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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

End of the week fun with friends

Wow it is the middle of January already and as it is Friday night it is time for a girl’s night out with my friends, what better way to start he weekend. I think it is so important to have things you look forward to and the support of awesome friends as that is what keeps you going when things get hard and Susan is blessed with so many wonderful friend both online here that I have yet to meet and those I have met.

Well first thing first a couple updates for me. I am all registered for Diva Las Vegas and I have my hotel room all booked at The Quad where my friends are also staying. Right now from our group besides me we have Cassandra, Cristine, Melissa, Julie, Petra and Veronica going for sure and in the maybe column and I hope will go are Kelli, Mikaela, Laura, Michelle, and Brenda, how much fun would it be if we all were in Las Vegas the week of March 30 to April 4 for Diva Las Vegas. It is so much fun you really should check it out and think about joining us.

Well if you have read my blog you know our group was kicked out of a club in June of 2012 and we filed a complaint with the state and won and we are now waiting for the owner Chris Penner to appeal it. Well it turns out this was not his first run in with the state and in his other case the Oregon state Supreme court ruled on Thursday against him yes this case went all the way to the Oregon Supreme Court and it was all over $7,000 in back wages.

Well back to tonight and the fun Susan will have. I have been so looking forward to tonight and could not wait so I started getting ready at 5 to give myself time to enjoy the transformation to Susan, I find this whole process relaxing and fun. Well tonight I took about an hour and 40 minutes to get ready and enjoyed every minute. I was looking good and ready to leave and again I opened the garage door on the way out to my car and soon I was off to meet my friends. I got to Sweethome and the parking lot was full and so were the close street parking so I had to park about a block up, it has been a while since I had to park this far away and of course it was a cold night but at least dry.

Inside Cassandra, Chris, Laura and Silver were already there and the bar was pretty busy, I guess a lot of people came down to watch the Blazer Basketball game which they won which of course made everyone happy. There was a guy at the bar with his girlfriend who comes in occasionally and as I went by he told me how pretty I looked tonight and his girlfriend agreed which really makes a girls night so I stopped and talked to them for a few minutes. This is what makes being out with all types of people so special. Paul the owner came over to see if I wanted anything so I ordered dinner, this really is an awesome friendly place to go.

More girls started to show up. Bobby and Julie and Julie brought me a little gift which was so sweet of her, thanks Julie. It was great Julie could make it, turns out Trixie her girlfriend was out of town with her girlfriends so Julie went out with hers, by the way Trixie is awesome and knows all about Julie and is very supportive of her. It is amazing when I first started going out in 2008 I only know one person who had a supportive wife/girlfriend now I know so many, Julie & Trixie, Cassandra & Peggy, Jan & Lynn, Michelle & Christy, Mandy & Kathy, Mikaela & her girlfriend, Melissa & her girlfriend, Roxy & Chris, and of course the most important Me & Kim and I am sure there are more my poor blonde head can’t remember. Cristine and Diane also showed up. It was great to see Diane again as she usually didn’t get out much but lately she has been and that is awesome. Roxy, Bianca and Dan also made it out tonight.

Carolyn also was able to join us which was awesome. I usually only see her at parties so it was great to get a chance to talk with her. I got a chance to talk with her for a while at the bar and get to know her better. It is funny as I have known her for several years but tonight we had the chance to talk one on one which I really enjoy. I hope she can come out more with the group.

We also met another new girl who we have seen here a couple time, her name was Tyra. She came out two years ago and has been living full time since. I got a chance to talk with her and she seems really nice but little shy which I can understand. We talked for a while and had fun. She was interested in our group so I gave her a card with my e-mail address on it and told her to e-mail me and I would invite her to join our group. Our group has really grown as we have almost 300 members now.

Kelsey and her boyfriend Chuck also came in, our group met them not long after we started coming here and they are awesome and always happy to see us and always have a hug for us. They really are good friends we have met here. This bar really does have that family feeling to it.

