Friday evening with my friends.

Well it has been another long and busy week so I was so looking forward to tonight and spending some quality time with my friends as Susan. It really is amazing how just getting ready as Susan reduces my stress. Someplace online I saw the statement that crossdressing is hard on you and complicates your life and I guess to a point it does but that being said there are so many good things about it that makes it all worthwhile. One of the hardest parts was learning how to do my makeup; GG’s (genetic girls) grow up from a young age and get lots of practice and help from their friends, sisters or mom. I on the other hand had to learn it all on my own as I have never told anyone. The most complicated part is keeping the two sides separate; it really is like living a double life. Like anything worthwhile though it is all worth it as I truly have the best of both worlds. Think of all the wonderful things we have today, it is all because someone put in the hard work to find them or create them. Just because something is hard does not mean it is not worth the effort.

Well it is official; I could not get time off this year for Diva Las Vegas so I will have to miss this year. It is sad but I am already looking forward to next year and making plans. I will miss seeing the wonderful ladies I have met there and of course the not being Susan for a whole week and no acrylic nails although I am sure I will find a chance to get them done at least once this year.

Well I got all ready to go out to the P-Club with my friends. Today was really nice and sunny and when it was time to leave it was still really light out and my new neighbor across the street was out washing his car. Now I have not met him yet so I had that going for me. I opened my garage door and as he turned his back to me I pulled out and onto the street just as he turned back. I know he did not get a good look but I am sure he saw what looked like a woman driving my car but as I said I don’t really know him so he will probably just thing she was my girlfriend or wife. With the nice weather and longer days now this will be more of an issue. It was nice having 3 vacant houses by me but not anymore as they are all full.

I got to the P-Club and found a spot in front and went in. Cassandra, Chris and Samantha were already there so I joined them. We talked for a bit and I broke the news to Cassandra I could not go to Diva Las Vegas this year, I hope she still goes. Well I was hungry so I went up and ordered some food from Nicole and wondered if she would say anything about me being there last night in male mode or had she even realized it. She gave no indication she knew I had been there so it was good. As a matter of fact I said hi to Cindy and also Paul who had also been there last night and no sign they knew either.

Veronica showed up next which was nice as it has been awhile since she has made it out on a Friday night because of work. It was nice to sit and talk with her; she even showed us a picture of the truck she is driving now. Several of the girls from our group are now driving truck which is good as they are working but it cuts into their time out with the group so any time they make it is wonderful.

We had a good turnout, maybe 15 to 20 girls from the group which is good as it hard for some girls to get out before it gets dark, yes Crossdressers tend to be more of a night people. I remember years ago I would never leave my house before 10 pm as it had to be dark and late so people weren’t likely to see me. It is a shame because I think we are more worried about what others think then they really are.

Olivia Brooke’s friend from last week and I guess my friend also now showed up with her friend Sarah, I knew she would be there and was kind of watching for them but never saw them come in but turned around and they were playing pool. Guess I am not very observant. Anyway I went over and talked to Olivia and met her friend who is also really nice. We talked for a bit and then I let them get back to their pool game. A little later I went back and talked to them, Sarah was wondering about some of us who had rings on our fingers, she said they looked like wedding rings. I explained some of the girls were married and others were just something they liked to wear. Now I do were a solitaire ring and yes it is on the second finger so it does look like a wedding or engagement ring. I have never really given it much thought why I wear it there other than that is the only finger it fits on. I also think it helps me feel more feminine it also I hope will keep men from approaching me but in the flip side it may be why woman also don’t approach me. I may have to think on this more.

There were two GG’s that walked by us and smiled. Now I did smile back and wave at them which was good for me as I am still working on being more outgoing. Cassandra on the other hand walked over to where they were sitting and just started talking to them, wow I need to really be more like this. Well I also went over and talked to them but it was really because Cassandra did it first. They were pretty awesome and thought it was great we were there and if this was what we like to do that was great.

Well it was getting late and Nicole was leaving for the night so I just had to know so I went and asked her if she had recognized me last night. She let out a big, “that was you, Cindy and I were trying to figure out who you were since you kept calling us by our names”. She said when I left and stopped right in front of her and said good night she was thinking I was one of as she put it her girls. So what I took away from this is if I had not called them by their names I think they would not have realized it was me.

Well it was time to leave and Olivia and her friend Sarah needed a ride home and since they only live about a mile away and pretty much right on my way home I offered to give them a ride. I would never let someone I know walk that far at 2AM in the morning, male or female just not safe. It was nice to have someone to chat with even for such a short distance. It was a fun night and I look forward to next Friday.

