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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Last Friday of July

Well it is Friday night and of course we all know what that means, Susan gets to go out with her friends for a fun evening. It is such a wonderful way to end a week and start a relaxing weekend. We meet at Sweet Home Bar and Grill which is a local neighbor hood bar but has been so wonderful and excepting to our group. I got there just after 7 and Kim was just walking in when I was pulling into the parking lot and I could see Cassandra’s car right in front. Inside Cassandra, Kim and Bobby were already there.

Amy was next to show up, it was great to see here again, she is so much fun and nice to talk with, I am trying to get her to go golfing with us when we go again later in the summer. Well it wasn’t long and others started to show up. Mikaela, Cristine, Cassie Laura (not the regular one but I have met this Laura a couple times in the past) Jenny (a GG with Laura) and Ed so we had a really good group.

It was fun to sit and talk with each other especially Laura, Jenny and Ed as I wanted to get to know them better as one can never have too many friends. I am pretty sure Laura is full time but the topic never came up and I didn’t want to just ask as to me when we are out as girls it really doesn’t matter if you are full time, part time or just crossdress once in a great while as if you are dressed as a female then you are female just that simple. It is funny as that seems to be the question I get asked the most, people are afraid to talk to me as they don’t know what to say or how to address me and I always tell them the same thing. If I am presenting as female (dressed as a girl) then address me as such, Miss, her, she, Susan. I think this is a good rule of thumb and although maybe not correct 100% of the time I would be willing to bet 99%+ it will be. I do not know one person who goes out presenting as the opposite sex that is not happy being addressed that way.

Well I got a chance to talk with Mikaela. We are talking about doing a girls day or evening out, shopping and dinner which will be so much fun. Going shopping as Susan is always fun and having someone along to chat with would be awesome but it may be a bit as we both have busy schedules the next few weeks. Of course we had to get pictures. It is funny as I see the excitement in Mikaela that I use to have. Don’t get me wrong I so love my Susan time out but as I have been doing it for several years it has become more of a common and that excitement of experiencing things for the first time has faded some. I love pictures and getting pictures while out but I don’t often think of it even though I have my camera with me all the time. Wow a little side tracked, anyway Mikaela took the picture above of me and of course we had to get this one of us together.

Well Karaoke started and Kim sang a few songs and did awesome, she is really good at singing. Laura even got up and sang a song and did really well. I still haven’t worked up the courage to get up and sing but I have been somewhat working on learning a couple songs so maybe someday, well we will see.

Monica and Shannon showed up. Shannon is full time and looks great, she kind of reminds me of Jennifer Aniston from the show Friends. I only got to talk to them briefly as well first I didn’t notice when they came in but as always the night goes by so fast. Soon it was almost midnight and it was time for Kim to leave so I walked her to her car which was right next to mine in the parking lot. Always hard to see her leave but I will see her again soon.

Well back inside it was getting busy as a lot of the Karaoke group was there by now. Even Blue showed up which was awesome, it has been several month since she has been to Sweet Home on a Friday night. It was great to chat with her and catch up on things you know girl talk.

Next week several of our group will not be able to make it out on Friday night which is a shame as it is Levi’s last night. He has been our Friday night Bar tender for the last year and more than that our good friend. He has been so wonderful to us but he has found a new and better job and even though we will all miss him we wish him the best. Hopefully he will still come in as a customer so we will get to see him from time to time but it will be different. I think the owner Paul is going to bar tend on Friday nights at least for a while which is good too as he is also wonderful. He is the one who when he heard the P-club had asked us to leave invited us to come to his place. I will have to get a picture with Levi before he leaves.

Well it was an awesome night as always but soon it was after 1 and it was time for us to leave. It is amazing how fast those 6 hours go by. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

July 27, 2013 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Out for dinner with my friends

Well it was Wednesday night and I had the chance to go out to dinner with some of my friends which is always fun but it was also a chance to have dinner with Kim so I was really looking forward to it. I got to Fox & Hound before 7; Kim and Cristine were already there. It was going to be a great night. The three of us talked while we waited for others to show up. It wasn’t long and Cassandra and Melissa showed up so we talked about what we wanted for dinner and decided to walk up the street to House of Louie for Chinese food.

It was a nice warm day and the walk up the street was nice. It is amazing thinking back just a few years I would never have walked the streets of Portland during the daylight as Susan. It is so relaxing and fun to just be out as Susan and able to express this side of me. They have really good food here so if you are ever in downtown Portland and want Chinese food give them a try.

It wasn’t long and Victoria, Lynn and Jan showed up so we had a nice little group for dinner. We had an awesome time just relaxing and talking over a nice dinner. As always time goes by so fast and soon it was almost 9 which during the week I my limit for being out. Kim also had to leave, we said our goodbyes and left. It is always hard to leave but I will see them all again on Friday night again. Kim and I walked backed to our cars which was a wonderful way to end an evening.

