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Sunday and some more Susan time.

It is Sunday and I find myself with the late afternoon and evening free and so that means some Susan time. Well not totally free as I do have some work I need to do but it is on the computer and I figured Susan could do it at Starbucks. I got dressed and was ready to leave by a little after 4. Now I thought about going to the Starbuck’s by my house as I am getting out early but as I do have some work to do and they close at 7 where the other is open till 8:30 I went with the other one as it gives me an extra 1 ½ if needed. Besides I have come here enough that a few of the girls are remembering me now. I took a quick selfie in the car before going inside.

I got to Starbucks about 4:15 and went in and again they were a little busy, maybe 20 people but again 1 table along the window, I like these tables as I can plug my computer in if needed. As there were about 5 people in line I set my computer up on the table before going to stand in line. I figured most of them would be staying as this Starbucks has a drive through. Sure, enough everyone in front of me Got a drink and found a place to sit so it is pretty busy here. Now I had to stand in line to wait for my drink and yet it felt so normal. I still amazes me just a few years ago the excitement, fear and terror I felt going out even to Embers which was very TG friendly and I was meeting friend so I would be alone and now I walk into Starbucks like it is the most natural thing I could do and never give it a second thought. In some ways I do miss that feeling but the fact I pretty much go where ever I want without fear is awesome as it has opened a whole new world to me.

I got my drink, today is the sweetened green ice tea which is really good and then went and sat down and started my work. Now last night when I was here there were several women in dresses so today I did wear my black dress, nothing to sexy more of I guess a casual dress and as it had bare shoulders I decided to wear my little white knit half top. Now this little white top I actually bought probably 6 years ago but have never worn it till now as when I have worn bare shoulder dresses I was always at a bar or club and wanted the bare shoulder. It is actually a cute look, I had to get another selfie.

I sat here and did some work for about an hour before I took a break and wrote my blog for last night as I got out for a few hours, yes twice in 2 day. Then it was back to work although I am checking the score of the world series on my computer. Another reason for coming to Starbucks, if I was at home I would have the game on and be watching it while I tried to work and I know from past experience I don’t get a lot of work done with the TV on so I guess Susan is good for me as she keeps me on task.

Now by 6 the crowd had died off here and there was only 6 other people here all working on computers. Starbucks is a great place to go with a computer. It would be interesting to know for sure how many times I have come to Starbucks over the years as Susan, my blog has 191 blogs that have that in the tag lines so I am guessing it is at least that many times, although some of those time I was probably out shopping or doing other things and stopped in a Starbucks on my outing. My blog goes back to 2006 although the first few years I didn’t get out more than maybe once a month if I was lucky. This blog is my 1105 blog so I have been out at least that many times as Susan which is hard to believe. 10 years ago, I would never have imagined going out even 100 times let alone that many times in basically 10 years. I have come a long way over the years as Susan and it is because of some of the wonderful friend (family) I have met. Some of them are my closest friends and they really are more like my family. I hope they all know just how special they are to me.

I finished up my work about 7 so I still had time, I worked a little on my blog for today and then just goofed around online and figure I will finish my blog tomorrow as I am not sure what all I will do before going home. Now as I have not had my acrylic nails now for probably 3 months with all that has been going on I have gone back to the way I use to do my nails, You can read about it on my nail tip blog. This is one of the great things about a blog as you can go back and find out about things you did. I would incur age everyone to keep a blog even if you keep it private for just you to see. Now don’t get me wrong I do love getting my nails done and having nice (pretty) nails all the time but in my male life I do have to keep them shorter and a very natural color where with this I can have long pretty nails when I am out as Susan. Tuff choice nice nails all the time or pretty, long, red nails when I am Susan.

I left Starbucks about 8:15 and went over to Subway and got a sandwich to take home. It really was a relaxing afternoon and evening and I am looking forward to getting out more. Be sure and check out my most recent blog to see what’s new in my life.

October 30, 2018 Posted by | Starbucks, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A few hours on a Saturday evening

Okay life is getting back to a little more normal routine. It is still hard to believe my Dad has been gone for over 5 weeks but it does get a little better each day. I am hopeful to start getting out again on a more regular basis, Saturday nights and Wednesday dinners. It will be awesome to start seeing my friends on a regular basis again. Anyway, I got home Saturday a little after 5 and decided it would be a little Susan time. I got dressed and was ready by 6:30, now what to do. I thought about going to the Escape but then realized it was the Saturday before Halloween and they would be packed and of course everyone would be in costume. Halloween snuck up on me this year. Now for years Susan was my Halloween costume at least till 2009, that was the first Halloween I bought a female costume and I have had a female costume every year since then at least till this year. Well with no costume and the fact I couldn’t stay out to late I decided to go to Starbucks instead.

Now I didn’t go to the one by my house as they close at 7 instead I went to the other Starbucks I have been going to as they are open till 8:30. It is still less than 5 minutes so still close to where I live. I got there and they were actually busy for a Saturday night, never really thought of Starbucks as the place to go on a Saturday night, there was probably 18 to 20 people there although there were two groups of 6. I parked and went in, there was one table along the windows so I set my computer down and went and ordered my drink. I just relaxed and played on my computer for a while. It was good just to be out again. I really can’t explain why I find it so relaxing and fun to be out as Susan even just sitting at a Starbucks but it is to me. I stayed here till about 8:15 and it really was relaxing.

