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Thursday Susan time and some shopping

Well it is Thursday and it turns out I have today off as I have to work this weekend so I figured I would get some Susan time in. now there are some things I needed to do and I figured why not do them as Susan. now I need to go to Costco as I am running out of some things so that was on my list as well as a stop at Walmart to get some Susan stuff, makeup, I need some mascara, face powder, lipstick and a few other things. I got up at 7:30 to get ready and take my time preparing for the day. I did my makeup pretty light as I wanted to blend in the best I could although I did do the false eye lashes. I am getting better at them but I need to have time when I do them in case I mess up, at least till I get better. I was ready by 9 am and yes, I think I did my best job on my false eye lashed today. It is only the 3rd of 4th time I have done them but they look great and I really can’t even tell I have them on so I must have got them on right.

The plan today is Costco, Walmart and a visit to the Cemetery to put flowers on my Dads grave. Now this means going down towards the south east side of Portland so I figured I would go to the Costco on Airport way and as it was still before 10, I decided the Walmart I would go to is the one by Troutdale so that was where I headed for first. I got to Walmart and it was still cold out so I wore my coat and went in. Now as I said I needed several things for Susan, some Q-tips, Baby Oil as I am used the last of mine last night to remove my lip stick, I use Maybelline Lip Ink and you have to have baby oil to get it off. So, as I put it on this morning, I knew I had to come home with baby oil today. Also needed some face powder, more of the lip ink as I am just about out of my favorite color, and also some perfume as I am almost out of that. The perfume I like is called Fantasy by Brittny Spears. I originally bought this one because it was pink and cute but I really like the scent. Last was some mascara, I try to replace mine every 6 months at the most as I don’t like putting things that are old that close to my eyes the problem is, I never really run out of mascara as I don’t use it that fast. It was just before 10 when I left here and headed back to Costco.

I got to Costco about 10:15 and went in. I have a Susan Costco card as they let me ad my female self to my account. I grabbed a cart and started shopping. Mostly just stuff I needed for the house, toilet paper, paper towels, laundry soap, fabric softener, batteries, dove bar soap, and I think there were a couple other things I picked up oh and some flowers for the Cemetery. Then it was up to stand in line. now this Costco has a self-checkout and the lines are way shorter there so that is where I went. As busy as they were no one seemed to pay any attention to me. I loaded my stuff in the car and then went to get some gas as long as I was here of course the line for gas took longer then the line in the store. I did get a quick selfie in the car as I waited. After I got gas it was off to the Cemetery.

I got to the Cemetery a little after 11 and there was a big funeral today so lost of traffic so it took me a little while to get to where my Dad is. Now this is where they seemed to be working, there was 5 men in this section prepping a whole, a couple working on replacing the temporary markers with head stones and probably 5 men weeding and trimming the bushes around the edge. They were all at least 30 feet from where I was but I did wonder if they noticed me, I don’t think from that distance they would have figured it out that I was not female. I placed the flowers and stayed there probably 20 minutes. I can’t explain it but I just feel better about going here as Susan even though my Dad never knew about this side of my life.

From the Cemetery I headed back for home, as I got close, I realized it was almost moon so I stopped at Wendy’s for lunch, they were actually pretty busy but mostly woman here, some with children but a couple groups of 4 or 5 woman out for lunch. I got my food and sat where I could watch the news on TV as I ate. Now I have till about 3 today before I have to be home so I still had a few hours so I left and went to the Starbucks I go to near my house. I got there about 12:40 so I still had 2 ½ hours.

I went in and they were pretty busy, I couldn’t get one of the tables along the window as a matter of fact the only table open was in the front corner so that is where I set up my computer to relax and write my blogs and catch up on e-mails and some work. I wrote my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner and started on this blog also while it was fresh in my mind. I stayed here till 3 before heading for home as I have to be someplace by 4 and I need time to get home and wash away all traces of Susan.

It was a really fun and relaxing day and I got a lot of stuff I had to done and the best part I did them as Susan. it is funny as 15 years ago I would go out as my male self to get things for Susan and now I go out as Susan to get things my male self needs. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.


February 28, 2020 Posted by | shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Friday lunch and shopping with Peggy

It is Friday and I am meeting Peggy for lunch and some shopping at Clackamas Town Center and I have been looking forward to this as it has been a long while since Peggy and I have gotten together. But let’s back up a little. Yesterday I bought some false eye lashes and I tried them last night and I actually did pretty good getting them on and they are way better then the ones given to me several years ago. The one I put on my right eye lid I really couldn’t even tell it was there but the one I my left eye lid was a little bothersome. Not sure what went wrong, any way I decided today was going to try them for my day out with Peggy. I was meeting Peggy at 10:30 so I got up at 7:30 to get ready. Yes, Susan does take longer especially when I want to enjoy it or try something new like the false eye lashes just incase something goes wrong. I got my makeup all done and started on my false eye lashes and the right one went on perfectly and just like last night I really could not tell I had it on but I had trouble with the left and had to take it off and try again. I got it on finally although I did notice it was on. I think I just had it to low on the outside corner. I am right-handed so it is easy to see and do the right eye but the left eye is more difficult as I have to reach across my face partially blocking my view. But I felt it was good enough and I must say they looked awesome and kind of make it look like you have eye liner on. I got dressed and was on my way by 9:30.

