Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Sunday and some more Susan time.

It is Sunday and I find myself with the late afternoon and evening free and so that means some Susan time. Well not totally free as I do have some work I need to do but it is on the computer and I figured Susan could do it at Starbucks. I got dressed and was ready to leave by a little after 4. Now I thought about going to the Starbuck’s by my house as I am getting out early but as I do have some work to do and they close at 7 where the other is open till 8:30 I went with the other one as it gives me an extra 1 ½ if needed. Besides I have come here enough that a few of the girls are remembering me now. I took a quick selfie in the car before going inside.

I got to Starbucks about 4:15 and went in and again they were a little busy, maybe 20 people but again 1 table along the window, I like these tables as I can plug my computer in if needed. As there were about 5 people in line I set my computer up on the table before going to stand in line. I figured most of them would be staying as this Starbucks has a drive through. Sure, enough everyone in front of me Got a drink and found a place to sit so it is pretty busy here. Now I had to stand in line to wait for my drink and yet it felt so normal. I still amazes me just a few years ago the excitement, fear and terror I felt going out even to Embers which was very TG friendly and I was meeting friend so I would be alone and now I walk into Starbucks like it is the most natural thing I could do and never give it a second thought. In some ways I do miss that feeling but the fact I pretty much go where ever I want without fear is awesome as it has opened a whole new world to me.

I got my drink, today is the sweetened green ice tea which is really good and then went and sat down and started my work. Now last night when I was here there were several women in dresses so today I did wear my black dress, nothing to sexy more of I guess a casual dress and as it had bare shoulders I decided to wear my little white knit half top. Now this little white top I actually bought probably 6 years ago but have never worn it till now as when I have worn bare shoulder dresses I was always at a bar or club and wanted the bare shoulder. It is actually a cute look, I had to get another selfie.

I sat here and did some work for about an hour before I took a break and wrote my blog for last night as I got out for a few hours, yes twice in 2 day. Then it was back to work although I am checking the score of the world series on my computer. Another reason for coming to Starbucks, if I was at home I would have the game on and be watching it while I tried to work and I know from past experience I don’t get a lot of work done with the TV on so I guess Susan is good for me as she keeps me on task.

Now by 6 the crowd had died off here and there was only 6 other people here all working on computers. Starbucks is a great place to go with a computer. It would be interesting to know for sure how many times I have come to Starbucks over the years as Susan, my blog has 191 blogs that have that in the tag lines so I am guessing it is at least that many times, although some of those time I was probably out shopping or doing other things and stopped in a Starbucks on my outing. My blog goes back to 2006 although the first few years I didn’t get out more than maybe once a month if I was lucky. This blog is my 1105 blog so I have been out at least that many times as Susan which is hard to believe. 10 years ago, I would never have imagined going out even 100 times let alone that many times in basically 10 years. I have come a long way over the years as Susan and it is because of some of the wonderful friend (family) I have met. Some of them are my closest friends and they really are more like my family. I hope they all know just how special they are to me.

I finished up my work about 7 so I still had time, I worked a little on my blog for today and then just goofed around online and figure I will finish my blog tomorrow as I am not sure what all I will do before going home. Now as I have not had my acrylic nails now for probably 3 months with all that has been going on I have gone back to the way I use to do my nails, You can read about it on my nail tip blog. This is one of the great things about a blog as you can go back and find out about things you did. I would incur age everyone to keep a blog even if you keep it private for just you to see. Now don’t get me wrong I do love getting my nails done and having nice (pretty) nails all the time but in my male life I do have to keep them shorter and a very natural color where with this I can have long pretty nails when I am out as Susan. Tuff choice nice nails all the time or pretty, long, red nails when I am Susan.

I left Starbucks about 8:15 and went over to Subway and got a sandwich to take home. It really was a relaxing afternoon and evening and I am looking forward to getting out more. Be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what’s new in my life.

