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Saturday trip to the nail salon before going to the Escape

It is the last Saturday of June and I am really looking forward to going out. Between being sick and other obligations, my Susan time has been limited. Now my plan as usual is to try to get to the Escape early between 5 & 6 as this gives me a little more time out and parking is way better. I got home around 3 and started to get ready and of course the first thing I notice I a chip on my nail polish on my toes, it has been at least 6 weeks since my last pedicure. I also noticed one of my nails had what looked like a crack but was really just where the corner was separating from the acrylic. yes, I needed to go to the nails salon. I called Dream nails and it turns out they were busy and Anny couldn’t get me in till 5:30. Now I had a decision to make, be late to the Escape or not get my nails done and I am sure you can guess my choice. I told her I would see her at 5:30 and finished getting ready. I was all done with my makeup and picked a more neutral lipstick, a mauve color and now it was time to get dressed. Now as I was getting a pedicure that would mean no panty hose and flip flops so I picked my white and black summer dress, here is a picture of me from our trip to Hoover dam wearing the same dress.

Now I had another dilemma, it was only 4:15 and I was all ready and I really don’t like just sitting around the house all dressed up so I decided to go to the Starbucks by my house till it was time to go get my nails done. It only took a couple minutes to get there and I went in. they were not real busy so I had no trouble getting a table and got out my computer and took care of some work, wrote my blog from Wednesday, and just relaxed as I waited till it was time to go to the nails salon. Now people came and went and a few sat down at tables but it never really got really busy. It is a good place to people watch though. It really was funny how fast time went. Soon it was 5:15 and I decided to leave and go to the Nail salon which again only takes a couple minutes.

I parked and went in and yes, they were busy, 2 getting their nails done and 5 getting pedicures and 2 waiting but I had an appointment so I only had to wait a couple minutes. Anna would do my nails but another girl did my pedicure, she has done my pedicures several times and always does a great job but I do not know her name and feel bad asking so I guess I will just go on not knowing. I really do love coming to the nail salon and getting pedicures, so relaxing. Sad most men will never experience this simple joy in life. She did a wonderful job and soon it was time for the polish, I had picked out a really bright red called Ferrari which I have had before and really love the color, so wish I could do my fingers in the same color. Soon my feet were done and looked so pretty and now it was time for my nails.

I moved over to Anna’s table and she started on my fingers. She removed the old gel polish and filed them down to get them ready for the acrylic fill and of course noticed the bad nail before I pointed it out to her so she removed all the acrylic on that nails. It really is a fun and relaxing time. She asked if I wanted them shortened and I said yes even though I really didn’t. She put the new acrylic on my nails and shaped them and got them all ready for the polish. Of course, I used the same color I have been for months, Wedding dress but I kept thinking about the pretty red on my toes and so wished it was on my fingers. Now they were busy the whole time with people waiting, so glad I always call for an appointment. It was 6:50 when I was all done and left the salon with my pretty nails.

I got to the Escape about 7:20 and as I feared all the parking was full in the lot so I parked out on the street, I don’t think I have ever had to park on the street here as I always get here early. I went in and Bobbie was there at one of the tables closest to where they do Karaoke, are normal table was full. I talked with Bobbie a little before going up and ordering dinner. I noticed Lee was here at the Bar so I went over and talked with her a little, she was here with another lady and was not sure if they were on a date so I only talked to her for a few minutes before going back to the table. My food came and I ate my dinner they really do have great food here.

I was just finishing my dinner and Robyn showed up. It was nice to see her out she is coming here on a more regular basis now which is always nice. Now as it got later it started to get busier as this is the last weekend of Pride and it was going to be a big night I think. Another girl from our group showed up so we had 4 of us now. By 9 it really was busy and we had others sitting at the other end of our table which I really don’t mind as I didn’t think we would have any more girls show up but Lauri. And it is nice to kind of chat with them. They have 2 long tables that sit 10 and then several 4-person tables and they were all full.

Karaoke started and it is fun although it gets loud and you can’t really talk any more. Those who sang did really well and even the few that didn’t we still clapped as they had the guts to get up and sing. Several of the songs I had never heard before and a few were ones I really likes and those I sang along with, quietly from our table of course. It was almost 10 when Lauri showed up. I stayed a little long but I was getting tired. I can remember a few years back when we didn’t go out till 9 and we closed the bars down. Now by 11 I am done. I paid my bill and said my goodbye’s and called it a night. It was so wonderful to be out with my friends and also get my nails done. I really do need to try to get back to getting my nails done on a week night though.

On a side note this week for some reason all my blogs I shared on my Facebook page disappeared and I mean disappeared. I can find no trace of them. I checked my activities log and even downloaded my history file and there is no trace of them. I am not really good with Facebook so if any of you out there have any ideas what happened please let me know. I will see if this one post to it and if not, I may try and post in manually and see what is going on. I tried to contact Facebook but that is harder then finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow so I don’t know what to do now.

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July 7, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and I finally get some Susan time.

It is Saturday after a long and trying week and I am going to get some Susan time. But first a reminder about our Mexican Cruise our group the rose city t-girls are hosting. We have 29 people signed up but there is still room and time to sign up, just go to our web page and get the information. Now I haven’t been out since last Sunday as I have been sick all week and today is the first day I feel better and don’t have a red nose or at least not so bad that some makeup can hide it. If that is not bad enough it has been almost 3 weeks (tomorrow) since I got my nails done. Now don’t get me wrong they still look great but are rather long and have noticeable grow out so that is a priority as I am not sure if I would have time this week to get them done and I defiantly can’t wait another week. Now usually I try to get to the Escape early so that gives me a little time to work with.