Now I look forward to Friday night when I can stay out later.

July 25, 2013 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Rose City T-girls first golf tournament

Well today our group had its first golf tournament. There were 8 of us who signed up to play. Cassandra had made tee times for 1 pm at Wildwood golf course
(21881 NW St. Helens Road, Portland Oregon 97231). Some of the girls had played here before as guys of course and the rest of us had not but it was going to be so much fun.

Now most of us got there at almost the same time which was nice as this was a totally new place for us to go, always easier in a group when you go someplace new. Now Cassandra had given them a heads up about our group so we knew we weren’t going to shock them just walking in. so we went down and checked in and they were wonderful. They always referred to us as ladies even when I had to sign for the golf cart I had to give my driver’s license and as she was writing down my name I told her she could call me Susan and she crossed off my male name and wrote Susan how cool.

Well we got some practice balls and went to the driving range to loosen up and of course get pictures. Here is me taking some practice swings. We got several pictures of us as that was also part of the fun of today. From here it was back down to the first tee to get ready to play, of course I stopped in the pro shop for some snacks and something to drink as it was going to be hot out on the course.

Now the course was pretty busy early on so we did have to wait for a bit. We also did get a few looks but it was more of a yep those are T-girls and that was it, really no one paid any attention to us and I never heard a comment about us

Well while we were on the first tee I was getting pictures of us when the man from the Pro shop came down so we could get a group picture. He actually took a couple of us and told us all to have a fun time which we knew we would. It was a beautiful day maybe just a little warm well if you are wearing makeup that is. It is funny as I spent an hour this morning getting ready and doing my makeup for this even though I knew by the end of the day I would look bad. Another reason pictures were taken on the 1st tee.

Well we had two groups to play and I was in the second group. The 1st was Veronica, Melissa, Laura & Julie and the 2nd; my group was Cassandra, Petra, Victoria and me. Now I have played 3 times before as Susan when I went to Diva Las Vegas but it was always really windy when we golfed there, today there was really no wind maybe every once in a while a light breeze so it would get hot in the sun.

Well as we teed off I got action shots of everyone for our group’s photo album. Victoria even got a picture of me hitting off the first tee. And it was a pretty good shot for me. The course was beautiful and in really good shape. Now I don’t golf as much as I use to actually if I get out more than twice a year now I am doing well so my goal for the day was simple, shoot under 100 and if possible not go over 50 on either 9. Well I met my goal and I was really consistent as I shot a 49 on the front 9 and a 50 on the back 9 for a total score of 99 and most important of all I did not lose a single nail, I know you thought I was going to say ball didn’t you. Well I lost 2 balls which I could handle I was way more worried about the nails.

Well we got back to the club house after our 18 holes of golf and we sat out on the deck to rest and cool off. The staff here was wonderful and treated us outstanding. We are already talking about golfing here again later in the summer. I went in and thanked them for being so awesome to us and the guy told me they enjoyed us being there and hoped we would come back again which I assured him we would.

What a wonderful day and a big thanks to Cassandra for putting this all together for us. Well thanks for reading and I hope you weekend was as awesome as mine. This is my group before we started, after wards there were no pictures as my makeup was not looking good.

July 20, 2013 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Another fun end to the week

Well it has been another long week and as always I so look forward to Fridays as I know I will have a chance to relax and have fun with my friends. Tonight I chose to wear my red dress which is a little fancier than I would normally wear out to a place like sweet home but what can I say I just felt like wearing it. I forgot to get a picture but here I am in the same dress at the Prom party we had several months back. I like it for two reasons, first if you can’t tell already I love the color red. Second through the miracle of elastic and padding I can create a really nice cleavage, I will include a picture further down which shows this effect which for a crossdresser especially with a flat chest is awesome and just makes you feel pretty.

I got there and Teresa had just pulled in which was a pleasant surprise. I went inside and Laura, Veronica, Chris and Cassandra were already there. It was great to see Veronica again as she does not get to go out with us that much as she works out of town but she is in town this weekend because 8 of us are playing golf tomorrow, Saturday. We are having our first Rose City T-girls golf tournament. Now some of us are good at golf and others not so much and I will not say where I fall but this is really not about the scores but having fun and looking pretty out on the golf course. Okay I will say where I fall in the golfing group, I am probably the middle so I shouldn’t win or lose but will have a blast and look great doing it.

Well Teresa came in and it was great she was able to join us tonight. I really don’t get to see her often enough so I really enjoyed talking with her. Melissa also showed up so we had a full table already. A man at the bar came over and introduced himself and again I apologize as I can’t remember his name but he asked what we were drinking and then bought 2 pictures of beer for our table. He was here with a woman I assume was his date but not sure. He was really nice and soon a couple of the girls were playing pool with the 2 of them and having a fun time. Well it came time for them to leave and her came over looking for Veronica and had his name and phone number on a napkin for her but she was off someplace and the lady with him came over so he put it in his pocket and they left. Looks like Veronica was the hit of the night.

