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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday night at Escape a little quiet and an update about my vacation

It is Thursday evening and I finally get time to write my blog from last Saturday. I was able to go out and I was looking forward to it as this coming week I will be really busy so I started getting ready early to get a little more time. Now it is the Saturday before Halloween and I did think about wearing a costume but instead just went with a different color of hair. I was ready by a little after 5 and got there about 5:30 and got a couple pictures in the car before going in. I don’t wear this hair very often as I just not sure how it looks on me. I really need to do a darker foundation to make it look right. Now I also wore my tight short little black dress and yes, I had my corset on to give me all the right curves.

I walked in and Melissa one of the employees told me how nice I looked and she loved my hair and I got the same from Trixie. Now I always love to get compliments. Well I set up my computer and ordered some food, I had pancakes again this week. I sat down and was pleasantly surprise as Rachael came over and sat down to talk to me, she was in male mode tonight. Now I saw and talked to her briefly a few weeks ago as she was leaving when I got there, also in male mode but tonight we were able to talk for a while. I think I met her back in late 2006 or early 2007 when I was lucky to get out a couple times a year. She is hoping to get out as Rachel again maybe in the next few weeks. Well she finally had to leave and I was once again by myself at the table.

Now they had the Washington Cougars, Oregon Ducks football game on one TV and the world Series on the big screen which is more what I was watching. Now 2 ladies came over and asked if they could sit at the table and watch the football game so I said sure as it was nice to have someone else at the table as I worked on my blog and watched the game. Well we actually got talking, turns out one of them is a Cougars fan and the other a Ducks fan. It was nice to talk with them and I really do enjoy meeting new people. At 9 Karaoke started and they turned off the Football game so they moved to the bar to watch the game on the TV in the corner. Now it was getting busy and was after 9 and still no one from our group tonight. I listened to the singers and figured I would stay till at least 10 to see if Lauri showed up.

Soon it was 10 and still no one else made it out tonight so about 10:15 I called it a night and went up to the bar and paid my bill. 2 ladies at the bar started talking to me and told me how nice I looked, actually what they said was they had noticed my shape (curves) ad thought I had the perfect figure, hips, waist and shoulders. I thanked them and admitted I had a corset on and they said they were wondering but I looked wonderful. We talked for a while before I left, it was actually a fun night.

Now I was hoping to go to dinner Wednesday night but got home late and just couldn’t make it so I was a little disappointed especially since I won’t make it out this coming Saturday. I actually have next week off work and when I originally took it off my plan was to spend the whole week as Susan but now things have come up and I will get a lot of Susan time but I will have time I won’t be able to see Susan. my plan was to go to the nail salon and get a manicure and polish put on my nails for the week. For the last few weeks I have been using OPI nail envy hardener and letting my natural nails grow and they are looking great and a little long. Well on my way home Wednesday my low tire light came on and unfortunately you don’t know which tire so I had to check them all and make sure all were full which is not easy when it is dark and yes you guessed it; I broke 2 nails. I was devastated and I can only think it was because of the length. So today at work I was trying to decide what to do with my nails. Well today at work I yet broke another nail, my 3rd in two days. So tonight, I got home and filed all my nails down. Now they still look nice but they are only 1/8 of an inch maybe instead of the ¼ inch they were. They would still look nice with polish but now I am thinking about getting acrylics for the week. I can get them done on Sunday afternoon and could keep them till Friday night although during the week there are a couple things I have to do as my male self but my hands wouldn’t really be visible so I am thinking about it. After all years ago I would get them done on a Friday night and removed on Sunday afternoon. Either way I will be at the nail salon Sunday for either a manicure and red polish or Acrylic nails.

If I do Acrylics, I have narrowed it down to 2 options. What I am kind of thinking is the French fade and then red polish over it. That way I can have the red I love and later in the week when I have things I have to do as my male self I
could remove the red polish to just the French fade for the rest of the week. Yes, I am leaning to the Acrylics. So, I will put it out, if I do get them this Sunday which one do you my readers think I should get?

October 31, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Old Spaghetti Factory

It is once again Wednesday night and that means dinner with my friends. I really like our Wednesday night dinners as it is such a wonderful social event. I get to go out as Susan like any other woman and have a nice dinner and wonderful conversation with others like me. Now this week I got home late about 5:45 so it would be a rush as it will take me 30 minutes to get there as we are going to the Old Spaghetti Factory on the South waterfront. I started getting ready as soon as I got home and had decided on the dress, I would wear on my way home. I was all ready and pulling out of my garage at 6:22, yes it was a rush so I couldn’t take the time I like to enjoy the experience of getting ready. I got to the end of my street and realized I forgot my bracelets and ring. Now it is funny as a male I don’t like wearing jewelry of any kind not even a watch but as Susan I just don’t feel right so I turned around and went back as it would only delay me a couple minutes. I baked into my drive but didn’t bother with the garage door as I figured it would be fast. I went in and got my jewelry and came back out. Now I walked back out to my car but didn’t see anyone. This is the second time now I have forgot something and went back home and just parked in the drive. I was back on the road and my GPS was telling me it would be 7:15 when I got there but I was hoping traffic wasn’t that bad and I was right. I actually got to the Old Spaghetti factory about 6:50. I parked and got out of my car to go in, it is funny as I didn’t even hesitate.

