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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Thursday night at the nail salon

It is Thursday night and I am going to the nails salon for a pedicure and fill. Now I really don’t need one as both my toes and fingers look great still although my finger nails are getting a little long. This really is the one problem I have with getting my nails done with acrylic. I really could go 3 weeks between fills but they get pretty long by then at least for my male side. Even my pedicure held up well 6 weeks and no chips but it is all about timing. You see 4 weeks from today I will be back at Dream Nails for a pedicure and a full set of long acrylic nails for my trip to Diva Las Vegas. I got home and called Dream nails to get an appointment and Anna could get me in at 5 so I had about 1 ½ hours to get ready.

I took my time getting ready, I really like it more when I am not rushed. I know some people think it is strange to spend that much time getting ready just to go to the nail salon or a few hours at Starbuck’s and even I can’t explain it other than I enjoy it. Now I had my makeup done and still had time so I decided to wear my corset for the evening as I really do like the way it makes my waist look and really it is really comfortable other then in and out of the car and maybe a long drive in the car. I got to Dream nails just before 5 and went in, they were really slow tonight, only 1 lady getting a pedicure so Anna was ready to start. Of course, I had to pick a color for my toes, I went with a purple color this time.

Anna started on my nails and it is such a relaxing feeling to have someone do your nails. As she worked we talked a little. She asked if I wanted the deluxe pedicure tonight which I have done once before, as I said it was slow and Anna said it had been slow all week so I am sure they were looking for more services to do. I think it is that time of year as taxes are do in a couple weeks and also property taxes in a little over a month so people are probably a little tighter with their money. Any way I decided to go for the deluxe pedicure, $20 more but it is really relaxing. The main difference is they use a scented lotion and creams and even sent the water, I went with Lavender. They also put a cream on your leg and then wrap it in a hot towel for a while and also give your foot a paraffin wax treatment to soften your feet plus I think the message your legs and feet longer. Not something I would do all the time as it would get expensive but will probably do again in 4 weeks right before Diva Las Vegas and the same for the Cruise this fall.

As Anna did my nails another lady came in and she also got her nails done and was at the next table to me so we did talk a little about nails. It really is an enjoyable experience. I tell everyone you need to get a pedicure and acrylic nails at least once just to experience it and I got a feeling you will probably do it more often once you try it. Anna did a great job on my nails and soon they were just as pretty but a little shorter. Now it was time for my pedicure.

Kathy was once again doing my pedicure, Anna and Kathy always do a wonderful job as do all the people here and I have had several of them do my nails at one time or another. It is funny as I did come here a few times early on but I have been coming here every 2 to 3 weeks now for 2 years and I will have had acrylic nails now for 11 months although thinner than most woman and of course no pretty colors but they still look great. Now as I said I wore my corset today and sitting at the table getting my nails done was fine but sitting in the pedicure chair was not as comfortable, note to self when getting a pedicure, no corset. Kathy did a wonderful job on my feet and it was so relaxing, the deluxe pedicure is the way to go if you can. Normally it takes about an hour to get my fill and pedicure but it was closer to 1 ½ hours. Now partly because the deluxe pedicure takes longer but I have noticed that if they are busy then tend to rush a little more to get people through and this is just not Dream Nails but all nail salons I have gone to and I have talked to others and they say the same. If you do want to get your nails done my two tips, get an appointment and try to avoid really busy times. It was time for the polish and Kathy put the first coat on and as it dried it last all its shine, to say the least I was not happy at the color I had picked but I figured in 4 weeks I would change it. Kathy put a second coat on and the same and then the top coat. The top coat did put a nice shine on it and to my surprise it really looked great and really shiny, turns out it was a great choice. It was 6:30 when I left the Dream Nails

After my nail appointment went across the street to Starbuck’s as I had about 1 ½ hours till they closed and did some work and caught up on some e-mails. Some of the e-mails were questions I get asked from other transgender and non-transgender and probably the most asked is why I do this. There is no simple answer to this, I have talked with other crossdressers and there is no defining thing or moment in our lives we can point to and say this is it, this is why. We just do. Why do some people like chocolate and others don’t? why do some people like sports and others don’t? why do some men have facial hair and others don’t? why do some woman wear dresses, have long hair or nails and others don’t? In the end it comes down to personal preference and that is it. I am more comfortable this way even though when I am out I really am not thinking about how I am dressed. I really don’t know why, I do know that when I dress I do try to emulate what I find attractive in women. The other thing people think is I must be gay and from what I have learned most (75% or more) are straight males. Their dressing has nothing to do with their sexual attraction. As I said for me I try to emulate what I find attractive and for me that is the female body, shape, form, and look. Hair on a body, arms, chest is not at all attractive and I do everything I can to have a smooth clean body.

The other question is am I going to, or when will I transition an d the answer to that is I am not going to as that is not right for me. Now these are my thoughts and observations on these things and I am by no means an expert so remember that before you tell me I am wrong. Talking with both transsexuals and crossdressers there seems to be some common thing and things that are specific to just one. Both have a need to be feminine (or other sex depending on if you are MTF or FTM). The difference is about your body. Transsexuals need to physically be the other gender, they feel their body is wrong. Crossdressers need to present, be accepted as the other gender. From just looking at them you can’t tell as it is all about how they see themselves.

