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Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight to see my friends. I am hoping for a good turnout tonight as in a way it is a going way for Cassandra. She is taking a break from going out so much as she has gone out 3 or more times a week for more then 10 years. She is also stepping down from running our group the Rose city t-girls. I call it our group as it is but Cassandra was the one who founded it, started it, got it to grow and made it the best T-girl group around. She has a personality and a way of talking to someone for just a short time and they are a friend. She really has lived and breathed this group for over 10 years and we all understand her need to step away. Melissa, Kate, Julie and I are going to step in and do are best to run the group but we will never be able to replace her even with 4 of us. Cassandra is not going away she will still be around just not coming out as much. So, for members of our group if you have ideas please look to the Administrator page and contact one of the Admins. Trust me running a group like this is a huge thing and we will need all your help. Any way this will be Cassandras last Saturday night out and this Wednesday will be her last dinner for a while so if you are in the group please make every effort to come out to dinner this week.

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

Now I wanted to get to the Escape early as I wanted to work on my blog from Thursday night dinner with Charlene and her wife and also my trip to the nails salon. My goal was to be there by 5, well I didn’t make it as it took a little longer getting ready. It was just before 5:30 when I got there and to my surprise Cassandra was already there. She came early and was on her computer in her favorite chat room. Now I know some may not understand why she like to go into chat rooms and that is okay as it is not for everyone, what matters is she enjoys it and that makes it wonderful. No different than my going to Starbucks for a few hours as Susan, just something I enjoy. That is what makes us all unique and wonderful. We can all be different in ways and yet be friends. Well I set up my computer and ordered dinner, a burger as they have really wonderful Burgers here. When my order came I was thinking I really didn’t think this out as I had a burger last night when I had dinner with Charlene and her wife and if I do get to go out to Starbucks tomorrow I usually go get a burger after that before I go home and that would make 3 nights in a row having a hamburger.

I was just finishing my burger and about half way through writing my blog when Charlene showed up, it was great she could make it out again tonight. Her wife didn’t make it as they had been out all-day shopping and left their dog alone all day in their RV so she didn’t want to leave the dog alone for that long, after all pets are more like family. Kate showed up and it was great to see her and I introduced Kate and Charlene and the 3 of us sat and talked. Now the interesting thing is even though Kate lives here in Portland and Charlene in Eastern Washington Kates job has her work over there sometimes and it turns out Charlene and Kate know a lot of the same people from their work. It really is a small world. It is amazing how many times you find you have people in common that do not know about this side of your life. Michelle and Bobbie also showed up so it was looking like we would have a good turnout. Now the softball team the Escape sponsors was doing a fund raiser, bingo so I bought a ticket and all of us played. Cassandra was the only on from our table to win but it was fun.

Sandy from up by Olympia showed up, she was down here working and stopped by for a little while to see Cassandra on her last Saturday night. It was really great to see her again. Last time I saw her was when we did our dinner at City Grill in early February. Same thing as she had been in town and stopped in to see us before driving home, she didn’t stay for dinner that night. Same as tonight as she hast to drive home tonight so she will not stay long but still great to see her. I really love going out with my friends but the night is just a little better when you see friends that don’t come out as often. We also had another girl from our group here tonight so it was going to be a good turnout.

Karaoke started and of course it gets loud and hard to talk but still fun. I tried to talk Charlene into singing but no luck, yes, I am the one who tries to get others to sing when I won’t do it myself. It was getting late and Charlene called it a night, it was sad to see her leave but I know we will get together again. Lauri also showed up, as I have said before she is our late-night girl as she does not make it out much before 9:30. I was talking to her and I don’t know why I turned around and Bob and his girlfriend Lori came in. I thing the last time I saw Bob was 2 or 3 years ago at one of the Halloween Parties. It was so wonderful to see him again. We met him when we went to Easy Street (which isn’t there any more) and that would have been 2010 I think. We hit it of with him and he has been in our group ever since. He is a pool player and that was how we met. He had seen in the group it was Cassandra’s last Saturday night so he also came out. I think we found the secret to getting girls out so every Saturday from now on will be Cassandra’s last night out. I got to talk with them for a while it was a really wonderful night out tonight.

I was talking with Lauri about our group and she was having trouble joining, lack of a picture which we require. Well I took her picture and we used my computer to set her up as a member and then I approved her so now all she hast to do is go to her e-mail and activate her account. Now the funny thing is setting up her account I learned I have been misspelling her name in all my blogs, funny not the name I would have thought I would miss spell, yes, she spells it Lauri. Well it was loud and we wanted to talk so once again we moved into the other room where it is a little less noisy. We spent about 30 or 40 minutes talking before we called it a night. It was 11:15pm another late night but so much fun and I got to see some of my friends I don’t see as much. As I have said many times Susan is really blessed with wonderful friend, more like family. Thanks to all of you as you really have made my life wonderful.

