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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Quick update on Saturday,

Okay just a quick update today, I am still having issues planning Susan time as it all depends on how my Dad is doing on any given day so it is always a last-minute decision. So still not sure when I will get out again. Now on a side note my car has a recall for so something for the transmission and they said it would take about 4 hours so had to be on a Saturday, I had an appointment at Toyota at 9 am. Now there is a Starbucks about a half mile away I have gone to several times as Susan so I decided to take my computer and walk down there till my car was ready. I dropped my car off and off I went. Now as I walked I noticed a nail salon called AB nail spa about a block from Toyota and I got thinking about my nails and how I miss going and getting g them done. It has been 3 weeks since I went and got a manicure at Creative nails and it has been 2 months since my last pedicure and although the polish has held up well they have grown out and look bad. I really need to figure something out.

I got to Starbucks and played on my computer and kept thinking about the last times I was here I was Susan. I really do miss my Susan time and think about it a lot. It is just way more fun to be at Starbucks as Susan. I stayed here till 11 and then decided to walk back to Toyota and hang out there as they also have WI-FI and maybe they will get done with my car early. I was almost back and saw the nails salon and it was open and no cars in front so I decided to walk in and get a manicure. Now I have gone a couple times as my male self to get manicures before a couple times but still way easier as Susan. I went in and a lady came up and asked if she could help me and without thinking I just said I would like a manicure and pedicure. She said yes and led me over to a pedicure seat and started the water. Now I pulled up my pantlegs as far as I could and took off my shoes and socks. She looked at my feet and saw the red polish and I think I saw a smile and she immediately asked me what color I wanted and as I had already sat down I just said a red. She came back with several different reds and I picked out a nice bright red and we were ready to go. She introduced herself, her name is Kim and she asked me my name and we talked off and on while she did my feet. Now I did the deluxe pedicure with Lavender and paraffin wax. It really is nice when they are not busy as I think they spend more time and she really did take her time. She really was nice and soon I had Beautiful toes again. She asked me if I liked them and I told her they looked great. Quick picture of my toes in the chair.

Now it was time for my manicure so I went over to the table and she started on my fingures. Kim asked me what colorf I wanted and I just said clear and added I can get away with red on my tgoes but no way I could have it on my fingers. About this time another young lady came in gto get a fill, she had beautiful long red nails and she sat right next to me. We chatted a little and I was so enviouse of her nails. Kim worked on my fingers and did a wonderful job it really was relaxing. It really is a nice nanil salon, clean and modern, it has only been open about 1 ½ years. She even gave me a shoulder message, now I was treated wonerdful here. I think they are still growing gtheir clientel and looking for new customers. She asked if I would tell my friends about their nails salon and I said I would. It really is a nice place and they do a great job. By the way they also offer a complimentery drink including wine, of course I skiped that part. Kim took wonderful care of me and again I am guessing it is because I am a potential new costomer. Now it was almost 1 when I was all done. Yes I jhad been here almost 2 hours, would have been so much more fun as Susan. Now toyota had also called and my car was ready but I stayed and finished my nails.

It was just before 1 when I left. Now I really had not thought this thriough as now I had pretty toes that still were not dry enough to put my shoes and socks back on so I was going to wear the little salmon colored flops and my oretty red toes showing as I walked back to Toyota. Now first thing these are not made for walking any distance as they are little better then walking barefoot. Now I also had to walk into toyota and get my care. Now no one said a thing b ut I am sure some of them had to have noticed them. It actually was kind of fun though. This is a picture from inside. I would also recommend AB nail salon if you are by Orchards Washington.

It was a fun day but would have been so much better as Susan, as a matter of fact I almost thought about telling Kim the lady who did my nails about Susan.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

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September 8, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

A quick update

It has been 4 weeks since I have been able to be Susan and I am really missing it, I really need to find a way to get at least a little time for Susan. As you all know family matters have come up and limited my ability to get out. I even had to remove my acrylic nails which I have had for 16 months. Well they were really looking bad, so I decided Friday I would go and get a manicure and see if I could get them looking better, of course it would be as my male self, so I didn’t want to go to Dream Nails as they only know me as Susan. Well I decided to go to Creative nails off Mill Plain as I have gone here once before a couple years ago and they did a really nice job. Now I didn’t make an appointment like I do as Susan I just showed up a little a little after 6.

They were not busy just one lady getting a pedicure and only 2 ladies working. The one lady asked if she could help me and I said I wanted to get a manicure. I sat down, and she noticed the little acrylic I still had on my nails and asked if I wanted them redone. I really wanted to say yes but said no just a manicure, so she took the time to remove what little acrylic I still had on my nails. Now what I remember about this nails salon is they do everything by hand. No drill files or grinders all hand filing. Now it was so relaxing getting my manicure and as she did my nails we talked. She asked me where I lived, and I told her which is about 10 miles away, I told her I was down this way visiting a friend and just needed a manicure, so I stopped in. to my surprise she remembered I had been here before a couple years back. Now I am use to being remembered as Susan as I kind of stand out little different as my male self. She did a wonderful job and my nails looked way better but nowhere as nice as when I had acrylics. It was still a relaxing 30 minutes and really made me wish I was here as Susan.

