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Saturday night at the Escape, Saint Patrick’s Day

It is Saturday and our group is once again going to Salem to join the girls down there. I have been there a few times and it is a nice place just such a far drive as it takes me over an hour to get there. Now I was planning on going as I wanted to see some of the girls down there again but as always things come up. I had things to do earlier in the day and they took longer to get done then I planned. It was almost 5 before I started getting ready so it would be a rush. Now I have been getting to the Escape between 5:30 and 6 so going to Salem I would still be there by 7 but not tonight. It was after 6 when I was ready to leave and I was still thinking of going but as I pulled out of the garage I saw my fuel light on as I forgot to fill up so I stopped at Costco to get gas and of course had to wait in line. I filled up and of course I noticed everyone getting gas had on green, that’s right it is Saint Patrick’s Day. Anyway, by now it was almost 6:30 and it would still be an hour to get to Salem and then there was the drive home after people celebrated. I decided to go to the Escape instead and see who showed up there. I got there at 6:45 and went in after a quick selfie in the car.

Now they were not busy so I got our normal table hoping we would have a big group. I then went to the bar to order food, Lindsey was working tonight, she only works when they need extra help so it was great to see her again, really all the girls working here are wonderful. I got back to my table and no more then got my computer out and Kate showed up so I put it away. It was great to see her as I was wondering if I would be the only one tonight. Well we got talking and of course the most important topic came up, nails. Kate actually likes my nails how I have been doing them the last several months, so I explained how I have them done and really it is no different than any other woman other then the acrylic is a lot thinner layer. Kate has had a pedicure before but never had acrylic nails and as I have said I think everyone should try it at least once. I explained about the process and soon I had my computer back out showing her a few videos. I love watching online as I have learned a lot this way. One I really like for learning makeup techniques is Julia Graf, she does an amazing job breaking down different looks. The other if you want to learn about acrylic nails is by Suzie and she shows you the different styles, looks and how to do. You really can learn most anything watching videos on YouTube.

Any way we talked about so many things tonight and of course why we do this and again there really is no easy simple reason other then we enjoy it. The same as anyone else who likes to dress up sometimes we just do it as the opposite gender. By about 7:30 it started to get busy and I mean busy, it was a packed house tonight. Seems everyone is Irish on Saint Patrick’s Day and wants to celebrate. There were a lot of new faces here tonight also. Now of course I had to get a picture with Kate tonight. It still amazes me how often and how many pictures I have of Susan, I can’t remember the last time I took a picture of my male self. I probably have a couple thousand Susan pictures on my computer and maybe 10 of my male self.

Any way I really started my blog all those years ago just as a way for me to document and remember my adventures as Susan, the early ones are pretty simple, pretty much where I went and that was it. Here are a couple early blogs from 2006, including a quick stop at Hooters. I never really thought anyone would find much less want to read about my time as Susan. As I saw people were not only reading it but following it I started to write more and in more detail. It really has been a fun thing to do over the years. Again, I would recommend everyone write down at least the important things in your life so you can remember them and maybe share them. A blog is a great way as you can set it public or private or even have it public but keep some private, opps a little off topic again.

By 8:30 it was packed and standing room only and as it was only Kate and I when a few people asked if they could have the other end of our table we said yes, no sense us taking up a table for 8 when it was just the two of us. Karaoke started about 9:30 and that is when it usually gets loud but with so many people here tonight just talking around you it was loud already. It is amazing how fast the night was going just sitting there talking, this really is the feminine side of me as in my male side I am not really a talker, I don’t sit around and just talk but Susan loves to sit and talk.

Lorie showed up a little before 10, she is our late-night girl. She doesn’t get out till 9:30 or 10 and I assume usually closes the bar. I remember those days for me, I wouldn’t leave the house till it was dark so my neighbors wouldn’t see me, even in the winter when it got dark early I still didn’t go out much before 7 for fear one of my neighbors might look out the window and of course we would stay till the place we went closed. Now I don’t even look outside any more or care what time it is. I know one of my neighbors knows about Susan, she found out back in 2012 and she has had no problem with it, as a matter of fact I ran into her at Starbucks the other day, first time she has seen me up close and talked with me. I don’t know if she has told anyone, I hope not as I really do want to keep this side of me private but I am also not afraid of it anymore and I kind of think most of my neighbors know. As much as I go out and I have seen many of my neighbors outside as I pull out of the garage or drive down the street they at the very least have to wonder. It does make it a lot easier when you lose that fear but as I said I still don’t want people telling others about me but I am not going to stop being me.

Kate, Lorie and I talked some more but it was getting late and I do have to be up early so it was about 10:30 When I went up to pay my bill which was no easy thing to do as there was a huge line, it took me about 15 minutes standing in line. It really was a fun night and a lot of new faces here tonight. It was a small group but so much fun to socialize. It is not about where we go or what we do but the friends you are with. It is funny as I have been going to Bars with friends at least once a week for 10 years now and yet I don’t drink. Now early on I would occasionally order a glass of wine and slowly sip on it all night as I felt I had to but I quickly figured out I needed to be me, be Susan and that means I didn’t need to drink either. I really have met some wonderful people over the years and am lucky to have them as friends.

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March 19, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Another Saturday night at the Escape

It is Saturday and my vacation is coming to an end, well not a true vacation as I had time I needed to use and things I needed to do around home but it did allow me some Susan time. Of course, I am going out tonight, I was home a little before 4 and started getting ready. Cassandra was hoping to be there by 6 and that was my goal although I was hopping earlier. It still amazes me that we use to not even go out till 9 or later and close places down and now we go early so we can get home at a decent hour. Part or it I am sure is age which creeps up on everyone. But more than that I think it is the fact we are more willing to go out early. I was ready a little before 5 and took a couple quick pictures before I left as I tend to forget once I am out.