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May 14, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

Yes, once again it is Saturday and I am going to get to spend the evening with my friends at the Escape. I really love my time as Susan and the time I spend with my friends so it is an awesome night when I get to do both. Now my goal was to start early and hopefully be to the Escape by 5 as I have been busy and falling behind on my blogs. I have always tried to write my blog the next day and that has not happened the last couple weeks. I was out of the shower and just getting ready to start my makeup and something came up and it delayed me for almost an hour so needless to say I didn’t get to the Escape till 6:30.

I got there and went in and guess who was there, Kelli, it was so wonderful to see her again as it has been over a year. She actually went to Diva Las Vegas a few years back with us. It was great to talk with her for a little while. Cassandra was also there early so for once I was not the first to arrive. I ordered dinner and got out my computer.

It wasn’t long and Kate showed up as did Jan & Lynn so we had a good turnout and it was just 7 pm. Now Kelli couldn’t stay long as she was picking someone up at the airport and that was why she was in town. Now we started talking about our Mexican Cruise this October as we are all going. Now as Cassandra set this all up she gets an update on how many are going so we were looking at stateroom bookings. Now it turns out my stateroom is right next to Cassandra and Julie is just the other side of Cassandra’s. on the other side of my room two doors down will be Jan & Lynn and across the hall from me is Kate and across the hall from Julie is Robin so we have 5 staterooms really close to each other and of course we have others going that are on other levels or further down from us. We actually have 28 who have booked staterooms but we all have till the end of July to pay so we may lose a few. We are all looking forward to it, it will be my first cruise and as with Diva Las Vegas I am doing the whole trip as Susan which includes flying down and back which I have always wanted to do.

Narcist also showed up, she is not actually a member of our group but she has been coming out more regular to the Escape. We also had another girl show up so we had a good turnout tonight. Now as it got later it got busier and that is always fun as I really like to see all the different people here. Karaoke started and it is fun to listen to the singing but it makes it hard to talk. It was almost 10 when Lori showed up, as I always say she is our late-night girl. It was good to see her out again. She is also not a member but I am still trying to get her to join our group as it really is a wonderful group.

It was getting late and after 10 and I was thinking of leaving but again we were talking about our cruise so Cassandra, Jan, Lynn, Kate and I went into the back room so we could talk more. We are looking at the port excursions to see what we might like to do. We probably spent 45 minutes or more talking about this and the cruise, as I said we are all looking forward to it. By the way I have my passport now so that is one less thing I have to do for the cruise.

It was a fun night and it was after 11 when I paid my bill and said my goodbyes before calling it a night and heading for home. Thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new on my most recent blog.

May 8, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday night dinner with Cassandra & Melissa

Okay it is Thursday night and I am getting together with Melissa and Cassandra for dinner to work on our web site and mainly our e-mail. Okay a trip down memory lane, our group was really started as a Yahoo group back in November of 2007 By Cassandra when she was going out but didn’t know if other T-girls would be out. Well she came up with the idea of having a group where t-girls could post when they were going out or see where others were going. I joined the group in in Early 2008 and it was the best thing that could have happened to me. I made so many wonderful friends and it opened up the world to me going out as Susan. Now as with everything change comes and Yahoo groups changed and I am sure Yahoo thought it was for the better but for what our group wanted it was not. Also, with all the changes going on with Yahoo and the fact we had seen so many things Yahoo had close down we were worried about what would happen. So, in the spring of 2016 several of us started talking about options for our group and there were, few but what we wanted was something we could control so we decided to look into creating our own web site and we did. Our web site Rosecitytgirls.com went live in July 2016 and we now have 184 members of our group. In the fall of 2017 we wanted more control and we moved it to a new server and Melissa took over maintaining the web site and she has done a wonderful job. Tonight, is the last part moving our e-mail to the Gmail server. Now right now just Cassandra, Melissa, Julie and I have email set up through our web site.

We were meeting at the Escape at 6 for dinner and to work on the e-mail switch and the web site. I was ready a little before 5 and was on my way. Now it normally takes me 15 minutes to get to the Escape but that is on a Saturday evening, tonight there was rush hour traffic and I didn’t get there till 5:45. Cassandra was already there on her computer so I set mine up and ordered dinner. Melissa showed up at 6 and she sat between us so we could both see what she was doing. Now as I said Melissa ahs done a wonderful job and it didn’t take her long to get us all set up and switched over and it was nice as I learned a little about how e-mail works behind the scene.

We had a nice dinner and a fun evening and got a lot done and I think we have a really wonderful web site. We also talked about some things we want to work on for the web site, Melissa has some wonderful ideas and the fact it is ours and we control it we can do what ever we want. It was amazing how fast the night went by and soon it was 9pm. We got a lot down but it was time to call it a night. I got home and was getting ready for Bed and Julie texted me this picture from Diva Las Vegas when we had dinner at the Bahama Breeze and I thought it was cute so I had to include it. Thanks Julie.