Now what is funny is my nails and fingers still feel funny without my acrylic nails. It has been a couple weeks and I am still trying to get use to short nails. I never had this much trouble adjusting to the longer nails when I got them done. I also notice they break easy probably do to the process of having acrylics put on as they file off the top layer which is the hardest layer of your nails. It may be hard, but I think I will wait at least a month before getting acrylics again just to give my nails a chance to recover. They have grown out half the nail bed now yes with the clear polish on you can see the line on my nails if you get a close look. I am still waiting for someone at work to say something about my short plain nails but then again in a year in a half I only had a coupe people say anything about my nails with the acrylic. it is funny though as one of the ladies I work with always comes and shows me her nails after she gets them done and right now she has beautiful long nails with different colored tip, I really am jealous of her nails.

Well thanks for reading this update and I am planning on getting out for a couple hours Saturday night if I can.

August 18, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday trip to the nail salon before going to the Escape

It is the last Saturday of June and I am really looking forward to going out. Between being sick and other obligations, my Susan time has been limited. Now my plan as usual is to try to get to the Escape early between 5 & 6 as this gives me a little more time out and parking is way better. I got home around 3 and started to get ready and of course the first thing I notice I a chip on my nail polish on my toes, it has been at least 6 weeks since my last pedicure. I also noticed one of my nails had what looked like a crack but was really just where the corner was separating from the acrylic. yes, I needed to go to the nails salon. I called Dream nails and it turns out they were busy and Anny couldn’t get me in till 5:30. Now I had a decision to make, be late to the Escape or not get my nails done and I am sure you can guess my choice. I told her I would see her at 5:30 and finished getting ready. I was all done with my makeup and picked a more neutral lipstick, a mauve color and now it was time to get dressed. Now as I was getting a pedicure that would mean no panty hose and flip flops so I picked my white and black summer dress, here is a picture of me from our trip to Hoover dam wearing the same dress.

Now I had another dilemma, it was only 4:15 and I was all ready and I really don’t like just sitting around the house all dressed up so I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house till it was time to go get my nails done. It only took a couple minutes to get there and I went in. they were not real busy so I had no trouble getting a table and got out my computer and took care of some work, wrote my blog from Wednesday, and just relaxed as I waited till it was time to go to the nails salon. Now people came and went and a few sat down at tables but it never really got really busy. It is a good place to people watch though. It really was funny how fast time went. Soon it was 5:15 and I decided to leave and go to the Nail salon which again only takes a couple minutes.

I parked and went in and yes, they were busy, 2 getting their nails done and 5 getting pedicures and 2 waiting but I had an appointment so I only had to wait a couple minutes. Anna would do my nails but another girl did my pedicure, she has done my pedicures several times and always does a great job but I do not know her name and feel bad asking so I guess I will just go on not knowing. I really do love coming to the nail salon and getting pedicures, so relaxing. Sad most men will never experience this simple joy in life. She did a wonderful job and soon it was time for the polish, I had picked out a really bright red called Ferrari which I have had before and really love the color, so wish I could do my fingers in the same color. Soon my feet were done and looked so pretty and now it was time for my nails.

I moved over to Anna’s table and she started on my fingers. She removed the old gel polish and filed them down to get them ready for the acrylic fill and of course noticed the bad nail before I pointed it out to her so she removed all the acrylic on that nails. It really is a fun and relaxing time. She asked if I wanted them shortened and I said yes even though I really didn’t. She put the new acrylic on my nails and shaped them and got them all ready for the polish. Of course, I used the same color I have been for months, Wedding dress but I kept thinking about the pretty red on my toes and so wished it was on my fingers. Now they were busy the whole time with people waiting, so glad I always call for an appointment. It was 6:50 when I was all done and left the salon with my pretty nails.

I got to the Escape about 7:20 and as I feared all the parking was full in the lot so I parked out on the street, I don’t think I have ever had to park on the street here as I always get here early. I went in and Bobbie was there at one of the tables closest to where they do Karaoke, are normal table was full. I talked with Bobbie a little before going up and ordering dinner. I noticed Lee was here at the Bar so I went over and talked with her a little, she was here with another lady and was not sure if they were on a date so I only talked to her for a few minutes before going back to the table. My food came and I ate my dinner they really do have great food here.

I was just finishing my dinner and Robyn showed up. It was nice to see her out she is coming here on a more regular basis now which is always nice. Now as it got later it started to get busier as this is the last weekend of Pride and it was going to be a big night I think. Another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us now. By 9 it really was busy and we had others sitting at the other end of our table which I really don’t mind as I didn’t think we would have any more girls show up but Lauri. And it is nice to kind of chat with them. They have 2 long tables that sit 10 and then several 4-person tables and they were all full.

