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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday night at the Escape, the last Saturday of 2019

It is the Last Saturday night of 2019 and it has been a good year. Tonight, I once again get to go out as Susan to the Escape and spend time with my friends. Not sure how many will be there but I know Nicole will be there. Tonight, will be my 128th post of 2019 which means I have been out that many times this year, that works out to a little more then twice a week. Now I did want to go out a little early so I hoped to start getting ready earlier but it was almost 4 when I got home so I rushed a little in hopes of being to the Escape by 5:30. Well I was ready and out the door before 5 and got to the Escape about 5:15. Now the table I normally get was taken so I had to sit at one of the high tables with the bar stools not as comfortable as a chair with a back on it. I ordered some food and set up my computer as I waited for Nicole and hopefully others to show up. I had pancakes again tonight and they were good.

It was just about 6 when Nicole showed up and her daughter Marisa was with her. They came down for the night so Nicole could go out as tonight is her 104th time out, she also has a blog that she keeps private but she records her times out. It really is fun to be able to keep track of your times out and what you did, I would encourage everyone to keep a blog or record. Nicole ordered dinner and we sat and talked. Little while later the people at the table I normally get left well except for two ladies at the end playing a game so we moved down there so we could have the more comfortable chairs. We had a nice time and even talked with the two ladies at the end of the table, they were really nice, one of them had small candy canes and gave us each one.

About 7 Melissa showed up so there were 3 of us, 4 if you count Nicole’s daughter. We had a really nice time just sitting and talking. We talked about a lot of stuff including Diva Las Vegas. I was hoping to talk Nicole into going but it is Spring break and she is taking her Family on a vacation. By the way my vacation is confirmed, and my room is booked so I am set. We are staying at the Flamingo this year. Melissa can’t make it this year. Right now, we have Cassandra, Veronica and me going for sure, I am really looking forward to it. By 9 it was getting busy and karaoke started so it got a little loud.

It was a little after 9 and Nicole and her daughter called it a night but I think she will be back in town next Saturday again. Melissa left shortly after that and I stayed till about 9:30 before I left. It was an early night but a lot of fun. This will be my last time out this year. My New year’s resolution for next year is to try to get back to going to Starbucks more often.

I would like to wish you all a Happy, Healthy and safe New Year and may all your dreams come true. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what Susan is doing now.

December 30, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Twas the Saturday before Christmas at the Escape

Twas the Saturday before Christmas and I am once again going to the Escape. I posted in the group in hopes that others would be there. I started getting ready early, my makeup was done with great care as so I would look my best. I was on my way early and got to the Escape about 5:45 and went in. I set up my computer and then up to the counter to order dinner. They were not very busy as it was still early. I settled down at the table to write my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner. I had just finished it when what to my wondering eyes should appear but Jan and Lynn in their cute Holiday outfits. It was great to see them again. I put my computer away so we could talk. A few minutes later Michele also arrived. They all went up and ordered dinner and as I had just finished, I took my computer out to my car.

We talked a little while and Jan asked if I had heard from Cassandra lately and I said no as this is her busy time of year. Well it could not have been more then a minute and in walks Cassandra, what a surprise. Well Cassandra and I got talking about Diva Las Vegas, we are both planning on going although I still have not got the final okay on my vacation yet. But here is the big issue this year. We use to stay at hotels on the strip but they got so expensive as we usually go for 7 to 9 nights and it always includes at least 1 weekend. Last year we stayed downtown at the Four Queens which does not charge resorts fees and for the 9 nights we were there it was a little over $500, the same hotel on the strip would have been between $1200 and $1500. Well Diva Las Vegas is recommending the Flamingo this year and well Cassandra has gone there several times over the year and because of that she is getting her room free so she booked at the Flamingo so now I am wondering how it will work for me. I can book the Sunday through Thursday night there with the group rate Diva worked out but with resort fees and taxes it would be about $550 but Cassandra is getting there the Thursday before so I would also need 3 more nights including a Friday and Saturday so it will be a little more expensive this year.

Well a little later another girl showed up and her and Cassandra played some pool. Now it is funny as in one of my previous blogs I also put another girl showed up and one of our members e-mailed me her name thinking I forgot which was nice but I write this blog for me and my outings. I only put pictures in it of me or of people who say they don’t mind if I use their picture and the same goes for their name. I do have a friend who has asked me not to use her name or pictures and I have to respect that. Her and her girlfriend use to come out with us all the time, she still comes out pretty regular but her girlfriend only comes out rarely now as they moved outside Portland so it is a little farther. She just does not like her picture or name on the internet and that is fine.

