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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Friday night and the whole evening to enjoy some Susan time

Well it has been anther busy week and I am ready for the weekend. I got home late but I am still going out as my Susan time is important to me. I started getting ready with a nice shower at 5:45, it was really hot today so I really needed this. Then came makeup, dress, hair and lastly nails and I was ready a little before 7 and on my way.

I got to Sweet Home by 7:20 and went in. They created a little outdoor patio which I guess is nice but it also took 3 of their 6 parking spots away, luckily I got 1 of the 3 left. Now I was the first one here and possible the only one that might show up tonight as I know Chris is out of town. It is funny as a few years ago I would never have gone to a bar as Susan if I thought I would be the only one. But I am okay with it now and also I wanted to make sure someone was there in case some of the other girls came out. I had my computer and I do know a several of the regulars that come here plus I needed to get dinner. I figured I would give it till 9 and if no one else showed up then I may head home.

Kelsie was there and I got to talk to her for a bit before I got my computer out. It was actually kind of slow here right now and it could be because of the heat as it is in the mid 90’s. One of the reasons I wore my black and white dress as it is very thin and light and of course water proof mascara. Well I got my computer out and caught up on some e-mails. Cristine showed up a little before 8 so now I had another girl there so I would be staying later. We ordered dinner and talked for a bit mostly about the Supreme Court and their rulings this week. In case you didn’t hear they ruled bans on Gay marriage were unconstitutional. Now I will probably put my foot in my mouth here but here goes anyway.

The gay marriage debate here has been a hot button issue and people on both sides have strong feelings and beliefs. I look at it the same way I do as my crossdressing, I don’t believe or feel everyone has to like my crossdressing or support it but they do need to recognize my right to crossdress. In other words you don’t have to invite me over for dinner or go out with me but you can’t tell me I can’t dress and go out someplace. Most people I think get this but there are those on both sides that don’t. I have heard those who oppose it say that the gays are pushing their beliefs on them which in some cases are true and those who support gay marriage calling the other side bigots, racists and even terrorist. Neither of these are true in most cases. Just because you don’t support gay marriage and speak out against it or try to stop it in a legal way does not make you a bad person as you have the right to your beliefs. It only becomes wrong when you try to use force or intimidation to get your way. Those who support gay rights when they attack those who don’t believe the same as they do or try to paint them as bad people are just as wrong. We are all entitled to our own views and beliefs and it is only wrong when we hurt someone else in doing that and before you say it is hurting someone to believe the opposite. That is wrong. I will explain this the best I can. I am against abortion as I believe all life is precious and it is murder to kill an unborn baby no matter how early. My belief and view. I also believe the law allowing abortion is wrong and if it came to a vote I would vote against it. This is not about a woman’s right to choose but about a living unborn person. If I knew someone who was going to have an abortion I would try to talk them out of it. Now this is my right, I would not attack a person who wanted an abortion nor attack a clinic that does abortions as by law they have that right and I have no more right to force them to follow my belief then they do to force their belief on me. I believe we can have these differences and still live together in peace and harmony if we just put aside hate and recognize each other’s rights. If you don’t support gay marriage then don’t marry someone of the same sex, don’t invite them to dinner but also don’t attack them. I guess the saying I am looking for is “live and let live”. We live in a society that has become so black and white (not about races). It is my way or no way and that is wrong on both sides. If I want you to accept my right to crossdress and go out I also have to recognize your right to not like it and not want to be involved with my crossdressing. It is a few people that cause problems and we try so hard to figure out why.

The confederate flag is just that it is a flag a piece of cloth. To some it means white supremacy to others it is means a symbol of oppression but it is still just a flag and the only power it has is what we read into it the flag is not the problem it is the people who use it for what they believe. The gun in the shooting was not the problem it was the man who did the shooting. The car or alcohol is not the problem it is the person that has too much to drink and then drives. We tend to look for what causes these issues and in all of them it comes down to people, not things or beliefs. We need to learn to get along with each other and work together and respect each other. So I will make you a deal, I will not tell you that you have to crossdress as long as you don’t tell me I can’t. Wow got a little off topic there so back to Friday night.