I got to Clackamas at 10 so I was early so I took a couple selfies in the car. We had decided to meet at Barns & Noble as I figure I could brows the books as I waited for Peggy. Well as I was taking my selfie’s Peggy texted me, she was at Barns & Noble so I texted he I just parked and was on my way in. it was great to see her again, I am not sure but the last time I saw her might have been after Diva Las Vegas last year. Peggy really is awesome she is the first non-trans person and we hit it off. She really does look at me as a friend just like any of her other friends which is awesome. We looked around Barns & Noble for a little while as she was looking for some books for her granddaughter. She bought a few books for her and we took them out to her car before hitting the mall. We walked around the mall just talking till Peggy got caught by one of the salesman selling the wrinkle cream and soon he was giving her a sample on her eyes and wanted me to tell if it looked better and all I could think about was in Las Vegas last year when this happened to Cassandra. The key is never sitting down as once you have a seat, they really put the pressure on to sell you something. It was probably 20 minutes here and I had a hard time not laughing as I could tell Peggy was trying to get away politely. Well we finally got away without buying anything and we were back just walking around. We did go into bath & Body works and Peggy picked up a few air fresheners refills and I just looked around but I did spray a tester of perfume in my hand, wow it was really strong and florally. Not something I would buy or wear.

We walked around a little more and then decided to get lunch. It was a little before noon so we walked across the parking lot to a restaurant called the Ram; Peggy had eaten there before but this was my first time there. It wasn’t really busy but then again neither was the mall. We got a booth and ordered lunch; our waitress was awesome. I had a burger and Peggy a Rubin sandwich. The food was really good, I would recommend them. We had a nice lunch and just sat and talked and caught up. after lunch I ordered a dessert, a chocolate peanut butter pie and Peggy and I split it, it was incredible. Then we just sat there and talked. It was just so much fun and we lost track of time. It was after 1:30 before we left and walked back to the mall.

We looked around a little more and then Peggy wanted to go into a store called Children’s place to look for more things for her granddaughter who is almost 5. Now I have never been in a store like this but there were so many cute little girls’ clothes her, I really missed out when I was young. We had fun looking around and Peggy found some really cute things for her granddaughter. We then walked over to Macy’s and looked around a little. It really was fun and having someone to share it with made it all the more fun. 15 years ago, I couldn’t imagine getting out of a car as Susan and now I am walking through the mall shopping with a friend as Susan it is a wonderful feeling. We even sat down a couple time and just talked. it was 3 pm now and Peggy had a nail appointment downtown Portland at 4 and I of course had to go all the way back to Vancouver and at this time of day traffic could be bad so we called it a day. I really do have to make more of an effort to get together with Peggy more. We said goodbye and went our separate ways.

Well I got on the freeway and expected traffic but there really was non. I was almost home by 3:35 so I decided to stop at the Starbucks right by my house. I use to go to this one till they started closing early but as it is the middle of the day it was perfect as I am only a couple minutes from home so I have a little more time as I don’t need to be home till 4:30, I have to be someplace at 5:30 and I need time to clean up and remove all traces of Susan.

I went in and got a large hot chocolate and set up my computer and started writing my blog from today. Now the funny thing is I had forgotten about my false eye lashes and really, I couldn’t even tell they were on including the left eye, I guess I just got use to it. It was a little after 4:30 when I drove the last ½ mile home to end my day but it was such a fun day and has been such a fun week. I am not sure if I will get out tomorrow to the Escape as I have someone coming to my house between 3 & 5 to do a little work and it will depend on if they get there closer to the 3 or the 5. But I am hopeful to get to Starbucks on Sunday for a little Susan time and to catch up on some work as I have been off work all week. I had a wonderful day.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life

February 7, 2020 Posted by | family, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday shopping and lunch with Barb

It is Thursday and today I am going shopping with Barb, I am picking her up at 11 and then we will be off. I got up and got dressed taking my time. It was about 10:15 when I left and headed for Barb. She had texted me her address and of course I was using my GPS to find it. I got to where she lives and texted her, I was there and she came right up and we were off. Our first stop was Jantzen Beech and we went to the TJ Max, I am not sure I have ever been there before. We went in and started off in the shoe section, they had some cute shoes but not in our size, once you get to a size 10 the selection was really small. It is hard when you have feet and I am luckier than most as I wear a size 10 to 11 depending on the toe width. Some of our girls in the group need size 13 or more. Unfortunately, the average size for a woman is a 7 to 8. We moved into the clothes section and again their selection of clothes here was more for the average size woman, in other words smaller of course Barb is that size so she found several things she wanted to try on so as she did that I walked around and went and looked at the purses. I really don’t need one as I like my purse and can’t get that excited about having a bunch of purses for different outfits or event, I guess I am not as female on that part. On the other hand, my lady’s wallet I have had for probably 15 years and I found a couple cute ones and on actually has a wrist strap so I could use it as a clutch purse also and it was only $7.99 so I decided to get it.

Barb was still trying on clothes so I walked around a little more and found their cosmetic section or at least that’s what they called it. They really didn’t have much but they did have some false Eye lashes. Now I have some someone gave me years ago and I have tried them but I the ones oi have, have a really thick band and don’t fit right and feel heavy so I have never worn them out. the ones they have here have a really narrow band and actually look pretty nice and they are 6 pairs for $5.99 so I decided to get them also and try them again. I really do like Mascara and it gives my thick full lashes but I can’t find a mascara that lengthens them. I will probably try them tonight and if they look good and I can get them on I may try then tomorrow when I go shopping with Peggy. Barb couldn’t find anything that fit so we went and I bought my items and then we left and headed for Lloyd Center.

We got there about 12:30 and parked, Barb had to make a call so while she was doing that, I took the opportunity to get a quick selfie before we went in as the sun was actually out. we went in and walked around a little talking and then headed for the food court to get some lunch. I can’t think of the name of the place we went but we both got Teriyaki Chicken on rice and vegetables. We then found a table where we could watch people and had a nice lunch, Barb used the chopsticks but as I wanted to eat my food and not throw it on my lap, I used a fork. We had a wonderful lunch and must have sat there for a good hour just talking. I really do like going out shopping with someone else, just 2 girls out for a day of shopping.

