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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Wednesday night outing

It is Wednesday and I am going to get to go out tonight for dinner with my friends. I got home and of course the most important thing was I needed a manicure. I called Dream nails and got an appointment for 5, so looking forward to this. I really love going to the nail salon. I started getting ready taking my time to enjoy it. As I got ready I had the big issue of what to wear and how to do my makeup. Normally I would wear a dress and heels to go to dinner but I am also going to the nail salon first. Well I settled on a black skirt and sweater top and my high heeled boots although I did go with the red lipstick.

I got to the nail salon just before 5 and went in. they were not busy, just 1 lady getting a pedicure. Anna was ready for me so I sat right down and she started on my nails, it is such a relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got my nails ready for the for the new acrylic to fill in. She asked me if I wanted them shortened and of course I didn’t but I knew I needed to so I told her yes. It is always sad when she uses the grinder to make them shorter. She also fixed the nail I broke the corner off of and soon she was putting on the new acrylic. now she has been using a pink acrylic which gives my nails a slight pink color, it would probably be more if she put it on thicker but she does a thin layer. Now it was time for the gel polish and Anna asked if I wanted the clear again and I said no I wanted the color wedding dress which is a slight pink although with the pink acrylic is does have more of a pink color. I really do love the way my nails look with this color of course I would much rather have a bright red. Maybe in 2 weeks as I will be on vacation. Anna put the first coat on and then the second coat and yes, my nails have a slight pretty pink shade. Now I know some people have noticed but only one person has ever said anything, but a lot of the woman I work with are taking way better care of their nails and several now have pretty long acrylic nails. I guess they just don’t want a man to have better looking nails then they do. It was about 5:40 when I was all done and on my way with my pretty nails.

Now Julie had taxed me earlier and she is also going to dinner tonight so I am going to pick her up so I was on my way to her house. I got to her house a little after 6 and she was already. It was great to see her again as she had been on vacation to Australia for 3 weeks. I was looking forward to hearing all about her trip. Now there was a lot of traffic so we got downtown just before 7. We were having dinner at McMenamins tavern & pool, the group has gone here a couple times before but it will be my first time. I really like going to new places.

Melissa and Cassandra were already there. It was good to see them again. Barb also showed up so we had 5 for dinner. Now I do like the bigger group outings as it is always fun to see a lot of girls out but it is harder to talk with all and also when we are at the bars it gets loud. These Wednesday night dinners are a lot of fun as having smaller groups you can really have good conversations which all can be involved in and it is not loud so you can easily hear what is going on. It might just be to many times to bars. We ordered dinner and had a wonderful time. It really was a wonderful night out. We also talked about our Mexican cruise in October of 2018, if you have ever thought about going on a cruise be sure and check out our web page for more information.

It is amazing how fast the night went by and soon it was 9:30 which doesn’t sound that late but I get up a little after 4 am in the morning and it will be at least an hour to get home and in bed but it is so worth it to go out with my friends. Saturday most of our group will be going to Salem to go out with the girls down there, I won’t be able to make it so I will go to the Escape at least for a while for dinner and to see if anyone else stays local.

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January 18, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen

Wednesday is here and our group is doing its Wednesday night dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen. I am looking forward to this as I have been here a couple times before in 2016 and early 2017 and it is a wonderful place to go for dinner, wonderful food, fair price and wonderful atmosphere. A really nice place to go for an evening out, the only bad thing is parking is not easy, but I would highly recommend them.

I started getting ready as I wanted to get there early so I would have time to find a parking spot and be there by 7. Besides I wanted to take my time and enjoy getting ready. I was all ready by 6 and on my way, I got downtown by 6:30 and luck would have it I found a parking spot about a block away just around the corner. Now it wasn’t raining but I took my umbrella just in case because I know if I don’t have it I will need it. I got there and Cassandra and kearren were already here, turns out Cassandra got here around 5. Now we do our dinners at 7 so we sat and talked and gave time for others to show up as we had a few other girls say they would be here.

Melissa showed up a little before 7 and the 4 of us sat and talked. I do like these smaller group outings as it is easier to talk with everyone. Of course a couple of the things we talked about was Diva Las Vegas and of course our Mexican Cruise in October. Diva Las Vegas is April 15 to 20th 2018 and it is so much fun. Check out their web page and think about going. The cruise is October 13 to 20th 2018 and will be so much fun. I have never done a cruise and I am really looking forward to it including flying down and back as Susan. Now this is not a transgender cruise but we do have 29 signed up to go of which about 15 are from our group the rose city t-girls here in Portland. If you have ever thought about going on a cruise this is the one.

