Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

July Fourth and some Susan time

Happy Fourth of July everyone, I hope you have a safe and happy one and as we celebrate today and celebrate our great country and the freedoms we have, remember those freedoms cost some people everything. We have more freedoms here than in any other country. I hope you all cherish what we have and not willing to give them up. Once you lose a freedom it is hard to get back.

Well I have today off work and am going to a BBQ at 4 but that leaves me the morning and early afternoon free so I am going to exercise some of my freedom and spend a little time as Susan. I got up a little after 7 with the hope of being ready by 9. Now for some reason I was slower today maybe because it was the morning and I really had no place I had to be so I took my time and enjoyed my time getting ready. I was ready a little after 9 and looking cute. I chose to wear my black leggings that come down to the upper calf, sandals, a maroon top and of course as this is more of a tight fit, I put on some hip pads to widen my hips and my corset to take in my mid-section. It really does give me a bice shape and other then being slightly taller I blend in well this way and yes, I did put my fake nails on to complete the look. Now as it was a little later, I decided to go right to Clackamas Town Center and do a little shopping as I think they open at 10 and that should be just about the time I get there. I was right on as I was pulling into the parking lot right at 10. I parked by JC Penny’s and went in.

I really had nothing I was looking to buy just looking but was hoping to find a nice dress. I checked out their shoe section first and then over to the clothing. They only had a couple of dresses and they were petite sizes and that just wasn’t going to fit. I guess this time of year is not a big dress time. I wondered out into the mall and did some window shopping and went into a couple other stores but more just to pass some time. Eventually I made it to the other end and Victoria Secret and I went in. I pretty much go here every time I am at the Mall as Susan but I bet I have only been in Victoria Secret 2 or 3 times as my male self and once was to get fitted for a bra. I looked around and a young lady came up and asked if I needed help. I told her I was looking for my favorite bra it is called So Obsessed and they don’t have them in the store anymore so she showed me one similar to it but it just didn’t look or fee the same. It is funny as I have bought many bras and never really gave it much thought till I found this bra and it is just so comfortable and with the padding I really don’t need anything else. I had originally bought 2 of these and back before diva Las Vegas during their buy one get one free sale I found them on line and bought 4 more so I am good for a while but as of now they are still available online. I left and walked back through the mall and left it was a little after 11 now.

Now on my way home from here I go near the Cemetery my Dad is at so I decided to stop there but first a stop at Fred Meyers to pick up some flowers. There is one just down 82nd Ave a mile or two so that is where I went as I also needed a new lipstick and some snacks; I need to bring to the BBQ later. I spent about 15 minutes here shopping and getting flowers and then I was off to put flowers on my Dad’s grave. I have come here several times with my Mom and other family but whenever I have come here by myself it is as Susan. My Dad never met me, or new about Susan the daughter he had but I like to visit his grave as Susan I guess in a way it is my way of introducing her to him.

I got to the cemetery about noon and there were a few people there but it is a big place so not really that bi of a deal. I parked and walked to his grave site and put the flowers down. There were a couple woman sitting on benches that I passed but they never even looked at me. Now it was a nice day and while I was here the 2 ladies left so I went and got my computer and sat on the bench a little way from the grave site and wrote out my blog from last Saturday night. It was a little after 1 when I left and headed for home well not home but the Starbucks by my house as I haven’t been there for a while.

It was about 1:45 when I got there and went in., they were a little busy but they had a table open by the windows so I sat my computer on it and went and ordered my drink. One of the girls behind the country greeted me by name and said it had been an asked if I had any plans for the 4th. I just told her a BBQ later and she said it was good to see me again as sit had been a while which it has. I have gone to many Starbucks over the years and have always been treated wonderful at all of them. I got my drink and sat down and posted my blog I wrote earlier and then just caught up on some e-mails and other thing I needed to do on my computer. Really nothing I couldn’t do from home or as my male self but it is just so much more fun and relaxing to do this at Starbucks as Susan. I got a couple selfies at Starbucks in the car.

Well I kind of lost track of time and soon it was a little after 3 and I need to be at the BBQ at 4, luckily, I am less than 5 minutes from home and it will only take me 5 minutes to get to the BBQ so I still had time. I got home about 3:20 and removed my nails, hair, clothes and the corset and right into the shower to wash away all traces of Susan. It was a fast turnaround and yes, it is a lot faster to be my male self then Susan. I got to my BBQ as my male self-right at 4. It was a fun day but I was sad I had to change from Susan so early and I wonder what everyone would have thought had I shown up as Susan. That won’t happen but it is fun to think about.

Thanks for reading and be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what is new with Susan.

July 7, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping, T-girl, transgender | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Friday and a full day of Susan

Ok I have all day Friday free so it will be a Susan day although I will get a late start. Last month on my vacation when I went shopping with Peggy for the day we had stopped at Nordstrom’s
MAC counter and found out they were doing a beauty event this week. Well any way yesterday I called and set up an appointment to get my makeup done, they are kind of mini makeovers about 30 minutes and as I waited so long the only time I could get was noon. So that would be my first stop as they just wanted me to do my foundation and nothing else so I was not about to go out looking like that.

