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Wednesday night dinner at Le Bistro Montage

Well it is Wednesday and our group is going to Le Bistro Montage for dinner. Now the week kind of got away from us so we didn’t get it posted to our group till Tuesday night so I figured with such short notice it would be a small turnout and by Wednesday afternoon it looked like it would just be Barb, Melissa and me for dinner. Now I had hoped to get home early but traffic was bad so it was 5:40 when I got home from work so it would be a rush job to get ready as it takes me 30 to 45 minutes to get there depending on traffic. It is not as much fun getting ready when I have such a short time but having dinner with my friends would make up for it. I was ready and out the door by 6:15. I got to Le Bistro Montage about 6:50 and I normally park right around the corner as there is always parking spots and tonight was no exceptions as I could only see 1 car in the angle parking spots on the street. Now as I got on the block, I figured out why. The whole block on the sidewalk was tent after tent of people camping. You really couldn’t even walk down the sidewalk but worse then that the camps had 3 open fires burning to keep warm or cook I am not sure but either way I did not want to park there so oi drove around the corner and there happened to be a spot almost right in front of the door that I was just able to get my car into, I have a small car which is good at times like this.

I went in and Melissa was already there, she had told them we had 4 as Joan posted late, she might make it. Now the one bad thing about Le Bistro Montage is they don’t take reservations and you have to have more then half your group here before they will seat you and as we had 4 we needed at least 3 of us, so Melissa and I stood and talked as we waited for Barb which was only a few minutes. We were shown to our table well part of a table as they have a few really long tables that they put people at so we were kind of next to the group next to us. We have come here several times and every time I have been here; we get basically the same seats. Our waiter came over and got our drink orders as we waited to see if Joan would make it. I did get a quick selfie as we waited.

Now as we waited, we talked with Melissa as we wanted to here all about what is going on in her life. I will give you a quick rundown. Her new years resolution in 2019 was to come out to her Mom which she did right before Christmas, took her almost the whole year but she did it and we are so proud of her. Anyway, to this year, in the end of January she talked with her Human Resources about her being Transgender and it went well so she came out at work a little over a week ago right before she went on Vacation to go visit Julie & Trixie. Well while she was on vacation, she got acrylic nails, square natural and a very modest length but they look awesome. So, she worked Monday and Tuesday as her boy self and everyone seemed very supportive of her and now, she is off or working from home the rest of the week and this coming Monday she will go to work as Melissa. So awesome for her, I really am jealous of her nails. I don’t want to transition but I would love to have pretty nails like hers all the time. Any way this was most of the conversation for the night, we even saw pictures from her trip with Julie and Trixie. I am so looking forward to Diva Las Vegas so I can see Julie again as she winters down south.

We ordered our food and of course I had my normal. I am not real adventurous on my food; I know what I like and a tend to stay with it. Our food came and just after that Joan showed up so there were 4 of us tonight. Now we had to catch Joan up on Melissa and what is going on with her life. Joan transitioned several years back and what is interesting is Joan knows one of Melissa’s co-workers who is also transgender and transitioned a year ago. We had a wonderful dinner and, in a way, it was nice that it was such a small group as it really did give us a chance to really talk between us. After dinner we did order desert kind of, Barb and Joan split a dessert and I talked Melissa into splitting one with me. It really was a wonderful evening and after we ate our dessert we sat and talked some more. It was just a fun night and I was in no hurry to see it end. I have to work this weekend so won’t be able to get out on Saturday night but because of it I have tomorrow off so I can sleep in and I plan on having some Susan time early in the day. Now Le Bistro Montage is actually open till 2am so we could have stayed really late if we wanted but it was a little after 9:30 when we called it a night. now next week I am not sure if I will get out as I have family coming to town and I am not sure how long they will stay so I really have to enjoy Thursday this week as it may be over a week till I get my next chance to get out as Susan.

We said our goodbyes and we were on our way home. It really was a fun night. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

February 27, 2020 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Mama Mia Trattoria

It is Wednesday and I can once again start going out again although the next two weeks Wednesdays are Christmas Day and New Years Day so this will be our last Wednesday night dinner of 2019 so I was really looking forward to it. We are going to Mama Mia Trattoria downtown. The group has gone here before a couple times but this will be my first time and I really do like going to new places. Melissa had made reservations for 7. I got home a little earlier so I had time tonight to take my time and enjoy getting ready, there is just something so relaxing about transforming myself. I got downtown about 6:45 and found a parking spot about a block away. It still amazes me how easily I get out of the car now without even really thinking about it.

I got to Mama Mia a little before 7 and they were not busy and Melissa and Danika were already there. We sat and talked as we waited for others to show up. I did take the opportunity to get a quick selfie. It wasn’t long and Barb and another girl showed up and finally Jeanie and her girlfriend Amy so we had 7 of us tonight. We talked for a little bit before we ordered dinner. I of course got the Chicken Parmesan, one of my favorites. Now this is more of a mid-priced place mostly between $20 & $30 but the portions are bigger. We all talked for a while and the big topic was Melissa as she came out to her Mom over the weekend and we were all interested. Well it went really well so we were all happy for that. Then the topic turned to Christmas and New Years and everyone’s plans for the Holidays as this will be the last time, we see each other probably till next year as some are going out of town. I of course will be going to the Escape on Saturday but the girls that come out on Wednesday nights don’t get out very often on the weekends. It is funny as when I first started going out the big night was Friday and now, I don’t think anyone goes out on Fridays. And although we can get some big turnouts on Saturday nights, they can also be very small. Our Wednesday night dinners seem to be our most consistent for turnouts, usually 6 to 10. Who would have thought that years ago that just going to a restaurant for dinner mid-week would turn into our best event?

