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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Sunday and some Susan time including trip to nail salon

It is Sunday and once again I have some free time in the afternoon and evening and that means Susan time. I still need to write my blog from Wednesday and now Saturday so I am behind, sorry to those who follow me I will try to get them out quicker. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home a little later so it was almost 3 when I started getting ready which is something I totally enjoy. It really is relaxing to take the time and do my makeup and transform into Susan. It was 3:45 when I was ready including my corset, and as I was putting on my bracelet and ring I was looking at my finger nails which really do look wonderful. They are a little long and do show some grow out so if you look at them there is no denying I have acrylic nails. As I looked at them I was thinking about the week ahead, my only Susan time will be Wednesday for dinner and I will be rushing to make that and then again Saturday and also will be a rush to get there by 7. I do have Monday morning but that is a holiday and I am sure the nail salon will be open so it is either today or more then a week more and it has already been 2 ½ weeks. Usually I call Dream Nails before I get ready but this was a last-minute decision so I called and Anna said she could get me in at 4:45 so now I had that dilemma, what to do for 45 minutes.

I decided although it was short I would go to the Starbucks by my house as it is right across the street from the nails salon and work on my blog for Wednesday night till my appointment. I got there right at 4 and they were busy but mostly takeout so there were a couple tables open. I got my drink and started on my blog. I had only been here a few minutes and someone I know, kind of work with walked in and I saw him in line to get a drink. I just kept my head down and kept working on my blog as he got his drink and left. Now about 15 minutes later another lady I know, works where my parents are living came in and once again I just kept my head down and kept working. I little m ore nervous about her because as far as I know my parents have no idea about this part of my life. She also got her drink and left. Wow only here for 45 minutes and saw two people I know. I finished my blog and posted it at 4:40 so had just enough time to get to my nail appointment.

I got to Dream nails and Anna was still finishing a lady so I had to wait about 5 minutes. Now there were 5 other women in here, 2 getting their finger nails done, 2 getting pedicures and one waiting on her friend. Anna started on my nails and we talked a little, Anna pretty much works 7 days a week, she is the owner although I do think a couple days she may either come in a little later or leave a little early. I encouraged her to take some time off for herself and this goes for everyone. Take some time for yourself, life is to short to just work all the time. You will be so much happier and more relaxed. Anna did a great job on my nails as always and it was so relaxing. Now I did notice the two women getting pedicures looking over at me every once in a while, but what else do you have to do at the nail salon as I kind of watch other people also to see what they are getting done. Well as I was watching them the one lady who was very petite I did notice her shoulder and arm muscles were really defined and she did have kind of a raspy voice and I don’t know why but I wondered just wondered if she had transitioned at some point. I tell people this all the time that even if you are really passible there are subtle things that by themselves won’t give you away but as they ad up well may give you away. I do not know about her and I would never say anything but being transgender myself there was enough to at least put the thought in my head. It was just before 6 when Anna finished my nails and they looked wonderful as always and shorter.

Now what to do as my usual Sunday is Starbucks till 6:30, go get gas and then onto Wendy’s before going home but the Starbucks by my house will close in 30 minutes and as I have tomorrow off I can stay out later. I decided to go to Cascade station by the airport as I wanted to run into Target and also the Starbuck’s there is open till 9. I got to Target and ran in as I needed to pick a few things up which didn’t take long and then it was off to Starbucks’s. I got there about 6:45 and parked right out front and went in. They were also busy but there was one table right in front of the window so I put my computer on it and went and stood in line to get my drink.

Soon I was happily sitting at my table with my drink and on my computer working on my blog for Saturday night. Now for years I would always write my blog the very next day which I really try to do but there is something special about writing Susan’s blog as Susan at Starbuck’s. now as I sat there a young girl came in who was very tall, guessing 6’4″ and she also had low wedge heels on about 2″. Now she was very skinny and a really pretty face but I saw her glance at me on her way to order. Now I am not in any way saying she is not a female but after she ordered she went and sat at the very opposite side of Starbucks from me even though where she would pick up her drink was right by me and that was the door she used and there were also places to sit closer. I also noticed her look at me several times. Now I am more likely to believe that she was worried people might think she was transgender if they saw her by me then her actually being transgender but again it did make me think. I have actually noticed a lot more really tall females lately as I do work with one who is 6’5″ but there are now 3 more females I work with and 1 is the same height as me 6′ and one is a couple inches taller and the third is at least 5″ taller than me and none of them you would mistake as not being female. Now tall women are still a was smaller percentage but there is hope for taller t-girls.