October 30, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A few hours on a Saturday evening

Okay life is getting back to a little more normal routine. It is still hard to believe my Dad has been gone for over 5 weeks but it does get a little better each day. I am hopeful to start getting out again on a more regular basis, Saturday nights and Wednesday dinners. It will be awesome to start seeing my friends on a regular basis again. Anyway, I got home Saturday a little after 5 and decided it would be a little Susan time. I got dressed and was ready by 6:30, now what to do. I thought about going to the Escape but then realized it was the Saturday before Halloween and they would be packed and of course everyone would be in costume. Halloween snuck up on me this year. Now for years Susan was my Halloween costume at least till 2009, that was the first Halloween I bought a female costume and I have had a female costume every year since then at least till this year. Well with no costume and the fact I couldn’t stay out to late I decided to go to Starbucks instead.

Now I didn’t go to the one by my house as they close at 7 instead I went to the other Starbucks I have been going to as they are open till 8:30. It is still less than 5 minutes so still close to where I live. I got there and they were actually busy for a Saturday night, never really thought of Starbucks as the place to go on a Saturday night, there was probably 18 to 20 people there although there were two groups of 6. I parked and went in, there was one table along the windows so I set my computer down and went and ordered my drink. I just relaxed and played on my computer for a while. It was good just to be out again. I really can’t explain why I find it so relaxing and fun to be out as Susan even just sitting at a Starbucks but it is to me. I stayed here till about 8:15 and it really was relaxing.

I left Starbucks and drove to Wendy’s to get something to eat before heading home. I was a little surprised even at 8:30 there was still maybe 15 people inside eating at Wendy’s. I had to stand in line. when it was my turn to order the young lady, who helped me told me she loved the way I did my makeup, I really love getting compliments on how I look. Of course, I thanked her. I got my food and went and sat with most of the other people over by the fireplace where the big TV is as it had the Oregon Ducks Football game on. I actually picked here because of the TV although I was hoping for the World Series which I kept track of on my phone. I ma not a huge sports fan but the one sport I do follow the most is Baseball. Of course, my teams didn’t make it what a surprise but still follow the playoffs. Now as I said my teams didn’t make it but I am kind of pulling for the Red Socks to win but what I really want is a good series.

I sat here and ate till a little after 9 before going home to watch the end of the world Series. Once at home I was sitting

there and decided I would get a selfie. It is funny not going out as much has made me think about pictures more. I guess in a way I am really cherishing the time I get right now as it has been so limited. Even though it was less than 3 hours out as Susan it was still worth it.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what’s new on my most recent blog which should be more regular now as I hope to get back to 1 or 2 times a week.

Also going to include links to previous Halloweens as I missed this year. We really have had some wonderful times and I have had some cute costumes although I do have my favorite.

Halloween 2009, Halloween 2010, Halloween 2011, Halloween 2012, Halloween 2013, Halloween 2014, Halloween 2015, Halloween 2016, Halloween 2017,

I was going through some of my Halloween pictures and I think this is my favorite ones. I loved Wonder Woman growing up and I never thought or dreamed growing up I could be her but as Susan I did get the chance

October 28, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

A little Sunday Susan time

Okay it is Sunday and yes, I got out for a few hours Friday Morning and again Saturday morning and it was awesome and now I have a few hours this afternoon and early evening and guess what. Susan is going to go out again. This will make 3 days in a row. I am so loving it after so long with no Susan time. Now this week is our groups Mexican Cruise and yes about 15 of our members are now on a ship, I am sad I couldn’t go but family had to win out the last couple months but, in my heart, I am with them and look forward to hearing all about the trip and seeing pictures. Anyway, as I said I have a few hours today so I started getting ready as soon as I got home and was all ready by a little after 3. Now those who have followed my blog know I bought a corset a while back and I really love it as it gives me a really nice shape and I actually find it comfortable. Well a little over a month ago I bought a new one, just a black satin one that is not as thick. Now they say you should break in a new coreset by wearing it for only an hour or 2 at a time and slowly tighten it which I have been doing, really the only Susan time I was getting. Putting it on for an hour or so before bed. Well as I have done the amount of times they recommend I wanted to actually wear it today. I put it on and tightened it up the tightest I have done so far and it gave me really nice curves. So now I am off to Starbucks as I have some work I need to do before tomorrow when I go back to work.

