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Sunday and a little Susan time at Starbucks to catch up on my blogs

It is Sunday afternoon and I have some tie free so I am going to Starbucks to catch up on my blogs and then e-mails and if time a little work. For a long time, I would write my blogs the next day and it was almost always at home and I was usually my male self when I did them. But lately I have been trying to do them as Susan somehow it just seems more fitting to write about Susan, about her time out and what she did as Susan. It may seem silly but I feel when I am Susan writing about my time as Susan it is more like I am writing about myself. I don’t really view Susan and my male self as different people as it is still me, still who I am but just more personal this way. So, it will be a Susan day at Starbucks.

It was a little after 2 when I got home and started getting ready. Now as I am on my own schedule as I am not meeting anyone or have to be there at a certain time I was free to take my time and enjoy the experience. I really can’t explain why I so enjoy my time getting ready but I do. It was a little after 3 when I was ready and I looked cute and casual which is what I go for when I go out during the day to Starbuck’s, I want to blend in. I got to the Starbucks by my house about 3:15 and went in, they were busy but there was 1 table open by the window so I set my computer on it and went and stood in line to order. Now they have a few new people working here so they don’t know me but as always, they treated me wonderful. I must say I have never had an issue at Starbuck’s with the staff or customers.

I got my drink and got my computer out and started my blog for Wednesday nights dinner at Hobo’s. now the one bad thing ab out writing it several days later is remembering what all went on. I also took time to send an e-mail to our group the Rose City T-girls about Wednesday nights dinner this week as I want to see if I can get a bigger turnout. Took me 2 tries as the first time I only sent it to the first 10 members. Luckily, I remembered Cassandras tip that it takes a while for them to go out as it was sent to all 200 members. Last time I did this I kept hitting send as I thought it had froze and it sent it several times. It took about 10 minutes for all of them to go out. Of course, I was writing my blog while it sent.

Starbucks is a really relaxing place to go and spend some time and catch up on work or what every you have to do and it is a fun place to people watch too. Now I chose to wear my leggings today with a cute top so I was watching what other females were wearing today. I chose wisely as I would say 60% of the females who came in had on black leggings also. This really is important as I know I don’t pass so if I can match what other females are wearing that is one less thing that stands out about me. I have been asked many times about passing and the sad thing is most transgenders will not pass 100% of the time all the time, there are always little things that ad up and eventually someone will figure it out. To me passing is able to go out as Susan and have people treat me with respect, the same respect any other female would get. I know the people ate Starbuck’s know I am not female but they always call me Susan or refer to me as She or her and to me that means I have passed.

Now there were times it was slow here, at one point I was the only one here and a few people came in and got drinks to go and then some finally sat at the tables. I really think it is easier when they are busy, of there are lots of people here you are not the focus. If you are the only one sitting at a table then everyone notices you. I stayed here till they closed at 6:30 before leaving, on my way out one of the ladies said have a good evening Susan, I love it when they call me by name. I left and went to Costco as I needed gas and then it was time to figure out what I wanted to eat. Now I have been going to Wendy’s but as I had a Hamburger last night I decided to go to Subway and it turns out there is one across the street.

I got there and it was pretty slow only to woman there. I ordered my sandwich and sat down and ate it. The 2-woman left and a family of 6 came in but that was it while I was there. It was about 7:30 when I left and went home. It was a good and relaxing few hours.

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June 6, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday at the Escape

It is Saturday and tonight is the Rose Festival Starlight parade so I am not sure how many will be out at the Escape and the downtown area will be packed. But I am still going out. Now I do have to share a funny story, as you all know I have had acrylic nails now for over a year and probably for the last 6 months I have had a clear pink that in certain light does look pinkish. Well really no one has really said anything about them accept for the occasional “you nails look really nice” well yesterday I went and got my hair cut not as Susan as this is a male thing I do as I keep my hair short and it really needed to be done. Well the lady who cuts my hair is really nice and after my hair cut as I was paying her she noticed my nails. Well instead of your nails look nice what she said was wow I really love that color. Now I know there is a slight color to them but this is the first time someone has mentioned the color. I thanked her and then she followed with “you know what would look good you can fade the end into a white, not as much as French tip but a faded one, (name of other lady working there) has the same thing and it looks beautiful although hers are a lot longer”. Now this really caught me off guard as I really would like to do that but as I have seen this nail look and it is pretty, here is a picture of what it looks like but I just smiled and said this was enough for now. Now I must have said it a little fast as she apologized and said she hope she hadn’t offended me and I assured her she had not and it was fine. I guess I was just not prepared for someone to recommend how I could do my nails, next time I will handle it better. Now I am looking forward to my next haircut.