Our food came and it was really good and again our waiter was really nice and treated us wonderful. It really is nice we can go any place we want and we really do get treated well. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation and just enjoyed being out as a group. Now as I said they were not busy so after we ate, we just sat and talked. It turns out Danika, Jeanie and Amy all lived in the same city in Northern California. Our waiter came to see if we wanted dessert and of course we all did but we were all good and passed tonight as with the Holidays we will all be eating a lot of sweets and today at work several people brought in cookie trays and fudge trays and I had to be polite and eat some so I really didn’t want any tonight. I really am trying to limit my sugar intake and eat a little healthier. Any way we all passed and just kept talking till 9 as that is when they close. Now they don’t just kick you out as they have to clean up but we didn’t want to keep them from cleaning up so we all paid our bills and we were on our way.

We all said our goodbyes as we left. Now Barb, Danika and I all parked a block a way in the same direction so we all walked together talking. Just 3 ladies walking down the street. We were all on different corners of the intersection so we all went our separate ways. It is always sad to see these evenings come to an end but with the holidays it will be at least 3 weeks till our next Wednesday night dinner and that makes it especially tough as I really do miss my friends when I don’t get to see them.

It was about 9:45 when I got home and cleaned up and washed all traces of Susan away before bed. N ow I will look forward to Saturday night at the Escape and I really do need to start going to Starbucks again. Probably won’t happen before Christmas but that will be one of my New Years resolutions. Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what Susan is doing now.

Just in case I am slow in getting my next Blog out I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy and safe New

December 22, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Sunday dinner at St Jack Restaurant

Okay it is Sunday and Julie; Melissa and I are having dinner at St Jack Restaurant in Portland. Now I have never heard of this restaurant so I am looking forward to going to a new place, I think Julie has been here before as her male self. Julie is in town for a couple days; she actually leaves tomorrow but said she could get out for an early dinner 5 pm. Now I am really busy right now and really hadn’t planned on going out today but I really wanted to go as Julie only gets back here a couple times during the winter and I didn’t want to miss spending time with her, she really is more like family. My goal was to get the things I had to do today done early and then start getting ready by 3 at the latest as I am picking Julie up at 4:30 so I have to leave my house by 4. I really like it when Julie and I ride together as it is way more fun and gives us a chance to talk and spend time together. Well I didn’t finish everything I needed to do today but it was time I had to start getting ready. I took my time and was out my door by 4 as planned. I got to Julies about 4:25 and Julie was just finishing getting ready. We talked for a few minutes before we were out the door on our way to meet Melissa for dinner. I did get a couple selfies in the car just in case I forgot to get pictures later which happens a lot.

The ride to the restaurant took about 25 minutes and gave Julie and I a good chance to talk and just made the drive that much more enjoyable. 10 years ago, I never would have thought I would be picking someone up and driving to dinner with them as Susan, I really have come a long way. We got downtown just a little after 5 and found a parking spot about a block away and walked to St Jacks, we walked through the door at 5:10 which was perfect as Julie had made reservations for 5:15 so we were seated right away, Melissa walked in right behind us so it really was perfect timing. Now our group does Wednesday night dinners and we go to a lot of different restaurants but we are always looking for new places to go and it is easier I think to try new places in a smaller group as you don’t know how busy they are or how big of tables they have, seams the trend now for restaurants are more what I would call boutique style. Smaller in size for more of an intimate dining experience and of course a little more expensive instead of the big restaurants that caters to big crowds.

St Jack is smaller on size but very nice and yes more expensive you are looking at $25 to $50 for a dinner but the food is wonderful. Our waitress was awesome and so friendly, I think in places like this you really do get better services as the wait staff doesn’t have as many tables to take care of. I ordered their Bavette which was awesome by the way. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversations. I would highly recommend this place if you want a nice dinner. As I said a little more expensive and not something, I would do all the time as I do have a budget but every once in a while, a girl hast to splurge on herself. I think this would be a good option for our groups Wednesday night dinners but would probably get a smaller turnout due to the price as we do try to keep most of the dinners in the $10 to $25 range.

After dinner we sat and talked and Melissa got our wonderful waitress to get a few pictures of us, I of course forgot about it, the reason I got the selfies earlier. When I was first going out it was all about getting pictures, I bet I would get 20 to 30 ever night just on my digital camera (yes pre cell phones), now thousands of pictures later I am not really thinking about it and I think part of it is I am really not thinking about the fact I am out as Susan, I am out dressed as a female. I am just out as me and really most of the time I am not even aware of how I am dressed; I am just me and that is a wonderful feeling. There are two pictures one with the flash and one without, couldn’t decide which was better so you get both.