Karaoke started and it is fun although it gets loud and you can’t really talk any more. Those who sang did really well and even the few that didn’t we still clapped as they had the guts to get up and sing. Several of the songs I had never heard before and a few were ones I really likes and those I sang along with, quietly from our table of course. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up. I stayed a little long but I was getting tired. I can remember a few years back when we didn’t go out till 9 and we closed the bars down. Now by 11 I am done. I paid my bill and said my goodbye’s and called it a night. It was so wonderful to be out with my friends and also get my nails done. I really do need to try to get back to getting my nails done on a week night though.

On a side note this week for some reason all my blogs I shared on my Facebook page disappeared and I mean disappeared. I can find no trace of them. I checked my activities log and even downloaded my history file and there is no trace of them. I am not really good with Facebook so if any of you out there have any ideas what happened please let me know. I will see if this one post to it and if not, I may try and post in manually and see what is going on. I tried to contact Facebook but that is harder then finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so I don’t know what to do now.

Any way thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with my on my most recent blog.

July 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and I finally get some Susan time.

It is Saturday after a long and trying week and I am going to get some Susan time. But first a reminder about our Mexican Cruise our group the rose city t-girls are hosting. We have 29 people signed up but there is still room and time to sign up, just go to our web page and get the information. Now I haven’t been out since last Sunday as I have been sick all week and today is the first day I feel better and don’t have a red nose or at least not so bad that some makeup can hide it. If that is not bad enough it has been almost 3 weeks (tomorrow) since I got my nails done. Now don’t get me wrong they still look great but are rather long and have noticeable grow out so that is a priority as I am not sure if I would have time this week to get them done and I defiantly can’t wait another week. Now usually I try to get to the Escape early so that gives me a little time to work with.

I called Dream Nails and Anna was able to get me in at 4:45 so that was good but now I had the bigger issue. Going to the nail salon I try to be casual but going to the Escape I usually wear a dress and heels and of course my red lipstick. I am going to have to find some common ground. I decided to go with my black skirt and sweater top and my ankle boots that have about 3″ heels which is kind of a business woman look and I figured it would be good for both. Now was the lipstick choice and yes, I did go for the red. I was ready at 4:30 and drove over to the Nail salon. There were only a couple cars but they were actually pretty busy. 4 woman and a man getting pedicures and 2 women getting their nails done. Anna was ready so I actually got in a little early which was nice. She started on my nails and it is always such a fun and relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got them all prepped for the new acrylic and then asked me if I wanted them shortened. Of course, the answer was yes even though deep down I didn’t. she shortened them up and then put the new acrylic on filling the area that had grown out. About this time the man and woman getting pedicures were leaving and as the man walked by me he said you ladies have a wonderful day. Soon it was time for the gel polish and once again my nails looked perfect although shorter. It was about 5 :15 when I was all done. Now here is the funny thing. When I left how it was clear skies and about 75 but as I am getting over being sick I brought my sweater. As I walked out it was dark skies and raining, it had only been 45 minutes, what happened.

I drove to the Escape in a heavy rain, I guess that is the Pacific Northwest as they always say if you don’t like the weather wait 30 minutes. I got to the escape and was able to park right in front which with the rain was nice. I went in and got the table I try to get in case others show up. Really not sure how many we will have tonight as it is Pride weekend and lots of things going on downtown. I did know Nicole would be here as she is in town this weekend, always nice when you know you won’t be alone. I ordered dinner and got out my computer. It was just after 6 and I had just finished eating when Nicole arrived. It was great to see her again and get a chance to talk with her. It was just a little later and Jan and Lynn arrived, they had been downtown at the Pride event all day and left when it started to rain.

The 4 of us sat and talked for a while mostly about our cruise this October which really is coming up fast now. We are all looking forward to this as it will be so much fun. This is my first Cruise and the fact I get to do it as Susan makes it all the better. Now we were discussing what we are taking in other words how much luggage. Now I am doing the whole trip as Susan as are many of the girls as I have always wanted to fly as Susan. But another reason is this will help keep what I need to take down as it will just be stuff for Susan to wear. Now I think I can get it all in one big suitcase and one carry on which will be nice. My only concern and this is because I don’t fly much how do they classify carryon. It has been several years since I was on a plane and I took 1 carryon and my laptop on the plane. But as Susan I will also have my purse so now I am looking at 1 carryon bag, laptop and purse. I am guessing I will have to call the airline and get an answer to that before the flight.

Now it was a little slow here tonight as I think a lot of people are downtown so it may get busier later but as I am getting over being sick I don’t plan to be out to late. A little later another one of our girls showed up so we had 5 of us tonight. A little after 9 the Karaoke started and of course it gets loud and hard to talk. Nicole was the first to leave, always sad to see her go but she will be back in about 10 days and is planning on going to our Wednesday night dinner which will be fun. It was about 9:45 and Lauri showed up and it was nice to see her again, she also had been downtown at the Pride events. I wish I could have gone but it was late when I was able to get out and getting over being sick probably wouldn’t have been a good idea to be outside. I talked with Lauri briefly before paying my bill and calling it a night. It was about 10 pm when I left for home. It really was good to be out again.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up on my most recent blog.