I got ready and I did my eyebrows also so by 11 I was already, trust me looking in the mirror and just having foundation on and nothing else was not that flattering. It may work for woman but not for me. I got to Nordstrom’s at Clackamas at about 11:45 and walked in very conscious of how I looked. I went straight to the MAC counter and checked in and they were ready for me. Now they had chairs set up and I got to sit right in front of the counter almost in the door way coming in from the mall facing the mall, about as center stage as you can get. The young lady who helped me was named Moani and was very nice. She asked me what I wanted and I really had no idea so I just told her a nice look for going out tonight and she took it from there. Now it is an interesting experience as I had another woman sitting to my right and a young girl to my left, she was 11 and her mom brought her in for the makeover. Moani started on my eyes and did a really nice job kind of a subtle Smokey eye look that really could be for day or evening. She then did some contouring on my face and some highlighter and then my lips. Moani was very pleasant and talked to me the whole time. It really was fun. She finished about 12:30 so a little over the 30 but it was great. I did buy the highlighter set. As I liked the way it looked on me and I felt I should buy something for the experience. Moani was awesome as were all the girls working here, I would highly recommend them if you need some MAC cosmetics or just some help or advice.

Moani told me to come back any time and also asked for my phone number and said she would put me in her contacts and let me know when they do these events again. I looked really good and I thanked her. Now as I was at the mall I walked out into the mall and looked around for a while. I went into several stores including Victoria’s Secret but didn’t buy anything. It really was just window shopping today as the reason I went here was to get the makeover. I left the mall a little after 2 and wanted to get closer to home and beet the traffic. On the way back, I did stop and get my car washed as it really needed it and also went and got lunch at the Wendy’s I have been going to and yes once again it was all females working today.

After that I went to the Starbuck’s by my house, I got there a little after 3 and they were busy. The only open table was in the corner by the door with the high seats which I don’t like as I like to be able to put my feet on the ground. Being the only table, I took it and figured I would move once one of the other tables open up which it did about 15 minutes later so I picked up my stuff and moved.

Now on a side note as you all know one of my neighbors found out about Susan several years ago in October of 2012, wow doesn’t seem like 5 ½ years ago, and she has been fine with it and has never brought it up and all the times I have left or come back home she has seen me many times in my car but she has never brought it up and always treated me the same but I have sometimes wished she would bring it up and ask me any questions she has. Or maybe we would get home one time at the same time and she would see me in person other than just in the car or that brief few seconds I was on TV but that is all it has been. At least till know.

As I was moving my stuff to the other table there she was, she was in Starbucks getting a drink. I heard her say high Neighbor so we talked for a few minutes as she waited for her drinks. This is the first time she has seen me this close in person. Turns out she had just got her nails done at the salon next door to Starbuck’s, I use the one across the street. Any way we talked a little while longer before she headed home. As she was leaving she told me I looked really good which made me feel good. You know the funny thing is it felt perfectly normal to be talking to her and I really wasn’t even thinking about how I was dressed. We were just two neighbors talking. After she left I wondered if I should have told her not to tell anyone about this side of me as she does know my parents who as far as I know do not know about this side of me but she has known my parents for several years now and I am guessing if she was going to tell them she would have by now.

Now I was back to my normal time at Starbuck’s and I got out my computer and caught up on some e-mails. I worked on my blog for a while also. I really do like writing my blog as Susan while I am out. I will probably spend a few hours here at Starbuck’s and then will figure out what I will do for the rest of the evening. If I do something more today I will add to my blog for tomorrow as I plan on going out Saturday night also.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what is new in Susan’s life on my most recent blog.

March 9, 2018 Posted by | mac, makeup, Nordstrom's | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 7 Comments

Shopping trip with Laura Michaels

Well today I am going shopping with Laura Michaels. I have gone shopping many times as Susan but almost always alone so I am really looking forward to today. I got up and got all ready took extra care with my makeup, eyes didn’t turn out as I had hoped was going for a little less, New wigguess I still need work on my daytime look. I also decided to wear my new wig. I am still not sure of it but maybe just because it is a new style. Laura and I were meeting at Barns & Noble at 11 and as I was ready early I figured I would just get there early and go to the Starbucks and do my blog for last night.

I got there just before 10 and went in and got my drink and then sat down to do my blog. the lady at the next table told me how cute my shoes were. I had worn my pink and white tennis shoes today. Well I did my blog and soon it was almost 11 so  took my computer out t my car and then went in to meet Laura.