We had a wonderful time but as always it was time to leave, it was about 7:30 when we called it a night. Julie had to get up early to get a few things done before she heads south again for the winter and I still had things I needed to do tonight that I didn’t get done earlier today. We said our good bye to Melissa and walked back to my car and I drove back to Julie’s house to drop her off and we talked the whole way. It really was such a fun night. I dropped Julie off and realized it may be several months till we can get together again.

Now I had to make a stop and get gas but I also still need to do my holiday shopping for Thanksgiving. I am having some family over and yes, I have put it off so I stopped at Fred Meyers and parked right by their main door, I was surprised how few cars there were as it was only a little after 8. I walked to the door and figured it out. Although this is their main door it is not the door closest to the grocery department and so they lock this door at 8. Now I had two choices, get back in my car and drive around the corner and park or just walk along the building which is what I did. Now they were actually pretty busy which I figured for this tome of year. Now I had planned on this and that was the reason I wore a skirt and sweater top but I did also wear my ankle boots with 3-inch heels so I still was a little over dressed for shopping although I did see a couple other woman in dresses and heels inside.

It took me about 30 minutes to find everything I needed well almost everything as I did forget one thing, I should have made a list. I am sure I got some looks but really, I don’t even pay attention any more. I went to the check stand and paid for my groceries and the lady checking me out didn’t seem to react to me any different and talked to me just like anyone else. I got the groceries out to my car and then drove over and got gas before going home. it was a fun night but I didn’t get home till almost 9:45 so a later night then I planned. Now I will have the fun on thanksgiving of knowing all the food was bought as Susan and wondering what my family would think if they knew the food they were eating was bought by Susan. What ii am most thankful for is my family, both on my male side and yes, my Female side you are all very important to me. Love you all

Any way thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving every one

November 28, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner and going to Southland Whiskey Kitchen

It is Wednesday night and we are doing dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen which is really a nice place and has great food, even though I have the same thing when we go there. Now I have never mentioned this but they are known for their selection of Whiskey. Now I don’t drink so this really means nothing to me and I couldn’t tell the difference between the lowest priced or the highest priced but on Wednesday nights they do a ½ priced on all Whiskey $12 or higher so if you are a Whiskey drinker, Wednesday nights are the night to go. Now only Melissa and Barb posted they would be there so it could be a small group tonight.

Now I got home a little after 5 and I started getting ready and I rushed it as I wanted to be on my way by 6 or shortly after, I figured it would only take about a half hour to get there but parking in this area is not good and it can take some time to find a place to park. It took me just under an hour to get ready and I was on my way a little after 6 and going into Portland there is no traffic so I got there by 6:30 so I had time to look for parking. Now where I normally go, I watched 4 cars in front of me turn that way so I decided to go straight and that was the right choice as there were 3 parking spots right on 23rd a block past the Whiskey Kitchen and right Infront of the parking pay station so now walking. I was going to be early which is okay. Now I didn’t think of taking a selfie before getting out of the car and that means there would be no pictures tonight as I usually don’t think about it once I meet up with my friends.

I walked the block and went inside to get a table and of course they all remembered me and asked how many we would have. I told them 3 for sure but maybe a couple extra yes, I was hoping. They got us a table right up front for 6 and told me if more showed up, they would figure it out which was nice. Now as I said we have come here many times and always treated wonderful; the last time was a little over a month ago and the waitress we had that night who we have had several times before came over and talked to me, her name is Elaine and she is wonderful. Now it turns out we were not sitting in her section so we had a young man as our waiter and he was also awesome but it was a let down not to have Elaine although she did stop by out table several times to talk to us and also said goodbye on her way out after her shift. Anyway, a little before 7 Melissa and her wife showed up and a few minutes later Barb so we had 4 of us tonight.

We ordered dinner and yes, I got the same thing I always do as it is just so good. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation which is always a recipe for a wonderful night. as always it went way to fast and you can tell it is getting to the end of summer as by the time, we left it was dark out but it was still somewhat warm out but I know the cold weather is coming. We left and I walked the block to my car and went home. it was a little after 10 when I got home, but it was a great night out with friends.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog for what is new in my life.

September 22, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Old Town Pizza

It is the last Wednesday night of May and we are going to dinner at Old Town Pizza. We have gone here many times and always have a wonderful time and we usually get a good turnout here. Now I love the Wednesday night dinners as it gives us a good chance to talk and socialize. Now today I did get home earlier so I was able to take my time getting ready which I love. now a funny side note, as I got home early, I decided to text Julie and see if she wanted to ride with me as I would have time to pick her up. So, as I was doing my makeup, I was talking into my phone to text her, I love voice texting. Now for some reason my phone was not getting what I said correct, it looked like it was foreign language so after 6 tries I gave up and decided to go the old fashion way and type the message. I would type a word in and it would mix up the letters, I thought my phone was broke but then I looked at it and it looked like German. Some how my phone language for texting got changed, took me a little while to find the settings and change it back. Somehow, I must have hot the right combination of buttons putting the phone in my pocket. I did manage to text Julie and then finished getting ready. Julie texted me back she would love that so I told her I would pick her up a little after 6.