Yes, tonight I was wearing my little, tight black dress and of course my corset under it. Now I have been wearing the corset a lot more probably 80% of the time I go out and I have found it has formed more to my body. The first time I put it on it took me over 20 minutes to get it on and laced up of course there was a learning curve to this but it was also harder to lace up. I can now get it tighter and it laces a lot easier. I think it only takes about 5 minutes now and yes, it is tighter then the first times I wore it but it does give me a nice shape as it pulls my waist in and comes down over the hips which actually makes my hips look bigger. It really is quite comfortable accept for getting in and out of the car or bending over to pick something up. Here is a picture of the corset I bought. It really is cute and the one I got is actually designed to be wore on the outside of your clothes. I just don’t think that would work for me, but it also works under my clothes just a little thick and during the Summer I am sure it will be hot.

Any way I was on my way to the Escape a little before 5 and got there at 5:20 and there were all kinds of parking spots right in front. As I said getting in and out of a car in a corset is not a graceful thing if you have a small car. I went inside and I of course was the first to get there from our group although there was probably 10 other people here already most at the bar. I remember when I would sit in the car till I saw someone I knew as I didn’t want to be the first one to arrive. I ordered dinner and got out my computer.

I had just finished my dinner when Cassandra showed up right about 6. We talked for a few minutes about Diva Las Vegas, we are both looking forward to it. We both changed our reservations so we arrive in Las Vegas on April 14 and leave on the 21st. We will be going through Palm Springs to drop Peggy off and pick up Julie. It will be so fun to have 3 of us in the car the whole trip. We have 8 of us for sure going and I hope a few more will go.

It wasn’t long and Nicole showed up. Her and her wife are down here for the weekend so she got to come out with us tonight. It is always so much fun to see her. She has been out almost as much as me this year. She started a blog but has it set to private so she can keep track of her outs. I would highly recommend this to everyone. Private or Public, transgender or not, keep a record of the things you do in life that are important to you, ad pictures, events, people you meet, places you go. Some day you will want to look back on things you did and this is a great way. When I ran into my neighbor that knows about Susan at Starbucks Friday I was able in just a couple minutes to look back and find the blog where she found out. Growing up I always thought diaries were silly but I really wish I had started my blog earlier and of course I did lose some of my blogs from GeoCities and yahoo 360 when they shut down. I now keep a lot of my blogs also on my computer just in case. Kimberly also showed up early so we have 4 of us here by a little after 6. The 4 of us talked about a lot of things as we waited for others to show up.

Next Kate, Melissa, Laura H. and Max showed up so we were up to of the local ladies at the bar came over and joined us for a while and of course she told us how nice we all looked which I never get tired of hearing. By 8 it was getting busy which is always nice to see as I do like when there is a big crowd more fun to people watch. WE all had a great time talking and of course a few of the girls played pool. By 9 Kimberly and Melissa had both left, tonight is daylight savings so we will move the clocks ahead 1 hour so we get less sleep tonight. I think a lot of us were planning on calling it an early night. About 9:30 Karaoke started and that is when it gets loud and hard to talk any more. Nicole was the next to leave, with Diva Las Vegas coming up in 5 weeks this will be her last trip down before we go so it will be a while till I see her again. She really is a good friend and has been coming out with the group pretty regular when you figure she lives 3 hours away. I still remember the first time I met her at Washington Square, that was February of 2014, wow 4 years ago. I was going out shopping and she contacted me on Facebook. She was in town and wanted to meet me. She was not dressing yet so I would meet her male side. It was a wonderful meeting and we hit it off and now she goes out as much as I do if not more. I really have met some wonderful friends as Susan and even the ones I meet now shape my life and Susan in some way.

It was almost 10 and I paid my bill as I was going to go home, after all with moving the clocks forward tonight it really is 11. Lori showed up as she is our late girl. She comes out around 10 and I guess stays till closing although I can’t say for sure as it has been a long time since I have been out that late. Well I got talking to her which was fun and of course listened to some of the karaoke and before I knew it, it was after 11. It will be a short night. I got home about 11:45 and I was ready for bed. The only problem was I had washed my sheets and blanket today so I had to make my bed first. Now I tried doing this as Susan and it was hard as 5-inch heels, and a corset are not normal stuff you wear. Strangely enough though what gave me the most trouble was my hair which kept getting in my face every time I bent over, so I removed the hair and finished making my bed before taking my heels, dress and corset off. Wow I would not want to be a maid.

It was a fun night out with my friends and I look forward to our next outing. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what I am doing as Susan with my latest blog.

March 11, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night at the Escape, yes, I get to go tonight.

It is Saturday and I had 2 things going on today so I wasn’t planning on being able to go out tonight. Well luck was with me and 1 got canceled and the other one got over early so I found myself at home a little after 3 with the rest of the day open. You guessed it I will be going out tonight, I started getting ready for a fun night out. Now I didn’t know for sure who all would be there other than Cassandra who posted in the group and Nicole who texted mew, she drove down from Seattle today just to go out with us. I was ready by about 5:20 and on my way getting to the Escape a little before 6. They were a little busy for as early as it was and also the two big tables were reserved for a party at 9. Now I debated about sitting there till 9 but decided to take the 3 small tables that were pulled together. They are taller with bar stools with no backs so not as comfortable but I was worried that come 9 we might not find a table to move to and it was the right decision.

I got my computer out and ordered dinner, I didn’t have much time on my computer as Cassandra showed up just a few minutes later followed by Nicole and Kimberly. Yes, we had 4 of us out by shortly after 6. We started talking and of course the first thing was Diva Las Vegas. We have made our plans now and Cassandra, Peggy and I will leave Friday morning and drive to Palm Springs to meet up with Julie and Trixie. Saturday Cassandra, Julie and I will drive to Las Vegas for Diva Las Vegas leaving Peggy to spend the week with Trixie. After Diva Las Vegas on Saturday we the 3 of us will drive back to Palm Springs drop off Julie and pick up Peggy and Sunday drive home, Road trip for Susan. This will save us a Friday and Saturday night in Las Vegas which are the most expensive, so instead of 9 nights it will only be 7 nights and should save us some money plus we get to spend more time with both Peggy’s and Julie.