June 17, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

Thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Thursday night and having dinner with Charlene and her wife

It is Thursday and I am meeting Charlene and her wife for dinner tonight at 7, we have been trying to get together when they come to town but haven’t made it yet. They live on the East side of the mountains and get to Portland a few times a year. Any way we are meeting at McMenamins on the Columbia river at 7 for dinner and I am really looking forward to it. Now I got home a little before 4 so I had a little time but I really needed to go to the Nail salon. It has been over two weeks since I got my nails done last time which was after my trip to Diva Ls Vegas and Anna even though she shortened them left them on the long side so now they are really long of course no one has said a thing. More than that I really need a pedicure as my last pedicure was March 15 almost two months ago. Now it was a question of if I had time. I called Dream nails to see if I could get in and Anna said she could get me in at 5 which should give me time to get my nails done but it was already 4 so I would be rushing to get ready. I told Anna I would see her at 5 and started getting ready right away.

I was ready and leaving my house at 4:55 luckily Dream nails is only a couple blocks away and I got there right at 5. I went in and there was only 1 other lady there so I got right to the table and Anna started on my nails. Now as Anna did my nails I talked with her a little and it has been really slow today so Anna was trying to talk me into the Deluxe pedicure which really didn’t take much as I was already thinking about it my only concern was if I had time as I needed to leave here by 6:30 to make my dinner with Charlene. Anna assured me I did and said she would have me out by 6:30. Now the funny thing is they started to get busy as first 2 women came in and had their daughter with them and all wanted their nails done and right after them 3 more woman came in and also wanted their nails done. None of them wanted pedicures today which was unusual as usually more are getting pedicures then their nails done. Anna prepped my nails and shortened them and put the new acrylic on and got them all ready. All that was left was the gel polish but as Anna has another lady that wanted her nails done and one of the other techs was available she had me go and get my pedicure and she would finish my nails after that so I moved over to the Pedicure chair.

The lady who did my pedicure I don’t know her name even though I know several of the ladies who work here as at some point they have all done my nails at one time over the few years I have been coming here. There is Knee, Kathy, Tina, Anna of course and the new lady who I found out her name is Annie tonight, she has only been her 6 months but all of them are great and treat me wonderful and do an awesome job. Now the pedicure is so relaxing and everyone should do it. The difference between the regular pedicure ($25) and the deluxe ($45) is they use scented salts in the water, I did lavender, scented scrubs on your legs and feet, scented lotions on your legs and feet with a hot towel wrap and a paraffin wax for your feet and of course more time. Now it is so relaxing to have a pedicure and I really enjoy it but the deluxe does take longer about an hour and as I watched the time pass by I wondered if I would be don by 6:30 but sue enough soon she was painting my toes a beautiful red color and she finished right at 6:30 but I still needed the gel polish on my fingers but that only takes a few minutes as they dry really fast under the LED light. Anna new I was on a schedule so as the lady was painting my toes I gave her my credit card and paid my bill. As soon as she was done with my toes I was back over at Anna’s table and she put the polish, Wedding dress on my fingers. I was all done by 5:40 and such a wonderful, relaxing time.

Now it only takes about 15 minutes to get to McMenamins so I should be right on time which I was as I walked in right at 7. Charlene and her wife were already there, it was wonderful to see them again as it has been a while. I think the last time was the Halloween party last year at Cassandra’s house. It is funny the good friends you can make online even though you may only see them rarely. They are both retired and spend several months traveling around in Their RV. Now we were busy talking and catching up and yes, they know more about what is going on in my life as they follow my blog, but always nice to be able to talk in person. Our waitress came back a couple times to see if we were ready to order and of course we were not so she said when we were ready put the menus at the end of the table and she would come get our order. We talked a little more and finally took time to look at the menu and figure out what we wanted and sure enough as soon as we put the menus on the table end our waitress was right there to get our order. We really did have a wonderful waitress.

We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and I got to know more about them which was nice. I really do have some wonderful friends as Susan so I am a really lucky lady. 10 years ago, if any one told me I would be going out like this as Susan and have these awesome friends I would have thought they had lost their minds but here I am. Being Transgender and having a feminine side has turned out to be a wonderful thing and I can’t imagine my life any other way. As always, the night went by fast and soon it was almost 9 and we called it an evening. Now we both parked in the same area so we all walked out together and of course the staff on the way out thanked us and told us to come back which is always nice to hear. Outside I got to meet their dog who was in the car, they have an awesome dog, very friendly and well behaved. It really was a great evening out. I am hoping to see them again on Saturday night at the Escape as they are in town till Sunday Morning. If not I will be looking forward to their next visit.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with me on Susan’s most recent blog.