I had my computer on and was in paltalk chatting with Melissa who is so fun to chat with. Well I was in Cassandra’s chat room and she messaged me asking how long Cristine and I would be there as she was thinking of coming out tonight. I told her as long as we knew she was coming we would stay there so she was on her way. She got there about 9:30 and joined us. It was good to see her as she has been on vacation for a couple weeks. The 3 of us sat and talked some more. It was a good night.

Heather was also here tonight and came over and talked to us. She is so awesome and fun. She is one of the many people we have met since we started coming here and I look forward to seeing them also. Dawni also came over when she got there and talked with me for a bit. She had this really cute corset on so of course we she told me where she got it. I have a corset I got for my wonder woman costume but it is not a really good one. She also showed e picture of her and Mareinna when they went out last night. It was a really good night and a great start to the weekend. It was about 11:30 when we called it a night, iy was a slow drive home as there was a traffic accident on the freeway that had all but the right shoulder blocked, at least 4 cars. It took me 25 minutes to go a half mile.

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June 27, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night and was able to get out briefly for a pedicure.

Well I have been so busy so much going on in my male side that Susan has not been able to gat out as much. I am still managing my Friday nights out but my mid week outings have been really hard. I have been trying to get out for a manicure and pedicure for 2 weeks now and I really needed it. I got home late tonight and decided to call and see if Anna at Dream nails could fit me in. Well it worked out and I had an appointment at 6 so I had to rush to make it.

Now I knew tonight would be a quick outing but it was worth it. I started getting ready at 5 and was out the door by 5:50, luckily Dream nails is just a couple blocks away so I got there right before 6. now it was hot today almost 90 but the next several days will be even hotter. I figured being a really hot day it would be slow, wow was I wrong. there were 6 woman in there getting pedicures and 2 sitting waiting for their nails to dry. I picked out my nail color as I waited.

Anna was finally ready for me and I took my seat between 2 other woman, actually 1 on my left and 5 to my right. turns out they have been busy all day long. I guess hot days are when woman go to the nail salon. Well I sat and chatted a little with the woman on either side of me. This was really fun. I really love going to the nail salon, it is a real shame men don’t get their nails done.

Now the last 2 times I have come here I got gel polish on my fingers but as I have been only getting to the nail salon every 5 to 6 weeks they grow out and the gel polish looks bas as it is thick. actually this time it has been almost 7 weeks and I really needed tonight. any way I decided to go back to regular clear polish as it is cheaper and easier for me to maintain between visits.

Now the pedicure was so wonderful, very relaxing. Well it was time for my manicure. As I was sitting there and Anna was doing my fingers I was looking at my toes and they looked so cute. in a brief moment and probably without thinking I told her to go ahead and use the same color on my fingers knowing full well I would have to remove the color later tonight. Anna did my fingers and they looked so pretty. It was about 7:30 when I walked out with my beautiful fingers and toes.

Before going home I did stop at this gas station by my house and got gas just to extend my Susan time a little. I was out for less then 2 hours and I admit it was a lot of work to get ready for such a short outing but so worth it.

Well I got ready for bed, removed my makeup and then finally, sadly removed my polish from my fingers. here is what my toes (and my fingers briefly) look like. Girls are so lucky to be able to do this all the time.



June 26, 2015 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Last Friday of Spring as summers starts on Sunday

Well it has been another long and busy week for my male side and it is really cutting into my Susan time but sometimes life has priorities that you can’t get away from. I may not be to get out s regular, my 2 time a week but I am still making time for her as she is a big part of who I am. It’s just it will be a lot more last minute outings the planning a head and that is okay. Any way it is Friday night and yes I am able to go out tonight so it will be fun. I got home a little early and so I decided to get ready early so I could have more time out. Now tonight I tried a new Smokey eye look by blending some of my black eye shadows with my browns and it really turned out nice. I will have to remember how I did it.

