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Tuesday and the final day of my vacation and my nails are gone

It is Tuesday and the final day of my vacation as I go back to work tomorrow. My plan for the day was to do a little shopping at Clackamas Town Center in the morning and then go have my nails removed. I got up early and got ready and was on my way a little after 9, of course I got caught in traffic so I didn’t get to Clackamas till almost 10 which is when the stores start opening. I parked by JC Penny’s and went in. I decided to look around and got to the hoe section and they had a rack of marked down shoes so I started looking. There were several really cute ones and they were all less than $10 so I started trying on shoes. I tried on maybe 7 pairs and only 1 fit, black ankle boots with a heel and it was only $8.99 so I decided to buy them. I continued walking around and came to there dress section and they had a sale on dresses also 40% off. I looked at them and found a really cute salmon color dress and it was in my size so I went and tried it on and it fit. They also had a purple one in the same size so I decided on both. All together both dresses and the boots came to $90.

Now with my first purchase down I was out into the mall. Now the mall was not busy at all. I wondered into a few stores and looked around but as I have said before it really is just about being out as Susan. Of course, I had to go into Victoria’s Secret and look around, also Nordstrom’s, Macy’s to name a few. Around noon I made my way up to the food court and went to Panda Express and got lunch. Again, looking around the food court which is really big there was maybe 30 people and I am guessing a third of them were probably workers in the mall. After I ate, I made my way back to JC Penney’s and out to my car.

On my way home I stopped and picked up some flowers and then stopped at the cemetery and put them on my Dad’s grave. I still wonder what he would have thought about me as Susan, the daughter he never knew. There were a few other people at the cemetery about 100 feet away but I kind of had my back to them. I am pretty sure they didn’t notice anything. I was here about 20 to 30 minutes before I left. Now it was the long drive to the nail salon. Now I have been going back and forth about which nail salon I was going to go to, I love Nails, I have gone here a couple times as my male self for pedicure and manicure when I get my oil changed at the dealer but they are closed on Tuesdays. Creative nails which I have been to a few times for manicures as my male self, or the place I got them done for my trip, Reflections nails & spa, all are good and have treated me well. I decided to go with the place I got them done for the trip. I got there about 1:40, 2 weeks and 1 hour from the day I got them done. Now I didn’t make an appointment as I only decided on this one about 10 minutes earlier.

I walked in and there was 1 lady getting her nails done and 1 man getting a pedicure. Ass I walked in the lady at the counter looked at me and said hi Susan glad to see you back now I know I am more memorable then the average lady but to remember my name was awesome. She asked if I was her for a fill and I told her I needed them removed or shortened and natural looking she showed me to a table and told the girl what I wanted. and grabbed a polish she said was natural. The lady removed the old bright polish and my nails looked so plain. Once that was done, she asked me how short I wanted them and I told her really short so she cut them down and filed the acrylic down and then did a fill. Now they were really short compared to what I had but probably a little longer then I should have gone. Now it was time for the gel polish and it was a clear with just a hint of pink. She put a base coat on and then the first coat of the polish and it really wasn’t noticeable. She followed with a second coat and still not that noticeable and then a top coat. They looked nice with just a hint of pink. As I left, they told me to come back. I would recommend them if you want to get your nails done as they did a great job.

I got in my car and as I pulled out the sun hit my nails and wow, they were pink, I mean pink, I think the fact she used a light pink acrylic powder made it pop. Now what to do. I thought about going back and having them redo them but felt bad about doing that as they really did a nice job. I decided to drive to Creative nails and get a color change. I got to Creative nails and went in and told them I needed a color change. I had to wait a few minutes and then I was sitting at the table. The lady removed the pink polish smoothed out my nails and put a clear coat on them. Now the funny thing is I got talking with her and the lady next to me getting her nails done and what we were talking about was College basketball. They are both fans and have been watching the games. Now 10 years ago I would never have believed I would be sitting in a nail salon getting my nails done as Susan and talking with other woman about college basketball. Now even with just a clear coat my nails have just a hint of pink from the pink acrylic but they look nice and natural other then being really shinny and a little long. Now my nails are not real long but they look longer than they are. The reason is the nail tips I had put on to make them long, with the clear polish if you look closely, you can see where that is. The red line on my nail is the end of my finger, the blue line is where the nail tip starts and it makes it look like that is the end of my finger, kind of like a light French tip. They do look nice though and yes once again I have acrylic on my nails.

After the nail salon I stopped by the Starbucks by my house for a little while before going home and changing back to my mail self. It has been a fun two weeks of living as Susan.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in my life.