May 13, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Thursday night at the nail salon

It is Thursday night and I am going to the nails salon for a pedicure and fill. Now I really don’t need one as both my toes and fingers look great still although my finger nails are getting a little long. This really is the one problem I have with getting my nails done with acrylic. I really could go 3 weeks between fills but they get pretty long by then at least for my male side. Even my pedicure held up well 6 weeks and no chips but it is all about timing. You see 4 weeks from today I will be back at Dream Nails for a pedicure and a full set of long acrylic nails for my trip to Diva Las Vegas. I got home and called Dream nails to get an appointment and Anna could get me in at 5 so I had about 1 ½ hours to get ready.

I took my time getting ready, I really like it more when I am not rushed. I know some people think it is strange to spend that much time getting ready just to go to the nail salon or a few hours at Starbuck’s and even I can’t explain it other than I enjoy it. Now I had my makeup done and still had time so I decided to wear my corset for the evening as I really do like the way it makes my waist look and really it is really comfortable other then in and out of the car and maybe a long drive in the car. I got to Dream nails just before 5 and went in, they were really slow tonight, only 1 lady getting a pedicure so Anna was ready to start. Of course, I had to pick a color for my toes, I went with a purple color this time.

Anna started on my nails and it is such a relaxing feeling to have someone do your nails. As she worked we talked a little. She asked if I wanted the deluxe pedicure tonight which I have done once before, as I said it was slow and Anna said it had been slow all week so I am sure they were looking for more services to do. I think it is that time of year as taxes are do in a couple weeks and also property taxes in a little over a month so people are probably a little tighter with their money. Any way I decided to go for the deluxe pedicure, $20 more but it is really relaxing. The main difference is they use a scented lotion and creams and even sent the water, I went with Lavender. They also put a cream on your leg and then wrap it in a hot towel for a while and also give your foot a paraffin wax treatment to soften your feet plus I think the message your legs and feet longer. Not something I would do all the time as it would get expensive but will probably do again in 4 weeks right before Diva Las Vegas and the same for the Cruise this fall.

As Anna did my nails another lady came in and she also got her nails done and was at the next table to me so we did talk a little about nails. It really is an enjoyable experience. I tell everyone you need to get a pedicure and acrylic nails at least once just to experience it and I got a feeling you will probably do it more often once you try it. Anna did a great job on my nails and soon they were just as pretty but a little shorter. Now it was time for my pedicure.

Kathy was once again doing my pedicure, Anna and Kathy always do a wonderful job as do all the people here and I have had several of them do my nails at one time or another. It is funny as I did come here a few times early on but I have been coming here every 2 to 3 weeks now for 2 years and I will have had acrylic nails now for 11 months although thinner than most woman and of course no pretty colors but they still look great. Now as I said I wore my corset today and sitting at the table getting my nails done was fine but sitting in the pedicure chair was not as comfortable, note to self when getting a pedicure, no corset. Kathy did a wonderful job on my feet and it was so relaxing, the deluxe pedicure is the way to go if you can. Normally it takes about an hour to get my fill and pedicure but it was closer to 1 ½ hours. Now partly because the deluxe pedicure takes longer but I have noticed that if they are busy then tend to rush a little more to get people through and this is just not Dream Nails but all nail salons I have gone to and I have talked to others and they say the same. If you do want to get your nails done my two tips, get an appointment and try to avoid really busy times. It was time for the polish and Kathy put the first coat on and as it dried it last all its shine, to say the least I was not happy at the color I had picked but I figured in 4 weeks I would change it. Kathy put a second coat on and the same and then the top coat. The top coat did put a nice shine on it and to my surprise it really looked great and really shiny, turns out it was a great choice. It was 6:30 when I left the Dream Nails

After my nail appointment went across the street to Starbuck’s as I had about 1 ½ hours till they closed and did some work and caught up on some e-mails. Some of the e-mails were questions I get asked from other transgender and non-transgender and probably the most asked is why I do this. There is no simple answer to this, I have talked with other crossdressers and there is no defining thing or moment in our lives we can point to and say this is it, this is why. We just do. Why do some people like chocolate and others don’t? why do some people like sports and others don’t? why do some men have facial hair and others don’t? why do some woman wear dresses, have long hair or nails and others don’t? In the end it comes down to personal preference and that is it. I am more comfortable this way even though when I am out I really am not thinking about how I am dressed. I really don’t know why, I do know that when I dress I do try to emulate what I find attractive in women. The other thing people think is I must be gay and from what I have learned most (75% or more) are straight males. Their dressing has nothing to do with their sexual attraction. As I said for me I try to emulate what I find attractive and for me that is the female body, shape, form, and look. Hair on a body, arms, chest is not at all attractive and I do everything I can to have a smooth clean body.

The other question is am I going to, or when will I transition an d the answer to that is I am not going to as that is not right for me. Now these are my thoughts and observations on these things and I am by no means an expert so remember that before you tell me I am wrong. Talking with both transsexuals and crossdressers there seems to be some common thing and things that are specific to just one. Both have a need to be feminine (or other sex depending on if you are MTF or FTM). The difference is about your body. Transsexuals need to physically be the other gender, they feel their body is wrong. Crossdressers need to present, be accepted as the other gender. From just looking at them you can’t tell as it is all about how they see themselves.