By 7:15 we decided to order as we figured it was just us 4 for dinner. We had a wonderful time for a few hours and a great dinner. Our waitress was awesome. We really have had wonderful people wait on us and have always been treated wonderful every place we have gone. Portland really is a wonderful place to be. After dinner we looked at the desserts menu, last time we were here Cassandra got a big warm chocolate chip cookie which I was all set to have but they don’t have it anymore, kind of a let down but the good thing was I didn’t order dessert, good for me. Well Casandra did order dessert and shared it with all of us, how nice of her, Thanks Cassandra. This worked out well as we got some dessert but didn’t eat the whole thing by ourselves.

It was a nice evening out with my friends and it was sad to see it come to an end. It was a little after 9 when we left. I really do love these outings with my friends. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to find out what is new in Susan’s Life.

January 13, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Some Sunday Susan time

It is Sunday and it turns out I have a little time today and as I need to write my blog from Saturday evening I figured why not go to Starbucks as Susan. It was a little after 2 when I started getting ready and I was at the Starbucks by my house by a little after 3 with my computer. They were a little busier today I guess Sunday afternoons are a good time to go to Starbuck. I got my drink and sat down and got out my computer to do my blog. Now as I said this was kind of a last-minute outing and not really well planned. I figured I would have a few hours here to do my blog and some work on the computer but I forgot they are now closing at 6 on Sundays. Well that still gives me 3 hours.

I got connected to the wi-fi and opened my blog and noticed that my battery was only half charged, yes, I had used it last night at the escape and then forgot to plug it in and of course I didn’t bring the power cord. Now as I said this is close to my house, I could have run home and got the cord and been back in 5 minutes but that seemed a little strange to me. I decided to just go and see how long my battery lasted. I finished my blog and I still had a little battery left so I was just goofing off on the internet, a good way to waste some time. It was just before 5 when my computer told me I had 10% and I knew it wouldn’t be long. I wasn’t even going to make it till 6, so sad as I was not ready to go home yet. I was checking my Facebook page and I saw a post from a friend who had gone and saw the new Star Wars movie and I thought to myself, I haven’t gone to the movies in a while either male or female and I wanted to see the movie, yes, I am a big Star Wars fan. I quickly checked the times and the downtown Vancouver cinema had a 5:50 showing. I didn’t want to go to late as it is almost a 3-hour movie and I do need to get up early tomorrow. It was 5:10 now and only takes about 10 minutes to get there so it was decided. I am going to the movies.

Now I like this theater as it usually is not busy and I figured being a Sunday evening that would be the case. I was in my car and on my way. I got to the theater and there were all kinds of people leaving the theater and going to the theater and lots of cars going in and out of the parking garage. I guess everyone thought today was a good day to go to the movies. I parked and walked across the street to the theater where I had to stand in line to get my ticket. It didn’t take long and soon I was inside and again I had to stand in line to get into theater 6 where the movie was playing. Now I did feel a little out of place but not for how I was dressed but because I was by myself, not many people go to the movies alone.

Soon they let us in and it was one of the bigger theaters here, I got a seat about the middle and waited for the movie to start, being a big theater, the amount of people was small but that would not last. I had hoped by waiting so long after it came out there would not be as big of a crowed. Again, I was wrong by the time the movie started I would say it was 80% full, I did have 1 empty seat either side of me, I am thinking people left it thinking I was holding them for someone. Out of all the people as I looked around there were 2 other singles in the crowd but both were men.

Now the movie itself was good not great, there were some parts where they went for laughs and it didn’t work in the plot. Probably one of my least favorite from the Star Wars series. The movie was almost 3 hours long. It was a fun night though and that is what counts.

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Have a great week!

January 9, 2018 Posted by | movies, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

First Saturday of 2018 at the Escape

It is the first Saturday of 2018 and I am able to go out and meet my friends at the Escape tonight, a great way to start the new year, this is also my 1,000 blogs. I started getting ready early with the hopes of being there by 6, thing went well and I was ready to leave by 5:30, I also mixed it up and chose my long dark brown hair tonight, I was just in the mood for a change. I got to the Escape just a little before 6 and with my computer in had I went in. I always bring my computer so I can do some work as I wait for others to show up. Well Turns out Kearren was already there. It was nice as it gave us a chance to talk.

Kearren and I talked a lot about our feelings on our dressing and why we do it which I am always happy to tell people however I can only speak for myself and how I feel so in no way relate this to everyone. I always start of as it is not a sexual thing for me as so many people think that is why. Wanting to cross-dress is an expression of who you are and not who you want to have sex with. For me it is just so relaxing and calming, I get to just be myself without hiding anything and I think that is the most important thing. In my male life I always feel like I have to hide part of who I am and that can be really hard. When I am out I am not really thinking about how I am dressed or the fact I am dressed as a female and I guess the best way to explain that is when you go out are you focused on how you are dressed or on what you are doing and the people you are with. For me being out I am just being me, yes, every once in a while, I see my long hair in my face, or feel my lipstick but as for the rest of the makeup I don’t even think about it on my face as I can’t see or feel it. The other thing is it is a great way to relieve stress and any problems I am having as for a few hours I am Susan and I don’t think about work or things going on in my male side of my life. Kearren has a lot of the same feelings but she is still working through them which is hard. I have had these feelings for as long as I can remember and it took me a long time to figure out who I am and what I want in life and how Susan fits in.

