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Saturday night at the Escape.

It is Saturday and you know what that means, yes, an evening out at the Escape with friends. I look forward all week to my Susan time and spending it with friends. Now a few posted in the group they would be there so that is always nice. As always, I post I will be there by 6 with the hope of getting there earlier but that hasn’t worked the last several weeks and I have been lucky to be there by 6 and tonight would be no different. I took my time getting ready and it seemed I was ahead of schedule and soon I was rushing to finish getting ready. I was on my way and pulled in the parking lot right at 6. Now I did take a selfie in the car before I went in. Now this picture is in the car and the only light is a little coming from the window of the escape and it turned out good, Samsung phones take awesome pictures in low light.

I went in and got my normal table but this week I sat in the middle so I could talk with everyone at the table if we had a big group. I ordered dinner and got out my computer to start my blog from Wednesday. It wasn’t long and Robyn showed up. She has been coming earlier and shortly after Michele showed up. I was almost done with my blog so I finished it up really quick so I could post it. I always use to post my blog the next day at the latest and now it seems it can be several days later. Once it was posted I put away my computer so we could all talk. Michele and I talked a little about Diva Las Vegas which is less then 2 months away now, wow it is coming so fast.

Brenda showed up which was a nice surprise, I think the last time I saw her was at Diva Las Vegas last year. Anyway, Robin from up north is also coming tonight and they have been messaging back and forth and she wanted to meet her. Well we talked for a little while, she can’t make it to Diva Las Vegas this year but we do have 5 of us who have booked rooms and are going so that is good. Robin showed up and it was good to see her again. She is traveling and flying out of Portland, I think she did that so she could come down and go out with the group. I think she will be back on Wednesday and hopefully can go to dinner with us before she heads home. Any way I did get a picture with her again tonight. She loves to get pictures as I do, I just don’t think of it as much anymore. It really is amazing how good of pictures cell phones take. It wasn’t long and Teri showed up, she was also down from up north and she brought a new girl out. Teri had gone to Victoria’s Over the Rainbow for a make over and Marty was there getting her first ever makeover, more than that this was her first-time dressing and she came out with Teri. I really like it when girls come out for the first time as I think back to my first times and how I felt. I met a couple wonderful girls back then who helped me and I can’t thank them enough and I want to do the same for others.

I talked with Teri and Marty for a while and got to know her a little. It really is hard when you first go out, you don’t know what to expect, how you will be treated and you are still trying to figure out how this all fits in your life and how you feel. It is so much easier when you have others around. We all share something in common but we are all a little different also and by that what I mean is the reasons I dress may not be the same as yours as there is a wide range on the gender spectrum from part time crossdressers to Drag Queens to those who fully transitions. How I present and live my life is what is right for me and it may be the same for others or it may not and that is okay as we are still the same in the big picture.

Now I did get one more selfie inside in the light and it really looks just as bright as the one earlier from my car. Neither one used the flash and the light levels were way different. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up and one other girl so we had 9 of us again tonight, another good turnout. Karaoke was going so it was a little loud inside but still fun and we could talk a little between songs. It was a really fun night and I got to spend it with my friends.

It was about 11:30 when I called it a night, yes, I was out later then what I planned but that also is becoming normal. It really is sad when I leave but I know I will see them again and of course Susan will also be out again. Tomorrow, Sunday I will once again be at Starbucks for my Susan time and to do another online class and I am planning on going out Wednesday night for dinner. I e-mailed Melissa, Barb and Julie to see what their thoughts are. I gave a couple ideas and will see if they like them or have otgher ideas but I would like to post in the group by Monday so our members can plan. A couple of the girls tonight asked me about it so I think we might have a good turnout for that too.

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February 4, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape, Last Saturday of January 2019

It is the last Saturday of January wow time is going by so fast. Diva Las Vegas is only a little over 2 months away, hard to believe. Well as of right now we have 5 of us from our group who have booked rooms at the Four Queens. Cassandra, Veronica, Michelle, Fran (one of our newer members from Eastern Washington) and of course me . I am so looking forward to it. They still have rooms and if you get a premium room for 5 nights (Sunday through Thursday) you are looking at about $400 or less for two people, they have no resorts fees. We also have about 8 others from our group still thinking about it so we could have another big turnout in Las Vegas from our group. If you are at all thinking about it check out their web page.

Any way tonight I am going to the Escape again, posted in the group and hoping others show up. I said I would be there by 6 but as always, my hope is closer to 5 although I haven’t made that the last few weeks and tonight was no different. Took longer to get ready and so it was just before 6 when I got there and went in. I got one of the big tables (seats 10) as my hope was, we would need it. I sat at the one end and set up my computer and then went up and ordered a drink, Sprite and dinner a burger and fries, a typical Friday. I started to write my blog from Wednesday as I have been slow at getting them done. I always use to do them the next day at the latest but that has not been the case lately as I am still busy but finding time for Susan. Well I hadn’t wrote much when Robin showed up followed shortly by Michelle o I put my computer away and figured I would finish it later.

We talked for a little bit and that was when Michell told me she had booked her room for Diva Las Vegas. It was before 7 when Kris showed up so we were up to 4 of us and it wasn’t even 7 yet which is good although I think a lot of us like to get here early before karaoke so we can talk. Another girl showed up and then Audrey and her girlfriend. She is not a member yet but I am hopeful she will join as she has come here a couple times as her male self but I think this was her first time as her female self. I talked with them briefly and invited them to join us. They went and sat at the other end of the table so I wasn’t able to really talk with them. Now I do feel a little bad as they had dinner and then left, I talked with them as they were leaving and they felt left out which was not intentional. I think I will start sitting in the middle of the table so I can talk with everyone. I usually do this at Wednesday night dinners but then we all tend to arrive at the same time. But here with a long table that sits 10 unless you are in the middle you really can’t talk with everyone and even then, once karaoke starts it is hard to talk to the person next to you.