Melissa must have gotten there about the same time as we met in the parking lot walking in so we went in together. Melissa had made reservations as some time they can be really busy but that was not the case tonight. We checked in and said we would wait for more of our group as we had 8 reply they would be here tonight. A couple minutes late Barb and Kris showed up and we were shown to our table. A couple minutes later Danika showed up and so did Ricki, Ricki’s wife usually come out with her but wasn’t feeling well tonight. So, we only had 6 for dinner but that is still a good turnout as I remember when I first started going out a good turnout on a Friday or Saturday night and a LGBT club was 6 to 8 and now, we get that for a midweek dinner most weeks. Our group and members have come a long way in the last 10 years.

Our waitress came and took our orders and she was wonderful. I know I say it all the time about the service we get but it really is how we are treated; we seem to always get great service no matter where we go. Now they really do have great food here but I am Parshall to their Chicken Parmesan which is wonderful so that is what I ordered. Now I did get a quick selfie as I didn’t take the time in the car to get one.

Now as I said they were not that busy but there were some other people at the tables around us and for the most part no one seemed to pay us any attention although there was one man at a table about 20 feet away and I noticed he kept looking over at our table. He didn’t seem bothered by us and I don’t think he said anything to the couple he was with as I never once saw them look at us and it got me wondering what he was thinking. The lighting in here is dime so was he trying to figure out if we were male or female as really all the girls had their backs to him except for myself and Barb, or maybe he was thinking he would like to be able to dress like us. Years ago when we were in Diva Las Vegas Julie and I got talking to a couple young men at a Crap Table and they seemed fine with us and when they left about 10 minutes later one of the men came back and told us how great it was we were out and that he was a crossdresser but had never gone out so you never know. Any way like I said the man other then looking over at me several times didn’t seem to have a problem with us I think maybe he was just curious.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner and such good conversation. It was great to talk with all my friends; some I know really well and some I am still getting to know but they are all wonderful. Soon it was almost 9 and that is the bad thing about coming here as they close at 9. Now we have stayed longer and talked and they have never said anything buy I feel bad when we do that as I am sure they want to get things cleaned up and go home so we try not to stay late. So as much as we hated to see the evening come to an end at 9 we left. Now I will look forward to Saturday night when I can go to the Escape.

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October 26, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and some unexpected Susan time

Well it is Sunday and I have been trying to go to Starbucks’s as Susan for a few hours to write my blogs but today I had some things I needed to do at home so that was my plan. I figured I could do a little so I went a head and put on mascara and eye shadow and a little lipstick and then it was to do some stuff around the house. Well as I was cleaning, I came across my corset which I haven’t worn in a while and I figured I would put it on and see how it affected the things was doing. So now I had my corset on and of course now I had to put on a bra. Now I got thinking as the corset is always the last thing I put on as it really does limit what you can do as far as bending over. So, I slowly changed from my male cloths to some Susan clothes and my ankle boots and yes, it is harder than you think in a corset. So, as I went back to what I was doing I was really thinking about Susan. now I have seen videos of woman who do their eye makeup first and then their foundation and the rest of their makeup and I have never tried that and as I stood there Infront of the mirror I was almost ready to go out as Susan so I decided to see if I could do my make up without messing up my eye makeup or lipstick so the challenge was on. Of course, first had to shave and bending over with the corset on was not easy. Well to my surprise I was able to do the rest of my make up and the only issue was a little on my lipstick but tat was an easy fix with just a little more lipstick. So yes, you can do your eye makeup first. So now I was all ready and looked good and suddenly doing the things around my house didn’t seem as important. It was Starbucks time, I will go early and come home earlier and finish what I started.

I grabbed my purse and computer off the couch and off I went to Starbucks. It was only 2:30 so a lot earlier than I normally go and I wondered how busy they would be. Now I was about half way there when I thought about that and looked at my computer in my bag next to me and realized I had it at the escape last night and never recharged it and I don’t take my power cord to the Escape because there is no place really to plug it in. so I turned around and went back home to get it. I backed into my drive and parked and got out and went in through my front door. I didn’t see any of my neighbors and I would be quick and besides as much as I come and go, I figure most have seen me or at least this woman driving my car. I got my power cord and walked out the front door and across the street one house to the left the lady there was also walking out to her car. She looked at me and waved and I just waved back. Now I really don’t know her as she keeps to herself as do I and it was a way off so I am thinking if she doesn’t already know she at this distance it wouldn’t make a difference.