Now for me yes when I am Susan I would love to have real breast, hips, narrower shoulder, 5 to 7 inches shorter, no bulge between my legs but it is because of how it looks and how people see me, it is not about my body being wrong, it is the outward appearance. When I am not Susan I don’t think about it and is I did have real breast then I would be crossdressing the other way as when I was not Susan I would need to bind them down to hid them. Now I do know some crossdressers that have told me they would love to have breast and they would if they could but again there is that key words, love to have them not they their body is wrong or they are not truly who they are without them. It’s like saying I would love to have a million dollars and doing what I can to get it, verse having to have a million dollar to feel you are complete. The way I look at it is if I won 10 million dollars tomorrow how would my life change. For me I would dress as Susan most of the time, pierce my ears, have long acrylic nails and maybe even grow my hair out, surgery not something I would do. A transsexual the first thing on their list would be surgery. Now this is a simple way of looking at it and there is more to t than this but it is a good start and what I have learned.

Wow got a little off topic but that’s okay. Starbucks was a little slow tonight but a relaxing time while I gave the polish on my toes time to fully dry. After Starbucks I went through the drive thru and then home. It was a relaxing 4 hours.

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March 18, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Thoughts on Crossdressing, why men crossdress | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday night trip to the nail salon

Okay first I did get out for a few hours last Sunday evening to Starbucks to study. I spent about 3 hours at the Starbucks by my house, no computer just my books. Any way on to today. I have been going to the Nail salon on Fridays the last few times but this week I would not be able to get there till probably next Tuesday which was my plan as my nails still looked good. Well till Tuesday night. I seem to have hit my nails just right and broke off a piece of the acrylic. funny as I didn’t break the nail just some acrylic. I was able to fix with some OPI nail envy which is a nail strengthener and goes on a little thick. It kind of covered the sharp edges but just didn’t look right so I decided I needed to go get it fixed. I got home late about 4:30 and called Dream Nails to see if Anna could fit me in, she always manages as I really think most people just show up and don’t call for an appointment. Any way I had a 5:30 appointment so I had 1 hour to get ready and get there, only a couple minute drive so I would be.

I got there just before 5:30 and only had to wait a couple minutes for her to finish with someone else. I really do like my trips to the nail salon as it is so relaxing. Anna started on my nails and yes, she had to remove the acrylic on the nail I broke and redo it. She did a wonderful job as always. They were a little busy as there was a young girl sitting next to me just finishing up on her nails and 3 woman getting pedicures. Any way about 6:20 I once again had beautiful nails although shorter. Now I am already thinking about Diva Las Vegas which is coming up fast. 6 weeks from today I will once again be here at the nails salon to get my acrylic nails for the trip 11 days and yes, they will be longer and a pretty color.

After the nail salon I went across the street to Starbucks till 8 to work on my blog and do a little studding (very little). It is nice as I have been coming here so regular most of the workers know me by name and I am getting to know some of their names. I walked in and Alan the young man working tonight welcomed me by name and asked if I wanted my usual hot chocolate which I did. It really makes you feel welcome when this happens. I know it is all about customer service but it still feels good. It is funny as I never went to a Starbucks before the first time I did as Susan and even still I think I have only been there 3 or 4 times when I am not Susan, kind of my girl thing to do. But I like coming here so much last year I bought stock in Starbucks.

It was about 8 when I left and drove over to Burger King as I was hungry, I went through the drive through and then went home. Again, a funny side note about 15 to 20 years ago a big night out for me was to take a late-night drive, after 11pm and then if I could work up my courage a quick trip through burger kings drive through.

Not sure if I will make it out this weekend as I have family stuff to do but next week I am once again on vacation and hope to get out several times. I really can’t explain why I like going out as Susan but I do.

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March 1, 2018 Posted by | Dream Nails, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Friday and the start of my vacation

Okay, it is Friday and I am now on vacation, I have some vacation time I have to use and some things I need to do around home and of course some Susan time. Now I have done these vacations like this last year and it was a good excuse to get my nails done in a pretty color. The only problem is gel polish is not easy to get off quick and with family issues I didn’t think that was a good idea so it will be the same color Wedding dress again. I got home from work at 4 and the first thing I did was call Dream nails to get an appointment for a manicure and pedicure. Anna said she could get me in at 5:15 so I had an hour. I started getting ready right away and I was ready and out the door right at 5 so I would be a little early to my appointment.

I got to Dream nails just a few minutes later and they were busy, there was 1 lady getting a pedicure and 3 young girls, probably high school age getting their nails done and 6 other girls about the same age waiting. I was glad I had an appointment. Well Anna was running a little behind so I had to wait till almost 5:30 which was okay. A couple other ladies came in and left because of how many were here, seems they were a little short-handed tonight. Now all these young girls were getting full sets of acrylic nails and they were all excited about it which I can understand.

Anna finished up the lady she was working on and it was my turn so I sat down and Anna started to work on my nails, she asked if I wanted the same color and I so wanted to say no I wanted red but I know something could come up short notice with family and I would need to be able to switch back fast. I did tell her I didn’t want them shortened. Now I know at the end of the week I will have to file them down as they are rather long now at least for my male side. Anna removed the old gel polish and did the fill with acrylic and then it was time for my new gel polish, the young girl next to me had her nails in an oval shape and rather long and put a silver glitter polish on them. They were really sparkly which I told her and that they looked great although I am not a fan of the glittery nails. I am more the traditional reds or pinks, even the one odd color on the middle finger is not something I like. I am not saying it is ugly just not what I want even though it is really popular these days. I like the same color on all my fingers. Soon I had my beautiful nails again and it was time for my pedicure. Some of the young girls finished with their nails and others took their spots to get their nails done and the ones that were finished waited, I guess they were all together. More woman came in and some left because of the crowd others were willing to wait. It was a good night to people watch.