I was ready before 6 and on my way to Sweet Home but got caught in traffic so it was still 6:30 when I got there. Chris and Samantha were here already. Samantha gets to Portland every once in a while and will come out with us which is always nice so it was good to see here and talk with her. Now our normal table was taken so we were one table back which was fine although when Karaoke started we couldn’t see the singers from the table. Now I did get my computer out and catch up on some e-mails and even went on PalTalk for a bit and chatted with Melissa for a little bit. Roxy also showed up for a little while too so we had 4 of us.

Well I ordered dinner and we sat and talked. It was really nice and I found out some things about Samantha I didn’t know and I told her a lot about me also, it is funny how that line I had between my male and female side is blending more and more. Now I am not saying I am going out and telling my friends who only know me in my male life about Susan but more and more of my male life is coming out to Susan’s friends. I guess Susan is just a more open person when it comes to this and that is probably because I am really more comfortable in the female role as Susan. Now I know what people are thinking, it sounds like I may be thinking of Transitioning and no I am not. It is just I have few friends now that have come out and they are struggling with their female side and how it all fits in and where it will lead and it got me thinking about myself too.

This is one of the hardest things for transgender people to deal with and figure out who they are and where they go. Growing up I knew I likes makeup and girls clothes, I really wanted to be able to wear makeup and the pretty dresses, now I will date myself as his was before the internet and you actually had to go to a library to find books and get information. I remember being confused as what I could find at the library all said that guys who dressed as girls wanted to be girls that they were in the wrong body or they were gay and I knew this wasn’t me. I didn’t want to be a girl just be able to look and dress like one and I was never attracted to boys, I actually find nothing attractive about the male body so I thought was that one weird person that didn’t fit in any place. It wasn’t till I was in high school that I heard the term crossdresser and realized that was who I was.

Now there are a lot of similarities in Transgender people but we all have our own needs, wants and desires too so it can be hard to give advice to others who are trying to figure out who they are as it is easy to believe ne way because you are looking for that acceptance and belonging and don’t want to feel you are alone. Life is a journey that we all take and where it leads us we may not know but we cannot let others interpret it for us as it is our life and we must live who we are.

What I do know and understand about myself is this and it has taken me many years to get to this point. I am a male who love being female. I will never transition as that is not for me. Now if I had all the money I would ever need and didn’t have to worry about work or anything I would live a little different. First I would have long pretty and painted nails as I love them. I would grow my hair out and I would live the majority of my life as a woman. I will admit it would be awesome to have breast but I am pretty sure I would not take female hormones as I am worried what the emotional and psychological affects would be, I would be more likely to look into implants but then I have the issue of what to do with them when I am not being female. The last thing is living female or male I would still only be interested in being with females as I said I don’t find the male body attractive. Now this is who I am and what is right for me in my life. There are others who may feel the same and probably more who feel this is wrong and not right for them and that is okay as we all need to find what is right for ourselves to be happy.

This is where it can get hard as we see our friends struggling to understand this part of their life and we so want to help them and we know who we are and what we want and what makes us happy that we want to tell them that and that s fine but we need to do it in a way that helps them find who they are and not try to fit into who we are. I guess the biggest help if to accept them and support them as they make this journey of discovery and even if they turn out different then us and the way we live our lives we support them. It’s not about being the same but being who we are.

Wow got a little off topic there, Karaoke started and it was fun. Samantha stayed till almost 11 tonight which is late for her as she has a 2+ hour drive home. It was a good night as I got to talk with Heather, Dawni and Mareinna for a while. They are some of the friends we have made here at the bar and have been so accepting of us. It was a really good night out. It was midnight when I called it a night. What a great way to start the weekend.

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June 20, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Relaxing Friday night out 6-12-2015

Friday night and a long week. It has been a really busy week again for my male side and it is really cutting into my Susan time but it can’t be helped. It just makes the time I do get to be Susan that much more special. I got home late so it was after 5:30 when I started getting ready. It was about 6:45 when I was ready and on my way.