I got to Starbucks and went in and it was packed. All the tables along the windows were taken, the one big long table was full and all of the small tables were taken as was the front counter and the back counter there was only 2 seats available. I literally had my choice of two seats. Believe it or not there was even a couple sitting at a table outside. This is the busiest I have ever seen it so I put my computer on the back counter by the door and went and stood in line to get my drink and as I did I kind of looked around and counted the people. There were 53 people in here. I got my drink and got my computer going and yes the first thing I noticed was my battery was at 16% so it could be a short day here as the only places to plug in your computer is the front counter or the 3 tables along the window or maybe the big chairs in the corner. I had to hope someone would leave.

I worked on my blog from Saturday night and kept watching my battery go down. I got the warning at 10% and it was still just as crowded. I was down to 5% and that is normally when my computer shuts down and today was no different. My screen went black. I was really looking around now and the two young girls at the table by the window looked like they were getting ready to leave so I pulled out my cell phone and used that, I figured I could kill a few minutes and see if they were leaving. It was about 5 minutes and they got up and left. Normally I wait a little before I change tables but as crowded as it was, I didn’t want to miss my chance so as they were going out the door I grabbed my purse and drink and move it over to that table and then my computer and plugged it in. and it was just in time as I had no more then moved over and another lady came in with a computer, looked around and took the seat I had just been in.

I finished my blog and got it posted and it pretty much stayed busy till about 4:30 when people started to leave well two big groups. There was a group of 9 at the big long table and 10 at 3 of the small tables they had pulled together. I spent a little time catching up on more e-mails, I still have a few girls I wanted to reach out to and see how they are doing. Now I took a selfie in my car before going inside and I took a couple inside. I don’t know what the lighting is in Starbucks but I have never gotten a picture inside a Starbucks that looked good. I held the phone at the same angle, and same distance. Ii am also looking forward to some vacation time, I have the first week of November off although I do have things both weekends, I have to do so really it is just Monday through Friday but there will be some Susan time. I don’t think I will get acrylic nails for that but I am really thinking about getting a manicure and some red polish. I have been taking care of my nails and using a nail hardener on them and they look really nice right now. About an 1/8 of an inch and if I can go two more weeks without shortening them, they should look really nice with polish.

I stayed here till about 5:30 before going and getting gas for my car and then getting something to eat. Stopped at Subway and got something to take home. it was only a few hours out as Susan but it was so relaxing.

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October 21, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night and yes, I am going to the Escape

It once again is Saturday and I will be going to the Escape. I pretty much go here every week as I know someone from our group almost always shows up. I have said it many times as much as I enjoy going out as Susan what makes it all the more special is being able to meet up with my friends. Now I do have my alone time when I go to Starbucks for a couple hours but that is more to get caught up on my blogs and e-mails. Now I was able to get home early so I went a head and started getting ready and just figured I would get to the Escape early. I took my time to enjoy my transformation to Susan and now with my makeup done it was time to get dressed. Now I have been wearing warmer dresses but tonight I really wanted to wear my grey dress with sparkles, the problem is it is sleeveless and if they have the air conditioner on, I will be cold but I figured I would take the chance. I was all dressed and, on my way, and got to the Escape about 5:30 and still had to park out on the street. I did bring my coat tonight as it has been raining hard all day. now I did get my selfie in the car before I went in.

I got inside and they were actually pretty busy for as early as it was but I did get 1 of the two big tables and I was happy it was warm inside. I ordered food, I would call it dinner but I had eggs bacon and pancakes. Now I started on my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner at Who Song & Larry’s. this is one of the advantages of getting here early as most of the girls who do come early don’t get here till 6:30 or so with the exception of Nicole when she is in town. She also likes to get here early before it gets loud. With my blog done I moved on to catching up on some e-mails. I am trying harder to keep in touch with girls I don’t see as often and on the top of my lost was Sindee. She came out a few times a year ago but hasn’t made it out since last winter. I know she is busy as we all get that way but I also know how hard it is to figure out what being trans means and how it fits in your life.

For me I knew at about 5 or 6 I was different then most boys as a matter of fact at that time I thought I was the only boy who felt as I did. I loved how girls and woman looked and dressed and the cloths and makeup they got to wear. At that age I didn’t understand why I felt that way and I don’t want to date myself but this was way before the internet was even a thought. I kind of looked in Libraries for information on how I felt and even there it was very limited information. What if could find were a couple books on being a transsexual and also being Gay. Now I wasn’t at all attracted to boys so that ruled out being Gay and I really didn’t look at my body as being wrong, I just wanted to look pretty and wear makeup and especially nail polish. It wasn’t till I was in high school I herd the term crossdresser and that seemed to be what best fit how I felt so I at least knew who I was. But I would fight it for many years stopping dressing and purging things only to go back to it. It really wasn’t till my mid 40’s that I came to terms with who I was and accepted it and that was impart because of some wonderful friends I made. Now in my mid 50’s I view myself as transgender but not transsexual and by that I mean I do have a definite feminine side and if truth be told I am most comfortable in my female side but I don’t think there is anything wrong with my body and have no desire to have surgery. Yes, if I won a bunch of money tomorrow and never had to worry about money or work, I would spend most of my time as Susan. I would pierce my ears and have acrylic nails, probably long ones and probably red at least most of the time. I might grow my hair out and I might have electrolysis. But there would still be time I would want and need to be my male self. It took me 50 years too get to this point and my life is so much better now as I am comfortable and know who I am.