Anyway, back to Saturday and it was a busy day as I had things I had to do so it was after 5 when I got home and started getting ready so I will not be there by my usual 5:30. I took my time getting ready even though I knew I was running late and even still I was ready by a little after 6 and on my way. I got to the Escape at 6:30 and as I was waiting for traffic I noticed the parking lot was full so I debated about just going and finding a parking spot on the street but a saw someone come out and get in a car so I was going to luck out. Now there was a lot of traffic and by the time a break came and I could pull into the parking lot 3 cars had left and one more was backing out. I got here at the perfect time and got to park right in front of the door. I went in and all the tables were empty with just a few people at the bar. I sat down at our table and got my computer out and ordered dinner.

Now I had only been here a few minutes and Robyn showed up and right after her was Michelle. I talked with Robyn for a little bit and she showed me her heels she had just bought, very cute and high. My dinner came so I ate and Robyn and Michelle ordered the same thing, yes it was a hamburger so if I do go Sunday I will have to find something else.

Jan, Lynn, Kearren, Kate and one other girl showed up so we had 8 of us here and it was only a little after 7, this was great. Jan, Lynn and I talked about next Saturday as we are going to a gun range, Jan and Lynn are certified instructors and rent a gun range for the day and invite our members to go and shoot some guns and also give them some training if needed. They have done this for the last 5 years I think but this is the first year I am able to go so I am really looking forward to it. Now I know the bun issue is a hot topic right now but this is not meant to be a political issue it is just some girls getting together for some target practice and a picnic and some girl time with friends. If you like guns you can go if you don’t like them you don’t have to go it is just another group activity.

I got to talk with Kearren and Kate a little. Now Wednesday night at Dinner Kate was showing me some of her pictures from Diva Las Vegas and one has me in the background. I kind of think I photo bombed her on this although she is off to one side so maybe she was trying to get both of us in it but it was just such a cute picture I asked her if I could post it on my blog and she said yes. I always like to ask if I can post a picture if others are in it as I think it is the right thing to do.

Now there was a smaller crowd here tonight and a lot of them were people I hadn’t seen her before or just don’t remember but it was still fun and everyone was great as always. The Escape really is a great place to go and very excepting of everyone. Son it w as 9 and Karaoke started. It is hard to talk once the singing starts but still fun to listen to and sing along with the songs you know. Now again there were a lot of songs I didn’t know would even say I had never heard before. Is that a sign I am getting old?

Lauri showed up at her usual 9:45, I kid her a lot about being our late-night girl but I remember when I never went out till it was dark. I don’t think that is her reason though as I just think she is busy and doesn’t get a chance to get out earlier. I got to talk with her a little also so we had a total of 9 girls out tonight. It was a little after 11 when I called it a night and paid my bill. It is always sad to see the evening come to an end. I am hoping to get to go out Sunday late afternoon and evening for a few hours as I really look forward to my Starbuck’s time and I am now 2 blogs behind, Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s and now Saturday night. The funny thing is I like going out as Susan to write my blogs but if I always do this I never get caught up as Sunday I will go out and do my blogs for the previous times but then I will need to find time to write my blog about Sunday at Starbucks.

I also realize a lot of my blogs may be repetitive in nature as I do and go the same places and I am glad so many people read them which I never thought people would but I really use this to document my time as Susan, my life as Susan, where I go, what I do and who is there, kind of my personal diary which I am happy to share. This is my 1075th blog post which means I have been out as Susan at least that many times. So hard to believe as 10 years ago I was happy if I could get out a couple times a year. I really do owe a lot to my friends that have helped me over the years.