Well Summer showed up also one of our newer members and she had one of her friends with her who is visiting her from Southern California. It was good to see her out again with the group. We also had another new girl named Marci show up. She had gone to Victoria’s Over the Rainbow today for a clothing swap social and herd about our group being here tonight so she came down to meet us with a friend she recently came out to named Craig. Now she is new to our group and hasn’t been out for a while but she used to be involved with the NWGA here in Portland. Now I learned from earlier and had her sit next to me so I could talk with her. She is really nice and I think she is going to start going out more as she has retired now. I gave her one of my business cards with my e-mail address on it, yes Susan got Business cards years ago from Vista Print to hand out. I think at the time it cost me like $15 for 500 basic cards, First time order. I am hoping she will join our group. Her and Craig were awesome.

We also had another girl her named Jessica who is not a member but Robin knew her so she joined us think I may have met her once at CC Slaughters but it would have been 12 to 15 years ago when I was first going out. So, we had a good turnout again. Now Karaoke started and yes, I did kind of get op to sing in a way. Kris was going to sing so I told her she should do Bohemian Rhapsody and to my surprise she didn’t know it. I told her to go have the KJ play it for her to see if she recognized it. Well to my surprise she just put the song in. now it is a hard song to do and any song is hard if you don’t know it so I felt bad so I went out and helped her sing, well not sure how much help is was.

We really had a great night and it was almost 11:30 when I left and headed home. When I got home, I was determined to finish my blog from Wednesday night dinner as I don’t like getting so far behind for two reasons. Those who follow my blog by now know when I go out and I didn’t want you to feel you missed something but also when I look back it is easier to find blogs if they are posted the day of or the next day. Well needles to say it was almost 1 am when I finally got to bed. I will be feeling it in the morning when I get up.

Sunday I am planning on going to Starbucks to study again and enjoy a little more Susan time and yes, I will be out for Wednesday night dinner again this week. Susan has been pretty regular with 3 nights a week now. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

January 27, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night at the Escape, awesome

Okay it is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight and I am really looking forward to it. I always enjoy my time out as Susan but tonight it should be a good turnout as a few of our newer members are meeting once again in Portland on Saturday and coming out, Shae and her wife Reanna, Sindee and her wife Dee, Betty and Robin all of whom I have met just once and only in the last month or so, I am looking forward to getting to talk with them more and get to know them better. Now I am guessing they will be there between 7 & 8 but I am going earlier, by 6 hopefully earlier. Okay tis is a longer blog then normal as it was a special night out and worth the read.

I started getting ready at 4 as like always I wanted to take my time as I rally wanted to look my best. It really is funny how much time, effort and thought I put into how I look as Susan. I was done with my makeup by 5 and now it was time for my dress and that took some work, I actually pulled 4 dresses out tonight but ruled one out as it was the one o wore last time they were here when I met them, yes, I did look back at my blog to see what I wore. So now I had 3 and all are kind of tight so they look better with my corset which I wear most of the times I go out. Now I know a lot of people may think corsets are uncomfortable and not needed but I bought mine for two reasons, 1st yes, I wanted a nice figure but also, I tend to slouch a lot (poor posture) the ne negative thing I hear and the corset forces me to sit up straight. Now I don’t find it uncomfortable actually other then getting in and out of the car. Now I will admit it is hard to pick something off the floor if you drop it and yes if you over do it you can get out of breath but other than that I really don’t notice I have it on. Now the good thing is I am finding even without it I have better posture and sit up straighter so it really has helped. I tried on all three dresses before settling on the second one it really is one of my favorite dresses as it is pretty and classy looking. Yes, tonight I have that feeling any young lady would have going out for a special event and it is a wonderful feeling. Here is a picture taken later in the evening by Robin, thanks.

Now I was ready a little after 5:30 so I would be pushing it to be there by 6 so not going to get there as early as I hoped. It was right at 6 when I got there and went in. now, I have been posting this in our group as I knew we would have several new girls out and I was trying to encourage others and see if we could get a big group out tonight. I was able to park in the lot along the curb which is better then on the street and I went in. I put my computer on one of the long tables and then went up to order. Well I ran into Jan and Lynn, they were already there which was great as it was just 6. I ordered my dinner and drink and went back to the table. I took my computer back out to my car as if we did have a big group and I was moving around to talk with people I didn’t want to have to watch it plus I wanted to talk with Jan & Lynn. The 3 of us sat down and it wasn’t long and Kimberly showed up who is also one of our newer members, she has been out with the group 5 or 6 times now. Well before I ate, I figured I should get a quick selfie for the night.

Now I usually try to go in order of who shows up but girls started showing up and I lost track of who came when. I actually got out my phone and started putting names in so I could try and remember everyone who showed up, some came later and some had left but over the night this is what we had and I probably missed a name or two. We had 17 T-girls, 3 wives and 3 or 4 friends so our group was 23 or 24 tonight and it wasn’t that busy so we were the main group here tonight. I can’t remember the last time we have had such a big turnout. So, let’s take a shot at the names and again if fi miss someone I am sorry. Jan, Lynn, Kimberly Melissa, Robin, Shae and her wife Reanna, Betty, Chris, Roxy, Sindee and her wife Dee, Julie, Kris, Summer, Kate, Joan, Lauri and of course me. Also, Betty had 3 friends Adrian, Nancy and her husband, plus there was one other T-girl who is not part of our group but knew a few of the girls from online who showed up and I think her name was Kitty. Wow what a huge group so much fun. Our newer members are Shae, Sindee, Betty, Robin, Summer and Kimberly and I think having that many newer members out at one time is probably a record.