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April 12, 2019 Posted by | Acrylic nails, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and home from Las Vegas

It is Saturday and I am home from my Diva Las Vegas vacation although I still have a few more days of vacation. I don’t go back to work till Wednesday which is nice but I do have things I have to do Monday evening so I will have to remove my nails on Monday afternoon. Now I been wondering what people would think or say if they saw me as my male self with these nails. Well I decided to test it today. Now as I slept in today after getting home so late, I didn’t get out of bed till almost 10am. I got all cleaned up and made sure all traces of makeup were gone and then got dressed in my male clothes. It was different as I have been Susan for 11 days straight. Now it was time to see what happens. I drove to Starbuck’s the first one I ever went to as Susan but this time as my male self. It is about 25 minutes from where I live, I got there just about noon and with my computer in hand I went in. now I have only been in Starbucks a few times when I have not been Susan so it is a little different.

I stood in line and waited my turn. When I got to the counter, I ordered a hot chocolate and paid the young girl with cash at which point she saw my nails. She casually replied back, I love your nails, I so like the bright colors like red, I wish I could have nails like that. I thanked her and told her I loved the reds also and that was it. I got my drink and sat down at a table between a couple woman and started writing my blog from Friday’s trip home. I was here a couple hours and as far as I could tell no one even noticed my nails or at least no one said anything and I didn’t really notice anyone looking at me. I was only here for a couple hours before heading home to get ready to go to the Escape tonight.

I started getting ready a little after 3 with the hopes of being to the Escape around 5 as I wanted a little more time out as my vacation is quickly coming to an end. Now I was doing my makeup and yes, I have a couple brushes and even a beauty blender sponge but I always seem to just use my fingers as I think it works better. But what I found on vacation is with my long nails it is hard to do the foundation especially around my eyes. Now in Las Vegas I was using some old cosmetic triangle sponges but today I decided to try the beauty blender sponge again. The last time I used it I put foundation on my face and used the sponge to spread it and blend it and really couldn’t see a difference but today I did like they show in the video and put just a little foundation on the back of my hand and dabbed the sponge in it and started tapping around my face. Turns out it really does make a difference how you use it. I used way less foundation and I think my face looked better. I think I will use it the next few times and see if I can get the same results.

Now with my makeup done I picked out my black and red dress, I really like this dress but it is a heavier dress so better for winter. It is a little clingy so it is tight around the waist and just looks better when I wear my corset. Now I didn’t take my corsets to Las Vegas so I was looking forward to wearing it tonight. I put it on and started tightening the laces. Now this takes some work to reach behind you and tighten them but have gotten pretty good at it well I was. I always did this before I put my nails on but it proved a lot more challenging with my long nails. You see I can’t feel the laces with my fingers to find them and is it got tighter it was harder to garb with my nails. I didn’t want to break a nail so it took a lot more time and effort to get them all tightened. Now it was time to tie it in the back and again it is really hard to tie a bow behind your back with long nails, it took several tries before I got some what of a bow, had to be really careful as I did not want to create a knot behind my back. Normally I can put the corset on in 5 to 10 minutes but I bet a spent close to 30 minutes tonight trying to get it on right. Now this was my first time with my corset with my nails so it may get easier over time if I was able to keep my nails longer. It was a little after 5 when I was ready to go, so much for being at the Escape by 5

Now I had posted in our group I would be there between 6 & 7 in hopes others would show up but only Kris had posted she might be there between 7 & 8 so it was possible I could be the only one. I got there about 5:30 and went in, I was able to park right in front which is always nice and one of the reasons I like to get here early. I got our usual table and got out my computer and then went up and ordered dinner, my usual hamburger and fries. My dinner came and just as I was finishing it Keren showed up, what a nice surprise. Like many of our girls she does not like it when it gets loud so when she does come it is usually early as she leaves once karaoke starts and it get loud.

We had a chance to talk of course some of it was about Diva Las Vegas and how I enjoyed my trip. We also talked about the group and some of our friends. It wasn’t long and Laura M showed up. It was great to see her also. She went to Diva Las Vegas last year but was not able to go this year. Now Laura just came out at work and is going full time now. She posted a video on her Facebook page when she told all her co-workers about her change and so far, it is going really well. I took a lot of courage to face them all at one time but I really think it was the best way to do it as it shows them all this is who she is and she is not ashamed of it, still a lot of courage. She also linked her two Facebook pages so everyone knows now.

We took a little time and got some pictures. It was so wonderful to see them both tonight. While we were taking pictures Jan and Lynn showed up so of course I had to get a picture with them also, everyone said I could use the pictures in my blog whish is nice. Next to Cassandra, Jan & Lynn I have known the longest. Not sure when I met them without going back through my blog but I know it was before 2010 that I met them.