We also talked about our Mexican Cruise in October which really is not that far off. We are all looking forward to it. I have never been on a cruise before so it will not only be a first for Susan but a first for me all the way around plus as we are planning on flying as our female selves that will also be a first. I am sitting right across the aisle from Julie and Cassandra so that will be fun. I am pretty sure that Kate, Mellissa and her wife are also on the same flight. It will be so much fun.

About 7:30 it started to get busy and I was glad I got the tables I did. Kate showed up as did Laura M, Jan & Lynn and one other girl from our group so we had 9 of us here tonight. Now they actually had to big parties here tonight so by 9 it was packed and everyone was having a great time. It is nice as we have got to know some of the regulars here so I was talking with a few of them also. It really was an enjoyable evening. Kimberly was the first to leave followed by Nicole as she had a 3-hour drive home.

Karaoke started and they had a different KJ tonight and she was really good also. Seems all the KJ’s for Karaoke can sing really well. It was a really fun night and I stayed out till 10:30 before calling it a night. Now I am actually on vacation this week but I have a lot of things I need to do so my Susan time will be a little limited. But on the top of my list is to try and get my Passport application turned in. I have been meaning to do that since December.

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March 4, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday at the Escape, getting there early

It is Saturday and I am going out for the evening to the Escape, not sure who else will be there but that is okay. My plan was to get there early and do some studying before others showed up. The next couple weeks my Susan time will be limited mostly sur of the moment outings which can also be fun. It is nice though to know when you will be going out though as it gives you time to plan and think about it and plan.

Well I started getting ready about 3:30 with the plan of being ready by 5. I was right on schedule. Now if you have been following my blogs you know I bought a corset several weeks ago from Orchard Corset and I have been wearing most times I go out as I have found it really does nice me a nice shape. Well I tried putting it on a little lower as my shape is not quiet the same as the typical female and this actually works better as it gives me better hips. Also wearing it so much has made it fit better and easier to lace up as it has somewhat formed to my body. It is the last thing I put on before my dress and hair. So tonight, I got it all on and had a nice shape. Now it was time for my dress. I had several on the bed and tried a couple but my blue and black one which was the second one I tried was the one I was going for tonight. Well I put the other 4 back in the closet and had the one I was going to wear but I decided to see if I could tighten the corset a little more as I have had it on for about 10 minutes now and yes to my amazement I could. So, I guess the trick is put the corset on and move around a little and then tighten again. Looking in the mirror I would say my waist was 4 or 5 inches smaller than my hips, I had an hourglass shape that looked great. The dress was on and the hair and I looked great. Corsets really do give you a nice shape.

It was just after 5 and I got my stuff and went down to the garage to get in the car, I have a smaller car. Wow getting in was hard and I couldn’t breathe. By the time I was in the car I had to sit a moment and catch my breath. Sitting in a low car seat with a corset, especially if it is tight is not real comfortable and a little hard to breathe. It is only a short drive but I was gals when I got to the Escape, it was just as hard getting out of the car. I went in and was glad I would be sitting on a hard chair that doesn’t sink down. I put my stuff on a table and noticed Lee over at the bar. She is one of our newer members, only her 3rd time out. I went over and said hi to her and she came over and joined me at the table.

She was here with her Sister, yes, she has come out to her sister and she is supportive of her which is great. Now it is funny as each time she has come out she has come out with someone different, tonight being her sister, they were actually meeting 2 other women tonight and then going someplace else. Wow she has come a long way fast I still have not come out to anyone from my male side although at least 1 of my neighbors know and I am guess more do. The five of us sat and talked for about an hour till it was time for them to leave at 6:30 as they had 7 pm reservations. I told them how great it was they were supportive of Lee especially her Sister. They were all really nice. On the way out, Lee’s Sister thanked me for looking after Lee which was nice and of course made me feel good.

Now I was by my self at least as far as our group but there were some people around me at tables. I got my book out and started reading. I discovered long ago I am not a reader, some people love to read books I have always believed if a book was good enough to read it would be a movie. Anyway, reading a boring text book is not easy. This I going to be a long couple of weeks and I am not sure I will get through the whole book. I read about an hour till Kate showed up. I was glad when she got there as it gave me a reason to put my book away which probably is not the right attitude.

Kate and I talked for a while mostly about why we like to dress and we still really can’t explain it. Kates girlfriend knows she dresses but Kate just told her that she goes out as Kate and she is taking it well, but that is how we got on the topic of why we dress. I really don’t have a defining reason why, I guess it is like asking someone why they like ice cream or chocolate. The reason is they like the taste, it not like you can give a long list of reasons you just like it. I just like dressing up and being Susan. I can spend an hour getting ready to go sit at Starbucks for a few hours and do work, my blog, e-mails or just goof off on the computer. Something I could do just as easy at home or even as my male self at Starbucks so it really doesn’t make sense. When I am at Starbucks I do kind of people watch but not as much as I use to and I am not really thinking about how I am dressed or how I look, hopefully cute. There really is no reason I can come up with other then I am just being me, just being who I am. I think so many of us want to be able to point to one thing, one point in time, one event that happened to us and say this is why but I have never found that. This is just who I am and I have accepted that and I think that makes all the difference. If you can accept yourself for who you are that is all that matters.