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May 6, 2018 Posted by | crossdressing, Dinner out, Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight, it has been 3 weeks as we missed 2 Saturdays as we were at Diva Las Vegas. We had a blast there so I thought I would give a few recommendations before I go on. We stayed at the Four Queens hotel casino downtown, awesome place. We were treated wonderful and they really want us to come back next year. The Hoover Dam tour, really fun and we had a great time and were treated wonderful. PF Chang at Planet Hollywood Great food and we were treated wonderful. Bahama Breeze awesome place, a must if you are in Las Vegas. For golfing the club at Sunrise and also Wild horse golf club where awesome and a good choice for a round of golf. Now there were a lot of fun things we did and had fun at all and were treated wonderful every place we went but these stuck out in my mind.

Back to tonight, I started getting ready about 4 as I wanted to get out as early as I could. I took my time and tonight I wore my wine-colored dress and of course I did a different lipstick to match my dress. I was on my way by a little after 5 and got to the Escape at 5:30, the good thing about getting here so early is parking is not an issue and it gives me a little time on my computer as I wait for other girls to show up. I ordered dinner and got out my computer but I didn’t have long to wait. Kate was the first to show up she had been out all day and had gone to a Gem show. She is sending most of the weekend as Kate. We talked for a few minutes about Diva Las Vegas and she had a lot of fun, I think she will go again next year. Cassandra showed up next and Kimberly right after her and so did Melissa so we had 5 of us here by 6. Seems we are getting out earlier. Of course, we also go home earlier, I say it is because it gets so loud when karaoke starts and it gets busy not because we are getting older.

Now the 4 of us talked for a while and I still find it interesting the differences in people, we all have different points of views on some things even though we are all transgender and feel the same about this. There are always things that should be avoided, politics and religion are 2 that come to mind. I try never to bring those into conversations and try my best to keep them out of my blog. In Las Vegas 1 night I was sitting between someone who supported Trump on my left and someone who hated Trump on my right and when the one started to talk bad about Trump I could see the other one getting mad and I knew just what to do. I held my pretty nails out and asked the dealer what she thought. She smiled at me and told me how pretty they were and we started talking about nails and it actually got the other 2 people off the topic of politics and every thing was good again. So, this is my advice, remember you never know what others think and before you say something (especially something that is controversial) you might want to avoid it. The one thing I do know about politics is you will not change how the other one feels by attacking them or calling them names, as a matter of fact you probably won’t change their minds even with polite talk about it so really no point. Opps a little off track again but I do have blonde hair so I can get away with it.

Michelle also showed up and she also had fun at Diva Las Vegas, yes this really was a lot of the conversations tonight as most of us out tonight just got back from there. Laura M. and her girlfriend also showed up and it was good to see them. Laura got her phone stolen in Las Vegas, well maybe she lost it and the person who found it kept it but either way it was tracked to an apartment complex in Las Vegas. Sadly, the police do nothing about this as it happens so often and hard to track down. She got a new phone but couldn’t get it to work as they gave her the wrong SIM card so for the last couple days in Las Vegas she had no phone. Now it is funny as I can remember not having a cell phone and it was not an issue but once you give yourself to the cell phone you become so dependent on it. Other then my parents and my phone number I don’t know any one else’s, same way with e-mails addresses, you start typing their name and the phone pulls it all up and completes it for you. Texting, e-mails, photos, cameras, navigation and so much more. When you lose it you really are cut off from everything. Luckily, they got it fixed right after she got home, I really hope this never happens to me.

Cassie also showed up for a while as did Kim, now I met Kim once before but it was several years back so I didn’t remember a lot about her, yes, I am Blonde and I am using that again. It was nice to talk with her again and catch up. She doesn’t get out much, seems she was out at the Escape several months ago bit on a night I missed. She had met a few of the girls that night so she knew a few of them which always makes it easier. She is really nice and I hope she comes out more. She is not actually a member of our group but we encouraged her to join.

Now about 8:30 it started getting really busy which was nice as they had the air conditioner on and it was a little chilly tonight here and I am almost always warm. Of course, my dress didn’t cover most of my shoulders, ladies’ outfits are just not as warm as men’s but way cuter and more fun to wear. As it got busier it did get a little warmer inside. Karaoke started and it did get loud and it was hard to have conversations any more but it was fun to listen to the songs and even sing along with a few I really liked.

Some of the girls left earlier but I stayed till about 10:30 before I called it a night. Wow how things have changed as we use to not go out till 8 or 9 and we stayed till they closed down. It was a fun night and it was sad to see it come to an end. This week I will be out 3 times as we have our Wednesday night dinner and then Thursday we are getting our together to work on our web site. Melissa has done a wonderful job with it and has moved it all over to our new web server and now she is going to move our e-mail server. I know Cassandra and I have e-mails addresses at Rosecutytgirls.com and maybe Julie so once she moves it we will have to reconfigure our e-mail program. I think Melissa & Kate also want to set up an e-mail address there as I think it would be nice for all the administrator to have an e-mail address through our group. And then next Saturday night I will also be out again. Lots of Susan time which I enjoy.

