Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Happy Labor Day, little Susan time early

Happy Labor Day everyone, I hope you have a safe and happy holiday weekend. Okay first thing my nails are driving me crazy, I can’t tell you how much I miss my acrylic nails. Now I know part of the issue is my nails are thin from having and removing the acrylic but they just keep breaking, cracking and getting little rough spots on the end where I have to keep filing them shorter. A few are so short I have trouble filing them and yet they still crack. They look bad and feel bad. I really need to go to the nail salon but my time is limited and I really do want to give them a chance to grow out. I really do notice women’s nails more now as I am so jealous especially when I see long pretty red nails. Don’t get me wrong I love long nails but there is just something about a red color on nails that looks beautiful, yes red is my favorite color. Well on with the blog.

As I said with my parent’s health issues it is really hard for me to get out and especially go anyplace to far from home as I keep waiting for a call which I get a few times a week but so far nothing to serious. The other thing is my brother is coming to town more now which is nice but he stays with me so I always have to put Susan away now, for the last several years Susan has been spread all over my house. This weekend was no exception as he came up Friday evening and left Sunday late afternoon so there was n o chance to get Susan time yesterday for my Sunday evening out. But there is still a little bright spot as today is Labor Day and as a holiday I have it off although my family and friends think I am working so I have a few hours in the morning and I am going to take advantage of it.

I got up at 6 am and started getting ready as my plan is to go to Starbuck, the one a little farther from my house that I have also been going to as my male self for a couple hours and then go to a couple stores not to far away and do a little shopping, maybe grab an early lunch and then finish it up at the Starbuck’s by my house. It took me about 1 ½ hours to get ready this morning, shower shave, makeup and dressed. It took a little longer as I am a little out of practice also I wanted to try something new I saw online. As you know from my last blog I had bought a new foundation that was a little to dark / orange for me so what to do with it. I had seen a YouTube video of a lady who mixed a little foundation in her body cream so I decided to give it a try. It actually does work really well although a little tricky to get right. I think my mistake was doing 1 leg at a time as I think a got a little more foundation on my left leg so it tools a little work to even it out but my legs look awesome, smooth and tan, really tan so I did the same to my arms. I think I have found a use if I ever get the wrong foundation again. It was about 7:30 when I left home and got to Starbucks a few minutes later, yes not the one by my house but still less than a mile away, I actually have 4 Starbucks (one in a store), a Peets coffee and a BlackRock coffee all within a mile of my house.

Now I have gone to this Starbucks a few times as Susan and 4 or 5 times as my male self and they are never busy inside as they have a drive through. Kind of funny as this one is half again as big as the one by my house that does not have a drive through. Any way they have never been busy inside as everyone goes through the drive through. I think the most I have seen sitting inside is 6 or 8 so being an early morning on a holiday I figured. Well I was wrong when I got there, there were probably 15 people inside at tables. I went and ordered my drink and then got my table and computer out. Now even with the drive through people still came in and got drinks to go. I guess Starbucks is the place to go in the morning. I did take a quick selfie in the car before going in. now they were busy most of the time I was here a few times it got down to maybe 8 other people but never less than that. I stayed here till a little before 1 before leaving and going shopping. It still seams funny as I have a day to sleep in and I get up early to get some Susan time in. By the time I left here there were 25 to 30 people inside, only 12 small table open.

My first stop was Target as I wanted to look at their makeup and see if I could get a Maybelline foundation that better matches my skin. The last one I bought I did as my male self so it was pretty much grab and go. I am still not comfortable buying Susan stuff as my male self. It was a little after 10 and I was surprised they were not busier. I took my time looking at all the makeup as I really do enjoy looking at all the stuff. After that I went and picked out a warm beige color foundation and a darker foundation stick for contour and then it was up to the checkout. My next stop was Burlington coat to look at shoes as I have found some cute ones here before but no luck today. My final stop was Walmart and really here I just looked around, clothes and makeup and even some electronics. It was about 11:30 when I decided it was time for lunch.

I drove to the Wendy’s I was going to, haven’t been there in probably a month. I went in and yes still all ladies working here, a couple times I have been here when there was a male working but never more than 1 at a time and not very often. They were not busy at all as I had the place to myself. I got my meal and went and sat by the TV so I could watch golf, long drive competition. An older couple came in and they sat at the table next to me. The man accidently spilled his pop while he was onloading the tray of food. While he was getting another drink and telling them about his spill the lady asked me what I was watching as it looked like golf so I explained it was a log drive competition and we chatted a little. It was kind of nice. I left here about 12:30 and headed for the Starbucks by my house to finish out my day as I really only have till about 2. I got there and they also were a little busy 4 people at the tables outside and 14 at tables inside. There were a couple tables by the window so I set up my computer and went up and ordered. Usually the window seats are open as in the summer you get a lot of sun so warm and bright on the computer screen and in the winter a little cool. One of the things I like about the other Starbucks it the floor plan is just the opposite so at least you don’t get the bright sun through the window. I ordered my drink and then sat down and played on my computer including writing this blog. It still amazes me how busy they are during the day as there was always a steady stream of people coming and going. I stayed here till 2 before heading home to clean up and go back to my male life.