I called Dream Nails and Anna was able to get me in at 4:45 so that was good but now I had the bigger issue. Going to the nail salon I try to be casual but going to the Escape I usually wear a dress and heels and of course my red lipstick. I am going to have to find some common ground. I decided to go with my black skirt and sweater top and my ankle boots that have about 3″ heels which is kind of a business woman look and I figured it would be good for both. Now was the lipstick choice and yes, I did go for the red. I was ready at 4:30 and drove over to the Nail salon. There were only a couple cars but they were actually pretty busy. 4 woman and a man getting pedicures and 2 women getting their nails done. Anna was ready so I actually got in a little early which was nice. She started on my nails and it is always such a fun and relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got them all prepped for the new acrylic and then asked me if I wanted them shortened. Of course, the answer was yes even though deep down I didn’t. she shortened them up and then put the new acrylic on filling the area that had grown out. About this time the man and woman getting pedicures were leaving and as the man walked by me he said you ladies have a wonderful day. Soon it was time for the gel polish and once again my nails looked perfect although shorter. It was about 5 :15 when I was all done. Now here is the funny thing. When I left how it was clear skies and about 75 but as I am getting over being sick I brought my sweater. As I walked out it was dark skies and raining, it had only been 45 minutes, what happened.

I drove to the Escape in a heavy rain, I guess that is the Pacific Northwest as they always say if you don’t like the weather wait 30 minutes. I got to the escape and was able to park right in front which with the rain was nice. I went in and got the table I try to get in case others show up. Really not sure how many we will have tonight as it is Pride weekend and lots of things going on downtown. I did know Nicole would be here as she is in town this weekend, always nice when you know you won’t be alone. I ordered dinner and got out my computer. It was just after 6 and I had just finished eating when Nicole arrived. It was great to see her again and get a chance to talk with her. It was just a little later and Jan and Lynn arrived, they had been downtown at the Pride event all day and left when it started to rain.

The 4 of us sat and talked for a while mostly about our cruise this October which really is coming up fast now. We are all looking forward to this as it will be so much fun. This is my first Cruise and the fact I get to do it as Susan makes it all the better. Now we were discussing what we are taking in other words how much luggage. Now I am doing the whole trip as Susan as are many of the girls as I have always wanted to fly as Susan. But another reason is this will help keep what I need to take down as it will just be stuff for Susan to wear. Now I think I can get it all in one big suitcase and one carry on which will be nice. My only concern and this is because I don’t fly much how do they classify carryon. It has been several years since I was on a plane and I took 1 carryon and my laptop on the plane. But as Susan I will also have my purse so now I am looking at 1 carryon bag, laptop and purse. I am guessing I will have to call the airline and get an answer to that before the flight.

Now it was a little slow here tonight as I think a lot of people are downtown so it may get busier later but as I am getting over being sick I don’t plan to be out to late. A little later another one of our girls showed up so we had 5 of us tonight. A little after 9 the Karaoke started and of course it gets loud and hard to talk. Nicole was the first to leave, always sad to see her go but she will be back in about 10 days and is planning on going to our Wednesday night dinner which will be fun. It was about 9:45 and Lauri showed up and it was nice to see her again, she also had been downtown at the Pride events. I wish I could have gone but it was late when I was able to get out and getting over being sick probably wouldn’t have been a good idea to be outside. I talked with Lauri briefly before paying my bill and calling it a night. It was about 10 pm when I left for home. It really was good to be out again.

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June 17, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Sunday and some Susan time including trip to nail salon

It is Sunday and once again I have some free time in the afternoon and evening and that means Susan time. I still need to write my blog from Wednesday and now Saturday so I am behind, sorry to those who follow me I will try to get them out quicker. Well before I get to far Just a quick note, there is still time to sign up to go on our Mexican Cruise, October 13 to 20 2018. We have 28 signed up right now let’s see if we can get 30. . For more information check out our web page or contact me.

I got home a little later so it was almost 3 when I started getting ready which is something I totally enjoy. It really is relaxing to take the time and do my makeup and transform into Susan. It was 3:45 when I was ready including my corset, and as I was putting on my bracelet and ring I was looking at my finger nails which really do look wonderful. They are a little long and do show some grow out so if you look at them there is no denying I have acrylic nails. As I looked at them I was thinking about the week ahead, my only Susan time will be Wednesday for dinner and I will be rushing to make that and then again Saturday and also will be a rush to get there by 7. I do have Monday morning but that is a holiday and I am sure the nail salon will be open so it is either today or more then a week more and it has already been 2 ½ weeks. Usually I call Dream Nails before I get ready but this was a last-minute decision so I called and Anna said she could get me in at 4:45 so now I had that dilemma, what to do for 45 minutes.

I decided although it was short I would go to the Starbucks by my house as it is right across the street from the nails salon and work on my blog for Wednesday night till my appointment. I got there right at 4 and they were busy but mostly takeout so there were a couple tables open. I got my drink and started on my blog. I had only been here a few minutes and someone I know, kind of work with walked in and I saw him in line to get a drink. I just kept my head down and kept working on my blog as he got his drink and left. Now about 15 minutes later another lady I know, works where my parents are living came in and once again I just kept my head down and kept working. I little m ore nervous about her because as far as I know my parents have no idea about this part of my life. She also got her drink and left. Wow only here for 45 minutes and saw two people I know. I finished my blog and posted it at 4:40 so had just enough time to get to my nail appointment.

I got to Dream nails and Anna was still finishing a lady so I had to wait about 5 minutes. Now there were 5 other women in here, 2 getting their finger nails done, 2 getting pedicures and one waiting on her friend. Anna started on my nails and we talked a little, Anna pretty much works 7 days a week, she is the owner although I do think a couple days she may either come in a little later or leave a little early. I encouraged her to take some time off for herself and this goes for everyone. Take some time for yourself, life is to short to just work all the time. You will be so much happier and more relaxed. Anna did a great job on my nails as always and it was so relaxing. Now I did notice the two women getting pedicures looking over at me every once in a while, but what else do you have to do at the nail salon as I kind of watch other people also to see what they are getting done. Well as I was watching them the one lady who was very petite I did notice her shoulder and arm muscles were really defined and she did have kind of a raspy voice and I don’t know why but I wondered just wondered if she had transitioned at some point. I tell people this all the time that even if you are really passible there are subtle things that by themselves won’t give you away but as they ad up well may give you away. I do not know about her and I would never say anything but being transgender myself there was enough to at least put the thought in my head. It was just before 6 when Anna finished my nails and they looked wonderful as always and shorter.