I got all my work done and it was about 8:45 so I left Starbucks and even though it was late I decided to stop at Wendy’s for something to eat. Now being this late they were not that busy. I ordered my food and the lady who waited on me told me she loved my nails. I thanked her and told her I had just got them done. She told me she wished she could have nails like mine and I told her all it took was to make a little time to get them done. She smiled and said she made time for the gym and didn’t have time for her nails. I smiled back and told her I made time for my nails and not the gym. Which got me thinking I really need to get back to my exercising. I use to stop at the gym almost every day, and then I bought an elliptical for my home and now I hardly use it. I am going to have to try and change that as I really do want to lose some weight for our cruise this fall.

I ate my dinner and then headed for home. It was almost 10 when I got home. It was a good night out. I sat down on the couch to watch a little TV before changing back from Susan to go to bed and fell asleep on the couch. It was a little after midnight when I woke up and went up to bed. I had worn my corset for over 8 hours. Now I have people who ask how I can ware a corset and really it is easy. I got mine at Orchards corset and I e-mailed them my measurements and they recommended the size I needed and they were right on. It really fits well and is very comfortable. The only two things it is hard to get in and out of the car as I have a smaller car and also not really comfortable sitting in y car seat. I also can’t bend over to pick something up or put shoes on or off without getting out of breath. Other then that it is really comfortable and it makes me sit up straight and keeps my shoulder back so I have really good posture and of course a really nice shape. The good way out ways the bending issue.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at the Rock Bottom.

Okay it is Wednesday and our group is having dinner at the Rock Bottom in downtown Portland. It is another Brew pub in Portland, yes Portland has a lot of Brew Pubs, some say the microbrew really started here. We have gone here many times and the food is wonderful and we are always treated well but that is the case where ever we go here in Portland. Now I am not sure who all will show up as Cassandra is taking the summer of and she really has been the driving force behind our group. I did post in our group that I would be there for sure. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home from work and had time tonight to enjoy the getting ready and take my time which always makes the night better. I was all ready and, on my way, a little before 5. I got downtown Portland and this area seems a lot busier as I never seem to be able to find a parking spot on the street. I drove around a couple blocks and nothing so I went right to the parking garage which is only 1 block away and even that was kind of full, I found a parking spot on the 5th floor right by the elevator. It still amazes me how far I have come as Susan. A few years ago, I would park right by the door or where I could see it and wait till I saw no one around before getting out of my car and going straight in. tonight it was no big deal. I parked, got out of my car got on the elevator and down to the street and walked the block to the Rock Bottom as though it was the most natural thing to do, not once did I think about how I was dressed or if people were looking at me. It really is a wonderful feeling.

I went inside and I was the first one there, Kate texted me she was almost there so I checked our group to see who all posted, Kate, Barb and Melissa all said they would be here so I knew we had at least 4. Kate got there and she got us a table for 4 although we could squeeze 2 more in we would just be cozy. As it turned out it would be just the 4 of us. Melissa showed up and we all sat at the table and talked as we waited. Barb showed up right at 7 and so we all ordered dinner. They really do have good food here but I really like their Chicken fried Chicken so that is what I ordered. They were a little busy which is always nice as you can people watch which really has become one of the fun things I like to do.

We had a wonderful time and talked a little about our group and what we want to do mainly about our dinners. We all really want to keep them going but we want to find a way to get more of the group going out. Cassandra use to send text messages which is a big undertaking but it got it to the members directly instead of them having to go to the group web page. It really made it to easy and people got to use to it and t may get hard to break that and get them back to checking the web page. Melissa has done so much with our web page she has even put forums in it where we can have group talks it really is a wonderful web page with lots of information. We talked if we should try to find a way to do group tests again but I would really like to try and get people to go back to checking the web page. It really only does take a few seconds and you can do it right on your cell phone. Well that is something we as the administrators will have to figure out. The one thing I do know is we need members to reply and let us know if they are coming out just so we can plan for it, it would not be good if we had a table for 6 and 7 or 8 showed up and had to sit by themselves. Well I guess I got off topic again as that really had nothing to do with our dinner out. We also talked a little about our Mexican cruise, still time to sign up so check the link above.