Not sure when Susan will, get out again as brother and other family are planning on coming up over the next couple weeks again. I am guessing if I do get out it will be a spur of the moment opportunity. Thanks for reading and be sure and see my most recent blog to know what’s new.

September 3, 2018 Posted by | Holiday, Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Another busy week as we get close to Christmas

Wow it has been a busy week again and no time for Susan. I was looking forward to tonight and my normal Friday night out but I was so tired when I got home I thought about not going. I actually sat down on the couch to rest and watch a little News before getting ready which was probably a mistake as I awoke at 5:50 when a friend called me. I had slept about an 1 1/2 hours but I was still tired. I thought though I needed something to eat so why not go to Sweethome for dinner and just not stay out late.

So after my phone call I jumped into the shower at 5:55. Now I did rush tonight as a matter of fact I did not look at the time again till I was in my car. Now what takes time for me getting ready is when I over think everything, how to do my makeup, how I want my eyes to look, what colors, what shoes, what hair, what dress. girls have so many choices and SusanI love that. Tonight I just went with what I felt like, no second thoughts or changing my mind and it actually turned out really well. I did get a few selfies but no pictures of my outfit which was my grey sweater dress.

I got all done with my makeup and dress, grabbed my computer and got into the car. As I pulled out of my garage I looked at the time and it was 6:28, I think this is a record for getting ready. start to finish in 30 minutes. well as I drove away I noticed I forgot my nails, yes they were still sitting on the counter in the bathroom. I thought about going back but decided not to as this was going to be a short night.

I got to Sweethome and Chris was there playing pool and there was actually a pretty good crowd for this early. Well I ordered dinner and got out my computer for a while. Dinner came and it was really good as always. I finished my dinner and the figured I would catch up on a few things online before going home at 8 but Sarah showed up. she has not Susan & Sarah (1)been out in over a year so we got talking and of course I just couldn’t leave. I don’t think Susan has ever gone out with her friends and said this is when I an leaving and left at that time.

Michele and Roxy also showed up tonight so we had a good turn out. It was a fun night and I really enjoyed the girl talk

Karaoke started late tonight about 10:20 so we listened to a few songs and then both Sarah and I decided to call it a night. yes I could have fell asleep right there at the table. We went up to the bar to pay our bill and ended up getting in a conversation with a man and woman there. They were really nice but they did have some questions which I never mind if the person is not trying to make a joke of it. we talked with them for a while. they have met Transsexuals and understood that but were curious crossdressers as we both told them we only lived part of our lives as woman.

I think this is harder for people to understand as it is easier to understand someone who feels they were born the wrong sex and needs to correct that and live their life as who they truly are inside. Where corssdressers live part of their lives as the opposite sex, its not so much their body is wrong it is more the appearance and emotional need to express this side of themselves.

well we finally paid our bills and Sarah left. I stayed for one more karaoke as Angela was singing a song I really like. It was about 11 when I left, I guess I really overstayed past my 8 time but it was such a fun time and I really do need my Susan time. I need to be able to express my Susan side, go out as Susan and have fun. She is a part of me and I cannot dismiss her or deny her any more that I could cut off an arm. she makes me the person I am and without her I would not be the same person.

It is funny as I hide her from so many people for fear of what they would think and yet she is a big reason I am who I am and the reason these people like me as she is always with me even if she is not visible.

well thanks for reading and have a great day

December 12, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Holiday party 2014


Well tonight is our Holiday party that Julie and Trixie are hosting for the second year at Trixie’s house. They are such wonderful people and I am lucky to count them as friend or should I say family as that is more how I feel about them and the friend I have in the group. Well I wore my red and black dress tonight as I wanted to look my best as I knew the other girls would also have on beautiful dresses. It is funny how I can get so excited about how I look and what I wear as Susan, I can see why woman can get caught up in a completion to look the best and that can be okay as long as you keep it all in friendly completion which we all do. And I was right there were so many pretty dresses tonight and it is always so fun to see all the girls dressed up.

I started getting read early something my male side would not do and spent extra time on my makeup to look my best. I was ready and on my way by 6:15 as the party started at 7 and my timing was perfect as I was walking in the door of Trixie’s right at 7. There were already about 10 girls there and I was right all had on beautiful dresses and looked great so I guess we all won the contest to look the best. The first thing I did was to get out my camera and start taking pictures as I wanted to do my best to get a picture of everyone who came to the party.