Well it wasn’t long and Cristine, Bobby, Cassie, Petra, Michelle, Cristina and her friend arrived so we had a good turnout for the night. It was a fun night and we all enjoyed talking and playing pool till Karaoke started. Chris and Laura sang several times as the Karaoke group had an event out of town so none of them made it tonight so it really was pretty quiet here. I almost worked up the courage to get up and sing and actually tonight would have been a good night as with the exception of our group it was pretty slow. I have a couple songs I have been practicing and could probably sing them although not well so maybe someday.

Well it was getting late midnight, not as late as we normally stay out but then we have to be up somewhat early tomorrow for golf, we are meeting at 12:15 and for me I have an hour drive to get to the golf course. Ad that to the fact Susan takes more time to get ready, yes we will all be wearing makeup and looking our best as that is the point of the golf game, so I will have to be up somewhat early. Anyway we were getting ready to leave and Chris, Laura sang one more song and also Melissa and even Cassandra. Now Cassandra has sung “Girls just want to have fun” before but she always gets a group to sing with her. Tonight she sang on her own and she sang the theme song to the TV show Brady Bunch. I should have got up and sang. Well we were leaving so it was too late for tonight. It is strange that I will go places as Susan and could care less what people may think but singing or dancing and I just can’t stop thinking what they will think of me.

Well Saturday we will play golf and have a fun time and of course I will blog about it and hopefully have some new pictures to post. Thanks for reading and have a fun weekend.

July 20, 2013 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Another fun night out with friends at Harvey’s

Well I look forward to this all month long as it is such a fun night out. A group of us anywhere from 12 to 25 get together once a month and go to Harvey’s. We have been going here for years but for about the last 2 years we have gone once a month. Now most of us meet at Fox & Hound around 7 and then walk over to Harvey’s around 8:30. Now we do this for a couple reasons, first parking is so much better, plus it is just fun to have an extra hour or so out with my friends.

I got to Harvey’s the same time as Cassandra and Wilma. Cristine, Amy and a new girl Jennifer was there already. Jennifer was in boy mode and she is in the process of moving to Portland and starting her transition. They weren’t going to Harvey’s but came out to join us for dinner. It was great to see Amy again and spend some time with her. She even had new hair for tonight and looked great but then she always does. Well Joan, Melissa, and Laura also showed up so we had a good group already.

Well about 8:30 we left Fox & Hound and started walking to Harvey’s, I stopped by my car and got my wrap as even though it was warm out now I was worried it could be cool for the walk back at midnight. Now normally I wear my lower heels but tonight I just wanted my 4″ heels even though I knew by the end of the night my feet would be killing me but they went so well with my cute outfit.

We got to Harvey’s and Jan & Lynn were already there and it wasn’t long before Victoria showed up. We had 12 of us for the show so Cassandra and I went out and got our tickets as we waited. Now getting here early enough we were able to get seats in the bar close to the entrance. Now getting in was not an issue as they always reserve tables for us as we tell them how many we are bringing and we have our regular waitress Kim who is awesome and always makes sure we are in her section but I really wanted to be able to sit while we waited so I didn’t have to stand in my heels.

Finally it was time to go into the show room and we had tables almost right up front. Now there were a lot of people for the show and there were to Bachelorette parties here. One of the groups went up on stage and got pictures and it wasn’t long and the other Bachelorette group came up and got on stage. There was a man that got their cameras and took pictures of them. When they were done he came over to our group and said we should go up on stage and get our pictures taken and well you know how we feel about our pictures being taken so he didn’t have to ask again. Well we found out later that he was the owner of Harvey’s.

Well Cassandra, Lynn and I all gave him our cameras and we all got on stage. You could not imagine all the flashes from the audience as we were up there. There was on table close to the front with 4 girls and 4 guys and all 4 of the girls had their cameras out taking our pictures and we were having a blast. At the end Cassandra tried to take a picture of the audience as she told them as they were taking our picture she wanted one of them but her batteries died and she couldn’t take it. I stopped by the one table and asked if I could get a picture with one of them since they took ours and the one girl was only too happy to get a picture with me. The night was off to an awesome start.

Well the show started and the comedians were awesome, we laughed so hard. I think this is why I enjoy this night out as we always laugh and have fun. Now I am not saying all the comedians are the best but almost always they are good and tonight was no exception. The opening comedian was great and I think he could be a headliner. The headliner was awesome and he was having fun with the audience. And picking on people in the audience he even had some jokes about us as we were so close to the stage but it was all in fun. It was just an awesome night. After the show the owner came back and told us about next month’s comedian and said we will love that night so we are already looking forward to that night.