Now for me yes when I am Susan I would love to have real breast, hips, narrower shoulder, 5 to 7 inches shorter, no bulge between my legs but it is because of how it looks and how people see me, it is not about my body being wrong, it is the outward appearance. When I am not Susan I don’t think about it and is I did have real breast then I would be crossdressing the other way as when I was not Susan I would need to bind them down to hid them. Now I do know some crossdressers that have told me they would love to have breast and they would if they could but again there is that key words, love to have them not they their body is wrong or they are not truly who they are without them. It’s like saying I would love to have a million dollars and doing what I can to get it, verse having to have a million dollar to feel you are complete. The way I look at it is if I won 10 million dollars tomorrow how would my life change. For me I would dress as Susan most of the time, pierce my ears, have long acrylic nails and maybe even grow my hair out, surgery not something I would do. A transsexual the first thing on their list would be surgery. Now this is a simple way of looking at it and there is more to t than this but it is a good start and what I have learned.

Wow got a little off topic but that’s okay. Starbucks was a little slow tonight but a relaxing time while I gave the polish on my toes time to fully dry. After Starbucks I went through the drive thru and then home. It was a relaxing 4 hours.

Thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

March 18, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Thoughts on Crossdressing, why men crossdress | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Friday and the start of my vacation

Okay, it is Friday and I am now on vacation, I have some vacation time I have to use and some things I need to do around home and of course some Susan time. Now I have done these vacations like this last year and it was a good excuse to get my nails done in a pretty color. The only problem is gel polish is not easy to get off quick and with family issues I didn’t think that was a good idea so it will be the same color Wedding dress again. I got home from work at 4 and the first thing I did was call Dream nails to get an appointment for a manicure and pedicure. Anna said she could get me in at 5:15 so I had an hour. I started getting ready right away and I was ready and out the door right at 5 so I would be a little early to my appointment.

I got to Dream nails just a few minutes later and they were busy, there was 1 lady getting a pedicure and 3 young girls, probably high school age getting their nails done and 6 other girls about the same age waiting. I was glad I had an appointment. Well Anna was running a little behind so I had to wait till almost 5:30 which was okay. A couple other ladies came in and left because of how many were here, seems they were a little short-handed tonight. Now all these young girls were getting full sets of acrylic nails and they were all excited about it which I can understand.

Anna finished up the lady she was working on and it was my turn so I sat down and Anna started to work on my nails, she asked if I wanted the same color and I so wanted to say no I wanted red but I know something could come up short notice with family and I would need to be able to switch back fast. I did tell her I didn’t want them shortened. Now I know at the end of the week I will have to file them down as they are rather long now at least for my male side. Anna removed the old gel polish and did the fill with acrylic and then it was time for my new gel polish, the young girl next to me had her nails in an oval shape and rather long and put a silver glitter polish on them. They were really sparkly which I told her and that they looked great although I am not a fan of the glittery nails. I am more the traditional reds or pinks, even the one odd color on the middle finger is not something I like. I am not saying it is ugly just not what I want even though it is really popular these days. I like the same color on all my fingers. Soon I had my beautiful nails again and it was time for my pedicure. Some of the young girls finished with their nails and others took their spots to get their nails done and the ones that were finished waited, I guess they were all together. More woman came in and some left because of the crowd others were willing to wait. It was a good night to people watch.

Anna did my pedicure tonight as all the other nail techs were busy and they had people waiting. I picked Pompeii Purple tonight which is really a pinkish red and very pretty, I usually do this color during the summer as it is a great summer color. It was so relaxing to sit there with Anna messaging my feet and legs and the chair messaging my back, worth every penny. It was a little after 7 when I was ready to leave and they still had 3 ladies waiting, so much for a 7 pm closing time.

I left the nail salon and thought about what I should do as I didn’t want to just go home and I was kind of hungry so I drove down by the mall to get a burger. Now as I drove I kept thinking about my nails and how much I wanted red for the week. Now Julie all the time gets gel polish and then she has regular nail polish put over the gel for color. I even thought about this at the salon but they were so busy but I regretted not doing it. Anyway, by the mall there was a nail salon that had an open sign so I decided I would go in. I got there right at 7:30 which was their closing time but they had a few ladies still in there and the one lady said she would do my nails. I guess you don’t turn down a paying customer, so I went and picked out a really bright red and sat down. Just for polish is only $6 what a bargain. 10 minutes later I had beautiful red nails. I sat there another 10 minutes to let them dry so I wouldn’t mess them up before leaving just before 8.

Now it was 8 and I new the Starbucks by my house was closed, most Starbucks close between 8 and 9 so I decided to go up to Mill Plain as there is a Starbucks that is open till midnight. I got there about 8:20 and wow they were packed. I parked and looked in and it looked like about 25 young people inside but it is a bigger Starbucks so I grabbed my computer and went in. I was wrong I bet there were 40 or more young people inside. I walked in and it was quiet as I walked up to the counter to order my hot chocolate. There was very little talking going on but I just minded my own business and ordered my drink. The young man behind the counter was really nice and one of the girls complimented me on my makeup and nails which I love. Any way I made the comment that they were really busy tonight which surprised me as you don’t think of a coffee shop as a place to go on a Friday night. He said yes but it is just the first Friday of the month, they have a big group of young deaf kids that come in. any way I ordered my drink and turned to walk to the 1 open table in the corner and no one was paying any attention to me.