Blue and her Sister Red also showed up. Now I am not sure if these are their real name but that is what people there call them and they answer to so it is good enough for me and yes their hair matches names. It is funny as they showed me a picture of their mom and she has Purple hair but they told me she that is not her name. Anyway Blue put in a song to sing “Drift away” and wanted me to sing with her so I said I would. I will sing with other people but just can’t seem to do it by myself. It was a really fun night, it was almost 1 am when the last of us left, Cassandra, Julie, Laura and me. Now it was cold outside and I did have a wrap but I was wearing a short black dress and my open toed heels and trust me that does not keep you warm so the walk to my car was a little chilly and then of course I had frost on the windows so it was a cool ride home at least about half way till the car warned up enough to get some heat. It can be tough being a girl sometime but that is the price we pay for looking cute.

Thanks for reading and have a great day.


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January 18, 2014 Posted by | Las Vegas, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Out with friends on Friday night

Today I registered for Diva Las Vegas which this year is March 30 through April 4 (Sunday through Friday), this will be my 4th time going and it is so much fun. You really should check out their web page DLV. What make this one so fun is it is more of a vacation. They have activities you can sign up for, Dinner, Shows, Golfing and so on and all you do is pay your way to the event, no fees. It is not centered in one hotel you are free to stay and lace although they do have 3 recommended hotel and the events are all over town so it is a great opportunity to get out and mingle with people. We already he 7 from our group the Rose City T-girls that have registered and maybe 7 more that are thinking about going. I am really excited because this means I will get to get my nails done again, yes I will have acrylic nails for the whole week. I can’t wait!

Well it is Friday night and time for Susan to go out and have some fun. I so ok forward to the weekend and spending Friday night with my friends. It is such a relaxing time for me, it is amazing how just getting ready as Susan much less the time I spend as Susan can have such a calming effect on my life. I started getting ready at 5 tonight and enjoyed every moment. I know some women hate doing makeup and hair but then they have done it all their lives where I have done it a couple times a week for the last several years and before that it was a few times a year so for me the fun has not gone away. I guess in that respect I am like a teenage girl experimenting with makeup.

I was already to leave by 6:40 and again tonight I just opened the garage door and walked out to my car instead of getting into my car with the door shut. Now they were forecasting heavy rain tonight and tomorrow so I was really glad when I got there and found a parking spot close and it wasn’t raining. Cassandra, Chris and Laura were already there and Jodie was working the bar. Jodie is really awesome and we all love her the only bad part is she only works till about 8 when Paul the owner takes over who is also awesome but it would be great to have Jodie here more. I ordered dinner and talked with the girls, it was starting off as a great night.

Cassandra was on her computer again and in her favorite chat room, she turned her computer a little so I could also be on web cam with her while she talked. Chis also had his computer and was watching YouTube videos. They both get here early and play on their computers like I do when I go to Starbuck’s.

Others started to show up, Silver, Roxy, Bobby, Cristine and Petra so we did have a smaller group tonight but maybe because of the threat of heavy rain and wind. I talked with Cassandra about Diva Las Vegas and she is also registered along with Petra and Cristine and I know Veronica, Melissa and Julie are also going and Mikaela and Brenda are thinking about it plus a few more. It will be so much fun as we all had such a fun time last year. It is only a little over two months away, just seems impossible that it has been almost a year since I last went. I first went in 2010 with Cassandra and Peggy and then again in 2011 by myself you can read about them in my blog and then also in 2013 and we had about 12 of us from Portland that year. I can’t wait as I will live as Susan for the whole time just as I have done in the past. Well Petra Cassandra and I talked about maybe going golfing a few more time this year while we are at Diva Las Vegas which would be fun.

The bar got busier but I think the weather may have kept others away also. One of the ladies at the bar named Valerie told me how nice I looked and I ended up talking with her for a while, think this is one of the great things about going out to mainstream places as it gives us a good chance to interact with people and they can get to know us better and see we really are no different other than the way we choose to dress, I think this helps break down any walls that people might have. Several of the Karaoke group were there and we talked with several of them, they really are a great group and have totally accepted us as part of the bar family.