I left Starbucks and drove to Wendy’s to get something to eat before heading home. I was a little surprised even at 8:30 there was still maybe 15 people inside eating at Wendy’s. I had to stand in line. when it was my turn to order the young lady, who helped me told me she loved the way I did my makeup, I really love getting compliments on how I look. Of course, I thanked her. I got my food and went and sat with most of the other people over by the fireplace where the big TV is as it had the Oregon Ducks Football game on. I actually picked here because of the TV although I was hoping for the World Series which I kept track of on my phone. I ma not a huge sports fan but the one sport I do follow the most is Baseball. Of course, my teams didn’t make it what a surprise but still follow the playoffs. Now as I said my teams didn’t make it but I am kind of pulling for the Red Socks to win but what I really want is a good series.

I sat here and ate till a little after 9 before going home to watch the end of the world Series. Once at home I was sitting

there and decided I would get a selfie. It is funny not going out as much has made me think about pictures more. I guess in a way I am really cherishing the time I get right now as it has been so limited. Even though it was less than 3 hours out as Susan it was still worth it.

Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what’s new on my most recent blog which should be more regular now as I hope to get back to 1 or 2 times a week.

Also going to include links to previous Halloweens as I missed this year. We really have had some wonderful times and I have had some cute costumes although I do have my favorite.

Halloween 2009, Halloween 2010, Halloween 2011, Halloween 2012, Halloween 2013, Halloween 2014, Halloween 2015, Halloween 2016, Halloween 2017,

I was going through some of my Halloween pictures and I think this is my favorite ones. I loved Wonder Woman growing up and I never thought or dreamed growing up I could be her but as Susan I did get the chance

October 28, 2018 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Halloween 2017 one word, awesome

Halloween is here, I have always loved this holiday. Tonight, we are doing our groups Halloween Party and once again Cassandra and Peggy are wonderful enough to open their home and put on the party for all of us. Now I did take time Friday night to run out and look for a costume with no luck, they were pretty picked over and the one I found that said ex large well I sure don’t think it was. So, I gave up and decided to go with my Wonder Woman Costume. I really love this costume as it was the first female costume I ever bought. I dug it out and tried it on and well let’s just say Susan will be going on a diet. I couldn’t quite fit into it so on to my next choice which was my belly dancer costume. Good thing I checked as I needed to do my makeup different for the belly dancer. See I wear my black hair with this costume and for that I need darker makeup.

I spent almost 2 hours getting ready today as I wanted to take my time and enjoy myself. I was all ready by 5:20 and on my way. It takes between 45 minutes and an hour to get to Cassandra & Peggy’s house depending on traffic. Now the thing that went through my mind was what if I get a flat tire. I would look so cute alongside the road changing a tire in this costume. I got to their house a little after 6 and of course I had to get a couple pictures of my makeup before I went in, selfie time. I went in and only a couple people were there so far as the party doesn’t start till 7. Jan and Lynn were there along with Veronica so I got a chance to talk with them as Cassandra and Peggy were still upstairs getting ready. By the way the house looked awesome, Peggy always does such a wonderful job decorating and puts a lot of time and thought into it.

Peggy and Cassandra came down and it was time to start putting out the food so we all helped. One of the reasons I came early. Besides it was fun to be bringing food out in my costume. Peggy had cards everywhere with what dish went where, as I said she puts a lot of thought and effort into this party. The food was awesome and so much of it. It didn’t matter where you were in the house there was a table nearby with something on it, from candy, brownies, chips and dip, deli meat cheese and crackers to cooked food and shrimp. They had enough food for 100 people I bet.

Tereasa and Dan were the next to show up and of course I started to get pictures as I knew there would be some wonderful costumes. Of course, I had to get a few of me in my costume also. Yes, there is not much to this costume and as skimpy as it looks from the front there is even less in the back. Now more people started to show up as it was now after 7 and I knew we would have a good turnout. I was still trying to get pictures of everyone so I can post them to the group but as the evening went on it got harder to do in the crowd. I also kept my camera with me all the time tucked in top, last party I kept setting it down and then ended up leaving without it and having to go back. Melissa and her wife were next, they had great costumes and Melissa was hard to recognize as she had blonde hair tonight as she was Alice in Wonderland. Kate showed up next and she didn’t recognize me at first either, the black hair. It really is amazing how different hair style and color can change how you look. One more picture with my vail on which I could not wear for long. And of course, belly dancers are bare foot so tonight I was not as tall which was nice. Kate had a really cute costume also and talking with her I think she had a lot of fun out shopping for it as I think it was her first female costume.

Julie and Trixie also showed up dressed as nurses. They had really cute costumes also. There were lots of people here now and everyone was trying to get pictures. Pictures of the costumes, pictures of themselves and picture with other people. This is such a fun night to get pictures. So of course, I had to get one with Julie and Kate, oh and that is Roxy also. Chris and Roxy were also here which was nice as I have not seen them in a long while as I have not been able to get to Sweet Home on Friday night. We make such a cute group.