The night went by so fast as always and soon it was after 9. We all paid our bills; our waitress was awesome by the way. Now it was time to leave so we said our goodbyes and left. Melissa and I had both parked in the parking garage so we walked together and talked. It really was a wonderful evening out with friends.

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May 27, 2018 Posted by | crossdresser, Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Another Sunday and a little Susan time

Another Sunday is here and once again I have the afternoon free and that means Starbucks and some Susan time. I have my blog from last nights Red Dress Party which was so much fun to write and some e-mails to catch up on and even a little work. I think back several years when I would just be Susan at home and watch a little TV, and then came the late-night drives. Back then I could only dream about going out and never thought I would be able to. Now I go out and it is the most normal & natural part of me. Well as I said a had a few hours so I got ready and got to Starbucks a little before 4 which gave me about 2 ½ hours before they close. It really is a fun way to spend a couple hours doing something you have to do. I also got to people watch a little but after last nights Red Dress Party and people watching there it was a little plain here.

The time went by fast as it always does and soon it was after 6. I finished what I had to do and then it was time to leave. As usual it was a trip to Costco for gas and then across the street to Panda Express, I didn’t feel like a hamburger tonight so no Wendy’s. It was a little before 8 when I got home so it was kind of a short night out but still relaxing. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner with my friends.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what is new in Susan’s life on my most recent blog.

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

May 22, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday May 19 2018 red dress party

 

 

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

It is Saturday May 19 and tonight is the Red Dress Party, and it is going to be fun. This is I think my 4th time going and I am going with Julie and Trixie, thanks ladies for taking me. Now the red dress party is a benefit for charities and what is nice about it is it is all volunteer so you know the money raised goes to the cause. Tonight’s theme (yes, they do a theme) is Wicked. Now for me the theme is not important as I just want to be out and see all the red dresses. I started getting ready a little after 4 as I wanted to take my time, kind of like a girl getting ready for Prom. Now I thought about going shopping for a new red dress but didn’t have time so it will be a recycled red dress from last year. It was about 6:15 when I left as I was picking up Julie and Trixie at 7.

I got to Julie’s a little before 7, Trixie was ready and Julie almost ready. Julie took a little time and showed me her house as she has been doing a major remodel the last couple months. Her house really looks wonderful. Now tonight I tried my new clutch well probably more like a wallet with a wrist strap. When I was shopping a couple months ago at Sears at Lloyd Center Sears which has closed now they had everything 50% off or more and I saw this for $5 so I got it. I did make sure my phone fit in it though. Well that was all I was thinking about as tonight I discovered that with the phone in it about all that would fit in was some money, ID and credit card as it was really narrow. Well luckily, I was wearing my long wear red lipstick so I didn’t need that but there was no room for my compact in case I needed to touch my face up I guess I can go without these things for a night. Well when I got out of the car at Julies I discovered one more thing that didn’t fit in my little wallet clutch, mt car keys. Luckily Julie had a little bigger purse and so she put not only Trixie’s ID and lipstick in it by my car keys also.

It was about 7:20 when we left. Now this year it is in the down stairs of the coliseum instead of a ware house. It only took about 15 minutes to get there and we parked in the parking lot, $20 but so worth it as we didn’t have to walk far. Now the Red Dress party starts at 9pm but if you have VIP tickets you can get in at 8 which we did and even though it was not 8 yet they let us go inside. N ow it was a lot bigger then the ware house last years and also a lot nicer but then when you are getting everything donated including where you have I, you take what you can get. It was nice to walk around before it got really crowded and see what it looked like before they turned down the lights. Now the bad thing is I do know someone who works this event and I am always on the lookout for them and in the ware house I had the dim lighting to help me. I saw them a couple times and just casually went the other way. Amy way we had been here about 30 minutes and we came out of a door and there they were looking right at me. I just walked right by them and pretended not to know them. Now let me clarify, yes, I know them by name but it is from working with them but only a few days a year. I am guess if they probably didn’t recognize me and if they did it would not be by name but where they knew me from.