As it got close to 9 it got busier and a party bus pulled up and about 20 people got off all in Christmas outfits, I think they are part of the Santa Con that is going on. They go from bar to bar on a bar crawl and they all dress up in Christmas outfits, it really is cute. Well at 9 karaoke started and it got loud and that was it for Cassandra so she called it a night but it was great to see her again. I really do hope she starts coming out more. Now one of the ladies I met her named Cynthia came over and sat with us for a while and talked with us. She is really nice, as I said I have met some really nice people here. Lynn went up and sang a couple times and even got Jan to go up and sing a duet with her, the song Baby it’s cold outside and they did great. There were actually several Christmas songs tonight which was nice as I love Christmas music.

Just before 10 Lauri showed up and it was good to see her as she has missed the last several, she is usually one I can always count on to be here, so we had 7 of us here tonight. It was fun to sing along with the songs. Now as with all thing it must come to an end, I stayed till about 11:30 before paying my bill and calling it a night.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing now.

Just a quick update, Sunday night I decided to check rates at the Flamingo and they had a 20% off sale on rooms so I put in the dates Cassandra booked for March 26th to April 3rd and it was a little over $1188 for those 8 nights. Now I have players cards at all the casinos and I always encourage people who go to Las Vegas to get them as you usually get some discounts, usually discount meals or such. Anyway, I decided to login with my card and check the same dates and using my card I was able to book the same 8 nights for $600.98 taxes and fees included, the funny thing is the rooms charge are $250, Resort fees are $280 and the rest are taxes. I really hate the resort fees as I look at it as a way to hide your total cost, how cane fees be more than the rooms. I also checked Four Queens just to compare and I really do like the Four Queens, but it was little over $550 to stay there also for the same 8 days so it really is not that much more at the Flamingo with my players card. If you go to Las Vegas get the players cards. I am looking forward to Diva Las Vegas and hope to see some of you there.

Have a Merry Christmas everyone

December 24, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Mama Mia Trattoria

It is Wednesday and I can once again start going out again although the next two weeks Wednesdays are Christmas Day and New Years Day so this will be our last Wednesday night dinner of 2019 so I was really looking forward to it. We are going to Mama Mia Trattoria downtown. The group has gone here before a couple times but this will be my first time and I really do like going to new places. Melissa had made reservations for 7. I got home a little earlier so I had time tonight to take my time and enjoy getting ready, there is just something so relaxing about transforming myself. I got downtown about 6:45 and found a parking spot about a block away. It still amazes me how easily I get out of the car now without even really thinking about it.

I got to Mama Mia a little before 7 and they were not busy and Melissa and Danika were already there. We sat and talked as we waited for others to show up. I did take the opportunity to get a quick selfie. It wasn’t long and Barb and another girl showed up and finally Jeanie and her girlfriend Amy so we had 7 of us tonight. We talked for a little bit before we ordered dinner. I of course got the Chicken Parmesan, one of my favorites. Now this is more of a mid-priced place mostly between $20 & $30 but the portions are bigger. We all talked for a while and the big topic was Melissa as she came out to her Mom over the weekend and we were all interested. Well it went really well so we were all happy for that. Then the topic turned to Christmas and New Years and everyone’s plans for the Holidays as this will be the last time, we see each other probably till next year as some are going out of town. I of course will be going to the Escape on Saturday but the girls that come out on Wednesday nights don’t get out very often on the weekends. It is funny as when I first started going out the big night was Friday and now, I don’t think anyone goes out on Fridays. And although we can get some big turnouts on Saturday nights, they can also be very small. Our Wednesday night dinners seem to be our most consistent for turnouts, usually 6 to 10. Who would have thought that years ago that just going to a restaurant for dinner mid-week would turn into our best event?

Our food came and it was really good and again our waiter was really nice and treated us wonderful. It really is nice we can go any place we want and we really do get treated well. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and just enjoyed being out as a group. Now as I said they were not busy so after we ate, we just sat and talked. It turns out Danika, Jeanie and Amy all lived in the same city in Northern California. Our waiter came to see if we wanted dessert and of course we all did but we were all good and passed tonight as with the Holidays we will all be eating a lot of sweets and today at work several people brought in cookie trays and fudge trays and I had to be polite and eat some so I really didn’t want any tonight. I really am trying to limit my sugar intake and eat a little healthier. Any way we all passed and just kept talking till 9 as that is when they close. Now they don’t just kick you out as they have to clean up but we didn’t want to keep them from cleaning up so we all paid our bills and we were on our way.