I got to Sweet Home about 7:15 and Chris and Cristine were there already. I joined them and got out my computer to catch up on my e-mails which I have also fallen behind on. It wasn’t long and Jolene showed up. She had a new dress on, actually her first dress she has worn and she was so excited about it. I really enjoy this part of going out when we have girls who are just starting out as it helps me remember when I was first going out and the excitement I had. It really was a cute dress too. Well we all ordered dinner, I had their special and it was awesome as always. We sat around and enjoyed a wonderful meal and good conversation.

Now tonight the bar was doing an 80’s theme and of course I didn’t read their Facebook page to know. Even if I had though I have nothing 80’s to wear as Susan really wasn’t buying clothes back then besides no one really dressed for the 80’s but when Karaoke started most people sang 80’s songs which was nice as I knew all of them.

Dee showed up as she is in town again, it was good to see here. Guinevere also made it out which was a really nice surprise as it has been a long time since she has made it out with the group. I really enjoyed talking to them and catching up. We had 6 of us here tonight so a smaller showing. Now we also know most of the other people who come here and it is also nice to see them. Tony and Misty, Kelsie and Megan were all here tonight and I got to talk with them also. It really is a fun night out.

Mark the Karaoke DJ showed up and it turns out he got a promotion at his regular job and will be moving so tonight is his last night hosting the Karaoke. It will be sad to see him go as he has been so wonderful, hopefully he will come back every once in a while.

Well Karaoke started and as I said the songs were all great as I knew all of them. Chris sang the song “Knock three times” by Tony Orlando. It is such a great song and been a long time since I heard it. There were so many wonderful songs from the 80’s.

Now I hadn’t planned on staying out late tonight as I am tired as it really was a long week and I have been getting to bed late and up early. Well I got my second wind and of course that meant I stayed out later. It was after midnight when I called it a night. What a wonderful time I had.

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June 13, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Warm Saturday night at Harvey’s

Saturday and I get to go out with my friends to Harvey’s Comedy club tonight. I so look forward to this night each month as it is such a fun night. No I knew I would be rushed to make it downtown by 7 as I had something I had to do today till 5. Now today was really hot 93 degrees out and I was outside all day. It was almost 5:30 when I got home and it was right into the shower to start getting ready. Now I knew what dress I was going to wear and how I wanted my makeup to look so that always helps make it faster getting ready. I did use my new MAC eyeshadow and lip liner tonight. Now I was ready by 6:30 and on my way.

I got downtown by 7 and parking was bad as there is a lot going on downtown this weekend so I ended up parking about 2 blocks away. Now as hot as it was still about 84 there was a nice breeze. Not enough to mess up my hair but it made it really nice out for walking. I got to Fox & Hound and Cassandra, Cristine, Jolene, Laura H. and Laura M. were all there. Now we had 15 going tonight so it would be a good turnout tonight. It wasn’t long and Jan, Lynn and Barb showed up.

It was about 8:15 when we left and walked the 7 blocks to Harvey’s. It was the perfect evening for walking around town. Now there were a lot of people out tonight on the streets tonight being such a nice evening. We got to Harvey’s and Victoria was there. It wasn’t long and Julie, Teresa, Jennie and Amy showed up along with Barbs neighbors.

We were sitting around talking as we waited for the early show to get over when Jolene got a couple calls. Seems in her excitement to go out with the group for her first time dressed up she forgot she had to pick someone up tonight so she had to leave really quick. It was a shame she didn’t get to see the show but still good she got out for a little bit with us. It was great to see Julie again and talk to her, she is such a fun lady.

Well it was time for the show and we all went in. it really was one of the smaller crowds I have seen here but with the hot weather and of course Rose Festival going on I think a lot of people were down on the water front. Kim our favorite waitress was here so it was good to see her again, she is so awesome and always looks forward to the night that we come.

The show started and as always the comedians were awesome. They were so funny and we all laughed so hard. It was a good night. It is a shame that so few people were here as they really did miss a great show. This is one of our best nights out. If you are ever in Portland Harvey’s is a must for a fun night out.

After the show we all back to our cars and it was still a warm summers evening. What a great night tonight.

June 7, 2015 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night with a quick shopping trip before dinner.