Kate and I were beginning to think we would be the only ones tonight but then Laura M and her girlfriend showed up and shortly after Teri Lee showed up. She is one of our newer members and came down from the Seattle area. I have exchanged messages with her so it was wonderful to meet her in person. She was meeting another girl she became friends with through our group named Andi who also came out tonight. I met Andi at Diva Las Vegas last year and she joined our group. It was good to see her again and get to know more about her. She actually met Teri Lee a couple weeks ago for Teri Lee’s first time out, tonight is her second and she was doing really well. Our group the Rose City T-girls is really a wonderful social group, but what makes it so special is the help it gives to helping new t-girls come out in the world. It really is a wonderful feeling, like earlier tonight when Lee’s sister thanked me for helping Lee it made me feel good but I have to admit I really love the feeling of helping someone new come out and become themselves. I remember my first time out and the next few times and the girls who helped me. Lori the girl who tapped on my car window and asked if I was going in just as I was about to leave for the 4th time without getting out of my car. Alice who I met after going out just a couple times and mad me feel so welcome and helped me get over my sheer terror. Cassandra who formed this group that I have been part of now for years. They all has such big impacts on my life and if I can do that for just one girl then I am the lucky one.

Another girl also showed up so we had 6 of us here tonight and we all had a great time talking and yes it was a busy night as there was standing room only. It is always fun when there are so many people here but it also makes it loud and hard to talk especially when Karaoke started but it was a fun night. Even talked with a few of the regulars here not from our group which is always fun. It was a really good night out, of course I stayed out later then I planned.

It was about 11:30 when I called it a night. I had been here about 6 hours but didn’t seem like it. I paid my bill and said my goodbyes. I went and got in my car and wow as hard ass it was earlier getting into my car it was worse now. Don’t get me wrong, I love my new corset and I am thinking of getting another but the drive home was hard, sitting in the low seat sunken in I was really uncomfortable. All I could think about was getting home and taking off the corset. May have been a little on the tight side but hopefully I will get use to it as I love the look it gives me, bit only short drives when it is tight.

Little long tonight but thanks for reading and be sure and see what’s new with Susan on my most recent blog.

February 25, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday and going to the Escape tonight.

It has been a fun vacation, got some things done around home and lots of Susan time. I got up this morning and had things I had to do. The first thing I noticed were my nails, don’t get me wrong they still look great, slight pink color and kind of long but the red was gone. That was so hard to remove the red as I so wish I could have red or some other bright color all the time. Now the funny thing is for the week I had them I really didn’t think about them I just had pretty red nails but now that the color is gone I really notice it and miss it. Well now the next time will be Diva Las Vegas which is April 15th to 20th this year. I am looking forward to it. Well I got everything done and started getting ready a little after 3 as I wanted to get out early.

Now today getting ready was a challenge. I wanted to try my lipstick which really is a bright pink, I have only worn it once, here is a picture from that night as I thought it looked good. It goes well with this hair color. Any way I got my makeup all done and was looking pretty good and it was time to get dressed. Now I was going to wear a red dress again as it sets off the lipstick but I saw my new coat I bought and really wanted to wear it and as it is kind of a maroon / wine color I got out a dark maroon dress and put it on, didn’t really go well with the lipstick but this is not a lipstick you can easily change I decided to go with it. I went to get my hair and realized I had washed them earlier and they were not dry. Which left me 2 choices my dark brown or black hair. I went with the dark brown and looked in the mirror, was not thrilled with the look and I seriously thought about starting all over but I had texted Cassandra and said I would be there around 5:30 and it was already 5. It would take at least an hour to remove and redo all my makeup so I went as I was.

I got to Escape right at 5:30 and was going to get a selfie in the car before going in, wow in the natural day light the lipstick looked really harsh with the hair color and dress. I went in and luckily inside where the light is dimmer it didn’t looks as bad. I did take a couple selfies but wow not going to post them. It is funny as I always have people comment and tell me how I never take a bad picture. I will let you in on a little secret, I only post the good ones and tonight there were none. Pink lipstick is a little harder to pull off I think.

I ordered dinner and got my computer out and Cassandra showed up about 10 minutes later so we had a chance to talk. We are looking forward to Diva Las Vegas and still planning on leaving early Friday April 13 but instead of driving straight to Las Vegas we are thinking of going to Palm Springs. Peggy will go with us to Palm Springs and she will spend the week with Trixie and we will pick Julie up and go to Las Vegas on Saturday, same going home we will leave on Saturday go back to Palm Springs and drop Julie off and pick up Peggy and come home. This will save us a Friday and Saturday night ibn Las Vegas which are the most expensive nights plus it would be a blast to have Peggy along going down and back and Julie going to and from. Just need to see if Peggy can get the time off work.

Kearren also showed up early and it was good to see her. We actually had a big group tonight, Jan, Lynn, Jacky, Kate, Lorie, Narciss, Kimberly, Laura M. and a couple of her friends, even Lee showed up with one of her friends. It was great to see Lee out again as this is only her second time in public. It is funny as she came out with a different female friend so at least two of her friends knows about Lee. Something I have not done as I have not told any of my male side friends about Susan. I feel like I am missing someone and if I am I apologize, we had girls at our big table, the bar, and 2 small tables and with some playing pool, and singing Karaoke it really was hard to keep track of everyone.

It was a good night and I did make sure I at least said hi and talked briefly with everyone but with big groups it is hard. Now we have talked many times ab out going to barfs like the Escape and the pro’s and Con’s. It is a really friendly place just like Sweet Home and we are accepted there and all the girls feel comfortable. The bad part is it can get loud especially when the Karaoke starts and it is hard to talk. Some of the girls have a hard time hearing over the music me included. Guess I am not as young as I use to be. I think this is why we like the Wednesday night dinners so much but to go sit in a restaurant for 5 to 7 hours would be hard as they would want the table for the next groups. I guess there is no perfect answer but we need to take all our members need when we pick what we are going to do as we really do have a diverse group.

I got to talk with Jackie for a while as she is here from up North. I think I have met her once several years ago, it was nice to get to know her better. I really do enjoy talking with people and getting to know them, not something I do in my male side as I tend to keep more to myself when I am not Susan. As Susan I am way more outgoing, not like Cassandra but I am working on it. We all talked about Diva Las Vegas as I think we have 10 or 12 going from our group and also the Mexican Cruise which we have 29 signed up for now, of course I am sure some will back out between now and then as it really is hard to schedule something so far out. I made my reservations last August for this coming October, over 14 months ahead of time. By the way there is still time to sign up and go if you want just go to our group the rose city t-girls and we have a page for it. If you are even thinking about a cruise be sure and check it out.