Anna did my pedicure tonight as all the other nail techs were busy and they had people waiting. I picked Pompeii Purple tonight which is really a pinkish red and very pretty, I usually do this color during the summer as it is a great summer color. It was so relaxing to sit there with Anna messaging my feet and legs and the chair messaging my back, worth every penny. It was a little after 7 when I was ready to leave and they still had 3 ladies waiting, so much for a 7 pm closing time.

I left the nail salon and thought about what I should do as I didn’t want to just go home and I was kind of hungry so I drove down by the mall to get a burger. Now as I drove I kept thinking about my nails and how much I wanted red for the week. Now Julie all the time gets gel polish and then she has regular nail polish put over the gel for color. I even thought about this at the salon but they were so busy but I regretted not doing it. Anyway, by the mall there was a nail salon that had an open sign so I decided I would go in. I got there right at 7:30 which was their closing time but they had a few ladies still in there and the one lady said she would do my nails. I guess you don’t turn down a paying customer, so I went and picked out a really bright red and sat down. Just for polish is only $6 what a bargain. 10 minutes later I had beautiful red nails. I sat there another 10 minutes to let them dry so I wouldn’t mess them up before leaving just before 8.

Now it was 8 and I new the Starbucks by my house was closed, most Starbucks close between 8 and 9 so I decided to go up to Mill Plain as there is a Starbucks that is open till midnight. I got there about 8:20 and wow they were packed. I parked and looked in and it looked like about 25 young people inside but it is a bigger Starbucks so I grabbed my computer and went in. I was wrong I bet there were 40 or more young people inside. I walked in and it was quiet as I walked up to the counter to order my hot chocolate. There was very little talking going on but I just minded my own business and ordered my drink. The young man behind the counter was really nice and one of the girls complimented me on my makeup and nails which I love. Any way I made the comment that they were really busy tonight which surprised me as you don’t think of a coffee shop as a place to go on a Friday night. He said yes but it is just the first Friday of the month, they have a big group of young deaf kids that come in. any way I ordered my drink and turned to walk to the 1 open table in the corner and no one was paying any attention to me.

I sat down and took out my computer and caught up on e-mails and wrote my blog for tonight. It was so awesome to see my red nails as I typed. It stayed busy till about 9:00 when some of the people left but there was still probably 20 people here and the drive through was no stop. It was a relaxing evening. Now I am looking forward to the coming week, I have some stuff to do around home and I plan on getting out as Susan, I need to find a new purse. I am going to get together with Peggy on Tuesday for lunch and some shopping and also Mikaela on Friday for some shopping. May see if some of the other girls want to get together. It will be a fun week and yes, I will probably get to Starbucks several times also. Tomorrow night we will have our dinner downtown Portland which will be fun and of course I will make the Wednesday night dinner. Okay 1 quick picture of my pretty red nails, so wish I could have them all the time.

Around 9:30 it got really busy again probably 30 or more people were inside again. I guess Friday night is the night to come to this Starbucks. I stayed here till about 11 before heading home. When I left there was probably still 30 to 40 people still here at Starbucks. I made a quick stop at Burger Kings drive through before going home. It was a good night out.

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February 2, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night outing

It is Wednesday and I am going to get to go out tonight for dinner with my friends. I got home and of course the most important thing was I needed a manicure. I called Dream nails and got an appointment for 5, so looking forward to this. I really love going to the nail salon. I started getting ready taking my time to enjoy it. As I got ready I had the big issue of what to wear and how to do my makeup. Normally I would wear a dress and heels to go to dinner but I am also going to the nail salon first. Well I settled on a black skirt and sweater top and my high heeled boots although I did go with the red lipstick.

I got to the nail salon just before 5 and went in. they were not busy, just 1 lady getting a pedicure. Anna was ready for me so I sat right down and she started on my nails, it is such a relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got my nails ready for the for the new acrylic to fill in. She asked me if I wanted them shortened and of course I didn’t but I knew I needed to so I told her yes. It is always sad when she uses the grinder to make them shorter. She also fixed the nail I broke the corner off of and soon she was putting on the new acrylic. now she has been using a pink acrylic which gives my nails a slight pink color, it would probably be more if she put it on thicker but she does a thin layer. Now it was time for the gel polish and Anna asked if I wanted the clear again and I said no I wanted the color wedding dress which is a slight pink although with the pink acrylic is does have more of a pink color. I really do love the way my nails look with this color of course I would much rather have a bright red. Maybe in 2 weeks as I will be on vacation. Anna put the first coat on and then the second coat and yes, my nails have a slight pretty pink shade. Now I know some people have noticed but only one person has ever said anything, but a lot of the woman I work with are taking way better care of their nails and several now have pretty long acrylic nails. I guess they just don’t want a man to have better looking nails then they do. It was about 5:40 when I was all done and on my way with my pretty nails.

Now Julie had taxed me earlier and she is also going to dinner tonight so I am going to pick her up so I was on my way to her house. I got to her house a little after 6 and she was already. It was great to see her again as she had been on vacation to Australia for 3 weeks. I was looking forward to hearing all about her trip. Now there was a lot of traffic so we got downtown just before 7. We were having dinner at McMenamins tavern & pool, the group has gone here a couple times before but it will be my first time. I really like going to new places.

Melissa and Cassandra were already there. It was good to see them again. Barb also showed up so we had 5 for dinner. Now I do like the bigger group outings as it is always fun to see a lot of girls out but it is harder to talk with all and also when we are at the bars it gets loud. These Wednesday night dinners are a lot of fun as having smaller groups you can really have good conversations which all can be involved in and it is not loud so you can easily hear what is going on. It might just be to many times to bars. We ordered dinner and had a wonderful time. It really was a wonderful night out. We also talked about our Mexican cruise in October of 2018, if you have ever thought about going on a cruise be sure and check out our web page for more information.