It was now time to do a little more shopping but before we left, I got 1 more selfie in the food court. We walked around a little more and found ourselves at H&M looking at clothes, Barb was looking for a nice pair of skinny jeans and I was just looking at everything. I found a sweater dress but it looked really short but I thought maybe I could use it as a top with my leggings so I tried it on. They were a little tight and really to long for a top but not long enough for a dress at least on me. Barb found a few pants to try on and I wondered around and all their dresses were really short. Finally, I did find a couple dresses that were longer so I held them up and they came almost to my knees. I started going through the sizes and they ranged from 0 to size 4. Just not my lucky day. Barb did find a couple pairs of pants so she bought them.

It was about 3 and I still had to drive Barb home and then get home myself and it would mean rush hour traffic so we called it a day. Barb’s place is on my way home but it would mean getting off the freeway in rush hour and then getting back on so it would take a while but so worth it. It was a really wonderful day, Thanks Barb we will have to do it again. It was after 4:30 when I got close to home and I thought about going to Starbucks but there just wasn’t time as I have to be someplace by 5:30 and I still have to clean up and remove all traces of Susan so I went straight home.

Now I am looking forward to shopping with Peggy tomorrow. I will meet her at 10:30. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

February 6, 2020 Posted by | shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday and a little shopping and dinner at Amaro’s table

Well today is Wednesday and I actually have the whole day to be Susan. my plan was to do a little shopping and I was going to Washington Square. Now I got up today and got ready, taking my time as I plan on being out all day and then going to Dinner tonight. The perfect test for the Setting spray bought yesterday. I have never used one so it will be a good test. My goal was to leave home by 9:30 but I was a little late as at the last minute I decided to wear my corset to give me a good figure, I also decided to wear my darker hair. If I can get my makeup just right, I think it looks good on me. It was about 9:45 when I left home and for some reason it was still like rush hour traffic. I didn’t get to Washington Square till about 10:30. I parked by Nordstrom’s and went in, of course I got a quick selfie. Now Washington Square is smaller than Clackamas Town Center but you don’t realize till you go to one right after the other. I went down to Macy’s and looked at some of their clothes I found a dress I liked but it was too small. I also looked at Shoes here.

I then walked down to JC Penny’s and looked around; they also had a huge closeout section up to 60% off. Also checked out their shoe department but didn’t find anything. I walked through the mall and checked out a few other stores including Victoria’s Secret, I love looking around this store and it was actually one of the busier stores in the mall. I walked through the food court as it was lunch time but I really wasn’t hungry, could be because of the corset I am wearing. So back down to the mall and walked around a little more and then I went into Dick’s Sporting Good. I looked around a little before going back into the mall and back to my car it was a little after 1 when I left and headed for home well at least closer to home. This mall is the farthest from where I live and I have to go on 3 different freeways and all can back up during rush hour so I didn’t want to chance it. It took me about 45 minutes to get back close to home so I decided to go to a Starbucks by Vancouver Mall as I didn’t want to go to the one, I normally go to as I had different hair on today and they have only seen my in one hair style.

It was just about 2 pm when I got to the Starbucks I picked and went in. they were a little busy mostly to go orders as this one does not have a drive through. I got a table by the window and ordered a drink and a cookie. I checked my e-mails and answered some and then just caught up on some news and pretty much just killing some time and people watching. Starbucks is a wonderful place to go for a couple hours and just relax. Now as I said I was people watching and I noticed a man probably in his 40’s on a cell phone waiting for his drink. He had slightly greying hair and a mustache but he also had a beautiful set of acrylic nails and they alternated between green and red and each one had a design on them and they were probably ¼ inch long. Now I know a couple of the girls in our group have acrylic nails, Jan and Kimberly and they are keeping them even in their male modes but the fact this man had a mustache I don’t think he dresses so I found that interesting. He got his drink and was gone. I stayed here till a little after 4 before heading for home to get cleaned up and go meet my friends for dinner. It was about 4:30 when I got home.

Now I thought about taking the corset off but really it is pretty comfortable other than limiting how you move so I decided to keep it on and see how I feel tonight as by the time I get home from dinner I will have had it on for about 12 hours. Now I wanted to change my shoes to heels, put a skirt on and pantyhose instead of the leggings I wore today so that was a little work. It is a lot harder to do these things when you really can’t bend over much and when you bend as much as you can you can’t breathe so it took a little time and effort. Once that was done, I touched up my makeup which held up pretty well, maybe that setting spray does work, Thanks Karen for the tip. Next came my normal hair well at least the one I wear to Starbucks as it was only 5:15 now and I had 2 choices. Sit at home till 6:30 before going to dinner or going to my Starbucks for about an hour and you guess which one won out. it was about 5:300 when I got to Starbucks and went in. I got my table along the window and something to drink and started on my blog from today. I stayed here till 6:30 before heading to meet my friends for dinner.

I got to Amaro’s table about 6:45, parked and went in, Melissa and Karen were already there so I joined them and waited for the others to show up. we had 6 say they would be here tonight. I did get another quick selfie. By the way this is my makeup I put on at 9 am this morning, the only thing I did was a little face powder to cut the shine down. My makeup held up really well. By 7 Kimberly had shown up with her wife and Barb also made it so all 6 of us were here tonight. It was good to see everyone. We talked for a little bit before we ordered dinner. Now our waiter was awesome tonight but every time we have come here the staff has been wonderful. I ordered my normal classic fried chicken which is wonderful.

We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation, we sat and talked for a good 30 minutes after we finished eating. It was a wonderful night. it was about 9:15 when we called it a night. Karen wanted a few pictures so I took a couple of her outside on the side walk and she looked awesome. She also took a few pictures of me. Now Barb has an electric car so she parked over at the PUD to charge her car and walked the 12 blocks to Amaro’s so I gave her a ride back to her car so we could plan tomorrow. Barb and I are going shopping and to lunch. She gave me her address and I am going to pick her up so we can ride together, it will be a fun day. I got home just before 10 so I have worn my corset for over 12 hours and I will admit I was ready to take it off, the last hour was ruff. I think 10 hours is about the max I can wear it comfortably.