I stayed out later then I planned as it was almost 11:30 when I called it a night but it was a lot of fun and I really do enjoy going out with my friends. It is not so much about where we go but being out with friends. Thanks for reading my blog and be sure and keep up with me on my most recent blog.

Happy Valentine’s Day!

February 11, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Gender | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday at the Escape

It is Saturday and I am going to the Escape tonight; not sure how many will be there as I know a couple girls are out of town. Okay before I start this blog I want to make a side note. Last Saturday I went to the Escape and I wore an old corset that I got at one of the clothing exchanges we had, doesn’t really fit but it did make me sit up straight and gave me great posture which I liked and I mentioned I was thinking about now buying one that actually fits. I was surprised as I got several comments, e-mails and instant messages on this topic and again surprisingly every one recommended Orchard corset so on Wednesday night I decided to check out their web page. They have a wide selection and the prices were a lot less than I expected. Well I decided to measure myself and send in and see what they recommended although I had the one I liked. Thursday, I got home from work and I had an e-mail reply from them of the one they recommended and it wasn’t the one I liked. The one they reamended was the 305 well as I looked at it I decided to order one, not the one they recommended but the one I liked as they had a purple one on sale. Well any way I ordered it Thursday night and to my surprise it was actually delivered today, 2 days later so yes, I am going to wear it tonight. It really is pretty and I guess is more designed to wear over your cloths but I think for me that would be a bit much so it will go underneath.

I started getting ready a little before 4 as I was excited to try my new corset, I got my makeup done and I started getting dressed and I knew the corset would have to be one of the last things as I can’t really bend over with it on so I put me heels on before the corset. All that was left was my dress and wig so it was time for the corset. Now I did glance at the instructions, not one of my normal things and I saw they recommended the first few times not to tighten it too much to break it in. now with the front all hooked shut it was time to lace up the back. Now this is not an easy thing to do especially as my arms are not flexible enough to reach far up my back. It took a lot more effort than I thought but it did give me a nice shape and pulled my tummy in just a little big in the hops as well I have no hips. Probably why they recommended the shorter one.

I was on my way by a little after 5 and yes, it is really hard to get into a car when you can’t bend your mid-section. Also, not as comfortable when you sit on a seat that sinks in, I would not want to drive far wearing this. It does change the way you sit, stand and walk though and that is really good. I tried a new lipstick tonight that is really more of a pink color and I liked it although red is still my favorite.

I got to the Escape about 5:30 and parked right in front of the door and went in. there were only a couple people here but this is probably the earliest I have ever gotten here. Now the one big table was reserved so I took the other one and it was a good thing I did as about 20 minutes later another big group came in and they pulled 4 of the smaller tables together for them. I ordered dinner and felt a little bad taking up such a big table when I was not sure if anyone else would show up. I caught up on some e-mails and just played on the internet. By 7:30 it was really getting busy and a couple ladies sat down at the far end of the table which was fine as I didn’t feel so bad now. Kate showed up a little before 8, I was glad to see her as it is always more fun when you have someone else with you. Somehow going to a bar by yourself is not something I am big on. Kate and I talked for a whole and we got talking about makeup. I told her one of the YouTube channel (Julia Graf) I like to watch for tips on makeup and she took a picture of my computer screen with her phone to remember it something I have done before. We had a nice time just talking.

Now one of our newer girls to the group was going to come out tonight. I met her I think at the Halloween party which was her first time out anywhere and tonight would be her first time out in public. She had a friend that was coming with her for support, that first few times out is the hardest. Well it was about 8:30 when Lee showed up with her friend, a co-worker she came out to named Anne. That is something I have never done tell a co-worker so she is ahead of me on that. Now I could see she was really nervous but she was also so happy to be out, I remember those feelings when I was first going out. I was glad she joined us. Her friend Anne was so much fun and just so happy and supportive of Lee.

Now the bad thing is Karaoke started so it was hard to talk and hear but between the songs we did our best. Now I was actually amazed how comfortable the corset was, of course being new it wasn’t laced up super tight. It does make me sit up straight and it actually gives me that little arch in the lower back females have. The only bad thing is t is thick and really keeps your midsection warm, great when it is cold out but probably not good on hot days.

Now we were talking and of course I had to ask about how Lee came out to Anne, I have often thought about who I could come out to but that is one thing I have not done. Of course, now that we were asking questions Anne asked about my breast and till she said something I hadn’t noticed but the corset had pushed some flesh up and I actually had some really nice cleavage which you can see in the picture above. I guess another bonus of the corset. That’s when I told them about the corset I had bought and was wearing. At least I know it was not noticeable I had one on, Kate also mentioned she had also noticed. Lorie showed up just before 10, seems she was here last week and I had left just before she arrived. We had a smaller group tonight but still fun and I got to know a little more about Lee and her friend Anne. Lee was also getting more relaxed as the night went on. She went up a couple times to the bar by herself and even was talking to some of the other people here. It really does get easier the more you go out.

Now normally by 10:30 I am ready to call it a night but we were having so much fun, I really do enjoy when we have girls out for the first time, makes me think back to my first times going out. Besides the bar was packed and it was hard to even move around, probably one of the busiest nights I have seen here. Any way I knew it was getting late but there was always a line at the bar. They took a break in the Karaoke and played a dance song for the group at the next table celebrating a birthday and the dance floor was packed and there were only 5 people in line at the bar so I took the opportunity to go pay my bill.