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June 4, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at Hobo’s downtown

It is Wednesday and our group is going to Hobo’s downtown for dinner which is a really nice place with good food. I posted in our group to see who all was going and so far, only have 2 that said yes and 2 maybes so may be a smaller group. I got home and started getting ready as I wanted to get to Hobo’s early for 2 reasons, just to make sure someone was there in case any girls showed up early and yes also to work on my blog as once again I am behind in writing them. I got done with my make by a little after 5 and was starting to get dressed when Julie texted me to see when I planed on going. I texted her back and said I was almost ready to leave and asked if she wanted me to pick her up, not that far out of my way and way more fun to go with someone then by yourself. Now years ago, it was because I just didn’t want to be out by myself but that is not the reason today. Today going out as Susan is about 2 things, being out doing normal things every other woman does but 2 and probably most important is being out with my friends. I have made some awesome close friends that are more like family and I miss when I don’t get to see them. Julie texted me that would be great so I told her I would be there in about 30 minutes and quickly finished getting dressed and was on my way.

I got to Julies house which is pretty much all finished after her remodel and she was already to go but she did take a few minutes to show me what was new and of course we got a couple pictures in her front room. It was turning out to be a fun night. Julie and I left and drove to Downtown Portland and parked just around the corner from Hobo’s, there were actually quiet a few parking spots tonight. We got to Hobo’s and went in and got a table and now we waited to see who all would show up. The table had 4 chairs but we could probably fit 6 around it if more showed up.

Barb was the first to show up followed by Kate and then Joan so we had 5 which was just perfect as we had room at the table but everyone could talk with everyone which is always nice. We talked for a bit and had some appetizers which Julie ordered, Thank Julie. Then it was time to order dinner. The food here is really good but more of a medium price range. My two favorite things here are the Chicken Parmesan which I had last time and their Prime Rib, I went with the Prime Rib tonight although I ate more of the appetizers then I should have.

Now we talked more as we waited for our food. One thing we are working on is how to get more of our group out especially the newer members. We all know how hard that first time or two out can be as we were all there at one point. I think back to the first times I went out and how scarred I was and now it is no big deal. Most of the time when I am out I am not even thinking about how I am dressed and for the most part people don’t care, I don’t even think a lot of people even notice as they are busy with what is going on in their lives. WE also talked a little about our Mexican Cruise this fall still time to sign up if you are interested. It really is fun to be out with my friends.

Our dinners finally came and we all enjoyed our food as I said they really do have good food here. We had a wonderful evening and dinner and no one ordered desert as between the appetizers and our dinners that was more then enough. Besides I really need to get serious about watching what I eat as I do want to lose some weight by our cruise which is coming up fast now. The night went by so fast as it always does and soon it was 9:30 and time to call it a night.

As we left Julie and I walked through CC Slaughters to see what was going on. It was pretty empty but we did see Dee and her partner there. Turns out they have just moved back to the Portland area so we talked with them for a little while before leaving. Now it was time to take Julie home before going home myself. It really is nice to have Julie there as we got to talk more and things are just more fun with friends along. It was a little after 10 when I dropped Julie off and headed for home. It really was a wonderful night out.

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June 3, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Memorial Day and I have the day off and that means some Susan time

It is Monday and I have the day off so Susan gets some time out. Now I am meeting Barb, Melissa and her wife for lunch at 1 pm so I have the whole morning. My plan was to get up early and go to Starbucks for a few hours till the mall opened and then do a little shopping till it was time to meet my friends for lunch. It was the perfect plan for the day or at least I thought. Well things didn’t go as I planned as I got up late so I was behind to start. It was almost 10 by the time I was done with my makeup and getting dressed. Now for today I wanted to ware my corset. Well I had it just about on and as I tightened when you guessed it the ties broke and so I had to take it off and fix it and start over. I got it off and redid the ties and put it back on but was having trouble getting it tight. Turns out I missed one of the eyelets and it just won’t tighten up and so once again off it came and I redid the ties making sure not to miss an eyelet and once more on it went and this time I could get it tightened up. It was now a little after 10 am and I was ready to leave and go have fun. Now I had a choice. I could drive to the mall and have maybe an hour and skip Starbucks or go to Starbucks and have almost 2 hours. Well I needed to do my Blog from Sunday and so Starbucks won out.