Chris and Roxy showed u and it was great to see them again. They mostly go to Sweethome on Fridays and I really need to go there again as it is a nice place to go and I had met a lot of people there that I follow on Facebook it is just hard for me to get out on Fridays early enough as Chris goes there after work and usually leaves by 7 or 8 and it would be 7 to 7:30 before I could get there. Funny as it used to be just Friday nights, I could get out on but things change, it was great to see them again as I have known Roxy for 11 years and Chris probably almost as long.

Melissa also came out which she does sometimes but usually leaves early but she stayed a lot later tonight as she was also meeting and talking with all our members. Kate was here also and it was great to see her again as it has been several months since she has been out as she has had a lot of things going on which I understand. It was great to talk with her again and we talked a little about Diva Las Vegas and she is thinking of going, still time to sign up if you want to go. I really tried to talk a little with everyone tonight as we did have newer members and I wanted them to feel welcome. I remember when I first went out there were 3 t-girls, Alice, Lori and Cassandra that reached out tome and made me feel welcome and that was so helpful and special and rally helped shape the lady I am today and I hope they know how much I appreciated it. I talked some with Kimberly early in the night she has some killer long red nails.

It was also wonderful to talk with Betty, Shae and Sindee, I was kind of selling them on Diva Las Vegas and they all said they want to go although Sindee and her wife may not be able to work it out this year but it would be so awesome if they all went and I know they would all have a blast. They really are wonderful people and it is great to get to know them and have them as friends. It really is funny as I have way more friends as Susan and a lot closer friend. Julie and Cassandra are my two closest friends and probably know the most about me of anyone. I think this happens as I don’t have to hide parts of my life from them. Yes, when I was first going out, I didn’t disclose my male side to anyone but I am pretty much over that, yes people I just meet or outside the group I am not as open but once I get to know people in our group, I am pretty open about myself and that is a wonderful feeling.

Julie and I talked a lot and I really enjoy her company when we are out and yes, we talked a lot with the newer girls, everyone in our group is so awesome. Even Julie stayed out till 11:30 or so it was a wonderful night. it really is sad as it gets later and girls start to leave and, in a way, especially some of our newer ones as they don’t live local so it is hard to tell when you will see them again as it is dependent on when they can get back to Portland. I talked a little with Summer and she really is nice and also Robin who I was able to get a selfie with. I really should have gotten pictures with some of the other girls.

It really was a fun night and sad when Shae and her wife left and then Sindee and her wife and then girls started to leave, always hard to say goodbye. I finally paid my bill and it was about 11:45 when both Julie and I left and I think there was still 8 of our group there. What a wonderful turnout tonight, I really do have a wonderful family here in the group. 11 years ago I would have never thought this possible.

Thanks for reading, a little longer tonight and if you made it to the end thank you. Be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is knew with Susan.

Just an update, Cassandra, Veronica and I have all booked rooms for Diva Las Vegas and also Fran one of our members from the other side of the state and we have maybe 8 others thinking about it so we could possible have 12 or more from our group go again this year and that would be awesome.

January 20, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, family, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and once again I am going to the Escape tonight. I posted it in our group but have got no replies so I don’t know if anyone else will be there although I am pretty sure I can count on Lauri around 10 to show up. I took my time getting ready as I always like to look my best. It was about 5 when I was ready and out the door. I got to the Escape and found a parking spot right in front which is always nice. They were a little busy but most were sitting at the bar so I sat down at my normal table and got out my computer and then went and ordered a drink and dinner.

My food came and I was still trying to catch up on e-mails but I put my computer aside for now. Robyn showed u and shortly after her Kris and Michelle so there were 4 of us here by 6 which is really good. Now they did have the jukebox up a little loud tonight so it was a little hard to talk but not as bad as when Karaoke starts. Now of course I tried to talk them all into going to Diva Las Vegas, they all sounded interested but Michelle was the only one who said she would probably go, she was there last year with us so I think she will. It really would be fun to get a big group from Portland going again. Well with all of us here I put away my computer and we all sat and talked which really is nice and makes for an enjoyable evening. I think that is why I like our Wednesday night dinners so much.

Now as the night went on it got a little busier and another girl from our group showed up. She saw my post about Diva Las Vegas and is thinking of going as she enjoys it also, she couldn’t make it last year but has gone the previous 2 or 3 years so I am thinking she will go also. I really need to reach out to Julie and see if she can make it. Also have to reach out to Laura and Kate as they also went last year. Cassandra, Veronica and I have all booked rooms at the Four Queens Hotel where we stayed last year. A smaller hotel casino downtown but very nice and they don’t charge the resort fees yet. I booked a premium room for 9 night for half the cost of a regular room on the strip for the same nights.

Diva Las Vegas will be so much fun and I am really looking forward to it, 11 days living as Susan and of course long pretty acrylic nails for the week. If any of you reading are interested there is still time to sign up, check out the Diva Las Vegas web page Mach 31st to April 5th. There will be 150+ t-girls there during this time although they will be spread out. It really is a lot of fun.

It got later and Karaoke started and that was time for Michelle to leave and Kris left not long after. Now tonight was a good night for karaoke as I knew most of the song that people sang which is always better as I can sing along from the comfort of my chair. It was just a little before 10 when Lauri showed up so we had a total of 5 of us here tonight, not a huge group but a nice sized one. Now I did remember to get a couple selfies, this was the best.

Now I did have a couple ladies again tonight tell me how good I looked and I can’t tell you what an ego boost that is, I really do love hearing this as it makes you feel good. I hadn’t planned on being out to late one of the reasons for going early but that didn’t work as I stayed till 11:30 before saying my goodbyes and heading for home. It really was a wonderful night out.