Nicole also showed up tonight what a wonderful surprise. She lives up North and doesn’t get to Portland that often but it is always great when she does. Maybe one of these times we will have to try to get together and go shopping. Any way her wife and here are on vacation and she stopped here to go out with us, yes, her wife knows and is supportive. I keep hoping she will come out with Nicole sometime and meet the group. Anyway, her wife bought her a bunch of the Kiss nails we use, well I use to before I started getting my nails done. It was a trade off as I don’t have long pretty red nails when I go out but I have nice pretty nails just a little long all the time. I wrote about these nail tip in a blog a few years back. So, Nicole tried it tonight and the nails didn’t stay on, seems I left one thing out of my blog, you need clean dry nails, Nicole put them on after she had put moisturizer on so her nails were oily. If you want to use this method just before you put the nails on clean and dry them, some girls use hot water I always used a cotton ball with alcohol or polish remover. If you do this the nails will stay on. By the way Nicole loved the nails before they fell off and I think once she wears them for an evening she will always want them. It is funny as I really do love all the parts about being Susan but the long pretty nails are at the top of the list.

Cassandra showed up next also Melissa, Kate one of our new girls Victoria and her girlfriend Maria. They came to the Halloween party but I think this was here first night out in public. She also lives about an hour from Portland which makes it hard. It was nice as we had a nice sized group which is always fun although harder to talk with everyone. The bar was not really busy tonight but still a nice crowd. Karaoke started and that is fun but it also gets loud and harder to talk and that is when some of the girls start to leave. It is funny as 6 – 8 years ago we didn’t even go out till 9 or 10 and we usually closed down the bar now we go out at 6 – 7 and by 9 or 10 we are ready to call it a night. Nicole was the first to leave but she will be back in a couple weeks so that will be fun, Then Melissa and Victoria and her girlfriend left. Lorie and another girl showed up just as they were leaving, they are still our late-night girls. Some of the girls played pool and the rest of us sat and talked and listened to the Karaoke

A girl and guy came over and the girl started talking to us, well with the noise it was hard to hear her and she was hard to understand, yes Saturday night in the bar and a few drinks can do that to you but we finally figured out the guy was new in town and wanted to meet us so we invited him to sit down and he took the seat next to me. Now I talked with him for a while and he seems really nice, He moved up here from San Diego. Well it turns out he is a T-girl admirer well maybe a little more than admirer. I was suddenly aware of how I was dressed. Now tonight I wore a dress that was very nice and almost knee length and I was glad as one time I felt his hand on my leg and now I was trying to pull my dress lower. Any way he told me all about the clubs down there and well shall we say the working girls. Now I know this goes on in the Transgender community and I am probably sure some of the girls in our group play around and that is fine as I don’t judge. But as I said earlier this is not a sexual thing for me. Any way as we talked I took it upon myself to tell him about me as he thought I was fulltime and on hormones which I guess is a compliment as it means I looked good. But I told him I was not on hormones and just dressed this way a couple times a week and of course that I was not interested in men. He was fine with that although I could see he was a little disappointed. This doesn’t happen often to me and I still feel very uneasy when it does but I guess all woman deal with this at some point, just part of being a girl. But as I said while he was there talking with me I was very aware of how I was dressed. Anyway, he asked about the other girls at the table and our group and tonight was a rare night as of the girls that were here 3 were married and 5 had girlfriends, it was just Lorie and I that are single. He seemed surprised by this as he is use to the more sexual part of the Transgender community and I guess maybe we are the exception, but are group is about social aspect and getting girls to go out. Like is said I am sure this also goes on here in Portland but as our City is so accepting there really isn’t 1 club in town where all the Transgender go, we pretty much go where we want so that may b e hard for him here.

Well he talked with e and some of the other girls for about 30 minutes, seems longer before he left for the night. Now he seemed nice enough but still this is the one thing I will never get use to being Susan although I am getting better at it. I guess it is not all fun and roses being a girl. I will say so far; every time this has happened though the man understood and didn’t push it with me which is nice.

It was a fun night and it was almost 11 when I called it a night. I am hoping to make it out to Wednesday night dinner this week.

Thanks for reading, it was a little longer blog than I normally write. Be sure and keep up with my latest blog as Susan.