Cindy and her wife Alice were also here, Bobbie, Sophia, Kimberly, Bobbi, and Kim and so many more. If I miss you by name I am sorry. I got to talk with Bobbi for a while, she is doing wonderful and it was good to see her as it has been a long time. That is one of the great things about parties like this as so many people show up and you can work your way around the room and try to talk with everyone. Of course, in the main room the TV was on with the world series, some were just sitting and watching it and others like me would just cycle through the room enough to catch the score. By the way the Dodgers won and tied the series which mad Cassandra so happy.

There were also some new girls here tonight which was nice as we got a chance to meet them. Charlene and her wife were also here, they are not members of our group yet but I am hoping they will join. They don’t live in the area but travel through a few times each year. Charlene met me through this blog and contacted me and we have kept in touch so when she said she would be in town this weekend I told her she had to come to the party. It was great to see her again and talk with her. She doesn’t dress at home but when they travel she lives as Charlene all the time. Kind of like I do when I go to Diva Las Vegas although they have been traveling for a few months so she gets to be Charlene for a long longer stretch then I get to be Susan.

Now with all the food around I ate way too much which is easy to do as I didn’t get a plate full and eat. I was just nibbling as I walked around and yes way too much candy and Brownies. Peggy made the best brownies. It is way too easy to just keep eating when there is so much food all around and of course this girl has no will power. Michelle and Christy also showed up and I almost didn’t recognize them. It was so wonderful to see them again. Christy lives here in Portland but Michelle moved down to San Francisco several years back so it is always a treat to see them and they always have the best costume. Got to talk worth them some but not as much as I would have liked which was the same for most as people were moving around trying to see everyone’s costume and talk with everyone. Victoria and her girlfriend were also here and I got to talk to them just briefly, she is one of our newer members. As I said it was hard to talk with everyone and I didn’t get a chance to talk with some of the people as much as I wanted. Would have like to have talked with Kim, Chris, Roxy and Veronica more and a few others but the night went by so fast.

Okay I have to include one picture of the inside of the house and the decorations just to show how much effort and time Peggy put into this party. The whole house was decorated just as much as this room. Wow what a job getting ready.

Charlene and her wife left but it was great they could make it. I encouraged her to join our group so she will know where and when we are going places but she can always contact me directly also. Maybe next time we can get together at Starbucks. It is amazing how fast the night went by. Cassandra had prizes for best costumes, and a variety of other prizes which she paid for herself. Cassandra and Peggy put so much of themselves into this party, not just the cost but everything including cleaning up and taking all these wonderful decorations down. We really can’t thank them enough and I hope they know how much we all appreciate this.

Okay I have to share a cute story Peggy told me. She was getting her nails done today with the lady who always does her nails and asked her to do her makeup for the party which was awesome. Any way she got taking with her and told her about the party when she asked what her husband was going as. Peggy pause and then told her before she told her that she had something else to tell her first and with that she explained about the party for the Rose City T-girls, about Cassandra and the rest of us. Peggy said she was fine with it and of course that was most of the conversation while she was getting her nails and makeup done.

It was hard to leave but it was after 11:30 and I still had a 45-minute drive home. It took me another 10 to 15 minutes to go around and tell everyone goodbye and of course hugs for all. I think that is one of the things I love the most about being Susan, woman great each other with hugs and never think anything about it and I love that. I think the world would be so much better if everyone got hugs. It just makes you feel so good. I got out to my car and Victoria was just showing up so I got a hug from her and talked with her for a few minutes. She does transformations for t-girls so tonight was one of her busier night. It was nice to see her though before I left. The drive home was easy but I decided to stop at the gas station by my house. There were 3 other cars there, 2 men and 1 woman getting gas. So, I got out of my car and pumped my gas in my skimpy belly dancer outfit. It was 12:30 by the time I got home, what a wonderful night it was.

Thanks again Cassandra and Peggy you two are awesome. And thanks to all who showed up it was great to see all of you.

Thanks for reading and have a Happy Halloween.

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October 29, 2017 Posted by | halloween | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 6 Comments

Halloween 2016

Okay it is not actually Halloween but the Saturday before and our group is going out to celebrate Halloween. I have been looking forward to tonight for weeks, this has always been one of my favorite holidays. It use to be being Susan was my costume a chance to be who I was but for the since 2009 I have been doing female costumes and I love it. Now I had a really cute costume for tonight. The plan was to meet at the Escape at 6 as they were showing the movie Rocky Horror Picture show at 7 and then Karaoke at 9. Well I started getting ready early as I was excited for tonight. I also wanted to do my makeup different to match my costume. I actually did some searching online till I found a picture of the look I was going for. I even did false eye lashes on both the upper and lower lids which took a little work. Now I am guessing you are all interested in what I chose for my costume, well I will tell you in a moment.

I was all ready by 5:20 so I figured I would leave early and take my computer till Susan Miller Halloween 2016 (1)others showed up. I got to the Escape a little after 5:30 and had to snap a couple selfie in the car as I thought my makeup turned out really good and yes there will be more pictures to come. Not sure if you can tell my costume from this picture or not but the next one you will.