Back in 2010 when the group was still going to Embers Jan and I did a T-girl Pageant they had. Neither of us won but it was a lot of fun. One of the Drag Queens did my makeup that night and I wore a dark wig. I look a lot different in the picture from that night

Well a little later Kris showed up so we had 6 of us here tonight. Now they were doing a fund raiser here tonight for the Escape Softball team so I bought some raffle tickets. Karaoke started and as usual it got loud and became hard to talk. It wasn’t long after and Keren left. I really think this is why I like the Wednesday night dinners better as it is a nice chance to just talk but they are shorter nights out.

About 10 Lauri showed up so total we had 7 tonight. Now they were doing the drawing at midnight so I ended up staying for that as I am still on vacation. Actually, Cassandra and I had talked about maybe staying in Las Vegas till Sunday so as far as everyone knows I don’t get home till then. Now of course I didn’t win the raffle which I really didn’t think I would but it was a fun night. It was about 12:20am when I left for home.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what I am doing now.


April 7, 2019 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday and we leave Las Vegas for home, day 11 of my vacation.

It is Friday and the day I have been dreading Diva Las Vegas is over and we make the long drive home. I wrote my blog for Thursday before bed last night but posted it this morning as I have been trying to post them all in the morning. Now originally, we were going to leave around 10 as we didn’t want to get to Cassandra’s house to early and she has family staying Friday night and she will go home in boy mode but I will be Susan. Well it turns out there was some confusion and the family member is leaving Friday and as it will be late Friday night or early Saturday morning when we get there, we are fine, so we could leave earlier.

I got up and posted my blog from yesterday and then started packing. My goal was to have everything packed accept what I needed for that day. I have a small bag that carries my makeup and stuff so that is what I will carry down and I will send all my other luggage down with Cassandras as we have a lot of stuff and just easier to have the bellhops do it. I was just finishing my makeup when they took our luggage so I was pretty close to being right on time. I would get dressed and Cassandra would go get the car and load it. Yes, one of the nice things about being a lady is having someone do things for you.

Now a funny story, my first Diva Las Vegas in 2010 when I went with Cassandra and her wife Peggy, we had a wonderful time. Now that was my first all-girl trip, in other words that was the Start of going on vacation totally as Susan. Now I took way more clothes than I needed, probably enough to change 3 to 4 times each day, the one thing I didn’t take a lot of was pantyhose. I think I only took 6 pairs as I figured 2 to 3 days each. Well that year I think by the 5 day I had gone through all of them, yes I was having trouble getting use to the acrylic nails I had for that trip and I had to borrow a pair from Peggy and then buy a few more the next day so now I always take way more then I need. I buy them online and get them cheaper so I bought a lot. I actually took about 20 pairs this year to be safe. Now over the 10 days so far, I had only gone through 2 pairs. Well I left 2 pairs out in my small bag and sent all the rest with my suitcases. I got all dressed and bad my bracelets on when I was putting on my sandals and as I was fastening the last one, I caught the bracelet on my pantyhose and there was a run, a brand-new pair that I haven’t even worn. Glad I kept 2 pairs.

I took off the bracelets as I learned and then off with the pantyhose and put the second pair on and put my putt the sandals and bracelets back on. I was happy now a quick look around to make sure I wasn’t leaving anything and a last look in the room safe. Yes, each of the rooms here have a safe under the night stand. Now this required me to get down on my knees and yes, I had got everything out as I stood up the sandals, I was wearing which fasten with Velcro, well the one rubbed up against the other leg and yes you guessed it. Another run in my pantyhose. 10 days to go through the first 2 pairs and less than 10 minutes to go through the next 2 pairs. Now I had an issue I had a small run and nothing to change to. Well I hoped it would not be that noticeable.

I grabbed my stuff and went down to the front desk to check out. My finally bill was just under $600 for the 9 nights. I went out and Cassandra was in the garage with the bellhop loading the car and as luck would have it, they had not got to my suitcase so I opened it up and snagged a fresh pair of pantyhose and went back inside to the restroom and made a quick change. Another first as I have heard of woman doing this but it is the first time, I have had to do this. I felt so much better now. The car was all loaded and we were on the road by 8:30am for our 16-hour drive home. Now Cassandra travels as her male self and I know it may seem silly to get dressed up and become Susan for a 16-hour drive but I look at it as the experience. As for this trip the 12 days I am being Susan full time, the only thing I had that was male with me was my driver’s license and my male credit card, yes I always take the credit card with the same account number as my Susan card just incase they ask for ID and usually at least one place want a credit card that matches the driver’s license. Other than those 2 things there is nothing I have with me from my male side of my life.