Now we did get some pictures tonight and of course the first was on the big red high heel shoe seat. Who says you can’t find heels in big sizes. We all took turns sitting on this and getting our picture taken. Now I will admit it is not easy to gracefully sit down on something so low with high heels on, took a little work to tuck my legs under and look at least a little feminine. I think it turned out okay though, Thanks Julie for taking such a good picture.

Wee then went into the VIP area where they had food and got something to eat, again all the food and drinks are donated so the sponsors are awesome and the food is really good. I had some pulled pork, chicken, mac & cheese with Cauliflower which was really good and of course desert. The other bad part is they had big bowls of M&M’s at all the bars where you got your drinks, I love M&M’s. I think I ate 4 bags plus split one with Trixie. I have no will power when it comes to sweets, the reason I don’t by them. This will be the big challenge when we do our Mexican Cruise this fall as from what I hear they have deserts out all the time. Julie took a few more pictures of us here at the table we ate at. You can see some of the people behind me in red dresses.

Now we did go and watch some of the entertainment, one was a group of drum players and they were really good, really loud but really good. I did plug my ears so I probably looked a little strange, hopefully the people walking around getting pictures of the crowd didn’t take a picture at that time. They also had some people from Circus Soleil that did a short show, maybe 20 minutes and it was really good. Now there were some that did dress up for the Wicked theme and they were great outfits but most 90% where just in the red dress. The point of the red dress party is to get in you must have a red dress so even those in costume had to have a red dress on, even the man and woman from Circus Soleil had red dress on.

Now the really fun part of this event is to people watch. You will see every kind of person, young, old, male, female, gay, straight and so on from all kinds of different walks of life. The only common thing is the red dress. Now it has amazed me over the years with so many people here in red dresses you don’t see the same dress twice, well sometime a couple will get matching dresses or you might see 1 or 2 but when you think they say there are over 1,000 people here each year and looking at the crowd I would say that might be low. It is hard to imagine there are that many different red dresses. Now yes some of the outfits are well let’s just say you wouldn’t ware one unless you were completely confident in how your body looks. There was one lady that had on an outfit that was way skimpier than a bikini.

We walked all over checking things out and Julie was standing waiting for Trixie and me a young lady came u to her and just started talking with her, she wanted a picture with Julie so as they were taking the picture Julie told her our trick for great selfie’s. I can’t hold the phone and push the button at the same time so what we do is set our self timer for 3 seconds. Then you can push the button and then hold the phone out and it still has time to focus before it takes the picture. Any way we talked with her for a while. She had wanted to come but something came up and she didn’t think should could and then at the very last minute she made it. Her red dress was actually a red sheet she fashioned into a dress, it was cute. Her name was Daphne and she was awesome.

Now the last few years we have ran into 2 ladies we met the first time I went to the Red Dress part named Amy and Dionne so we were kind of looking for them. They have been coming up from Northern California each year and we have gotten a picture together each year, here is one from 2 years ago blog. We didn’t see them this year, as a matter of fact we didn’t see anyone we knew until we were getting ready to leave and we ran into Marla. Well I had to have a picture with Julie tonight so I got Trixie to take one just before we left. Julie need higher heels and I need flats. Such cute girls in pretty red dresses. There were some people in high heels, and yes some were holding them in their hands as it is not easy to ware them all night long standing on a hard floor. I wore wedges and even by the end of the night I was ready to take them off. As we were walking to the car we saw a couple girls removing their heels. It is hard work being a lady.

It truly was a wonderful night and I want to thank Julie and Trixie for taking me, we stayed out later than in past years as it was almost 12:30 when I dropped them off at Julie’s house and it was about 1 am when I got home but such a fun night and so worth it.

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May 20, 2018 Posted by | Red Dress | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

It is Wednesday and our group is going out for dinner at McMenamines Ringlers Pub but first a side note. Today at work I was signing for a delivery and the lady making the delivery told me how nice my nails looked which made me feel good, then a few hours later I had my 6-month dental appointment and as I was checking in the young lady behind the counter told me how beautiful my nails were and asked if they were my nails or acrylic. I smiled and thanked her and told her my nails were in horrible shape and that they had acrylic on to help them look better. She said it really made a difference and they looked great. Now I have had people notice them before but it was just funny that twice in such a short time. Now I know people notice them but really very few have said anything about them. Well back to dinner tonight.