Any way ii was just finishing that up and Jan & Lynn showed up, it was great to see them. Shortly after that Michele and Bobbie showed up so we had a nice small group and it was actually pretty busy in here still as they har the Portland Timbers game on and they are in the playoff so there were a loot of people here watching that. Yes, I watched some Soccer on TV. Now this is the funny part, I will watch Baseball at home on my TV as I do like Baseball but that is pretty much it and I never went to a bar as my male self to watch sports well maybe a couple times in Reno I would sit in one of the casino sports bar with friends. As Susan though I have gone to bars to watch Football, Basketball and yes now soccer. Who would have thought I needed to be female to enjoy watching sports?

Soon it was 9 and time for Karaoke, they did leave the game on the big screen as it was under 10 minutes left and it was tied and being a playoff game, the winner goes on and the loser’s season is over. Kris also showed up, she will be moving for a year next week and this will be her last Saturday night here for a while. I think she will make this coming Wednesday night dinner though. Well with 5 minutes left Salt Lake scored and took the lead and the Portland Timbers could not score and lost 2 to 1 so their season is over. Now it was after 9 and it was still warm inside so I was really happy I wore this dress. I don’t wear it that often as it has on bad point. It is grey but all the silver you see is little silver specks and they fall off everywhere. I got up to get a drink and my seat was all sparkly as were my ankle boots and purse and I imagine my drivers’ seat in my car. Last time I wore this dress I had to vacuum my car seat to get it all off.

Now it was a really busy night and a couple girls here came over and talked to us, one told me how pretty I looked and she loved my dress and that made me feel so nice. Rose and her boyfriend showed up a little before 10 it was great to see her again and I got too talk with her a little but as it was so busy, they had to sit at another table. Lauri also showed up at 10 so we actually had a good size group tonight. It was about 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night. as I was getting ready to leave Diane showed up. I kid Lauri all the time about being our late-night girl but really that honor goes to Diane. Most of the time when she comes out it is 11 to 11:30 before she gets here. I talked with her briefly before I left.

Now on the drive home which I normally don’t talk about but tonight I will. I was on the freeway going across the bridge which has 5 lanes on it. I was in the 3rd lane from the right almost ready to pass the car in the second lane when a car came by me and he must have been doing 80 or more and cut between us forcing me to hit my breaks. I still don’t know how he got through there without hitting either me or the car just ahead of me to the right. Now there were no cars in the left two lanes and that is where I thought he was going but instead he pulled right Infront of the car to my right now forcing him to hit his breaks and before he could hit the car in front of him he went to the far right lade and slammed into the side of another car almost pushing him into the jersey barrier. That car slowed down to stop but the other car kept going so the car that got hit went after him. I don’t know what happened after this as about 2 miles down the road both cars took the off ramp. I am guessing the driver of the one car was drunk and instead of stopping fled which is hit and run. It was a close call though.

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October 20, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song and Larry’s

It is Wednesday and once again I get to go out as Susan and have dinner with my friends. This really is a wonderful thing that 10 years ago I never would have thought possible. Now we picked Who Song and Larry’s in hopes Julie could join us one last tie before she heads south for warmer weather for the winter but she had an early flight and wouldn’t be able to make it which was sad but she will be with us in spirit. I got home late from work so I started getting ready right away as I wanted to get there a little early as they have awesome homemade chips and I love their bean dip so I figured I could get there early and get our name in for a table and have a snack. I was ready about 6:15 and since it only takes about 15 minutes to get there, I would be early. I texted Melissa to confirm how many we had, counting e-mails I figured 5 or 6. Melissa texted back that she had made reservations for 5. I got there and usually parking is bad but not tonight so I got a spot almost right in front. I went in and checked in and then went to the bar to get my drink and some chips with bean dip.

