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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Saturday November 9th at the Escape

Yes, once again I am a week behind in writing my blog, busy, busy week, I am sitting at the Escape this week writing about last week. Well it was Saturday and I was able to get out as Susan and I was looking forward to it as the next few weeks will be very busy for me and that means limited Susan time. No because of this I wanted to get out early so I could have as much time as possible. I was ready and on my way by 5 and got to the Escape about 5:20 and found a parking spot right in front and went in. they were not busy so I got one of the big tables in hopes we would have a good turnout tonight. I ordered dinner, Pancakes as I am trying to eat healthier well cut out fried foods like Hamburgers. I got out my computer and passed times as I waited to see who would all show up.

It was a little before 7 and Bobbie showed up and also Danika. Bobbie has been coming pretty regular but this might be Danika’s first time here at the Escape as it is usually our Wednesday night dinners where I see her. I put away my computer so we could talk as Danika is one of our newer members so I really don’t know her all that well and this is the perfect chance to get to know her better. We actually have a lot in common, she is retired but what she did for work is the same as some of what I do now. It was really nice to talk with her and get to know her. she is married and her wife is supportive but also worried about people finding out. We talked about relationships and how being trans effects it and it does. Although I have never been married, I did come close once.

Now years ago, I told myself if I met the right lady this would all go away and I would stop and of course that never happened as I know now Susan is to much a part of who I am to go away. Now I will say it was never about Susan that the relationships didn’t work out as I never told them although it might have been part of the reason I never got really serious in some of them as I knew I wouldn’t quit being Susan and couldn’t bring myself to tell them. I also realize now that if I do get into a serious relationship, I would have to tell them about Susan as she really is a big part of my life and who I am and that makes it hard. now I did date a really nice lady for a while who I actually met as Susan but even that one didn’t work out and Susan had nothing to do with it. I will say being Trans really does make relationships complicated though. I know there are ladies out there that are okay with it but the problem is you don’t know till you talk about it and at that point you have opened yourself up as the old saying goes once you let the genie out of the bottle you can’t get him back in. Now I know one of my neighbors knows about me and probably most of my neighbors do but they have no connection to where I work or my family or friends so there is still some safety. In a relationship they will meet your family and friends and probably your co-workers at some point as they will be part of your whole life. I have some friends on my male side and they are good friends but I still keep a distance because of Susan, some of them I think would be okay with it but again till you tell them you never really know. It really is true that my friends I have made as Susan are my closest friends as I don’t have to hide who I am really. Some of the girls are really more like sisters and probably know me as well as I do and I am so lucky to have them in my life. It was nice to talk with Danika about this as I really haven’t thought about it for a while.

Well another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us here. Now it was really busy here tonight once Karaoke started as they did have a big party and two groups with birthdays in them, we had a great time and a little after 10 Danika called it a night as she has about a 1 ½ hour drive home. Now one of our girls was over playing pool so it was just Bobbie and me at the big tables so I told Bobbie we should move over to one of the smaller tables so one of the big groups of people standing could have the table. Now I stayed till a little after 11 before calling it a night. it was a fun night and enjoyed it as for the next several weeks my Susan time will be limited to Saturday nights and if I am lucky maybe a Sunday at Starbucks but that won’t happen this week so it will be next Saturday before I can get out again.

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November 16, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at Escape a little quiet and an update about my vacation

It is Thursday evening and I finally get time to write my blog from last Saturday. I was able to go out and I was looking forward to it as this coming week I will be really busy so I started getting ready early to get a little more time. Now it is the Saturday before Halloween and I did think about wearing a costume but instead just went with a different color of hair. I was ready by a little after 5 and got there about 5:30 and got a couple pictures in the car before going in. I don’t wear this hair very often as I just not sure how it looks on me. I really need to do a darker foundation to make it look right. Now I also wore my tight short little black dress and yes, I had my corset on to give me all the right curves.