Well it is Friday and the end of a long week. I really hadn’t planned on going out tonight as I can’t stay out late but as I got home early I rethought going out. I actually wanted to run to Macy’s as I had a $30 card from the MAC counter but it was only good this week and I couldn’t pass up some free MAC cosmetics. So my plan was t go out early and go to Lloyd Center mall and go to Macy’s and then on the way home swing by Sweet Home for dinner.

Well I was ready to leave a little before 5 so I had plenty of time, even with traffic I was to Macy’s by 5:30 and went straight for the MAC counter. Now unlike last Saturday when Cherie and I went here and they were slow they were pretty busy and has less help then they did on Saturday so the 2 girls working really didn’t have time to really spend with people so I just kind of browsed the counter. My main goal was a sparkly shimmer eye shadow like what Cherie got last week. I also looked at their lip liner and ended up getting 2 of them. It really was fun looking at all the pretty makeup. It was a little before 6 when I left and headed for Sweet Home.

I got t Sweet Home about 6:15 and parked right in front and went in. There were only 2 other people there at the bar. I sat at our table and got out my computer while I waited for others to show up. I noticed on Facebook that Chris would not be here tonight so I realized I may be all by myself. Well I ordered dinner and figured I would eat and wait till 8 to see if others showed up.

It was about 6:45 when Kelsie showed up and joined me. I have known Kelsie for a couple years she is actually one of the first people we met when we started coming to Sweet Home. We had a nice time talking and I found a lot out about her. It was a lot of fun. I was also chatting on line a little too.

Well it was about 8 when Jolene showed up so we did have 1 other girl show up tonight. Jolene and I talked for a while and then we played a game of pool and I won. It was a fun night and enjoyed talking with Jolene. She is going to Harvey’s tomorrow night with us so I was telling her about it and how fun it is and also where she can park as they close some roads down at 9 and if you are parked there they tow you.

Several of the people from the other group also came over and talked to me. It really is a friendly bar. Well we stayed till about 10:30 before we called it a night, Jolene actually left a little before I did. I was out a little later than I planed but it was worth it.

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June 5, 2015 Posted by | shopping, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday shopping with Cherie and then to the Escape.

Well Saturday would be fun as I was going to meet Cherie for a little shopping before going to then Escape Bar & Grill for the evening. Now the problem is with Cherie from Australia she has an international phone number so I can’t call her and she can’t call me even though we are standing next to each other so we are relying on e-mail. Now she had sent me an email that she had an appointment from 4 to 5 on se Division street but didn’t send me the address so I e-mailed her I would pick her up at 5 just send me the address. any way I got ready and still hadn’t heard from her so I left home and went to the Starbucks by the airport where I have gone before to wait for her to e-mail me.

I got there a little before 4 and got a drink and then got my computer out and went on line with my phone next on the table waiting. Now here is my blonde moment. it was about 4:45 and still no e-mail and I kept checking my phone. Any way I clicked on my e-mail on my computer to send an e-mail to a friend and here are 4 e-mails including one from Cherie she sent at 4. Turns out I had forgot to turn my data on, on my phone so that is why I hadn’t got the e-mail. I quickly replied and would pick her up and was on my way. I put the address in my GPS and got there just a few minutes after 5. I parked about a block away and e-mailed her I was there and then walked up to see if I could find her. It was about 5:15 when we finally found each other in amongst all the people.

We decided to go to Lloyd Center which was close and do some shopping. We got there and went into Sears and looked at some clothes and Cherie found a cute sweater which she bought. We walked down the mall to ULTA which is a big makeup store. We looked around for a minute or two but Cherie was looking for foundation and wanted to be color matched for the right color. I told her I used MAC and liked it so we walked down to Macy’s as they have a huge makeup area with several different counters including a MAC counter. Well this young lady who works there came over to help us and she color matched Cherie who by the way is the same color match as I am. She then offered to give Cherie a make over as it was slow and Cherie was only to happy to take advantage of the offer, after all what girl wouldn’t.

