Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Last Saturday of July

It is hard to believe how fast this month has gone by. I was looking at my nails today and I really do need a manicure. I had hoped to get to the nail salon today but just couldn’t fit it in, well I guess I could have but I would have been late getting to the escape so I put it off. I started getting ready at 4:30 and enjoyed every minute getting ready. Now it is hot out again today so I decided to wear another of my summer time dresses. Again I didn’t get pictures tonight but here is Susan's new dressan older picture of the dress I wore.

I got to the scape a little after 6 and was the first one there. I got out my computer and was checking my blog and now I know why I really need a manicure, I was thinking it had been 2 weeks but really has been 3 weeks since my last manicure. Wow I really have to get to the nail salon this week.

Cassandra was the next to show up and it was just the 2 of us for a while so we had a good chance to talk. We talked about our group and some of the upcoming events. Next weekend we are going to Harvey’s Comedy club which is always a fun night. WE also talked about our golf tournament the end of August at Wildwood golf course. these are both wonderful events for our group. WE have been going to Harvey’s for at least 6 years and Wildwood for 4, both places have always treated us awesome and really look forward to our coming. Our first golf tournament was in July of 2013 and we had such a wonderful time.

Cassandra has been working on setting this up and has done an awesome job, she really puts a lot of effort and time into this and all the events. I don’t think people realize the time she puts in. Any way we will once again go golfing and then have a BBQ at the golf course afterword’s. I am really looking forward to this as are several of our girls. We really do have fun as a group.

Cristine showed up next followed by Fran, Fran has been a member for a while but this was her first time coming out with the group. It was nice to meet her and get to know her. She seems really nice and we hope she can get out more with our group. Jan, Lynn, Missy, Laura and Lori also made it tonight so we had a good turn out. I was sure to introduce Fran to everyone so she would feel welcome. Her and Lorie talked for a while as Lorie is also new to the group and has been coming out for the last 2 months or so. It was awesome to see the smiles on their faces of being able to express who they are. Makes me think back to when I was first going out, It really is fun to think back to some of those early days. One of the reasons I started and keep my blog going.

Karaoke started and the bar got busy. It is always fun when there are more people here. A lot of the songs sang tonight were older ones, ones I knew really well and had fun singing a long with. It was a fun night out with my friends.

Thanks for reading


July 31, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Out at Sweet Home

Friday is here and I am looking forward to going out tonight. There is just something about my tame as Susan that relaxes me, just thinking about it gives me that calm feeling. Now I did stop at the gym on my way home so it was almost 4:30 when I started getting ready. Now I bring this up to let you know I am still going to the gym, I joined the gym 6 weeks ago and in the last 6 weeks I have gone every day but 2.

Now I started getting ready and I really do love the time I spend as Susan and getting ready. There is just something special about decided how to do my makeup, what eye shadow and how my eyes should look, what shade of lipstick and of course what to wear and what heels to wear. All the fun things girls get to go through every day. Now it is really hot out today so I chose a summer dress that I really like. I didn’t get any pictures tonight but here is one of me in the Susan in her new dressdress from one of the other times I wore it.

It was just 6 pm when I left, as I pulled out of the garage the neighbor girl was outside in her driveway. I am almost positive she knows about me so I didn’t think about it and just pulled out and drove by her. I got to Sweet Home about 6:20 and parked. I didn’t see Chris’s truck so I didn’t think he was there but that didn’t stop me. I figured I would go in and have dinner and hang out a while and see if anyone shows up.

There were only a couple people inside so not really busy but then I was a little early. I ordered dinner and got out my computer to pass the time. This really is a friendly place to come.

I ha da nice dinner and figured I would stay till 8 or 8:30 to see if anyone showed up. Well it was a little after 8 when Chris and Roxy showed up. It was good to see them. We talked a little and I told them about our new web sight as I wanted to make sure they new about in and get them to join. They have been in our Yahoo group for many years.