Well right from the start I had to get a picture of Julie and me, she also had on a really pretty dress as you can see and yes turns out my dress was shorter which I had to remember all night long. Isn’t our hostess just lovely?

The house was lovely inside, so beautifully decorated and there was so much delicious food out. I got a little to eat and then with my camera in hand set out to get pictures. In all I took almost 50 pictures and I hope I got everyone. This also gave me a chance to walk around and talk with the girls.

Now these types of home parties are wonderful for that as you can get a chance to talk and get to know each other better. It is funny as Julie and I were talking in the kitchen for a long time about that. So many of these girls I consider my closest friends and yet I don’t really know a lot about them. Some, most I have never even seen in male mode.

Julie and I wondered what each would be like in our male side, would we be different, act different and what about all the other girls here, how would they be? Now we both agreed we would like each other and everyone else, either way and most likely we would talk about the same things we do now. I can just see a bunch of guys sitting around talking about makeup tips, nails and nail polish color and dresses.

Now this got me thinking about myself and the differences and there are differences but not the way most would think. Probably the biggest difference I jewelry, as a man I hate jewelry, I don’t even like wearing a watch, but as Susan I don’t feel right without bracelets and a ring and sometimes a necklace and if they didn’t leave marks on my ears earrings. Yes I want to get my ears pierced but not sure how I would handle it when I am not Susan, as I said in my male life earrings don’t interest me. Now this may not seem like the biggest difference to everyone but I classify it that way because there is really no explanation for this one. The other differences I can explain.

Now as Susan I am way more relaxed and yes more comfortable as Susan and I am more outgoing as Susan. As my male self I have an introvert personality, I keep to myself and I don’t let people get real close to me and although I wouldn’t call Susan an extrovert but she is a lot more social and loves going out with friends and meeting people. Now these may seem like a really big difference but in fact it is because of the way I live. In my male life I am always worried people will figure out about my crossdressing and how they would react. As Susan I don’t really worry about this as I know people realize I am a crossdresser. I wonder if others feel the same way.

Okay one more picture, this is Victoria and me, she had on a pretty long green dress. I got a chance to talk with Brenda for a while about Diva Las Vegas. She is not sure she will be able to go this year which is a shame. I still haven’t heard for sure I can go but as of now I am planning on it, I figure at the very least I can go for most of it.

Kim also was able to make it for a little while, she had on this beautiful blue skirt with a black top and chain belt, she looked beautiful as always. It was such a fun night and it went by so fast. I had planned on leaving at midnight but before I knew it, it was 12:30 I thanked Julie and Trixie for a lovely time and for all they did.

Now I was giving Rose, Cloe and her boyfriend Michael rides home as they are not that far out of my way. It is nice to have others in the car to talk with for those late night drives home. What a wonderful way to end a wonderful year. Thanks again Julie and Trixie

May you all have a Happy and safe New Year!

December 28, 2014 Posted by | Holiday, Party | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Holiday party so much fun

Well tonight was our 2013 Holiday Party, Trixie and Julie opened there home tonight to host our party this year. This is me and one of our beautiful host Julie and I really want to thank them both for such an awesome night.

Well the party started at 7 so my plan was to leave home by 6 as that would give me time to get there in case I got lost so I started getting ready at 4:15 as I wanted to enjoy my time getting ready. Well it actually took me till 6:20 to be ready to leave but I think the time was worth it. Well it worked out just right as I arrived right at 7.

Now remember I have never been here before and it was dark outside so I parked on the street and walked up to the house pretty sure it was the right one but you really never know till someone opens the door. Well I rung the door bell and as I waited I thought back to the first winter gala we had when Marla and her date went to the wrong house as Kathy and Mandie’s neighbor was also having a party that night. I was so relieved when Laura opened the door.

Laura had on this beautiful full length dress she got at Nordstrom Rack. It was so pretty and she got such a good deal, I must go shopping there and see what I can find. I had to get a picture with Laura. Well I got inside and there were already a lot of people there. The house was so beautiful inside and so much wonderful food set out.

Inside I talked with Trixie and Julie our hosts for a few minutes and thanked them for hosting our party, it is nice to have parties like this as it gives us all a chance to talk and get to know each other better or catch up on what is new with our friends in a more relaxed atmosphere.

Well I walked around for a bit and talked with the girls that were there and I know I am going to miss people and I appologise now if I leave you out. Cassandra, Teresa, Petra, Sophia, Lorna, Sarah, Cristine, Bobby, Stephanie, Victoria, Peggy, Jennie Jan, Lynn, and Amber were already there. I talked with Cassandra for a little while in the kitchen before I went into the living room to sit for a while, yes I had my 4″ heels on which I love and are very cute but they are not made for being on your feet all the time and I knew if I wanted to keep my shoes on all night I would have to take breaks. Peggy was in the living room which was awesome as it gave me a chance to talk with her. She doesn’t get out as much lately so it is always good to spend time with her. Next time I need a pedicure I will have to see if she wants to go with me. Well we talked for a while and got caught up on what is new.