Now what to do as my usual Sunday is Starbucks till 6:30, go get gas and then onto Wendy’s before going home but the Starbucks by my house will close in 30 minutes and as I have tomorrow off I can stay out later. I decided to go to Cascade station by the airport as I wanted to run into Target and also the Starbuck’s there is open till 9. I got to Target and ran in as I needed to pick a few things up which didn’t take long and then it was off to Starbucks’s. I got there about 6:45 and parked right out front and went in. They were also busy but there was one table right in front of the window so I put my computer on it and went and stood in line to get my drink.

Soon I was happily sitting at my table with my drink and on my computer working on my blog for Saturday night. Now for years I would always write my blog the very next day which I really try to do but there is something special about writing Susan’s blog as Susan at Starbuck’s. now as I sat there a young girl came in who was very tall, guessing 6’4″ and she also had low wedge heels on about 2″. Now she was very skinny and a really pretty face but I saw her glance at me on her way to order. Now I am not in any way saying she is not a female but after she ordered she went and sat at the very opposite side of Starbucks from me even though where she would pick up her drink was right by me and that was the door she used and there were also places to sit closer. I also noticed her look at me several times. Now I am more likely to believe that she was worried people might think she was transgender if they saw her by me then her actually being transgender but again it did make me think. I have actually noticed a lot more really tall females lately as I do work with one who is 6’5″ but there are now 3 more females I work with and 1 is the same height as me 6′ and one is a couple inches taller and the third is at least 5″ taller than me and none of them you would mistake as not being female. Now tall women are still a was smaller percentage but there is hope for taller t-girls.

I got all my work done and it was about 8:45 so I left Starbucks and even though it was late I decided to stop at Wendy’s for something to eat. Now being this late they were not that busy. I ordered my food and the lady who waited on me told me she loved my nails. I thanked her and told her I had just got them done. She told me she wished she could have nails like mine and I told her all it took was to make a little time to get them done. She smiled and said she made time for the gym and didn’t have time for her nails. I smiled back and told her I made time for my nails and not the gym. Which got me thinking I really need to get back to my exercising. I use to stop at the gym almost every day, and then I bought an elliptical for my home and now I hardly use it. I am going to have to try and change that as I really do want to lose some weight for our cruise this fall.

I ate my dinner and then headed for home. It was almost 10 when I got home. It was a good night out. I sat down on the couch to watch a little TV before changing back from Susan to go to bed and fell asleep on the couch. It was a little after midnight when I woke up and went up to bed. I had worn my corset for over 8 hours. Now I have people who ask how I can ware a corset and really it is easy. I got mine at Orchards corset and I e-mailed them my measurements and they recommended the size I needed and they were right on. It really fits well and is very comfortable. The only two things it is hard to get in and out of the car as I have a smaller car and also not really comfortable sitting in y car seat. I also can’t bend over to pick something up or put shoes on or off without getting out of breath. Other then that it is really comfortable and it makes me sit up straight and keeps my shoulder back so I have really good posture and of course a really nice shape. The good way out ways the bending issue.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape on Memorial Day Weekend

It is Saturday of Memorial Day weekend so I am not sure how many girls will be out but before I get into my blog I want to recognize the sacrifice so many American men and woman have made for our freedom and our way of life. We have and live in the greats country in the world and we owe it all to our brave service men and woman who dedicated their lives to protect us and some gave up everything for us. I want to thank you all and let you know how much we appreciate what you gave and let you know you are not forgotten.

Now I started getting ready early for two reasons, first I wanted to take my time and enjoy every moment of becoming Susan and second, I wanted to get there early so I could write my blog from Wednesday as I am once again behind in my blogging. Seems I just can’t find the time the next day to update things. Now it was about 4:45 when I was all done and ready to dress but I decided I would ware my corset tonight which also means picking out the right dress. I got the corset on and it really does give me a nice shape as I have hips and a waist which is several inches narrower, I will have to measure it sometime as I am curious. I got the corset on and put the dress I chose on and it just didn’t look right so off it came and back to the closet. It was the third dress I tried that I went with, a black and white one that goes down to mid-calf but also has a slit on the left that goes up to mid-thigh oh and also tight and clingy so the curves show. Being a girl is so much fun.

I got to the Escape just before 5:30 and went in. They were not that busy so I sat down and got my computer out and ordered dinner. I looked around and Kearren was also there early so she came over and joined me. It has been a while since I have seen her out, at least before Diva Las Vegas which was 6 weeks ago, wow time is flying. Well I put my computer away as it is always more fun to talk with someone then play on my computer, guess I will do my blog Sunday. It is sad as she will be moving too Idaho in a few weeks and I will miss her. We talked a while about why we do this and we both agreed there really is no right answer other then we enjoy it and it relaxes us. I guess for me Susan is part of who I am and when I can be her feel complete and that is a real enjoyable and relaxing feeling compared to hiding her away.

We got on the topic of Facebook and friends and peoples profiles. I will share my thoughts and remember these are just my thoughts for me. I do get a lot of friends request and I am selective of who I accept. Now it is not because I don’t want to be friends with people I just try to limit it to people I feel I will meet at some point or we have a lot of friends in common. I am not interested in having just numbers. Again, this is me, I see people with 5,000 friends and I have to ask myself how can you keep up with that many, at 100 a day it would take you 50 days to look at each of them. We also talked about profiles with no picture or information, again I don’t friend blank profiles although I have made the rare exception as sometimes people have valid reasons. I do have a few friends that I have met or have exchanged pictures with that just can’t put public info out but I do want to make sure people are real. Any way Kearren is trying to get a good picture of herself to post so I gave her my tips and again this is what works for me. I find I get my best pictures when the camera is above me and at a slight angle. So, I am going to post pictures taken different ways to show the difference. It is amazing the difference that different angles make.