We had a nice drive home and yes me did stop several places for gas and bathroom breaks and there were no issues. Our first stop was the Death Valley nut & candy co in Beatty Nevada. It really is a tourist attraction but a great pace to get gas and stretch your legs and we did get sub sandwiches here to eat on the way. Most of the time we would stop at gas stations that had little stores so we could get snacks and drinks as we ate as we drove. The weather was perfect for driving partly over cast and we only hit a light sprinkle maybe 5 minutes near Reno and then a good rainstorm for about 20 minutes in Northern California. Other then that it was a wonderful drive and Cassandra drove the whole way so I got to sit in the passenger seat lie a princess and be chauffeured home. Cassandra is like me she likes to drive. When I travel with friends, I would much rather be the person driving and as my male self I try to do most of the driving. Susan likes to drive but she is also willing to let someone else drive, one of the small differences between my male and female side. On the way down I did get to drive for a few hours. And I did do a lot of the driving around Las Vegas, Cassandra is really good about not driving after she has had a beer and as I don’t drink, I am the designated driver on these trips.

We got to Cassandra’s house about 1:30am exactly 16 hours after we left Las Vegas, GPS had it right down to almost the minute, you have to love technology. We figured out our expenses for gas as Cassandra paid it all and then we split. My share was $231 and that did include two stops for food so really my share of the gas was about $210. Now we did look into fights down this year and the cheapest tickets were a little over $400 each and that was only 1 bag so we would have had additional cost for our luggage so driving was the better way to go plus we had a car to use when we were down there. Plus, I live road trips. I would rather drive than fly if I had the time.

We got the car unpacked and my stuff in my car and I was on my way home. I have stayed here before when we got home so late but I have something I need to do in the morning so I wanted to get home. I got home a little after 2am and went right to bed as I was tired. Now I didn’t think of getting a picture today so I will include the picture from the trip down and of course my beautiful nails which will have to go away on Monday, Monday will be a sad day for Susan. This week has gone by so fast.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new and my Diva Las Vegas Blogs from 2019, and remember although Diva Las Vegas is over I still have two more days of my vacation so there is still more to come.

 

April 6, 2019 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2019, Las Vegas | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

My vacation begins with my getting acrylic nails

It is finally here, my vacation, my trip to Diva Las Vegas, my 12 days living as Susan with beautiful acrylic nails. Now my plan was to take care of a couple things and then become Susan. Now yesterday I thought about making my appointment for my nails but waited till this morning which was a good thing. I waited as I was deciding between 10 & 11 well things took longer than I planned so it was 11 when I called the salon. I have spent a lot of time deciding on a nail salon this year. I really do like Dream nails but as I have not been there since last June and I am not sure if I will be able to get back to going to the nail salon regular, I felt I should go someplace else plus I wanted to try a new salon. After a lot of research I picked Reflections nails & spa, I called and made an appointment for 12:30 and as it turns out it was still a rush to make that.

I got there and went in and I was the only one there so there was no waiting. The 3 ladies that work here made every effort to make me feel comfortable and welcome. The lady asked me what I wanted and I told her a full set of acrylic nails with a slight coffin shape. Now I have always got square nails as I love them but thought I would try something new this year. She started on my nails, she filed off the top layer and then glued the tips on. She then asked if I wanted them shortened. Now I will admit the thought of tat long of a nail did cause me to think but they would have been over an inch long past the tip of my finger and that was just too long so I told her to shorten them for a nice coffin shape so she trimmed them down. Now they still looked a little long but, in the past, there is always some more filing at the end and she also told me the coffin shape makes them look longer because of the narrower shape. She used clippers to cut the corner to give it a slight coffin shape. Then a hand file to smooth the edge. Now it was time for the acrylic. she took her time and each nail began to look beautiful. She did a wonderful job. About this time another lady came in to get her nails filled and sat down next to me. She had a beautiful deep red and square nail and of course I was second guessing the color I had picked as picked a bright red. This is the hardest decision as I really only doe this one time a year but I was staying with my choice, bright red and coffin shaped. Of course, I did talk with her a little as we were sitting next to each other and she liked the color I had picked.

The lady started painting my nails, I did gel so would not have to wait for them to dry. Now with the polish on them they still looked a little ling and maybe a little more of a coffin shape then I had wanted but they did look pretty. It took her a little over an hour to do my nails as I got there about 12:20 and was leaving at 1:35. It really was a nice experience. They all told me to come back which made me feel good. I really think any nail salon is happy with any costumer they can get as I have been to many salons and always been treated well. I would defiantly come back here and also recommend them. They were a little more expensive than Dream nails but they did offer me a drink, water, pop, wine r a mimosa). I didn’t take ne but it was nice to be asked.