I picked Julie up about 6:15 it really is nice to go together, 2 attractive ladies going out for the night, I know that sounds kind of corny but 10 years ago I would never imagine being able to do this. Julie is such an awesome friend and we had a nice time talking as I drove downtown Portland. We got to Old Town Pizza about 6:45 and went in, we were the first there so we put a couple tables together as we had 8 of us post we would be here. It wasn’t long and others started to show up, Melissa, Kitty, Jeanie, Barb, Michele, & Dana and I think 1 more. I really need to get back to doing my blog right after the event as my memory is not as good several days later. Well we all sat and talked for a while before we went up and ordered. They have really good pizza here and just a nice place to go and have some social time.

Now Dana is new to our group and came out to meet us, she is really nice and we had a great time getting to know her. She just moved to Portland not long ago. I really di like when we get knew girls out as I like meeting new friends. It really is hard to believe but I have more friends as Susan then in my male life even though my Susan time is a small part of my life and the friend I do have are some of my best friends, Casandra and Julie really are my best friends and I am not taking away from my other friends as they are all awesome but Julie and Cassandra probably no me better then anyone. We have done things together both in male and female rolls and I never would have thought that possible.

Our food came out and we all ate as we talked. There was a girl who worked here ad she thought we were awesome, she kept coming out and talking to us and making sure everything was good, she gave us her name and now a few days later I can’t remember it but she was so awesome. It really is nice when you meet someone like her. We had a nice dinner and wonderful conversation; these dinners really are a wonderful time to get to know each other better.

It was about 9:15 when we all called it a night so its not a real late bight out which is nice also as it is a weekday. Now again it was nice having Julie ride with me as we were able to talk more on the way back to her house. It really is wonderful to be able to share so much of my life with my friends. I dropped Julie off and then drove home, it was about 10:15 when I got home but it was such a fun night out.

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June 3, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Finally, a Saturday night out.

It is Saturday and I am going out finally with my friends. My plan was to go to the Escape around 6 as I use to so I posted that in our group to see if other would show up. I was really looking forward to it. I got a message from Barb, her and Melissa were thinking of going to dinner Saturday evening and wanted to know if I wanted to join them, they were going to Full Moon Thai Restaurant at 6:30. Now I am not a fan of Thai food, well I really haven’t eaten it before as I am not a spicy food type girl but I looked at there menu online and saw some things I thought I would like so I told them I would join them. Now I really like these dinners we have as it been normally a smaller group and easier to talk between us, plus it is a little quieter. I will include a few selfie’s I took tonight.

Now I have been going out a little close to home and that really is a lot different as it is on my time schedule, in other words when I am ready and get there. It has been almost two months since I went out and met my friends, Cassandra & Peggy for dinner at Mother’s Bistro. So yes, tonight I was running late as it took longer for me to get ready. I knew Barb was going to be there early so my plan was to be there by 6 or shortly after. I started getting ready at 4 and it took longer than I planned as it was 6 by the time I was ready to leave but it was okay as by my GPS it is only 20 minutes. Well there was all kinds of traffic and I was gong slow on the freeway, at times I think it would have been quicker to walk even in my heels. At one point we came to a complete stop so I texted Barb I would be late. Things started to move again and I thought I would be okay till I got to my exit. It took me 15 minutes to get off the freeway, turns out there was a blazer game tonight and it was the exit I needed. I got to the restaurant at 6:50 and was lucky to find a parking spot just around the corner.

I went in and I was the last to make it, Keren was there with her niece, Melissa and her wife, Barb, Kris and finally me. It was so wonderful to see them all again, I can’t tell you how much I have missed my friends. We chatted for a bit before we ordered and it was so nice. It really was so wonderful and great to see Keren again as she doesn’t get out much and I got to meet her Niece who is transitioning now. We had a wonderful meal and what I ordered was really good so I would recommend Full Moon Thai, the staff was also wonderful. Now as I got there late we were a little later here than I had figured as I had posted I would be at the Escape between 8 and 9 and it was about 9 when we left here. Luckily it is only about 10 minutes or less to get to the Escape from here so I got to the Escape a little after 9. Of course, there were no parking spots in the lot so it would be street parking tonight but as I has a small car I found a spot just a couple cars up from the Escape.

I got inside and Babbie was there and so was Kris, Barb showed up right after I did. The Escape war really busy and we only had half the long table we normally have but that was okay. Lura M and her girlfriend, Laura H and Max were there but they were in the other side talking. Now the Escape is a really fun place to go and the people there are wonderful and so accepting. Now tonight I had worn my little black dress which is clingy and tight and of course I had my corset under it so I really did have a nice figure tonight. A couple of the ladies here came over to tell me how pretty I looked which I always love to hear. Karaoke was going so it was kind of hard to hear when you were talking, one of the reasons I like to get here early.

When Laurie showed up, it was nice to see her again. Laura H & Laura M each sang tonight and of course they stopped by my table and we talked a little Laura H and Max got married last month so we talked about that some of course I have been following in that on her Facebook page. To my friends on Facebook, I love you all but I really want to hear about you and your life on Facebook not political stuff. Trust me, nothing you post on Facebook about the other side what ever side you are on is going to change the mind of someone on the other side. All it does is divide. It perpetuates the division and hate. I am sure if you have at least 100 friends some of them voted for the other person. I value all my friends and I accept we will not always agree on politics or religion but I will not let that come between us. As a matter of fact, at Dinner one of the girls brought up politics and I have gotten so good at this as I immediately showed Melissa my nails as I have gone back to the way I was doing them which is in my nail blog, and the conversation changed that quick. Girls it is so easy to say something without intending to offend someone as we assume everyone believes the same as we do, I think social media is the reason. Well enough of this topic and back to tonight.