I got to Starbucks and went in and got a drink and sat down at a table and started on my blog, I really do like the idea of writing my blog as Susan when I am out. It just seems to make the circle complete. Now I had been there about 10 minutes and the same lady I know that I saw yesterday came in again today. What are the odds, again I just kept my head down and kept doing what I was doing. She got her drink and left. I still find it funny that in all the times I have come here I have never seen her here accept for the last 2 days. I stayed here till a little after noon before heading for my lunch with my friends.

I got downtown Portland about 12:30 and found a parking spot about a block away from where we were having Lunch, Papa Haydn. Now being the middle of the day, a holiday and a nice warm day outside there were all kinds of people walking the streets and I was just another person out. I went in and got a table and it was only a few minutes later Barb showed up. We talked as we waited for Melissa and her wife to show up, they arrived right at 1 pm. We talked a little mire before ordering lunch. Now the food here at Papa Haydn is good but they have a limited menu. The real reason for going here is their dessert menu, they have awesome desserts. Melissa and her wife split a dessert as did Barb and I. it was so good and so rich. I didn’t even eat half of it. It really was a wonderful lunch and after noon. It was after 2:30 when we finished and all said our goodbyes and left.

I got home about 3:30 so I had to rush as I had to be someplace by 4 and in my male mode which I just barely made. It really was a wonderful day.

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June 2, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and some Susan time including trip to nail salon

It is Sunday and once again I have some free time in the afternoon and evening and that means Susan time. I still need to write my blog from Wednesday and now Saturday so I am behind, sorry to those who follow me I will try to get them out quicker. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home a little later so it was almost 3 when I started getting ready which is something I totally enjoy. It really is relaxing to take the time and do my makeup and transform into Susan. It was 3:45 when I was ready including my corset, and as I was putting on my bracelet and ring I was looking at my finger nails which really do look wonderful. They are a little long and do show some grow out so if you look at them there is no denying I have acrylic nails. As I looked at them I was thinking about the week ahead, my only Susan time will be Wednesday for dinner and I will be rushing to make that and then again Saturday and also will be a rush to get there by 7. I do have Monday morning but that is a holiday and I am sure the nail salon will be open so it is either today or more then a week more and it has already been 2 ½ weeks. Usually I call Dream Nails before I get ready but this was a last-minute decision so I called and Anna said she could get me in at 4:45 so now I had that dilemma, what to do for 45 minutes.

I decided although it was short I would go to the Starbucks by my house as it is right across the street from the nails salon and work on my blog for Wednesday night till my appointment. I got there right at 4 and they were busy but mostly takeout so there were a couple tables open. I got my drink and started on my blog. I had only been here a few minutes and someone I know, kind of work with walked in and I saw him in line to get a drink. I just kept my head down and kept working on my blog as he got his drink and left. Now about 15 minutes later another lady I know, works where my parents are living came in and once again I just kept my head down and kept working. I little m ore nervous about her because as far as I know my parents have no idea about this part of my life. She also got her drink and left. Wow only here for 45 minutes and saw two people I know. I finished my blog and posted it at 4:40 so had just enough time to get to my nail appointment.

I got to Dream nails and Anna was still finishing a lady so I had to wait about 5 minutes. Now there were 5 other women in here, 2 getting their finger nails done, 2 getting pedicures and one waiting on her friend. Anna started on my nails and we talked a little, Anna pretty much works 7 days a week, she is the owner although I do think a couple days she may either come in a little later or leave a little early. I encouraged her to take some time off for herself and this goes for everyone. Take some time for yourself, life is to short to just work all the time. You will be so much happier and more relaxed. Anna did a great job on my nails as always and it was so relaxing. Now I did notice the two women getting pedicures looking over at me every once in a while, but what else do you have to do at the nail salon as I kind of watch other people also to see what they are getting done. Well as I was watching them the one lady who was very petite I did notice her shoulder and arm muscles were really defined and she did have kind of a raspy voice and I don’t know why but I wondered just wondered if she had transitioned at some point. I tell people this all the time that even if you are really passible there are subtle things that by themselves won’t give you away but as they ad up well may give you away. I do not know about her and I would never say anything but being transgender myself there was enough to at least put the thought in my head. It was just before 6 when Anna finished my nails and they looked wonderful as always and shorter.