It started getting busy as it got close to time for Karaoke, It is fun to hear some of the people sing. Another one of our members showed up about 9:30 so we had 4 of our group out tonight. We talked about our Dinner on Wednesday as she wasn’t able to make it that night.

Now as I said it was a hot day today and so it was hot inside, they do have air conditioning but when you get so many people inside it is hard for it to keep up. it was about 11 they decided to do a wet tee shirt contest outside and about 12 of the ladies went out for it so for about 20 minutes almost everyone was outside. I am not sure who won but they had a good time.

It was about 11:30 when I called it a night. It was a fun night out and a good way to start the weekend.

Thanks for reading.


July 29, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner

ON Wednesday nights we are now trying to go to ore and new places for dinner, tonight was McMenamins Ringler’s Pub at Crystal Ballroom. I was looking forward to this as I have never bee there before. I started getting ready when I got home taking my time and enjoying getting ready. I was ready by 6 which was a little earl as we were not meeting till 7. I decided to go early anyway.

I got downtown Portland by 6:30 and found a parking spot just around the corner and walked to McMenamins. Now this is actually pretty big inside and they have 3 pool tables and 2 shuffle board tables and a big beautiful bar, it really is nice inside. Now I was early and other than Cassandra and Cristine I wasn’t sure how many would make it tonight. We posted it in our new web sight but we are still trying to get member to sign up, so far 50 have joined.

I walked around and checked out the place before I sat down at the bar. Now as I said it is pretty big inside so even though there were maybe 25 people here it really did look empty. Well while I was sitting at the bar a man walked up to me, I actually talked to him briefly as I walked from my car and he started talking to me. He was living on the street and I did feel sorry for him but I could tell from what he said he was maybe looking for some money. we talked for about 10 minutes till Cristine showed up and Cassandra right after her. He wished us a good night and wandered off.

The 3 of us got a table by the window and waited for others to show up. we ordered drinks and Cassandra got a plate of soft pretzels and melted cheese and it was really good. I could have made a meal out of that. It was about 7:30 when we ordered dinner, I ordered a pizza.

Just after we ordered Veronica showed up. It was great to see her again as it has been a while. Well it turned out to be just the 4 of us for dinner and the food was wonderful. The prices were pretty reasonable, between $10 and $15 depending on what you ordered so not to bad, I would rate it a 9 on a scale of 1 to 10. We were treated well and no problems. One of the things we are doing in our new web sight is rating the places we o and we plan to go to some new places.

We had a nice dinner and good conversation, it was a lot of fun. I really wish more girls had come out. Hopefully as we get more girls moved over from our yahoo group to our new web page I think the numbers will go up. Of course some of the conversation was about the web page. We even got Veronica to join.

After dinner we played some pool, it is not pay by the game they charge $6 an hour to play which might be a little more expensive then in a bar but you do have the table so it was just our group and the tables are I guess regulation size in other word bigger then we were use to playing on. it was the first time I have played on a table this size. I did okay but Cassandra did win but I only had 1 ball left. I stayed and watched one more game before I left as I have to get up early in the morning for work. Cassandra, Cristine and Veronica stayed and played pool.

It was a really fun night and I would recommend McMenamins Ringler’s Pub at Crystal Ballroom for dinner and a un night out.

Thanks for reading.

July 28, 2016 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A wonderful weekend

It has been a good week and I was looking forward to Saturday night. A few of us have been working on a new web sight that we own and control and can move away from Yahoo group which really has been wonderful over the years and helped our group grow. Saturday morning we went live with the sight Rose City Tgirls. Now we are all excited about and I did spend a good amount of the morning on the web page learning more about it. Because of this I wanted to get to the Escape early with my computer.

Now I was hoping we would have a good turnout tonight as we had posted in the Yahoo Group, Our Facebook page and Cassandra had sent out text messages about our new group and we had some people signing up today. Now yes part of our new web sight is private and for members only but some of it is open to the public so feel free to check it out at

I got to the Escape at 5 and took time updating my blog from this last week, I kind of merged several days and outing together something I try not to do as I like to have a record of each outing. It was about 6 I was just finishing my blog when Cassandra and Cristine showed up. The 3 of us talked about our group and our web site and where we want to see it go.