We all said our goodbyes as we left. Now Barb, Danika and I all parked a block a way in the same direction so we all walked together talking. Just 3 ladies walking down the street. We were all on different corners of the intersection so we all went our separate ways. It is always sad to see these evenings come to an end but with the holidays it will be at least 3 weeks till our next Wednesday night dinner and that makes it especially tough as I really do miss my friends when I don’t get to see them.

It was about 9:45 when I got home and cleaned up and washed all traces of Susan away before bed. N ow I will look forward to Saturday night at the Escape and I really do need to start going to Starbucks again. Probably won’t happen before Christmas but that will be one of my New Years resolutions. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what Susan is doing now.

Just in case I am slow in getting my next Blog out I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy and safe New

December 22, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape December 14th

Well once again I am a week behind on my blog. I started getting ready early as I wanted to get out a little earlier as I can’t stay out to late tonight. I got to the Escape about 5:30 and went in and got my normal table and ordered some food and sat down and wrote my blog from Friday night, we had our Christmas dinner at Jakes Grill. Now I posted in the group I would be here but no one replied so it could be a quiet night although I know Nicole will be here.

It was about 6 when Nicole showed up it was good to see here again, she was out to dinner with us last night at Jakes, she is in town for the weekend. Now it was early and still quiet as it was not busy and no one was playing music so it was easy to sit and talk. Now we got talking about our blogs, Nicole started one when she started going out although hers is private and that is okay. I really think everyone should do a blog, keep it private if you want but it is nice to have a record of what you do or things that are important in your life that you can look back on. Now we both document our times out as it is a way to tell how many times we have gone out. Nicole has been out over 100 times this year so that got me looking at my stats and I also have been out over 100 times this year of course I did Diva Las Vegas so that was 12 days in a row. It is interesting as this will be my second-best year for going out. My best year was 2016 and I am so close to that year but just don’t think I can beat it this year but I should be close. I thought I would post a picture of my stats. In 2016 I had 135 blogs and this year it should be about 130. If you don’t keep a blog (diary) you really should as you can see what you did and what you wore and there are lots of sights that offer free blogs, I like WordPress but find one you like.

It wasn’t long and Michele also showed up so there were 3 of us and that would be all of us tonight but we had a nice time just sitting and talking. I did get a selfie while out tonight. It started getting busy about 8:30 and by the time Karaoke started it was pretty busy and of course it got loud now so it was hard to talk but we still had a good time. Now it is fun to listen to the people sing although there were no Christmas songs tonight which was a little disappointing. I did sing along with some of the songs but never got up to sing tonight as I only do that with someone else.

It was after 10 when we called it a night. Nicole left and I went and paid my bill. As I was paying my bill Melissa came in, she is a lady I met here a while back and usually she comes in with her Husband but tonight she was here with a couple friends so we talked a while before I left. I really have met some wonderful people out as Susan and I am thankful for all of them. It was almost 11 when I got home, a little later than I had planned but it was a fun night.

Thanks for reading and be sure to read my most resent blog to see what I am doing now.

December 21, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night dinner at Jakes Grill

Yes, this week we are mixing it up and doing a Friday night dinner Jakes Grill. I have been busy the last month in a half on Wednesday nights so this week we are doing a Friday night dinner. I like to think it is all about me but in reality, a couple of the girls couldn’t do Wednesday this week and Nicole is in town this week and could also do Friday night so we changed it up a little. This is going to be our Christmas dinner as Christmas is almost here and we are not sure we will be able to do a dinner next week being the week before Christmas and then the next two weeks are Christmas and New Years and this year they fall on Wednesday so this may be our last dinner this year. Now Melissa set this one up, thanks Melissa for making the reservations. Friday and Saturday nights are hard as most restaurants are busy and you really do need to have a reservation and need people to show up. Jakes Grill is a little pricier with dinners mostly between $30 and $60 although they do have a couple things around the $20, not some place I could afford all the time but once in a while it is nice to treat yourself to a really nice meal. I kind of look at it the same way I do when I treat myself to a pedicure or manicure. Now luckily our reservations are for 7:15 which gives me a little more time which I would need tonight.