It was getting late and Lee and Anne called it a night so I was thinking I should do the same. I looked at my phone and it was almost 12:30 am, wow this is the latest I have been out in a long time. I said my goodbyes and I was out to my car, again not easy getting into the car and yes as I said I was actually pretty comfortable in the corset all night but wow getting into the car was harder and it was not easy sitting in the front seat. I do have a small car that I sink down in the seat. The other thing with a corset is it is hard to twist to look behind you, it really does limit how your midsection moves. By the time I got home I was ready to take the corset off, I have had it on for almost 8 hours, I wonder what it would be like if it was really laced up tight. Any way I took it off and picked up the box it came in and the instructions and I noticed where it talked about not lacing it too tight the first few times you wear it, it also says you should only wear it 1 to 2 hours the first times too let it get broke in, opps. Any way I am thinking now of buying the corset they recommended to me

It was a good night out. Next Saturday we are doing a dinner at the City Grill in downtown Portland which I am looking forward to. Thanks for reading and be sure and keep up with what’s new in my life on my most recent blog. By the way I would recommend Orchard Corset if you are looking for a corset.

January 28, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, T-girl | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Quiet Saturday night

It is Saturday and our group the Rose City T-girls are heading down to Salem to go out with the members down there, we do this once a month. Unfortunately, that is too far for me to go but I still want to go out so I have decided I will go to the Escape and have dinner and see if anyone else shows up. Funny I use to not go out unless I knew for sure someone else would be there. I started getting ready about 4:30 and as I did my makeup I was thinking about what I should wear tonight, I really do put a lot more thought into what I wear as Susan and how I look. Not that I don’t care as a man but I just think as a woman it is more important. I took my time doing my makeup as this is something I really enjoy. When I finished my makeup, it was time to get dressed and I had decided on my black and gold dress. I got it out of the closet and I don’t know why I moved some other things and I saw my black corset. It is not a fancy corset and is one you wear under your cloths, I actually got it when we did the last clothing exchange. I am not even sure other then try it on I have ever worn it so I decided tonight was the night.

Now I am no expert on corsets and I know or am pretty sure they have different names for the different styles, this one went just below the bust but also had shoulder straps that your arms go though. Now the bad part as I have a longer body the corset didn’t go down as far as it should so it flares out just above where my hips are. By the way I was smart enough to put my heels on first as I figured it would be hard to bend over in the corset. With the corset on I pulled on the ties and tightened it up and was able to pull it all the way closed, I guess in this way it is just a little big. Now it did pull everything in and I actually had a waist ass it pulled it in. Now I put on the dress which was a little harder as with the shoulder straps I couldn’t get my arms up all the way. This was going to be an interesting evening but I could tell it would help with my posture. All dressed now and I was ready to leave at 5:40.

Now I use to look outside and see who was out, then when it was clear I would go get in my car and then open the garage door so I could leave but not anymore. I just walked to the garage without looking out, opened the garage door and then walked to my car, I was getting in when the garage door was open, of course I didn’t see anyone. Now as I got into the car I realized how the corset limited my movement, I couldn’t just get in the same way and I found I am not very graceful getting into the car with a corset on. Not sure if this is normal as I have never watched a woman in a corset get in and out of a car but it is a new challenge for me. Now driving I found I sat up more straight which is good as I have always tended to slouch when I sit. I got to the Escape right at 6 and parked right in front. Getting out of the car was just as much of a challenge. I think it also changes the way I walk also.

I went in and sat down at the table and yes, the corset effects everything you do, walking, standing and sitting but It does make you have good posture. I was sitting straight up with my shoulders back, yes, the straps over the shoulders made me keep my shoulders back or the straps dug into them. A corset is not the most comfortable thing you will wear but it will give you good posture and a better shape.

Lindsey was working tonight, she doesn’t work here regularly but fills in when they need help and of course she remembered me by name which is always wonderful. I ordered dinner and got out my computer to catch up on e-mails and do some work while I waited to see if anyone else would show up. I also talked with a couple of the regulars that come here and I feel bad as they remember my name and I don’t remember theirs. My dinner came and it was wonderful as always of course I had their breakfast. Now they had the jukebox going and it was loud this week but most of the music that was played was good. I got caught up on my e-mails and then started doing some of my work as well as watching some of the TV so I was multi-tasking.

By about 8:30 it was getting busy and I felt bad sitting at a table that seats 8 by myself. A couple ladies came in and asked if they could sit at the table and I said sure as it was looking like I might be the only one here tonight. Karaoke started at 9 and I was finishing my work, not because I was done but because my battery was almost dead on my computer, guess it wasn’t fully charged tonight. It was also really busy now and so I sat and listened to some of the people sing karaoke. It was a good night but would have been better if others had shown up, I am not against going out by myself as I do it all the time when I go to Starbucks or shopping but it still seems a little strange to be in a bar by yourself and I would feel the same on my male side so I guess that is okay.

It was a little after 9:30 when I called it a night and yes it was just as hard getting back into my car but I did sit up straight all night long with my shoulders back which I liked. That is one thing I want to change about myself as slouching looks bad and is not good for you but I do it so easily and I really have to be thinking about it to sit up straight. Please any of my friends feel free to tell me when I slouch as I really do want to fix this.

It was about 10:15 when I got home and started the process of changing back from Susan. Now by this time I was use to the corset even though it still restricted my movement but it didn’t feel as tight as when I put it on. But when I untied it and took it off wow it did feel good and I could tell I had worn one. I am now thinking I should get one that is a little longer and just a little smaller in the waist, I could wear it more and train myself to sit up straight, I think I will look online and see what I can find. Any way it was a good night and as my battery went dead I still have work to do so maybe Sunday if I can find a little time I will go to Starbuck’s for a few hours.

Thanks for reading and be sure to see what is new on my most recent blog.

January 21, 2018 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Saturday, two days before Christmas

It is the Saturday before Christmas, actually two days before Christmas. This year has goo=ne by so fast. Now I am going to the Escape tonight although I am not sure how many from our group will be out as I know some are out of town for the holidays. Kate posted in our group to see if anyone else was going out so I posted back I would be there so I figure at least she will be there. I started getting ready about 4:30 a little later then I wanted as I was hoping to get there early. I was all ready and on my way by 5:40 so I got there right at 6 and was able to park right in front, one of the reasons for getting there early.