Melissa showed up about 10 minutes later and then barb. It was about 6:50 when the girl came and said our table was ready although I think we could have gotten it faster if we asked as they were not busy tonight, everyone was back in the big room and that is where our table was also. There were a lot of people back here including one big group of maybe 20, turn out it was a birthday party for a young girl about 10 or 12, all the kids were eating at the end of the table closest to us and the adults the other end of the table. Kris showed up right at 7, it was nice to see her out as this maybe one of the last times we see her for a while. She is moving up to the Seattle area for a year for schooling. The last to show was Jamie, she is a member of our group who lives in Arizona, I met here at Diva Las Vegas back in 2018. She has followed my blog for years and we e-mailed some and when we were at Diva Las Vegas we met and hot it off and she joined our group as she travels for work. Well this week she is in town working and got to join us. It was so nice to see her again and get to talk with her. now I did get a few pictures with her later in the evening, this was the best.

We all talked for a while before we ordered. Our waiter who we have had several times before was awesome as always. Now the staff came out to sing happy birthday to the young girl at the next table so we all joined in with everyone to sing to her. We went back to talking, well about 10 minutes later the birthday girl came over and gave Jamie a big cupcake as they had extra and wanted to know if she wanted it. Jamie accepted and thanked her; it was so sweet. Now besides our waiter we had another young man who would come by and see if we needed anything and I think it was even the Manager stopped by one time to see if we needed anything and if we did just let him know. Now I always joke about the wonderful service we always seem to get, any way one of the moms at the next table was standing there and after he left she smiled at me and said wow you ladies seem to get the best service so I guess it was not just my imagination.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and I took several pictures of all f us and texted them to Julie as she missed tonight. Of course, one of the pictures had to be a selfie of me. Our food was

wonderful and we just had a wonderful night out. After we ate Jamie shared her cupcake with all of us and it was really good. We sat and talked for a while and got to hear about the group in Arizona Jamie belongs to. they go out pretty regular but not as mainstream of places as we do. Our group really has grown over the last 12 years from just one LGBT club, to a few different ones, to just picking a restaurant and going. Portland metro area really is accepting and we can pretty much go where ever we want with no problems and that is such a wonderful thing.

It was now 9 and people were leaving and the big group went by and a some of them told us goodbye and the one that I had talked with before about the service told us how nice we looked and wished us a goodnight. That made the evening. Now they are open till 10 but soon we found we were the only ones left inside just sitting there talking. It was about 9:45 when we called it a night, the lady at the front desked thanked us for coming in and told us to come back. Now we have been coming here for years, and I am not sure but this might be the one we have gone to for the longest that we still go to. The first time we went here as a group for in December of 2009 for our holiday dinner. I have even met Peggy once here for dinner years ago.

Well we all said our goodbyes which is always hard, I won’t see Jamie again till Diva Las Vegas, yes at this point I am planning on going and so is she. I would have liked to get together with her again before she left but the only night, she had open was Friday night and I had something I just couldn’t get out of. We left and went our separate ways and it was a little after 10 when I got home and washed away all the traces of Susan and went to be.

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October 19, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday Susan time and a much-needed pedicure.

It is Sunday and I get to have a little Susan time and the first thing I need is a pedicure. The polish on my toes are chipping off pretty bad and they look bad of course this time of year I don’t show them off but I see them and that is bad enough. Now I know it has been awhile so I looked back through my blog to see when I got my last pedicure and it was July 14th 3 months ago. I started getting ready early so I could get out early. I was ready by 3:15 and now I had a decision to make. Where do I go to get my pedicure? Now the last couple times I went to Natural nails and they are nice and do a great job but very quiet and they really don’t talk to you, and it just not me I have noticed it is very quiet in there. The other option is Dream nails where I was going. I went there almost every 2 to 3 weeks for over 2 years and it really is a wonderful place and all the girls knew me and talked to me. I really want to go back to Dream nails but wonder what they would think as it has been about 15 months since I was there last and I would not be going as often as I use to. well in the end I called Natural nails and made an appointment for 3:30.

I got there right at 3:30 and went in and they were ready for me. Now usually when I go to the nail salon most are getting pedicures bit not today. There were 5 women in their all getting fills on their nails and I was the only one there for a pedicure. I picked out a really pretty red and sat down. Now today I had a young man do my pedicure, this salon is actually owned by a man and there are a couple of them working here. Now I have had men do my nails before and they really do, do a good job. Now getting a pedicure is just so wonderful and relaxing it really is one of life’s simple pleasures. I got the Tropical deluxe with lavender cream. It took about an hour. Now 2 other ladies came in and they both wanted nail fills, I was almost done when a couple ladies came in to get pedicures. Now with my toes paint I just had to wait a little for them to dry before I left, of course I had to get a quick picture, such a pretty color.

I left the salon about 4:45 with my beautiful toes and headed for Starbucks. I got to Starbucks and they were not busy at all so I had my choice of parking spots right in front of the door. There were only 4 people in there so I set my computer on a table by the window and went up to order my drink. The young man at the counter remembered me from last week by name which made me feel good. I ordered my drink and I broke down and also got a cookie. Now we talked for a few minutes and he asked me about my day so I told him I had just come from getting a pedicure. He said that sounded wonderful and he should get one. I told them they really are wonderful and he asked where I went so, I told him about both places depending on if he wanted really quiet and relaxing or a little more conversation. I got my drink and sat down at my table and started on my blog from last night at the Escape. I also got a selfie in the car.