I walked in and Melissa one of the employees told me how nice I looked and she loved my hair and I got the same from Trixie. Now I always love to get compliments. Well I set up my computer and ordered some food, I had pancakes again this week. I sat down and was pleasantly surprise as Rachael came over and sat down to talk to me, she was in male mode tonight. Now I saw and talked to her briefly a few weeks ago as she was leaving when I got there, also in male mode but tonight we were able to talk for a while. I think I met her back in late 2006 or early 2007 when I was lucky to get out a couple times a year. She is hoping to get out as Rachel again maybe in the next few weeks. Well she finally had to leave and I was once again by myself at the table.

Now they had the Washington Cougars, Oregon Ducks football game on one TV and the world Series on the big screen which is more what I was watching. Now 2 ladies came over and asked if they could sit at the table and watch the football game so I said sure as it was nice to have someone else at the table as I worked on my blog and watched the game. Well we actually got talking, turns out one of them is a Cougars fan and the other a Ducks fan. It was nice to talk with them and I really do enjoy meeting new people. At 9 Karaoke started and they turned off the Football game so they moved to the bar to watch the game on the TV in the corner. Now it was getting busy and was after 9 and still no one from our group tonight. I listened to the singers and figured I would stay till at least 10 to see if Lauri showed up.

Soon it was 10 and still no one else made it out tonight so about 10:15 I called it a night and went up to the bar and paid my bill. 2 ladies at the bar started talking to me and told me how nice I looked, actually what they said was they had noticed my shape (curves) ad thought I had the perfect figure, hips, waist and shoulders. I thanked them and admitted I had a corset on and they said they were wondering but I looked wonderful. We talked for a while before I left, it was actually a fun night.

Now I was hoping to go to dinner Wednesday night but got home late and just couldn’t make it so I was a little disappointed especially since I won’t make it out this coming Saturday. I actually have next week off work and when I originally took it off my plan was to spend the whole week as Susan but now things have come up and I will get a lot of Susan time but I will have time I won’t be able to see Susan. my plan was to go to the nail salon and get a manicure and polish put on my nails for the week. For the last few weeks I have been using OPI nail envy hardener and letting my natural nails grow and they are looking great and a little long. Well on my way home Wednesday my low tire light came on and unfortunately you don’t know which tire so I had to check them all and make sure all were full which is not easy when it is dark and yes you guessed it; I broke 2 nails. I was devastated and I can only think it was because of the length. So today at work I was trying to decide what to do with my nails. Well today at work I yet broke another nail, my 3rd in two days. So tonight, I got home and filed all my nails down. Now they still look nice but they are only 1/8 of an inch maybe instead of the ¼ inch they were. They would still look nice with polish but now I am thinking about getting acrylics for the week. I can get them done on Sunday afternoon and could keep them till Friday night although during the week there are a couple things I have to do as my male self but my hands wouldn’t really be visible so I am thinking about it. After all years ago I would get them done on a Friday night and removed on Sunday afternoon. Either way I will be at the nail salon Sunday for either a manicure and red polish or Acrylic nails.

If I do Acrylics, I have narrowed it down to 2 options. What I am kind of thinking is the French fade and then red polish over it. That way I can have the red I love and later in the week when I have things I have to do as my male self I
could remove the red polish to just the French fade for the rest of the week. Yes, I am leaning to the Acrylics. So, I will put it out, if I do get them this Sunday which one do you my readers think I should get?

October 31, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night at the Escape they had a drag show

It is Saturday and yes that means going to the Escape tonight. I have said many times Susan is a big part of who I am but she is not all of who I am. I need both my male and female side to feel complete. Now my male side is never a problem fitting in but Susan can be sometimes and when I have to go for a time without letting her out it does have an impact on me and how I feel and so I try to express that side of me on a regular basis. I try to go out every Saturday night and for Wednesday dinners and I am trying to get back into my Sunday afternoon at Starbucks. I really need at least once a week of Susan time but twice is better. There really is something calming and relaxing about being able to express part of who you are when you for the most part have to hide it especially when you hid it completely for most of your younger life. That being said I was looking forward to tonight. I actually got done with my stuff early and so I got to start getting ready early which gave me time to enjoy my transformation to Susan. I was actually ready and, on my way, by a little after 5 and got to the Escape about 5:30. Being early I did find 1 spot open in front so I took it. I got a quick selfie in the car before going in.