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February 5, 2020 Posted by | Dinner out, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Tuesday and some shopping with Karen

Well it is Tuesday and I am going shopping with Karen, as you can tell from my blog I didn’t make it out Sunday to Starbucks but I did go and get a pedicure and manicure at Julie’s Nails. I was in the area as my male self and stopped in. I have only gone here as my male self so they don’t know about Susan and by the time I got done it was after 5 so there wasn’t time to go home and get ready and go out. now back to today. I don’t have the day free till about 5:30 so I was going out to do a little shopping and posted to the group and Karen wanted to go so we planned on meeting at Clackamas Town Center at 10 am for a little shopping and lunch. Traffic was a little more than I thought so I texted Karen I might be late and she was also running a little behind so we were good. Well shortly after I texted her traffic opened up and I got there right before 10 so I parked by JC Pennies and went into Barns & Nobble right next door to kill some time till Keren got there, I did get a selfie to start the day. It was only about 10 minutes and Keren called me and said she was parking also by JC Pennies so I told her I would meet her by their main door.

I got down to meet Karen and we were off on our shopping adventure. It really would be a fun day as I have known Karen for several years but this is our first-time shopping together so being just the two of us it would give us a good chance to talk and really get to know each other. Now being as we were in Pennies we started there as they have a nice discount section. Karen found a couple items she liked and I found 2 dresses a back one and a red one both really pretty but they are size 16 but stretchy. Now I wear between a size 16 & 18 depending on how they size them so we both went in to try our items on. Now both mine have zippers up the back which I try to avoid as well let’s face it I am not as flexible as woman and I can’t do zippers by myself. Now they were a little tight but I was able to get them on and the pull them up high enough I could reach over my shoulder and zip them up little by little, not really graceful or sexy but then I dress at home by myself so no one will see the trouble I have. As I said they are just a little tight but I am working on dropping some weight, I am down 10 LB since December 1st . I decided to buy mines as did Karen, My Dresses were only $28 each which I was happy about. A lot of time I go out and never buy anything as it really is just about being out as Susan.

Well we headed out into the mall and walked down to Nordstrom’s as Karen was looking for some makeup from Clinique, she likes but Nordstrom’s didn’t have it so we headed for Macy’s as they also have a big cosmetic section. Really, we were just having a fun time walking along and talking. On the way we pasted Torrid, Karen had never been in one so I said we had to go in and look. Well we looked around and Karen found the clearance section actually the lady working here pointed it out ass they had just put things in that section on sale, buy 1 get 2 free. Well Karen found a really cute sweater and a coat, not really a winter coat but a nice warm coat but couldn’t find a 3rd item and the sales lady sensing a sale said she could probably work something out. well I was looking at the coat Karen was trying on and it really was cute and heavier than anything I have. Yes, I really don’t have outside Susan stuff so I went and looked and they had one in my size also. Buy the way the reason Torrid is nice is I am a size 1 there. So, I asked Karen if she had found a 3rd item and she said no so I suggested I get the coat so Karen would have 3 items for the sale and I would give her a 1/3rd of the price which she liked. Of course, now Karen and I both have the same coat so we look like twin sisters if we both wear them. Back into the mall and down to Macy’s where Karen found what she was looking for and then on the way out she stopped at the Urban Decay counter to pick up a setting spray. Now I have never used one but talking to the lady there I decided to get one and try it. Mostly my makeup does fine as it is usually for only a few hours but for days like today where I will be out all day or when I go to Diva Las Vegas my makeup does show some wear by the end of the day so this will be something new for me to try. Yes, it is a more expensive day then my normal trips out as I have now bought things at 3 different stores and usually if I buy anything it is just one. Really does feel like a girl’s day out shopping.

It was shortly after 12 now so we decided to go get lunch, we settled on California Pizza and off we went. Now really the mall was not that busy and neither was California Pizza so we got a table right away. I did get another quick selfie here. We ordered lunch, yes, we both had a personal but it came with a salad so all is good. We just sat and talked and had a wonderful lunch. I really do like this going shopping with someone else as it just makes it more fun. Thursday I will go with Barb and Friday with Peggy if everything goes well. We sat here for over an hour before we got back to our shopping. We walked across into DSW to look at shoes. They have sone really cute ones but hard to find in my size. I do want to get another pair of casual sneaker type shoe’s for Diva Las Vegas this year so that will be on my to-do for this week also some casual outfits.

Well we left here and back into the mall, we got down to Macy’s home furnishings and they had some woman’s clothes in the front so we went in to look at them. While in here I took a few pictures of Karen and she got a couple of me which is nice. I can get selfies of my face but you can’t get a full body selfie, you need someone else to take those pictures. Thanks Karen these pictures look great. We spent a little more time walking around the mall just talking before heading for Pennies and the exit to where we had both parked. It was really fun and we walked out together and it turns out Karen parked right opposite my car; we could not have planned it any better. It was a really fun day out with her.

It was only 2:30 and I was able to beet traffic so when I got close to home it was only 3 and I have till 4:30 so I stopped at the Starbucks’s near my home for a warm drink and to right my blog from today. It has been a really wonderful day. I am not sure what I will do tomorrow as I really do have the whole day tomorrow, I will go out to dinner with my friends but I will also have the day free to be Susan.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing now.