It is amazing how fast the night went by and soon it was 9:30 which doesn’t sound that late but I get up a little after 4 am in the morning and it will be at least an hour to get home and in bed but it is so worth it to go out with my friends. Saturday most of our group will be going to Salem to go out with the girls down there, I won’t be able to make it so I will go to the Escape at least for a while for dinner and to see if anyone else stays local.

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January 18, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Just a relaxing trip to the nail salon

Okay it has been over 2 ½ weeks since I got my nails done and they still look awesome, they have a little grow out but as the polish I have is a very light pink and not real noticeable you really can’t tell unless you look closely. I was tempted to wait but they are getting a little long and well I have a couple chips now on my toes so I need a pedicure. I was actually hoping to wait for a little warmer weather but I decided tonight was the night. It was about 3:45 when I got home so the first thing was to call Dream Nails and see if I could get in. Now over the last few times I have gone I have had Kathy and Anna both do my nails and they both do a great job and that makes it hard as I don’t know who to ask for as I don’t want to offend either. I decided to just call and see who I get. Now it was Anna who answered the phone and I just asked if I could come in at 5 for a fill and pedicure. Anna said that was fine, she would do my fill first and then one of the other girls would do my pedicure. Now with an appointment I started getting ready.

I was ready by 4:50 and was on my way. I got in my car and opened the garage door and then noticed I forgot my ring and bracelet so I just got out of the car and went back inside to get them leaving the garage door open. Only took a couple minutes and I was back in my car and on my way. I got to the nails salon right at 5 and went in. They were pretty busy so it was good I called and got an appointment. I still had to wait about 10 minutes for Anna to finish up the lady she was working on. Now I can tell it was cold today as usually when I have come here I would say 60% or more of the woman are here for pedicures but not tonight. There were 7 women getting their nails done and none getting pedicures. The other thing was all but one were getting a red color, I guess red is the color for Christmas. Now I was a little sad as I so wanted to get red on my finger nails for Christmas. As Anna finished up the lady she was working on she asked if I was getting both a manicure and pedicure and I told her yes as I needed one. She said she needed one too but didn’t have the time. I talked with her a little as Anna finished her nails.

It was about 5:10 when it was my turn and I sat down to have Anna do my nails. She asked how they held up and I told her wonderful, I really liked the job she did last time. I told her I almost waited but was afraid if I missed tonight it would be another week till I could get back. She looked at my nails and told me they looked fine and I probably could have gone another week and I really could have its just they were getting a little long. Well Anna started on my nails grinding off the old gel polish and getting them ready for the fill. We chatted about Christmas and if we were both ready for it which by the way we are not. It was just a really relaxing experience that I so enjoy. Now I had already picked out the color for my toes which is a medium red color with little sparkles in it as I figured that would be a great color for Christmas. Anna asked me if I wanted the same color on my fingers which I really did but I knew I couldn’t so I told her I would do the same color I did last time Wedding Dress.

Now with the acrylic on my nails she asked if I wanted them shortened, Again I wanted to say no but that was really one of the reasons I came in tonight. Anna shortened them and then shaped them and got them all ready for polish. Now she didn’t shorten them as much as she did last time so they are still a little long for my male side and I am guessing if I go more than 2 weeks they will be really long. I went and washed my hands and came back and Anna had my gel polish on her table and also a clear polish with sparkles in it and told me that would be a great polish for the Holidays. Well I just stayed with the polish I have been getting. It took about 45 minutes and my fingers were done and looking beautiful. It was now time for my pedicure.

Soon I was sitting in a chair massaging my back and my feet in nice warm water. It was so wonderful. A few more ladies came in and again they just wanted their fingers done so I was the only one getting a pedicure. Kathy was going to do my pedicure so I had to wait a few minutes for her to finish up the lady she was working on. Soon Kathy was working on my feet and it felt so wonderful. There really is something wonderful about going and getting your nails done. Another lady came in and it turns out she wanted a pedicure so I was no longer the only one and she was actually seated right next to me. I am not even sure how but soon we were talking about our nails and how much we like pedicures. It was really nice. I never even

thought about how I was dressed or who I was, I was just another lady at the nails salon and that was how everyone treated me. I mean I have talked with people here before but usually just a few comments but tonight I had a nice conversation with the lady next to me and even talked with 3 other ladies while I was here. T was a wonderful evening so far. It took about 45 minutes for my pedicure also and soon I had pretty red toes. I moved over to a table where I could put my toes under a fan to dry the polish for a few minutes. It was almost 7 when I was done and ready to go. Here is a picture of my pretty toes.

I left the salon and wow was it cold outside, by the time I got to my car my feet were already getting cold. Tonight, is not the weather you wear flip flops in. I got in the car and was planning on going to Starbucks for an hour to let my toes finish drying but I got the heater going and didn’t want to get out of the car and go into Starbucks as I knew my feet would get cold again so I drove down to Jack in the Box and went through the drive through before going home to a nice warm house. It was wonderful and relaxing couple hours. I would encourage everyone to get a manicure and pedicure at least once just to see what you are missing. If you don’t have a nail salon you go to I would recommend trying Dream Nails, they do a wonderful job.

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December 15, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday and time to get my nails done.