One of the ladies here who always sings and I don’t think I have ever seen her here without a smile on her face got up to sing, her name is Melissa and she is really nice. A tip ladies, smile everyone looks so much better with a smile on their face. Your makeup can be perfect, your outfit perfect but a smile brings it all together. After her song she came by and said hi to me as she usually does, she had notice I had not been here for a while which really made me feel good. Well she sat down for a while and we talked. Turns out she works about a mile from where I live and at a place I have gone as my male self although it is a big place and the area she works is not the part I was in. well we talked a little longer and she asked the question all ladies hate; how old I was. I just smiled and told her older then she was at which she replied she didn’t think so as people always guess her age lower but I was still pretty sure of myself so I told her I would bet her, of course there was nothing to the bet. Turns out she is 44 so she was right as I was thinking she was in her late 30’s. well of course I won the bet as she was shocked when I told her I was 54. I guess makeup really does hide your age, that and a daily moisturizer. We talked for probably 30 minutes which was nice as up to now our conversations have been just a few minutes. I really like to get to know people better.

Now it was after 11 which is the time I leave by if not earlier but tonight we set the clocks back an hour so I get an extra hour so I was not in a hurry to leave. It was about 11:30 when Lee showed up. She joined our group and I met her I think in the early spring and she has come a long way in that time. Most of her neighbors know and even some of her co-workers, as a matter of fact she showed up here tonight with one of her co-workers, Mandie who I have met before and is really nice and one of Mandie’s friends, Marty. Both these ladies are awesome and supportive of Lee which is wonderful. It was so nice to see her again and talk with her and her friends. I had a wonderful talking with them. I lost all track of time and before I knew it, it was after 1 am, I think this is the latest Susan has been out in years but it was such a wonderful night.

I finally called it a night and said my goodbyes before leaving. By the time I got home and got in bed my clock which I had already set back an hour said 1:05 am so I really did make it till 2 am, I am so thankful for the extra hour tonight. Sorry this blog was a little longer than normal but I was just so happy to be out I didn’t want to leave anything out. That being said there were 4 men her at the Escape tonight with nail polish on, black but still polish and 3 of them had acrylic nails nicely shaped and a little long. I would love to see more men with nice nails and maybe some reds or pinks.

Thanks for reading and be sure to check out my most recent blog as I am hoping to get out more often.

November 4, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at McMenamins

Well it has been a busy couple weeks and part of it I was sick and couldn’t get out, actually didn’t feel like going out so it has been almost 2 weeks and I am really looking forward to dinner out with my friends. I am actually planning on getting there early just to have a little more Susan time. I got home from work and started getting ready right away, I wanted to get there with my computer by 5:30. It was just before 5 when I was ready to leave and took time to double check that it was McMenamines and then I packed up my computer and I was on my way. I got downtown Portland and had to drive around a little looking for a parking spot but finally found 1 right across the street and parked.

I went in and they were really busy, the busiest I have ever seen them by a long way so I got a table in the corner room and set up my computer. I then went and ordered a drink and some Scooby snacks (mini corndogs) so good. It was so wonderful to be out again, can’t tell you how much I miss it when I can’t go out. I spent the next hour on my computer catching up on e-mails and the things I didn’t do when I was sick. It was about 5:50 and I texted Melissa to let her know how busy they were. She texted back was looking for parking so I waited. It was 7 when she texted me she was here with Nicole and was wondering where was. Now this made me wonder so I quickly checked our web page and sure enough I was in the wrong place. We go to several McMenamins and I thought it was ringlers pub at the Crystal Ballroom when in fact it was the Tavern and pool hall. I had looked and just saw McMenamines and Crystal Ballroom and miss where it said not the one at Crystal Ballroom. Luckily, they are not far apart so I texted back I was on my way and quickly paid my bill and left. I got to the correct one about 7 :25 when I got there so it was fine but I felt a little silly.

Now Melissa, Nicole, Barb, and Kris were already there so I joined them and we talked for a little while before we ordered. It really was so nice to be out again with my friends. We talked a little about our web page, our cruise coming up in October and of course Diva Las Vegas, Esprit, and just where we would like to go out for dinner and if we should try to mix up the nights to see if we can get more girls out. We all ordered dinner. The food here is good although it is bar food but still a fun night out. We were just finishing up dinner and Stacy showed up so we actually had 6 tonight in all. After we paid our bills we sat and talked for a little longer. It was after 9:30 when we called it a night. It really was fun and so great to get out again.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my latest blog to see what is going on in my life.

June 30, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

It is Wednesday and our group is going to Hobo’s downtown for dinner which is a really nice place with good food. I posted in our group to see who all was going and so far, only have 2 that said yes and 2 maybes so may be a smaller group. I got home and started getting ready as I wanted to get to Hobo’s early for 2 reasons, just to make sure someone was there in case any girls showed up early and yes also to work on my blog as once again I am behind in writing them. I got done with my make by a little after 5 and was starting to get dressed when Julie texted me to see when I planed on going. I texted her back and said I was almost ready to leave and asked if she wanted me to pick her up, not that far out of my way and way more fun to go with someone then by yourself. Now years ago, it was because I just didn’t want to be out by myself but that is not the reason today. Today going out as Susan is about 2 things, being out doing normal things every other woman does but 2 and probably most important is being out with my friends. I have made some awesome close friends that are more like family and I miss when I don’t get to see them. Julie texted me that would be great so I told her I would be there in about 30 minutes and quickly finished getting dressed and was on my way.