Now it was a rush to make it on time as I said earlier I had a dentist appointment at 4 and they were running late so it was about 5:30 when I got home and started getting ready. Now tonight was one of my faster times getting ready, yes, I was ready and out the door by a little after 6, might be a personal record for getting ready. I got downtown at 6:30 and found a parking spot right across the street. I got inside and Cassandra and Peggy were already there. It was wonderful to see Peggy out again and yes, she had brought aa cake as today is Cassandra’s birthday. We would have a lot of cake tonight as Melissa and I had talked about it being Cassandra’s last night for a while so we decided to get her a cake and gift card and Melissa was picking it up. Cassandra is taking a break and also stepping down from the day to day running of the group. She has put so much time and effort into the group and really made it what it is today. Now we talked and waited for others to show up.

Melissa and her wife were the next to arrive and yes, they had a big cake also, so much for my diet. Barb and Lori also showed up so we had 7 of us here tonight. Now we started off with appetizers and I ordered the Scooby Snacks and they were awesome. Scooby snacks are mini corndogs. We had a nice time chatting before we ordered dinner and for dinner I had a Caesar salad. I figured I should have something healthy before we had cake. Now our waitress was incredible tonight, well really, we have always been treated great here but our waitress was so much fun, she even took a few group pictures of us with Cassandra in the middle as tonight it really was all about Cassandra. She really has brought us all together into almost a family. It really will be different with her not coming out as much. I have made so many wonderful friends over the years and some of them are my closest friends, I really hope they know how much they mean to me.

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May 19, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Back to Starbucks for a little me time on Sunday

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

Okay it is Sunday and I have a couple hours and needed to get some stuff done on my computer and what better way than as Susan at Starbuck. I guess it is a trade of as I get more done at Starbucks as there are no distraction like TV but then there is the hour it takes to get ready to go. I got to Starbucks around 3:30 and finished my blog from my Thursday night dinner with Charlene and her wife and posted it. Then it was on to my e-mails. I really have been behind on them not so much answering them but I get a lot that are just information and I have let them go without reading so my inbox is full. Now this really didn’t take so long but needed to be done. And then there was some other work I needed to do. I really do get more done here at Starbucks then at home and it is just way more fun.

I think back to that first time I went to Starbucks as Susan and hos scared I was and it really was just about being out someplace as Susan but over the years it has become so much more. It brings normalcy to my life as Susan. That is the best way I can explain it. I sit at Starbucks and I see a lot of people come in both men and woman and most come in by themselves. Even the people who are in here with their computers most are by themselves doing school work or other work or just relaxing and playing on their computers. That is what I am doing just a normal everyday thing that everyone else does. Being transgender can be hard at times, trying to figure out where you fit in. In that way I am lucky as I have always known where I fit in the transgender spectrum and I know some people hate this term but I am a crossdresser but more than that. The hard part for me was to learn to accept this part of my life, and to that I really owe a lot of it to my wonderful friends. I use that term as I am not transitioning as I like and need both my male and female side. Yes, when I am Susan I consider myself totally female and look at life as I would imagine other women do. I enjoy the makeup, nails, clothes, jeweler, hair and shoes. But I also do nit feel wrong when I am my male self. I really do have the best of both worlds and I would not change that. I think my going to Starbucks is just my way of expressing myself. It is funny though as many times as I have been to Starbucks as Susan I think it is only 5 times I have gone as my male self. It really is not something my male side wants to do so I guess there are differences between the two sides of me. I guess what I am saying is it doesn’t matter who you are what matters is that you accept yourself. Find something you like and then do it. Cassandra has her chat rooms, I have Starbucks, it doesn’t matter what it is but find what makes you happy. Pops a little off topic again.