I spent about 2 hours here doing my blog, catching up on e-mails and just surfing the internet. It is one of the great things about the internet as you can take your computer any place and have something to do and even get work done and for me that means I can go and be Susan. It was almost 7 when I left and once again as I was leaving the young man wished me a good night by name. Starbucks really does have wonderful employees. I have gone to so many different ones over the years and in every one I have been treated wonderful. I stopped picked up a hamburger from Jack in the box on my way home since I didn’t have one last night. It was a relaxing fun day and my toes look awesome.

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October 15, 2019 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape they had a drag show

It is Saturday and yes that means going to the Escape tonight. I have said many times Susan is a big part of who I am but she is not all of who I am. I need both my male and female side to feel complete. Now my male side is never a problem fitting in but Susan can be sometimes and when I have to go for a time without letting her out it does have an impact on me and how I feel and so I try to express that side of me on a regular basis. I try to go out every Saturday night and for Wednesday dinners and I am trying to get back into my Sunday afternoon at Starbucks. I really need at least once a week of Susan time but twice is better. There really is something calming and relaxing about being able to express part of who you are when you for the most part have to hide it especially when you hid it completely for most of your younger life. That being said I was looking forward to tonight. I actually got done with my stuff early and so I got to start getting ready early which gave me time to enjoy my transformation to Susan. I was actually ready and, on my way, by a little after 5 and got to the Escape about 5:30. Being early I did find 1 spot open in front so I took it. I got a quick selfie in the car before going in.

They had the two big tables reserved for a birthday party so I took one of the smaller tables and set up my computer and then ordered dinner, well tonight I had their breakfast, eggs, bacon ad pancakes. I worked on my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner till my food came. The table I was at was small so I had to put my computer away while I ate. Once I finished eating, I went back and finished my blog and posted it. Just as I was posting it Michele showed up so once I was done, I took my computer out to my car as I really had no place for it with other people at the table. I sat and talked with Michele a little till Bobbie showed up. Well I am not sure what happened but Trixie said one of the big tables was open and took down the reserve signs so we moved over there, way pore comfortable sitting in a chair with a back at a big table then on a hi bar stool where your feet don’t touch the ground. Now we noticed a Drag Queen on the other side and soon a few more showed up. Well it turns out this weekend the Imperial Sovereign Rose Court of Oregon was electing their 61 Rose Empress, yes Portland I think is the oldest event like this. Well one of the girls running for Rose Empress got some of her friends and they are here tonight to do a drag show and yes campaign for her. She was really nice and came around and met everyone. I wish I could remember her name, any way she was encouraging everyone to go to Darcelle’s on Sunday and vote. I probably would have but I don’t live in the right counties. Any way the show went from a little after 7:30 till about 8:30 and it was pretty good. I think they had 10 or 12 performers. It was pretty busy at this point as there were a lot of people who came in for this.

Kris also showed up as di Lee and her sister. It was early summer the last time I saw Lee out so it was good to see her again and tall with her and so wonderful her sister is supportive of her got a good chance to talk with them and got to know her sister a little, they are both wonderful people. I really like this part of going out. A little later 3 of Lee friends showed up all female and young. For someone who doesn’t get out much she sure has some supportive friends. Karaoke started and it got loud, yes, the table we were at was right under one of the speakers so it was hard to talk but it was still fun. As it got close to 10 Lauri showed up as did another girl from our group so we had a pretty good turnout tonight. We had a fun night and as always it went by way to fast. Before I knew it, it was 11:30. It was sad to see the night come to an end so I paid my bill and said my goodbyes. Now Lee, her sister and friends were also leaving but they were going someplace else. I remember the days when I stayed out late, I just can’t do it anymore. So, as they prepared to go somewhere else, I got in my car and headed home for a date with my bed. I don’t think of it as being old I just call it prioritizing my lifes needs.

I will be out tomorrow on Sunday for some Starbucks time and Susan time and then I will be looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner. I really think going out Wednesday and Saturday is the perfect balance as the most I have to go is 3 days without being Susan and that keeps both my male and female sides happy and healthy.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life. Have a wonderful Columbus Day Monday especially if you have it off work.


October 13, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday dinner at Amaro’s table in Vancouver

It is Wednesday and once again I get to have dinner with my friends and tonight we are going to Amaro’s table in Vancouver. I so look forward to these outings as not only do I get some much-needed Susan time but I get to spend time with my friends. Now we have gone here several time before and as always, we are always treated wonderful and the food is really good. Julie actually found this place for us to go. Our group has come a long way over the years from just going to Embers to going to a few other LGBT clubs, to going to Harvey’s Comedy club, to doing Wednesday night dinners at a few places and now that has grown to Maybe 10 to 12 places we go on a regular basis and we are looking for new places to go as we branch out into the world.