They had the two big tables reserved for a birthday party so I took one of the smaller tables and set up my computer and then ordered dinner, well tonight I had their breakfast, eggs, bacon ad pancakes. I worked on my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner till my food came. The table I was at was small so I had to put my computer away while I ate. Once I finished eating, I went back and finished my blog and posted it. Just as I was posting it Michele showed up so once I was done, I took my computer out to my car as I really had no place for it with other people at the table. I sat and talked with Michele a little till Bobbie showed up. Well I am not sure what happened but Trixie said one of the big tables was open and took down the reserve signs so we moved over there, way pore comfortable sitting in a chair with a back at a big table then on a hi bar stool where your feet don’t touch the ground. Now we noticed a Drag Queen on the other side and soon a few more showed up. Well it turns out this weekend the Imperial Sovereign Rose Court of Oregon was electing their 61 Rose Empress, yes Portland I think is the oldest event like this. Well one of the girls running for Rose Empress got some of her friends and they are here tonight to do a drag show and yes campaign for her. She was really nice and came around and met everyone. I wish I could remember her name, any way she was encouraging everyone to go to Darcelle’s on Sunday and vote. I probably would have but I don’t live in the right counties. Any way the show went from a little after 7:30 till about 8:30 and it was pretty good. I think they had 10 or 12 performers. It was pretty busy at this point as there were a lot of people who came in for this.

Kris also showed up as di Lee and her sister. It was early summer the last time I saw Lee out so it was good to see her again and tall with her and so wonderful her sister is supportive of her got a good chance to talk with them and got to know her sister a little, they are both wonderful people. I really like this part of going out. A little later 3 of Lee friends showed up all female and young. For someone who doesn’t get out much she sure has some supportive friends. Karaoke started and it got loud, yes, the table we were at was right under one of the speakers so it was hard to talk but it was still fun. As it got close to 10 Lauri showed up as did another girl from our group so we had a pretty good turnout tonight. We had a fun night and as always it went by way to fast. Before I knew it, it was 11:30. It was sad to see the night come to an end so I paid my bill and said my goodbyes. Now Lee, her sister and friends were also leaving but they were going someplace else. I remember the days when I stayed out late, I just can’t do it anymore. So, as they prepared to go somewhere else, I got in my car and headed home for a date with my bed. I don’t think of it as being old I just call it prioritizing my lifes needs.

I will be out tomorrow on Sunday for some Starbucks time and Susan time and then I will be looking forward to Wednesday nights dinner. I really think going out Wednesday and Saturday is the perfect balance as the most I have to go is 3 days without being Susan and that keeps both my male and female sides happy and healthy.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life. Have a wonderful Columbus Day Monday especially if you have it off work.


October 13, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape Sept 21st 2019

It is once again a week later when I write my blog from Saturday night, I always look forward to Saturday and my time to get out as Susan but it is more than that. I get a chance to meet up with some of my friends and interact with other people and just be out as any one else does. Now I started getting ready early as I wanted to get to the Escape early so I could write my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner. Now it was a somewhat nice day out and in the mid 70’s but I decided to wear my blue dress with long sleeves as it was cold in the Escape last week. I got to the Escape about 5:30 and got a quick picture in then car before I went in. I went in and they had changed the tables around and I kind of liked the way they did it. I ordered my dinner and wrote my blog from Wednesday dinner at the southland whiskey kitchen.