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January 13, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

First Saturday of 2019 at the Escape

Okay first a quick update. Last Sunday I stopped at a nail salon called signature nail my toes were so bad and I just couldn’t take it anymore and yes, I stopped as my male self. I went in and they were busy and I had no appointment. The lady said they could fit me in, in about 20 minutes so I sat down in a pedicure chair and soaked my feet as I waited. Now I really lucked out as a couple women came in after me and they were told they were booked up for the rest of the day so I must have gotten the last opening. Now I had told them I wanted a manicure also so I was really looking forward to it. Finally, the young lady came over to start my pedicure and she seemed nice but when she saw the red on my toes she asked if I wanted color and I said red she smiled and her attitude changed, she almost seemed friendlier. We talked almost the whole time she did my pedicure. Then she did my manicure and she asked if I wanted red on my fingers and I just smiled and said I can get away with it on my toes as no one sees them but just clear on my fingers. She did a wonderful job. I got the deluxe pedicure and just a regular manicure and it was $70 which is kind of what I figured although they do give a 10% discount if you pay cash which I didn’t have. I was treated really well and would recommend them. I was there about 2 hours so it was a little late to try and go out as Susan but my nails look great.

Okay on to today, it is the first Saturday of 2019 and I am going to the Escape tonight. I posted in the group and I got replies back, Nicole, Melissa are going and possible 2 of our new members so I am looking forward to it. I took my time getting ready and I knew what I was going to wear at least till it was time to dress and then I changed my mind, I seem to do that a lot as Susan. I was ready a little before 5 and on my way. I got to the Escape about 5:15 and the parking lot was full so I had to park about a block away. I got inside and they were a little busier than normal for this time but they did have the Seahawk game on, they are going for the wildcard spot in the playoffs. The table I usually get was open so I sat down and got out my computer and then ordered dinner. I was answering an e-mail from Jennifer a girl who reads my blog, she had asked me several questions. I do not mind getting e-mails that ask questions and will do my best to answer them but as with this blog it is my opinion and feelings only. Anyway, I was about ½ way done as I was taking my time as I wanted to answer the questions the best I could when Melissa showed up and shortly after Nicole. We all like to get here early so we can talk before it gets loud later with karaoke. Any way I saved what I had done and put away my computer so we could talk.

It really was good to see them again. Nicole gets to Portland about once a month now and Melissa goes out more on the Wednesday night dinners. Well we sat and talked about a lot of stuff from where we should go for our next dinner, trying to do 1 dinner a month on a Saturday which would take a little more effort, how to get more people active in the group which is a big thing. We have about 225 members and about ½ of them go out which is pretty good but it is on the coordinating of things. We have a handful that set up the dinners or post they will be someplace and what I have found is that unless the girls know for sure someone will be there, they won’t go and I can understand that as it can be intimidating and lonely to be the only one who shows up. What we would like is for more of the group to plan things and be there for others to show up. We are really active, probably one of the most active T-girl groups in the country but even on our Wednesday night dinner we tend to go to a hand full of places and just cycle through them, we do occasionally put a new place in the mix but that takes a little effort as we really need to know a little about it such as reservations, how they can accommodate bugger groups, and of course price as for some that can be a big deal as we are all in different economic ranges. It is nice to do a really nice place once in a while but I really think a dinner where you can eat for $10 to $20 is probably the best for any group of people. We may put it out to the group and see if we can get more people to agree to be in charge of an event, even if we got just 25 people to arrange 1 event a year that would be awesome. We even talked about doing another cruise, Melissa and I are thinking an Alaskan cruise. I have always wanted to go to Alaska plus these tend to be a lower cost which may get more girls to go.

We ate dinner and we were also kind of watching the Seahawk game. Some of our group are huge sports fans, ii can take it or leave it but it is funny as I have watched way more football as Susan then as my male self and if someone had told me 15 years ago, I would be sitting in a bar dressed as Susan watching football, I would have thought they were crazy. Well they lost but it was a close game.

It was about 7:30 when Robyn and Bobbie showed up so we were up to 5 of us now. Of course, I had to get a selfie. Now I like this dress as if I wear my corset tight and my pushup bra, I can get a little cleavage without a lot of work. The 5 of us sat and talked some more it was a really fun night.

It started getting busier which is fun as it is nice to people watch. Nicole wanted some pictures of her so I took some of her and we also got some of us together and of course I got a few of just me. I still don’t like the way I look when I pose like this as I look way to stiff but this one actually was not bad.

It was about 8:30 when Robin one of our newer members showed up. This was her first time out with the group and she had the biggest smile on her face, she actually had this smile the whole night long. Nothing makes you look better then smiling. Now I think she has been out a couple times before but she did really well and it was wonderful to meet her as we have been Facebook friends for a while now. Having friend online is wonderful but when you can actually meet them that is awesome. She reads my blog and have met a lot of girls lately that found me or our group through my blog. Tok think that when I first started it, it was just a way to record my Susan time for myself, never really thought anyone would find it let alone read it.

It was wonderful to sit and talk with her and get to know her, something Susan loves to do. Now as we sat and talked, I noticed a lady at a table across the way looking at me. Now I know I get looks and most of the time I don’t even notice or pay attention but it seemed every time I looked over there, she was looking at me and then would look away. Any way late on she came over and told us how awesome we all were and then told me how pretty I looked which I always love to hear. Now I have gotten compliments on my eye makeup, lipstick, dress and heels but this was the first time I got a compliment on my eyebrows, she thought they were awesome. We talked a little and I thanked her before her and her friend left.

Karaoke started and Melissa and Nicole left so I talked with Robin some more. She wanted to get some pictures so I took some of her and she even wanted a picture with me and you know how I feel about having my picture taken with other people so we got several pictures of us. It really was a wonderful night and I met a new friend and hope she can come out more with the group.