January 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | 2 Comments

Badly needed trip to the nail salon.

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Happy New Year’s everyone, it is hard to believe it is already 2018, seems like we were just worried about y2k (2000). I am currently sitting in Starbucks as I write this blog #999, yes, I am almost at 1,000 blogs. Now I had planned to hit 1,000 before the end of the year but well I ended up getting sick and didn’t get out last week or over the weekend. That also meant I missed getting my nails done last week hence the reason for the trip to the salon today. Today is 3 weeks since my last time getting my nails done and yes, they are on the long side but still looked pretty good till today. I learned that although 3 weeks grow out is okay the fact I have a thin layer of acrylic on my nails they do not hold up when they get too long. Today I broke a corner off the acrylic of one nail leaving a jagged edge and broke part of the actual nail on another finger. As I looked at them closer the reason was at the tips the acrylic was lifting off the natural nail. So, I am caught between getting my nails done every 2 weeks or having thicker acrylic. now I will say that Anna left my nails a little longer last time which also may have played a part. I am learning that having nice pretty nails takes work and care.

\Any way on the way home from work I called Dream nails to see if I could get in today. Anna said sure and wanted to know if I could be there at 4:30. Now I probably could have but if I got caught in traffic I would be late so I played it safe and said 5 so I had my appointment all set. It was a good thing too as I didn’t get home till 4 and still needed to get ready as Susan, I wonder from time to time what they would think if I just showed up as my male self. Well I started getting ready right away. I was all ready by 4:50 and ready to leave. Now my new neighbor, well he has lived there for about 9 months and I have only talked with him a couple times last summer was out in the street with his 2 little kids as they road their bikes in front of their home. Any way I had a nail appointment to get to so I opened the garage door and pulled out. As I turned onto the street he was only a few feet from me and he waved to me so I waved back and was on my way. I got to the nail salon just a little before 5 and went in. They were busy as there were 3 ladies getting their nails done and 4 getting pedicures including a husband and wife and one lady waiting. It took Anna about 5 minutes to finish the lady she was working on and then it was my turn.

I sat down at the table and Anna started to grind off the old gel polish and by the second finger she noticed how bad my nails were lifting. Yes, I was going to get a whole new set which meant removing all the acrylic down to my natural nails which I have not seen since last March, well 1 or 2 nails have had to be done like this but not all of them. It took a little work to remove all the old acrylic and wow my natural nails look horrible. I guess acrylic is hard on your nails, plus they are thin and week as the hard-top layer is gone. Now even with that Anna had to file the top down more to remove all the damage so the new acrylic would adhere. Finally, the nails were prepped and it was time for the acrylic. Now I really do love getting my nails done, it is so relaxing. One by one my nails started to look pretty again and soon all 10 were covered in acrylic and looked long and pretty. Anna asked me if I wanted them shortened and I said yes and with that she ground off the ends till they were short and yes shorter than the last time. I do wish I could have them longer and red but it just won’t work for me now but in 4 weeks I am going to take a week vacation and it is time I just need to use as I have been holding on to it because of my parent health but now it is getting close to the end of my work year and I need to use it. I don’t have any plans other then it will be Susan time and I am hopeful I can get a read color for the week and maybe not shorten them, that would be so awesome. I am looking forward to the fist week of February. Anna did her usual wonderful job; all the ladies here do wonderful jobs on nails. All to soon my nails were done, Anna went with just a clear top coat which was a little disappointing after 12 weeks of that pinkish color, she first use this color back on October 15, but then I thought that was fine as my brother will be in town in a little over a week and I think clear polish will be batter for that.

I left the nail salon and I was hungry so I drove to Panda Express and went in and got something to eat and even they were busy tonight, I had to stand in line. I got my food and sat down and ate like any other customer. I saw a couple people glance over at me but nothing big and for the most part the rest really paid me no attention. Soon a was done and it was time to go to the Starbucks by my house. I got there a little after 6:30 so I would have about an hour. They were also a little busy but most were to go ordered. There were only about 6 other people sitting at tables. I got a hot chocolate and sat at my table and caught up on some e-mails and then of course wrote this blog. It still amazes me that I have wrote 999 blogs about my times going out. Now years ago, I didn’t always write about my tomes out but pretty much for the last years I have been pretty good about it, sometime I combined a couple short outings into one blog but still. This means I have been out as Susan at least 999 time, that is hard to believe as 15 years ago it took all I could do just to go out for a late-night drive. It is fun though to look back at my old blogs, what I did, where I went and with who and of course some of the old pictures. To see how I have grown as Susan and become the lady I am today and of course all my wonderful friends. I would encourage everyone to at least write down some of the major event in your life as over time things become not so clear and some day we all want to look back at least for a little look.