I was just finishing my blog when Lynn and Jan showed up, it was great to see them, Bobbie also showed up early so we had 4 of us out and it was just after 6. It wasn’t long and Michele showed up yes it looks like tonight we are all getting out early. It really is nice though as it gives us time to talk before it gets loud later. Everyone had dinner and we had a good time.

People came in and ate and stayed a while and then left. It never really got busy and soon it was 9 and time for Karaoke to start, it was also really cold in here again this week as they really had the air conditioner going. I actually went outside for a while to get warm. I went back in and listened to the people sing. I noticed there really wasn’t that many people here tonight as some had left. I actually had to put mt sweater on and it didn’t help. Patty also showed up tonight and its was good to see her again.

Soon it was 10 and Lauri showed up, it was nice to see her again, she has missed the last 3 weeks. We talked for a few minutes and caught up and then I was done. I just couldn’t take it anymore as I have been cold all night long and just wanted to get warm so I paid me bill and said my goodbyes. It was just a few minutes after 10 and it was probably the earliest, I have gone home in a long time but I just wanted to be warm. I walked to may car and it felt good as it was warmer outside then inside. I started going home and was shocked to see my car said it was 63 degrees outside and yet it was warmer then it was inside. It was a fun night with friends.

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September 28, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is once again Saturday and that means I get to go to the Escape for some Susan time and see my friends and hang out with people. I look forward to my Susan time and this week even more as I was not able to make it out on Wednesday night. now I posted in our group I would be there between 6 & 7 but I always try to get there early. Well I started getting ready a little late and it took a little longer as I was taking my time and enjoying my transformation from my male side to female so it was just after 5:30 when I was ready and on my way. I got to the Escape right at 6 and the parking lot was full so I had to park out on the street which really is not that far, a quick selfie before I got out of my car. I got inside and there were a lot of people there but most at the bar so I got my normal table. I ordered dinner and started on my blog from last Saturday, yes I am a week behind again. I was just finishing up when Amber arrive, she had posted she would be here but was a little earlier than she said. She likes to play poker and was in a tournament today but got knocked out a little earlier than she hoped. I was glad as it was nice to see her. I posted my blog from last week and put away my computer so we could talk as it has been a while since I have seen her out. My dinner came and we sat and talked while we ate.

Michelle showed up so we were up to 3 of us and it wasn’t even 7 yet, we really do like to get here early and socialize. Robin and Bobbie showed up at 7 so we were up to 5 and later on we would have 1 more from our group show up. A small group but still fun. Robin lives up near Seattle but gets down here every so often and it seems she was in town this weekend with her daughter to go to Comic con which is in Portland this weekend, I didn’t know. Robins daughter is really accepting and the two of them go out all the time and she is always posting pictures of them together so I asked where her daughter was, she was back at the hotel. Turns out her daughter is a lot younger than I thought. I just assumed she was over 21. We sat and talked as we watched the Oregon Ducks football game. I have said many times I watch way more sports as Susan as everything just seems better and more fun as Susan. it really was great to sit and talk with everyone but especially Amber and Robin as I don’t get to see them as often. Robin is just so fun as she always has a smile on her face.

As it got closer to 9 it got busier and the next big table was reserved for a birthday party and 3 people sat down. They had a huge cake and about 9:30 they lit the candles and everyone sang happy birthday to the birthday girl. Karaoke was going and of course it got loud so it was hard to talk as always but it was also cold in here tonight as they had the air conditioner going. They do this a lot and I always bring my sweater and I hardly ever wear open toed heels as if my feet get cold, I am done. My dress was also thicker and quarter sleeves more of a winter dress and I was glad I wore it tonight. I really don’t know why they keep it so cold here. All of us commented to each other about how cold it was and there were a few girls in outfits that I figured they had to be cold in. one of the draw backs of being female as the cloths are made more for how they look not so much keeping you warm.