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April 29, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape

Saturday and I get to go out again. But first I want to talk about Facebook and tolerance. Social media and especially Facebook has made it so easy to attack others who are different, have different views, beliefs and life styles and it has become accepted and I find this troubling. I have friends of all kinds and it seems that we are drawing lines between each other, us against them. Just my view point but if you want others to accept you than you need to accept them and this includes their views. I am not saying you have to agree with them but you need to accept their right to their views. I am transgender, I like to express pat of my life as female. I don’t believe or even expect everyone to like how I live my life but I do expect them to recognized my right to my life. I will never judge or attack someone who believes different than I do and I will never unfriend someone who is different or has a different view. What I am asking is for all you to do the same, please think before you post something and try to think how you would feel if someone said or posted something like that about you. Let’s see if we can start bringing people together instead of driving them apart.

I started getting ready earl so I could have more time as Susan. I got to the Escape at 5:30 and found a parking spot right in front. Now this early they were not that busy but that would change. I got our usual table and ordered dinner, got out my computer and waited to see who else would show up. Cassandra was the first to show up right before 6. It was good to see her and we got talking. Of course, the main topic is Diva Las Vegas which starts in two weeks. We will leave on the 13th and drive to Palm Springs to pick up Julie and be in Las Vegas on April 14. I will get my nails done on the 12th and I will have beautiful long acrylic nails for 12 days, I look forward to this every year. I really do wish I could have long pretty nails all the time. I do get asked all the time when I am going to transition and the answer is I am not but if I could have a way to have long pretty red nails all the time I would in a second. It really is a shame men can’t take have pretty nails. It is funny and a little unfair that woman have so many options, long hair or short, dresses or pants, heels of flats, makeup or no makeup, long nails or short. When it comes to fashion and looks women have so many more choices.

Kate showed up next and it was good to see her also. The 3 of us kept talking, it is really enjoyable to just sit and talk, at least Susan thinks so. It is probably the biggest difference between my male self and Susan. As my male self I can do conversations but it is not something I go out of my way to do or find really fun. It also helps I have such wonderful friends. That is another thing I am really looking forward to about Diva Las Vegas and also the cruise as I will get to spend almost two weeks with them. I really have come a long way as Susan, as my female self and excepting this side of me as who I am and it really is because of the wonderful people I have met and are now some of my closest friends.

Rachel also showed up for a little while, she doesn’t get out often so it is always nice when she does. Page also showed up as did Kris and her boyfriend so we had 6 of us here tonight. It started to get busy about 8 which is always nice as it is fun to people watch. Karaoke started around 9 and it always gets busy then and loud. It makes it hard to talk once it gets this loud but still a fun time. I think that’s one of the reasons I like to get here early. Lori showed up a little after 9 which is actually early for her. I stayed a little longer so I could talk with Lori for a while which was hard with Karaoke going on. It was almost 10 when I left.

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April 1, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night with my friends.

Once again it is Saturday night and I am going to the Escape to spend times with my friends. I always look forward to the time I spend with my friends and I am really looking forward to Diva Las Vegas which is weeks away. I will get 12 days living full time as Susan and of course I will be able to get long pretty acrylic nails for the trip. I started getting ready early as my Susan time for the next couple weeks will be limited as I get ready for the trip.

I got to the Escape about 5:30 and I got lucky and found a parking spot, the last one. I got our usual table inside and kearren was already there, it was good to see her again as it has been a while since she has been out with our group. It was good to get a chance to talk with her as we waited for others to show up. Of course, I ordered dinner and the food was good as always. Kate showed up next and the 3 of us talked till Kearren left, she was going to a dance with some of the ladies from the bar. Now of course I had to get a few pictures with Kate, well actually she thought of the pictures. I remember years ago when I was always getting pictures, I must have a couple thousand pictures of Susan on my computer. Now I don’t think about getting pictures and sometimes I regret it so I was happy Kate thought of it. Now it is funny as people always tell me I never take a bad picture, truth is I only post the good ones but tonight I really liked the way my makeup turned.

Cassandra showed up next and we talked a little about Diva Las Vegas and our Mexican cruise. I am really looking forward to both. Diva Las Vegas because it is so close as I said 3 weeks away and there is still time to sign up if you are thinking of going. The Mexican cruise as I have never been on a cruise before but also because I am planning of doing the whole cruise as Susan including flying down and back as Susan plus I will be able to get my nails a little longer for that. For Diva Las Vegas I have to keep them a little shorter so I can hold a golf club. There will be some first on the cruise, not only flying but I will be traveling to another country as Susan.

Michelle also showed up tonight and I can’t remember the last time I saw her out, she is also thinking or going to Diva Las Vegas. She asked if there was still time to sign up. I am hoping she goes. I think we have at least 10 going this year to Diva Las Vegas from our group. Jan and Lynn also showed up along with one other girl so we had a good crowd here tonight.

Now there were a couple ladies here, they were sisters and they came over and started talking with us. They were really nice and I think they wanted to get to know us, not sure if they have ever met a T-girl before. It was fun to talk with them and of course I had to get pictures with them. Now I talked a little with both of them but and it was fun meeting them and getting to know them a little. It is funny as Susan I really love meeting new people, in my male life I am way shyer and tend to stay more to myself so I guess there are differences between Susan and my male side. Now I didn’t get or remember both their names but one was named Natalie and this is a picture of me with her. Karaoke had started so it was loud and was hard to hear.