We we did have a good turnout tonight, Laura, Mikaela, Jan, Lynn, Cassie, Lorie, Michelle and Michele  and I am sure I am missing someone. Several of the girls Signed up on the new web site using there phones and of course that was the big topic of the night. It was a fun night and I stayed out till 11:30

Now on Sunday all the administrators were getting together at Peggy and Cassandra’s house to learn more about running the web page and also share things we have learned. Laura, Cristine and July got there at 1 but I didn’t make it till almost 4 and had to go as my male self. I got there just before Julie had to leave, she had broke a nail and needed to get it fixed. It was so funny as I know just how she feels as I broke a nail the last time I went to Diva Las Vegas. Julie had also came today as her male self. It was good to see her again even if only briefly. I really do need to get together with her and also Peggy.

We spent several hours sharing things we have all learned and also going over things we like and things we want to do or change and adding events, news stories, and About page, as these are available to the public. I had only planned on being here a couple hours but I stayed here till after 10. It really was a fun day also but would have been better if I could have gone as Susan.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.

July 24, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Rose_City_T-Girls | , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A wonderful week

Okay I have got behind in my blogs so I will catch them up briefly in one. Last Saturday our group was out at the Escape for our normal Saturday night out. We had a really good turnout about 15 girls if I remember correctly but I will not even try to remember the names at this point a week later. I did get there early right a head of Cassandra so we got a chance to talk before other showed up.

Our group the Rose City T-Girls has been around since the fall of 2007 and we have used Yahoo groups to manage our group. Now don’t get me wrong we loved Yahoo groups as it really helped us connect with each other but they have done several upgrades and it is just not as user friendly as it us to be so we have been talking the last few months about doing our own web page, one we design and have total control over. and we were really close. Cassandra had the basic web page done so she showed it to me to get my thoughts and it really looks great.

Well other girls started to show up so I put away my computer so I could I could talk with some of them. It was a fun night as always but my mind was on our web page. Karaoke started and it got busy and several of our girls sang. it really was a fun night. It was almost midnight when I left a lot later then I normally stay out.

By Wednesday our web sight was done and Peggy, Cassandra, Cristine and I got together to go over the web sight and make sure everything was right and looked good and for Cassandra to show us some of the Administrator functions, We all have a lot to learn and I am sure there will be some issues and mistakes as we learn. We met at 6 and had only planned on a couple hours. Amy also showed up as she was in town. It was awesome to see her again. We had a nice dinner and all of us had our computers and were playing on the web sight and in the control functions. It was a little after 11 when I left for home.

That brings us to Friday, we plan on going live with our web sight Saturday morning so I really need to have the Administrator functions down as some of it is public but some is member only. We have 6 of us that are running the sight, Cassandra as the owner, Julie and I are Super Administrators, Cristine and Laura are Administrators and Peggy is a sight helper all are really just titles we needed to fill.

I got a late start out Friday night so I just went to Starbucks for what I thought would be a couple hours. I got there at 7 and it was after 11 when I left. Peggy and Cassandra were also online, one of the cool things about our sight is you can see who else is logged into the sight. Any way we were messaging each other as we tried to figure out all the functions and of course going through each page looking for mistakes. Cassandra did a wonderful job on all the pages. there were no mistakes I could find accept for a couple places she put an extra space between words. I doubt anyone would have ever caught it though. the only reason I did is I copied it and pasted it in word to check it as my spelling is not that good. I wasn’t going to fix them as it was so minor but then I decided to so I could get some practice updating pages.

The 6 of us are really excited and looking forward to Saturday morning when we go live with the web sight. We will keep the Yahoo group open for several months so members can get their pictures and we have time to move everyone over to our new web sight. I know we will lose some members as I am sure some of the members no longer follow the group, we had 328 members in the Yahoo Group and I am hopeful we will retain a good amount of them.