Now it is sunny out today and outside the nails look awesome although the red I think has a little pink in it but still very pretty and bright and yes, they look long and I don’t think it is just the shape. I did get a picture of my nails when I got in the car. Interested to hear what you all think of the shape. In the picture they look kind of orangish but it really is a pinkish red. Now I had time to kill before I go to Cassandra’s this evening so I decided maybe a little shopping but wanted to beat the traffic so I decided to got to the Streets of Tanasbourne as that is not far from Cassandras. Now as I drove the nails felt different on the steering wheel so yes these are definitely longer then I have had the last few years or maybe it is the shape.

I got to the streets of Tanasboure and parked by Claire ‘s and went in as I wanted to look at some jewelry, really it is about being out as Susan. I looked around and didn’t find anything well there were some earrings that were awesome but they were for pierced ears. I have really thought about that lately, getting my ears pierced but right now there is just no way I can go 6 to 8 weeks without removing the earrings. Really wish it was not so long to heal. Maybe in a year or two I can do it, there are just so many more options for pierced earrings.

I did go to a couple other stores as it was a nice warm day and fun to be walking outside. I looked at some clothes but didn’t find anything I needed for the trip. My next stop was a Starbucks across the street which I have been to before. They have a drive through so they are not really busy inside. Now I did get a selfie in the car with my nails of course. I had texted Cassandra I was shopping and she said she would be home by 4. I decided to have a drink at Starbuck’s and write my blog for today at least what I have done so far. From here I will go over to Cassandra’s and we will pack the car for tomorrow s we want to leave by 2am or 3am at the latest. The early mornings are harder for Susan as it will take me an hour to get ready. Cassandra travels as her boy self so not as much work for her in the morning. Okay my nails are longer as it is more difficult to type of course it could also be the shape with the point. Next time I will go back to the square tips but for this trip I will manage with these nails.

We will have dinner when Peggy gets home and I am hoping to be in bed early, like 8pm so I can get a few hours’ sleep. I know it seems strange to put the effort into being Susan just for a 15-hour drive to Las Vegas but it is the experience of being Susan full time for 12 days. The only thing I have from my male side is my drivers license and my debit card, but that is only for an emergency. I am Susan for the next 12 days. I have done all my Diva Las Vegas tris this way.

Thanks, or reading and be sure and keep up on my Diva Las Vegas trip this year and also what is new on my most recent blog. Day 1 begins.

 

March 26, 2019 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2019, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Saturday trip to the nail salon before going to the Escape

It is the last Saturday of June and I am really looking forward to going out. Between being sick and other obligations, my Susan time has been limited. Now my plan as usual is to try to get to the Escape early between 5 & 6 as this gives me a little more time out and parking is way better. I got home around 3 and started to get ready and of course the first thing I notice I a chip on my nail polish on my toes, it has been at least 6 weeks since my last pedicure. I also noticed one of my nails had what looked like a crack but was really just where the corner was separating from the acrylic. yes, I needed to go to the nails salon. I called Dream nails and it turns out they were busy and Anny couldn’t get me in till 5:30. Now I had a decision to make, be late to the Escape or not get my nails done and I am sure you can guess my choice. I told her I would see her at 5:30 and finished getting ready. I was all done with my makeup and picked a more neutral lipstick, a mauve color and now it was time to get dressed. Now as I was getting a pedicure that would mean no panty hose and flip flops so I picked my white and black summer dress, here is a picture of me from our trip to Hoover dam wearing the same dress.

Now I had another dilemma, it was only 4:15 and I was all ready and I really don’t like just sitting around the house all dressed up so I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house till it was time to go get my nails done. It only took a couple minutes to get there and I went in. they were not real busy so I had no trouble getting a table and got out my computer and took care of some work, wrote my blog from Wednesday, and just relaxed as I waited till it was time to go to the nails salon. Now people came and went and a few sat down at tables but it never really got really busy. It is a good place to people watch though. It really was funny how fast time went. Soon it was 5:15 and I decided to leave and go to the Nail salon which again only takes a couple minutes.

I parked and went in and yes, they were busy, 2 getting their nails done and 5 getting pedicures and 2 waiting but I had an appointment so I only had to wait a couple minutes. Anna would do my nails but another girl did my pedicure, she has done my pedicures several times and always does a great job but I do not know her name and feel bad asking so I guess I will just go on not knowing. I really do love coming to the nail salon and getting pedicures, so relaxing. Sad most men will never experience this simple joy in life. She did a wonderful job and soon it was time for the polish, I had picked out a really bright red called Ferrari which I have had before and really love the color, so wish I could do my fingers in the same color. Soon my feet were done and looked so pretty and now it was time for my nails.