Now about 10 Kearren came back wit the group that went to the dance and Lorie also showed up so we had 8 of us here tonight. Now there were a couple ladies at the table next to me. They were going outside and asked if I would watch their drinks for them, I said I would. Now when they came back in I got talking to them and they were really nice also. Their names were Nicole and Rachel. I wish I had thought to get pictures with them also. I met some really nice people here tonight and that made the night so much more fun. It was almost 11:30 when I called it a night.

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March 26, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape, Saint Patrick’s Day

It is Saturday and our group is once again going to Salem to join the girls down there. I have been there a few times and it is a nice place just such a far drive as it takes me over an hour to get there. Now I was planning on going as I wanted to see some of the girls down there again but as always things come up. I had things to do earlier in the day and they took longer to get done then I planned. It was almost 5 before I started getting ready so it would be a rush. Now I have been getting to the Escape between 5:30 and 6 so going to Salem I would still be there by 7 but not tonight. It was after 6 when I was ready to leave and I was still thinking of going but as I pulled out of the garage I saw my fuel light on as I forgot to fill up so I stopped at Costco to get gas and of course had to wait in line. I filled up and of course I noticed everyone getting gas had on green, that’s right it is Saint Patrick’s Day. Anyway, by now it was almost 6:30 and it would still be an hour to get to Salem and then there was the drive home after people celebrated. I decided to go to the Escape instead and see who showed up there. I got there at 6:45 and went in after a quick selfie in the car.

Now they were not busy so I got our normal table hoping we would have a big group. I then went to the bar to order food, Lindsey was working tonight, she only works when they need extra help so it was great to see her again, really all the girls working here are wonderful. I got back to my table and no more then got my computer out and Kate showed up so I put it away. It was great to see her as I was wondering if I would be the only one tonight. Well we got talking and of course the most important topic came up, nails. Kate actually likes my nails how I have been doing them the last several months, so I explained how I have them done and really it is no different than any other woman other then the acrylic is a lot thinner layer. Kate has had a pedicure before but never had acrylic nails and as I have said I think everyone should try it at least once. I explained about the process and soon I had my computer back out showing her a few videos. I love watching online as I have learned a lot this way. One I really like for learning makeup techniques is Julia Graf, she does an amazing job breaking down different looks. The other if you want to learn about acrylic nails is by Suzie and she shows you the different styles, looks and how to do. You really can learn most anything watching videos on YouTube.

Any way we talked about so many things tonight and of course why we do this and again there really is no easy simple reason other then we enjoy it. The same as anyone else who likes to dress up sometimes we just do it as the opposite gender. By about 7:30 it started to get busy and I mean busy, it was a packed house tonight. Seems everyone is Irish on Saint Patrick’s Day and wants to celebrate. There were a lot of new faces here tonight also. Now of course I had to get a picture with Kate tonight. It still amazes me how often and how many pictures I have of Susan, I can’t remember the last time I took a picture of my male self. I probably have a couple thousand Susan pictures on my computer and maybe 10 of my male self.

Any way I really started my blog all those years ago just as a way for me to document and remember my adventures as Susan, the early ones are pretty simple, pretty much where I went and that was it. Here are a couple early blogs from 2006, including a quick stop at Hooters. I never really thought anyone would find much less want to read about my time as Susan. As I saw people were not only reading it but following it I started to write more and in more detail. It really has been a fun thing to do over the years. Again, I would recommend everyone write down at least the important things in your life so you can remember them and maybe share them. A blog is a great way as you can set it public or private or even have it public but keep some private, opps a little off topic again.

By 8:30 it was packed and standing room only and as it was only Kate and I when a few people asked if they could have the other end of our table we said yes, no sense us taking up a table for 8 when it was just the two of us. Karaoke started about 9:30 and that is when it usually gets loud but with so many people here tonight just talking around you it was loud already. It is amazing how fast the night was going just sitting there talking, this really is the feminine side of me as in my male side I am not really a talker, I don’t sit around and just talk but Susan loves to sit and talk.

Lorie showed up a little before 10, she is our late-night girl. She doesn’t get out till 9:30 or 10 and I assume usually closes the bar. I remember those days for me, I wouldn’t leave the house till it was dark so my neighbors wouldn’t see me, even in the winter when it got dark early I still didn’t go out much before 7 for fear one of my neighbors might look out the window and of course we would stay till the place we went closed. Now I don’t even look outside any more or care what time it is. I know one of my neighbors knows about Susan, she found out back in 2012 and she has had no problem with it, as a matter of fact I ran into her at Starbucks the other day, first time she has seen me up close and talked with me. I don’t know if she has told anyone, I hope not as I really do want to keep this side of me private but I am also not afraid of it anymore and I kind of think most of my neighbors know. As much as I go out and I have seen many of my neighbors outside as I pull out of the garage or drive down the street they at the very least have to wonder. It does make it a lot easier when you lose that fear but as I said I still don’t want people telling others about me but I am not going to stop being me.