Now I don’t have any big plans so I figured I would go to the Starbucks I was at Friday over by the Subway and do some work till 5 or so. I got there about 3:15 and went in, they were not busy so I had my choice of tables so I took my normal one. I went and ordered my drink a sweetened green ice tea. The lady at the counter remembered me, and asked if I was coming from work. Mow I got a kick out of that as today I was a little dressier, a skirt and top and my ankle boots with heels. I told her no I was just out running errands. Well we talked for a little bit, she is going on vacation. I got my drink and went back to my table and started doing some of my work. Now it still amazes me that I am doing some of my work now as Susan, I would never have thought that possible a few years ago.

It was about 5:30 when I left and drove the block to Subway and went n and got a sandwich. I sat at a table and ate it there, now this is a subway I have been going to for years as my male self and only the last couple months as Susan. The thing is they have a big turnover of employees so I really don’t think there is much chance of them figuring it out. I had a nice dinner before going to the Starbucks by my house. I got there a little after 6.

Now the Starbucks by my house I have been going to for a long time so even though it has been a while the young man at the counter, Zackery remember me by name and knew what I wanted to drink. How awesome is that. I got my drink and sat down at a table with my computer and posted my blog from yesterday. I then started checking things out online. It was almost 7 when Zackery told me they were getting ready to close. It has been a while but now I remember why I started going to the other one as it is open till 8:30. Well I finished my drink and packed up my computer and then headed home for the night. It was a nice time out.

Now I have not been able to get my nails done for a while so I have dug out my old nails that I use to use with the double-sided tape and it has been fun. They only take about 5 minutes to put on and even less to take off and are reusable. It is nice to be out with colorful pretty long nails. I am torn now as I so like having acrylic nails even shorter with just a slight polish on them all the time or pretty long nails when I go out. Below are pictures from the last 2 days on left and far right was the acrylic nails I had for almost a year in a half. What is a girl to do, really pretty long nails as Susan or nice nails all the time?

October 18, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday morning and a little more Susan time

It is Saturday morning and I once again have a few hours, I can probably stay out till noon or so and after so long with no Susan time even that is a blessing. Now I didn’t get up as early as yesterday as it was a little after 7 when I rolled out of bed. Now I have no big plans just a little time at Starbucks and then lunch before going home to change. I figured if I could get out by 9 I would have 3 hours.

I was ready a little before 9 and on my way. I went to the Starbucks by my house and they were packed again no open seats that I could see so I drove to the one I was at yesterday and same thing. I had not thought about it being a Saturday morning. I decided I would try a new Starbuck I have never gone to before so I drove down by the mall as there is a Starbucks across the street in a shopping center but the stores are not open yet so I was hoping they would not be busy. I got there a little after 9 and went in. they were busy but there were open tables so I set my computer on one and went and ordered my hot chocolate. This one has no drive through so busy but most get theirs to go. Now there was one young man probably high school age that really looked at me a few times although the girls he was with paid no attention to me. Even after they left I saw him looking at me through the window so I just smiled at him which I think worked as he quickly looked away.

I spent a couple hours here catching up on e-mails and just relaxing and people watching. Now one thing I noticed was most of the customers were female here. I would say 70% of those who came in were female and most of the men who came in had a female with them. Just kind of a odd observation. I left a little after 11 and decided to go to Wendy’s for lunch as the one I normally go to is only a couple miles away. I got there and went in and there was just one couple in front of me and no one else inside, I guess I beet the lunch rush.

I ordered and then went and sat down to eat my lunch. As it got closer to noon more people came in and soon there was probably 15 to 20 people at about 8 different tables but no one seemed to pay any attention to me. Either they didn’t notice or just didn’t care. I had a nice lunch and took my time as I was just enjoying being out. It was about noon when I left and headed for home. I am hoping to get out more now but it will still be hard to plan to far ahead. It is amazing how relaxing and happy even a few hours as Susan can make me. I really have missed my Susan time and this side of my life. Susan is not my whole life but she is a big part of who I am and not being able to express all of you is hard.

I included a few pictures, 2 from my car and one inside Wendy’s. I think not being out I am more into taking pictures as I feel I missed the last few months.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new and also my blog from yesterday, I went to the cemetery and introduced Susan to my Dad in a manner of speaking.