The comedians came back over to our tables as they both wanted to get pictures with us. Now I didn’t think to take my camera out so I didn’t get a picture. The headliner was Joe Fontenot and the other comedian was Tony and I can’t remember his last name. It is funny as this is the third time the comedians have come over to us to get pictures with us and Cassandra was off someplace else and missed out. Joe thanked us for being there and said he was glad we had fun.

Well on the way out we got talking to the one Bachelorette party and they were awesome. They wanted some pictures with us and of course you know what we said so all our camera’s came out and we had a blast with them. We talked with them for a while and they had a drawing for a gift card and one of them won it so they are planning on coming back again. Anyway we were telling them we come every month so they said they were going to try to come when we are there again as they had so much fun.

Well we got outside and they wanted more pictures well it might have been us but either way we got more pictures. I am sure they will remember this night. Well once we got outside it really was a nice night and not cold so I took my wrap off.

Well it was time to head back to Fox & Hound as that is where we parked and some of the girls wanted to go back there and play pool and a couple wanted to go to CC Slaughters and go dancing. For me it was time to head home. It is still amazing how at ease I am just walking around downtown Portland. It was an awesome night and really my feet were not that bad even though we had walked 7 blocks each way. It was such a fun night. Here is one more picture from last night.

Thanks for reading and have a great week.

July 14, 2013 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Fun evening with friends

Well it is another Friday night and time to go out and have some fun with my friends. I so look forward to this night all week long but especially tonight as it has been a really busy couple weeks and this is my first chance in almost 2 weeks to have some Susan time. I so love spending times with my friends I have made as Susan. It also gives me a chance to escape from my daily life as a man and forget about all the issues, and problems I face on a daily basis. I think the world would be much better place if everyone you get away from their issues every week for a few hours, I am not saying by crossdressing but finding something that completely relaxes them and for me that is being Susan. O don’t just get to forget about stuff but I take on a new persona of Susan, friends, experiences and the rest of my life goes away for those few hours. I read someplace that the way to be happy is find something you really enjoy and then make time to do it on a regular basis and I have found just that.

Well I got all ready and off I went to meet my friends at Sweet Home. Laura, Cassandra and Chris were already there when I got there. Actually it was only 7 pm and I there were only a couple other people there at this time. It is actually pretty quiet here till about 9:30 when they get the Karaoke going. That is when most people start to show up. Well we ordered dinner and sat around and talked for a bit. It really is about being out with friends and the social aspect of it and not so much about where we go or what we do for me.

Kim showed up next which was awesome as I some really like spending time with her. We actually got together Wednesday and had a BBQ at my house but that was not Susan time. It really is awesome that I get to spend time with her as both male and female; I guess I am really lucky on this. Anyway she had on this really cute summertime dress and looked awesome. It was going to be a wonderful night.

Well a few more girls showed up, Melissa, Mikaela, Cristine, Bobby, Bob, Petra and Christina. Christina came last week when I wasn’t there so this was the first time I have met her. She seems really nice and has been living full time now for about 3 years. We got a chance to talk for a bit and get to know each other which is always nice meeting new people.

David also showed up, he is one of Kim’s friends and has come out with us a few times. He lives somewhat close to Sweet Home so he stopped in for a bit which was nice. He seems really accepting of our group and is fun to talk to so hopefully he will stop in again. Well it got to the time for Karaoke and of course Kim, Chris, and Laura put their names into sing. They all sang several songs and did an awesome job as always. I was joking with Mikale about her singing and she asked when I was going to sing and I told her right after she did. Well about an hour later Mikaela did go up and sing so now I guess I will have to come up with a song to sing. I am okay singing with someone else but I still can’t get up the courage to sing on my own. It is funny but going out as Susan on my own doesn’t bother me but singing Karaoke or dancing scares me and I think people will stare at me. Makes no sense I know but what can I say.

Well it get late and Kim needed to leave so of course I walked her out to her car. It is always sad when she has to leave but I can look forward to the next time I see her. Well I got back inside and it was really starting to get busy as a lot of the Karaoke group had shown up now. I played a couple games of pool, I lost both but came close to winning and had fun and that is what counts.

Well it was a fun night and it was amazing as it got later it got busier and there were still people coming in after 1 which when you figure they close at 2:30 suppressed me. Well others left and it was down to just Cassandra and me and we got balking. And before we knew it it was after 2 am and the place was packed. We actually had to stand in line to pay our bills so it must have been a really good night for the place.

Tomorrow night the group is going to Harvey’s comedy club for our monthly outing. I am so looking forward to it; I think we have 16 signed up to go. We are also planning a golf day, we have 8 people that have paid and Cassandra is working on getting a tee time for us. That will be a lot of fun.

Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a great weekend

July 13, 2013 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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