February 4, 2020 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Monday blog my day out both as male and female with acrylic nails

I got up early and worked out as I want to get back into that. It was about 6am and I did have to do something as my male self after 9 so I couldn’t dress till then but I wanted to see what would happen if people saw my pretty nails as a male so I went to Cascade station by the airport and decided to stop at IHOP for breakfast. They weren’t busy at that time of the morning. Now I am sure both the waitress who took my order and the one who brought it saw my nails as I was not trying to hide them and they said nothing. I am thinking of going back here later in the week as Susan for breakfast now. From there I went to the Starbucks and did some work I have been putting off on my computer. Now I got to the Starbucks a little after 7 and they were not busy at all maybe 6 people all on computers so the only table by a plug in was the big corner table that sits 6 so that was where I put my computer and went and ordered a hot chocolate. Now about 7:30 it was like the flood gates opened and people started coming in. this Starbucks does not have a drive through and for a while the line was never less then 10 people. And soon all the tables were full and I had a few other people ask if they could share my table which I said yes of course. There was a lady next to me with her son, a man next to her doing some kind of work and then a lady on my other side reading a book. Again, my nails were plainly visible and they didn’t seem to pay any attention and never said a word. I sat here till about 10 and it never got slow, several other people came and shared my table and again not one said a thing about my nails. if you go to this Starbucks get there before 7:30. Now it was time to take care of what I had to do. My mom had gone to the Doctors office for some lab work on Saturday and I had to drop off one of them at the lab today. I went in and stood in line hiding my hands now. When it was my turn I went up and told the lady I was dropping off for my mom, she asked me her name and date of birth and when she looked down to put it in the computer, I quickly put it up on the counter. I don’t think she saw my nails and now I was on my way home to get ready as Susan.

It was about 1 when I was all ready and on my way. Now I really have no plans this week other then going to the coast on Wednesday with Cassandra. So, I decided to go put flowers on my Dads grave. Whenever I have gone by myself it is always as Susan the daughter he never met. I stopped at the Fred Meyer’s on Johnson Creak to pick up the flowers, of course I got a quick selfie in the car. Yes, I am wearing an older wig that I cleaned up last night, I think it looks better then the dark hair on me, I think I just look better in lighter color hair. I walked in and went to the flower section and picked out some flowers, now this is right across from the cosmetic section and they have it set up like a store within the store as there is one way in and out and they have a cashier there. I have seen a lot of stores doing this now as I guess to much was getting stolen. Well as I was walking past to go to the checkout by the doors the lady said she could ring me up if I wanted so I said sure and went over. She was very nice and the first thing she said was how much she loved my nails which made me feel good as it was my first compliment on my nails today. I walked to the door where the self-checkout is and as I walked through, I showed the lady my receipt she thanked me and also complimented me on my nails.

From here I went to the cemetery and put the flowers on my Dads grave. I always wonder what he would have thought about this side of my life. I think he would have accepted it and been proud of me. I spent about 20 minutes here and before I left, I got a couple more selfies. Now I had to figure out what I would do so I figured I could stop at Cascade Station and do a little shopping as this would get me closer to hoe so I wouldn’t have as much traffic. I got there and my first stop was of course Ross Dress for Less. I went in and looked at dresses and they had a cute grey sweater dress and I thought it would look great with my black leggings or tights so I bought it, only $14.99. I really do like Ross as you can get some good deals there. I also made a quick stop at Nordstrom’s Rack, and ULTA and even went into Staples and Best buy to look around. Really wasn’t looking for anything but it was just about being out. It was almost 4 now so I left and drove over to a Starbucks I have gone to on Mill Plain in Vancouver. It is a smaller one with a drive though so I usually is not busy and they have plugs for almost every table so you can plug in your computer. I went in and there was one man on his computer at one table and 2 women at another sitting and talking and that was it. Well first things first I had to use the little girls room actually Starbucks is good as their rest rooms are single use gender neutral. I cam out and there were two woman that had just ordered and were standing back just a little out of sight so I went up to order and as I got to the counter I could see them better and one of them I use to work with, what are the odds? well I kind of had my back to her so I went ahead and ordered and again the lady taking my order complimented me on my nails. I went over and set up my computer at the corner table and then went back up to wait for my drink. Well they called her name and she walked right by me to get it and I just looked the other way. Now to my horror they went and sat at the next table to where I set up my computer. Luckily, she sat on the same side of the table as what I had my computer set up for.

Now what do I do it would look funny to pick up my computer and leave so I went over and slid in with my back to her and sat down. Now it has been about 6 years since I have worked with her but it was wired to be sitting next to her. I was glad I wore this hair as I does hang down and hides most of my face from the side but again as like last night these tables are close and I could hear their conversation if I listened. Now they only stayed about 20 minutes or so but it seemed longer. as they got up to leave her friend told me she loved my nails and wished she could have them but with where they work now, they can’t. I thanked her and di kind of look up but the lady I knew didn’t seem to be looking at me. I sat here and worked on my blog from today. Now I did get a lot of compliments on my nails but only when I was Susan so I am thinking maybe people don’t know what to say or are afraid to say anything about a man with pretty red acrylic nails. I stayed here till about 6:30 before I left to go get something to eat. I stopped at Subway on my way home and got a sandwich. It has been a long day but so much fun.

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November 4, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Labor Day Monday and some Susan time

Happy Labor Day everyone!

It is Monday, Labor Day and I have the morning and early afternoon free and what better way to enjoy it then as Susan and some shopping. Yes, I actually got up at 6:30 am to get ready with hopes of being on my way by 8. Now it is kind of different to get up in the morning and become Susan, usually just during Diva Las Vegas I get to do this as the rest of the time it is later in the day. it is fun starting the day this way. I was all ready and, on my way, a little after 8. Now my plans for the day are simple, want to go to Clackamas Town Center for a little shopping, stop at the cemetery and put flowers on my Dads grave, hard to believe it has been almost a year since he passed away (September 20 2018) and of course some time at Starbucks to write my blog for Sunday but other then that the rest I will just wing it and have fun.