Karaoke started and as the crowd was smaller tonight the rotation for singing went quicker so both Chris and Laura sand many times and did a great job. It really was a fun night and as always it went by so quick. It was after midnight when we left but it was such a fun night.

Okay one last pitch for Diva Las Vegas, it is so much fun and cost nothing to attend you just pay for what you want to do so check out their web page. Below is links to my blog for each year in order.

DLV 2010

Getting nails done night before we left.

Friday the drive to Las Angeles

Saturday in Las Angeles

Sunday of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Tuesday of Diva Las Vegas gold tournament

Tuesday evening

Wednesday of Diva Las Vegas

Thursday of Diva Las Vegas

Friday of Diva Las Vegas

Saturday trip to Las Angeles

Sunday Trip Home

DLV 2011

Getting nails done night before I left.

Friday the drive to Reno

Saturday Morning in Reno


Saturday Day in Reno

Sunday of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Tuesday of Diva Las Vegas

Wednesday of Diva Las Vegas Golfing

Thursday of Diva Las Vegas

Friday of Diva Las Vegas

Saturday trip to Reno

Sunday Trip Home

DLV 2013

Getting nails done night before we left.

Friday the drive to Las Angeles

Saturday in Las Angeles

Sunday of Diva Las Vegas

Monday of Diva Las Vegas

Tuesday of Diva Las Vegas golfing

Wednesday of Diva Las Vegas

Thursday of Diva Las Vegas

Friday of Diva Las Vegas

Saturday trip to Las Angeles

Sunday Trip Home


January 11, 2014 Posted by | Diva Las Vegas, Diva Las Vegas 2013, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Well I made it out again.

Well it is cold out again here but still made it to Starbucks as something warm to drink while I catch up on things on my computer is nice. Someone e-mailed me and asked why I like to go to Starbucks so much which got me thinking. I don’t necessarily think it is Starbucks by itself it is more that when I get dressed up as Susan I don’t just want to sit at home. Now I am not saying there is anything wrong with that as I did it for many years but now I want to be out. It is funny as it has been a little over 2 years now that I have been going out almost every week to Starbucks. I think I picked Starbucks as they didn’t seem like a place that would not be very busy as the first one I went to had a drive through. Not long after I started going there they were closing early for a remodel and I wound up at the one I go to now. The girls that worked here then were just so nice and I felt really safe and welcomed and even now the girls that work here are awesome. Even the customers have never bothered me or made me feel uncomfortable and I am not the only regular here, there is a group of 4 woman that seem to be here every week when I come on Thursday and then there is a couple that seem to come in almost every time I am here around 8, funny as I was worried about being here so much, nice to know others do also.

I think it has also really helped my self confidence, just the couple hours I spend here and seem to at least be accepted for who I am has done wonders. When I first started coming here I had to park right in front and would watch to make sure they were not too busy, if so I would wait in my car but over time this has changed. I don’t really think about it anymore, tonight I am parked at the end of the building in front of another shop. I pulled in and parked and put my keys in my purse grabbed my computer and just walked in. Never really thought about the other cars that pulled in at the same time or the fact others were walking in behind me and in front of me, I just walked in and took my place in line. Susan has really grown over the last couple years.

I think meeting Alice wow 8 to 10 years ago and being able to go out with her when she was in Portland and she was so relaxed about it that I really felt this was okay. Then about 4 years ago I met Cassandra and joined her Yahoo group and that really made it easy to go out as I knew there would be others out and I would not be alone. Having a support network is so wonderful and I have met so many wonderful people who I am glad to call my friends. Knowing you are not alone really does make all the difference.