I went in and they were not that busy so I got our usual table which seats 10, I always feel a little bad taking such a big table when I am not sure how many if any will show up. One of the ladies at the bar who I have talked to many times was there and said hi and how nice I looked which I always love, it is my feminine side but I love hearing how nice or pretty I look. N ow I feel bad as I can not remember her name and I didn’t want to ask her what it was again. Any way I talked with her and two of her friends for about 10 minutes and of course one of the topics here heels. I finally sat down and broke out my computer and of course ordered dinner as I was hungry.

Now there were other people in the bar but it was not real busy which I kind of figured being a couple days before Christmas. I figured I would get a quick selfie. I had a nice dinner and caught up on some work as I waited to see if anyone else would show up. One of our new members in the group Lee said she was going to stop by in boy mode as she still has not gone out of her house as a female yet so now I was thinking there would be at least two others tonight.

It was now after 7:30 and I was beginning to wonder if I would be it when Kate arrived. Now I don’t mind going out by myself as I do it all the time when I go to Starbuck’s but it is always more fun when you have someone else with you. It was good to see her out. We talked for a few minutes when this guy walked over and introduced himself as Lee and joined us. It was nice to meet lee and she yes, I am calling her she as hopefully when she comes out with the group in the future it will be as her female self but if not, that is okay and she is still welcome. Now I give her a lot of credit to come out as her male self. It took me years before I would let anyone know who I was on my male side or see me. Any way the three of us talked and got to know each other better. Lee seams really nice but has the same fears and concerns we all have had at one time or another. I told her it does get easier with time and going out but the first few times are hard. I remember my first times I was so scared and really didn’t want to talk with anyone but I have a wonderful friend named Alice who really helped me. I remember one of the first times we were out, two girls came over and started talking to me and I thought that was so wonderful and it really helped me feel more comfortable, found out later Alice had run into them at the bar and was talking to them and told them how nervous I was and asked them to come over and say hi to me. It was a simple thing but it really did make a big difference for me and helped me feel more at ease. It is funny the things you remember from your past that to others may not seem like that big of a thing, a kind word, compliment or just being there with the person but it can have a huge impact on them.

Well I learned a lot about Lee, she has actually come out to her younger sister and a friend and both took it well which is great. Now there are some who know me both ways but they met me as Susan well plus my neighbor who know but that was because she saw me and found out but I have never just come out to someone about Susan. That is a hard thing to do as once you tell one person you really have no control over it and you can never truly know who knows. I don’t know if my neighbors told anyone else and to this day none of my neighbors have ever said a thing about it but it is possible every one of my neighbors know. I mean it is not something most people would walk up to you and say “guess what I heard about you?” the good thing is none of my neighbors treat me any different.

It really was nice to just sit and talk, well a little later another man came over and said he was listening to our conversation and he even apologized for listening in which you really have to figure others around you can hear what you are talking about. Anyway, he introduced himself and then showed me a picture. He went to Over the Rainbow Wednesday and got a makeover. I will also use her female name which is Evonne. Any way I asked her to join us and the 4 of us kept talking, Evonne also has never been out and it turns out Lee and Evonne work in the same field, kind of a small world. I told Evonne about our group the Rose City T-girls and invited her to join. It was nice to get to know them both and I hope they both come out with our group again. Now it wasn’t real busy tonight but soon Karaoke started which I was looking forward to as I wanted to hear some Christmas songs, yes, I love Christmas Music and have been listening to it since before Thanksgiving. Any way there was no Christmas music tonight it was just like every other Saturday night which there was nothing wrong with but I was hoping for Christmas music.

One more of our girls showed up so we had 4 from our group tonight which was smaller than normal but better then I thought there would be. Everyone was in a good mood and several girls came over and talked with us which is nice. Evonne was the first to leave and then Lee, I really hope they had a good time and felt welcome in our group. Kate played some pool and I sat and listened to the singing, it was just good to be out again. It was almost 11 when I decided to call it a night, I got up to leave when the Karaoke called a lady up and announced it would be the first Christmas song of the night. Well I have been waiting for this all night so I sat back down. The Lady sang Oh come all ye Faithfull and did a really good job, now I will admit this was not the Christmas music I expected in a bar but I sang along, I really love Christmas music but I do think my favorite is the Christmas Carols as after all this is what Christmas is all about. After she was done most of the people clap. Well it was now 11 and I needed to go so I said goodbye to my friends and headed for the door. On my way I stopped at the bar where the lady who just sang was sitting and told her how well she did and how much I enjoyed the song as I love Christmas Music. Well much to my surprise she stood up and thanked me and gave me a huge hug. We talked for a few minutes and she told me she hadn’t seen her dad in years and it was one of his favorite Christmas songs and how she used to go to Church with him all the time. I talked with her a few more minutes and she gave me another hug and thanked me. As I said before you never know what impact you can have on someone. And this time of year, can be hard as a lot of people don’t have family they can spend it with especially in the LGBT community. I was on my way home and I wished I had stayed just a little longer and talked with her some more.

It was a good night and a wonderful way to start the Christmas weekend off. To all my friend a very Merry Christmas and please know you are in my heart and thoughts.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.

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December 24, 2017 Posted by | Christmas, Dinner out, Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Saturday night at Escape

Another Saturday night and we are going to the Escape. I always look forward to when I can go out with my friends. I started getting ready early as I wanted to be there by as I knew Cassandra was going early. Now I started my makeup and tonight I wanted to go with a dark wine lipstick so I knew what dress I would be wearing. Now it is always easier getting ready when I know what I will wear and how I will do my makeup before I start. It only took me about an hour to get ready and be on my way.