Now as I said I was early so I was the only one in a costume here yet. Now there was a big group here watching the World Series and yes I watched some if it and the Cubs lost again. Now I was waiting to see who would be the first to show up. Cristine and Karen showed up a little after 6 so I put my computer away and took it out to my car. I have never met Karen before as she lives down by Salem and this is only her second time coming to Portland. It was nice to meet her and get to know her.

Cassandra and Peggy were the next two to show up, it was so great to see Peggy again and she had on one of Cassandra’s wigs and looked so cute. It was a wonderful surprise. Now it was not busy yet so I had to have Cassandra get a picture of me in my costume so here it is. And by the way Cassandra and I ended Susan Miller Halloween 2016 (3)up with the same idea although they were slightly different in look. I actually thought more would have his costume as I picked it based on the movie they were showing. It was such a cute costume and I actually had several people tell me I could come clean their houses anytime so I guess I have another job opportunity if I need one. I must admit my legs looked awesome in fishnet stockings.

It was a little before 7 when others started to show up, Julie and Trixie showed up and they had matching costumes, it was so cute and they looked great as Skeletons. Laura and Lisa, Charlene and her wife who I got to meet tonight, Melissa and her wife and Kim so we had a good turnout tonight and of course Peggy brought candy so I will have to go to the gym tomorrow. It was good to see Kim again and talk with her it has been a couple years since I have seen her.

Susan Miller Halloween 2016 (2)Well the movie started and we watched it as we talked, well probably more talking then watching. It was turning out to be a really fun night. Diane, Sasha and Rose also showed up. Now they had a costume contest and I made it through the first round so I was happy but then in the second round we had to dance which I am not a dancer but I made it through to the top 5 but that was as far as I got which was fine as I was having fun. Julie and TSusan Miller Halloween 2016Trixie won first prize $50 and Laura got second and won $20 and I will admit they did have really good costumes.

Now there were some other good costumes here tonight not just in our group. Karaoke started and it was good, Victoria also showed up later alter the dance. Now I am still not use to the false lashes as I could see them when I looked up it seemed there was a darkness above my eyes. But they really did look awesome.

Now during the Karaoke they would have breaks for Dancing and even though I am not a dancer Peggy did get me out on the dance floor a few times and I actually had fun. I am still not a good dancer but it was fun. Although dancing in 4” heels was not that easy on the feet. It was a really fun night. Of course I had to get pictures with my friends. I wish I had thought of getting a picture with Charlene. I will have to make sure I do next time she is in town. I want to thank all my wonderful friends for such an awesome evening.

I stayed out till almost 12:30 before I left. it was sad to see the night come to an end.

Me and my wonderful friends, How did I Miss Cassandra and Julie?

Kim & Susan Halloween 26 Lisa & Susan Halloween 26 (1) Peggy & Susan Halloween 26 (1)

Sasha & Susan Halloween 26 Susan & Diane Halloween 26 Sophie & Susan Halloween 26

Susan & Laura  Halloween 26 Susasn & Victoria Halloween 26 Trixie & Susan  Halloween 26

October 30, 2016 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, halloween, Holiday | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Sweet Home the Friday before Halloween

The weekend is here and I am looking forward to it. Friday night at Sweet Home and then Saturday at the Escape for a Halloween party and I have my costume ready. Now I didn’t think to wear a costume tonight. I got to Sweet Home by 6:30 and there were a few people there. Chris was the only one in a costume. Now if you are a fan of the TV show “The Big Bang Theory” he came as the Doppler Effect. It was funny as Chris was worried he would be the only one in a costume. Robyn was also there so it would be a fun night. Well by 7 people started to show up and they were all in costumes and some of them really good. By the end of the night it would be Robyn and I the only ones not in costume.

I really should have dug out one of my old costumes for tonight. now another T-girl showed up, her name was Charlene, She has followed my blog for a while and had e-mailed me she would be in town this weekend. It was awesome to meet her and get to know her. Roxy showed up and we all sat around and talked. It was really enjoyable and I got to know a lot about Charlene. I really do love meeting new people and always nice to meet someone who follows my blog. Charlene will also be at the escape on Saturday so she will get to meet more of our wonderful group here in Portland.

It was a really fun night and I stayed out later then I planned as Diane showed up late. It was fun talking with some of the other people here and telling them how good their costumes were I also had several woman tell me how good I looked which I always love to here. One told me she has seen me here many times and I always look pretty. I really love that. Men don’t tell other men how nice they look. It is one of the wonderful benefits of being female.

It was a great night and now I am looking forward to Saturday night. I have a wonderful costume and I am looking forward to see what all my friends dress as.

Thanks for reading and have a safe and Happy Halloween.