Mikaela showed up and brought her girlfriend Lucy, this was the first time I have met Lucy and she seems really nice and is totally accepting of Mikaela. It was nice to talk with her and get to know her. Well Mikaela, Lucy and I walked out to the garage where Julie and Trixie had a pool table set up and several girls were playing pool plus a few were watching basketball.

Well Laura was out here so we had to get a picture of the three of us, me on the left, Mikaela in the middle and Laura on the right. We actually took a lot of pictures as all three of us had camera and wanted picture so poor Lucy was handed one camera after another as we got pictures. We probably could have just taken one set and e-mailed them to each other but it was fun to pose for the pictures.

We talked for a while then I went back into the house and got some food which was so good and went over and sat on the couch and talked with Peggy, Teresa and Victoria for a while. All the girls looked so good and most of them had on Black dresses, it was almost like someone sent out an e-mail to wear black but then again a classic little black dress is hard to beat.

Well Kim showed up which was awesome and I was really looking forward to seeing her tonight one of the reasons I picked the dress I did as I wanted to look pretty for her and she also had on a black dress and heels and looked so pretty. I just had to get a picture with my sweetie what a cute picture and a cute couple we make. Well we went into the living room and sat and talked with Peggy, Chris, Roxy, Victoria & Teresa for a while it was so fun, just sitting around having good conversation. We talked about New Year’s Eve and what we should do and we decided we would go to Sweethome that night to ring in the New Year. I am looking forward to it although I probably won’t make it to Midnight. What better way to bring in the New Year then with friends. Now Kim had gotten up really early this morning so she didn’t stay late so when she was ready to leave I walked her out to her car which she had had to park down the street.

Later on Victoria Sinclair showed up with several girls she did makeovers on, she runs Over the Rainbow Transformations. She is actually doing some transformation videos for online so she also had some of the crew doing the videotaping there. This is why Kim had gotten up so early today as she is doing the hair for the video so I guess she is a movie star now. Victoria had on a really cute dress and her hair was perfect and yes my Kim did her hair. Rose, Diane, Cassie, Samantha, Sasha, Brenda and I now there are more I have missed were there.

Now I had planned on only staying till midnight and of course we all know how well that worked. I got talking with Peggy and Julie and the time just passed so fast and before I knew it, it was after 1 am. Well it was time to go and I told Samantha I would give her a ride home so she didn’t have to take a cab as she lives pretty much on my way home. Well I didn’t get home till about 2 am which is way later then I had planned to be out but it was such a fun night, I can’t thank Julie and Trixie enough for doing the party. We are lucky as we have people in the group that will do this for us such as Cassandra and Peggy, Kathy and Mandie, and now Trixie and Julie you are all awesome friends thank you.

Now I must include one more picture, Mikaela took this of me trying to look sexy Just can’t seem to pull it off but still a cute picture. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a safe and Happy New Years.

December 29, 2013 Posted by | Christmas, Holiday | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Out on a Sunday night

Wow I don’t normally get a chance to go out as Susan on a Sunday night but being a holiday weekend and no work on Monday the thought was there. while I was thinking about this I got a text from Cassandra, her and her wife Peggy were thinking of going to CC Slaughters for the drag show at 8 and wanted to know if anyone was interested. Well you can imagine how long it to me to text her back I was in. I was trying to think how long it has been since I have gone to CC’s on a Sunday night for their Drag Show, the best I can find is two years ago so I am way over do.

Cassandra and Peggy were going to be there at 7 to get us a table, so that was my goal even though I knew I wouldn’t make it. I did pretty well as I was parking my car downtown at 7:20 helps getting there earlier as parking is easier. I only have to walk about a block in a half. I got inside and they were nit that busy yet. Cassandra and Peggy actually had two tables as we had more girls that said they were coming. Amy, Teresa, Jan, Lynn & Cristine were also there so we had a good little group already considering it was a Sunday of a Holiday weekend and we had only decided to do this a few hours ago.

The show didn’t start till 8 so it gave us a chance to talk which is always fun. It is funny as my male side is not a big conversationalist but Susan loves to sit around and talk. It was great to see Peggy out again and we had a good chance to talk. We both need pedicures for the summer so we talked about going together and decided on Saturday June 8 if something doesn’t come up between now and then. Now I love going and getting a pedicure and if you have never had the experience you really should but going with someone else just masks it that much more fun and special so I have that to look forward to.