Now tonight I got home later then normal about 5:45 so it would be a rush, luckily tonight’s dinner is not far and will only take me less than 15 minutes to get there. I started getting ready at 5:50, I had just started and Julie texted me to see what time I would be there. Now I love my Susan time and I love getting ready and doing my makeup even when I have to rush but I really enjoy it more when I can take my time but tonight time was short. On the way home I had decided what dress I would wear and that is always something that slows me down as I almost never wear the first thing I pick. I texted Julie I hoped to be on my way by 6:30 and sure enough I was leaving home at 6:30. It took me a little over 10 minutes to get there and then it was finding a parking spot. Now normally when we have come here, I have not had an issue but tonight was different I drove around the blocks 3 times before I saw someone backing out about a block away so I parked and walked to Amaro’s table.

Now Melissa had called and made reservations as this is a small place, the bad thing was they only had 2 big tables and both were reserved so we would be split up as we have 9 that confirmed for tonight. I walked in and Melissa, Jan and Lynn were already there and to my surprise they had one of the big tables. Turns out one of the other groups canceled so we would all be able to sit together which is nice. I picked a seat towards the middle o the table so I could talk with everyone. Julie showed up next and it was great to see her, this may be her last Wednesday night dinner as she leaves for warmer weather early next Thursday, yes, we are trying to talk her into one last Wednesday dinner before she goes. Our waitress came over to get my drink order and told me what cute boots I had on, I wore may ankle boots tonight and she said several of the girls noticed them when I came in, of course I thanked her. I really do love getting compliments on how I look, it just makes you feel good inside. Barb and Kris were the next to show up, it was great to see both of them. It has been over a month since Kris has been out. It as just a few minutes after 7 when April and Dawnie showed up, they live south of Portland and had a 1 ½ hour drive to get here. They have come out with the group now several times so all 9 of us were here. Now I did get a quick selfie.

We talked for a little bit before we ordered. I of course ordered my normal dinner here, yes, I have my favorites at all the places we go and I tend to stick to them. I guess I am a little predictable. I had their classic fried chicken which is really good and comes with mashed potatoes and a honey butter to put on them, so good. We talked as we waited for dinner and I got a chance to talk some with April and Dawnie which was nice as I don’t know them that well. I really do enjoy talking with people and getting to know them when I am out as Susan.

Our food came and it was awesome and our waitress was wonderful her name was Haleigh. She was just so nice and treated us wonderful. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation, just a wonderful night out made special with my friends. Now it was time for dessert which I am trying to cut out so I passed but a few of the girls ordered some and shared it so I did have a few bites. We sat and talked till after 9:30 before we called it a night. it really was fun and I am looking forward to next weeks dinner and seeing my friends again. We all said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. It really is funny as I need a couple days a week as Susan to keep balance in my life. My female side really is a big part of my life and who I am, you could say she makes my life complete.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 12, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

A nice fall Sunday and some Susan time at Starbucks.

Now today was a beautiful fall day, clear skies and upper 60’s and yes I wanted some Susan time but I also had things I had to do around home to get ready for the winter one of which was my yard so I wasn’t sure I would get my Susan time. I went out to do my yard work and I really pushed it in hopes of Susan time. It was about 3 when I finished and came in dirty, and hot and so I needed a shower and I figured as long as I had to get cleaned up, I might as went get made up and go to Starbucks. It was about 4:20 when I was all cleaned up and looking pretty so off to Starbucks, I went to have some Susan time and get caught up on my blogs as I am behind on two of them. Starbucks wasn’t really busy as I think most people are out enjoying the weather. I got my drink and set up my computer and wrote my blog from last Wednesday night dinner at Rock Bottom.

Now before I started my Saturday blog I had a lot of e-mails to catch up on, a few girls I know are going to be in Portland this week and also next week and were wondering about getting together with our group so I sent them e-mails as I am sure we will do a Wednesday night dinner both weeks. I have known both for several years and they are both wonderful people and I always look forward to seeing them. One I only know from Diva Las Vegs and she couldn’t make it last year the other her and her wife comes to Portland every so often and it is always great to get together with them. As I said I have made some wonderful friends as Susan. It really is hard to believe how wonderful of a life I have with Susan in it.

Well I got through all my e-mails and that took some time. I also reached out to the girl I was hoping would make it last night as I really hope she can make it out and I really want to help her. years ago, I had a few people who really helped me when I was first going out. They showed me so much support and kindness and I don’t think I would have made it out without them. I could never repay them for their kindness but I hope by helping others I am in some way repaying them.