Well Kate was the next to show up so the 3 of us sat and talked for a while. Then Kate and Kearren went to play pool so I thought about getting my computer out but then Bobbie showed up followed by Jan & Lynn. Now a funny story as a group of women showed up about 8 and they were all waring Tutu’s and looked so cute. Well I had to tell them that and soon I was talking to a couple of them. It turns out one of their friends had been working on the East coast the last 2 months and was back in town for the weekend and had asked 1 of them to pick her up at the airport. Well this friend had this great idea and got several of her friends to show up at the airport in tutu’s and hold up signs as they waited for her to get off the plane, signs like welcome back from rehab, and so on. It was so funny. Any way I just thought I would share this so remember this the next time you ask a friend to pick you up at the airport or if you are going to pick someone up.
kellybea also showed up tonight with her wife, she is one of our newer members and has gone out a couple times in Salem but she drove up here tonight. It was really nice to meet her and her and her wife seem really nice. I got to talk with them a little which was nice and I hope they cam get out more with our group. I really do like when I meat new people. It was about 9:30 and Lauri showed up so we had a good size group tonight, 10 in all.

It was also getting crowded now as people were coming in for karaoke and that is always fun although you really can’t talk anymore as it gets to loud. Now a lot of the songs sung tonight I have never herd or at least don’t remember so when the ones I know were sung I would sing a long quietly of course. Now I did get several compliments on my dress as it really did look good. I wish I had gotten a picture of me standing so I would be able to show off the dress but I didn’t think of that. Any way of course I would thank them and got into conversations with them also which really makes a fun night. Alice would have been so proud of me as I probably talked with at least 6 women there I didn’t know and had never met so much different from 10/15 years ago when I would go out and just sit and keep to myself and not make eye contact with people. It really is fun to interact with people.

This brings me back to another thing Kearren and I talked about, passing in public which is a question I get asked a lot. Both do I pass and for those who ask me this, thanks for the compliment, and also, I will get asked by others if they pass as they don’t want to go out unless they

pass. No, I do not pass in the way people ask or think. Yes, there are times, right lighting, distance, alcohol intake and so on when I do but I do not even come close to passing 100% and that is okay. For me passing means something totally different. If I can go out and not be bothered, not be made fun of, be treated as a female then I have passed. Passing to me is being accepted for who I am. Tonight here I passed 100% as always. I am always accepted here and treated as any other woman her and that is a great feeling. Now what will help you is being confident and by this, I mean acting like this is the most natural thing for you, like you are not doing anything wrong, the other big thing is smile and be polite, this goes a long way. Again, this is just my thoughts and views and that and $5 will get you a drink at Starbucks. Now the 3 pictures above were all taken right in a row with me sitting in the same position. The only thing that changes was the height and angle of my phone and I did try to keep the same facial expression.

It was a good night out and I ended up staying out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I paid my bill and called it a night and I think I was actually the first to leave. Wow the girls stayed out late tonight. Now I did go back through some old pictures and found one of me in the dress I wore tonight so this will give you an idea of how I looked but tonight I had curves. It really was a wonderful night. I do plan on going to Starbucks on Sunday and as I have Monday off I will be out in the morning and early afternoon. Not sure what I will do, maybe get together with some friends for shopping or lunch. I really do lov e this part of my life.

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May 28, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Monday and I am home from Diva Las Vegas

It is Monday and I am home from Diva Las Vegas; the week went but so fast but was so much fun. The girls from the Rose City T-girls that were there are, Cassandra, Julie, Susan (me), Veronica, Kate, (her girlfriend), Laura, Melissa (her wife), and Brenda so we had a good turnout. It was so much fun to spend time with them and we did so many fun things. But as with all things it must come to an end. Today I have a full day as Susan and then tomorrow, Tuesday I will have the morning and then around noon go to the nail salon to get rid of my pretty red nails.

Anyway, I didn’t have anything really planned and so I slept in as I was tired. I didn’t start getting ready till after 9 and it felt good. I took my time as I know I will soon be back to a couple times a week as Susan. Now once I was ready the first thing was grocery shopping as my fridge is empty. Now for this I did drive to a Safeway a few miles away that I don’t go to, even though I go to the Starbucks by my house that is only as Susan. Not willing to go to the grocery store near my house that I shop at as my male self. I got what I needed and then went home and put the groceries away. It is funny how even the simple everyday things are so much more fun as Susan.

Now it was time to go to Starbucks, I did pick the one at Cascade Station by the airport as I also wanted to go to a few of the stores there. I got there a little after 11am and got my computer out. Now I had several things I needed to do, write my blog from yesterday, go through all my pictures from the trip and then catch up on some work as I will have to go back to work on Wednesday and I am always behind after vacation. Now going through the pictures really took longer than I thought as I had over 100 which for 10 days is not that many. I wanted to post them to our group the Rosecitytgirls.com but as our web site has a limit on how big the picture can be I had to open everyone and resize them and then of course save them and for this I named them with who was in them. Very time consuming but worth it and son they were uploaded to our group, I hope our members looks at them and sees how much fun we had. I set them up in a shared folder so hopefully the other girls from the trip will also post theirs. Now it was fun and people came and went as I sat there on my computer working away. I was amazed when I realized it was almost 3, where had the time went.

I left Starbucks and went over to DSW to look at shoes. Now I am not really looking for anything but just fun to look. From here I went to Staples and again it was more just to look around. My next stop was Ross dress for Less, I spent a little more time here and tried on a couple cute dresses but they were just a little small. It really was more about just being out. My next stop was Best Buy again really to just look around, I like seeing the new computers. I left here and drove over to Target and went and looked at their makeup section. I am still looking for the one lipstick I like but looking online I don’t think they make the color I like anymore, and even worse looking online they don’t sell this brand within 25 miles of me.