As it got closer to show time CC’s got busier and of course more of our group showed up. Bob, Cassie, Petra, & Phaedra all showed up. It is so great that Petra is getting out more with the group. She actually made it to Diva Las Vegas this year for a couple day. It was also wonderful to see Phaedra, I can’t think the last time I saw her but it has been a while. Our group has grown so big so fast which is awesome but the one down side is with so many in the group it is easy to lose track of people until they show up and you start thinking how long it has been. Any way it was great she was there and that I got a chance to talk with her.

Well the show started about 8:15 and by that time the place was packed, it really was good we got here early and got seats as it was standing room only. It was so crowded it was hard just to move around. I guess people really do love a good Drag Show and this one is awesome. They only do it one night a week but it is by far the best in Portland. So if you are ever in Portland on a Sunday night and like Drag Shows you really need to go to CC Slaughters, no cover for the show but even if there was it would be worth it.

The show was awesome as always and the 3 main Drag Queens, Bolivia Carmichales, Honey Bee Hart, & Ginger Lee are just wonderful and do a great show. It is amazing how fast the night went. It was soon after 10 and Peggy and Cassandra had to leave, I figured I would stay just a little longer and before I knew it the show was over and it was after midnight. Jan, Lynn, Crsitine and I were the last of our group and the place was still packed. It was such a fun night out. Well we all walked out and said our goodbyes. It is good I don’t have to work tomorrow.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend!

May 27, 2013 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Happy New Year to all

Well it is the start of a new year and I hope you each had a fun and safe New Years Eve. I had not planned on going out for New Years as I had to work late and of course had to work early new Years Day but as luck would have it I got off early so had time to get Susan ready and figured I could at least go out for dinner plus I could think of no better way to end the year than with my awesome friends.

I got to Sweethome by 6:30 and went in and there were already several girls there and more showing up all the time. Cassandra and Peggy showed up, this was the first time Peggy has been to Sweethome so that was cool; she also had on this really cute dress and some awesome heels. It was nice to see here out again and have a chance to talk with her.

I had a nice dinner and spent some time with my friends for a couple hours. The bar gave us all cute little hats to wear for New Years. It was a fun night and I was sad I could only stay till 8:30 as I know they all had an awesome time. It has been a really fun week.

Actually Saturday night some of us got together at Cassandra and Peggy’s home for a going away party for Victoria. She is leaving this coming Friday for Thai land as she is going to have her SRS surgery which she has been waiting for and dreaming of for a long time. I really have met some awesome friends over the past few years that I would not have met had it not been for my Susan side of my life. I really do have a wonderful life and I look forward to what my life holds in the future and I am sure Susan will be a big part of my life.

I really think this is what makes our group such an awesome group is we are all a little different and have different needs and wants out of life but we all share a common bond, the need to be feminine. Victoria is fulfilling her dream and transitioning and I have my dream of living part of my life as Susan.

I wish you all a safe and Happy New Years and May this year be the best yet, may you all find joy and happiness in your lives.

Hugs to you all!

January 1, 2013 Posted by | Holiday | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Last Friday of the year with my friends

Well it has been another long and busy week for my male side so again no midweek outing, it has been a month sense I have been out to Starbucks but then the holidays can do that. I had an awesome Christmas with family coming to town and yes that means all traces of Susan had to be hid away. it is funny as over the last year going out so much and as I live by myself Susan’s stuff has kind of mingled with her male counterparts stuff where I use to be really careful to keep them separate. I was really worried I might miss something and someone else would find it, actually I did but I was the one who found it first. It was a lot of work hiding everything for a couple of days plus it felt like I was getting rid of Susan as least temporarily which was not a good feeling. It gives on perspective as I know Susan is a big part of me and will never go away just like my male side. It was nice though to spend the time with my family and I guess the few days of Susan being locked away was worth it. I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful Christmas and got time to spend with family and friends as that is really the best present you can get.

Oh and here is just a little side note, one of the girls in our group has opened a restaurant and bar called Tiger Lily located at 1109 Washington St. in Vancouver, WA 98660, her name is Jackie Stone and I just wanted to give her a little plug here to help support another T-Girl who is starting a business. I have not been there yet but hope to soon but several of the girls from the group have gone and all say it is really good and very comfortable so if you are in Vancouver Washington please check her place out and once I go there I will let you know my thoughts.

Well as I said it was a busy week so I got home late which means Susan had to rush to get ready which is okay on occasion but I do really like the fun relaxing time getting Susan ready. It was almost 7 when I left home so I got to Sweethome about 7:30 so being later than normal I had to park out on the street, I parked right behind another car which turned out to be Laura so we walked in together. Amy, Cassandra, Chris and Roxy were already there. Well it turns out Levi the bar tender is sick tonight so Jodie was working; now here is the funny part. I have met here on many occasions here and even got pictures with her but did not know she worked here as Friday night is her normal night off so she has come in as a customer, I guess we do learn a little more each day.