I got to Julies house which is pretty much all finished after her remodel and she was already to go but she did take a few minutes to show me what was new and of course we got a couple pictures in her front room. It was turning out to be a fun night. Julie and I left and drove to Downtown Portland and parked just around the corner from Hobo’s, there were actually quiet a few parking spots tonight. We got to Hobo’s and went in and got a table and now we waited to see who all would show up. The table had 4 chairs but we could probably fit 6 around it if more showed up.

Barb was the first to show up followed by Kate and then Joan so we had 5 which was just perfect as we had room at the table but everyone could talk with everyone which is always nice. We talked for a bit and had some appetizers which Julie ordered, Thank Julie. Then it was time to order dinner. The food here is really good but more of a medium price range. My two favorite things here are the Chicken Parmesan which I had last time and their Prime Rib, I went with the Prime Rib tonight although I ate more of the appetizers then I should have.

Now we talked more as we waited for our food. One thing we are working on is how to get more of our group out especially the newer members. We all know how hard that first time or two out can be as we were all there at one point. I think back to the first times I went out and how scarred I was and now it is no big deal. Most of the time when I am out I am not even thinking about how I am dressed and for the most part people don’t care, I don’t even think a lot of people even notice as they are busy with what is going on in their lives. WE also talked a little about our Mexican Cruise this fall still time to sign up if you are interested. It really is fun to be out with my friends.

Our dinners finally came and we all enjoyed our food as I said they really do have good food here. We had a wonderful evening and dinner and no one ordered desert as between the appetizers and our dinners that was more then enough. Besides I really need to get serious about watching what I eat as I do want to lose some weight by our cruise which is coming up fast now. The night went by so fast as it always does and soon it was 9:30 and time to call it a night.

As we left Julie and I walked through CC Slaughters to see what was going on. It was pretty empty but we did see Dee and her partner there. Turns out they have just moved back to the Portland area so we talked with them for a little while before leaving. Now it was time to take Julie home before going home myself. It really is nice to have Julie there as we got to talk more and things are just more fun with friends along. It was a little after 10 when I dropped Julie off and headed for home. It really was a wonderful night out.

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June 3, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Wednesday out and dinner with my friends.

I had things to take care of today at home so it was almost 11 before I started getting ready. Now I know Cassandra usually goes out a little early on Wednesdays before dinner so I texted her to see when she would be out so we could meet up. She texted me back she hoped to be ready by 2:30 so that would be fun to meet up with her. Now I had to figure out how to do my makeup for the day. You see for going out to dinner with my friends I really wanted red lips but that is a bit much for the day, well you guessed it the red lipstick won. Now I did wear one of my black skirts with a grey top and my black boots with heels as I think this is really a classy work to evening look. It was 12:30 before I was ready to leave. I had about 2 hours give or take a little before Cassandra would be ready and with the red lipstick really didn’t want to go shopping. I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house, I have been to this Starbucks in the morning, late afternoon and evening but I don’t think I have ever been to this one at this time of day.

I left and headed for Starbuck, at the end of the street one of my neighbors a few houses down came around the corner in his car and with cars parked either side of the street there was only room for 1 car to go so I had to wait for him. Now I do know him by name and talk with him occasionally when we are getting our mail at the same time. As he went by he waved to me and I just waved back. I don’t know if he knows about this part of my life or not I am not sure he even really saw me or was just waving at the car but if he did look he saw long hair and red lips on the person driving. Now 1 of my neighbors knows for sure and I can not be sure if she has told anyone and with as often as I go out during the day I know other neighbors have seen at least a woman driving my car so I have to believe some if not all of them know something.

I got to Starbucks about 12:40 and again they were busy, 4 people waiting for their drinks and 3 in front of me to order and most of the tables taken. As I was standing there in line with 3 other woman the young man behind the counter looked at me and said hi Susan be right with you. Anyway, soon it was my turn and I ordered my drink, the young man complimented me on my nails which I so love so I thanked him. Now as I said they were pretty busy for a midafternoon, there were a couple seats at the counter around the corner, half the long table that seats 10 and 1 small table next to the window. I went over and put my computer on the small table and went and stood with the others waiting for our drinks. Now it was probably 75% woman here but it still amazed me bow busy they were in the midafternoon. It was also a good idea to put my computer on the table as several of the people in front of me went and sat either at the big table or the counter

I sat down and caught u on some e-mails and did a little work and just played on the internet for a while. It was just a little after 2:30 when Cassandra texted me and said she was leaving, we were going to meet at the 2nd Ave Sports bar (use to be Fox & Hounds) and spend a few hours there before dinner as we were eating at Hobo’s right around the corner. I got downtown and found the perfect parking spot right between the two of them but Cassandra texted me that they were closed. We decided to go to McMenamins Ringlers Pub instead, we have gone here for dinner a few times and it really big and very friendly. We got there and parked just a half block away. I paid for street parking but the only problem was it only had 2-hour parking and it was just a little after 3 so we would be here for at least 3+ hours which would mean remembering to come back out and pay again.

