did eat inside at the table and had a really nice dinner. Julie is a wonderful cook and great with a BBQ. it really was a relaxing social evening of good food and conversation.

Julie relaxing on the deckHere is a picture of Beautiful Julie relaxing on the deck. It really was a fun night. After dinner we had Ice Cream out on the deck as it was really nice out there now. We sat on the deck till after 10, what a wonderful evening. Thank you Julie for dinner and a wonderful night.

August 19, 2016 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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