There were two women playing video poker and chatting with us as our table was right next to them well after they finished they came over and asked if they could join us. Their names were Jennifer and Maria and they were just awesome and they thought we were pretty great too. They actually hung out with us all night long.

Well more of our group started to show up and again we had a great turnout including some girls that don’t get out mush. Well I had ordered dinner and was eating when I almost fell off my chair as Melissa and Heather walked in, they have not been out with the group for a long time. We have kept in touch on facebook and the occasional text but well the last time I saw either of them Melissa had shaved her head and as you can see from the picture her hair is almost down to her shoulders now, Melissa is the one on the left side of picture. It was so awesome to see them again. It was wonderful to talk with them and catch up on what is new; yes facebook is great for keeping up with friends and so is e-mail and texting but nothing is as nice as sitting face to face and talking. I think that is the one bad thing about technology is we are losing the personal connection between people. Don’t get me wrong as technology is great and does give us a lot of advantages as through my facebook and this blog I have met some awesome friends around the world that I would never have known if it was not for the internet but if I ever won the lottery I would love to travel sand meet them in person. Any way Heather was commenting that she hasn’t added any new pictures to her facebook page and yes I will send her the above picture but what a great excuse to have another picture taken, yes Susan like most T-Girls love to have their picture taken.

Well by 9:30 the bar was getting busy but with the Holiday not overly busy but it was a fun night. It was finally time for Karaoke and several of our group sang and did a wonderful job. Blue also showed up and of course came over and talked with us, she is one of the Karaoke group and that group has been so wonderful to us here. We talked for a bit and of course I had to find out how things were with her and the guy she met a couple weeks ago you know girl talk.

Well it was getting late and most of our group had left, Jennifer and Maria also left but said they would be back again on Friday nights so hopefully we will see them again as they really were fun. Kelsey one of the girls who comes in to sing came over and talked with us, I have met here once before here but this was the first time we have really talked. She was also really nice. She is the one who wanted me to sing with here awhile back that I told her I would the next week as that night she had had a little much to drink and I figured she wouldn’t remember the next week. Well again tonight she asked me to sing with her and I promise next Friday I would but tonight she had not drank as much so I may find myself singing next Friday. We will see.

Well we all paid our bills and put our coats on and were ready to leave when another woman came over to talk to us, she just wanted to tell us how nice we looked and how you don’t see woman dress up like we were as much anymore. What a nice compliment and of course we all thanked her and exchanged names but as I had another blonde moment I can’t recall here name. Now on her comment about woman not dressing up as much anymore I just want to clarify that that is okay. For us T-Girls we get a limited amount of time dressing so we are willing to put in the time and effort, but dressing every day this would be a lot of work. Even with going out about twice a week for the last few years if you add all the times I have ever dressed as Susan it would probably only be about 2 years of dressing if I did it every day. So for me it is still fun and exciting to try the different looks, makeup, dresses and heels. Most girls get this dressing by the time they are in their early teens. But all that matters is that one is happy with whom they are in life and live their life the way they want to.

Thanks for reading and may you all have a Happy and safe New Year!

December 29, 2012 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night before Christmas with friends

Well I would like to start off by wishing everyone a Merry Christmas as this will be my last blog before Christmas. I know not everyone celebrates Christmas and if you don’t please just skip over this part.

Well it has been another long week and Susan could not get out during the week so I was really looking forward to tonight and spending a fun Friday night with friends. It is funny how much I look forward to this especially if it is the only night that week that I can be Susan. With the holidays, work and Family right now precious little time for Susan buy any time is better than no time.

I started getting ready a little early as I wanted to be to Sweethome early. Cassandra and Victoria talked to our attorney Beth Allen and had information for us, they are our two contact people in the case we have against the P-Club. I got to Sweethome by 6:30 and Chris and Samantha were the only ones there. It really wasn’t long before others from our group started to show up. I had forgot tonight the Karaoke group was doing a rocky horror picture show theme not that I have anything I could have worn for that any way. Actually I have only seen the movie once way back when I was in High School. Their group started to show up and almost all the girls had corsets on and even a couple of the men, the girls looked awesome. I have a red corset but it is not a really good one, maybe I should see about finding a black one that fits right.

Well the six of us that are involved in the complaint with the P-Club were finally all there so we went and sat at another table and Cassandra and Victoria went over what Beth our attorney told them and I am not going into details on this as it is open case but the case is proceeding and the group is in agreement on how we want to proceed which is taking our attorneys advice which only makes sense in a case like this. I am still a little nervous about having to give my real name when this goes to court but it is something I feel I have to do as this is too important to not take a stand. Any way we talked about 30 minutes and then joined back with our group.

