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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday at the Escape

I was looking forward to tonight, another chance to relax and be myself. Now I know a few girls wont make it out so it may be a quiet night but I was still going out. Now I was ready by 5:45 and with my computer in hand I was on my way. I got to the Escape by 6 and went in, there were only 2 people there at this time. I ordered dinner and did some work on my computer while I waited to see if anyone else would show up.

Cristine showed up at 7 and it was just the two of us till 8 when Jan and Lynn showed up. It was good to see them, I really enjoy spending time with my friends. Karaoke started and it was still a small crowd, our group and maybe 6 others. Missy and her friend also showed up. It was after 10 and I was getting ready to leave as it had been a long day when Laura M and her friend showed up. They had gone to a hockey game tonight, Laura got to go as her female self and she had a great time. I stayed a little longer to before leaving. It was a good night out.

Kind of a short post but still a good time. Thanks for reading

September 25, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finally a chance to get out as Susan

Okay it has been a little over 2 weeks since I have had a chance to be Susan, My last outing was as short one just to get my nails done so I was looking forward to tonight. It really is amazing how much I miss my feminine side when I can’t express it. I get to go out to Sweet Home and see some of my friends and of course things are back to normal and I should be able to get back to going out twice a week and now I am looking forward to my vacation coming up in a few weeks. I will have 7 days of being Susan and of course will get my nails a pretty red. I hope do get together with some of my friends that week, Maybe some shopping, Movie, dinner or lunches maybe even a trip to the beech. I will have to post in our group the and see if any of my friends are available that week. Any way back to tonight.

I started getting ready as soon as I got home from the gym, yes I am still going to the gym almost every day. I joined the gym 3 months ago and I think I gone to the gym everyday only missing 8 days in all that time. It was nice to take a nice relaxing shower and start transforming into being Susan. The time I take becoming Susan is so wonderful and calming to me. I spent about an hour in a half getting ready for my night out. One of my Facebook friends Dixie Mo may make it out to meet me tonight if she can in boy mode though.

I got to Sweet Home at 6:30 and went in. Chris and Roxy were there already, it was great to see them again, I really do miss my friends when I can’t get out. Now it wasn’t really busy yet but it was just good to be out. I ordered dinner which was awesome as always, maybe a little to much as I didn’t eat it all as I had to save room for Cheesecake.

Robyn also showed up tonight and it was good to see her again. It was nice to talk with her. It was such a relaxing fun night out. Heather also made it out, she is one of the wonderful friends I have made here at Sweet Home. I always look forward to seeing her as she always has a hug to give, I really like that about being female as it seems it is so natural for woman to hug each other and everyone needs hugs. Angie also showed up another friend I have made here who is also really nice. Actually all the people here are wonderful and treat me like any other person here. Next Friday Angie is having her birthday party here and it is a cat theme and she wanted to make sure we would be here. I am looking forward to it although I won’t be able to stay out late next week.

Diana also showed up tonight a little after 10, She hasn’t been out for several months so it was good to see her again. Chris and Roxy had already left so it was just the 3 of us. Karaoke was going on and it is fun to listen to as some of the singers are really good. It was almost 11 when Dixie Mo showed up. It was nice to meet her even if she wasn’t able to be her female self tonight. She is a member of the Emerald City t-girl group in Seattle and was in town tonight. It was nice to talk with her. We had a chance to get to know each other and she was interested in our group and how we get such good turnout. We talked and I explained about our new web page and how we are going to new places and our Wednesday night dinners at new places. WE even talked about Harvey’s Comedy club. Dixie Mo may try to get some of the girls from the Emerald City to come down and go to Harvey’s.

I am looking forward to Harvey’s this month as our favorite Comedian Julie Scoggins will be in town this month. It is always a fun night going here. Our group really does do some fun things. Dixie and I talked for a while before she had to leave as she was driving back home tonight. It really was nice meeting her.

Rachel also made it tonight, She helped us find Sweet Home after we were kicked out of the P-club. I got a chance to talk with her for a while which is always nice. It was almost 11:30 when I called it a night. It really was a fun night out. and now I am looking forward to Saturday night at the Escape and to see more of my friends. Thanks for reading


September 24, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Quick trip for a manicure

Okay a quick blog tonight. I will be out of town next week and wont have any chance to be Susan for probably 2 weeks. Now I really need a manicure as my nails are a little long and starting to get to the point the gel polish needs replacing. I could probably make it another week but not two. I had a lot of things I had to get done after work today and so I knew I would have to go to the nail salon as my male self so I didn’t want to go to the nail salon I have been going to as they only know me as Susan. I figured it was a chance to try a new nail salon. I found one called Creative nails which would be on my way home and I have never been there before. So I called and set up an appointment for 6. Well it turns out I got down with my stuff a lot faster and there was no traffic so now I was at that point of what to do.

20160908_172219[1]I would have be able to get home and have about 40 minutes to become Susan and still make it or I could go early as my male self. well I took the chance and raced home to change before going to the Salon. It was probably one of my fastest times getting ready and I think it turned out well.

I got there right at 6 and went in. It is an older shop but nice and the 2 ladies there were really nice and treated me just like any other woman. Now they do everything by hand with files and no electric grinders of course it takes a little longer.

It took about 5o minutes to do my nails and they look lovely. They were really nice and told me to be sure and come back. Now on my way home I did stop at Subway to get something to eat. It was a short night out but still fun.