It was about 4:30 now and I decided to go to get something to eat and my choice was the Wendy’s I have been going to. Now with traffic it took me almost 30 minutes to get there and, on my way, I had to go by the Toyota Dealership and have free car washes there so I stopped and ran my car through the wash before going to Wendy’s. They were pretty busy as I got there just a little after 5. I went in and ordered my food and got a table where I could watch the TV as they had Baseball on, the Dodgers game so I sat and watched the game as I ate. It was a little after 6 when I left.

Now it was what I should do, getting late on a Monday night and not a lot of options but I didn’t want to go home so yes you guessed it. I stopped by the Starbucks by my house as they are open 8pm. Now when we were on our trip Cassandra, Peggy and I stopped at a Starbucks and Cassandra used her cell phone to pay for her drinks and it got me thinking as I always use gift cards. So earlier today I put the Starbucks app on my phone and linked it to my gift card. So tonight, I was going to try it and it worked really well. Just showed my phone and they scanned the code on it and that was it. My drink was paid for. A lot easier then digging out the gift card. I can’t explain why I like going to Starbucks so much anymore than I can explain why I dress, I just do.

I stayed here till 8 when they closed just catching up on news and what is going on in the world as I was kind of out of touch while I was on vacation, just too busy. It was a relaxing day and a good way to wind down before my vacation comes

to an end. I will end with a picture on my pretty nails as they will disappear tomorrow at 1pm

Thanks for reading and be following me on my Diva Las Vegas vacation and be sure and see what’s new for Susan in my most recent blog.

April 25, 2018 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2018, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Thursday night at the nail salon

It is Thursday night and I am going to the nails salon for a pedicure and fill. Now I really don’t need one as both my toes and fingers look great still although my finger nails are getting a little long. This really is the one problem I have with getting my nails done with acrylic. I really could go 3 weeks between fills but they get pretty long by then at least for my male side. Even my pedicure held up well 6 weeks and no chips but it is all about timing. You see 4 weeks from today I will be back at Dream Nails for a pedicure and a full set of long acrylic nails for my trip to Diva Las Vegas. I got home and called Dream nails to get an appointment and Anna could get me in at 5 so I had about 1 ½ hours to get ready.

I took my time getting ready, I really like it more when I am not rushed. I know some people think it is strange to spend that much time getting ready just to go to the nail salon or a few hours at Starbuck’s and even I can’t explain it other than I enjoy it. Now I had my makeup done and still had time so I decided to wear my corset for the evening as I really do like the way it makes my waist look and really it is really comfortable other then in and out of the car and maybe a long drive in the car. I got to Dream nails just before 5 and went in, they were really slow tonight, only 1 lady getting a pedicure so Anna was ready to start. Of course, I had to pick a color for my toes, I went with a purple color this time.

Anna started on my nails and it is such a relaxing feeling to have someone do your nails. As she worked we talked a little. She asked if I wanted the deluxe pedicure tonight which I have done once before, as I said it was slow and Anna said it had been slow all week so I am sure they were looking for more services to do. I think it is that time of year as taxes are do in a couple weeks and also property taxes in a little over a month so people are probably a little tighter with their money. Any way I decided to go for the deluxe pedicure, $20 more but it is really relaxing. The main difference is they use a scented lotion and creams and even sent the water, I went with Lavender. They also put a cream on your leg and then wrap it in a hot towel for a while and also give your foot a paraffin wax treatment to soften your feet plus I think the message your legs and feet longer. Not something I would do all the time as it would get expensive but will probably do again in 4 weeks right before Diva Las Vegas and the same for the Cruise this fall.

As Anna did my nails another lady came in and she also got her nails done and was at the next table to me so we did talk a little about nails. It really is an enjoyable experience. I tell everyone you need to get a pedicure and acrylic nails at least once just to experience it and I got a feeling you will probably do it more often once you try it. Anna did a great job on my nails and soon they were just as pretty but a little shorter. Now it was time for my pedicure.

Kathy was once again doing my pedicure, Anna and Kathy always do a wonderful job as do all the people here and I have had several of them do my nails at one time or another. It is funny as I did come here a few times early on but I have been coming here every 2 to 3 weeks now for 2 years and I will have had acrylic nails now for 11 months although thinner than most woman and of course no pretty colors but they still look great. Now as I said I wore my corset today and sitting at the table getting my nails done was fine but sitting in the pedicure chair was not as comfortable, note to self when getting a pedicure, no corset. Kathy did a wonderful job on my feet and it was so relaxing, the deluxe pedicure is the way to go if you can. Normally it takes about an hour to get my fill and pedicure but it was closer to 1 ½ hours. Now partly because the deluxe pedicure takes longer but I have noticed that if they are busy then tend to rush a little more to get people through and this is just not Dream Nails but all nail salons I have gone to and I have talked to others and they say the same. If you do want to get your nails done my two tips, get an appointment and try to avoid really busy times. It was time for the polish and Kathy put the first coat on and as it dried it last all its shine, to say the least I was not happy at the color I had picked but I figured in 4 weeks I would change it. Kathy put a second coat on and the same and then the top coat. The top coat did put a nice shine on it and to my surprise it really looked great and really shiny, turns out it was a great choice. It was 6:30 when I left the Dream Nails

After my nail appointment went across the street to Starbuck’s as I had about 1 ½ hours till they closed and did some work and caught up on some e-mails. Some of the e-mails were questions I get asked from other transgender and non-transgender and probably the most asked is why I do this. There is no simple answer to this, I have talked with other crossdressers and there is no defining thing or moment in our lives we can point to and say this is it, this is why. We just do. Why do some people like chocolate and others don’t? why do some people like sports and others don’t? why do some men have facial hair and others don’t? why do some woman wear dresses, have long hair or nails and others don’t? In the end it comes down to personal preference and that is it. I am more comfortable this way even though when I am out I really am not thinking about how I am dressed. I really don’t know why, I do know that when I dress I do try to emulate what I find attractive in women. The other thing people think is I must be gay and from what I have learned most (75% or more) are straight males. Their dressing has nothing to do with their sexual attraction. As I said for me I try to emulate what I find attractive and for me that is the female body, shape, form, and look. Hair on a body, arms, chest is not at all attractive and I do everything I can to have a smooth clean body.