I finished what I had to do and then just surfed the internet, our website, Facebook and so on. It was a relaxing day at Starbucks and fun people watching. I saw a few people look at me but nothing bad I think they were just figuring out things and I really can’t blame them after all I was also people watching as people came and went. It is a fun way to spend a couple hours and having a laptop makes it all possible. What did we ever do before laptops and cell phones. Well I stayed at Starbucks till they closed at 6:30 and as I was leaving Taylor one of the girls who has worked here for a long time wished me a Happy Mother’s Day. I thanked her and it actually made my night.

Now I do have a normal Sunday routine I guess, Starbuck’s till they close, down to Costco to get gas and then to Wendy’s for something to eat before going home and tonight would be the same, yes Hamburgers 3 nights in a row. I promise no more burgers till at least next weekend. I stopped and got my gas and then to Wendy’s. they were a little busier then the last few times I have been here. Now I have been coming to this Wendy’s for a while and it is almost only women who works here. I have seen a young man that works here I think twice. Now I did not get out last Sunday and so I have only been here 1 before in the last 6 weeks and this young man has never helped me till tonight. Now I placed my order and was getting ready to hand him my credit card and he looked at me and said Susan right, he knew my name which caught me off guard, as I said I have only seen him maybe twice and he has never waited on me. I guess they know me here also. It was about 7:30 when I headed for home.

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May 15, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight to see my friends. I am hoping for a good turnout tonight as in a way it is a going way for Cassandra. She is taking a break from going out so much as she has gone out 3 or more times a week for more then 10 years. She is also stepping down from running our group the Rose city t-girls. I call it our group as it is but Cassandra was the one who founded it, started it, got it to grow and made it the best T-girl group around. She has a personality and a way of talking to someone for just a short time and they are a friend. She really has lived and breathed this group for over 10 years and we all understand her need to step away. Melissa, Kate, Julie and I are going to step in and do are best to run the group but we will never be able to replace her even with 4 of us. Cassandra is not going away she will still be around just not coming out as much. So, for members of our group if you have ideas please look to the Administrator page and contact one of the Admins. Trust me running a group like this is a huge thing and we will need all your help. Any way this will be Cassandras last Saturday night out and this Wednesday will be her last dinner for a while so if you are in the group please make every effort to come out to dinner this week.

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Now I wanted to get to the Escape early as I wanted to work on my blog from Thursday night dinner with Charlene and her wife and also my trip to the nails salon. My goal was to be there by 5, well I didn’t make it as it took a little longer getting ready. It was just before 5:30 when I got there and to my surprise Cassandra was already there. She came early and was on her computer in her favorite chat room. Now I know some may not understand why she like to go into chat rooms and that is okay as it is not for everyone, what matters is she enjoys it and that makes it wonderful. No different than my going to Starbucks for a few hours as Susan, just something I enjoy. That is what makes us all unique and wonderful. We can all be different in ways and yet be friends. Well I set up my computer and ordered dinner, a burger as they have really wonderful Burgers here. When my order came I was thinking I really didn’t think this out as I had a burger last night when I had dinner with Charlene and her wife and if I do get to go out to Starbucks tomorrow I usually go get a burger after that before I go home and that would make 3 nights in a row having a hamburger.

I was just finishing my burger and about half way through writing my blog when Charlene showed up, it was great she could make it out again tonight. Her wife didn’t make it as they had been out all-day shopping and left their dog alone all day in their RV so she didn’t want to leave the dog alone for that long, after all pets are more like family. Kate showed up and it was great to see her and I introduced Kate and Charlene and the 3 of us sat and talked. Now the interesting thing is even though Kate lives here in Portland and Charlene in Eastern Washington Kates job has her work over there sometimes and it turns out Charlene and Kate know a lot of the same people from their work. It really is a small world. It is amazing how many times you find you have people in common that do not know about this side of your life. Michelle and Bobbie also showed up so it was looking like we would have a good turnout. Now the softball team the Escape sponsors was doing a fund raiser, bingo so I bought a ticket and all of us played. Cassandra was the only on from our table to win but it was fun.

Sandy from up by Olympia showed up, she was down here working and stopped by for a little while to see Cassandra on her last Saturday night. It was really great to see her again. Last time I saw her was when we did our dinner at City Grill in early February. Same thing as she had been in town and stopped in to see us before driving home, she didn’t stay for dinner that night. Same as tonight as she hast to drive home tonight so she will not stay long but still great to see her. I really love going out with my friends but the night is just a little better when you see friends that don’t come out as often. We also had another girl from our group here tonight so it was going to be a good turnout.