It is Sunday and has been two weeks since my last manicure. I have been going to the nails salon on Sundays for the last 3 or 4 times and today I had a lot to do so I really didn’t think I would make it. As a matter of fact, I figured Thursday would be the day I would get them done which would be almost 3 weeks. Now as I had them do the acrylic a little thicker last time you could see where it had grown out and I needed a fill. I wasn’t supposed to get home till after 5 and with time getting ready there would not be time today. Well things worked out and I was able to get home by 3 so the first thing I did was call Dream Nails and see if I could get in. Now the last several times I have had Kathy, so I just asked for her today and it turns out she was off today, So I asked for Anna and she said she had someone coming in at 3:15 and could I come at 4. Well I had to get ready anyway so that worked fine. Yes, it would be another quick time getting ready. I have gotten pretty good at getting ready fast as long as I know what I am going to wear and how I am going to do my makeup.

I really like Dream nails as they have always treated me awesome and so welcoming. I feel like I am just as valued as any other customer. I first tried this nail salon probably 3 years ago, but I have been coming here every 2 to 3 weeks since February of 2016 so in a few months it will be 2 years of regular manicures and pedicures. Over that time, I have had probably 5 or 6 of the woman and 2 of the men here do my nails and everyone of them treated me well and did an awesome job on my nails. Now a few years ago I would never have gone out someplace so close to where I live but that made it hard to get my nails done as it always had to be a planed event. I can get here in less then 5 minutes which makes it so much easier, I just lucked out and it turned out to be a wonderful nail salon. If you are in the area and want to get your nails done check them out.

I got to the nail salon a little before 4 and had to wait about 10 minutes for Anna to finish, they were busy today as there were 3 ladies waiting, I am guessing they were walk-ins. Anna asked if I wanted #89 and I said yes, so I just sat and waited my turn. Soon Anna was done, and she called me over, I sat down and I told her that Kathy had put on 1 coat of seashell pink and then the #89 Wedding dress. Anna said she just wanted to try 2 coats of the Wedding dress. Now I was looking at the polish in the bottle and it really looked pink, you can see in the picture what I saw. I wasn’t sure as I thought it might be too pink, but I found myself saying yes

Anna started on my nails by removing the other gel polish and then getting them ready for the fill. It is funny to think I am here for a fill when just last spring it was a big thing just to be able to get acrylic nails, now I have had them since the end of March and have been going in every 2 to 3 weeks for a fill. Anna did a wonderful job although she did make them a little thinner, so they do look more natural, but I am worried about how well they will hold up but then again, I have family coming in town this next weekend so having my nails look more natural will be better although I am still worried about how pink my nails will be.

Soon it was tine to start on the gel polish. It so funny ass at this point a man walked in and asked if he could get a pedicure with Kathy so I am guessing he has been here before. Anyway, Anna told him Kathy was off today but would be here tomorrow but if he wanted someone else could give him a pedicure. He said no, and he would come back tomorrow for a pedicure when Kathy was here. But then he said he really needed a manicure and could someone do that so one of the girls took him to one of the tables and started doing a manicure on him. I guess it is becoming more normal for men to get their nails done as I have seen many men here getting pedicures and a few manicures. Maybe soon it will not only be acceptable for men to have well-manicured nails but have pretty colors as I so wish I could just have a bright red or hot pink on my fingers. Anna put the first coat of gel on and it looked very natural and then the second. It really did give my nails a really healthy slightly pinkish look. It really is a wonderful color if you are looking for something natural. Of course, the test will be tomorrow when I see it in the daylight and also the light at work.

It was a really wonderful time here and Anna and I talked some she asked about my Thanksgiving and I told her about it and of course I asked about hers and she told me. It was such a wonderful experience. It is so relaxing to have someone take care of your nails for you. I would encourage everyone to at least try it once if you never have. You deserve to be pampered now and then. After I was done Anna thanked me for waiting which was no problem and told me she would see me in a couple weeks. Now I am faced with a dilemma. Both Kathy and Anna do awesome jobs and treat me so well. I like both of them and I am happy to have either do my nails, but I don’t want to offend either one by asking for one or the other. I guess when I call I could just ask to get an appointment with either of them and let them decide. Wow this is something I never thought I would have to worry about, who gets to do my nails.

Well I left the nail salon about 5 with my beautiful nails and what better to do then go to Starbucks for a couple hours and catch up on things including my blog from Saturday night. It is funny how much I enjoy going to Starbuck’s, it is kind of my personal Susan time, my me time. I go and do work, catch up on e-mails, my blog or just surf the internet. Things I would have done at home a few years ago but now I am out as Susan. Again, the Starbucks is only a couple blocks from where I live. I have come so far as Susan and I so enjoy my life, all of it, male and female.

It was about 7:30 at Starbucks and the lady behind the counter told me they were cleaning up and not to rush as they had lots to do. They have said this the last few weeks and I have just not paid attention to it but tonight I thought about it and made the comment about closing at 8 and she told me they started closing on Sundays at 7:30 several months ago. Wow I have been staying here till 8 the last several Sundays without realizing and they just let me. Well tonight I finished up what I had to do and saved my work and left at 7:40. Will have to remember Sundays they close early.

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November 27, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday manicure badly needed.

It is Sunday and I hadn’t planned on any Susan time today but I was doing some work this morning and I chipped a couple nails. I have been having acrylic on my nails since last March but just a thin layer and I think Cathy went a little thin last time. Any way a couple corners broke off but not the nail underneath so I was worried if I waited till Tuesday I might break the nail. So, I had to rearrange things as suddenly the nail salon became a priority. I figured I could get my nails done and then got to Starbucks and do my work I had to get done. Now I admit it would just be easier to run to the nail salon as my male self but not as much fun plus they only know me at the nail salon as Susan.