I moved over to Anna’s table and she started on my fingers. She removed the old gel polish and filed them down to get them ready for the acrylic fill and of course noticed the bad nail before I pointed it out to her so she removed all the acrylic on that nails. It really is a fun and relaxing time. She asked if I wanted them shortened and I said yes even though I really didn’t. She put the new acrylic on my nails and shaped them and got them all ready for the polish. Of course, I used the same color I have been for months, Wedding dress but I kept thinking about the pretty red on my toes and so wished it was on my fingers. Now they were busy the whole time with people waiting, so glad I always call for an appointment. It was 6:50 when I was all done and left the salon with my pretty nails.

I got to the Escape about 7:20 and as I feared all the parking was full in the lot so I parked out on the street, I don’t think I have ever had to park on the street here as I always get here early. I went in and Bobbie was there at one of the tables closest to where they do Karaoke, are normal table was full. I talked with Bobbie a little before going up and ordering dinner. I noticed Lee was here at the Bar so I went over and talked with her a little, she was here with another lady and was not sure if they were on a date so I only talked to her for a few minutes before going back to the table. My food came and I ate my dinner they really do have great food here.

I was just finishing my dinner and Robyn showed up. It was nice to see her out she is coming here on a more regular basis now which is always nice. Now as it got later it started to get busier as this is the last weekend of Pride and it was going to be a big night I think. Another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us now. By 9 it really was busy and we had others sitting at the other end of our table which I really don’t mind as I didn’t think we would have any more girls show up but Lauri. And it is nice to kind of chat with them. They have 2 long tables that sit 10 and then several 4-person tables and they were all full.

Karaoke started and it is fun although it gets loud and you can’t really talk any more. Those who sang did really well and even the few that didn’t we still clapped as they had the guts to get up and sing. Several of the songs I had never heard before and a few were ones I really likes and those I sang along with, quietly from our table of course. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up. I stayed a little long but I was getting tired. I can remember a few years back when we didn’t go out till 9 and we closed the bars down. Now by 11 I am done. I paid my bill and said my goodbye’s and called it a night. It was so wonderful to be out with my friends and also get my nails done. I really do need to try to get back to getting my nails done on a week night though.

On a side note this week for some reason all my blogs I shared on my Facebook page disappeared and I mean disappeared. I can find no trace of them. I checked my activities log and even downloaded my history file and there is no trace of them. I am not really good with Facebook so if any of you out there have any ideas what happened please let me know. I will see if this one post to it and if not, I may try and post in manually and see what is going on. I tried to contact Facebook but that is harder then finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so I don’t know what to do now.

Any way thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with my on my most recent blog.

July 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Vacation starts getting nails done today

It is Thursday April 12th and my vacation has started. I am getting my nails done today and then over to Cassandra’s & Peggy’s house as we will leave for Palm Springs Friday morning at 2 am. I called yesterday and made an appointment for 12:30 as I had a few things to do in the morning to get ready. I got home a little after 10 and got all my stiff in the car for the trip and then started getting ready. I am so looking forward to the trip and 13 days of being Susan and long pretty nails.

I got to the nails salon about 12:15 and they were packed, 4 woman getting pedicures, 2 manicures, 2 drying their nails and 3 waiting. So glad I made an appointment. Evan with an appointment I still had to wait till 12:45. I really don’t like it when it s this busy as they seem so rushed. Anyway, Anna finely finished the other lady and started on my nails, she did a great job but as I said I could tell she was rushing as there was always 3 or 4 waiting as they came in as fast as they finished someone else. It just wasn’t as relaxing as other times but still fun and of course I had my long pretty nails.

I left the nails salon and drove over to Cassandra’s and Peggy’s, there were loading the car for tomorrow as we are hoping to be on the road by 2am as it is a 26-hour drive. Of course, that means I will have to get up at 1am as it takes an hour to get ready so

it will be a short nigh. We got the car packed and ordered pizza and then watched a couple movies before going to bed about 8:30. Yes it will be a short night. It was a good start to 12 days of being Susan. O so wish I could have my nails like this all the time, 12 days from now when I have to remove them it will be so sad.

Thanks for reading and be sure to see what’s new on my most recent blog. Also be sure and read about my vacation to Diva Las Vegas 2018

April 13, 2018 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Diva Las Vegas, nail salon, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Vacation starts getting nails done today

It is Thursday April 12th and my vacation has started. I am getting my nails done today and then over to Cassandra’s & Peggy’s house as we will leave for Palm Springs Friday morning at 2 am. I called yesterday and made an appointment for 12:30 as I had a few things to do in the morning to get ready. I got home a little after 10 and got all my stiff in the car for the trip and then started getting ready. I am so looking forward to the trip and 13 days of being Susan and long pretty nails.