I sat down and took out my computer and caught up on e-mails and wrote my blog for tonight. It was so awesome to see my red nails as I typed. It stayed busy till about 9:00 when some of the people left but there was still probably 20 people here and the drive through was no stop. It was a relaxing evening. Now I am looking forward to the coming week, I have some stuff to do around home and I plan on getting out as Susan, I need to find a new purse. I am going to get together with Peggy on Tuesday for lunch and some shopping and also Mikaela on Friday for some shopping. May see if some of the other girls want to get together. It will be a fun week and yes, I will probably get to Starbucks several times also. Tomorrow night we will have our dinner downtown Portland which will be fun and of course I will make the Wednesday night dinner. Okay 1 quick picture of my pretty red nails, so wish I could have them all the time.

Around 9:30 it got really busy again probably 30 or more people were inside again. I guess Friday night is the night to come to this Starbucks. I stayed here till about 11 before heading home. When I left there was probably still 30 to 40 people still here at Starbucks. I made a quick stop at Burger Kings drive through before going home. It was a good night out.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with my latest adventures on my most recent blog.

February 2, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night outing

It is Wednesday and I am going to get to go out tonight for dinner with my friends. I got home and of course the most important thing was I needed a manicure. I called Dream nails and got an appointment for 5, so looking forward to this. I really love going to the nail salon. I started getting ready taking my time to enjoy it. As I got ready I had the big issue of what to wear and how to do my makeup. Normally I would wear a dress and heels to go to dinner but I am also going to the nail salon first. Well I settled on a black skirt and sweater top and my high heeled boots although I did go with the red lipstick.

I got to the nail salon just before 5 and went in. they were not busy, just 1 lady getting a pedicure. Anna was ready for me so I sat right down and she started on my nails, it is such a relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got my nails ready for the for the new acrylic to fill in. She asked me if I wanted them shortened and of course I didn’t but I knew I needed to so I told her yes. It is always sad when she uses the grinder to make them shorter. She also fixed the nail I broke the corner off of and soon she was putting on the new acrylic. now she has been using a pink acrylic which gives my nails a slight pink color, it would probably be more if she put it on thicker but she does a thin layer. Now it was time for the gel polish and Anna asked if I wanted the clear again and I said no I wanted the color wedding dress which is a slight pink although with the pink acrylic is does have more of a pink color. I really do love the way my nails look with this color of course I would much rather have a bright red. Maybe in 2 weeks as I will be on vacation. Anna put the first coat on and then the second coat and yes, my nails have a slight pretty pink shade. Now I know some people have noticed but only one person has ever said anything, but a lot of the woman I work with are taking way better care of their nails and several now have pretty long acrylic nails. I guess they just don’t want a man to have better looking nails then they do. It was about 5:40 when I was all done and on my way with my pretty nails.

Now Julie had taxed me earlier and she is also going to dinner tonight so I am going to pick her up so I was on my way to her house. I got to her house a little after 6 and she was already. It was great to see her again as she had been on vacation to Australia for 3 weeks. I was looking forward to hearing all about her trip. Now there was a lot of traffic so we got downtown just before 7. We were having dinner at McMenamins tavern & pool, the group has gone here a couple times before but it will be my first time. I really like going to new places.

Melissa and Cassandra were already there. It was good to see them again. Barb also showed up so we had 5 for dinner. Now I do like the bigger group outings as it is always fun to see a lot of girls out but it is harder to talk with all and also when we are at the bars it gets loud. These Wednesday night dinners are a lot of fun as having smaller groups you can really have good conversations which all can be involved in and it is not loud so you can easily hear what is going on. It might just be to many times to bars. We ordered dinner and had a wonderful time. It really was a wonderful night out. We also talked about our Mexican cruise in October of 2018, if you have ever thought about going on a cruise be sure and check out our web page for more information.

It is amazing how fast the night went by and soon it was 9:30 which doesn’t sound that late but I get up a little after 4 am in the morning and it will be at least an hour to get home and in bed but it is so worth it to go out with my friends. Saturday most of our group will be going to Salem to go out with the girls down there, I won’t be able to make it so I will go to the Escape at least for a while for dinner and to see if anyone else stays local.

Thank for reading and be sure to keep up with what I am doing in my most recent blog.

January 18, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Badly needed trip to the nail salon.