The other question is am I going to, or when will I transition an d the answer to that is I am not going to as that is not right for me. Now these are my thoughts and observations on these things and I am by no means an expert so remember that before you tell me I am wrong. Talking with both transsexuals and crossdressers there seems to be some common thing and things that are specific to just one. Both have a need to be feminine (or other sex depending on if you are MTF or FTM). The difference is about your body. Transsexuals need to physically be the other gender, they feel their body is wrong. Crossdressers need to present, be accepted as the other gender. From just looking at them you can’t tell as it is all about how they see themselves.

Now for me yes when I am Susan I would love to have real breast, hips, narrower shoulder, 5 to 7 inches shorter, no bulge between my legs but it is because of how it looks and how people see me, it is not about my body being wrong, it is the outward appearance. When I am not Susan I don’t think about it and is I did have real breast then I would be crossdressing the other way as when I was not Susan I would need to bind them down to hid them. Now I do know some crossdressers that have told me they would love to have breast and they would if they could but again there is that key words, love to have them not they their body is wrong or they are not truly who they are without them. It’s like saying I would love to have a million dollars and doing what I can to get it, verse having to have a million dollar to feel you are complete. The way I look at it is if I won 10 million dollars tomorrow how would my life change. For me I would dress as Susan most of the time, pierce my ears, have long acrylic nails and maybe even grow my hair out, surgery not something I would do. A transsexual the first thing on their list would be surgery. Now this is a simple way of looking at it and there is more to t than this but it is a good start and what I have learned.

Wow got a little off topic but that’s okay. Starbucks was a little slow tonight but a relaxing time while I gave the polish on my toes time to fully dry. After Starbucks I went through the drive thru and then home. It was a relaxing 4 hours.

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March 18, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Thoughts on Crossdressing, why men crossdress | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Thursday night trip to the nail salon

Okay first I did get out for a few hours last Sunday evening to Starbucks to study. I spent about 3 hours at the Starbucks by my house, no computer just my books. Any way on to today. I have been going to the Nail salon on Fridays the last few times but this week I would not be able to get there till probably next Tuesday which was my plan as my nails still looked good. Well till Tuesday night. I seem to have hit my nails just right and broke off a piece of the acrylic. funny as I didn’t break the nail just some acrylic. I was able to fix with some OPI nail envy which is a nail strengthener and goes on a little thick. It kind of covered the sharp edges but just didn’t look right so I decided I needed to go get it fixed. I got home late about 4:30 and called Dream Nails to see if Anna could fit me in, she always manages as I really think most people just show up and don’t call for an appointment. Any way I had a 5:30 appointment so I had 1 hour to get ready and get there, only a couple minute drive so I would be.

I got there just before 5:30 and only had to wait a couple minutes for her to finish with someone else. I really do like my trips to the nail salon as it is so relaxing. Anna started on my nails and yes, she had to remove the acrylic on the nail I broke and redo it. She did a wonderful job as always. They were a little busy as there was a young girl sitting next to me just finishing up on her nails and 3 woman getting pedicures. Any way about 6:20 I once again had beautiful nails although shorter. Now I am already thinking about Diva Las Vegas which is coming up fast. 6 weeks from today I will once again be here at the nails salon to get my acrylic nails for the trip 11 days and yes, they will be longer and a pretty color.

After the nail salon I went across the street to Starbucks till 8 to work on my blog and do a little studding (very little). It is nice as I have been coming here so regular most of the workers know me by name and I am getting to know some of their names. I walked in and Alan the young man working tonight welcomed me by name and asked if I wanted my usual hot chocolate which I did. It really makes you feel welcome when this happens. I know it is all about customer service but it still feels good. It is funny as I never went to a Starbucks before the first time I did as Susan and even still I think I have only been there 3 or 4 times when I am not Susan, kind of my girl thing to do. But I like coming here so much last year I bought stock in Starbucks.

It was about 8 when I left and drove over to Burger King as I was hungry, I went through the drive through and then went home. Again, a funny side note about 15 to 20 years ago a big night out for me was to take a late-night drive, after 11pm and then if I could work up my courage a quick trip through burger kings drive through.

Not sure if I will make it out this weekend as I have family stuff to do but next week I am once again on vacation and hope to get out several times. I really can’t explain why I like going out as Susan but I do.

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March 1, 2018 Posted by | Dream Nails, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Friday and the start of my vacation

Okay, it is Friday and I am now on vacation, I have some vacation time I have to use and some things I need to do around home and of course some Susan time. Now I have done these vacations like this last year and it was a good excuse to get my nails done in a pretty color. The only problem is gel polish is not easy to get off quick and with family issues I didn’t think that was a good idea so it will be the same color Wedding dress again. I got home from work at 4 and the first thing I did was call Dream nails to get an appointment for a manicure and pedicure. Anna said she could get me in at 5:15 so I had an hour. I started getting ready right away and I was ready and out the door right at 5 so I would be a little early to my appointment.

I got to Dream nails just a few minutes later and they were busy, there was 1 lady getting a pedicure and 3 young girls, probably high school age getting their nails done and 6 other girls about the same age waiting. I was glad I had an appointment. Well Anna was running a little behind so I had to wait till almost 5:30 which was okay. A couple other ladies came in and left because of how many were here, seems they were a little short-handed tonight. Now all these young girls were getting full sets of acrylic nails and they were all excited about it which I can understand.