Now it is Saturday and our web sight has gone live, This is a huge leap forward for our group. Now we just have to reach out and make sure all our member know about it and sign up. Tonight we will be at the Escape again and I am sure a lot of the conversation will be about the new web sight. I have my computer with me and I am sure Cassandra will bring hers. I love our group as it is with their help I am where I am.

Thanks for reading

July 23, 2016 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday and the start of the weekend.

Its been a long week and I am ready for the weekend. I was looking forward to going out tonight. There is nothing like being Susan to relax, it really is such a calming feeling. I got home late and started getting ready, I took my time so I could enjoy it.

I got to Sweet Home at 7, Chris was there. They were a little busy as there was a big group there for a 21st birthday party. It was nice to see so many people here having fun as I expected it to be slow as I know the other group that comes here on Friday night is out of town.

Roxy showed up so there were 3 of us but then I do know several of the other people in the bar since I have been coming here for a few years. We had dinner and it was good as always and yes I did spend some time on my computer catching up on some work

As it got later it got a little busier even without the other group. Rikki did make it out tonight and it was good to see her. Soon it was time for Karaoke and with some new people here there were some new songs which was nice. It was just a nice social night out.

It was about 10:30 when Chris left and I was getting ready to leave but a couple people got up and started singing Bohemian Rhapsody which I really like so I sat back down to listen and soon everyone was singing along including me. It was kind of fun to see the whole bar rocking out to this song. This song got over and the next guy sang My Girl and again the whole bar sang along. As a matter of fact the next several songs were really good and songs I liked so I sat there and listened to maybe 5 more songs before calling it a night.

It was a fun night out.

Thanks for reading

July 16, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A rare Sunday night out for dinner.

well it is rare for me to get out on a Sunday night but things worked out tonight as I don’t have to work early Monday. I have a friend in town for a couple day and we have only talked online so it was a chance to meet her. We are both members of the Vanity Club and have been friends on Facebook for a few year. Her name is Stephanie Shostak and she lives in Canada. It is amazing how the internet brings people together. She has actually came to Portland a few times before but I wasn’t able to get out those times but tonight I was going to make it. It was a rush though, one of my faster times getting ready. I got home just a little after 6 and it was a rush from the time I walked into the house. I think the key was not thinking to much about getting ready, I knew what I was going to wear and just how I would do my makeup and that always help. I was on my way and downtown Portland parking my car right at 7.

We were meeting at Hobos for dinner. I have gone here for dinner several times over the years and they really do have good food and service. Now I knew Stephanie would be there but I wasn’t sure who else was coming. II t was a 2 block walk from where I parked but a nice night so I didn’t mind. I got there and Stephanie and Gina were already there. I have met Gina before I had dinner with her and Stefia so it was good to see her again. It was really nice to finally meet Stephanie.

We talked for a while and waited to see if anyone else would make it tonight. It was nice to talk and get to know her in person. No one else made it so we ordered dinner and had a wonderful time just talking. There is just something special about a girls night out enjoying a nice meal and engaging in good conversation. Being just the 3 of us it gave us a good chance to get to know each other better.

Stephanie, me and Gina (1)It is amazing how fast the time past and soon it was 10 pm. Of course we had to get some pictures. Our waitress who was awesome took several pictures of us on our phones. It was sad to see the night come to an end but I was so wonderful toStephanie, me and Gina (2) finally meet her. I really have met some wonderful people as Susan and am really am thankful that Susan is part of my life because without her I would have missed out on meeting so many wonderful friends.

I am looking forward to her next visit and also getting together with Gina again. It was a wonderful night.

Thanks for reading,

July 11, 2016 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A fun and relaxing Saturday.