Lauri also showed up around 10 so we actually had 7 of us here tonight although not all at one time. It was good to see Lauri as she is one I can pretty much count on being here every Saturday night although later in the evening. We talked a little which is nice as I love to catch up on what is going on in everyone’s life and of course how their New Years was. Most of us didn’t make it late enough to see the New Year come in

It was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night. what a wonderful start to 2019

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January 6, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Last Saturday night of 2018 at the Escape

It is the last Saturday of 2018 and I am going to the Escape tonight and I am looking forward to it. With the year commit to an end and I look back it has been a challenging year. My dad passed away the end of September and this is the first Christmas without him and that was hard. now it wasn’t unexpected but still leaves a hole in your heart and it is always hard during the holidays. It really is hard to believe he has been gone 3 months. That being said I did have a wonderful Christmas with my mom and my brother and his family. I hope all my friends who read this had a Merry Christmas also. Now there was also a lot of good this year also and I have always been the type to focus on the positive, the good that happens as that is what makes life good. Trust me if you can focus on the good in your life instead of the negative life is wonderful.

Some of the highlights this year was going to Diva Las Vegas again, this was my 7th year going and as always it was fun, 9 days living as Susan with my friends and of course my acrylic nails. You can read about it on my blog. I also got to go out with my friends, not as much as I wanted but still enough to value and cherish the time spent with them and I have some really wonderful friends, some are more like family and I love them all. I even made some new friends as we had several girls join our group and come out with us. New Years is fast approaching so it is always a time to look back as well as look forward. I would like to wish everyone a Happy New Years may it be your best yet and please be safe if you go out.

Now back to tonight. I posted in our group I would be at the Escape and I hoped others would show up. Now I took my time getting ready, I really do enjoy the time getting ready and doing my makeup. People ask me why and the best answer I can give is it is like I am stepping outside my male life and becoming Susan, my vacation or escape from my male life and all that goes with it. As I do my makeup, I see the lady I am on the inside come out, it is such a wonderful feeling. I was ready and on my way by 6 and got to the Escape about 6:30, traffic was bad as it was really rainy. Luckily, I got a parking spot right in front of the door. I ordered dinner and sat down at the table and got my computer out.

It wasn’t long and Jan and Lynn showed up. It was great to see them, I kind of thought they would be out tonight as they had asked online if there were any plans for tonight. My food showed up so I closed my computer down to eat and talk with Jan & Lynn. As we talked there was a man and woman at the bar who waved to us and then came over. Turns out the man was Audri one of our newer members to the group. Audri and her girlfriend, Kelli came down to check out the Escape and meet us. They were really nice and we invited them to join us. It was so nice to meet them and get to know them, as I said earlier, I have met some really wonderful people this year. Audri’s girlfriend Kelli is really supportive of her and encouraging her to be herself and go out which is really wonderful.

We talked for a while which was nice, I told them about Diva Las Vegas and they both said they were interested and wanted to go this year. By the way Diva Las Vegas this year is March 31st to April 5th if anyone is interested in going. Cassandra and I are planning on going although my vacation hasn’t been approved yet but I am hoping to find out this week. It really was turning out to be a wonderful night.

Karren also showed, it was wonderful to see her again. We all sat and talked and had a wonderful girl’s night out. As the night went on it got busier as it always does and by the time Karaoke started. Now Audri & Kelli had to leave as they had other plans tonight but I hope they come out more. Karren stayed a little longer which was nice, it is hard to talk once Karaoke starts as it get louder but still fun. We talked little we are hoping to do a dinner on one Saturday night a month, the only issue is we may have to have Reservations and that might be hard as it takes more planning a head of time. Karren left and it was just Lynn, Jan and me for a while.

A little before 10 Lauri showed up so we had a good group of girls out tonight. We talked a little and listened to people sing. It was a wonderful night. It was about 11 when I called it a night. I wished everyone a Happy New Year as I won’t be out as I have to work early on New Years Day. I won’t be out till Next weekend so I had to make the most of tonight. Have a wonderful, safe, and Happy New Years. Also had to get a selfie tonight.

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December 30, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape, made some new friends

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight and I am looking forward to it. We are one week away from Christmas, Merry Christmas everyone. Now this also means I will have family in town next weekend so there will be no Susan next weekend so I have to make this weekend count. Now with that being said I wanted to get to the Escape by 5 so I could eat and play on my computer a little till others show up, I am hoping others will show up as I posted too our group but haven’t seen a reply. Either way it will still be a fun night. I am planning on staying till 10 maybe a little later but I have to get up early Sunday morning 6am so that is why I wanted to get there early. It was a little after 3 when I started getting ready, I really love the time I take to be Susan. I was on my way by 5 just a little later than I had hoped.

I got to the Escape and was able to park right in front. I went in and got my table and then went and ordered dinner. A couple guys at the bar asked how I was ding and if the group would be here tonight and I was hoping some would. I talked with them a little but felt bad as they knew my name but I couldn’t remember theirs. I went and sat down and played on my computer and ate my hamburger when it came. Of course, I had to get a selfie tonight, I am trying to get a picture each time I go out which I kind of got away from.

It was about 6:30 when Michelle showed up, it was good to see her so there was at least 2 of us for the night. I put my computer away and the two of us sat and talked. Now they had the music turned up tonight so it was a little loud even before Karaoke started so a little hard talking. Now we did talk a lot about Diva Las Vegas this year. Cassandra and I are planning on going, Julie is a maybe and Michelle is really thinking about it and we are still 3 months away. Diva Las Vegas is March 31st to April 5th 2019. Check out their web page Diva Las Vegas and think about going.