I got home and got ready doing my makeup which is so much fun. I finished my makeup at 3 and then before getting dressed I called the Dream nails to make an appointment. They asked when I wanted to come in so I said 3:30 and that was fine. So now I had to figure out my outfit for the rest of the day. I went with my leggings and my maroon sweater. I was ready and in my car and on my way. I got to the nail salon just before 3:30, I love the fact it is so close to my house. Now When I made the appointment I didn’t ask for anyone specific so I wasn’t sure who would do my nails, Anna, Cathy and Tina were all there and all have done my nails before. Well it turns out Cathy was going to do them again and she was ready for me so I sat down. I pointed out the 3 chips and asked if we could go thicker this time. Funny how far I have come with my nails, from just polish, to gel polish, to a thin coat of acrylic from matt to shiny, slight pink color and now going thicker on the acrylic.

Cathy started on my nails and it is so relaxing, having someone do your nails and pampering you. I know it is expensive to get your nails done but it is something I really enjoy and I feel I am worth it. It really is a wonderful experience that everyone should try. Cathy removed the old gel polish and then started putting on the acrylic, making the tips thicker. Now there was one lady getting a pedicure when I came in and that was it so it was slow here. Any way as she was doing my nails a man came in and wanted to get a pedicure, which I have seen men in here before but he was a bigger man with a Harley Davison shirt on, and a beard. He looked more like the kind of man that would ride a motorcycle to the bar to watch Sunday Football than come to a nails salon but here he was getting a pedicure, I think it was wonderful. A little later a husband and wife came in for pedicures also, I never realized how many men go to nails salons. Maybe someday it will be as normal for men to have pretty nails just as much as woman. Cathy finished with the acrylic and asked if I wanted the same color as last time which I said yes as I really do love the way it looks. I have had this color for four weeks now.

Cathy started with the gel polish, she uses 2 different colors and I know one is called wedding dress which you can see the color on my blog from two weeks ago. I looked at both bottles this time so if Cathy is not here when I come in I know what to ask for. She started with a polish called Seashell pink for the first coat, then she did a coat of Wedding dress and finished it off with a clear topcoat. The seashell pink is a pale pink and the wedding dress color is more of a shiny pink, both are beautiful colors. I think if I went two coats of the seashell pink it would be really noticeable but together they look great. Now looking at my nails they did look pinker this time, I wonder if she put a little thicker layer on my nails. Either way they look awesome. The big test will be tomorrow when I see them in normal light.

Now as I said I have had my nails this way for 4 weeks and not one person has said anything about them and I know they have had to notice. Now on this I am torn as it is nice that I have not had any issues with my nails but kind of a letdown that no one has complimented me on them and I don’t know which is I would prefer.

It was about 4:30 when I was all done, I thanked Cathy and wished her a happy Thanksgiving as I won’t see her till after. Now I wish my schedule was such that I could schedule my appointments when I leave, maybe someday. I left and drove over to Starbucks where I got a drink and started to do my work. It took me about an hour to do what I had to and I kept thinking what my boss or coworkers would think if they saw me working here as Susan. After that I wrote my blog from Saturday night out with my friends. I then spent some time just checking things out online, I just wanted to spend more time as Susan. I also started writing this blog but will finish it tomorrow after I see what my nails look like in the daylight. I actually lost track of time and soon it was 8 pm and they Starbucks was closing, wow tonight went by so fast. Now it was time to go home and back to my male life as I have to work early in the morning.

Okay I looked at my nails in the day light and yes they are pinker and also the acrylic is thicker and I think that is what is doing it as the acrylic they use is a pink acrylic. Just lightly pink but with the thicker layer that also adds to the color. But they do look awesome.

Thanks for reading and keep up with what I am doing in my life with my most recent blog.

PS just a foot note, I was looking at my blog and this will be my 984th blog I have written, wow I am closing in on one thousand blog posts and that means I have been out as Susan at least that many times.

Oh, here is another funny thing I found, on my blog I can see search terms people use and also referring pages. There was one page that for a few weeks have been referring people to my page so I checked it out. Here is the link, it is for a beauty shop in Pennsylvania, not sure this is real but it is too funny.

November 13, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Sunday afternoon manicure & pedicure

It is Sunday afternoon after a super fun Halloween party last night. I was looking at my nails this morning and realized I needed to bet to the nail salon as yesterday was two weeks. Don’t get me wrong my nails still look wonderful, maybe just a little too wonderful. What I mean by that is being shinny they look longer and they really are on the long side for my male self and next weekend I will not be able to get out at least not early enough to get to the nails salon so my only hope would possible be this Wednesday. The other thing I noticed as my nails do have a slight pinkish color to them where they have grown out you can tell the difference. So, what is a girl to do. Well as luck would have it I got home early today and all I wanted to do was write my blog from our Halloween party Saturday night. So why not go to Starbucks as Susan to do that also.