Kate, Lorie and I talked some more but it was getting late and I do have to be up early so it was about 10:30 When I went up to pay my bill which was no easy thing to do as there was a huge line, it took me about 15 minutes standing in line. It really was a fun night and a lot of new faces here tonight. It was a small group but so much fun to socialize. It is not about where we go or what we do but the friends you are with. It is funny as I have been going to Bars with friends at least once a week for 10 years now and yet I don’t drink. Now early on I would occasionally order a glass of wine and slowly sip on it all night as I felt I had to but I quickly figured out I needed to be me, be Susan and that means I didn’t need to drink either. I really have met some wonderful people over the years and am lucky to have them as friends.

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March 19, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Another Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and my vacation is coming to an end, well not a true vacation as I had time I needed to use and things I needed to do around home but it did allow me some Susan time. Of course, I am going out tonight, I was home a little before 4 and started getting ready. Cassandra was hoping to be there by 6 and that was my goal although I was hopping earlier. It still amazes me that we use to not even go out till 9 or later and close places down and now we go early so we can get home at a decent hour. Part or it I am sure is age which creeps up on everyone. But more than that I think it is the fact we are more willing to go out early. I was ready a little before 5 and took a couple quick pictures before I left as I tend to forget once I am out.

Yes, tonight I was wearing my little, tight black dress and of course my corset under it. Now I have been wearing the corset a lot more probably 80% of the time I go out and I have found it has formed more to my body. The first time I put it on it took me over 20 minutes to get it on and laced up of course there was a learning curve to this but it was also harder to lace up. I can now get it tighter and it laces a lot easier. I think it only takes about 5 minutes now and yes, it is tighter then the first times I wore it but it does give me a nice shape as it pulls my waist in and comes down over the hips which actually makes my hips look bigger. It really is quite comfortable accept for getting in and out of the car or bending over to pick something up. Here is a picture of the corset I bought. It really is cute and the one I got is actually designed to be wore on the outside of your clothes. I just don’t think that would work for me, but it also works under my clothes just a little thick and during the Summer I am sure it will be hot.

Any way I was on my way to the Escape a little before 5 and got there at 5:20 and there were all kinds of parking spots right in front. As I said getting in and out of a car in a corset is not a graceful thing if you have a small car. I went inside and I of course was the first to get there from our group although there was probably 10 other people here already most at the bar. I remember when I would sit in the car till I saw someone I knew as I didn’t want to be the first one to arrive. I ordered dinner and got out my computer.

I had just finished my dinner when Cassandra showed up right about 6. We talked for a few minutes about Diva Las Vegas, we are both looking forward to it. We both changed our reservations so we arrive in Las Vegas on April 14 and leave on the 21st. We will be going through Palm Springs to drop Peggy off and pick up Julie. It will be so fun to have 3 of us in the car the whole trip. We have 8 of us for sure going and I hope a few more will go.

It wasn’t long and Nicole showed up. Her and her wife are down here for the weekend so she got to come out with us tonight. It is always so much fun to see her. She has been out almost as much as me this year. She started a blog but has it set to private so she can keep track of her outs. I would highly recommend this to everyone. Private or Public, transgender or not, keep a record of the things you do in life that are important to you, ad pictures, events, people you meet, places you go. Some day you will want to look back on things you did and this is a great way. When I ran into my neighbor that knows about Susan at Starbucks Friday I was able in just a couple minutes to look back and find the blog where she found out. Growing up I always thought diaries were silly but I really wish I had started my blog earlier and of course I did lose some of my blogs from GeoCities and yahoo 360 when they shut down. I now keep a lot of my blogs also on my computer just in case. Kimberly also showed up early so we have 4 of us here by a little after 6. The 4 of us talked about a lot of things as we waited for others to show up.

Next Kate, Melissa, Laura H. and Max showed up so we were up to 8.one of the local ladies at the bar came over and joined us for a while and of course she told us how nice we all looked which I never get tired of hearing. By 8 it was getting busy which is always nice to see as I do like when there is a big crowd more fun to people watch. WE all had a great time talking and of course a few of the girls played pool. By 9 Kimberly and Melissa had both left, tonight is daylight savings so we will move the clocks ahead 1 hour so we get less sleep tonight. I think a lot of us were planning on calling it an early night. About 9:30 Karaoke started and that is when it gets loud and hard to talk any more. Nicole was the next to leave, with Diva Las Vegas coming up in 5 weeks this will be her last trip down before we go so it will be a while till I see her again. She really is a good friend and has been coming out with the group pretty regular when you figure she lives 3 hours away. I still remember the first time I met her at Washington Square, that was February of 2014, wow 4 years ago. I was going out shopping and she contacted me on Facebook. She was in town and wanted to meet me. She was not dressing yet so I would meet her male side. It was a wonderful meeting and we hit it off and now she goes out as much as I do if not more. I really have met some wonderful friends as Susan and even the ones I meet now shape my life and Susan in some way.