A little after 7 Sasha showed up also, she had seen my post to the group and showed up so there were now 3 of us. Now we had a nice time talking and listening to the loud music. Now a little after 8 several girls came in that I didn’t know but they knew me from my blog. They came over and introduced themselves to us, there names were Betty who is a new member of our group, Shay and her wife Raina and Sindee and her girlfriend Dee. We talked a little and then they went into the other room where it was quieter to talk. Now Michelle, Sasha and I talked a little more. Well about 8:30 I walked over to the other room to make a phone call and then after I got talking to them. It was great to get to know them. The other room was getting busy and Karaoke was starting so Michelle called it a night so I got my stuff and Sasha and I came into the other room and joined them.

Now Betty being a member of our group had seen my post and knew I would be here. She met the other girls in a chat room. They don’t live in Portland one lives on the coast and the other in the gorge. They had been talking and agreed to meet in Portland tonight. The ones from out of town where staying just down the street. There was also another girl that was going to join them tonight. Now they were awesome people. Dee was taking selfies so I showed her my tip of setting your self timer so you can push the button and then hold it out and it has time to focus and take the picture. Of course, I got the bonus of getting a picture with her and she said I could post it. She also had red lipstick and we ended up talking about our lipsticks. Mine is Maybelline superstay matte lip ink which is awesome by the way. It doesn’t wear off, I have to use a cotton ball and baby oil to get it off. Dee was wearing loreal infallible matte lipstick . it was so much fun talking lipsticks with her

Now as we talked, I found out this was only Sindee’s second time going out and Shay has only been out a few times and also Betty’s first time out. How awesome is that, I remember my first time out and how scary it was. It would have been so much easier if I had known others would be there. Now of course Betty is a member of our group but I encouraged Sindee and Shay to join our group and I gave them my Susan business card with my e-mail address on it so they could e-mail me if they were in Portland again.

Now around 10 Lauri showed up so it turned out to be a good turnout tonight. It was so much fun getting to know them and talking to them, something as Susan I enjoy. Getting to know new people. Now Sindee came out to Dee just a few months after they started dating and Dee loves it, Shay came out to Raina just a while ago, they have been married for several years but she is also very supportive. Their problem is they both live in small towns and I can understand how hard that would be. For many years I would not go out any place near where I live. I would always drive at least 15 to 20 miles just to be safe. It was such a fun night. now later on Sindee agreed to sing Karaoke if Dee would so they both put their names on the list.

When it was Dee’s turn to sing, we all moved over to the other side where the Karaoke was and Dee went up to sing. She did awesome and had so much fun up there, right after her Sindee went up and sang and also did awesome. Now we were having so much fun and I so enjoyed getting to know them and I knew it was getting late. I went up and paid my bill and one of the men at the bar noticed and said to me, I don’t think I have seen you here this late before and he was right it is very rare. I got back to the table and looked at my phone and it was after 2am. Now Sindee wanted a picture with her, Dee and me so we took one and of course I took one also and asked if they minded if I post and they both said yes. I still like to get permission as I know some don’t like to have their pictures posted. One reason I never ask to get pictures with other girls if they are not taking pictures themselves. This is the 3 of us. What a cute group of ladies. It was 2:30 am when I left and headed for home. It was a wonderful knight and I really hope Sindee and Shay join our group now being this late I will regret it in the morning when my alarm goes of but tonight it was so worth it.

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December 16, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Rose_City_T-Girls | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Cold December night at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am looking forward to going to the Escape, well as being out as Susan. Now I am not sure who will show up but that doesn’t matter as I will go and have dinner and catch up o some work on my computer. I posted in our group and also our new e-mail group. Melissa has been working on this for a while and we went live the first of December. It is a which means noting to me other then we can send an e-mail and it goes to all the members and they can respond without logging onto our web page.

I was ready to leave a little before 5, yes, I am going to get there early as it is more Susan time and gives me a chance to get some work done before others show up. I got to the Escape a little after 5 and went in and got our usual table in case others show up. I ordered dinner and got out my computer. Now there were 2 men at the table next to me as I worked and finally one of then told me he loved my eyes and the way I did my makeup, kind of a cat eye look. Now I didn’t really have a cat eye look as my liner just went across the lid but I did have some darker eye shadow on the outer edge and it was a crisp line so I can understand his thought. I thanked him as I do like getting compliments even though I am not interested in men. Of course, I had to get a selfie now. I was almost done with my dinner and Kitty showed up, she was in the area and stopped in for about a half hour. She had seen my post on our e-mail group so I guess it is working. We sat and talked for a while it was nice to get to talk with her 1 on 1 as o got to know her better. I have known her for several years but it has always been a group when she has been out. It is a funny story I have to tell now, as Kitty and I were talking 2 men walked up and introduced themselves to us, they seemed nice and then the one asked if it hurt, now he was looking more at Kitty and I wasn’t sure what he was talking about and Kitty just asked if he was talking about her breasts as that was kind of where he was looking. He smiled back and said and I quote “no when you fell from Heaven” I kid you not. Now I have heard this line in movies but never really thought anyone used it, I had to control myself and not laugh, kitty took it as a compliment which it was and thanked him. They talked to us a few minutes before they left.

She left a little after 6 and I was back on my computer for a little while before another girl from our group arrived. She also saw it on our e-mail group although she does come here quite regular, but she also likes our e-mail group. We talked about it for a little while, Joanie also showed up with a friend. She also saw it on our group e-mail. It is funny as Joanie and Kitty were both at Wednesday night dinner also. I think this is going to work really well. The only bad thing is the first few days when we added 200+ members our e-mails got flooded as a few girls posted hi or thanks for setting this up and then of course people responded and with that many people trying it well you can imagine the number of e-mails. A few girls unsubscribed from the group because of the number of e-mails but I figured it would die down after a week or two and it has. Now it is just the normal messages and is running 5 to 15 a day. If you ever get on one of these give it a couple weeks before leaving the number will go down.