I stayed at Starbuck till 8 when they closed, I was getting ready to leave and the one girl told me I could stay if I wanted as they had a lot of cleanup work to do. I thanked her but I had already put my computer away. I wish I knew her name as she is so nice and always remembers me, I looked and she didn’t have a name tag on. I talked to her for a few minutes as she told me they were changing their hours on the weekend, closing earlier, 7:30 on Saturdays and 6 on Sundays, then a quick trip to the gas station before heading home. It was a fun and relaxing evening. I am not sure I will get out Friday but I plan on going out Saturday night so blog 1,000 is just around the corner. Thanks for reading and keeping up on my life as Susan. Be sure and keep up on my latest outings on my most recent blog.

Have a safe and Happy New Year.

January 4, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | Leave a comment

A little Susan time on Christmas Eve, my gift to me.

It is Christmas eve today and I spent part with my parents. Now today it also started snowing so I went home early. Now it wasn’t supposed to snow accept for a little tonight so it came in early. Now I had some time for myself and I thought why not a little Susan time at Starbucks. I quickly got ready, and drove to the Starbucks by my house. I got there a little before 4 and they were not busy. Now being Christmas Eve I doubt if they will be open as late but I figured I could spend an hour or so here writing my blog from last night.

I went in and went to ordered a hot chocolate which would be perfect on a cold snowy day. The girl at the counter remembered me by name and said she hadn’t seen me in a while. I told her I haven’t been getting in as much, it was nice to be remembered by name and also missed. Now I talked with her a little about the weather while she made my hot chocolate. Now there were only a few people here and only a few came in, I think the weather and the fact people were busy doing other things on Christmas Eve. I thought about going shopping but was worried how much snow we would get. When I got here the roads were just a little slushy. Now as I sat there it really started snowing, I think I made the right choice not going to far from my where I live.

Now it was nice and relaxing here looking out the window at the snow as it came down. We don’t get snow that often and it is pretty to watch. Well another lady came in to get a drink and came over by my table and took some pictures out the window at the snow. I talked with her a little about the snow. It was a good night out. I was only here about an hour and a half as the snow was starting to come down harder and the was now over an inch on the roads.

On the way out, the girls working wished me a Merry Christmas, I wished them the same and told them I hoped they didn’t have to work too late. Turns out they are closing at 6 tonight which is good for them. Now as I left I had to take a selfie outside in the snow, it’s so beautiful out. I left Starbucks and made a quick trip to the gas station as with the bad weather I wanted a full tank of gas. I love this time of year and I would love it if the snow lasted one more day through Christmas, what better than a White Christmas which is my favorite Christmas movie which I am going home to watch.

Merry Christmas to all.

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December 25, 2017 Posted by | Christmas, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday, two days before Christmas

It is the Saturday before Christmas, actually two days before Christmas. This year has goo=ne by so fast. Now I am going to the Escape tonight although I am not sure how many from our group will be out as I know some are out of town for the holidays. Kate posted in our group to see if anyone else was going out so I posted back I would be there so I figure at least she will be there. I started getting ready about 4:30 a little later then I wanted as I was hoping to get there early. I was all ready and on my way by 5:40 so I got there right at 6 and was able to park right in front, one of the reasons for getting there early.

I went in and they were not that busy so I got our usual table which seats 10, I always feel a little bad taking such a big table when I am not sure how many if any will show up. One of the ladies at the bar who I have talked to many times was there and said hi and how nice I looked which I always love, it is my feminine side but I love hearing how nice or pretty I look. N ow I feel bad as I can not remember her name and I didn’t want to ask her what it was again. Any way I talked with her and two of her friends for about 10 minutes and of course one of the topics here heels. I finally sat down and broke out my computer and of course ordered dinner as I was hungry.

Now there were other people in the bar but it was not real busy which I kind of figured being a couple days before Christmas. I figured I would get a quick selfie. I had a nice dinner and caught up on some work as I waited to see if anyone else would show up. One of our new members in the group Lee said she was going to stop by in boy mode as she still has not gone out of her house as a female yet so now I was thinking there would be at least two others tonight.

It was now after 7:30 and I was beginning to wonder if I would be it when Kate arrived. Now I don’t mind going out by myself as I do it all the time when I go to Starbuck’s but it is always more fun when you have someone else with you. It was good to see her out. We talked for a few minutes when this guy walked over and introduced himself as Lee and joined us. It was nice to meet lee and she yes, I am calling her she as hopefully when she comes out with the group in the future it will be as her female self but if not, that is okay and she is still welcome. Now I give her a lot of credit to come out as her male self. It took me years before I would let anyone know who I was on my male side or see me. Any way the three of us talked and got to know each other better. Lee seams really nice but has the same fears and concerns we all have had at one time or another. I told her it does get easier with time and going out but the first few times are hard. I remember my first times I was so scared and really didn’t want to talk with anyone but I have a wonderful friend named Alice who really helped me. I remember one of the first times we were out, two girls came over and started talking to me and I thought that was so wonderful and it really helped me feel more comfortable, found out later Alice had run into them at the bar and was talking to them and told them how nervous I was and asked them to come over and say hi to me. It was a simple thing but it really did make a big difference for me and helped me feel more at ease. It is funny the things you remember from your past that to others may not seem like that big of a thing, a kind word, compliment or just being there with the person but it can have a huge impact on them.