We both went inside and got a table and both set up our computers, Cassandra was doing a chatroom which she loves to do, she even turned her cam a couple times so the people could see me. I did some more work and caught up on the news mostly business news as the rest seems to be so negative. We also talked on and off. Seems Cassandra does this a lot on Wednesdays. She will get out sometimes as early as 1 and go someplace and do her chat room for a few hours before meeting the group for dinner. I really don’t understand the draw of a chatroom but then I am sure people think the same about my getting dressed as Susan just to go sit at a Starbucks for a few hours. Cassandra and I talked about it for a while and we have no answers. Some have told me I do it just so I can be watched or seen and I don’t know if that is true or not. I do know when I am out I am really not focused on how I am dressed I am just me and for that matter I am really not paying attention to them and if they are looking at me. I really think for me it is more just being able to do what any other woman does and be accepted for that.

Now we did order drinks and their pretzel appetizer, By the way as I always say drinks I just thought I would ad a note here, we both ordered pop as neither one of us drinks alcohol, actually quite a few of our groups member don’t drink alcohol so it is pretty strange the we go to so many bars. I have often told people if you told one of my male friends who doesn’t know about my dressing that you saw me in a bar dressed as a woman I honestly think they would be more shocked that you saw me in a bar. By the way the pretzel appetizer is incredible, warm salted pretzel sticks with melted cheese to dip them in.

We stayed here till 6:30 and yes, we both remembered to go out and pay for parking again. Then we drove over to Hobo’s. They were not at all busy so we had our pick of tables. We sat down and it wasn’t long and Melissa and Barb showed up. It was just the 4 of us for the evening. We all talked before ordering dinner, I had the chicken Parmesan which is really good. We had a wonderful dinner and great conversation. The night went by so fast, we finished and paid our bills. I was shocked it was almost 10 when we left, it did not seem like we had been here almost 3 hours. It really is fun to be out with my friends.

Tomorrow I have some me time as I will be out by myself and Friday I am meeting Mikaela for some shopping which will be so much fun. It will give us a chance to talk and catch up as she goes out mostly in Salem so I haven’t seen her for probably a year or more.

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February 8, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday and our group is going to the City Grill for dinner.

Saturday is here and it is the first fill day of my vacation. I had some things I needed to do early in the day so I couldn’t be Susan but of course I still had the red nails when I was out kind of a reminder of things to come. Now I got done with my stuff a little after noon and made a quick stop for a small burger as I was hungry but didn’t want to much as dinner will be awesome. It was about 1 when I got home and of course now I was thinking about tonight and what I would wear and how I would do my makeup and of course which hair style, all the fun things about being a female. About the only thing I was sure of at this point would be red lipstick to match my red nails. Dinner will be at the Portland City Grill which is a high-end restaurant on the 30th floor of the US Bancorp tower. Now 10 years ago when I was first working up the courage to go out to Embers which was a gay night club that did drag shows on the weekends and we never got there till it was dark out as I didn’t want to leave my house while it was light out would I have ever imagined going someplace like this as Susan. Our dinner reservations are for 6 pm.

Now I know we have 9 signed up for this and I was thinking Julies was going so I texted her to make sure as I figured I could pick her up and we could ride together instead of both of us driving there plus just more fun going with someone. She was going so I said I would pick her up at 5 to give us time incase we hit traffic. It was about 2 now and I wanted to have 2 hours to get ready as I was sure there would be some time spent picking out my dress for tonight, I plan on wearing my new corset tonight to give me that nice shape and of course trying on dresses with a corset on is not as easy. I started getting ready again something my male side would never do. I can’t imagine anything I would go to as my male self where I would need or even want to spend a couple hours getting ready. A nice long shower and then some body lotion and face moisturizer and then it was time to start my makeup. I really took my time on my makeup as I wanted it as perfect as I could, I always have trouble on my lips especially my lower lip to get both sides the same. N ow I know you really can’t see it unless you are looking really close but I always seem to notice it. Tonight, I got both sides almost perfect so I was happy. Funny the little things we focus on.

It was after 3:30 now and I was down to an hour before I wanted to leave and all that was left was to get dressed. Now with the corset I learned I need everything on accept for my dress and wig before I lace up the corset to hard to bend in corset but really gives you curves. Now I had four dresses laid out in my bed all a little heavier as to hid the corset as the goal was for people not to know, I wanted them to think the curves were mine although if you have been following my blog you would probably know I would have it on tonight. Now lacing up a corset by yourself is not the easiest thing to do especially if you are not really flexible. It takes work and time to tighten as you have to pull starting at the top going down and then pull the slack at the middle and repeat. Once you get the top half done it is time to do the bottom in the same was although easier to reach for me, here is the video they have to show you how to lace yourself in. By the way I bought my corset at Orchard Corset and would recommend them if you are looking for one. Now believe it or not it took me over 20 m minutes to get myself all laced in and I was happy with the look. Now it was time to try on dresses which is always fun. They all looked good but being heavier they didn’t fully show the shape that I was trying to get. I went back to my closet and I have a really beautiful elegant dress but is really thin material but I wanted to see how it would look with the corset so I got it out and tried it on and to my amazement you really couldn’t tell I had in a corset and you could see the shape. This was the dress for tonight. Here is a picture that was taken after dinner as we were leaving in then parking garage, yes believe it or not this was the best lighting as the restaurant is dimly lit for a romantic mood.