Well any way I think going out to Starbucks is kind of a normal thing any woman might do, it is a quiet place where you can sit and work on your computer while having a nice warm drink, yes it is a little bit expensive but when you think about the whole experience, spending a few hours out in public for the price of a couple drinks it really is a cost effective night out. That being said I also love to go out with my friends as having that time together really helps center me, having friends who accept me as I am without questions is such a wonderful thing.

I guess it really does not matter where I go any more as now it is about having time out as Susan. As a matter of fact this week will be my 4th week in a row that I will make it out 3 times, tomorrow I will be out with my friends at the P-Club which is always a fun night and then on Saturday we have our winter Gala party which Kathy and Mandie are hosting again this year. They are opening their home up for us to have a party at, now as much as I have grown in the past few years I am still not at a point where I would host a party at my house. I am still worried what my neighbors would think or say. It is the one fear I have not overcome, people who only know me as male finding out about this hobby of mine. Now I have come close on several occasions to being caught and in a way I almost wish one of them would catch me as then it would be out. I almost think the fear of it is more than actually being caught. After all once my neighbors new I would be so much more free to be Susan. I would not have to worry about my neighbors being home or outside. I also know at some point this will happen, maybe not right now as the weather is cold and wet and it gets dark so early but during the summer when it is light out till 10 and everyone is outside enjoying the weather. This past summer I had several close calls and as I am going out way more now than I use to just that many more chances I will be caught.

Well enough about that, I am still waiting to here if I got my vacation time next April for Diva Las Vegas, turns out there is a chance I will not be able to get the time off do to things going on at work which would be so sad as I really am looking forward to going. I told my boss I would really like to have that time off if at all possible and he said he would do his best so I am hopeful, should know by the end of the year. The last two years have been so much fun going to DLV and I would hate to miss this year as I am looking forward to seeing some of my friends again plus I have really been pushing some of my friends here to go. I would feel so bad if now it was me that couldn’t go.

Well need to get some work done before they close here. Thanks for stopping by and reading.

December 8, 2011 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Relaxing night at Starbuck’s

Well it has been a busy summer but now it is starting to slow down which should allow me to get back to going out twice a week. It is amazing when I think back a few years when I was lucky to get out a couple times a year and I was fine with that thinking wow how great is this. Now if I miss one week I feel the stress start to build. There is nothing worse than planning on going out and then at the last minute something comes up and you have to cancel your plans. This seems to have happened more this summer for me.

Well the weather today was just perfect as it got to about 73 and for me that is awesome. Warm enough to go out without a coat in my summer cloths and not hot enough to melt my face off. That is probably the hardest thing for me as I really do have to use a lot more makeup than I would like to cover my male face and as such when it is hot I sweat more and that makes my makeup look patchy at best and may even run and leave streaks.

Well I started getting ready earlier as I wanted to enjoy every minute tonight. I got to Starbuck’s right at 7 which is when I was meeting Melissa there. We text and e-mail each other but the last time I saw her I think was the last Friday of July. She was already there and she has a new hair cut. It looks cute but I liked her better with longer hair. That is the one thing both Susan and my male self have in common we like long hair. It was nice to sit and chat for a while and catch up.

Starbucks was not that crowded tonight which is nice in some ways. The fact Melissa was here to talk with I really didn’t do a lot of people watching. On busy nights it is fun to check out the people coming in and leaving. I can check out what the other girls are wearing and get ideas for what I could wear.

Melissa only could stay till about 8:30 before she had to leave, but still nice she came out for a while. Now I have 30 minutes to update my blog so it will be a short one tonight. I will be out Friday again with my friends at the P-Club so I have that to look forward to. I also need to go grocery shopping so on my way home tonight I will stop at the store which will allow me a little more time out as Susan.

Diva Las Vegas has set the tentative dates for 2012, March 25 thru March 30, April 22 thru April 30 and April 29 thru May 4. I really want to go again this year and am going to plan on it but my work may be a problem but I am going to stay positive. If you have never gone you should think about it as it is so much fun, check out their web page.

September 13, 2011 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

   

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