Now what to do as my usual Sunday is Starbucks till 6:30, go get gas and then onto Wendy’s before going home but the Starbucks by my house will close in 30 minutes and as I have tomorrow off I can stay out later. I decided to go to Cascade station by the airport as I wanted to run into Target and also the Starbuck’s there is open till 9. I got to Target and ran in as I needed to pick a few things up which didn’t take long and then it was off to Starbucks’s. I got there about 6:45 and parked right out front and went in. They were also busy but there was one table right in front of the window so I put my computer on it and went and stood in line to get my drink.

Soon I was happily sitting at my table with my drink and on my computer working on my blog for Saturday night. Now for years I would always write my blog the very next day which I really try to do but there is something special about writing Susan’s blog as Susan at Starbuck’s. now as I sat there a young girl came in who was very tall, guessing 6’4″ and she also had low wedge heels on about 2″. Now she was very skinny and a really pretty face but I saw her glance at me on her way to order. Now I am not in any way saying she is not a female but after she ordered she went and sat at the very opposite side of Starbucks from me even though where she would pick up her drink was right by me and that was the door she used and there were also places to sit closer. I also noticed her look at me several times. Now I am more likely to believe that she was worried people might think she was transgender if they saw her by me then her actually being transgender but again it did make me think. I have actually noticed a lot more really tall females lately as I do work with one who is 6’5″ but there are now 3 more females I work with and 1 is the same height as me 6′ and one is a couple inches taller and the third is at least 5″ taller than me and none of them you would mistake as not being female. Now tall women are still a was smaller percentage but there is hope for taller t-girls.

I got all my work done and it was about 8:45 so I left Starbucks and even though it was late I decided to stop at Wendy’s for something to eat. Now being this late they were not that busy. I ordered my food and the lady who waited on me told me she loved my nails. I thanked her and told her I had just got them done. She told me she wished she could have nails like mine and I told her all it took was to make a little time to get them done. She smiled and said she made time for the gym and didn’t have time for her nails. I smiled back and told her I made time for my nails and not the gym. Which got me thinking I really need to get back to my exercising. I use to stop at the gym almost every day, and then I bought an elliptical for my home and now I hardly use it. I am going to have to try and change that as I really do want to lose some weight for our cruise this fall.

I ate my dinner and then headed for home. It was almost 10 when I got home. It was a good night out. I sat down on the couch to watch a little TV before changing back from Susan to go to bed and fell asleep on the couch. It was a little after midnight when I woke up and went up to bed. I had worn my corset for over 8 hours. Now I have people who ask how I can ware a corset and really it is easy. I got mine at Orchards corset and I e-mailed them my measurements and they recommended the size I needed and they were right on. It really fits well and is very comfortable. The only two things it is hard to get in and out of the car as I have a smaller car and also not really comfortable sitting in y car seat. I also can’t bend over to pick something up or put shoes on or off without getting out of breath. Other then that it is really comfortable and it makes me sit up straight and keeps my shoulder back so I have really good posture and of course a really nice shape. The good way out ways the bending issue.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Wednesday night dinner at the Rock Bottom.