October 14, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finally, a chance for a little Susan time.

Okay it has been almost a month since I have had a chance for a little Susan time. Things are still busy with my family and things I need to do after my Dad’s passing but Friday morning I had free and I just had to take the time for Susan. Now part of it is the fact I have never told my parents or any family member about Susan and I got thinking about my Dad and the daughter he never knew. I have thought a lot about this over the last week and so I decided Susan should go visit his grave and introduce herself. It may sound silly but it was something I needed to do.

I got up early 5:30am to start getting ready, I took my time as I wanted to look my best and as I have not been able to keep my nails looking pretty with the acrylic I dug out my old nail tips which I attach with double sided tape. I haven’t used these in a year in a half, I picked the red ones and got them all ready. I did my makeup and got dressed and then put on my nails and they looked so petty. It was just before 7 when I was ready and on my way. Now being a national cemetery, they open at 7am so I was right on time as it would take about 30 minutes to get there. This will be a first for Susan, going to a cemetery. I got close and decided to stop at Fred Meyers and pick up some flowers as I wanted my Dads daughter to make a good impression. Now this early Fred Myers was not busy and as luck would have it the door I went in was near the floral section so I picked out a nice bouquet and paid for it and was on my way.

I got to the cemetery about 7:45 and parked and walked to my Dad’s grave site. It is a couple hundred yards butt there is a nice walkway and then his site is only 4 away from the walk way so it really was easy to get to. I place the flowers on his gave and then I stood there for a few minutes before introducing myself although I know he knows now as I am sure he was looking down. I told him a little about myself as his daughter and how much I loved him. In a strange way it really did help me feel better. I stayed there about 30 minutes just talking with my dad and in a way, I got to share Susan with him. I know he was proud of me as his son and I think (hope) he is proud of me as his daughter. It was a really peaceful relaxing time. Now I will be taking my mom to visit him and that will be my male self but I am thinking I will be coming here as Susan when I come by myself. It was about 8:20 when I said goodbye and walked back to my car.

The drive home gave me time to think and I was so glad I came here as his daughter to visit him. I decided to go to Starbucks for a little while as I have till noon to be Susan. I went to the Starbucks by my house and got there at 9am and they were packed. I walked in with my computer and there was not an open seat anywhere and probably 10 people in line, this Starbucks does not have a drive through. With no place to sit I decided to go to the other one I have been going to as they have a drive through and shouldn’t be as busy. Its only a couple minutes away. I got there and there were probably 20 cars in line in the dive through and no parking close so I parked out in the parking lot and walked in and they were even busier. There were a couple seats at the big long table and on small table by the window open so I quickly put my computer on that table and went and took my place in line. there were only 3 people in front of me to order but there must have been 20 people waiting on their drinks. 9am on a Friday and they were this busy. I ordered my hot chocolate and then went and set up my computer an got it online before going and standing I line for my drink which took about 5 to 10 minutes. And there was still a line behind me. This is by far the busiest I have seen them here. I got my drink and sat down and started replying to e-mails as I have fallen behind on them with everything going on.

It also gave me time to think about my friend’s, they leave on their 7-day Mexican cruise tomorrow and several of them flew to LA yesterday and they flew as ladies. Peggy, Casandra, Julie and Trixie flew out yesterday, Julie sent me pictures of her and Cassandra on the plane, they looked so awesome. I really wished I could have gone but there was just no way with everything going on. I am really hoping our group does another one of these cruises in a year or two and I so want to be Susan for one and fly as Susan. I will be thinking a lot about my sisters on the cruise and the fun they are having. These ladies really are my family and I am so lucky o haver them in my life. It really has been a great morning.

I stayed here at Starbucks till 11 before I went over to Subway for lunch.

October 12, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Dad’s funeral

On Tuesday was my Dad’s funeral, it was with full military honors as he served in the Navy. It was very emotional and very special. The military honors, 21-gun salute, playing of taps and finally the presenting of the flag to my mom was so incredible. It has been a long few weeks and I still have things to take care of but I am hoping to get back to somewhat normal and get some Susan time.

October 11, 2018 Posted by | family | , , , , , | 1 Comment


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