It was almost 10 and I paid my bill as I was going to go home, after all with moving the clocks forward tonight it really is 11. Lori showed up as she is our late girl. She comes out around 10 and I guess stays till closing although I can’t say for sure as it has been a long time since I have been out that late. Well I got talking to her which was fun and of course listened to some of the karaoke and before I knew it, it was after 11. It will be a short night. I got home about 11:45 and I was ready for bed. The only problem was I had washed my sheets and blanket today so I had to make my bed first. Now I tried doing this as Susan and it was hard as 5-inch heels, and a corset are not normal stuff you wear. Strangely enough though what gave me the most trouble was my hair which kept getting in my face every time I bent over, so I removed the hair and finished making my bed before taking my heels, dress and corset off. Wow I would not want to be a maid.

It was a fun night out with my friends and I look forward to our next outing. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what I am doing as Susan with my latest blog.

March 11, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night at the Escape, yes, I get to go tonight.

It is Saturday and I had 2 things going on today so I wasn’t planning on being able to go out tonight. Well luck was with me and 1 got canceled and the other one got over early so I found myself at home a little after 3 with the rest of the day open. You guessed it I will be going out tonight, I started getting ready for a fun night out. Now I didn’t know for sure who all would be there other than Cassandra who posted in the group and Nicole who texted mew, she drove down from Seattle today just to go out with us. I was ready by about 5:20 and on my way getting to the Escape a little before 6. They were a little busy for as early as it was and also the two big tables were reserved for a party at 9. Now I debated about sitting there till 9 but decided to take the 3 small tables that were pulled together. They are taller with bar stools with no backs so not as comfortable but I was worried that come 9 we might not find a table to move to and it was the right decision.

I got my computer out and ordered dinner, I didn’t have much time on my computer as Cassandra showed up just a few minutes later followed by Nicole and Kimberly. Yes, we had 4 of us out by shortly after 6. We started talking and of course the first thing was Diva Las Vegas. We have made our plans now and Cassandra, Peggy and I will leave Friday morning and drive to Palm Springs to meet up with Julie and Trixie. Saturday Cassandra, Julie and I will drive to Las Vegas for Diva Las Vegas leaving Peggy to spend the week with Trixie. After Diva Las Vegas on Saturday we the 3 of us will drive back to Palm Springs drop off Julie and pick up Peggy and Sunday drive home, Road trip for Susan. This will save us a Friday and Saturday night in Las Vegas which are the most expensive, so instead of 9 nights it will only be 7 nights and should save us some money plus we get to spend more time with both Peggy’s and Julie.

We also talked about our Mexican Cruise in October which really is not that far off. We are all looking forward to it. I have never been on a cruise before so it will not only be a first for Susan but a first for me all the way around plus as we are planning on flying as our female selves that will also be a first. I am sitting right across the aisle from Julie and Cassandra so that will be fun. I am pretty sure that Kate, Mellissa and her wife are also on the same flight. It will be so much fun.

About 7:30 it started to get busy and I was glad I got the tables I did. Kate showed up as did Laura M, Jan & Lynn and one other girl from our group so we had 9 of us here tonight. Now they actually had to big parties here tonight so by 9 it was packed and everyone was having a great time. It is nice as we have got to know some of the regulars here so I was talking with a few of them also. It really was an enjoyable evening. Kimberly was the first to leave followed by Nicole as she had a 3-hour drive home.

Karaoke started and they had a different KJ tonight and she was really good also. Seems all the KJ’s for Karaoke can sing really well. It was a really fun night and I stayed out till 10:30 before calling it a night. Now I am actually on vacation this week but I have a lot of things I need to do so my Susan time will be a little limited. But on the top of my list is to try and get my Passport application turned in. I have been meaning to do that since December.

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March 4, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape, getting there early

It is Saturday and I am going out for the evening to the Escape, not sure who else will be there but that is okay. My plan was to get there early and do some studying before others showed up. The next couple weeks my Susan time will be limited mostly sur of the moment outings which can also be fun. It is nice though to know when you will be going out though as it gives you time to plan and think about it and plan.

Well I started getting ready about 3:30 with the plan of being ready by 5. I was right on schedule. Now if you have been following my blogs you know I bought a corset several weeks ago from Orchard Corset and I have been wearing most times I go out as I have found it really does nice me a nice shape. Well I tried putting it on a little lower as my shape is not quiet the same as the typical female and this actually works better as it gives me better hips. Also wearing it so much has made it fit better and easier to lace up as it has somewhat formed to my body. It is the last thing I put on before my dress and hair. So tonight, I got it all on and had a nice shape. Now it was time for my dress. I had several on the bed and tried a couple but my blue and black one which was the second one I tried was the one I was going for tonight. Well I put the other 4 back in the closet and had the one I was going to wear but I decided to see if I could tighten the corset a little more as I have had it on for about 10 minutes now and yes to my amazement I could. So, I guess the trick is put the corset on and move around a little and then tighten again. Looking in the mirror I would say my waist was 4 or 5 inches smaller than my hips, I had an hourglass shape that looked great. The dress was on and the hair and I looked great. Corsets really do give you a nice shape.