Karaoke started and of course it gets loud and hard to talk but still fun. I tried to talk Charlene into singing but no luck, yes, I am the one who tries to get others to sing when I won’t do it myself. It was getting late and Charlene called it a night, it was sad to see her leave but I know we will get together again. Lauri also showed up, as I have said before she is our late-night girl as she does not make it out much before 9:30. I was talking to her and I don’t know why I turned around and Bob and his girlfriend Lori came in. I thing the last time I saw Bob was 2 or 3 years ago at one of the Halloween Parties. It was so wonderful to see him again. We met him when we went to Easy Street (which isn’t there any more) and that would have been 2010 I think. We hit it of with him and he has been in our group ever since. He is a pool player and that was how we met. He had seen in the group it was Cassandra’s last Saturday night so he also came out. I think we found the secret to getting girls out so every Saturday from now on will be Cassandra’s last night out. I got to talk with them for a while it was a really wonderful night out tonight.

I was talking with Lauri about our group and she was having trouble joining, lack of a picture which we require. Well I took her picture and we used my computer to set her up as a member and then I approved her so now all she hast to do is go to her e-mail and activate her account. Now the funny thing is setting up her account I learned I have been misspelling her name in all my blogs, funny not the name I would have thought I would miss spell, yes, she spells it Lauri. Well it was loud and we wanted to talk so once again we moved into the other room where it is a little less noisy. We spent about 30 or 40 minutes talking before we called it a night. It was 11:15pm another late night but so much fun and I got to see some of my friends I don’t see as much. As I have said many times Susan is really blessed with wonderful friend, more like family. Thanks to all of you as you really have made my life wonderful.

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May 14, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night and having dinner with Charlene and her wife

It is Thursday and I am meeting Charlene and her wife for dinner tonight at 7, we have been trying to get together when they come to town but haven’t made it yet. They live on the East side of the mountains and get to Portland a few times a year. Any way we are meeting at McMenamins on the Columbia river at 7 for dinner and I am really looking forward to it. Now I got home a little before 4 so I had a little time but I really needed to go to the Nail salon. It has been over two weeks since I got my nails done last time which was after my trip to Diva Ls Vegas and Anna even though she shortened them left them on the long side so now they are really long of course no one has said a thing. More than that I really need a pedicure as my last pedicure was March 15 almost two months ago. Now it was a question of if I had time. I called Dream nails to see if I could get in and Anna said she could get me in at 5 which should give me time to get my nails done but it was already 4 so I would be rushing to get ready. I told Anna I would see her at 5 and started getting ready right away.

I was ready and leaving my house at 4:55 luckily Dream nails is only a couple blocks away and I got there right at 5. I went in and there was only 1 other lady there so I got right to the table and Anna started on my nails. Now as Anna did my nails I talked with her a little and it has been really slow today so Anna was trying to talk me into the Deluxe pedicure which really didn’t take much as I was already thinking about it my only concern was if I had time as I needed to leave here by 6:30 to make my dinner with Charlene. Anna assured me I did and said she would have me out by 6:30. Now the funny thing is they started to get busy as first 2 women came in and had their daughter with them and all wanted their nails done and right after them 3 more woman came in and also wanted their nails done. None of them wanted pedicures today which was unusual as usually more are getting pedicures then their nails done. Anna prepped my nails and shortened them and put the new acrylic on and got them all ready. All that was left was the gel polish but as Anna has another lady that wanted her nails done and one of the other techs was available she had me go and get my pedicure and she would finish my nails after that so I moved over to the Pedicure chair.