Well I learned a lot about Lee, she has actually come out to her younger sister and a friend and both took it well which is great. Now there are some who know me both ways but they met me as Susan well plus my neighbor who know but that was because she saw me and found out but I have never just come out to someone about Susan. That is a hard thing to do as once you tell one person you really have no control over it and you can never truly know who knows. I don’t know if my neighbors told anyone else and to this day none of my neighbors have ever said a thing about it but it is possible every one of my neighbors know. I mean it is not something most people would walk up to you and say “guess what I heard about you?” the good thing is none of my neighbors treat me any different.

It really was nice to just sit and talk, well a little later another man came over and said he was listening to our conversation and he even apologized for listening in which you really have to figure others around you can hear what you are talking about. Anyway, he introduced himself and then showed me a picture. He went to Over the Rainbow Wednesday and got a makeover. I will also use her female name which is Evonne. Any way I asked her to join us and the 4 of us kept talking, Evonne also has never been out and it turns out Lee and Evonne work in the same field, kind of a small world. I told Evonne about our group the Rose City T-girls and invited her to join. It was nice to get to know them both and I hope they both come out with our group again. Now it wasn’t real busy tonight but soon Karaoke started which I was looking forward to as I wanted to hear some Christmas songs, yes, I love Christmas Music and have been listening to it since before Thanksgiving. Any way there was no Christmas music tonight it was just like every other Saturday night which there was nothing wrong with but I was hoping for Christmas music.

One more of our girls showed up so we had 4 from our group tonight which was smaller than normal but better then I thought there would be. Everyone was in a good mood and several girls came over and talked with us which is nice. Evonne was the first to leave and then Lee, I really hope they had a good time and felt welcome in our group. Kate played some pool and I sat and listened to the singing, it was just good to be out again. It was almost 11 when I decided to call it a night, I got up to leave when the Karaoke called a lady up and announced it would be the first Christmas song of the night. Well I have been waiting for this all night so I sat back down. The Lady sang Oh come all ye Faithfull and did a really good job, now I will admit this was not the Christmas music I expected in a bar but I sang along, I really love Christmas music but I do think my favorite is the Christmas Carols as after all this is what Christmas is all about. After she was done most of the people clap. Well it was now 11 and I needed to go so I said goodbye to my friends and headed for the door. On my way I stopped at the bar where the lady who just sang was sitting and told her how well she did and how much I enjoyed the song as I love Christmas Music. Well much to my surprise she stood up and thanked me and gave me a huge hug. We talked for a few minutes and she told me she hadn’t seen her dad in years and it was one of his favorite Christmas songs and how she used to go to Church with him all the time. I talked with her a few more minutes and she gave me another hug and thanked me. As I said before you never know what impact you can have on someone. And this time of year, can be hard as a lot of people don’t have family they can spend it with especially in the LGBT community. I was on my way home and I wished I had stayed just a little longer and talked with her some more.

It was a good night and a wonderful way to start the Christmas weekend off. To all my friend a very Merry Christmas and please know you are in my heart and thoughts.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

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December 24, 2017 Posted by | Christmas, Dinner out, Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Deschutes brewing

It is Wednesday and the Rose City T-girls are going to Dinner at the Deschutes Brewing downtown Portland. Now I have never been here before so I was looking forward to it and planning on going. I got home at 4:30 and Julie texted me to see if I was going. I texted her back and said yes and asked if she wanted me to pick her up and ride with me. So, we will be gong together tonight. I started getting ready as I wanted to pick Julie by 6:15. I was ready a little before 6 and on my way and guess what, I was low on gas so I stopped at Costco and got gas before heading to pick Julie up. It was closer to 6:30 when I got to Julie’s.

Julie was all ready when I got there so we were on our way to meet our friends for dinner. It was a nice drive and Julie and I had a chance to talk which was nice. We got downtown and had to park 3 blocks a way which was no big deal other then being really cold out. As we walked the few blocks we talked a little about how far we have come. Not many years ago we would only go out to LGBT places like Embers (which sadly closed) & CC Slaughters and we would always park as close as we could as we didn’t want to be out side any longer than we had to. Now we go to mainstream places and what I mean by that is going anyplace we want and not worrying about if the place is LGBT friendly or the fact we are part of the LGBT. All we are thinking is we are people like everyone else going out for dinner.