Now again the music sang tonight a lot of it I didn’t know but it was still fun and there were a lot of good singers. Amber was the first to leave around 11 and it wouldn’t be long before the rest of us would call it a night. Now Robin and I had to get pictures together and she said it was okay to post, actually she had them posted on her Facebook page as soon as we took them. It was such a fun night with Robin. She left and I went up and paid my bill and then I also called it a night, it was about 11:30 when I left and it felt good to go outside as it was warmer than inside and felt good. Now I don’t know how cold it was inside tonight but, in my car, it said it was 67 outside and it was noticeably warmer outside then inside.

It was just before midnight when I got home, later than I planed but it was such a fun night it will be worth being tired tomorrow. My hope, plan for tomorrow is to get time in the afternoon and evening so I will get this blog posted quicker. I also have to pick a few things up for work so I will probably do a little shopping depending on how late I am at Starbucks and how late the places I have to go as it will be a Sunday evening.

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September 15, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night September 7th at the Escape

Okay once again I find myself writing my blog a week later as it has been a really busy week. Last Saturday I did get out to the Escape to enjoy some Susan time and hopefully meet up with some friends. Now I was able to get there early, a little before 6 which was nice as it gave me some time to write my blog from Wednesday night’s dinner. I did take a quick selfie in the car. Now they were a little busier than normal at this time but I was able to get my normal table as most people sit at the bar. I set up my computer and wrote my blog before I went up to order food as I ate a late lunch. Tonight, I did a breakfast including pancakes instead of my normal burger. Just as I finished my blog Michelle showed up, she has been getting out pretty regular although she doesn’t stay late.

It was nice to sit and talk with her, I actually really enjoy the social aspect of a good conversation. A little after 7 Bobbie showed up so we had 3 of us tonight. We had a nice dinner and a wonderful time. Around 8 it started getting busy as another big group came in and sat at the next table. I really like it when it is a little busier as it is fun to people watch as there is a good diverse group that comes here. There were people looking for places to sit and a young man came over and asked if they could share our table and as we only had of us at a table that had 8 chairs I said yes and we moved to one end of the table. This was nice as I did get a chance to talk with them some over them evening. Just before Karaoke started Michelle left and it was just Bobbie and me.

At 9 Karaoke started and as always it gets a little loud so Bobbie moved to the next small table back just to my right but I stayed at the end of the table I was at as my chair had a back instead of a bar stool. Besides the dress I wore tonight was a little short so I wanted to be sitting closer to the floor plus it is really tight so I also had my corset on tonight and a chair is just more comfortable. To the right is an older picture of me in the dress.

Well as I sat there one of the ladies at the next table introduced herself to me and engaged me in conversation, her name was Emily and she was really nice. She also introduced me to her wife Venessa and they were just such a nice couple and I talked with them on and off between songs. Emily asked if I was going to sing and I told her no. I won’t go up and sing by myself, I only sing with other people. Any way she asked if I would sing with her so I said yes. She asked what song I wanted to do and yes you guessed it if you have read previous blogs, “I’ve had the time of my life” as it is one song I know well and is pretty even tone and slow, so she went up and put our names in.

Now the songs tonight was about half ones I knew and half that I wasn’t familiar with at least not enough to sing along with. I talked on and off with Emily and some with her wife and had a great time. Finally, it was our turn to sing and we went up and had a good time. I did notice it is way harder to sing in a corset as you can’t get as deep a breath and by the end of the song, I knew it. Emily thanked me for singing with her and I did the same and she said we will have to do it again and I agreed.

Soon it was after 10 and no Lauri again this week and she is pretty reliable as far as being here every week. Makes me wonder if she is okay. That is one of the problems with the gender community as some of us we only know one side of people and it can make it hard to get in touch with them. Hopefully she will be out next week. I stayed till after 11 before I was ready to call it a night. I paid my bill and said goodbye to Bobbie and also Emily and her wife Venessa. I do hope I see them again. I have met some wonderful people here. It was sad to see the night come to an end but I knew it must. I wont get out this week so my next time out will be next Saturday when I once again come to the Escape.