The lady who did my pedicure I don’t know her name even though I know several of the ladies who work here as at some point they have all done my nails at one time over the few years I have been coming here. There is Knee, Kathy, Tina, Anna of course and the new lady who I found out her name is Annie tonight, she has only been her 6 months but all of them are great and treat me wonderful and do an awesome job. Now the pedicure is so relaxing and everyone should do it. The difference between the regular pedicure ($25) and the deluxe ($45) is they use scented salts in the water, I did lavender, scented scrubs on your legs and feet, scented lotions on your legs and feet with a hot towel wrap and a paraffin wax for your feet and of course more time. Now it is so relaxing to have a pedicure and I really enjoy it but the deluxe does take longer about an hour and as I watched the time pass by I wondered if I would be don by 6:30 but sue enough soon she was painting my toes a beautiful red color and she finished right at 6:30 but I still needed the gel polish on my fingers but that only takes a few minutes as they dry really fast under the LED light. Anna new I was on a schedule so as the lady was painting my toes I gave her my credit card and paid my bill. As soon as she was done with my toes I was back over at Anna’s table and she put the polish, Wedding dress on my fingers. I was all done by 5:40 and such a wonderful, relaxing time.

Now it only takes about 15 minutes to get to McMenamins so I should be right on time which I was as I walked in right at 7. Charlene and her wife were already there, it was wonderful to see them again as it has been a while. I think the last time was the Halloween party last year at Cassandra’s house. It is funny the good friends you can make online even though you may only see them rarely. They are both retired and spend several months traveling around in Their RV. Now we were busy talking and catching up and yes, they know more about what is going on in my life as they follow my blog, but always nice to be able to talk in person. Our waitress came back a couple times to see if we were ready to order and of course we were not so she said when we were ready put the menus at the end of the table and she would come get our order. We talked a little more and finally took time to look at the menu and figure out what we wanted and sure enough as soon as we put the menus on the table end our waitress was right there to get our order. We really did have a wonderful waitress.

We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and I got to know more about them which was nice. I really do have some wonderful friends as Susan so I am a really lucky lady. 10 years ago, if any one told me I would be going out like this as Susan and have these awesome friends I would have thought they had lost their minds but here I am. Being Transgender and having a feminine side has turned out to be a wonderful thing and I can’t imagine my life any other way. As always, the night went by fast and soon it was almost 9 and we called it an evening. Now we both parked in the same area so we all walked out together and of course the staff on the way out thanked us and told us to come back which is always nice to hear. Outside I got to meet their dog who was in the car, they have an awesome dog, very friendly and well behaved. It really was a great evening out. I am hoping to see them again on Saturday night at the Escape as they are in town till Sunday Morning. If not I will be looking forward to their next visit.

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May 13, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Mothers Bistro

It is Wednesday and our group is going to dinner at Mother’s Bistro. I have been here a couple times before and it is really a nice place with wonderful food. Now I always look forward to Wednesday night dinners as I get time as Susan but more than that I get to go out with my friends and that makes the night special. I got ready early as I wanted to be downtown by 6:30 as that would give me time to find parking and get to Mothers Bistro by 7. I was right on schedule and on my way by 6. I got downtown and as I came around the corner there was a parking spot right in front of the door. I couldn’t believe my luck. I parked and saw Veronica and Cassandra right by the door. Turns out Veronica was parked right in front of me and Cassandra the first car around the corner.

We went in and they were not as busy as the last few times we have come here. Cassandra had called and got a reservation as we have 8 coming tonight. We were early so we got a small table in the bar area and waited for others to show up. We talked for a while and the waiter said our table was ready so we moved into the dinning room area as I said they were not as busy this time. This really is a nice place to go for dinner. Our waitress came over and she was the same one we have had the last 2 times I have been here and she is wonderful. We got some drinks and an appetizer as we waited.

By 7 other girls started to show up, Jeanie, Barb, Melissia, Kate, Danelle, and Teri so we actually had 9 of us here tonight. I have met Danelle a couple times before but it was a few years back she came to dinner way back when we were going to the House of Louie. She is really nice and I hope she comes out more. Teri is also really nice I met her once before a few months back when she came out to the Escape, she lives up north near Seattle so a little harder for her to get out with the group but always happy when she does.

We all ordered dinner and had a wonderful time talking. It was a wonderful night as always and it went so fast. It was after 9 before we knew it and they close at 9 but never said a word to us. Now at the end we were all telling jokes, some good and some well not so good. Any way our waitress told us a joke and a couple other employees came over and shared their jokes with us. It was a really fun social evening out. Kate was trying to get a picture of us at the table and our waitress came over and took a picture of all of us at the table. It was about 9:30 when we all left, what a fun night.

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May 12, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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