We got there and yes, I was a little cold but I did wear my high heel and not my open toed heels. Melissa was already there and they were really busy, we had to wait about 20 minutes before we got a table but that was okay as we still had girls that hadn’t shown up yet. We sat on a bench by the door with others waiting for tables, just like everyone else. Barb and Kearren showed up so the five of us waited till our table was ready. Soon we were seated and just waiting for Cassandra, yes, she was going to be able to join us tonight. It really wasn’t long and Cassandra showed up. We talked for a little more before ordering dinner.

Now, our waiter was wonderful, he treated us great and with respect as really everyone we interacted with here. It is always nice to go to places that treat everyone the same and yes, we have a great city here and we really have always been treated well where ever we go. We all ordered dinner and I did get one of their hamburgers which was awesome. There were only 6 of us tonight so it was easy for all of us to talk with each other. It is one of those 2 sided choices. I really do like when we have big turnouts but it makes it hard to talk with everyone, the smaller groups are more personal and easier to talk with everyone.

We had a great dinner and then sat and talked till almost 10, yes later then I planned on being out and in the morning, I will regret it but I was having fun and out with my friend. Julie ordered a desert and I helped her eat a little, thanks Julie. It really was a wonderful night out. It was almost 10 when we left and it was a chilly walk back to the car. I still amazes me how easily I walk around the town, as a matter of fact I don’t think I really thought ab out being out as a woman tonight other than when I was doing my makeup and picking out my dress. The rest of the night I was just out as myself, being myself. Susan is just a part of who I am, she is as much a part of me as my male side, but a lot more fun.

The drive home was nice as Julie and I talked more, it was really nice. Now Julie is going out of town for a few weeks for the Holiday’s so she wont be out for a while. It was almost 11 when I got home, it will be a short night but so worth it.

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Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and please be safe.

December 21, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Just a relaxing trip to the nail salon

Okay it has been over 2 ½ weeks since I got my nails done and they still look awesome, they have a little grow out but as the polish I have is a very light pink and not real noticeable you really can’t tell unless you look closely. I was tempted to wait but they are getting a little long and well I have a couple chips now on my toes so I need a pedicure. I was actually hoping to wait for a little warmer weather but I decided tonight was the night. It was about 3:45 when I got home so the first thing was to call Dream Nails and see if I could get in. Now over the last few times I have gone I have had Kathy and Anna both do my nails and they both do a great job and that makes it hard as I don’t know who to ask for as I don’t want to offend either. I decided to just call and see who I get. Now it was Anna who answered the phone and I just asked if I could come in at 5 for a fill and pedicure. Anna said that was fine, she would do my fill first and then one of the other girls would do my pedicure. Now with an appointment I started getting ready.

I was ready by 4:50 and was on my way. I got in my car and opened the garage door and then noticed I forgot my ring and bracelet so I just got out of the car and went back inside to get them leaving the garage door open. Only took a couple minutes and I was back in my car and on my way. I got to the nails salon right at 5 and went in. They were pretty busy so it was good I called and got an appointment. I still had to wait about 10 minutes for Anna to finish up the lady she was working on. Now I can tell it was cold today as usually when I have come here I would say 60% or more of the woman are here for pedicures but not tonight. There were 7 women getting their nails done and none getting pedicures. The other thing was all but one were getting a red color, I guess red is the color for Christmas. Now I was a little sad as I so wanted to get red on my finger nails for Christmas. As Anna finished up the lady she was working on she asked if I was getting both a manicure and pedicure and I told her yes as I needed one. She said she needed one too but didn’t have the time. I talked with her a little as Anna finished her nails.

It was about 5:10 when it was my turn and I sat down to have Anna do my nails. She asked how they held up and I told her wonderful, I really liked the job she did last time. I told her I almost waited but was afraid if I missed tonight it would be another week till I could get back. She looked at my nails and told me they looked fine and I probably could have gone another week and I really could have its just they were getting a little long. Well Anna started on my nails grinding off the old gel polish and getting them ready for the fill. We chatted about Christmas and if we were both ready for it which by the way we are not. It was just a really relaxing experience that I so enjoy. Now I had already picked out the color for my toes which is a medium red color with little sparkles in it as I figured that would be a great color for Christmas. Anna asked me if I wanted the same color on my fingers which I really did but I knew I couldn’t so I told her I would do the same color I did last time Wedding Dress.