Cherie wiped off all her makeup while the beauty technician went and got all kinds of makeup. I really should have gotten her name as she was awesome. She did a complete makeover on her from start to finish including false eye lashes and explained every thing she did and why. I learned a lot just watching and I even had fun, not as much as Cherie did I am sure. I think I will have to go in and get a make over one day. I have always wanted to try false eye lashes and actually Peggy and I have talked about going to MAC and getting false eye lashes some time maybe I can talk her into going and getting the full make over. well it was amazing as she did an awesome job and Cherie looked beautiful. When we were all done Cherie did buy some MAC makeup. we were amazed as it was 8 pm now. The make over took about an hour in a half. didn’t seem like that long. Any way of course we had to get a picture so I asked a lady who 20150530_200451was there if she would take our picture and she was happy to do so. I have always wanted a picture like this. This is Cherie on the left looking beautiful with the beauty technician in the middle. What a fun time.

well as it was after 8 now we left and headed for the Escape. We got there and it was really busy by now so we had to park across the street. We had a good turn out tonight, Cassandra, Cristine, Teresa, Veronica, Julie, Laura H., Laura M., Samantha, Melissa and Mikaela in boy mode. Cherie had brought a dress to change into so she went and changed and I got a chance to talk with Julie for a while.

Victoria Sinclair showed up with a new girl tonight, it was her first time ever dressing completely and she came out with us for a little while and of course Shadow was with them. It is fun when a new girl come out as we all remember our first time and how we felt. I talked with her some to help make her feel welcome. She was actually doing really well for her first time. I remember mine I was so scared I don’t think I said more then a couple words the whole night or at least I don’t remember talking.

Cherie came back out in a really cute red and white dress. now there were 2 other birthday parties going on and they had tables reserved so we were spread out, some at the bar, some by the windows and some on the back wall. We had a lot of fun and I tried to get around and talk a little with every one. Most of the night though it was Cherie, Melissa, Julie and me at the bar talking as I knew Melissa and Cherie would be leaving tomorrow and I didn’t know when I would get to see them again. They are both really special people who I am lucky to have as friends.

Bianca and Dan finally showed up, today is Bianca’s birthday so Cassandra had gotten cup cakes to celebrate. It was also good to t=see them again as they also don’t get out much. It is amazing how many awesome friends I have here. well we all sang happy birthday to Bianca which I think made her night as we really don’t sing that well. we had a great night but as always it got late and the night had to come to an end.

Laura, Cherie and Susan (1)Well I had to get a few more pictures with Cherie as she leaves tomorrow to go to Canada for work and then back home to Australia and I am not sure when I will see here again. It is funny how good of friends we have become in such a short time. This is Laura, Cherie and me before we left. Bianca actually took these pictures andSusan & Cherie (2) they turned out so good. I love her dress it is so cute.

Well we all said our good byes and Cherie and I left as I was driving her back to where she was staying. We got a good chance to talk again which was nice as I really got to know her, she even showed me a picture of her wife. It is funny as you look at the picture to the right we kind of look like sisters. Well I dropped Cherie off and we said goodbye, it is sad as she lives so far away and I am not sure when we will see each other but we will keep in touch on Facebook.

Susan & Cherie (1)Thanks for reading

May 31, 2015 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night and a chance to spend time with my friends.

Well Friday again and time for Susan to go out and have some fun. This weekend will be really fun as I have 2 friends in town and they will both be out. I started getting ready early as I was really looking forward to tonight. I was on my way before 6 so I got there a little after 6. Chris was there playing pool as he gets here really early, He comes straight from work.

I got out my computer and started checking things online. It wasn’t long and Melissa showed up and Mikaela and her girlfriend showed up and also her girlfriends sister. It was great to see all of them especially Melissa who moved to Southern California a while back, She was in town for the weekend and came out to see us all. It was nice to chat with them and catch up on what is new. Well it started getting busy so I put my computer away so we had more room on the table.

Roxy, Michele and a couple other girls showed up so we had a good turnout. I ordered dinner and of course had some cheese cake for desert. Several of the people from the other group came over and talked with us for a while, one of the nice things about Sweet Home is we have good interaction with the other people here.