I should make it out to Starbuck’s this week either Tuesday or Thursday so I have that to look forward to also. Thanks for reading and have a great week.

Friday night with my friends 3-16-2012

Well it was Friday night and after missing the last two I was so ready to spend time with my friends. It is strange as going for a while without being Susan is hard but I really think what I missed most was spending time with my friends. It is amazing how much a part of my life they have come. I really think I have closer friends as Susan as I can be myself with them and yes Susan is a big part of who I am. Don’t get me wrong as my male self has some good friends but I have to hide such a big part of my life from them. In a way it would be so cool if everyone knew about all of me. I know I will never be able to just walk up to one of my friends and say, “hey guess what I like to do on Fridays, I dress up as a woman and go out”. The girls that can do that have way more guts than I do. But I really believe that I hope they will find out and I say this as I use to never leave the house before dark and if I did I would wear sunglasses and leave my wig and lipstick off till I got away from my home. Now I still look out the window before leaving but I leave all the time fully dressed while still light out so if any of my neighbors are outside or looking out their windows they are going to see me which leads me to my next question. If they have seen me would they come up and ask me about it or just keep quiet. I guess it is possible they already know and don’t know what to say to me either.

Well for Friday night I did get out a little earlier than normal and made it to the p-club by 7:15 and got the last parking spot on the street right in front of the door. Walking in Nicole was behind the bar and I said hi to her, she is such a nice person. Cassandra, Bobby, Chris and Robyn were already there so I joined them and my night began. It was truly relaxing to be out with them again. I ordered their Chicken basket for dinner and we sat there and ate and enjoyed a little girl talk. Cassandra asked me about Diva Las Vegas and I still can’t give an answer. My odds of being able to go have improved but still lots going on at work. I am still really hoping I can make it, I have not signed up yet but really must by April 1 so I guess that is the line in the sand for me.

Well by 8 others had shown up, Kristy, Kelly, Samantha, Maya & Victoria. A couple men that have played shuffle board with us before came over and wanted to know if we would like to play, Victoria and Cassandra were the two that played and of course they won the game. It is nice that some of the regulars will interact with us even to the point of approaching us first; it really makes us feel like we are part of the bigger group there. It was great to see Maya out again and had to get some pictures. A friend told me I needed to try a sexy pose rather than just standing there so I did and got a picture. Well it turns out I need a lot of practice at posing so instead of that picture here is a way cuter one of me and Maya.

Later on Jenn, Trisha and another girl showed up. They have a MTF support group at the Q-center on Friday nights and Jenn always stops in afterwards to spend time with the group. We all sat at a table for awhile and just talked. Jenn and I talked for awhile, she has come a long way since she first e-mailed me last fall. She is going out a lot more and has told most of her family about Jenn. It really is cool the friends we meet online, it is a shame that we did not have the internet and e-mail when I was younger as it really does make it easier to meet people.

Later on Brooke showed up on Brooke time, a little joke between those who know Brooke and Brooke. Now as a crossdresser I have never once said anything to a GG I was dating about how long it took her to get ready as I know firsthand it takes time but Brooke is the exception, it can take her 3 hours or more and a lot of it is trying on different things to wear. I even think most GG’s would think she was taking too long but what is important is she made it out. She had a GG friend of her which was going to meet her there, turns out she had been sitting at a table about 20 feet from us reading a book for about an hour waiting for Brooke to show up. Anyway Brooke introduced her to all of us, her name was Olivia. She seems really nice and totally okay with the transgender thing.

Later on we wanted to play shuffle board so Jenn & Kelly played Olivia and me at Shuffle board. It was a good game and Olivia and I took a big early lead but in the end Jenn had a couple good shots and in two turns got 17 points to win the game. Now I am not making excuses but Olivia and I did have the blue pucks so they didn’t match my red nail polish which was distracting for this poor blonde plus I had bumped one of my nails getting out of the car so it was loose. Very hard to play when you are worried about a loose nail coming off as that would be disastrous. The good news I made it the whole night without losing the nail, I am such a girl to worry over this. Towards the end of the bight I had a good chance to talk with Olivia, she is really nice. We had a good conversation and I found out about her boyfriend and past boyfriends and even shared some about my past girlfriends. It was like to girlfriends talking and sharing their feelings. I think that is one of the greatest things about Susan as my male side is not a big talker and does not like to share feelings or talk about relationships past or present. As Susan I am more able to open up.