Thanks for reading

September 8, 2016 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure | , , , , , | 1 Comment

Starting September off at Harvey’s Comedy Club

Okay it is Saturday and our group the Rose City T-girls are going to Harvey’s Comedy club tonight. This is one of the most fun things we do as a group. Now it is funny as all through the day I was thinking what I should wear, I even found myself twice in my closet looking at my dresses. I have never put that much though into what I wear when I am not Susan. Now normally I see how my makeup is going and pick my outfit based on that but tonight I had my outfit all picked out. My red and black dress and so I did my makeup with that in mind. It is a fun experience to spend the time and effort to look your best and as pretty as you can. One of the simple joys of being female and I get to experience that in part of my life.

I was ready to leave by 6 and on my way. It was so wonderful to be on my way out for a fun night with friends. I got to fox & Hounds at 6:30, again I parked and got out of my car and walked in without a second thought, like it was the most natural thing I could do. Darcy was the only one here so far so I joined her. It is the first time I have met her and she seems really nice. She is one of our newer members of our group. We had a good chance to talk as we waited for others to show up.

It wasn’t long and others showed up, Cassandra, Melissa, Laura H. Lisa, Jan and Lynn. We had a nice time talking till it was time to walk to Harvey’s. It was a nice night for the walk maybe just a little on the cool side. We got to Harvey’s about 8:30 and Cristine was already there.

It wasn’t long and the rest showed up. Barb, Rebecca, Barbs neighbors, Jeanie Amy, Julie and Trixie. We had 17 for tonight’s show and it looks like it will be a good size crowd tonight. It was good to see all of them, I really do enjoy time with my friends. Sear was working tonight our favorite bar tender but Kim our Melissa an me at Harvey's 9-3-2016favorite waitress was off this weekend on vacation and we all missed her. We all look forward to hugs from her. Of course we had to take some picture and we took a lot of them tonight. This is Melissa and me before the show.

Soon it was time to go in for the show and it was a big crowd which is always more fun. Now as I said Kim was not there but the waiter that took care of us was really nice and he did a good job and really all the staff here is wonderful. I also took a couple pictures with Julie but they came out blurry, so sad.

The show started and it was really good. Tonight all 3 of the comedians were awesome. There is nothing like a night out with friends laughing and having a good time. I wish I could remember their names. I looked at Harvey’s web page but turns out they already had next weekends schedule up. It was a really fun night though.

Susan Miller at Harvey's 9-3-2016After the show the Headliner came over and talked with us for a while. Turns out he also plays in a band and invited us to his show next weekend which was really nice. We even talked with the other comedian on the way out. It was a wonderful night.

It was a little chilly walking back to Fox & Hounds after the show so I was glad I brought a sweater. It was a wonderful night out and a great way to spend a Holiday weekend. This is a picture of our group after the show walking back to Fox & Hounds that20160903_235507 Cassandra took. such a cute picture.

Thanks for reading.

Oh almost forgot I am still going to the gym pretty much everyday. Saturday I started my 12th week of going to the gym and I think I have only missed 4 day. Today I did 40 minutes on the optical on level 12 going forward, 15 minutes going backwards on level 4. Worked out on some of the weights for a while and finished up with 15 minutes on the tread mill on a 15% incline at a speed of 3 miles per hour. Felt really good afterwards.

September 4, 2016 Posted by | Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Out at Sweet Home

The weekend is here and I get some time to relax and be Susan. I really look forward to this as it is a big part of me and my life. It took me years to reconcile both sides of who I am. I am often asked about me and my life and how I feel. I really think for some it is hard to understand, I mean they can understand someone who wants to transition or feels they are the opposite sex but when it comes to someone who feels they fit into both genders it can be hard. By this I mean I feel I am male at times and am happy as male but I also feel at times I am female and happy when I am female. Now that being said I am more comfortable in the feminine role and when I am Susan. There is something peaceful and relaxing about being Susan.

I am often asked when I will transition and be my true self and to that I always answer the same. I am my true self not. I have no desire to transition. If I did Transition to female I would still be a crossdresser for the simple fact I would still need my male side and would have to crossdress the other way to male. You see I am not complete without both sides of me. Now that being said there are things I like about being Susan so much I would do them all the time if I could and yes the top of the list is my nails. I really do love long pretty nails and if I could I would have long red nails all the time. It really is a shame men can’t have pretty nails in todays society. Now I have been going to a nail salon now for almost a year every 2 to 3 weeks now and they are a little longer then most men would wear and shaped a little better but so far no issues. Well enough about this and on to Friday night.

I got to Sweet home at 6:30 and went in. Chris and Roxy were there and a few other people were at their table so I sat at the next table where I could still talk with them some. I also had my computer so I was Able to catch up on some work. I ordered dinner which was awesome as always. Now a couple time people came and sat at my table which was fine and nice as I did get a chance to talk with them. One of the reasons this is a nice place as the people who come here are really nice and friendly.

Now it was a quiet night here as the other main group that comes here are away for the Holiday weekend so it won’t be really busy. It was about 9 when Jeremy and Tina came in. I met them a while ago and have talked with them on several occasions. They sat at my table and we had a nice conversation. They really are really nice. I really have met some wonderful people here. Now talking with them they are still trying to understand my duel gender rolls but then it took me years to understand it. I think it is easier for people to understand one gender or the other. I guess that is a good way of looking at it as I have a duel gender and need both of them at different times. It was a fun night but it was almost 10 PM and has been a long day as I got up early so I called it a night.

Now I am looking forward to Saturday night as we are going to Harvey’s Comedy Club which is always a fun night and I am already thinking about what I should wear.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful weekend.

September 3, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment


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