I got to the nails salon about 12:15 and they were packed, 4 woman getting pedicures, 2 manicures, 2 drying their nails and 3 waiting. So glad I made an appointment. Evan with an appointment I still had to wait till 12:45. I really don’t like it when it s this busy as they seem so rushed. Anyway, Anna finely finished the other lady and started on my nails, she did a great job but as I said I could tell she was rushing as there was always 3 or 4 waiting as they came in as fast as they finished someone else. It just wasn’t as relaxing as other times but still fun and of course I had my long pretty nails.

I left the nails salon and drove over to Cassandra’s and Peggy’s, there were loading the car for tomorrow as we are hoping to be on the road by 2am as it is a 26-hour drive. Of course, that means I will have to get up at 1am as it takes an hour to get ready so

it will be a short nigh. We got the car packed and ordered pizza and then watched a couple movies before going to bed about 8:30. Yes it will be a short night. It was a good start to 12 days of being Susan. O so wish I could have my nails like this all the time, 12 days from now when I have to remove them it will be so sad.

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April 13, 2018 Posted by | Acrylic nails, Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2018, nail salon, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night at the nail salon

It is Thursday night and I am going to the nails salon for a pedicure and fill. Now I really don’t need one as both my toes and fingers look great still although my finger nails are getting a little long. This really is the one problem I have with getting my nails done with acrylic. I really could go 3 weeks between fills but they get pretty long by then at least for my male side. Even my pedicure held up well 6 weeks and no chips but it is all about timing. You see 4 weeks from today I will be back at Dream Nails for a pedicure and a full set of long acrylic nails for my trip to Diva Las Vegas. I got home and called Dream nails to get an appointment and Anna could get me in at 5 so I had about 1 ½ hours to get ready.

I took my time getting ready, I really like it more when I am not rushed. I know some people think it is strange to spend that much time getting ready just to go to the nail salon or a few hours at Starbuck’s and even I can’t explain it other than I enjoy it. Now I had my makeup done and still had time so I decided to wear my corset for the evening as I really do like the way it makes my waist look and really it is really comfortable other then in and out of the car and maybe a long drive in the car. I got to Dream nails just before 5 and went in, they were really slow tonight, only 1 lady getting a pedicure so Anna was ready to start. Of course, I had to pick a color for my toes, I went with a purple color this time.

Anna started on my nails and it is such a relaxing feeling to have someone do your nails. As she worked we talked a little. She asked if I wanted the deluxe pedicure tonight which I have done once before, as I said it was slow and Anna said it had been slow all week so I am sure they were looking for more services to do. I think it is that time of year as taxes are do in a couple weeks and also property taxes in a little over a month so people are probably a little tighter with their money. Any way I decided to go for the deluxe pedicure, $20 more but it is really relaxing. The main difference is they use a scented lotion and creams and even sent the water, I went with Lavender. They also put a cream on your leg and then wrap it in a hot towel for a while and also give your foot a paraffin wax treatment to soften your feet plus I think the message your legs and feet longer. Not something I would do all the time as it would get expensive but will probably do again in 4 weeks right before Diva Las Vegas and the same for the Cruise this fall.

As Anna did my nails another lady came in and she also got her nails done and was at the next table to me so we did talk a little about nails. It really is an enjoyable experience. I tell everyone you need to get a pedicure and acrylic nails at least once just to experience it and I got a feeling you will probably do it more often once you try it. Anna did a great job on my nails and soon they were just as pretty but a little shorter. Now it was time for my pedicure.

Kathy was once again doing my pedicure, Anna and Kathy always do a wonderful job as do all the people here and I have had several of them do my nails at one time or another. It is funny as I did come here a few times early on but I have been coming here every 2 to 3 weeks now for 2 years and I will have had acrylic nails now for 11 months although thinner than most woman and of course no pretty colors but they still look great. Now as I said I wore my corset today and sitting at the table getting my nails done was fine but sitting in the pedicure chair was not as comfortable, note to self when getting a pedicure, no corset. Kathy did a wonderful job on my feet and it was so relaxing, the deluxe pedicure is the way to go if you can. Normally it takes about an hour to get my fill and pedicure but it was closer to 1 ½ hours. Now partly because the deluxe pedicure takes longer but I have noticed that if they are busy then tend to rush a little more to get people through and this is just not Dream Nails but all nail salons I have gone to and I have talked to others and they say the same. If you do want to get your nails done my two tips, get an appointment and try to avoid really busy times. It was time for the polish and Kathy put the first coat on and as it dried it last all its shine, to say the least I was not happy at the color I had picked but I figured in 4 weeks I would change it. Kathy put a second coat on and the same and then the top coat. The top coat did put a nice shine on it and to my surprise it really looked great and really shiny, turns out it was a great choice. It was 6:30 when I left the Dream Nails