Anna finished up the lady she was working on and it was my turn so I sat down and Anna started to work on my nails, she asked if I wanted the same color and I so wanted to say no I wanted red but I know something could come up short notice with family and I would need to be able to switch back fast. I did tell her I didn’t want them shortened. Now I know at the end of the week I will have to file them down as they are rather long now at least for my male side. Anna removed the old gel polish and did the fill with acrylic and then it was time for my new gel polish, the young girl next to me had her nails in an oval shape and rather long and put a silver glitter polish on them. They were really sparkly which I told her and that they looked great although I am not a fan of the glittery nails. I am more the traditional reds or pinks, even the one odd color on the middle finger is not something I like. I am not saying it is ugly just not what I want even though it is really popular these days. I like the same color on all my fingers. Soon I had my beautiful nails again and it was time for my pedicure. Some of the young girls finished with their nails and others took their spots to get their nails done and the ones that were finished waited, I guess they were all together. More woman came in and some left because of the crowd others were willing to wait. It was a good night to people watch.

Anna did my pedicure tonight as all the other nail techs were busy and they had people waiting. I picked Pompeii Purple tonight which is really a pinkish red and very pretty, I usually do this color during the summer as it is a great summer color. It was so relaxing to sit there with Anna messaging my feet and legs and the chair messaging my back, worth every penny. It was a little after 7 when I was ready to leave and they still had 3 ladies waiting, so much for a 7 pm closing time.

I left the nail salon and thought about what I should do as I didn’t want to just go home and I was kind of hungry so I drove down by the mall to get a burger. Now as I drove I kept thinking about my nails and how much I wanted red for the week. Now Julie all the time gets gel polish and then she has regular nail polish put over the gel for color. I even thought about this at the salon but they were so busy but I regretted not doing it. Anyway, by the mall there was a nail salon that had an open sign so I decided I would go in. I got there right at 7:30 which was their closing time but they had a few ladies still in there and the one lady said she would do my nails. I guess you don’t turn down a paying customer, so I went and picked out a really bright red and sat down. Just for polish is only $6 what a bargain. 10 minutes later I had beautiful red nails. I sat there another 10 minutes to let them dry so I wouldn’t mess them up before leaving just before 8.

Now it was 8 and I new the Starbucks by my house was closed, most Starbucks close between 8 and 9 so I decided to go up to Mill Plain as there is a Starbucks that is open till midnight. I got there about 8:20 and wow they were packed. I parked and looked in and it looked like about 25 young people inside but it is a bigger Starbucks so I grabbed my computer and went in. I was wrong I bet there were 40 or more young people inside. I walked in and it was quiet as I walked up to the counter to order my hot chocolate. There was very little talking going on but I just minded my own business and ordered my drink. The young man behind the counter was really nice and one of the girls complimented me on my makeup and nails which I love. Any way I made the comment that they were really busy tonight which surprised me as you don’t think of a coffee shop as a place to go on a Friday night. He said yes but it is just the first Friday of the month, they have a big group of young deaf kids that come in. any way I ordered my drink and turned to walk to the 1 open table in the corner and no one was paying any attention to me.

I sat down and took out my computer and caught up on e-mails and wrote my blog for tonight. It was so awesome to see my red nails as I typed. It stayed busy till about 9:00 when some of the people left but there was still probably 20 people here and the drive through was no stop. It was a relaxing evening. Now I am looking forward to the coming week, I have some stuff to do around home and I plan on getting out as Susan, I need to find a new purse. I am going to get together with Peggy on Tuesday for lunch and some shopping and also Mikaela on Friday for some shopping. May see if some of the other girls want to get together. It will be a fun week and yes, I will probably get to Starbucks several times also. Tomorrow night we will have our dinner downtown Portland which will be fun and of course I will make the Wednesday night dinner. Okay 1 quick picture of my pretty red nails, so wish I could have them all the time.

Around 9:30 it got really busy again probably 30 or more people were inside again. I guess Friday night is the night to come to this Starbucks. I stayed here till about 11 before heading home. When I left there was probably still 30 to 40 people still here at Starbucks. I made a quick stop at Burger Kings drive through before going home. It was a good night out.

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February 2, 2018 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night outing

It is Wednesday and I am going to get to go out tonight for dinner with my friends. I got home and of course the most important thing was I needed a manicure. I called Dream nails and got an appointment for 5, so looking forward to this. I really love going to the nail salon. I started getting ready taking my time to enjoy it. As I got ready I had the big issue of what to wear and how to do my makeup. Normally I would wear a dress and heels to go to dinner but I am also going to the nail salon first. Well I settled on a black skirt and sweater top and my high heeled boots although I did go with the red lipstick.

I got to the nail salon just before 5 and went in. they were not busy, just 1 lady getting a pedicure. Anna was ready for me so I sat right down and she started on my nails, it is such a relaxing experience. She removed the old gel polish and got my nails ready for the for the new acrylic to fill in. She asked me if I wanted them shortened and of course I didn’t but I knew I needed to so I told her yes. It is always sad when she uses the grinder to make them shorter. She also fixed the nail I broke the corner off of and soon she was putting on the new acrylic. now she has been using a pink acrylic which gives my nails a slight pink color, it would probably be more if she put it on thicker but she does a thin layer. Now it was time for the gel polish and Anna asked if I wanted the clear again and I said no I wanted the color wedding dress which is a slight pink although with the pink acrylic is does have more of a pink color. I really do love the way my nails look with this color of course I would much rather have a bright red. Maybe in 2 weeks as I will be on vacation. Anna put the first coat on and then the second coat and yes, my nails have a slight pretty pink shade. Now I know some people have noticed but only one person has ever said anything, but a lot of the woman I work with are taking way better care of their nails and several now have pretty long acrylic nails. I guess they just don’t want a man to have better looking nails then they do. It was about 5:40 when I was all done and on my way with my pretty nails.

Now Julie had taxed me earlier and she is also going to dinner tonight so I am going to pick her up so I was on my way to her house. I got to her house a little after 6 and she was already. It was great to see her again as she had been on vacation to Australia for 3 weeks. I was looking forward to hearing all about her trip. Now there was a lot of traffic so we got downtown just before 7. We were having dinner at McMenamins tavern & pool, the group has gone here a couple times before but it will be my first time. I really like going to new places.