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Wednesday night dinner at Old Town Pizza

It is once again Wednesday and that means going out to dinner with my friends and tonight, we are going to Old Town Pizza downtown Portland. We have gone here many times over the last few years and always treated well and good food. Now I got home late, 5:45 so it would be a rush to get ready and be there by 7 so I the way home I decided what I would wear and how I would do my makeup, actually my makeup really is the same with maybe which color lipstick I wear. I got ready as quickly as I could and was out the door at 6:30 and there was a little traffic so I got there right at 7 and found a parking spot right in front of the door. As I got out of my car Jennifer walked up so we walked in together.

Melissa and Patty were already there and shortly after I got there Barb and Kris showed up, barb is back from here vacation and we were all looking forward to hearing about it. Dawnie and Aril also showed up, I think this is their second time out with the group so we had 8 of us here tonight. We are getting good turnouts for our Wednesday night dinners which is good. We talked for a while before we went up and ordered some food. Several of us ordered pizza to share so there was more then enough food to go around. I of course got my Canadian Bacon and Pineapple which is my favorite pizza.

Now I was between Jennifer and Patty with Melissa and Barb across from me so these were the ones I got to talk to the most although I did manage to talk with Kris, Dawnie and April some. I even got my Selfie for the night. Our food came and we all sat and ate pizza, (a few of the girls had Salads also) and talked and just had a wonderful time. The Wednesday night dinners really are a wonderful event as we get to talk and get to know each other better. I think that is why we are getting such a good turnout for them.

After we finished eating, we just sat and talked it really was a nice evening out made all the more special by my friends. I had got a text from Julie earlier wishing us a fun time, she is out of town for a few weeks and we all missed her tonight. It was probably 9:40 when we called it a night, it is amazing how fast these nights go. It was a little after 10 when I got home.

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September 7, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at the Escape and the end of August.

It is the last Saturday of August, actually the last day of August and yes, I am going to the Escape tonight for some Susan time and hopefully, more important to spend time with my friends. It really is amazing how fast this summer is going; it is hard to believe it is Labor Day weekend already. I posted in the group I would be there between 6 & 7 but no one posted back and being a Holiday weekend, it could be slow but I am still going. I started getting ready about 4:30 as I got home late, things my male self-had to do today. I was on my way by 5:30 and got to the Escape right at 6. Of course, I had to get a selfie in the car before going in. Now I like getting here early as it does give me a chance to play on my computer and catch up on my blogs as I am behind on two of them, Last Saturday night here at the Escape and also our Wednesday night dinner at Mothers Bistro this past week. Now I decided to wait to order dinner as I ate late in the afternoon so I sat down and started on last weeks blog. There were a few people here mostly at the bar but a couple at the next table watching the Oregon ducks football game and I must admit I kind of watched it as I wrote my blog.

I was just finishing my blog when Michelle showed up plus, I knew Bobbie would be here a little after 7. With my blog posted I went up and ordered dinner, my normal hamburger. It was just after 7 when Jan & Lynn showed up and shortly after Bobbie so we had 5 of us here. It was great to see Jan and Lynn again as it has been awhile. As I have said I have made some wonderful friends and when I don’t see them, I miss them. It is really amazing as when I first started going out, I never could imagine the friends I would make as Susan would not let people get close to her. now I would guess maybe 20 of the girls in the group has seen me as my male self. Now with my blog done I put away my computer to talk with my friends and yes watch the end of the Oregon Ducks football game. It really is funny the things Susan does. As for sports I am a baseball person, don’t follow or watch Basket Ball or Football yes, I have watched it a little with my dad growing up but really wasn’t interested but Susan can have fun watching it at a bar. I always tell people that my closest friends on my male side if you told them you saw me in a bar dressed as a woman I think they would be more shocked I was in a bar as they all know I don’t drink, just never cared for it, but the same would go for watching football. The game was good and Oregon dominated the first half but fell apart in the second half and right in the final seconds lost the game. It was sad as most people here are big Duck fans.