I quickly did my makeup and got dress and then called Dream nails to see if I could get in. They said sure so I asked if Anna was there and it turns out she was off again today so I asked for Cathy, she said come anytime so I told her I would be there in a few minutes and with that I grabbed my computer and was out the door. A few minutes later I was walking into the nail salon and Cathy was waiting for me. There were 6 other ladies here getting their nails done so they were a little busier than last time. I sat down and Cathy started on My nails. As she worked she asked me if I had any plans for tonight which I don’t so I told her I just needed to get my nails done. She took of the old gel polish and got them ready to fill, yes, I have had acrylic on my nails now since the end of March although it is a thin layer. She shortened them down and put the new acrylic on them and reshaped them. They once again looked good. Cathy asked me what color I wanted and I told her the same one she did last time as I really do like it. I went and washed my hands and came back and she had the gel polis ready. The number they have here for it is 89 but I took the opportunity to look at the polish and get the name so I would know in case I get someone else in the future. It is called Wedding Dress. Now there are 2 bottles and I am not sure if they go together or if it is a combination she did for me and I didn’t ask. The first bottle is a pale pink color and the second is clearer but has a violate tint to it. Turns out they are two different gel polish colors. Here is a picture of #89 Wedding Dress which I found online, looks like when you buy it you get a gel polish and a regular polish. Looks pretty pink in the regular polish bottle.

She started with the pale pink and put it on doing a really good job carefully covering my nail, actually I think she may have put a thinker coat on as it seems a little pinker than it did last time, well maybe it is just the way I am looking at it. Next came the clear with the violet tint and then finally the clear gloss top coat. My fingers were now done and looked awesome but they do look a little pinker than last time, hoping it is just the light in the nail salon. Now it was time for my pedicure which I really need as it has been at least 6 weeks. I picked out a really bright red and thinking to myself how awesome this color would look on my finger nails.

Now Cathy started my pedicure and I really love this part, there is just something so relaxing and enjoyable about this. What a great way to spend an hour on a Sunday afternoon. Now I did show her a couple pictures of me in my costume from last night which she thought was sexy. I really wanted to see what she thought of the dark hair as they have only seen me in in blonde hair.

Now I have to put a little side story in. now I have had nice looking nails for 7 months or more and only one lady at work has ever said a thing and all she did was ask how I kept them looking so nice. Any way I just told her I was tired of having week nails that broke and always looked bad so I was getting gel polish on them to protect them and that seemed to be enough. Any way no one else has ever said a thing and I find it hard to believe no one else have ever noticed. Any way 3 weeks ago I got the same polish I got today which does have a slight pink color that is more noticeable in sun light and really noticeable outside in the shade. Any way over the last two weeks one of the other ladies I work with has come up to the office I share with the lady who asked once about my nails and they have had at least 10 of 15-minute discussions on nail polish, and how to keep it looking nice in our office with me sitting there working. This has happened 5 different times over the last two weeks and has never happened before. Now I have looked at their nails and mine do look better although they have brighter polish (reds) but it is usually chipped on the ends. Still they have never said a word to me.

Any way as Cathy was doing my pedicure we got talking about Halloween and candy of which I have almost eaten all I bought and the lady just down from me said she had done the same thing. It was kind of nice to sit there and have a conversation with another lady. Once she finished my toes I went over and sat with my feet under the dryer right next to the lady I was talking with and we chatted just a little more. It was a fun day and I was here over an hour.

I left here and drove across the street to Starbucks and went in. they were a little busy but I went and ordered a hot chocolate and the lady behind the counter remembered me which always makes me feel good. We chatted for a moment as she got my drink. The only table open was the big table in the middle that has 5 chairs on each side so I sat down and got out my computer. I stayed here for about 2 hours writing my blog from Saturday night and catching up on e-mails and some work. One older lady walked by and told me how much she liked my bracelets. I thin ked her and told her where I got them which was Charming Charlies. By the way here is a selfie of me at Starbucks. It was a really fun and relaxing few hours out as Susan

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October 30, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday trip to the nail salon then to the Escape for a fun evening with friends.

Well first we have 16 cabins booked and 26 people going so far on our Mexican Cruise in October of 2018. Also Last Sunday I did make it out as Susan to Starbucks for a couple hours to write my last blog, now onto today.

I had planned to get out early, get my nails done and then go meet Cassandra at the Escape to watch the Baseball playoffs but as usual things came up and I got a late start. I didn’t get home till 4 so it would be a rush today. I called the Dream Nails to see if I could get in to get my nails done and so there would be no confusion I asked for Anna. Well it turns out she is on vacation so I just asked if I could come in at 5 and I would be surprised who gets to do my nails, so far everyone that I have had do my nails have done a wonderful job. Now it was a rush to get ready and of course the hardest part, what to wear. Something casual enough to go to the nail salon but also nice enough for a Saturday night out. I went with a skirt and top and I wore my ankle boots to the nail salon and took some nice heels to change into after. I was all ready and on my way by 4:40 well almost. I got to the end of my street and realized I forgot my bracelets and ring so I turned around and ran home real fast.

I got to the nail salon at 4:45 yes, it is a short drive and went in, they were not busy at all only one other lady there. Cathy greeted me when I walked in and said she was ready so I sat right down, Cathy has done my nails before. I sat down and Cathy started on my nails and of course we talked a little, she asked me if I had a boyfriend? I just told her I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend and left it at that, I didn’t go into the fact I am not interested in men, just woman. I really do enjoy my time at the nail salon. Now I have always wondered what they think of me here and by that do they think I am full time. Well as Cathy worked on my nails she asked what color I would like and I just told her the clear pink I have been getting. She asked if I didn’t like color and I told her I would love color but it just wouldn’t work at work, that was why I only got color polish when I was on Vacation. She then asked in they didn’t allow color polish where I work so I went on and told her I only dress this way part time and at work I am male and it would be hard to explain color on my nails.