Melissa and Cassandra were already there. It was good to see them again. Barb also showed up so we had 5 for dinner. Now I do like the bigger group outings as it is always fun to see a lot of girls out but it is harder to talk with all and also when we are at the bars it gets loud. These Wednesday night dinners are a lot of fun as having smaller groups you can really have good conversations which all can be involved in and it is not loud so you can easily hear what is going on. It might just be to many times to bars. We ordered dinner and had a wonderful time. It really was a wonderful night out. We also talked about our Mexican cruise in October of 2018, if you have ever thought about going on a cruise be sure and check out our web page for more information.

It is amazing how fast the night went by and soon it was 9:30 which doesn’t sound that late but I get up a little after 4 am in the morning and it will be at least an hour to get home and in bed but it is so worth it to go out with my friends. Saturday most of our group will be going to Salem to go out with the girls down there, I won’t be able to make it so I will go to the Escape at least for a while for dinner and to see if anyone else stays local.

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January 18, 2018 Posted by | Dinner out, Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Just a relaxing trip to the nail salon

Okay it has been over 2 ½ weeks since I got my nails done and they still look awesome, they have a little grow out but as the polish I have is a very light pink and not real noticeable you really can’t tell unless you look closely. I was tempted to wait but they are getting a little long and well I have a couple chips now on my toes so I need a pedicure. I was actually hoping to wait for a little warmer weather but I decided tonight was the night. It was about 3:45 when I got home so the first thing was to call Dream Nails and see if I could get in. Now over the last few times I have gone I have had Kathy and Anna both do my nails and they both do a great job and that makes it hard as I don’t know who to ask for as I don’t want to offend either. I decided to just call and see who I get. Now it was Anna who answered the phone and I just asked if I could come in at 5 for a fill and pedicure. Anna said that was fine, she would do my fill first and then one of the other girls would do my pedicure. Now with an appointment I started getting ready.

I was ready by 4:50 and was on my way. I got in my car and opened the garage door and then noticed I forgot my ring and bracelet so I just got out of the car and went back inside to get them leaving the garage door open. Only took a couple minutes and I was back in my car and on my way. I got to the nails salon right at 5 and went in. They were pretty busy so it was good I called and got an appointment. I still had to wait about 10 minutes for Anna to finish up the lady she was working on. Now I can tell it was cold today as usually when I have come here I would say 60% or more of the woman are here for pedicures but not tonight. There were 7 women getting their nails done and none getting pedicures. The other thing was all but one were getting a red color, I guess red is the color for Christmas. Now I was a little sad as I so wanted to get red on my finger nails for Christmas. As Anna finished up the lady she was working on she asked if I was getting both a manicure and pedicure and I told her yes as I needed one. She said she needed one too but didn’t have the time. I talked with her a little as Anna finished her nails.

It was about 5:10 when it was my turn and I sat down to have Anna do my nails. She asked how they held up and I told her wonderful, I really liked the job she did last time. I told her I almost waited but was afraid if I missed tonight it would be another week till I could get back. She looked at my nails and told me they looked fine and I probably could have gone another week and I really could have its just they were getting a little long. Well Anna started on my nails grinding off the old gel polish and getting them ready for the fill. We chatted about Christmas and if we were both ready for it which by the way we are not. It was just a really relaxing experience that I so enjoy. Now I had already picked out the color for my toes which is a medium red color with little sparkles in it as I figured that would be a great color for Christmas. Anna asked me if I wanted the same color on my fingers which I really did but I knew I couldn’t so I told her I would do the same color I did last time Wedding Dress.

Now with the acrylic on my nails she asked if I wanted them shortened, Again I wanted to say no but that was really one of the reasons I came in tonight. Anna shortened them and then shaped them and got them all ready for polish. Now she didn’t shorten them as much as she did last time so they are still a little long for my male side and I am guessing if I go more than 2 weeks they will be really long. I went and washed my hands and came back and Anna had my gel polish on her table and also a clear polish with sparkles in it and told me that would be a great polish for the Holidays. Well I just stayed with the polish I have been getting. It took about 45 minutes and my fingers were done and looking beautiful. It was now time for my pedicure.

Soon I was sitting in a chair massaging my back and my feet in nice warm water. It was so wonderful. A few more ladies came in and again they just wanted their fingers done so I was the only one getting a pedicure. Kathy was going to do my pedicure so I had to wait a few minutes for her to finish up the lady she was working on. Soon Kathy was working on my feet and it felt so wonderful. There really is something wonderful about going and getting your nails done. Another lady came in and it turns out she wanted a pedicure so I was no longer the only one and she was actually seated right next to me. I am not even sure how but soon we were talking about our nails and how much we like pedicures. It was really nice. I never even

thought about how I was dressed or who I was, I was just another lady at the nails salon and that was how everyone treated me. I mean I have talked with people here before but usually just a few comments but tonight I had a nice conversation with the lady next to me and even talked with 3 other ladies while I was here. T was a wonderful evening so far. It took about 45 minutes for my pedicure also and soon I had pretty red toes. I moved over to a table where I could put my toes under a fan to dry the polish for a few minutes. It was almost 7 when I was done and ready to go. Here is a picture of my pretty toes.

I left the salon and wow was it cold outside, by the time I got to my car my feet were already getting cold. Tonight, is not the weather you wear flip flops in. I got in the car and was planning on going to Starbucks for an hour to let my toes finish drying but I got the heater going and didn’t want to get out of the car and go into Starbucks as I knew my feet would get cold again so I drove down to Jack in the Box and went through the drive through before going home to a nice warm house. It was wonderful and relaxing couple hours. I would encourage everyone to get a manicure and pedicure at least once just to see what you are missing. If you don’t have a nail salon you go to I would recommend trying Dream Nails, they do a wonderful job.

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December 15, 2017 Posted by | Manicure & pedicure, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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