October 29, 2016 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Halloween night 2015 at the Escape Bar and Grill

Halloween 2015 (1)Wow it is hard to believe it is Halloween already. I rally do love this holiday as you can dress any way you like and no one cares. It really is a T-girls best day and so many of us took our first steps out on Halloween. Now I have to work early tomorrow so I am not planning on staying out to late to night but we will see how that goes. Any way I started getting ready early today with hopes of being to the escape by 6 or earlier. Now I know I said I was going to wear my Wonder Woman costume but a funny thing, as I was going through my pictures of Susan which I have thousands of I noticed 2 of my costumes IHalloween 2015 (4) don’t have pictures of or at least can’t find them. I may have lost them 2 years ago when my old computer died. so I decided to wear one of them, my Gypsy outfit. Yes I will have lots of pictures today. I started getting ready a little before 4 as I was going to do the false eye lashes again and I was doing both the upper and lower lashes and wasn’t sure how it would turn out as I had enough trouble with just the upper lashes last night. Well they turned out really well. I actually put them on first before doing my eye makeup tonight. the lashes went on easier but it was a lot harder to do my eye makeup.

I was on my way by 5:30. traffic was slow as it was really raining tonight but I was in no hurry. I got to the Escape bar and Grill about 5:50 and went in. . I was the first of our group to arrive which I kind of figured I would be but I had limited time out tonight and I was taking advantage of it. I got my computer out and then went to the bar and ordered dinner and a drink. As I was walking back to my table a man came in and told me how good I looked and offered to buy me a beer. Now I was flattered but I am not interested in men and I don’t drink beer so I thanked him for the Halloween 2015 (6)offer but declined.

Cassandra showed up next and she had on a really cute costume also, here is a picture of us. We noticed Brandi was at the bar seems the man who offered to buy me a drink made Brandi the same offer.

Well All 3 of us got our phones out and started to get pictures. It was like old times, we took so many pictures. Now besides getting pictures of ourselves I really wanted to try and get at least one picture of everyone who showed up tonight for our group. This is a picture of Brandi and me. WeHalloween 2015 (5) are both members of the Vanity Club, yes I actually belong to 2 t-girl groups. I have met Brandi once before at Victoria, Sinclair’s birthday party a couple years ago. It was nice to see her again and talk to her.

Now we had a good turn out tonight I will try to list everyone, another reason for trying to get pictures of everyone. so tonight we had Cassandra, Brandi, Jolene, Barb, Jan and her wife Lynn, Cristine, Teresa, Jamie. Laura M. her daughter and girlfriend, Jamie, her wife Kristine, Julie and her girlfriend, Rachael and her friend, Julie and her girlfriend Trixie, Dee, Joan, Michelle, Diane and Rose.

Halloween 2015 (8)It was good to see Jolene again as she is a newer member but has been really busy the last few months and hasn’t been able to get out so of course I had to get a picture with her. We kind of has similar costumes although mine was a lot shorter dress. Now the funny thing is tonight I was also doing something I haven’t done before. As I was taking the pictures with my cell phone I was uploading them to my Facebook page as I took them. I got a chance to talk with Jolene for a while as we watched the end of game 4 of the World Series, Mets lost.

After the game was over the bar put on the Movie Rocky Horror Picture show, it was their theme tonight. So we wereHalloween 2015 (16) kind of watching it as we socialized. Now I had to get  some pictures with Teresa. Some how I wound up with several pictures with her, I think we both like having our pictures taken. This was my favorite as we both had good smiles in this one. Of course we had to do one close up to Halloween 2015 (21)post to Facebook. This is just such a cute close up of us.

Now I did make sure I got around and talked with everyone from our group. Now one of our newer member Julie well she has been in the group for a year but only been able to come out a couple times so I have not met her till tonight so I did talk with her and her girlfriend several times as I really do like meeting new people, They both had great costumes. Now I thought I had gotten a picture with both of them but some how I only have the one with her girlfriend. I think maybe Julie and me might have been on someone else’s camera. She hadHalloween 2015 (33) someone do her makeup and it was awesome.

Rachael also made it out tonight, she is one of my oldest friends as Susan. Her and Alice were probably 2 of the earliest people I met as Susan that I still have contact with. It is amazing to think about how long I have known some of Halloween 2015 (27)these girls. I really do have some awesome friends that have helped me grow and helped shape the lady I have become. Well I had to get a picture with her. I took several pictures of Rachael as she wanted some, she even texted some to a lady friend she told about Rachael and it turns out she decided to drive down to the Escape and Meet Rachael in person along with the rest of us. She seems really nice and didn’t seem to be bothered with us being dressed. Of course all the girls in our group are awesome and friendly. We have such a wonderful group here in Portland.

Now of course what Halloween would not be complete without a picture with Julie and Trixie. They are wonderful people and make such a cute couple andHalloween 2015 (31) are awesome friends. Came out a little dark but still really cute costumes. everyone had great costumes tonight. Julie and I talked about our golfing together in boy mode a few weeks back and how much different we look tonight. It still amazes me as 7 years ago I was so nervous and would never have even thought about telling people anything about my male side and now I have so many close friends here in the group and many of them have met my male side and I find myself talking more about me to people. It is the support I have gotten here in this group or should I say our Rose City T-girl family as that is what we really are.