Cherie finally arrived she is my friend I met last December when she was in town, She lives in Australia and was on her way to do some work in Vancouver BC and stopped in Portland and found our group. Last December was her first time ever going out before and she met us at Sweet Home and the following night went to Harvey’s Comedy Club with us.  Well she is working again in Vancouver BC Starting Monday but she was able to swing through Portland on her way for the weekend so I was really glad to see her again. She remember some of the girls she met and I introduced her Cherie, Susan and Mikaela (1)to the ones she hadn’t met last time. Of course there had to be a picture. This is Cherie, Me and Mikaela.

It was so fun to talk to her and get caught up on how she is doing. She has actually gone out a coup;e times in Perth Australia and met some girls there which is great for her. I know first hand how much it helps to have others like yourself to go out with and talk to, helps us feel like we are not alone and the only one who has these feelings.

Well we all sat and talked and of course listened to Karaoke for a while. It was about 11 when Melissa, Mikaela and her girlfriend and sister left as they were going downtown to CC Slaughters to dance. some of the other girls left and soon it was just Chris, Cherie and me left from out group. Cherie wanted to go check out CC Slaughters so about 11:30 we left and drove downtown and luck would have it we found a parking spot about a block away.

We walked to CC’s and found Melissa, Mikaela and her girlfriend and sister. They were surprised to see us as I am not a dancer and as it is so busy downtown I generally don’t go there on the weekend. well we all got drinks and then yes we all went out on the dance floor. me I just moved a little in the crowd, you really couldn’t call it dancing but at least I wasn’t just standing there.

Now I had not planned on this so I had worn my 4” spiked heels which are not meant for dancing so I could really feel it on the balls of my feet. The other thing which is hard as a girl is your purse. I didn’t want to set it down but it was a challenge to keep it on my shoulder as people would brush against you and nock it off. one advantage men has is they have pockets to put stuff in. Now a couple of the people dancing had had a lot to drink and a couple fell down and one actually tried to pick up the other who fell over backwards and his feet came up and kicked a drink out of the lady next to me hand and of course it went up in the air and then down and broke on the floor. luckily all I got was a went leg and shoe. Glad I didn’t have my good new heels on.

Well Cherie and my feet were done so we went over and sat down for a while and tried to talk but it was so loud in there it was hard to hear. we sat for about 15 minutes and then decided to call it a night. the funny thing is when I stood my feet hurt way more than when I sat down. I almost took them off walking to he car.

I drove Cherie back to Victoria’s as she is staying there at her bread and breakfast. It gave us a chance to talk some more and I found out a little more about her and her family. It was about 2:30 am when I dropped her off and headed home, of course that meant I didn’t get home till about 3 AM which is the latest this girl has stayed out in a long time but it was worth it and I had such a great time. Saturday Cherie and I are going to get together a little earlier and maybe do some shopping before we go to the Escape to meet the other girls again.

Thanks for reading.

May 31, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner with friends

Well I got to go out for dinner tonight, I really hadn’t planned on going out but a couple of my friends contacted me about going out I just couldn’t pass it up. Our Wednesday night dinner tonight was at the House of Louie for Chinese and they have really good food. Now it is really nice today and will be through the weekend so I am sure my neighbors are more likely to be out. Now as I was not going to stay out late I figures I would try to get out earlier so I started getting ready about 4:30with hopes of being ready by 6. Things went right and I was actually ready by 5:45.

Now 4 of my neighbors were out talking but they were one house down the street in the opposite direction I was going so I went ahead and left hoping they wouldn’t notice from that far away. I got downtown Portland by 6:15 and parked and walked to Fox & Hound.

Cassandra was there and she was on her computer. She was online in her chat room DJing the room, She had her headphones on with the mic and was talking online. She talked me into talking for a little bit but I really didn’t know what to say so I passed it back to her pretty quick.

Cristine showed up right after I did and Julie just a little while later. Julie sat next to me and Cassandra and Cristine was behind us so all of us were on Cassandra’s Cam at the same time. It was kind of funny.