Okay it is Wednesday and our group is having dinner at the Rock Bottom in downtown Portland. It is another Brew pub in Portland, yes Portland has a lot of Brew Pubs, some say the microbrew really started here. We have gone here many times and the food is wonderful and we are always treated well but that is the case where ever we go here in Portland. Now I am not sure who all will show up as Cassandra is taking the summer of and she really has been the driving force behind our group. I did post in our group that I would be there for sure. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home from work and had time tonight to enjoy the getting ready and take my time which always makes the night better. I was all ready and, on my way, a little before 5. I got downtown Portland and this area seems a lot busier as I never seem to be able to find a parking spot on the street. I drove around a couple blocks and nothing so I went right to the parking garage which is only 1 block away and even that was kind of full, I found a parking spot on the 5th floor right by the elevator. It still amazes me how far I have come as Susan. A few years ago, I would park right by the door or where I could see it and wait till I saw no one around before getting out of my car and going straight in. tonight it was no big deal. I parked, got out of my car got on the elevator and down to the street and walked the block to the Rock Bottom as though it was the most natural thing to do, not once did I think about how I was dressed or if people were looking at me. It really is a wonderful feeling.

I went inside and I was the first one there, Kate texted me she was almost there so I checked our group to see who all posted, Kate, Barb and Melissa all said they would be here so I knew we had at least 4. Kate got there and she got us a table for 4 although we could squeeze 2 more in we would just be cozy. As it turned out it would be just the 4 of us. Melissa showed up and we all sat at the table and talked as we waited. Barb showed up right at 7 and so we all ordered dinner. They really do have good food here but I really like their Chicken fried Chicken so that is what I ordered. They were a little busy which is always nice as you can people watch which really has become one of the fun things I like to do.

We had a wonderful time and talked a little about our group and what we want to do mainly about our dinners. We all really want to keep them going but we want to find a way to get more of the group going out. Cassandra use to send text messages which is a big undertaking but it got it to the members directly instead of them having to go to the group web page. It really made it to easy and people got to use to it and t may get hard to break that and get them back to checking the web page. Melissa has done so much with our web page she has even put forums in it where we can have group talks it really is a wonderful web page with lots of information. We talked if we should try to find a way to do group tests again but I would really like to try and get people to go back to checking the web page. It really only does take a few seconds and you can do it right on your cell phone. Well that is something we as the administrators will have to figure out. The one thing I do know is we need members to reply and let us know if they are coming out just so we can plan for it, it would not be good if we had a table for 6 and 7 or 8 showed up and had to sit by themselves. Well I guess I got off topic again as that really had nothing to do with our dinner out. We also talked a little about our Mexican cruise, still time to sign up so check the link above.

The night went by so fast as always and soon it was after 9. We all paid our bills; our waitress was awesome by the way. Now it was time to leave so we said our goodbyes and left. Melissa and I had both parked in the parking garage so we walked together and talked. It really was a wonderful evening out with friends.

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May 27, 2018 Posted by | crossdresser, Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Another Sunday and a little Susan time

Another Sunday is here and once again I have the afternoon free and that means Starbucks and some Susan time. I have my blog from last nights Red Dress Party which was so much fun to write and some e-mails to catch up on and even a little work. I think back several years when I would just be Susan at home and watch a little TV, and then came the late-night drives. Back then I could only dream about going out and never thought I would be able to. Now I go out and it is the most normal & natural part of me. Well as I said a had a few hours so I got ready and got to Starbucks a little before 4 which gave me about 2 ½ hours before they close. It really is a fun way to spend a couple hours doing something you have to do. I also got to people watch a little but after last nights Red Dress Party and people watching there it was a little plain here.

The time went by fast as it always does and soon it was after 6. I finished what I had to do and then it was time to leave. As usual it was a trip to Costco for gas and then across the street to Panda Express, I didn’t feel like a hamburger tonight so no Wendy’s. It was a little before 8 when I got home so it was kind of a short night out but still relaxing. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner with my friends.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what is new in Susan’s life on my most recent blog.

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

May 22, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday May 19 2018 red dress party

 

 

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

It is Saturday May 19 and tonight is the Red Dress Party, and it is going to be fun. This is I think my 4th time going and I am going with Julie and Trixie, thanks ladies for taking me. Now the red dress party is a benefit for charities and what is nice about it is it is all volunteer so you know the money raised goes to the cause. Tonight’s theme (yes, they do a theme) is Wicked. Now for me the theme is not important as I just want to be out and see all the red dresses. I started getting ready a little after 4 as I wanted to take my time, kind of like a girl getting ready for Prom. Now I thought about going shopping for a new red dress but didn’t have time so it will be a recycled red dress from last year. It was about 6:15 when I left as I was picking up Julie and Trixie at 7.