I got home about 5:50 so it was a rush to get ready, the big thing was my dress which I picked out last night and that always speeds things up. now it was funny as at Who Songs last week I was telling a few of the girls about things I have forgotten getting ready, mostly jewelry but once I did get in my car without my hair and had to go back inside. Now I know you are thinking how can you forget something like that and I will tell you. Over the years I have gotten my routine down and I do things in the same order every time. If I get out of that order then it is easy to miss something. Well tonight was no exception. I got a phone call as I was doing my makeup and when I went back to getting ready, I missed my eyebrows. Not a big thing but I knew it although I doubt if anyone else even noticed. I was on my way at 6:30 and got downtown at 7 and went right for a parking garage as there was a lot of traffic in the city. Now it is only a b lock in a half away from Jakes so not that far so I wore my open toed heels with my dress as they really do look cute with the dress I wore tonight and they only have 3-inch heels. Now for the bad part I had to park on the 5th floor of the parking garage which in it self is not that bad but they are doing work on this garage and to my disappointment the elevators were out of order so I had to walk down 5 flights of stairs. I got to Jakes right at 7:15 and Nicole, Melissa and her wife were already there. As I expected they were busy to so it was good we had a reservation. It wasn’t long and Jennifer and her wife showed up so we had 7 of us tonight.

Now this is the first time our group has gone here and the first time I have ever been here so I was really looking forward to it. I really do love going new places. Our waiter came over and got our drink orders and he was really nice, as always, we got really good service as did all the tables around us. I ordered a steak tonight and it was really good. We all sat and talked and had a wonderful time. I really do like these dinners like this as we get to visit like everyone else here having dinner. It is such a normal thing to do and it can be hard at times to feel that way. I really do feel comfortable as Susan and she really is a big part of my life and for the most part when I am out, I really am not thinking about the fact I am Transgender but it has taken me a long time to feel this way. These dinners really do give the Susan side of my life a normality that I never thought I would find. After we ate our waiter brought the dessert menu and I was good and was not going to have anything till I saw the triple berry cheese cake and I gave in. now it really is not that bad as it had fresh Raspberries, Blueberries and Marion berries on it so I chose to look at it as healthy for the fresh fruit. We actually sat here a long time just talking as it was after 10 when we called it a night well almost did.

Melissa brought up we were only a few block, 4 blocks from Pioneer Courthouse Square where the have the big Christmas tree. Now it may seem funny as I have lived here for over 40 years and have only been to Pioneer Courthouse square maybe a dozen times and never at Christmas so Melissa, her wife, Nicole and I walked down there to check it out. Now yes, I had my heels and had not planned on that much walking but it wasn’t that bad. The worst part were my feet got cold as it was mid 40’s and I had open toed heels and there really is no insulation between your foot and the pavement. Heels are not designed to keep your feet warm, the price of cute shoes. As late as it was there were still a lot of people out down here and we were just part of the crowd.

Now of course being here at this time of year I had to get a picture so Nicol took a few of me with the tree in the background, it’s a big tree so we had to cut some off. I really do need to work on my poses for pictures as I just seem to look so stiff. I really did have on a cute dress but as it was cold, I had to wear my coat but still not a bad picture. B y the way you can see my cute heels and see why my feet were cold. Once I had my pictures, I took some of Nicole also, I mean how often do you get this chance. I asked Melissa if she wanted some pictures and she said no but her wife did so I took some pictures of her wife with the tree in the background and then I talked Melissa into getting some pictures so we all went home with pictures with the tree in the background. Would have been a great place to get a group picture. I really do love this time of year, yes, I am one of those people who would celebrate Christmas year-round and also listen to Christmas music.

Now we had the 4 blocks walk back to the parking garage, yes, we all parked in the same one. Melissa and her wife got a spot on the first floor, I am on the 5th and Nicole is on the 6th. It was a lot of walking in heels and we finished it with me walking up 5 flights of stairs. When we were at the kiosk to pay there was another couple waiting behind us and the lady said she loved my heels but she didn’t do them anymore. I thanked her as I do love getting compliments. We all said our goodbyes although I will see Nicole tomorrow at the Escape and Melissa on Wednesday most likely for dinner. It was almost 11 now so a late night for a dinner night, thankfully it was a Friday night and it would be even later as there was an accident on the freeway so it was like being in rush hour again and then once I got past that they opened the bridge so it took me almost an hour to get home so by the time I got cleaned up and in bed it was almost 12:30. Such a fun night though.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

December 15, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday December 7th at the Escape

Once again, I am a week behind on my blog. It was Saturday and I was able to go out to the Escape again. Now the last month or so I have been really busy and my Susan time has been limited but I am hoping in a week or two things will slow down and I will get more free time to be Susan. I got ready early so I could have as much Susan time as possible. I got to the Escape a little before 6 and went in and got my normal table in hopes other would show up. I ordered dinner and sat down and worked on my blog from Wednesday night dinner. I was just finishing my blog when Jan and Lynn showed up.