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Happy New Year’s everyone, it is hard to believe it is already 2018, seems like we were just worried about y2k (2000). I am currently sitting in Starbucks as I write this blog #999, yes, I am almost at 1,000 blogs. Now I had planned to hit 1,000 before the end of the year but well I ended up getting sick and didn’t get out last week or over the weekend. That also meant I missed getting my nails done last week hence the reason for the trip to the salon today. Today is 3 weeks since my last time getting my nails done and yes, they are on the long side but still looked pretty good till today. I learned that although 3 weeks grow out is okay the fact I have a thin layer of acrylic on my nails they do not hold up when they get too long. Today I broke a corner off the acrylic of one nail leaving a jagged edge and broke part of the actual nail on another finger. As I looked at them closer the reason was at the tips the acrylic was lifting off the natural nail. So, I am caught between getting my nails done every 2 weeks or having thicker acrylic. now I will say that Anna left my nails a little longer last time which also may have played a part. I am learning that having nice pretty nails takes work and care.

\Any way on the way home from work I called Dream nails to see if I could get in today. Anna said sure and wanted to know if I could be there at 4:30. Now I probably could have but if I got caught in traffic I would be late so I played it safe and said 5 so I had my appointment all set. It was a good thing too as I didn’t get home till 4 and still needed to get ready as Susan, I wonder from time to time what they would think if I just showed up as my male self. Well I started getting ready right away. I was all ready by 4:50 and ready to leave. Now my new neighbor, well he has lived there for about 9 months and I have only talked with him a couple times last summer was out in the street with his 2 little kids as they road their bikes in front of their home. Any way I had a nail appointment to get to so I opened the garage door and pulled out. As I turned onto the street he was only a few feet from me and he waved to me so I waved back and was on my way. I got to the nail salon just a little before 5 and went in. They were busy as there were 3 ladies getting their nails done and 4 getting pedicures including a husband and wife and one lady waiting. It took Anna about 5 minutes to finish the lady she was working on and then it was my turn.

I sat down at the table and Anna started to grind off the old gel polish and by the second finger she noticed how bad my nails were lifting. Yes, I was going to get a whole new set which meant removing all the acrylic down to my natural nails which I have not seen since last March, well 1 or 2 nails have had to be done like this but not all of them. It took a little work to remove all the old acrylic and wow my natural nails look horrible. I guess acrylic is hard on your nails, plus they are thin and week as the hard-top layer is gone. Now even with that Anna had to file the top down more to remove all the damage so the new acrylic would adhere. Finally, the nails were prepped and it was time for the acrylic. Now I really do love getting my nails done, it is so relaxing. One by one my nails started to look pretty again and soon all 10 were covered in acrylic and looked long and pretty. Anna asked me if I wanted them shortened and I said yes and with that she ground off the ends till they were short and yes shorter than the last time. I do wish I could have them longer and red but it just won’t work for me now but in 4 weeks I am going to take a week vacation and it is time I just need to use as I have been holding on to it because of my parent health but now it is getting close to the end of my work year and I need to use it. I don’t have any plans other then it will be Susan time and I am hopeful I can get a read color for the week and maybe not shorten them, that would be so awesome. I am looking forward to the fist week of February. Anna did her usual wonderful job; all the ladies here do wonderful jobs on nails. All to soon my nails were done, Anna went with just a clear top coat which was a little disappointing after 12 weeks of that pinkish color, she first use this color back on October 15, but then I thought that was fine as my brother will be in town in a little over a week and I think clear polish will be batter for that.

I left the nail salon and I was hungry so I drove to Panda Express and went in and got something to eat and even they were busy tonight, I had to stand in line. I got my food and sat down and ate like any other customer. I saw a couple people glance over at me but nothing big and for the most part the rest really paid me no attention. Soon a was done and it was time to go to the Starbucks by my house. I got there a little after 6:30 so I would have about an hour. They were also a little busy but most were to go ordered. There were only about 6 other people sitting at tables. I got a hot chocolate and sat at my table and caught up on some e-mails and then of course wrote this blog. It still amazes me that I have wrote 999 blogs about my times going out. Now years ago, I didn’t always write about my tomes out but pretty much for the last years I have been pretty good about it, sometime I combined a couple short outings into one blog but still. This means I have been out as Susan at least 999 time, that is hard to believe as 15 years ago it took all I could do just to go out for a late-night drive. It is fun though to look back at my old blogs, what I did, where I went and with who and of course some of the old pictures. To see how I have grown as Susan and become the lady I am today and of course all my wonderful friends. I would encourage everyone to at least write down some of the major event in your life as over time things become not so clear and some day we all want to look back at least for a little look.

I stayed at Starbuck till 8 when they closed, I was getting ready to leave and the one girl told me I could stay if I wanted as they had a lot of cleanup work to do. I thanked her but I had already put my computer away. I wish I knew her name as she is so nice and always remembers me, I looked and she didn’t have a name tag on. I talked to her for a few minutes as she told me they were changing their hours on the weekend, closing earlier, 7:30 on Saturdays and 6 on Sundays, then a quick trip to the gas station before heading home. It was a fun and relaxing evening. I am not sure I will get out Friday but I plan on going out Saturday night so blog 1,000 is just around the corner. Thanks for reading and keeping up on my life as Susan. Be sure and keep up on my latest outings on my most recent blog.

Have a safe and Happy New Year.

January 4, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | Leave a comment

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