I was on my way and figured I would start at Clackamas Town center but as I was driving, I realized it was just before 9 and I don’t think they open till 10 so a quick change in plans and so I got off the freeway at Johnson creek and went to the Fred Meyers there to get flowers as the Cemetery is not far from there and I could stop there first. I went in and looked around a little before picking out my flowers and then I was off to put them on my Dads grave. Now being a Holiday I was not sure how busy the cemetery would be. I got there and picked up a holder for the flowers and then went and parked by the section my Dad is in, there was one other car and a man and woman at a grave site in the wall on the path I will walk on. I got out and put the flowers in the cup and started up the path now it actually splits so I walked behind the wall and above but I knew they could see me. I got about half way up and realized I walked past a water faucet and I could have put water in the holder so I walked back down past them again and got water. I was on my way back up and as I passed by where they were the lady spoke up and asked if she could ask me a question. Now of course we all know what came to my mind but I said sure and it turns out she just wanted to know where I got the flower holder so I told her and she thanked me.

I got to my Dads grave site and placed the flowers. As I said it is hard to believe it has been almost a year. I never told my Dad about this side of my life, about Susan the daughter he didn’t know he had. Now whenever I come here by myself it is as Susan. I spent about 20 minutes here. Now I did get a quick picture as I left. Now I was off to Clackamas Town Center. I got there just after 10 and parked by Pennies and went in. I have found a few really cute dresses here and was hoping to find another. Now they had a big selection and most were on sale for 40% to 50% off but again my size I just a little bigger than the average female. I found two I really liked and they were less then $40 with the discount but they only had up to a size 16 so I headed out into the mall to look around. Now I really didn’t need anything but I always hope I find something. It is funny as my male side it is very logical when I buy things, do I need them, will I use them do I really need them. My female side is a little more, well is it cute and does it fit. Yes, my female side has my male side wrapped around her little finger. I looked around Macy’s, H&K, Nordstrom’s and of course Victoria’s Secret, I even went into the spirit Halloween costume shop. Yes, they are up already.

I stayed here till about 11:45 and it was not busy at all. I really thought on a Holiday there would be a lot more people out shopping. But it was nice and relaxing to just wander around the mall. I did get one selfie in the mall and you can see behind me there was no one. I left here and decided to stop at Cascade station by the airport on my way home. I got there about noon and this was totally different as there were people everywhere. I went into Ross and looked around and again found nothing I liked that would fit me. I also went into ULTA and looked around and a quick stop at Best Buy just to look. It was nice just to be out. I then drove down the street to Target to look around. I checked out their makeup section, I had bought an eye shadow here last year and really liked it, kind of a silver that I use on the inside corner of my eye and it was really good, made by Maybelline. I wanted to get another one and maybe a few more shades as it was only $2 or $3 but they didn’t have them. It is really hard to find single colors as they all seem to be pallets of eye shadows and I have a few but I find I use just a few of the colors and it seems like a waste. I did buy some other things I needed but nothing really for Susan.

I left here and then was debating about getting something to eat or just going to Starbuck. I decided on Starbucks as I figured I could get something to eat after on my way home. of course, I went to the ne I go to all the time. I did think about going to the one right by my house as I won’t be out late but wound up at my regular one. It is still within a mile of home, so different then 10 years ago when I drove a half hour, about 18 miles cross town to go to Starbucks. Now Starbucks was also busy and there were only a couple seats at the counter and 1 table in the middle so I set my computer on the table in the middle and went and ordered my drink and a cookie. The young man at the counter was awesome, he is new and I think this is his first week but he treated me wonderful, always referred to me as Miss. I got my drink and cookie and sat down and started working on my blog from last night.

Now I really do want to get back to doing my blogs faster but there is just something about being out as Susan and writing my blog as Susan. I got the blog done and figure I will post later tonight. I also started this blog and wrote about what I did earlier that way all I will have to do is finish it later. I had been here about an hour and a table opened by the window so I moved over, I plugged my computer I just so others would think I moved because I needed to not just because I wanted to sit by the window. A little later someone I know came in, now that is the other advantage of where I sit as people coming in are looking to the counter where they order so they really cant look at me till they order or really get there drink and start to leave or go find a seat so I just kept my head down. Now it turns out he didn’t leave and he sat at the table behind me and got his computer out. So here we sat with hi behind me looking at my back. He only stayed about 45 minutes but it was an interesting feeling.

I stayed here till about 3:30 before I left and went to Pana Express to get something to eat. Then it was time to go home and change back to my male self. I got home about 4:15 and my day of Susan came to an end but it was fun. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

September 3, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

July Fourth and some Susan time

Happy Fourth of July everyone, I hope you have a safe and happy one and as we celebrate today and celebrate our great country and the freedoms we have, remember those freedoms cost some people everything. We have more freedoms here than in any other country. I hope you all cherish what we have and not willing to give them up. Once you lose a freedom it is hard to get back.

Well I have today off work and am going to a BBQ at 4 but that leaves me the morning and early afternoon free so I am going to exercise some of my freedom and spend a little time as Susan. I got up a little after 7 with the hope of being ready by 9. Now for some reason I was slower today maybe because it was the morning and I really had no place I had to be so I took my time and enjoyed my time getting ready. I was ready a little after 9 and looking cute. I chose to wear my black leggings that come down to the upper calf, sandals, a maroon top and of course as this is more of a tight fit, I put on some hip pads to widen my hips and my corset to take in my mid-section. It really does give me a bice shape and other then being slightly taller I blend in well this way and yes, I did put my fake nails on to complete the look. Now as it was a little later, I decided to go right to Clackamas Town Center and do a little shopping as I think they open at 10 and that should be just about the time I get there. I was right on as I was pulling into the parking lot right at 10. I parked by JC Penny’s and went in.