After my nail appointment went across the street to Starbuck’s as I had about 1 ½ hours till they closed and did some work and caught up on some e-mails. Some of the e-mails were questions I get asked from other transgender and non-transgender and probably the most asked is why I do this. There is no simple answer to this, I have talked with other crossdressers and there is no defining thing or moment in our lives we can point to and say this is it, this is why. We just do. Why do some people like chocolate and others don’t? why do some people like sports and others don’t? why do some men have facial hair and others don’t? why do some woman wear dresses, have long hair or nails and others don’t? In the end it comes down to personal preference and that is it. I am more comfortable this way even though when I am out I really am not thinking about how I am dressed. I really don’t know why, I do know that when I dress I do try to emulate what I find attractive in women. The other thing people think is I must be gay and from what I have learned most (75% or more) are straight males. Their dressing has nothing to do with their sexual attraction. As I said for me I try to emulate what I find attractive and for me that is the female body, shape, form, and look. Hair on a body, arms, chest is not at all attractive and I do everything I can to have a smooth clean body.

The other question is am I going to, or when will I transition an d the answer to that is I am not going to as that is not right for me. Now these are my thoughts and observations on these things and I am by no means an expert so remember that before you tell me I am wrong. Talking with both transsexuals and crossdressers there seems to be some common thing and things that are specific to just one. Both have a need to be feminine (or other sex depending on if you are MTF or FTM). The difference is about your body. Transsexuals need to physically be the other gender, they feel their body is wrong. Crossdressers need to present, be accepted as the other gender. From just looking at them you can’t tell as it is all about how they see themselves.

Now for me yes when I am Susan I would love to have real breast, hips, narrower shoulder, 5 to 7 inches shorter, no bulge between my legs but it is because of how it looks and how people see me, it is not about my body being wrong, it is the outward appearance. When I am not Susan I don’t think about it and is I did have real breast then I would be crossdressing the other way as when I was not Susan I would need to bind them down to hid them. Now I do know some crossdressers that have told me they would love to have breast and they would if they could but again there is that key words, love to have them not they their body is wrong or they are not truly who they are without them. It’s like saying I would love to have a million dollars and doing what I can to get it, verse having to have a million dollar to feel you are complete. The way I look at it is if I won 10 million dollars tomorrow how would my life change. For me I would dress as Susan most of the time, pierce my ears, have long acrylic nails and maybe even grow my hair out, surgery not something I would do. A transsexual the first thing on their list would be surgery. Now this is a simple way of looking at it and there is more to t than this but it is a good start and what I have learned.

Wow got a little off topic but that’s okay. Starbucks was a little slow tonight but a relaxing time while I gave the polish on my toes time to fully dry. After Starbucks I went through the drive thru and then home. It was a relaxing 4 hours.

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March 18, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Thoughts on Crossdressing, why men crossdress | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Day 1 the drive to Las Vegas for Diva Las Vegas 2015

Wow I got up at 3 am which is really early but I was excited so it was easy to get up. I was into the shower and getting ready as fast as I could but I also needed to do a good job as we would be traveling all day to get to Las Vegas, 17 hours in the car. Well I kept on schedule and I was all ready to go by 3:56. Peggy, Cassandra and I were in the car an on our way by 4:07.

Now I know some may think why dress just to drive in a car for 17 hours but it is all about the experience of living full time as Susan for 12 days and that even means just the routine daily stuff all women go through. No I will admit they probably wouldn’t have done a full makeup for a drive like this but then they also look better and more feminine without makeup.

We did make several stops for gas, food and other necessary things and it seemed so natural and most of the time I didn’t even think about how I was dressed. It is funny how natural I feel as Susan, now I am not saying I want to transition as my male side feels just as natural but I can slip into being Susan so easily.

Well we got to our hotel at 8:30 tonight so even with stops we made the trip in less than 17 hours. We checked into the hotel and while Cassandra and Peggy got settled I walked down and checked out the casino. The hotel is sold out this weekend so the casino was full. All the tables were full and I didn’t see a table that was less than $15 so it will be a little more expensive to gamble. I hope after the weekend they lower the limits. Now the one reason we picked this hotel casino was for the Dealertainer which they no longer have so I guess next year we will pick our hotel based on price. Plus we can walk next door to the other casinos and also gamble as they maybe a little lesser.

Susan's acrylic nails for DIva Las Vegas (1)Well as I said I must include a picture of my beautiful nails I will have for the next 11 day. So sad men can’t have nails like this as I really would love to have them all the time. It will be sad when I have to remove them on Tuesday, I already have an appointment set up for that.

 

 

 

 

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Susan's acrylic nails for DIva Las Vegas (2)

March 21, 2015 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas 2015 | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

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