With the game over some of the people left and it was kind of quiet for a little while till it got close to 9 when Karaoke starts. Now they had some reserved signs on several tables as there is a big group coming in later so I knew it would be real busy tonight. At 9 Karaoke started and people started singing including Lynn as she always sings. Now it was good but tonight most of the songs I didn’t know, I like to think the people picking the songs were just picking obscure songs instead of believing that they were just newer songs I didn’t know as I listen to 106.9 the classic hits station here in Portland, 70’s 80’s & 90’s. Wow I remember growing up and my parents would listen to the oldies and I thought that was so strange and now I do it, I guess my age shows a little. Any way I didn’t sing along with many tonight but it was fun to listen. The big group came in around 10 and then it was really busy and of course there were a lot of new singers but the mix stayed the same songs I didn’t know.

I went up to the bar to get another drink, Sprite and one of the ladies at the bar complimented me on my bracelets and we talked for a little bit. I love having interaction with other people this way. I also had another lady come over to our table and compliment me on my lipstick. I told her I loved red and it turns out she does too but didn’t think she could wear red lipstick as it is so bright. I told her she would look great in it as in my mind everyone looks good in red, did I mention I love the color red. Now I know the lipstick I wear here on Saturday night is really red and bright but it is a bar on a Saturday night. I would not wear this color during the day or going someplace casual but it is Saturday night.

We ended up with 6 of us here tonight so a good turnout for a Holiday weekend. It was after 11 when Jan & Lynn left and I finally I went up and paid my bill, what a fun night. now I hope to get caught up on my blogs this weekend as I am planning on going to Starbucks Sunday afternoon and then on Monday I don’t have to work and don’t have anyplace to be till the late afternoon for a BBQ and I am just letting people think I am working so I can go out in the morning and early afternoon. I want to do a little shopping and stop by and put some flowers on my Dads grave. My male self takes my mom there every so often but I also want to go there as Susan. although he never met me this way, the daughter he never knew he had I like to think he knows now and I hope he would be happy with her.

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September 2, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night and Susan gets out again

It is Saturday and yes once again I get to go out and be female self for a few hours. Now being Susan, being female is very important to me and something I need in my life but as I have said before it is not all of who I am or all of what I need. My male side is also important to me and I need that part also in my life. It took me years to figure out who I am and I need both sides of who I am to be complete, it is both sides of me that make me who I am and I would not change that for anything.

I started getting ready early with the hope of getting to the Escape early but with the extra time I was able to slow down and enjoy my getting ready. There is just something I find so enjoyable and relaxing about doing my makeup and getting ready and transforming myself to Susan. it really is a wonderful feeling and I was ready a little later than I planned but I was still able to get to the Escape by 6. I went in and they were not busy at all, there were 2 women at a table and that was it. I got my normal table and set up my computer and then ordered dinner, yes, my normal Hamburger. I worked on my blog from Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s. my food came and it was good as always. I had been there about 15 minutes when the other 2 ladies left and yes, I was the only one there other than the staff. I think this is the first time I have been the only one here. It was only 15 or 20 minutes and then a few others came in but it was a little weird. I did take a couple selfies as I sat here.

It wasn’t long and Michelle and another girl showed up so I put my computer away so we could talk. It really is nice to have friends out with you and I have some wonderful friends. It was about 7:30 when Bobbie showed up so our group was getting a little bigger and shortly after that Jan & Lynn showed up so we had 6 now and I knew that around 10 Lauri would show up.

As it got closer to 9 more people started showing up for Karaoke which is the big draw here on Saturday nights. It gets loud and hard to talk but still fun to listen to the people sing. Now normally a lot of the songs that are sung I don’t know, yes I am older then the average person here but even the songs I know are usually not what I would call my favorites, you know the ones you know the words to and want to sing along with. Well tonight was awesome as I knew pretty much all the songs, and most were ones I knew and could sing along with. It really was a fun night here.