I got to talk with Joanie a little more, I think this is only the 3rd or 4th tine I have met her so it is nice to get to know her better and also her friend who seemed really nice. Laura H and Max showed up as did Laura M and her girlfriend, they did sit in the other room as they got there after karaoke started and they wanted to talk. It was about 9:30 when Robyn showed up which is late for her but Diane was also going to be here tonight and se never makes it till 10:30 or 11 so she new she would be out later. It was good to see her again and to think I was worried I might be the only one here tonight.

About 10 Laurie showed up as she is usually our last girl to show up but not tonight as Diane still had not arrived. Laurie was happy with the e-mail group as I set her up on our group the Rosecityt-girls a year or more ago but her computer is so old she has not been able to get on it. She loves the fact she gets the e-mails now and knows what is going on. If you are reading this Melissa the e-mail group is a hit, thanks so much for getting this set up.

Diane showed up about 10:30 and it was great to see her again. The last time I saw her was at Sweethome, I haven’t been there in a year or more. I think I will have to go there one Friday night just to see it again as it was a fun and friendly place to go. Now I did talk a little with every one which was hard as it got really busy and we were kind of spread out. Eventually most of us wound up over by the pool table at the smaller tables. It really was a busy night here tonight and a lot of new faces.

Robyn was playing pool with a lady and I was kind of looking at her and trying to decide if she was trans. As I have said many ties it really is hard for someone to transition and pass completely unless you do it at an early age other wise there are always little things that people may pick up on. Now her arms were little more defined and her hands a little bigger and narrower hip but even still I was not sure and as such was not about to ask. She really was passable I she is trans and I am thinking if I just saw her out someplace, I probably wouldn’t have noticed these things and never gave it a second thought.

Now again I stayed out a lot later than normal as usually I leave by 11 at the latest and tonight it was almost midnight but it was a fun night.

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Okay a close-up selfie

December 9, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan, Rose_City_T-Girls | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Saturday night out at Escape, getting back into the routine.

It is the Saturday after Thanksgiving and I hope and pray you all had a wonderful one. Mine was good a little quiet, I had my mom over for the day and cooked dinner. It was a little different this year as I did the same thing last year for both my parents. It has been 9 weeks since my Dad passed away and it does get easier but there are certain things that you remember, things you did together and those can be hard. it was a good day though. Any way as I said it is Saturday night and I am going out to the Escape for a few hours. I had hoped to be there by 5pm but I didn’t get home till after 4:30 so I set my sights on 6 and started getting ready. I knew the dress I was going to wear. It was about 5:45 when I was ready and went to the closet for my dress and of course changed my mind and went with my black and gold dress instead. Got my nails on and was out the door. I got to the Escape just after 6 and parked right in front and went in.

They were not as busy as last week and I was able to get my usual table in hopes others would show up, I posted in our group I would be here between 6 & 7. I went to the bar and ordered dinner and my drink, Sprite as I don’t drink. It is funny as when I first started going out, I think I was the only girl that didn’t drink, now I would say it is 30% to 40% and some of those who do drink have one or two and then switch to pop. There was a young lady at the bar that came over and talked to me, her name was Nicole and she thought I looked beautiful, now she had been drinking but I still took it as a compliment. I really do love being complimented on how I look as Susan, in my male life never really give this much thought. I stood there and talked with her for 5 to 10 minutes before going to my table. I no more than got my computer out and my dinner came so I ate it while responding to an E-mail. A few weeks back I went through some of my friends I have not heard from in a while and sent them an e-mail. I got a reply from Kendra who I have not seen in probably 6 years. She is still doing well and took a break from being Kendra but it is coming back again. I have learned this from myself. I could probably stop dressing if it was a life or death issue but Susan would always be with me, a part of me and I would think about her and dressing all the time. I am hoping one of the times she gets to Portland she will have some Kendra tine and we can get together. It is so easy to lose touch with people especially when you only know one side, or part of them.

Well as I finished my e-mail Nicole showed up, she came down from the Seattle area to go out with us. She gets down here 4 to 6 times a year and I always look forward to seeing her. I remember the first time I met her at Washington Square mall. It was February of 2014, yes, I cheated and looked it up in my blog. Wow I have known her for almost 5 years and she goes out almost twice a week now. I really have made some wonderful friends. She ordered dinner also. Bobbie also showed up so there were 3 of us. We ate and talked and it was so much fun. She was telling me how she brought several dresses down for tonight as she was not sure what she would feel like wearing and of course I told her how I changed my mind on what I was going to wear tonight and also my first Diva Las Vegas in which I too almost everything. I had enough dresses on that trip to wear 2 every day plus and several skirts and capri and enough tops to also have 2 a day just to be safe. It is so much fun being a girl. Nicole also has a blog that is private and that is okay, I would encourage everyone to have some kind of record of your life for later on, she writes what she ore and where she went and puts pictures of her outfits. I look Back on my blog all the time, how I found when I met Nicole. Now I did take a selfie when I first got here should have gotten a picture with Nicole.

Now the girl I met at the bar when I first got here came over again so I got to introduce Nicole to Nicole, how cute. We talked for a few minutes and another girl name Melinda came over. I have never met either of them before but they wanted up to dance with them, yes, they have both been drinking. Well I explained I was not a dancer but this didn’t seem to register with them as they took hold of my hand and pretty much pulled me to the floor, well I wasn’t fighting to hard. so now Nicole and Melinda, and Bobbie, Nicole and I were out dancing the best I could. Now I know my body does not bend the way theirs does but I tried as I could, of course I had my corset on which also limited my movement. We probably only dance 5 or 10 minutes before we went back to our table and I was a little out of breath, yes, the corset does limit your breathing. Melinda talked with us a little more before she went back and joined her friend.