It was just after 5 and I got my stuff and went down to the garage to get in the car, I have a smaller car. Wow getting in was hard and I couldn’t breathe. By the time I was in the car I had to sit a moment and catch my breath. Sitting in a low car seat with a corset, especially if it is tight is not real comfortable and a little hard to breathe. It is only a short drive but I was gals when I got to the Escape, it was just as hard getting out of the car. I went in and was glad I would be sitting on a hard chair that doesn’t sink down. I put my stuff on a table and noticed Lee over at the bar. She is one of our newer members, only her 3rd time out. I went over and said hi to her and she came over and joined me at the table.

She was here with her Sister, yes, she has come out to her sister and she is supportive of her which is great. Now it is funny as each time she has come out she has come out with someone different, tonight being her sister, they were actually meeting 2 other women tonight and then going someplace else. Wow she has come a long way fast I still have not come out to anyone from my male side although at least 1 of my neighbors know and I am guess more do. The five of us sat and talked for about an hour till it was time for them to leave at 6:30 as they had 7 pm reservations. I told them how great it was they were supportive of Lee especially her Sister. They were all really nice. On the way out, Lee’s Sister thanked me for looking after Lee which was nice and of course made me feel good.

Now I was by my self at least as far as our group but there were some people around me at tables. I got my book out and started reading. I discovered long ago I am not a reader, some people love to read books I have always believed if a book was good enough to read it would be a movie. Anyway, reading a boring text book is not easy. This I going to be a long couple of weeks and I am not sure I will get through the whole book. I read about an hour till Kate showed up. I was glad when she got there as it gave me a reason to put my book away which probably is not the right attitude.

Kate and I talked for a while mostly about why we like to dress and we still really can’t explain it. Kates girlfriend knows she dresses but Kate just told her that she goes out as Kate and she is taking it well, but that is how we got on the topic of why we dress. I really don’t have a defining reason why, I guess it is like asking someone why they like ice cream or chocolate. The reason is they like the taste, it not like you can give a long list of reasons you just like it. I just like dressing up and being Susan. I can spend an hour getting ready to go sit at Starbucks for a few hours and do work, my blog, e-mails or just goof off on the computer. Something I could do just as easy at home or even as my male self at Starbucks so it really doesn’t make sense. When I am at Starbucks I do kind of people watch but not as much as I use to and I am not really thinking about how I am dressed or how I look, hopefully cute. There really is no reason I can come up with other then I am just being me, just being who I am. I think so many of us want to be able to point to one thing, one point in time, one event that happened to us and say this is why but I have never found that. This is just who I am and I have accepted that and I think that makes all the difference. If you can accept yourself for who you are that is all that matters.

Kate and I were beginning to think we would be the only ones tonight but then Laura M and her girlfriend showed up and shortly after Teri Lee showed up. She is one of our newer members and came down from the Seattle area. I have exchanged messages with her so it was wonderful to meet her in person. She was meeting another girl she became friends with through our group named Andi who also came out tonight. I met Andi at Diva Las Vegas last year and she joined our group. It was good to see her again and get to know more about her. She actually met Teri Lee a couple weeks ago for Teri Lee’s first time out, tonight is her second and she was doing really well. Our group the Rose City T-girls is really a wonderful social group, but what makes it so special is the help it gives to helping new t-girls come out in the world. It really is a wonderful feeling, like earlier tonight when Lee’s sister thanked me for helping Lee it made me feel good but I have to admit I really love the feeling of helping someone new come out and become themselves. I remember my first time out and the next few times and the girls who helped me. Lori the girl who tapped on my car window and asked if I was going in just as I was about to leave for the 4th time without getting out of my car. Alice who I met after going out just a couple times and mad me feel so welcome and helped me get over my sheer terror. Cassandra who formed this group that I have been part of now for years. They all has such big impacts on my life and if I can do that for just one girl then I am the lucky one.

Another girl also showed up so we had 6 of us here tonight and we all had a great time talking and yes it was a busy night as there was standing room only. It is always fun when there are so many people here but it also makes it loud and hard to talk especially when Karaoke started but it was a fun night. Even talked with a few of the regulars here not from our group which is always fun. It was a really good night out, of course I stayed out later then I planned.

It was about 11:30 when I called it a night. I had been here about 6 hours but didn’t seem like it. I paid my bill and said my goodbyes. I went and got in my car and wow as hard ass it was earlier getting into my car it was worse now. Don’t get me wrong, I love my new corset and I am thinking of getting another but the drive home was hard, sitting in the low seat sunken in I was really uncomfortable. All I could think about was getting home and taking off the corset. May have been a little on the tight side but hopefully I will get use to it as I love the look it gives me, bit only short drives when it is tight.

Little long tonight but thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

February 25, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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