Okay my day started off going to the gym, I am really making an effort to go every day and today marks the 21st day out of 22 and 18 days in a row. Now Susan didn’t get to go out Friday night as I kind of over did it at the gym and tweaked my back. luckily today although it still a little soar but not like last night. Any way I got home from the gym and called to see if I could get in and get my nails done today. I called Dream Nails and Annie had an opening at 3:30 so I set up an appointment. Now I was really looking forward to this as I really do love going to the nail salon.

I got to the nail salon at 3:20 and went in, Annie was done with her last client and asked me to pick out the color I wanted. I chose first kiss again which really is a light pink, not as pink when I put the matt polish on it but a really nice color. Annie showed me some new colors she got in and one was just a little more pink then the one I picked and I really thought about it but stayed with first kiss.

Annie started on my nails and she really does a wonderful job. She asked me if I wanted them trimmed back which I really didn’t but they were really long at least when I am not Susan so I told her to trim them back. She trimmed them back maybe a little shorter then I would have liked but it will be a little over 2 weeks before I can get back to the nail salon as 2 weeks from today I won’t be able to get back to the nail salon so it will be about 2 1/2 weeks when I get back. t was so relaxing I really do love getting my nails done. it was a little after 4 when my nails were all done and really pretty. light pink and super shiny.

I left the nail salon and went to Starbuck’s on Mill Plain to work on my computer. Starbuck’s really is a good place to go if you are looking for a place to be out that is pretty safe. Now I wore a nice skirt and top to the nail salon with medium heels in a wedge style but I did bring spiked heels for the night out which I put on before going into Starbucks’s. They were a little busy but I got my drink and got a table up in the front corner by the door. There was a young lady at the next table that told me how cute my heels were and I thanked her. Now I had about an hour and a half before I would leave for the Escape and it is amazing how fast the time goes by.

The lady at the next table asked me if I liked electronic music turns out she was I guess for lack of a better term creating music with her computer. I told her I had never really listened to it but she asked if I would listen to two tracks she had made and tell her which on I like so I did. Now as I said I am not that big on it but I thought the second one was better, had more of a futuristic sound so that was the one I picked and it terns out that was the one she liked the most too. We chatted a couple more times before I left, it was a fun experience.

I got to the Escape just a little after 6 and went in. they were really busy turns out they had a bridle party going on. I got out my computer to pass time but it wasn’t long and Laura M. showed up and right behind her was Cristine and Cassandra. We talked some we are talking about making one night a month at Southside Speakeasy in Salem as we have several girls now that live down there and have started going there. I have been there once several years ago so it would be nice to go back.

It wasn’t long and more girls showed up. Jenny, Laura H. Lisa, Cassie, Bambi and her girlfriend, Missy, Lorie, Teresa, Michelle and I am sure I missed someone. We had a really good turnout tonight. it was a fun night and lots of good conversation, the perfect girls night out.

Karaoke started and the bridle party left and it was pretty much just our group now. Michelle said she was thinking of singing so I told her if she sang a song I would also after all tonight would be a good night as there weren’t many people other then our group here. I found a song I think I can sing so I was waiting for Michelle, she had several songs but couldn’t decide on one so to keep a long story short we never did get up and sing. About 10 it got a little busier as more people showed up but it was still a fun night out.

I stayed there till a little after 11 before I called it a night, it is funny 6 years ago I didn’t even go out till after 10 when it got dark. It was a fun night and a wonderful day.

Thanks for reading.

July 10, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Fun Saturday night at Harvey’s Comedy Club.

Saturday is here and tonight we are going to Harvey’s Comedy Club which is always such a fun night. I always look forward to this night. I started getting ready at 4:30 as I wanted to take my time, enjoy the whole getting ready experience as I find it relaxing. There is something calming and peaceful about being Susan.

I was ready to leave at 6 and on my way. It took me an hour to get downtown Portland as there was a wreck on the way and traffic was backed up for miles. I got to Fox & Hounds right at 7. Cassandra and Laura M were already there. Laura and I both wore black and white dresses tonight. Some of us meet here at Fox & Hounds for drinks and to visit before we go to Harvey’s. We have 14 signed up for tonight.