At 7 Cassandra put her computer away and the 4 of us walked over to House of Louie for dinner. Turns out we were the only 4 that showed up tonight so it was a smaller tur out than normal. It was still a fun night as we had a nice dinner and good conversation. It really is amazing how fast the time went by as before we knew it, it was 9 pm.

We walked back over to CC Slaughters, Cassandra, Cristine and Julie all went in but I decided to skip it and head home as I knew if I went in I would stay for a while. It was wonderful to spend a couple hours with my friends.

Thanks for reading.

May 28, 2015 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Memorial Day weekend and out on a Saturday night

Wow it has been a couple busy weeks for my male side so not much Susan time so I was so glad I was going to get to go out tonight. It is amazing how much I miss my girl time when I can’t dress, I really do have a need to dress. Hopefully things will settle down in a couple weeks. Now as Monday is Memorial Day I wanted to wish all our Service men past, present and future and their families a big thanks for the sacrifices they have made for our country.

I started getting ready at 5 and I could feel the stress go away and a calming effect on me right away, as I said I do need to have time as Susan to keep my life in balance. I really do enjoy my time getting ready, doing my makeup and thinking about what dress and heels to wear. Now I did my makeup a little different tonight as I did my eye makeup before my foundation, I saw this in a video and wanted to give it a try. Not sure if I liked it though, it was easier to clean up any fallout from the eye shadow but a little harder to blend the foundation around my eyes. My eyes did turn out really well though.

Now it was time to choose my dress for the night and I had several ideas. As I was looking through my closet I saw my black and white dress I bought probably a year ago. I have never worn it as it is a tight dress and I wanted to lose some weight first so it would look better but as it has been a year and I still haven’t lost the weight I decided to wear it. Of course this would mean a waist cincher and padding on my hips to make it look right. It really is a cute summer time dress.

I got in my car and I was off and on my way by 6:20, I got to the Escape and there were a lot of cars there already, I got the last parking spot so I felt lucky. Cristine and Cassandra were already there, Cassandra n her computer. Cassandra loved my dress and told me how cute it was, just imagine what it would look like if I lost 20 LB’s. Well of course I had to get a picture so I had Cassandra take one. It really looked good and of course I was looking at the dress and didn’t notice I had my eyes Susan's new dressclosed or I would have gotten another picture. Now I thought about not posting it but then I realized it showed my eye makeup really well so here it is.

Now being a Holiday weekend I wasn’t sure how many girls would be out. I got out my computer and set it up on Paltalk, I actually went a head today and signed up and paid for a year. Still not sure how much I will use it but figured I would give it a year and then next year I will decide if I used it enough to renew it. it is kind of funny as Cassandra and I were both in the same chat room and you could see Cassandra behind me on my web cam and of course you could see me behind her on her web cam.

Shadow and Blair both showed up which was nice, They don’t come out much but this is the second time in the last 6 weeks or so. I got a chance to talk with them some which was nice as I got to know them better which is always nice. It is kind of hard to really get to know each other as we are all still cautious on how much information we give out. I consider some of these girls my best friends and yet they don’t know a lot about me.

Jan and Lynn also made it out tonight which was awesome. Jan just had a birthday so it was good to see her. Dee & Cassie also made it out tonight and another girl so we had a good turnout tonight. It was a really fun night. I did have fun chatting tonight online and did get a chance to chat with Melissa for a little bit which was nice. Dee travels and only gets to Portland every so often, she brought her dg with her tonight so she was going out regular to check on him and let him out so I got to go out and see her dog, very friendly. so her we are out by the corner standing there in our dresses with her dog talking as the cars went by, have to wonder what they were thinking as they passed us.

Karaoke started and of course it got busier then but it was still a quiet night here probably because of the Holiday. It was a fun night and  stayed out till almost midnight. Now as I said I will have limited Susan time for the next couple weeks but I do plan on being out next weekend on Friday and Saturday as I have a friend Cherie who will be in town for work, She lives in Australia, It will be good to see her and get a chance to talk with her again. Maybe even go shopping next Saturday.

Thanks for reading.


May 24, 2015 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment


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