It was now 4:30 and I was ready to go pick Julie up. I got to Julie’s just before 5 right on Schedule. Julie was ready to go. Of course, I had to say high to Trixie, would have been nice if Trixie had gone tonight but her and Julie know a lot of people and have gone to this restaurant many times and although Julie wouldn’t be recognized Trixie would. We have several members in our group whose wives and girlfriends support them and even go out with them which is great but they are easily recognizable as they are out as themselves and then that could give away more then we want.

Julie and I were on our way a little after 5 and got downtown Portland to the building and parked in the underground parking. This was nice for two reasons it was close and we didn’t have to walk outside in the weather which was actually nice right now. But this would allow me to not cover up my dress with a wrap so everyone could see my pretty dress. As we were getting out of the car Kim was walking by so the 3 of use walked in together. We took the elevator to the 30th floor and walked in to the City grill which was very dimly lit, yes, we would be using our cell phones to read the menu. You can see from my selfie how low the lighting is. We ran into Jan, Lynn, Melissa and her wife coming off the other elevator so all seven of us walked to our table together.

Now Sandy was in town for work so she stopped by to talk with us briefly, we tried to talk her into staying but she has to drive home tonight and she lives about 3 hours north of here. It was nice to see here again and talk with her briefly. Turns out we had 12 people for dinner tonight which is really good ass we use to be happy if we could get 6 or 8 to come out on a Saturday night to a bar much less get 12 to go to a very mainstream high-end restaurant. I sat down between Kim and Jan and Cassandra Julie and Kate were across from me with Lynn on the end. At the other end of the table next to Kim was Joan and Karen and across form them were Joan (yes 2 Joan’s tonight), Melissa and her wife on the end.

Now we talked for a while as it was great to see everyone again. It was awesome to see Kim and sitting next to her I got a chance to talk with her and catch up which was really wonderful. I do love talking with my friends and I do miss them when they don’t get out much. Of course, I had to get a picture with Kim tonight. We actually took a couple of them and this was the only one that turned out good, well good of me, Kim looked great in all of them. Usually I try to slouch down to the same height so I don’t tower over the other person which in a corset you can’t do and if you try it really shows in the picture so I am just way taller than her sitting here and that is okay. You can see some of the city lights behind us through the window.

Now our waiter was awesome, he recommended items and was always there when we needed something, a lot of times without asking. One of the good things about high-end restaurants they have enough staff to make sure you have really good service. Now I was thinking of a nice steak but went with the double porkchop instead. Everyone ordered and then it was time for more pictures. It seems when we go someplace new we all think about pictures. One of the ladies who works here saw us all taking pictures and came over and took a couple pictures of out whole table. Kind of hard to see everyone as it was a long table and we all had to lean in a little, although with my sitting up so straight and tall I was able to pretty much look over Kim’s head.

Dinner came and wow my porkchop was huge, I hope I can eat it all. Some of the girls got Steak, some Salmon, a few Steak and Lobster and it all looked wonderful and it was. My Porkchop was incredible, I would highly recommend it if you go here for dinner. We had a wonderful dinner with good conversation, again the only bad thing was the size of the group as you really couldn’t talk with everyone. Although after dinner before we left I did get at least a chance to say hi to everyone one and talk with them briefly.

After dinner a couple of the girls ordered dessert to share, really, I could never have eaten a whole dessert as the size of my dinner was big and of corset the corset pulled things in. I did have a few bites of Julies desert which was incredible. Really wonderful food here. I would recommend them for a really nice dinner out, a little expensive (figure $50 to $100 each with drinks & dessert) but it really was worth it. It was a wonderful evening with awesome friends, a big thanks to Cassandra for organizing tonight. It really did go by so fast as soon it was after 9, hard to believe we have been here over 3 hours. A few of the girls left first and then the rest of us. Julie and I got down to the parking garage and of course in the light I had her take a few pictures of me in my dress, the one above, thanks Julie. There were a couple people waiting to go in and one of the girls came over and asked if we would like her to take a picture of us together and of course you know the answer to that question.

We left and I took Julie home before heading home myself. It was an incredible night out with my friends, a memory that will last. Now this blog is a lot longer than normal and I am sorry for that but if you read this far thank you. But I do my blogs not only to share with all of you but also so I can remember things I have done and the special times I have as Susan. It is a great way to document your life and weather you are trans or not I would highly recommend pictures and writing something about the special times and events in your life. It is great to go back and remember these things.

At dinner we were talking about times we have had, things we have done and Sisters we have lost. Especially Cristine who was a big part of our group, she would have loved tonight. We were trying to think when she passed away and I was able to look it up in my blog, turns out it was one year ago yesterday and we still all miss her and think of her often. I really have met some incredible friends along the way of my growing and accepting my female side and all of them have had an impact on my life, some small some huge but all very important to me.

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February 4, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

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