Now as I said having to work early tomorrow I was only going out till 9 and we all know how that worked out. 9 came and went and I told myself well I will stay till 10. Well 10 came and went and I was still there. It is so hard to leave when I am out with such wonderful people. It was about 10:30 when I paid my bill and then started to say my goodbyes, hugs for everyone. I think that is one of the best things about being a lady is you can hug people goodbye and no one thinks any thing of it as females do it all the time and it is perfectly okay. So I finally left the bar about 10:45. by the time I got home it was about 11:20 and now I had to Clean off all my makeup and get ready for bed so I actually didn’t get to bed till almost midnight. I will be tired tomorrow at work but it was so worth it. I had a fabulous time tonight. Now I am looking forward to next Saturday when we go to Harvey’s and I can wear my pretty new dress that I Bought just for this. I goy so many compliments on the brown hair maybe I will wear this wig a little more often

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and a Happy Halloween. Thanks for reading.

November 1, 2015 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, halloween | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Last Friday of October, the day before Halloween.

Well it is the day before Halloween. It is funny how this holiday has changed for me over the years, don’t get me wrong I still love it but it doesn’t hold the same excitement it did fir me years ago. You see before I accepted Susan and who I am my time as Susan was a late night drive, I wouldn’t even leave my house till 10:30 or 11 pm and I would drive around and see if people in other cars were looking at me and then I would top off my night out with a trip through Burger kings drive through if I was feeling really confident. now Halloween was my night as the Friday and Saturday closest to Halloween I always new there would be costume parties so I would go out again late at night but on these nights I would find some convenience stores and they were nice as the counter was always by the windows so you could see the employee working and I would always try to find one with a female working and I would stop and run in and buy something just so I could see how they responded to me. of course they always took it as a costume which made it easier, but I loved Halloween as I could get out as myself and have interaction with a few people. Now Halloween is a day to dress up in a costume not just as a girl and go out and have fun and I have had a few good costumes over the years. Here are a few from the last few years.

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Now incase you didn’t know I love Wonder Woman and this is the only costume I have worn several times, It was my first female costume I ever bought and if I do get to go out this year for Halloween it is the costume I will wear again as I didn’t get a costume this year as I didn’t think I would get out but now I am thinking of going out early since I can only stay out till maybe 9 at the latest. it is funny as being a girl was my costume for so many years and not it is a  normal part of my life.

I started getting ready early as I got off work early and wanted to go out. the other thing was wanted to try something new. Last week one of the girls brought in some false eyelashes she didn’t want so I got some as I have always wanted to try them. now I had always planned on going to Nordstrom’s and getting them so they could show me how to do them but I have never gotten around to it so I figured this was a good chance to try them. Now I am not sure if you put them on before your eye make up or after but I did mine after. Now I did have a little trouble getting one corner to stick and yes I had to redo one eye twice and the other 3 times before I was okay with the way they looked, still not perfect but for my first try it will do. any tips you girls have on false eye lashes would be helpful as this is totally new to me. any way here are a few close ups so you can see my first attempts.

Susan with dark hair (6) Susan with dark hair (7)Susan with dark hair (8)

It is so much fun to play with makeup and try different looks and see how you can change your look, sometimes it turns out really well and others not so good but with practice you get better. tonight I really liked the way my lips turned out and since I have posted several pictures of my eyes I thought why not my lips as this is my blog.

Susan with dark hair (8) - Copy Susan with dark hair (6) - Copy Susan with dark hair (7) - Copy

Yes I went a little picture happy tonight. Well I was already by 5:30 and on my way but before I left I had to take a few selfies to show the whole makeup look.

Susan with dark hair (1)Susan with dark hair (2)

In some ways I really like the dark hair but at certain angles I think it makes my face look harsh. downwards angles look best.

Susan with dark hair (5)Susan with dark hair (3)

I got to Sweet home at 6 and there were several people there including Chris who was playing pool, no one in costume yet though. I got out my computer and caught up on some e-mails and other things including going into a chat room for a little while. It is nice that we can take our computers with us now as you can go someplace and if you are by yourself you are not just sitting there you have something to do. I ordered dinner and had a wonderful time. other girls from our group started to show up, Cristine was first and she had her pirates costume on and looked great, Dee and Roxy also shoed up. it was going to be a fun night. Dee and I talked for a while, it was a good time.

I went to the bar to get a drink and Meagan was sitting there having a drink. she is a GG that use to come to the bar and I got to know but she moved further away and hasn’t been here in over a year..She is going to college and will finish this spring. I stood and talked with her for a while to find out what was new with her. It was nice to see her again and talk with her, I should have thought to get a picture with her.

A girl came over and asked if she could join us, while she waited for her boyfriend to show up and I said sure we talked for a while and for the life of me I can’t remember her name. she wanted some pictures with us and of course you know me I can’t turn down a photo opportunity . I of course had to get a couple pictures with her.

Susan with dark hair (9)Susan with dark hair (10)Susan with dark hair (11)

The last one I am not as happy with the way I look but she really liked that one as she had taken her glasses off so I figured I would post all of them. It was getting later and the other group started to show up and they were all in costumes and they really looked great, some of the costumes were awesome. I have come to know so many of them and are friends on Facebook with many of them. Susan really does have a great life and many friends. Heather, Mareinna, Dawni, Shryl, Craig, Alexis, Angela, Rachel, and Daniel and several other I know casually.