Now with the acrylic on my nails she asked if I wanted them shortened, Again I wanted to say no but that was really one of the reasons I came in tonight. Anna shortened them and then shaped them and got them all ready for polish. Now she didn’t shorten them as much as she did last time so they are still a little long for my male side and I am guessing if I go more than 2 weeks they will be really long. I went and washed my hands and came back and Anna had my gel polish on her table and also a clear polish with sparkles in it and told me that would be a great polish for the Holidays. Well I just stayed with the polish I have been getting. It took about 45 minutes and my fingers were done and looking beautiful. It was now time for my pedicure.

Soon I was sitting in a chair massaging my back and my feet in nice warm water. It was so wonderful. A few more ladies came in and again they just wanted their fingers done so I was the only one getting a pedicure. Kathy was going to do my pedicure so I had to wait a few minutes for her to finish up the lady she was working on. Soon Kathy was working on my feet and it felt so wonderful. There really is something wonderful about going and getting your nails done. Another lady came in and it turns out she wanted a pedicure so I was no longer the only one and she was actually seated right next to me. I am not even sure how but soon we were talking about our nails and how much we like pedicures. It was really nice. I never even

thought about how I was dressed or who I was, I was just another lady at the nails salon and that was how everyone treated me. I mean I have talked with people here before but usually just a few comments but tonight I had a nice conversation with the lady next to me and even talked with 3 other ladies while I was here. T was a wonderful evening so far. It took about 45 minutes for my pedicure also and soon I had pretty red toes. I moved over to a table where I could put my toes under a fan to dry the polish for a few minutes. It was almost 7 when I was done and ready to go. Here is a picture of my pretty toes.

I left the salon and wow was it cold outside, by the time I got to my car my feet were already getting cold. Tonight, is not the weather you wear flip flops in. I got in the car and was planning on going to Starbucks for an hour to let my toes finish drying but I got the heater going and didn’t want to get out of the car and go into Starbucks as I knew my feet would get cold again so I drove down to Jack in the Box and went through the drive through before going home to a nice warm house. It was wonderful and relaxing couple hours. I would encourage everyone to get a manicure and pedicure at least once just to see what you are missing. If you don’t have a nail salon you go to I would recommend trying Dream Nails, they do a wonderful job.

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December 15, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Quiet Sunday evening at Starbucks

It is Sunday and for the last several weeks I have been able to get out for a few hours on Sunday evenings. One thing I have been doing is getting my nails done on Sundays and it has been two weeks since my last nail appointment but my nails actually look really good, Anna did a wonderful job on them last time. There is a little grow out but not real noticeable, probably the most noticeable difference is the length, yes, they are a little long now. Any way it was late by the time I was ready and able to get out, 5:30 and so I decided to skip the nail salon today and just go to Starbucks. I think I will try to get my nails done on Thursday, also it is really cold out and I do need a pedicure as it has been 6 weeks since my last pedicure on Oct 30. And today I got my first chip in the polish, any way I am hoping for a little warmer weather as I am not big on sandals when it is cold out. I realize I may have to get my manicure and pedicure and go home as I hate cold feet so I may end up waiting till Saturday as the lows should be in the 40’s instead of the freezing weather we are having now. Of course, waiting longer will make my nails even longer.

Well I got to Starbucks a little after 5:30 and as I drove by the front I saw someone I know in their car. Now I always park around the side by the side door but I had to make a decision about going in. had the person I know already gone in and where getting ready to leave or had they not gone in yet, for that matter were they even going in. Well I didn’t want to waste time so I parked and went in the side door and ordered my drink as I wanted something warm. I ordered my drink and the girl behind the counter remembered me by name which is always nice. I set up my computer at a table and soon my drink was ready and I went up to get it, I was just getting back to my seat when the person I know came in. Now I should say I know them but not really well so I really didn’t think they would recognize me but I just sat down and kept my head down looking at my computer. It is one of the good things about working on your computer as you are looking down so you really don’t notice people plus if they look at you it doesn’t look like you are trying to avoid them. I think that is why Starbucks is such a good place to go as even when they are busy most of the people here have computers or are doing work and their focus is down at the tables and not the people around them. Any way he got his drink and left.

I spent a couple hours here catching up on some work and of course I posted some of our pictures from the dinner cruise our group did on the Portland Spirit last night on our groups web page. I spent a couple hours here and it was relaxing. So much more fun then just sitting at home working on my computer. I stayed till 7:30 as that is when they close on Sunday nights now.

I was on my way home and I noticed my low tire pressure light was on. Now I got home and checked my tires and they seemed fine but the low-pressure light worried me as I go to work early in the morning. I was hopping with the cold weather they were just a little low so I drove back to the gas station by my house and put some air in them. They were all just a little low and I think it was just my car was outside in the cold. Hopefully tomorrow I don’t wake up with a flat tire. So tonight, I got to fill up my tires as Susan. It was about 8:30 when I got back home, just a normal everyday kind of outing as Susan.

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December 11, 2017 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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