The club was getting packed by now which is always so much fun as everyone there is always so nice and friendly. It really is a great place to go for an evening out. Chris had brought little gifts for everyone in the group which was so sweet of him, thanks so much Chris you are an awesome friend. We all sat around and talked and had a wonderful time, even Roxy stayed till midnight which for her is late.

Michelle and Kim showed up, Michelle has been coming out so much lately and it is so wonderful to see. She was our groups Member of the month this month as she has been so active with the group. Kim also came which is always wonderful as she is so supportive of all us girls and just so much fun to be around. Her and Chris were going to sing a Karaoke song together but never got a chance. We really do have a wonderful group of friends in our group. Heather from the Karaoke group came over and hung out with us for a while; she really is nice and had on this really cute corset in black.

Well karaoke was going and Chris sang of course and did great as always. Blue came over and was talking to me; well it was her turn to sing so she talked me into going up with her to sing. Silly me thought I would just be in the back singing behind her but it turns out they had two microphones so we were both singing. It was a little scarry6 but I did have a fun time and I would never have done it on my own. We sang “Sitting on the dock of the Bay” which is one of my favorites and as such a song I actually know most of the words to.

It was a really fun night and even a couple of our group dressed for the Rocky Horror picture show, Jan and Cristine both had on French maids outfits and looked really good. Everyone had such a fun night and as always the nights go by so fast. Soon it was 1 am and time to leave, well those of us who were still there. We said our goodbyes and wished each other Merry Christmas. What a fun night.

Thanks for reading

Have a Merry Christmas, Happy Holiday and be safe.

December 22, 2012 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

The night before the night before Christmas at the P-Club

Well I kind of stole my blog title from a Hallmark Christmas movie I watched the other day about a young boy who wishes his family could have a real family Christmas together. I thought it was fitting as that is what our group had last night; our little family got together and had a wonderful time. Peggy baked Christmas Cookies and brought them for everyone and they were really good, Thanks Peggy. We even did a gift exchange, those who wanted brought a gift value was set at $3 but it wasn’t about the gift or the dollar amount it was the thought and the fun of giving. I think that is what makes Christmas so nice, sharing time with loved ones.

Well I took a little extra time getting ready tonight as for me the getting ready is so relaxing and just as much a part of being who I am. I know that may be hard for some to understand especially woman who have do their makeup every day and have for years but I look forward to the getting ready just as much. I guess it is kind of like an artist, they enjoy the creating of the painting as much as the finished painting. Now I realize if I was living full time and doing this every day I may have a little different look on it but probably not. Any way it was fun as I had the Christmas music playing which is probably why it took a little longer as I kept finding myself singing along.

Well I got to the P-Club about 7:15 and Cassandra, Peggy, Roxy and Chris were already there. It was nice to see Peggy out again. Peggy had spent the day baking Sugar cookies and decorating them. Each one were wrapped in plastic with a bow tied on, she must have spent all day doing this. She brought a big basket to give to all the girls there and had some left over, how sweet was this. What a wonderful gift idea and they were so good.

Well we all wondered how many would show up as it was 2 days before Christmas and people may still be out finishing their last minute Christmas shopping. It was probably about 8:30 when more of our group started to show up; in the end we had a good turnout. I am guessing 20 of us were there, some that come out all the time and some that only get out every once in a while. I off course ordered a salad for dinner again as I am still trying to eat healthier and hopefully lose some weight.

We had a new T-girl (Jennifer) from Northern California stop in, seems she had read my blog about going to the P-Club and since she was in the area she came by. It was nice to meet her and it turns out this was her first time out ever. She seemed pretty relaxed for her first time and she looked really good. I remember my first time out I was scared to death and probably looked like a kind playing with makeup. We all greeted her and had a great time talking with her. Hopefully she will be able to come back again and spend more time with us. It is funny how the internet has made such an impact on our lives; we can literally meet and talk with anyone in the world. As a matter of fact Google has a web page called Google translate and you can type something in and translate to almost any language so you can literally talk with anyone in any language.

It was a good night and I even played shuffle board, Peggy and I played Cassandra and Kathryn and then we played Cassandra and Cristine. We lost both games but had a lot of fun. The shuffle board table really needs to be cleaned and redone as there are spots that are so dry the puck just stops but as much as I would like to blame our losing one the table Cassandra was on a hot streak. She could do nothing wrong last night, I guess every once in a while the stars just line up right and last night was Cassandra’s night. She won every game she played be it shuffle board or pool.