Karaoke started and there were so many people here now that the list to sing was long. Chris only got to sing once tonight. They did something call Scarryaoke which if you want to participate you draw a random song out of a bowl and that is what you sing and a lot of them did that. it was a fun night and even Raven and Monica showed up for a while. it was a wonderful night out and as always it must come to an end. it was about 11:40 when I paid my bill and left.

Now on my way home I was thinking about when I use to go out on Halloween and go into convenience stores, it is funny the things you think about. Any way I needed milk so I decided to stop and not at a a convenience store and get some milk. Now I know what you are all saying I go out all the time as Susan and go shopping as Susan so what is the big deal. Well I stopped at a store just a block from where I live, the one I shop at all the time when I am not Susan and tonight I am all dressed up in a pretty dress and 4” heels. I went in and walked to the back and got my milk and went to the check stand. the lady working was dressed as a Nun and I have gone through her line many times as my male self including yesterday. I am not sure if she recognized me or not but I paid for my mile and went home. it will be interesting the next time I see her.

Thanks for reading and I hope you all have a fun, safe and happy Halloween.

October 31, 2015 Posted by | Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

A fun and relaxing evening at the Escape Bar and Grill

Well I got the stuff I needed to do today done early so I decided to start getting ready early and go to the Escape. This allowed me the time to enjoy the whole process of becoming Susan. It is so nice to be able to take my time becoming Susan as it is so relaxing and puts me in such a good mood.

Susan closeup (1)I was already by 5:30 and on my way. I got to the Escape by 6, this is a selfie I took of myself. I was the first one here so I got out my computer and ordered some dinner. It is funny how dependent we have become on computers or cell phone as no matter where we go we are never alone or without something to do.

Cassandra showed up shortly after I did and she also had her computer with her. She set it up in the corner and then sat down to eat with me. It was nice as we had a good chance to talk. We talked a little about the group and how it has grown so much over the years. Our group started on November 17 2007 so we will be starting our 9th year in just a couple weeks and we have 316 member. it is amazing how active our group is as with Football Season going on now we have girls going out Monday and Thursday to watch football, Wednesday for dinner and pool, Friday and Saturday night for pool and Karaoke. Really the only night we don’t have something going on is Tuesday night. We talked about how to get more girls out and other possible things to do and if there is a better way to managed the group. The one thing we all agree on is the group is all about getting T-girls to be able to come out and to support them in getting out. That is so important. I think back to my first few times out and the help I got and if it had not been for Alice, Cassandra and Linda helping me I would not be where I am today. We all have these people in our lives that made such a huge impactSusan closeup (2) on our lives.

Well other girls started to show up, Debbie one of our newer members, Cristine, Jan, Lynn, Jamie, Kristine, Michelle, and Laura. I got a chance to talk with Debbie for a while. She came here to work for a few years and has been coming out now. Her wife is still back home and at Christmas she will go visit her and then after the first of the year she will move out here also, so hopefully she will come out with the group also as she knows about Debbie.

It was about 9 and Dana and Jill showed up. Dana had gone to Victoria’s Over the Rainbow for a makeover and Jill also got a makeover. Jill was pretty excited about her makeover. Now I have never gone to Victoria’s for a makeover but I have done it a couple times at Macy’s and it was a blast. I really think for me it was more about being in the cosmetic section like any other woman then the makeover. Now if you need help with makeup or want a makeover in a safe and comfortable place then I would recommend Victoria as she really does a wonderful job.

Dana, Jill, Dee, Cassandra and I all sat at one table and talked for a while. It was funny as Jill wanted some pictures in her outfit which was awesome by the way and she had on these really cute heels so I took some pictures for her and Susan, Jill & Deeof course I had to get one with me in it. this is Me, Jill and Dee, We had 12 of us here tonight so we had a good turnout.

We talked about next Saturday which is Halloween and a lot of the girls from the group are going to the Escape and are all excited about it. Now I have to work early Sunday so I wasn’t planning on going but I just realized the next week we set our clocks back so we get an extra hour of sleep so I may go for a little bit so I can see everyone’s costume. The only bad thing is I haven’t got a new costume so I will either have to wear one I already have or try to come up with a costume this week. the other issue is I bought a lot of candy to give out to the trick or treaters and I have been good about not eating any of the candy. If I don’t give it out I will probably eat it.

Susan closeup (3)Karaoke started and several of our group sang, Dee, Laura, Lynn and even Jamie and Kristine did a duet. It was a fun night. Cassandra had to leave early but the rest of us stayed and had fun. It was almost 11:30 when  I called it a night. it was a great night and I had a blast.

Thanks for reading and have a great week.

October 25, 2015 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Halloween party 2014 at Cassandra and Peggy’s house, awesome

Well Saturday night November 1 and we are having our annual Halloween party at Cassandra & Peggy’s house. They host it every year and do an awesome job. Now I wasn’t thrilled with my costume but it would still be a fun night. This is me with Trixie and Julie, one of many pictures I will include.

Now I was going to pick Samantha, Cloe and her boyfriend for the party as they needed a ride plus it was nice to have someone else in the car with me to talk with. I picked them up at the Escape bar at 6 pm and we were on our way. It took about 45 minutes to get to Cassandra and Peggy’s house where the party was.