With all that done it was time to write my blog from Last night at the Escape. I got that one all done but will wait till tomorrow to post. I have a lot of people who get my blog by e-mail and I don’t want them to get them to close together as I don’t want them to feel I am spamming them. So, with that blog done and save on my computer for posting tomorrow now I have time to just relax and surf the internet and do a little people watching. As I said it is not real busy but there are people coming and going and it is funny as some people come in to get drinks to go even though they have a drive through although the drive through is really busy so it may be faster. Also, I think people order drinks online for pickup and they have to come in to get those also.

I stayed here till 7:30 and even started on my blog for today at Starbucks so I could get a head and hopefully have them all posted in a timely manner. As I left the young man who served me when I got here wished me a good night by name and that always makes you feel good. It was a relaxing few hours and just what I needed. I probably should have gone and got a pedicure as I need one. My last one was back in July and my nails are starting to look bad and getting pretty long. I stopped and got gas on my way home and then also stopped at Subway to get something to eat. It was almost closing time so I got it to go. The young lady who helped men commented on my perfume and how nice it smelled. It was wonderful outing all the way around.

I got home a little after 8., thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

October 8, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape first Saturday in October

Well it is the 1st Saturday in October and a nice fall day, mostly sunny and temps in the mid 60’s which is nice and yes I get some Susan time tonight. Now I got home late so it would be rush if I wanted to get there by 6. I was actually hoping for earlier as I am behind in my blog writing and I still need to do my blog for last Wednesday night’s dinner at Rock Bottom. I posted my blog from last Sunday at Starbucks this morning. It is hard to find the time to do these as I have just been busy the last few months but I also think there is the wanting to write about my time as Susan when I am Susan. it is silly but I feel I am truly writing about myself when I am Susan. I think that is why I like my time at Starbucks so much as it gives me time to sit and do my blogs about my time as Susan while I am Susan. I wore my red dress as it is warmer and my ankle boots as the Escape has been really cold the last few times I have been there, the last time I left early because I was so cold.

well I got to the Escape right at 6 and the parking lot was full so I went and parked on the street and got a quick selfie, as I was walking in someone pulled out and I briefly thought about moving my car but figured by the time I could go get it the spot might be gone so I just went in. I put my computer on a table and went and ordered dinner, my normal hamburger, I think next week I will do their breakfast if I remember. I got out my computer so I could write my blog from Wednesday night but I looked up and Nicole was at the bar ordering dinner, she must have come in right behind me and yes, she got the parking spot right in front. Well I will have to put writing my blog off till Sunday but that is okay as it will give me a reason to go to Starbucks as Susan. it is funny as I think I have only gone to Starbucks once or twice as my male self well other than to go in and get gift cards for people so it really is a part of Susan. looking at my blog I have gone there over 200 times as Susan. Nicole said I could do my blog but I would much rather talk with her. I did keep my computer open though as there is a girl in our group who wants to come out and has been trying for a while and just can’t get past that initial fear of the first step out which we have all gone through, and I wrote a blog about my first time going out a while back. She has drove here a couple times but ends up leaving without getting out of her car. I gave her my cell number and told her to text me when she got here and I would walk out and meet her so she didn’t have to walk in alone. I am hoping that will help.

Nicole and I talked as we waited for our dinners which didn’t take to long. Michele arrived just as our dinner and Bobbie shortly after so we had 4 of us here tonight and it wasn’t even 7. I saw Sasha one of the girls who bartends here and asked her if they could turn the air conditioner up as it was already getting cold. Any way Mike the other Bartender went and turned it up, seems they have line dancing here on Friday nights so they turn it way down so they dancers don’t get to hot. It was nice though as we all started to get warmer. It was still a little on the cool side but not bad. It was so nice to be able to sit and talk for a while before it got to loud. Of course, we talked a lot about our first times going out probably because I was waiting and hoping the girl trying to make it out for her first time would.

It started to get busy at 9 as Karaoke starts and that brings people in and tonight was no exception, it was pretty packed tonight. Laura M and her girlfriend also showed up and I am pretty sure one of her daughters. I have met her a few times but it has been a while since I have seen her. she actually knows me both as my male and female self from her work, enough said on that. Now it is fun to listen to people sing and some are really good and we were still able to talk between songs. Jennifer also showed up late as she had been out shopping and as she was in the area she stopped in for a while. Lauri also showed up a little before 10 so we had a good turnout tonight.

Now Nicole stayed late as she usually leaves when Karaoke starts but tonight, she stayed as late as I did. It was after 11:30 when we called it a night and Nicole and I walked out together of course I had a little further to walk as I was parked out on the street. Nicole thinks she may make it down in a few weeks for a Wednesday night dinner and that would be fun. We said our good byes and I was on my way home. now I have 2 blogs to write tomorrow when I go to Starbucks, Wednesday dinner and now tonight and of course if I go to Starbucks that will be another blog also. Wow it is hard to get caught up. My hope is by this coming Wednesday dinner I will have all my blogs caught up.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new in my life. Have a wonderful week.

October 7, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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