By 9:30 it was so busy 3 girls came over and asked if they could sit at the end of our table and as we only had 7 of us and seats for 11, I said sure and they sat down. Now they turned the hairs to watch the people singing so I really couldn’t talk to them, but it was nice to have a full table. Cynthia the lady we met last week was also here with a friend and they sat at the next table, so I did get to talk with her a little again. I must say the people here are awesome and friendly it really is a wonderful place to go.

Now normally I stay till 10 or some sometimes later and tonight I was ready to leave by 10:30 but it was so busy and I didn’t want to stand in line to pay my bill I kept waiting in hopes the line would die off but it never really did. It was about 11:15 when I decided I was going to have to stand in the line to pay my bill or I would be here all night. It was about 11:40 by the time I paid my bills and said my goodbyes for the night, so it was a late night for Susan but so worth it.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new with Susan.

August 3, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Yes, another Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and once again I get to go out as Susan, yes, I will be going to the Escape tonight. Now I pretty much go here every Saturday night and that may seem boring to some but there is a good reason. Now on our Wednesday night dinners we go to a bunch of different places to eat and it can sometimes be 4 to 6 months before we go to the same place twice which really is fun and nice but it is also good to have a regular place where some just know wee will be there and can get use to and feel really comfortable especially if they are new to going out. I remember when I first started going out, we went to Embers every Friday night and really most Saturday night. it didn’t matter which week it was I just knew I could go there and find friends and it became a real comfortable place to go. So, I really like the idea of having a night that everyone just knows they can go there and have others there. Now my plan was to get there between 6 & 7 as I had some things I needed to do, yes I needed to do some work in my yard but it was a hot day upper 80’s and so I didn’t last long outside, I like my air conditioned house better so I went in early and started getting ready so I was on my way by 5.

I got to the Escape at 5:30 and actually had to park on the street. Now they were a little busy but most were sitting at the bar so I got my normal table and set up my computer and then ordered dinner, my normal hamburger. I wrote my blog from Wednesday’s night dinner and then caught up on e-mails as I waited for others to show up. Bobbie was the first to show up about 6:30 and Michele wasn’t far behind her so we had 3 of us here early. It is nice to get there early as you can talk before it gets to loud. I really do like this time just sitting around and talking, one of the big differences between my male and female sides.

Audri was the next to arrive, she has come out briefly with us a couple times before but she got her tonight early so was able to spend more time with us. It was really great to talk with her and get to know her better. I even got a picture with her that she said I could post, very important as I won’t post someone else’s picture without their permission. I think Audri had fun tonight as she was always smiling, I remember when I first went out, I always had a smile on my face as I was just so happy to be able to be out as Susan.

Now we had a lady sitting at the next table named Cynthia and she came over to talk to us. She is not trans but really was interested in us and I think she liked trans woman. So, we all talked with her and she must have sat at our table talking with us for an hour or so. It was really nice as I always enjoy getting to know new people. The funny thing is in talking to her I found out where she lives and it is only a mile or so from where I live. Be interesting if I run into her sometime when I am not Susan.

Laura M also showed up as she was picking her girlfriend up at the airport a little later so she joined us for a little while. It was great to see her again. Jennie also showed up tonight which was a surprise as it is always on a Wednesday night dinner when she shows up. I got to talk to them a little which was nice. Wendy and another girl also showed up so we had a really good group tonight. Lauri also showed up about 10, I always know it is close to the time for me to leave as I am not the late-night girl I use to be.

Now it was hard to talk now with Karaoke going so we would talk between the songs and we just had a wonderful evening. It was finally time for Audri to leave I think she had a fun night and I hope she will come out with the group again, maybe a Wednesday night dinner. I stayed a little later as it was a little after 11 when I paid my bill and called it a night. here is a picture I took in my car when I got here tonight. It really was a wonderful night out.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am up to as Susan

July 23, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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