The part started at 7 but there were already people there when we got there. The first person I saw was Dan and he was disappointed I recognized him as he really did have a great costume. Now it was made easier as there really would not be a lot of men here tonight. Had I ran into him someplace else I wouldn’t have recognized him. This is me with Dan and Bianca, she had a great costume on also.

Now the house was incredibly decorated as always, Peggy did a great job as she always does. She starts the beginning of October getting the house already and puts in many hours and we all appreciate it. Peggy and Cassandra are so awesome for doing this every year. They cater the whole thing, food, drink, DJ, and prizes for costumes and ask nothing in return. They just want us to have a good time which we always do. They even had Paul the owner of Sweethome and one of his employee’s Debra here tonight to serve drinks. They are both really awesome. I didn’t think to get a Picture with Paul but I did with Debra.

Now there was so much food and it was all so wonderful and of course I had to have a little of everything well maybe not everything but it sure felt like I did as I ate to much as always. Peggy had these awesome meat balls and of course little Halloween cupcakes.

By 8 a lot of people had shown up and there is no way I could remember all of them so I am not going to even try. I did try to talk with everyone at one point or another and I think I got pictures of everyone that attended the party as I took 8o pictures plus Cassandra was also taking pictures so I am sure between the 2 of us no one was missed I hope.

Lilly also made it she is one of our newer members, her wife got sick and couldn’t make it so she brought a friend who knows about Lilly so I had to get a picture with them, this is me with Lilly and Mike. I joked with her and told her everyone thought Mike was her wife in costume.

We actually had several new members here tonight, a few of them this was their first time out which really make these parties fun as it gives them a safe place to go and get their feet wet in going out and hopefully they will go out more. One of the new girls was named Rebecca and she had a great costume. I got a chance to talk with her for a while, she wants to go out more but is nervous about getting out of her car and walking in someplace by herself and we have all been there. I told her about my first times going out and sitting in my car for an hour before I chickened out and went home. Kristy and Trish were also new members although Kristy did come out last night also.

Now no party would be complete without getting a picture with Kathy, she was dressed as a good witch. Well it was time for the Costume contest and we had some really good costumes. Some put some real thought and effort into their costumes. I think I liked Chris costume best as it was really original. He was the Land-o-lakes lady, Google it and look at the images. I should have gotten a picture with him and he did win most original costume.

They even had a dance contest and had prizes for that. I only saw a few of the people who danced and they all did great. Julie and Trixie won a prize for dancing. It was a really fun party, I am not sure how many people showed up but I would guess at least 70 and they all seemed to have a good time we even had some people there I had never met and I think I got a chance to talk with most of them. I love meeting new people.

Kim also made it tonight and she had on this really awesome Pirate costume. The funny thing is I got several pictures of her but I didn’t get one of the two of us. I am hoping someone else did as she really looked Cute

Now luckily tonight we set the clocks back an hour as daylight savings time ends so we get an extra hour of sleep which is good as I got up early today because I had to work and I had hoped to get off early enough to take a nap which didn’t happen. So I was getting tired. Here is my last picture. This is Mandy, Victoria and me.

It was about 12:45 when I left well Me, Samantha, Cloe and her boyfriend so I was thankful for the extra hour we get tonight as it will be an hour or more till I get home. They were all ready to leave by now too. It is always hard to leave and of course I had to go around and say goodbye to everyone.

It was just an awesome night and I want to Thank Cassandra and Peggy for all they did. They are two awesome people and do so much for our group, I have made so many wonderful friend here and I love them all.

Happy Halloween and thanks for reading.

November 2, 2014 Posted by | CD, halloween | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Halloween night 2014

Well Halloween fell on Friday night this year and I just had to go out even though I couldn’t stay out late. Now I wanted to go out and of course I got to wear one of my old costumes and of course I chose my Wonder Woman Costume. I have always been a fan of Wonder Woman and I love the chance to be her.

I started getting ready early so I could go out early and tonight it worked. I got there by 6 pm and brought my computer. Chris was there and he had his computer also and was playing with his flight simulator. Chris also wore his costume which as really good. It is the one he is wearing to the Halloween party Saturday night so I won’t say what it is but it is original and that makes it really good. We are all looking forward to the party.

Well I ordered dinner early tonight as I wouldn’t be out that late. They had a Steak dinner as the special tonight and I ordered it and it was awesome. Rachael showed up she had contacted me to see if I would be out and that was the other reason I just had to make it tonight. I have known Rachael for many years, I met her when I first started going out and since she doesn’t get out often I had to make it out to see her and of course get a picture with her. We had a chance to talk and catch up which was really nice.

Cristine also made it tonight and she had on a cute costume also. We had a small group tonight which I figured as we have our big party tomorrow night and we will have a lot of our group out, we usually have 70 to 100 out for this party.

There were lots of people here tonight in costumes which was also fun as I loved to see all the great costumes. Even Paul the owner was in a costume. Besides me as Wonder Woman there was a Superman and a Batman here tonight.

It was a fun night and I was sad when I had to leave but I kept to my plan and left at 9 pm. Here is one last picture from the night. Thanks for reading and Happy Halloween !

November 1, 2014 Posted by | CD, halloween | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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