It was now time to do our gift exchange; those who wanted to participate brought a wrapped gift of $3 as it was not the dollar amount but the thought behind it. When this was first brought up I thought how easy it would be to get a gift, maybe a little makeup or something like that but then I started thinking, I know I am blonde and should not think. We have some admirers that are male and might show up and participate so then I figured the gift should be gender neutral, well anyway I found this cute little candle in a glass jar with a little Santa hanging on the front and thought it was just perfect. Anyway we all drew numbers and then picked in order. When it was your turn you could pick a gift or take someone else’s, if you took someone else then they picked another gift. Barb who went first at the end got the choice of keeping hers or trading with someone else. It was so much fun, what a great idea Cassandra had. Everyone had a blast and really enjoyed this.

We had a great time and I got a chance to talk with all my friends a little. What a wonderful night as I got to spend it with my friends. Christmas time can get so busy and it is easy to get caught up in it and lose track of what is important, people. Of all the presents I will get this year and in years past it is the people, friends and loved ones in our lives which are the best presents and greatest blessing in our live and all of you I have met either in person or on line I am thankful for. You are my most treasured present.

I wish you all a Merry Christmas, may it be filled with love, joy and happiness.

December 24, 2011 Posted by | Holiday, P-Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night with friends

Well it was Friday night and of course I was going out with my friends again. Always so much fun and I look forward to it all week. I got there about 7:15 and Cassandra and Chris were already there so I joined them. Nicole one of the bar tenders brought me my drink without me even having to order it which I guess makes me a regular there as we have been going there every Friday night for a year in a half now.

Victoria showed up at 7:30 and joined us; I think this is now how our Friday night starts as we have showed up in this order now for the last several weeks. Maybe next Friday I will try to get my fanny moving a little earlier and see if I can get there before Cassandra and Chris just to mix it up a little.

Any way I went up and ordered dinner and yes I did order a salad again as I am trying to be good and watch what I eat. It was funny as Nicole asked if I wanted the chicken basket which is what I usually order. I guess it is good to mix it up every once in a while.

Jim showed up, he had met Cassandra several years back and is supportive of T-Girls, what we call an admirer. He is very nice and respectful to all the girls. He has come out a few times with the group before so knows several of us. Bob also showed up, another admirer. We met Bob at Easy street about a year ago and he also seemed to like hanging out with us plus he like to play pool so he fits right in with some of the girls. He use to come out all the time with us but for the last few months we have not seen him so it was good to chat with him and catch up.

Well my salad arrived and it was huge, I think even bigger than last week. It was hard to eat without knocking some off the plate but it was really good and a lot healthier than what I use to eat. Funny as I cut the salad up with my knife so it would be easier to eat without messing up my lipstick or getting dressing on my face. My male side would have just shoved it in my mouth and wiped any dressing on my face away but we must eat more like a lady when out as Susan. It still amazes me that I think of these things, napkins, small bites, careful not to make a mess or spill anything, they have become so second nature when I am Susan that I don’t even think of them. At some point they will slip into my male life I know. As a matter of fact Friday at work there was a Christmas song playing and I started to sing along with it when I realized I was singing in my Susan voice, softer and higher, no one was near me so no one noticed but wow that could be hard to explain.

Victoria and I Played Cassandra and Kathryn in Shuffle board, it was a good night for shuffle board as Victoria and I won 3 games in a row against them so we were undefeated. The last game was pretty close as we were all tied up at 20 and the next score won. It was a lot of fun.

Jamie was also there which is nice, she has been going to school and working full time so been very busy and not able to get out much so it was great to talk with her and find out what is new with her. She is also a really good pool player as she has played in some pool tournaments, in her male self of course. So she can keep up with Cassandra at pool.

Wilma was also there, she came a little late. She usually rides with Cassandra but tonight took the bus to get there, she rode home with Cassandra though. It is nice to see her out; she is working again so her time to get out is also limited. We had a nice chat and then she broke out her chess set so we could play. It really is funny as I think this get more people’s attentions then we do as T-Girls. You don’t often see people playing chess in a club and then to have two T-Girls playing chess is really rare. The first game was really good and I felt I played really well. I won this game and really made no mistakes and neither did Wilma. It was just a really good game. The second one was just as good and in the end I had a slight piece lead and was only 2 moves from winning again but Wilma was able to keep putting me in check so I couldn’t make my moves and in the end she checkmated me with just her queen and knight. It was a really good game. I may have to find a chess program for my computer so I can practice.

The night was so much fun and before I knew it, it was 12:30, I don’t know where the time went but tonight it seemed to go by way faster. It was a fun night with about 15 of us there. I am already looking forward to next Friday night.

This week again will be busy with Christmas coming up, turns out the only night I may be able to get out to Starbucks will be Thursday and only if I can finish up my Christmas shopping. Seems my male side is not as excited about shopping as Susan is. Maybe next year I will let Susan do all my Christmas shopping for me.

Any way I hope you all have a wonderful Holiday Season and a Merry Christmas. Thanks for stopping by and reading.


December 17, 2011 Posted by | P-Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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