Laura was already there so we headed out into the mall. Shopping with someone else is way more fun several times we just stopped walking to talk a little. As we walked down the mall this man at a kiosk selling face creams called us over, he remembers me every time I am at the mall. Well he tried to sell Laura some of his creams and I was kind of funny as he did the same thing to me a couple years ago and talk about a hard sell. He started off at $400 and then started throwing in all these free gifts if she would buy it. by the end he was down to $189. The tip is never take their first offer. any way Laura finally convinced him she would think about while we shopped. I felt bad about it but was just glad it was her and not me.

We continued down the mall talking as we walked. now coming here today I really wanted to go into Victoria’s Secret and see if Erika the young lady who helped me yesterday was there. Well I wasn’t paying attention as we walked as I was really enjoying talking with Laura and soon we found ourselves in front of Victoria’s Secret and Laura wanted to go in. Erika was there and asked if we needed any help. I asked if she remembered me which she said she did and asked if I liked my bra. I told her I did, I really do by the way. It is the most comfortable bra I have ever worn. I have had it on now for 8 hours now and still feels like I am not wearing it, the material is so soft and the straps don’t dig in. I know it was expensive but I am seriously thinking about buying a couple more in different colors. I guess sometime it is worth the extra money.

Well Laura asked her a couple questions about bra’s and Erika offered to fit her also and soon Laura was off getting fitted and I was left to wonder around the store. Now as I was waiting I had a chance to just look around at all the styles and colors. This really is a wonderful store and it would be easy to spend a lot of money here. This kind of store is one reason I am glad I was not born a girl as I would have spent a lot of money here. I am not sure how long it took Laura I am guessing about 30 minutes. It did seem longer today than yesterday but then yesterday it was me having all the fun. Well It was worth it as Laura also made a purchase here today. So today it was Laura walking around with her Victoria’s Secret bag.

We continued down the mall talking the whole way. It is funny, being here with someone else you really don’t notice other people, or even how you are dressed you are just two friends out shopping. We got down by Nordstrom’s and stood there talking for a couple minutes before walking in.

Laura wanted to check out the cosmetic section well okay we both did but she also wanted to get color matched for foundation. we went to the MAC counter. I had told her about the Studio Fix foundation I wear as it has really good coverage which I need. One of the ladies was right out to see if we needed any help. This is so nice as we were treated like any other woman there both here and at Victoria’s Secret. I wish I could remember the young ladies name that helped us but she was wonderful. She tried maybe 9 different shades till she found the right one. I am sure Laura was enjoying it and actually so was I.

Once she found the right shade she asked if there was anything else she needed or any questions. Laura asked about eye makeup and before we knew it she was doing her eyes then blush, she actually by the time she was done had given Laura a complete makeover and redid all her makeup. now while this was going on the lady who had helped me on Monday saw me and came over and talked to me. as a matter of fact she came over several times to talk to me and see how we were doing. The ladies who work here at the MAC counter at Nordstrom’s are awesome. She did all this work and it was never a hard sale or even a push for her to buy anything.

when she was all done she asked if Laura was interested in any of the products she had used. She explained what each one was for and how to use it I even learned a few things just watching. Of course Laura did buy some of the makeup but the amount is between her and her MAC makeup artist. Now even I bought something also a primer to try as she said it would help the makeup look smoother. So we both left Nordstrom’s with a MAC bag. it was now about 2 pm we had been in Nordstrom’s for well over an hour, wow how time flies when you are having fun.

We went to the second floor and worked our way back till we got to the food court and decided to get something to eat. WE had a nice lunch and just sat there and talked. it was really nice to get to know her better. It is fun to go out with the group but these little one on one outings are awesome as they really let you get to know the other person. so much of our lives we keep secret but you really do find out who they are even without knowing everything. This really doesn’t make since unless you have gone through it. I may not know the details of who they are but I learn who the person is what makes them who they are if that makes sense. It was funny as we were talking about so many things but a lady at the next table heard part of our conversation and said she didn’t mean to be eavesdropping but she had heard part of what we said and agreed and for the next 5 minutes or so we had a nice conversation with her.

It was now after 3 when we finished and we decided we should leave as we were both going to get caught in traffic. We walked back to Barns & Shopping at Clackamas Town Center (1)Noble talking. We were almost there when I notice a girl taking a picture of her friend and I thought wow I need a picture so I had Laura take a couple pictures of me. and of course I took a couple of her and sent them to her. Of course you can see my MACShopping at Clackamas Town Center (2) bag in my hand. It really was a fun day and I so enjoyed having Laura to shop with. We said our goodbyes and were on our way.

Traffic wasn’t as bad as I thought and I was home by 4 well almost. I decided to stop once again at the Starbuck’s by my house for a warm drink and to write this blog. It has been such a fun day and I just don’t want to see it come to and end. it is hard to believe it is Thursday already and my vacation is almost over. I am not sure what I will do tomorrow but I will defiantly be out tomorrow night.

Thanks for reading and I hope you al have as good of a day as I did.

February 18, 2016 Posted by | Nordstrom's, shopping, victoria's secret | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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