It was a really fun night with only one bad point. One guy who likes to hang out with our group and play pool, (not part of our group thankfully as he can be very annoying) had a little too much to drink and had to be escorted out. The bad part is when the bouncer got him to the door he set his drink on the floor and the bouncer went back to get his umbrella the guy kicked the glass like he was kicking a foot ball and the drink and glass went everywhere and as such a small scuffle broke out between them. A couple of our girls got some of the drink on them and even one got hit in the back with some of the glass, no cuts though. But as such the bouncer called the police which he had to. Well as we were leaving Cassandra and I apologized for his action and it was so nice to hear them tell us it was not our fault, they knew he was not part of our group. Our group always acts well there and tries to be upstanding ladies when we are out. I guess there will be issues and this is the first since we have been going there which has been almost 2 years. Just glad it was not one of our members.

Well we actually stayed till 2 am which is the latest we have been out in a long time but also made me one tired girl as I got up for work this morning at 3:45. Bed will feel so good tonight.

Well I probably won’t make it out this week to Starbucks but will be out again next Friday. Have a great week and thanks for reading.

Friday night the 13th out with friends.

Well it has been a really busy week for my male self so I was really looking forward to Friday night and spending time with my friends. I did make it to Starbucks Thursday night but these were the only two nights I had opened this week. I was able to start getting ready just a little earlier so I was ready to leave about 6:45. One of the nice things about the P-Club is I am only 20 minutes or less away and really don’t have any bi traffic issues getting there. I got there at 7:15 and there was no street parking and only a couple spots in their parking lot so I grabbed the one closest to the door and went in. inside they were a little busier than normal but not enough to explain all the cars. Cassandra and Chris were already there so I joined them. The night was going great and even the whole day had been good. I have never figured the whole Friday the 13^th thing out but then again I am not a superstitious person male or female. We sat and talked for a while and soon others T-Girls started to show up.

I went up to the bar and ordered some food; I had eaten pretty well all day so I went for the Chicken strips as I was really hungry. This also gave me a chance to talk with Nicole for a few minutes. She is one of the bar staff and just so awesome. She was all excited as she is leaving on vacation in a few days and will be gone for two weeks. She is going down to Belize to get some sunshine and warm weather. I am sure she will have a blast but we will all miss her the next couple Friday nights.

Now our group was really starting to grow, I would guess we had 20 to 25 there and had a blast. Even Jan and Lynn made it which was a surprise as they both had to work late, Jan did come in boy mode. This is something I have yet to do. Funny as easily as I go out as Susan I am still scared to go in boy mode even though I know it would be fine.

Olivia also made it out as she was in town. She also came as her male self. I have met her a few times over the last couple year. She doesn’t get out much as her wife is totally unsupportive of this side of her. It was nice to talk with her and get to know her a little better. I remember the first time I met her at Embers. It was her very first time out and she was so scared, reminded me so much of myself. I think I spent most of that night chatting with her. I really hope she can work things out as her female side is just as much who she is as her male side. I hope she comes out more with the group when she is in town.

Mindy was also there, she is a GG I met a little over a year ago. Now here is the soap opera, Mindy was there with her fiancé Andrew, his ex-wife and her boyfriend and also Mindy’s dad. Mindy is such an awesome girl and very supportive of us T-Girls. It was funny as the first night I met Mindy she had come to the P-Club with her boyfriend at that time and Maya. Now Mindy has always been a cowgirl and that night Maya had talked her into wearing a dress and heel. Turns out that was the first time she had ever worn heels and a dress so several of us spent the night helping her learn how to walk in her heels. It was such a fun night. Any way tonight she had on a really cute black dress and these awesome boots with 3″heels and she was walking around like she had been walking in them all her life. Just goes to show you can learn a lot for a T-Girl. Mindy and I even played a game of shuffle board which was nice as it gave us a good chance to talk. I won of course but then Mindy had never ever played.

After Mindy and I played shuffle board Her Fiancé’s ex-wife and her boyfriend wanted to play but didn’t know how so they asked me to explain the scoring and help them. So I was like the referee at the shuffle board game as they played. Really it didn’t take them long to figure it out but I stayed and watched the game which took a while as they also had never played and didn’t score many points at a time.

Brooke was out again which is so nice as for a long time she was unable to get out. I know firsthand how hard it is to want to dress and go out and not be able to. Just think of something you really like to do, something that make you really happy and relaxed and then imagine not being able to do that. It is the same way for t-girls. It was nice to chat with her as she is also going through a rough time. I think that is why our group is doing so well as having a support network and friends you can hang out with and talk to is so wonderful and important.

In all it was an awesome night as normal and a great way to end the week and start the weekend.

Thanks for reading and hope to be out again this week at Starbucks.

Diva Las Vegas is about 100 days away if you are thinking of going not too early to start planning. Still waiting to see if I get vacation but I am hoping as I really want to go back again this year, so much fun.