I got to the Escape just before 6 and was able to park right in front of the door. Cassandra was already there. Now of course I had to get a selfie tonight. Cassandra and I sat and talked while we waited for our dinner. Of course, the big topic was our dinner cruise this coming Saturday. I am trying to figure out the best place to park and what time to get there. I don’t think they let you board till 6:30 and they leave at 7. It will be cold out Saturday night near freezing so I really don’t want to get there to early and have to stand outside as I will be in a dress and heels. It will be a fun night though, I think we have 20 going. This is actually something I have wanted to do for a few years and never got to it. There are a couple parking lots close so it should be fine.

Laura M and Kate also showed up, it was good to see them. I got talking with Laura and she is going to Diva Las Vegas this coming year. It is official the dates are April 15th to 20th. Her and Kate are going to drive down and get there on the 15. Laura used my computer and booked a room at the Four Queens so Cassandra, Julie, Veronica, Laura, Kate and myself will all be staying there. It is going to be so much fun.

The surprise of the night was when Sandy walked in. I have not seen her in a couple years, she is from up by Seattle also and just Wednesday night when we had Dinner I was talking with Amy about her. It was great to see her again and talk with her, she is really nice. Now she was in town working and then came out to spend a little time with us. She was only here about an hour as she had to drive home tonight. Julie will be bummed she missed her tonight.

Lorie also showed up and another girl so we had a good turnout again tonight. We also talked a little about Embers and also our Mexican cruise next October. There is still time to sig up so check out our groups web page and there is a link to the cruise there for more information. Cassandra say we have 29 so far signed up and they are not all from our group, only about half and some are wives or significant others. We have t-girls from Washington, California, the Midwest that are going. Now this is not a t-girl cruise as there are about 3000 passengers on the ship but we want to see how many we can get. It would be so much fun if we could get 40 to 50 t-girls to go. It does cost a little more than the normal vacation but it will be worth it. If you have ever thought about it or just want some information please please check out our web page.

It really was a fun night out with my friends. With the Holidays coming fast life will get busy and that means time as Susan will be a little harder to get and that just makes it that much more special. It really is hard to believe it is December already. Thanks for reading and have a great Holiday Season.

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December 5, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at the Escape

It is the Saturday after Thanksgiving (I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving) and I am going to the Escape tonight. Not sure how many will be there being a Holiday weekend. Now one of our members is doing a late Thanksgiving dinner for our group, how nice is that. I would have gone but I wasn’t able to get out that early, so I am hoping some of them will stop by the Escape after the dinner. I started getting ready about 5. I really look forward to my time getting ready, it is so relaxing and calming, just makes the entire day better. I was all ready a little after 6 and on my way. I got to the Escape and it was busy, but I did find a parking spot and went in. Our usual table was open, so I went ahead and sat down. Now it started to get even busier and soon almost all the tables were taken, and I felt a little bad sitting at a table that had 10 seats hoping others would show up.

I got out my computer and started checking e-mails and of course ordered dinner as I was hungry, and they have really good food here. Now the Oregon civil war game between the Ducks and Beavers was on and in Oregon this is huge, so I thought a lot of the people were here for this. By the way the Duck won big. Watching the people in the bar I think most were Duck fans. Well the game got over and a few people left but they were replaced by others coming in. I was so glad when Laura M showed up, it was great to see her again as it has been a while plus I didn’t feel as bad at this big table with 2 of us here.

Laura and I had a good chance to talk which was nice as we got caught up on what is new with each other. We talked about some of our groups upcoming events which we really are an active group. We also talked about Diva Las Vegas, Laura is planning on going if she can get the time off from work. So, I told her about past years and what are plans are for this year and where we are Staying, Four Queens downtown. Yes, several of us have already booked our rooms even though the dates are not final, I have only seen 1 comment so far against the dates, so I am pretty sure they are the dates for this coming year, April 15 to 20 2018. Should be announced real soon if these dates are final. I was able to get a room for 9 nights (2 weekend) for a little over $800, really good price as the 2 weekends are probably 2/3 of the price. You can stay where ever you want and there will be girls at a lot of different hotels. I really think Laura will have a blast. Right now we have Cassandra, Julie, Veronica, Melissa and her wife, Me, Kate and Laura and possible one other girl from our group going so we will have a nice showing there again this coming year.

It was a bout 8:30 and other girls started showing up, the ones that had gone to the Thanksgiving dinner. Kate was the first followed by Cassandra, Jan, Lynn, Lorie and Marcy. This was only Marcy’s 3rd time out and the first time I have got to meet her so that was nice. She seems really nice and it was nice to get to now her better. Now by 9:30 it was packed and standing room only, so it was a good thing we had a table. It was also really loud in here with so many people talking and also warm, yes even Cassandra said it was warm inside which if she is warm you know it is. With all the noise it was hard to talk except for the person next to you. Some of the girls played pool and the rest sat and talked the best we could but it really is more about being out with your friends. I think we had 10 of us here in all tonight so it was a good showing again. It was a fun night out.

Karaoke started, and a couple of our girls got up and Sang, Laura did I feel luck which I love, just makes the night right somehow. It was a good mix of people here tonight, some really good singers and some well a little less but hey if you are willing to get up and try you deserve applause when you are done. I still have not worked up the courage to get up by myself and sing, I have done it a few times with others though. It is funny as I am so worried what people will think of my singing (or dancing) but yet I will go to the Mall or Starbucks or travel to Diva Las Vegas as Susan and not care what they think. Makes no sense. Stayed out till after 11 tonight but I had a blast. It is funny when I say I stayed out past 11 like it is a big deal when just a few years back I didn’t go out till 9 or 10 and we usually closed down the places we went.

It was a good night and I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving. I had a wonderful one with my family, they don’t know about Susan, but it was still good, and I have a lot to be thankful for. One of the things I am most thankful for is all of you my friends, some I have met and some I hope to meet but I am thankful for each and everyone of you. You are more then just friends you are more like family. And it s because of all of you I am the Lady I am today.

Hugs and have a wonderful day and be sure and keep up with me on my most recent blog.

November 26, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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