Robyn also showed up as did another girl from our group. There was also another transgendered woman here with I assume her wife but they sat together at a small table. I did wave at them but wasn’t sure if I should go over as they seemed to be on their own and I didn’t want to interrupt them. 9 pm came and Karaoke started so it got a little loud and hard to talk but it was still fun. Nicole stayed later tonight as she made it till a little after 10pm, she usually leaves at 9 when Karaoke starts. She might make it down in December but if not, she will be down in January. It was sad to see her leave but it was a great night, I did tell her the Starbucks I am going to now a she did pop in on me once at the Starbucks by my house as her male self of course. Would be so fun if she could meet me at Starbucks as Nicole.

Laurie also showed up just before 10 so we actually had 5 of us tonight, a smaller group but a lot of fun. I stayed till a little after 11 before paying my bill and heading home. It was a fun night out a I got to see my friends. It is hard when you don’t see your friends as they are a big part of one’s life. Cassandra has not been out much and with the holidays, she is really busy so I am guessing it will be after the first of the year before we can get together again and Julie is out of town for a few months although she may come back for a few days from time to time and I am hoping we can get together. I did talk with Cassandra on the phone the other night for almost an hour as we are planning on Diva Las Vegas next March as we both want to go that is if I can get the time off. The week they picked is not good for me at work but I am hoping to work it out. We are talking about going earlier and then leaving the Friday it ends so we only have 1 weekend in Las Vegas s it has gotten expensive. 5 years ago, we went for 9-night, 2 weekend and stayed on the strip and we paid lees than $400. Looking quickly online for the next Diva Las Vegas we are looking at $650 to $900 for 9 night and 1 weekend if we stay downtown and $1400 to $1900 if we stay on the Strip. I actually like the downtown more as the hotel casinos are no as big and massive so easier to get around and go between casinos plus you can find $5 blackjack. On the strip it is $10 on a weekday, $15 in the evenings and who knows about weekend. I like to play for fun so much rather have a cheep table. It was a wonderful night out though.

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November 25, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night at the Escape

Okay I am getting back into going out as Susan and tonight I am going to the Escape for a while and I am looking forward to it. First though before I started getting ready, I did my Christmas light on my house, okay I cheated as I got a few of the Laser projected lights at Walmart, they have them on sale for 19.99 and are very cool. Took me less than a half hour to get set up, just have to wait till it is dark or at least a little darker to make sure they are projecting on my house correctly. It was about 3:30 when I started getting ready. I was all ready well accept for my dress and lipstick by 4:45. Now before I did my lipstick and dress, I slipped on my pants and a shirt and went out to position my lights. It was dark enough to see them on the house although it was still light outside. I spent about 20 minutes adjusting the lights outside in my front yard with full makeup on accept for the aforementioned lipstick. Now I realize no one would really notice unless they came over to talk to me as I was facing my house and not the street. It was a little after 5 when I went in and did my lipstick bright red and put my dress, heels and hair on and was on my way.

I like getting to the Escape early as parking is easier and it gives me a little time on my computer before friends show up. As I got close, I noticed a lot of cars parked on the street which is not normal for this early and the parking lot was full. I pulled back on the street and as I was going by the parking lot to go find a parking place a car pulled out so I was able to pull right back in and get a spot almost right in front of the door. I went in and they were packed, I don’t think I have eve seen it this busy. There was only 1 small table by the window so I took it. Now I had to go stand in line to order dinner. Turns out there was a group here celebrating a lady 70th birthday. I got back to my table and got out my computer, now over the next hour at least 7 women came over and talked with me, 3 asked if I knew the birthday girl as they thought I was part of the group. I explained I was just here to meet some friends later. They were fine with and even gave me a piece of cake.

Now I wasn’t sure who all would be here tonight other than Bobbie and most likely Sasha as Sasha posted in the group if anyone was going here tonight and I replied. Now occasionally girls will post in the group they are thinking of going someplace but I have found if you want people to show up you have to say you will be there as some are bot willing to go unless they know for sure someone will be there. I said I would be here from 6 till 10 so that is what I will do. Now they had a DJ playing dance music for the party so it was loud from the start. A little before 7 Mellissa and her wife showed up and it was nice to see them. We talked for a little while but it was hard ton hear so they didn’t stay long.

I little after 7 Laura M showed up, turns out she was meeting a friend who just came out as Transgender. They have known each other for years but didn’t know this about each other, small world. Her friend showed up shortly after, Venessa and her girlfriend Rickie. Laura introduced me and they were bot awesome. Now the funny part, Laura and Venessa sat and talked about the thing they did as guys now that they are female, two ladies talking about masculine things they did.

Bobbie showed up as did Sasha, Robyn and another girl from our group. It was nice to see Sasha and Robyn as I have not seen them for a while. As it got closer to 9 when Karaoke starts the party started to wind down and the normal table, we sit at opened up so we moved over there. Way more comfortable to sit in a chair with a back and that you can put your feet on the ground then a tall bar stool. Laura, Venessa, Rickie and I talked some more and I got to know them better and they really are nice ladies. I look forward to talking with them again sometime. I really do like meeting new people something I am not good at as my male self, I am way shyer when I am not Susan. Now as Karaoke started it started getting busier again although it really was busy the whole night. A little before 10 Laurie showed up so we had a good turnout tonight. I ended up staying till midnight so another late night but it was a wonderful evening out as I met sine new people, Venessa and Rickie and got to spend time with my friends. Now I am looking forward to Sunday night as I plan to go out again to Starbucks for a little personal Susan time.

Okay I didn’t get any pictures tonight but Sasha took a few and got one of me that I just love, besides the smile and the angle as I am not looking at the camera there is a nice shadow on my face which I think softens the picture. Let me know what you think.

November 18, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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