Jan and Lynn both had on holiday outfits, Jan’s was a in a cute Santa dress. I put away my computer so we could talk. It was great to see them again. I really do love spending time with my friends. They got a lot of compliments on their outfits tonight. Bobbie also showed up a little later so we had a nice group and it was still early. About 7 Michele also showed up. we all sat and talked and had a nice evening. A little later Michele, another Michele showed up. I met here a while back when her and her wife came to the Escape for a while but this was the first time, I have met her as Michele. It was nice to get to know her as her female self. She lives north of here so she doesn’t get down here that often.

Robin also showed up, I have several friends named Robin, this one I have met a couple times before, she lives in Canada and only gets down here every few years s it was nice to see her again and talk with her. Kris also showed up along with 2 other girls, one named Cam, I think. I have met her before also a while back. It was a nice evening out with my friends.

Karaoke started and of course Lynn and Kris got up and sang. Now Kris asked me to sing with her and said she had put a Christmas song in so I said yes as I love Christmas music. Now it was about 40 minutes till we sang and the song she picked was Oh Holly Night. It was fun to get up and sing with her. still won’t go up and sing by myself but will with other people. Lots of people sang and it was fun to listen but really no Christmas music other than the on Kris and I sang.

I stayed till after 11 before going up and paying my bill and going home. it was a fun night and now I am looking forward to our Christmas dinner. We are going to Jakes Grill for dinner on Friday night. we have 9 signed up for it and Melissa has made reservations so that will be my next chance to be Susan and go out.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

December 14, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry’s

Well it is Wednesday night and I get to go out with my friends for dinner. I have missed several and will miss the next few but tonight I have free. Well last week we decided on Who Song & Larry’s for dinner and as this time of year places can be busy, I posted it to our group last Friday and said I would make reservations Monday night. now I figure we would be okay as the Christmas Ships don’t start till tomorrow and that is when they really get busy. Last year we showed up and almost didn’t get in but we lucked out and they had 1 table open upstairs. Well by Monday we had 12 say they were going including me so I called and made reservations for 12. Well y 10 that night I had 3 more post they wanted to go so I told them I would try to change the reservation on Tuesday which I was able to do so we had a group of 15 of us going. I think that is our biggest night at Who Song & Larry’s.

Well I got home a little early so I had time to get ready and enjoy the experience of becoming Susan. I was ready by 6, our reservations are not till 7 and it only takes me 15 minutes or less to get there so I waited till about 6:10 before leaving and just figured I would be early and could wait in the bar for others to show up and our table to be ready. It was about 6:20 when I got there and their parking lot was surprisingly empty. I parked almost right in front and started in when I herd my name. Nicole must have arrived at the same time so we walked in together. I checked in and gave the lady my name and she said our table was ready and we could be seated so Nicole and I skipped the bar and just went to our table to wait for the others. It was nice as it gave us a chance to talk. Now I am guessing people are waiting for the Christmas ships as there was only one table with 2 people at it and that was it. We ordered drinks and I got some bean dip as they have really good bean dip, I could make a meal out of it. It was about 6:50 when others started to show up, Melissa, Barb, Jan, Lynn, Jennifer, Ricki, Judy, Dawnie, Ellie May, April and then finally Trisha and Danika in all, all 15 showed up. by now the other 2 people had left so it was just us but that wouldn’t last long. A couple woman came in and were seated at a booth and then a man and woman came in and they were seated by the windows. One of the girls got a group picture which was nice as I forgot. Now with that I did get a selfie which is below.

Well we all ordered dinner, I really wasn’t that hungry as the girls really didn’t help me that much with my bean dip so I ate most of it. Our waiter was wonderful we have had him the last several times we have come here. He usually does our order by memory but we had a much bigger group then last time. We all had a wonderful time talking but with such a big group I couldn’t talk with everyone which was sad, that is the only thing bad about such a big group. I had 2 to my right and 5 to my left. I did make sure I said hi to everyone as they came in. I really do want everyone to feel welcome and comfortable when they come out with the group. Our food started coming out and it took both our waiter and another young man to bring it all out. Actually, our waiter brought the first tray out and then as he was serving us the other man kept bringing trays.

We had a wonderful dinner and it really never did get busy as a matter of fact I think it was just us and the 2 other groups of 2 tonight so I am sure. We finished eating and then sat and talked more, it was just such a nice evening. It was after 9 and a few of the girls called it a night, it was sad to see them leave but we were able to move closer so we could all talk better. One of the ladies from upfront came back to thank us for coming in, not sure if she was the manager or just in charge tonight but she was really happy we were there and she remembered we came last year. Our group was probably most of their business tonight. It was about 9:30 when we all left and went home.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life

December 7, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments


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