It wasn’t long and others started to show up, Jan & Lynn, Laura H. and Melissa. This is Melissa’s second time out, she also came to Harvey’s last month. It was good to see here again and I was glad she made it. Debbie also showed up in boy mode. She isn’t going to Harvey’s but wanted to come out with the group before she leaves. She has been working here for a while but lives overseas and Sunday morning she is flying back home. We will all miss her and hope she will come back.

It was about 8:30 when we all left and walked over to Harvey’s. It was a really nice night for a walk. There really is something fun about just being out walking around town as Susan. We got to Harvey’s and Cristine, Sophie and Lorna were already there, it was good to see them again. Michelle and her friend showed up so we ended up with 12 tonight for the show.

Soon it was time to go into the showroom, being a holiday weekend it was a smaller crowd but still fun. Kim ad our normal table reserved for us, it was great to see her again. we got to talk a little and she was telling us about her next vacation, she will have so much fun. I really look forward to seeing her when we come here, hopefully she will go out with the group on a Wednesday night again.

The show started and as always it was really good. There is nothing like a fun night out listening to great comedy. All the comedians were great, The headliner was really good, His name was Cory Michaelis. He was really funny, if you get a chance to see him you should. As always the night went by so fast and soon it was over. After the show The comedians came over to our table, Cory wanted to get a picture with us and of course we were all to happy to get have a picture with him.

Weal walked back to where we parked by Fox & Hounds. it was a nice walk back as it was still warm out. it really was a fun night out.

Thanks for reading and I would like to wish you all a Happy 4th of July

July 4, 2016 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Friday night at Sweet Home

Well it has been a long and busy week, today I work 10 hours so I got off late, I di stop at the gym on the way home but only for 30 minutes but it makes 13 out of 14 days going to the gym and 11 days in a row. Well with this I didn’t get home till after 5 so it was right into the shower to start getting ready.

It was about 6:30 when I was ready and on my way to Sweet Home. As I left my new neighbors were out in their garage working. I have only met them once so far but I figure if Susan is going t go out they are eventually going to see her so I just pulled out of my garage and left. I got to Sweet Home a little before 7. Chris was Walking Roxy out to her car as I was parking, Roxy had to leave early. Chris and I walked back in together.

It wasn’t real busy but it was still early. Chris was playing pool and I got out my computer to catch up on some e-mails. I also ordered dinner as the special tonight was a steak dinner. It was nice to be out as Susan again. I just can explain how relaxing it is to be Susan. I think it is because I can be who I am and not have to hide this part of of my life. My dinner came and it was so good, they really do have good food here.

It never really did get busy tonight as the other group that come here was away for the weekend so only a few of them made it tonight. Rachel also showed up, she has been able to get out several times this week so she has been having fun. It was great to see her again. We had a nice time talking and hearing about her week. She also went to Starbucks this week to do some work. It is funny as people probably wonder why I like to go to Starbucks and it is simple. I can have the fun of being Susan, enjoy my time as Susan doing things I have to do. It really is a blending of both sides of my life.

Chris left earl before Karaoke started tonight so it was just Rachel and me left but we had a nice time and a wonderful conversation. It was a really fun night and went by so fast. I hadn’t planned on staying out to late but before I knew it it was after 11:30 and I was getting tired so I called it a night. I paid my bill and said goodnight to Rachel. I am not sure how late she stayed but I know she was enjoying her time out.

Now  am looking forward to tomorrow night as our group is going to Harvey’s Comedy Club which is always a fun night out.

Now normally I get up Saturday morning and do my blog but today I slept in a little and then went to the gym,  weeks ago today I joined Snap Fitness and have been making an effort to go everyday. today was my longest workout, I did 35 minutes on the elliptical, 25 minutes on the treadmill (walking fast) and 20 minute on a machine that simulates what a speed skater does and between each I did a little with the weight machines. I was there for 2 hours today. Now I am resting and doing my blog before I start getting ready to go out tonight.

Thanks for reading

July 2, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment


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