I really had nothing I was looking to buy just looking but was hoping to find a nice dress. I checked out their shoe section first and then over to the clothing. They only had a couple of dresses and they were petite sizes and that just wasn’t going to fit. I guess this time of year is not a big dress time. I wondered out into the mall and did some window shopping and went into a couple other stores but more just to pass some time. Eventually I made it to the other end and Victoria Secret and I went in. I pretty much go here every time I am at the Mall as Susan but I bet I have only been in Victoria Secret 2 or 3 times as my male self and once was to get fitted for a bra. I looked around and a young lady came up and asked if I needed help. I told her I was looking for my favorite bra it is called So Obsessed and they don’t have them in the store anymore so she showed me one similar to it but it just didn’t look or fee the same. It is funny as I have bought many bras and never really gave it much thought till I found this bra and it is just so comfortable and with the padding I really don’t need anything else. I had originally bought 2 of these and back before diva Las Vegas during their buy one get one free sale I found them on line and bought 4 more so I am good for a while but as of now they are still available online. I left and walked back through the mall and left it was a little after 11 now.

Now on my way home from here I go near the Cemetery my Dad is at so I decided to stop there but first a stop at Fred Meyers to pick up some flowers. There is one just down 82nd Ave a mile or two so that is where I went as I also needed a new lipstick and some snacks; I need to bring to the BBQ later. I spent about 15 minutes here shopping and getting flowers and then I was off to put flowers on my Dad’s grave. I have come here several times with my Mom and other family but whenever I have come here by myself it is as Susan. My Dad never met me, or new about Susan the daughter he had but I like to visit his grave as Susan I guess in a way it is my way of introducing her to him.

I got to the cemetery about noon and there were a few people there but it is a big place so not really that bi of a deal. I parked and walked to his grave site and put the flowers down. There were a couple woman sitting on benches that I passed but they never even looked at me. Now it was a nice day and while I was here the 2 ladies left so I went and got my computer and sat on the bench a little way from the grave site and wrote out my blog from last Saturday night. It was a little after 1 when I left and headed for home well not home but the Starbucks by my house as I haven’t been there for a while.

It was about 1:45 when I got there and went in., they were a little busy but they had a table open by the windows so I sat my computer on it and went and ordered my drink. One of the girls behind the country greeted me by name and said it had been an asked if I had any plans for the 4th. I just told her a BBQ later and she said it was good to see me again as sit had been a while which it has. I have gone to many Starbucks over the years and have always been treated wonderful at all of them. I got my drink and sat down and posted my blog I wrote earlier and then just caught up on some e-mails and other thing I needed to do on my computer. Really nothing I couldn’t do from home or as my male self but it is just so much more fun and relaxing to do this at Starbucks as Susan. I got a couple selfies at Starbucks in the car.

Well I kind of lost track of time and soon it was a little after 3 and I need to be at the BBQ at 4, luckily, I am less than 5 minutes from home and it will only take me 5 minutes to get to the BBQ so I still had time. I got home about 3:20 and removed my nails, hair, clothes and the corset and right into the shower to wash away all traces of Susan. It was a fast turnaround and yes, it is a lot faster to be my male self then Susan. I got to my BBQ as my male self-right at 4. It was a fun day but I was sad I had to change from Susan so early and I wonder what everyone would have thought had I shown up as Susan. That won’t happen but it is fun to think about.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new with Susan.

July 7, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, T-girl, transgender | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Le Bistro Montage

Wednesday and dinner out at Le Bistro Montage but first a little side note. One of my neighbors knows about Susan and I wouldn’t be surprised if all my neighbors know, that being said. Tuesday I came home and I normally back into my garage, as I got to my house I say my neighbor across the street coming out of his garage in his electric wheelchair so I quickly pulled in to my drive forward and as my garage door was opening I saw my neighbor headed my way. By the time I was pulled in and started shutting the door he was half way up my drive so I just let it come down. Will be interesting the next time I talk with him.

Well back to Wednesday night, I got home about 5:20 and I started getting ready as soon as I got inside. Now I knew I had to get ready fast so Tuesday night I picked out my dress and had it setting out. I didn’t get to take my time with my makeup as it was more important to be to dinner on time. I was ready and on my way by 6:10. I got downtown about 6:30 and found a parking spot a block away and walled to Le Bistro Montage.

Barb was just parking out front so we walked in together. Now Melissa and her wife were waiting in the bar. It wasn’t long and Jennie, Julie, Rickie and Judy showed up so we went out and were seated at our table. Kris was there already so we had 9 of us tonight. Now the tables here are long tables so you can sit next to other people if they are busy but that was not the case tonight.

Now we sat and talked to give time incase any others showed up as we did have a couple others say they might make it but they didn’t so about 7 a few ordered appetizers, Julie got Frog Legs and Melissa’s wife got Alligator bites. The Appetizers came and I tried a frog legs and it was pretty good, tasted like chicken but maybe just a little more salty but good. I also tried the Alligator bites, in a way it also tasted like chicken but with a fishy taste, I wasn’t as keen on this probably wouldn’t order it but I can say I have tried it.

Well no one else showed up so we ordered dinner, our waiter was awesome, both times we have come here we have had awesome wait staff, actually pretty much every place we go we are treated wonderful. We kind of got talking and wonder if we maybe get a little bit better/extra service as they are trying too hard to accommodate us. Our food came and as always it was really good as always. We had a nice dinner and wonderful conversation, just an awesome night out with friends. Now the cool thing about Le Bistro Montage is they wrap your leftover if you have them in aluminum foil and make shaped out of them. One of our girls got a Seahorse, turtle, penguin, a butterfly and I can’t remember the last. I of course had no leftovers so I didn’t get one.