I got to Julie’s a little before 7, Trixie was ready and Julie almost ready. Julie took a little time and showed me her house as she has been doing a major remodel the last couple months. Her house really looks wonderful. Now tonight I tried my new clutch well probably more like a wallet with a wrist strap. When I was shopping a couple months ago at Sears at Lloyd Center Sears which has closed now they had everything 50% off or more and I saw this for $5 so I got it. I did make sure my phone fit in it though. Well that was all I was thinking about as tonight I discovered that with the phone in it about all that would fit in was some money, ID and credit card as it was really narrow. Well luckily, I was wearing my long wear red lipstick so I didn’t need that but there was no room for my compact in case I needed to touch my face up I guess I can go without these things for a night. Well when I got out of the car at Julies I discovered one more thing that didn’t fit in my little wallet clutch, mt car keys. Luckily Julie had a little bigger purse and so she put not only Trixie’s ID and lipstick in it by my car keys also.

It was about 7:20 when we left. Now this year it is in the down stairs of the coliseum instead of a ware house. It only took about 15 minutes to get there and we parked in the parking lot, $20 but so worth it as we didn’t have to walk far. Now the Red Dress party starts at 9pm but if you have VIP tickets you can get in at 8 which we did and even though it was not 8 yet they let us go inside. N ow it was a lot bigger then the ware house last years and also a lot nicer but then when you are getting everything donated including where you have I, you take what you can get. It was nice to walk around before it got really crowded and see what it looked like before they turned down the lights. Now the bad thing is I do know someone who works this event and I am always on the lookout for them and in the ware house I had the dim lighting to help me. I saw them a couple times and just casually went the other way. Amy way we had been here about 30 minutes and we came out of a door and there they were looking right at me. I just walked right by them and pretended not to know them. Now let me clarify, yes, I know them by name but it is from working with them but only a few days a year. I am guess if they probably didn’t recognize me and if they did it would not be by name but where they knew me from.

Now we did get some pictures tonight and of course the first was on the big red high heel shoe seat. Who says you can’t find heels in big sizes. We all took turns sitting on this and getting our picture taken. Now I will admit it is not easy to gracefully sit down on something so low with high heels on, took a little work to tuck my legs under and look at least a little feminine. I think it turned out okay though, Thanks Julie for taking such a good picture.

Wee then went into the VIP area where they had food and got something to eat, again all the food and drinks are donated so the sponsors are awesome and the food is really good. I had some pulled pork, chicken, mac & cheese with Cauliflower which was really good and of course desert. The other bad part is they had big bowls of M&M’s at all the bars where you got your drinks, I love M&M’s. I think I ate 4 bags plus split one with Trixie. I have no will power when it comes to sweets, the reason I don’t by them. This will be the big challenge when we do our Mexican Cruise this fall as from what I hear they have deserts out all the time. Julie took a few more pictures of us here at the table we ate at. You can see some of the people behind me in red dresses.

Now we did go and watch some of the entertainment, one was a group of drum players and they were really good, really loud but really good. I did plug my ears so I probably looked a little strange, hopefully the people walking around getting pictures of the crowd didn’t take a picture at that time. They also had some people from Circus Soleil that did a short show, maybe 20 minutes and it was really good. Now there were some that did dress up for the Wicked theme and they were great outfits but most 90% where just in the red dress. The point of the red dress party is to get in you must have a red dress so even those in costume had to have a red dress on, even the man and woman from Circus Soleil had red dress on.

Now the really fun part of this event is to people watch. You will see every kind of person, young, old, male, female, gay, straight and so on from all kinds of different walks of life. The only common thing is the red dress. Now it has amazed me over the years with so many people here in red dresses you don’t see the same dress twice, well sometime a couple will get matching dresses or you might see 1 or 2 but when you think they say there are over 1,000 people here each year and looking at the crowd I would say that might be low. It is hard to imagine there are that many different red dresses. Now yes some of the outfits are well let’s just say you wouldn’t ware one unless you were completely confident in how your body looks. There was one lady that had on an outfit that was way skimpier than a bikini.