Cathy finished filling my nails with acrylic, shaping them and filing them smooth then told me to go wash my hands. I came back and sat down and Cathy had a different polish on her table and said she wanted to try a different color as the one I was wearing gets a little yellowish after a couple weeks. I looked at it and it did have a pink color to it so I told her I would try it on my pinky like I did a few times back. Cathy smiled at me and said no it would look fine on my nails and I don’t know why I just agreed. She started with my right hand and as I watched the color on from the bottle was pink but it didn’t look pink on my nails so I just let her go. She finished the first coat and for the second coat it was more of a clear color with a pink color to it. After the second coat she put a clear top coat on. I looked at my nails and it did look like I had a light polish on it and gave my nails a healthy natural look. Cathy asked me how I liked it and I said it looked nice, she told me if I didn’t like it she would remove it and redo it but I told her it was fie I liked it which I do just not sure when I am not Susan what people will think. Now I have had nicely manicured nails a little on the long side for months and have left them shinny for the last month and only one lady at work have said anything so either they haven’t noticed which I doubt or just haven’t said anything. I thanked Cathy as she did a wonderful job on my nails, and left with my pretty nails. By the way they look a little different depending on the light and in certain light they are pink. I will include some pictures in different light.

It was about 5:30 when I left the nail salon and drove to the Escape. I got a parking spot right in front which was lucky as we can no longer park across the street in the parking lot. I went in and Cassandra was already there, she got there about 5 to watch the Baseball playoffs, she is a huge LA Dodgers fan. It is funny as we have several girls in the group how are huge sports fan. We also talked about some of our events coming up, we do have 15 signed up for the Dinner Cruise we are doing in December which will be so much fun and of course our cruise next October, as I said above we have 26 signed up for this so far, and probably 15 are from our group. If you want information on it check out our group cruise page. Our group really is wonderful and we have done so many wonderful things over the years. I can’t imagine what my life would be like without some of them in my life. I would not be the lady I am now without them. Now talking about the cruise and what we would do. We are thinking of going down a few days early and going out in LA first. I also realize I need to get a passport which I should do soon as I don’t want to wait.

Now Michelle was the next one to show up and then Page, Kimberly, and Kate, Kimberly and Kate also got in the conversation on the cruise as they are also going. Now some of the girls started playing pool as the Baseball game was over. Cassandra was happy as the Dodgers won. Cassandra was the big winner at Pool as she won a lot of games of course she is also really good so if you can beat her it is an accomplishment.

Karaoke started and as always it gets a little loud and hard to talk any more. It is fun to listen to some of the singers as some are really good and the other well they at least have the courage to get up and sing and that is something. Lori and a few other girls showed up, our later crowd. It is funny as when o first started going out it had to be dark and most of the time it was 9 pm or later before I would leave my house, now by 9 pm. Now by 9 or 10 I am thinking about going home to bed. I like to think it is because I am so comfortable going out and not because I am getting older.

We had a good turnout and it was great to be out with my friends. I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner as I am planning on going this week. Next Saturday is the week the group goes down to Salem to hang out with our members down there. I am not sure I will make that as it is an hour drive each way or more. I will go out though even if it is just shopping or a trip to Starbucks.

If you have ever wanted to go on a cruise be sure and check out the one we ae going on, it will be a blast and you can dress as much or as little as you want. Okay I have to ask, do you like the nails and do they look too pink?

Thanks for reading and have a great day.

October 15, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Friday night and I finally get out for dinner

It has been a long time since I have been out on a Friday night and I was trying to decide if I should go out as it would be later when I could make it. Any way Julie texted me to see if I was going out as she also wanted to go out but like me it would be later. We decided to go out to Crush Bar, Julie stopped here last week in boy mode to check it out. I was looking forward to it. I was going to Pick Julie up at 7:30 and drive together. I started getting ready about 5:30 and took my time as I wanted to enjoy the experience. I really do love the time I spend doing my makeup. I was all ready by 7 in my black skirt and sweater top and on my way.

I got to Julies about 7:30 and she had just finished getting ready, she also wore a skirt and top. We talked for a few minutes before we left. We got to Crush just before 8 and being a Friday, we had to park about 4 blocks away, good thing it was a nice evening. Now being a Friday night, they were pretty busy but we did find a table. We went to the bar and ordered dinner. They also had a Burlesque show in the back room and there were a lot of girls in really cute outfits. Now this bar is an LGBT bar but really open to everyone and there was a good mix of all people which was nice. More of a neighborhood bar and it is nice to have a good mix of people all accepting of each other.

Julie and I had a nice dinner and wonderful conversation, it really is nice to spend time with Julie, we spent a lot of time talking about our group and of course the Cruise we are doing in October of 2018. If you have ever thought of going on a Cruise and want to do it as transgender here is your chance. We have at least 15 staterooms booked with 23 going so far. It will be so much fun. It is funny as Susan I really enjoy just sitting around and having enjoyable conversation. I should have gotten a picture with Julie. It was getting late after 10 pm and we were thinking of leaving when a lady that was sitting at the bar came over and joined us, she introduced herself as Caroline. She just moved to Portland two weeks ago and she was here with her friend Alvin who also came over and joined us. They were really nice and we had a lot of fun talking with them and getting to know them. It really is nice to meet new people. Julie and I ended up staying for more than an hour more talking with them. It was a really a fun night.

It was almost 11:30 when Julie and I left and walked back to my car. Crush was really a nice place and we would both go back again. The only bad thing is being a neighborhood bar there are not a lot of street lights on the side streets so kind of dark when walking. I drove Julie home and then headed home myself. It was a really wonderful night out.

Now I am looking forward to Saturday night as our group is going to dinner at Henry’s in downtown Portland. Not sure how many we will have I am guessing 8 to 10 but I know Julie, Cassandra and Peggy will be there and it will be so wonderful to see them again. I really do have wonderful friend.

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October 7, 2017 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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