Now was time for desert and Julie was here tonight to help me eat it so I ordered an Oreo Cheesecake which is incredible, I would highly recommend it if you come here. It really was a fun night out. We stayed here till a little after 9 just talking and having a good time. It is always sad when the night is over and I have to say goodbye to my friends and go home and change back to my normal male self.

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June 8, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Tuesday and a day of Susan

It is Tuesday and I have the day off, my reward for working on Saturday. Now I really have no set plans other than a few things I need to do and as luck has it, they are all things Susan can do. I got up about 7am to start my day, I took my time getting ready as I figured out what I would do. It was about 9 when I was ready, yes, I took extra time as today is a casual day. I am wearing my marron top, black leggings and sandals something a lot of woman wear so I should blend in nicely. The only problem is with this outfit I need more curves to my body and that means my hip pads to give me a little more width in the hips and of course my corset to pull my waist in. 1 final look in the mirror and I was ready to leave.

My first stop would be Home Depot as I need some stuff for my yard, now it was amazing how much traffic there still was, what should have been a 15-minute trip took me a little over a ½ hour but I got to Home Depot and parked and went in. I still remember my first time going out to Embers, and LGBT club that was very open and TG friendly and did Drag Shows several nights and how scared I was. Now I just parked and walked right into Home Depot where you would go to find other Transgender girls. I got a cart and walked around looking before heading over to the garden center area, I got my fertilized, moss killer, bug killer and some grass seed to patch a few bare spots in my yard and then it was up to the checkout. As far as I could tell there no one gave me a second look although I am sure they did and I just didn’t notice as I really don’t pay attention anymore.

After here I went over to Best Buy, I need to update my Quicken software as I can no longer download data but I am unhappy as you just can’t buy the program anymore. It is a subscription base now so you pay every year. I use to buy it for $59 and it was good for 3 years now it is $49 per year. I didn’t buy it at least not today but I know I will soon. I also looked at their Speaker bars for flat screen TV as I need to get one. I also looked at laptops and dash cams and just kind of walked around. I left here and my next stop was Clackamas Town Center.

This was just a sour of the moment as I really didn’t need anything here just wanted o look around. I parked and went in through JC Penny’s and looked at their dresses and heels. They had a couple cute dresses but nothing in my size so it was out into the mall. I spent about 1 ½ hours here looking around before leaving. My next stop was Fred Meyers on 82nd Ave and that was just to pick up some flowers as my next stop was the Cemetery to put flowers on my Dads grave. I will bring my Mom here in a couple weeks but I wanted to go as Susan. My Dad never met Susan or new about her but I just have a need to go there as Susan now. Now there were a lot of people here today but it is a big Cemetery so no one really close to where I was going except for some workers. There were 5 men digging a new grave site about 30 feet behind me and to the right but they were busy working and other then walking up to my Dads grave, my back was to them so I figured they would notice anything. I spent about 30 minutes here before leaving.

My last stop was Costco, I wanted to get some towels and look around. Now a little over a year ago I actually went into Costco as Susan to see if I could get a Costco card under Susan’s name and they did, they listed me as my males significant other so I have a Costco card with Susan name and picture but I have not used it till today. I got there and was amazed at home many cars were there so I parked in my normal place, way out but easy to get out of the parking lot but it left me with a long walk in butt that was okay. Now I haven’t eaten all day yet so my first stop was to get something to eat, yes, I love their hot dogs and drink, I get one most of the times I go here.

Now they were rally busy guess lots of people had today off. I got my food and there really was no open tables so I went and asked a lady at a table if anyone was sitting on the other side and she said no help yourself so I sat down to eat. She didn’t seem bothered by me and we even had a little conversation about the weather and how busy they were. Before she finished and left. I finished eating and then went in to look for some towels. I found them and they have a big selection and a really good price $7.99 for a big bath towel so I picked out a couple and then walked around looking. They also have a big selection of pillows and I really need some new ones as mine are well I won’t say how old they are but they need to be replaced. So now with my pillows and towels it was up to the front to stand in line and they were all at least 7 deep. I just got in the first line behind a lady to wait my turn. I ended up talking with her also about how nice it was outside today, mid 70’s and sunny and also about how busy they were. I got to the checkout and gave her my card and paid for my stuff and was on my way.

Really Costco and Home Depot were the only things I needed to do today and it really was just everyday things I did that I could have just as easily done in male mode but it was just more fun as Susan. It was about 2pm now and I have till 4 or 4:30 before I have to be home and switch back to my male self so I figured I would end it by gong to the Starbucks I usually go to and write my blog from Saturday at the Escape. I use to write my blog the very next day if not the same day but lately it is taking me several days and in some cases a week to get time to write it, I really need to work on this.

I got to the Starbucks about 2:20 and went in, they were busy and all the tables were full but they had one outside and it was a nice day. I made a quick stop in the rest room before going up and ordering my drink. With my order in I was going to go set up my computer on the table outside but it was taken now so I waited in line for my drink and was looking at the counter by the window as there were 2 seats there. Now it really was my lucky day as with my drink in hand I stopped to grab a straw, yes, I use straws, don’t hate me. Any way a young man got up from the second table along the window and left leaving me a seat along the window at a table so I quickly grabbed it. Now this Starbucks has a drive through and it is 1 car after another and yet the inside is also really busy.

I sat here and wrote my blog from Saturday night and caught up on some e-mails and just played on the internet, again all things I could do from home or as my male self but just so much more fun and relaxing as Susan here at Starbucks. I think of all the times I have come to Starbucks as Susan over the years and it is hard to imagine I had never been in a Starbucks till I came as Susan and even now it is probably only 3 or 4 times I have gone to a Starbucks not as Susan and those were times to see if they would figure it out. I stayed her till 4:30 before going home to switch back to my male self as I have things, I have to do tonight that can’t be done as Susan.

I am now looking forward to Wednesday night dinner with my friends. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what is new in my life on my most recent blog.

June 6, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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