We walked all over checking things out and Julie was standing waiting for Trixie and me a young lady came u to her and just started talking with her, she wanted a picture with Julie so as they were taking the picture Julie told her our trick for great selfie’s. I can’t hold the phone and push the button at the same time so what we do is set our self timer for 3 seconds. Then you can push the button and then hold the phone out and it still has time to focus before it takes the picture. Any way we talked with her for a while. She had wanted to come but something came up and she didn’t think should could and then at the very last minute she made it. Her red dress was actually a red sheet she fashioned into a dress, it was cute. Her name was Daphne and she was awesome.

Now the last few years we have ran into 2 ladies we met the first time I went to the Red Dress part named Amy and Dionne so we were kind of looking for them. They have been coming up from Northern California each year and we have gotten a picture together each year, here is one from 2 years ago blog. We didn’t see them this year, as a matter of fact we didn’t see anyone we knew until we were getting ready to leave and we ran into Marla. Well I had to have a picture with Julie tonight so I got Trixie to take one just before we left. Julie need higher heels and I need flats. Such cute girls in pretty red dresses. There were some people in high heels, and yes some were holding them in their hands as it is not easy to ware them all night long standing on a hard floor. I wore wedges and even by the end of the night I was ready to take them off. As we were walking to the car we saw a couple girls removing their heels. It is hard work being a lady.

It truly was a wonderful night and I want to thank Julie and Trixie for taking me, we stayed out later than in past years as it was almost 12:30 when I dropped them off at Julie’s house and it was about 1 am when I got home but such a fun night and so worth it.

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May 20, 2018 Posted by | Red Dress | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Wednesday night dinner

Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

It is Wednesday and our group is going out for dinner at McMenamines Ringlers Pub but first a side note. Today at work I was signing for a delivery and the lady making the delivery told me how nice my nails looked which made me feel good, then a few hours later I had my 6-month dental appointment and as I was checking in the young lady behind the counter told me how beautiful my nails were and asked if they were my nails or acrylic. I smiled and thanked her and told her my nails were in horrible shape and that they had acrylic on to help them look better. She said it really made a difference and they looked great. Now I have had people notice them before but it was just funny that twice in such a short time. Now I know people notice them but really very few have said anything about them. Well back to dinner tonight.

Now it was a rush to make it on time as I said earlier I had a dentist appointment at 4 and they were running late so it was about 5:30 when I got home and started getting ready. Now tonight was one of my faster times getting ready, yes, I was ready and out the door by a little after 6, might be a personal record for getting ready. I got downtown at 6:30 and found a parking spot right across the street. I got inside and Cassandra and Peggy were already there. It was wonderful to see Peggy out again and yes, she had brought aa cake as today is Cassandra’s birthday. We would have a lot of cake tonight as Melissa and I had talked about it being Cassandra’s last night for a while so we decided to get her a cake and gift card and Melissa was picking it up. Cassandra is taking a break and also stepping down from the day to day running of the group. She has put so much time and effort into the group and really made it what it is today. Now we talked and waited for others to show up.

Melissa and her wife were the next to arrive and yes, they had a big cake also, so much for my diet. Barb and Lori also showed up so we had 7 of us here tonight. Now we started off with appetizers and I ordered the Scooby Snacks and they were awesome. Scooby snacks are mini corndogs. We had a nice time chatting before we ordered dinner and for dinner I had a Caesar salad. I figured I should have something healthy before we had cake. Now our waitress was incredible tonight, well really, we have always been treated great here but our waitress was so much fun, she even took a few group pictures of us with Cassandra in the middle as tonight it really was all about Cassandra. She really has brought us all together into almost a family. It really will be different with her not coming out as much. I have made so many wonderful friends over the years and some of them are my closest friends, I really hope they know how much they mean to me.

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May 19, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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