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Saturday evening out with the girls

Saturday evening an I am going out to meet my friends at the Escape, plus tonight Nicole was in town and was going to meet us at the Escape. Now  I took my time getting ready tonight as I really wanted to enjoy the experience plus I wanted to get there early. I got to the Escape just before 6 and got out my computer to pass the time till others showed up. One of the guys at the bar told me you come here to get away from work and I assured him it was not work. We talked for a bit and he asked if I was checking out politics as that was just as bad and I again assured him I was not. So here I go getting on my soap box again. I try my best to avoid 2 things on my blog, Facebook and other social media and that is Politics and religion. Now these two topics have very strong feelings in people and I have seen friends on both sides go to extreme. So to all my friends out there, we are all different in views and beliefs and I accept all of you. This is why I keep this out of my blog and Facebook page as I do not want to put someone down because they think believe or have different views than I do. Okay we no return to our normally scheduled blog.

It wasn’t long and Nicole showed up. It was good to see her again as this is the first time this year she has made it down here because of the weather. We ordered dinner and then sat and talked and caught up on things. Cassandra also showed up and shortly after Melissa and her wife. Now we all sat and talked for a while and of course part of the conversation was about Diva Las Vegas. Elaine also showed up, she has been coming out pretty regular on Saturday nights for a while now. Kate also showed up and she was interested in Diva Las Vegas. She doesn’t think she can go for the whole thing but she is thinking of going for a few days. I think she would really have fun and enjoy herself.

Now I did play one game of pool against Cassandra and lost but it was fun. Cassandra played several games and won all of them, Bambi and Kris also showed up, They are getting out to almost every event now. They played a couple games of pool also. Shadow also showed up with 2 girls, Michele who I met at Cristines celebration of life and a new girl Sabrina. This was Sabrina’s first time going out. She has dressed at home but Came to Portland to get a transformation at Over the Rainbow and go out. It is always a fun night when we have a girl that is out for her first time. Always makes me think back to my first time and how scared and excited I was. I got a chance to talk with her a little and she was having a good time and didn’t seem that scared.

Karaoke started and of course it gets hard to talk then as it gets loud. Nicole called it a night. It was starting to get busy now as more were showing up for Karaoke so there was a good crowd here tonight and we had 12 from our group. It was a little after 11 when I left. It was a fun night out.

Thanks for reading

February 26, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Dinner at Southland Whiskey Kitchen

Wednesday is here and the dinner tonight is at Southland Whiskey Kitchen restaurant on NW 23rd in Portland. The group has come here several time although this is only my second time. They have really good food and the price good. Now I Knew Cassandra and Melissa would be there but didn’t know who else. I started getting ready early as I wanted to get there a little early as the one bad thing about here is the parking. I was on my way a little before 6. Traffic wasn’t bad ad I was there about 20 after 6. I did drive around the block a couple times before going further down 23 rd. I found a parking spot about 4 blocks down. It is amazing how easily I get out of my car now. I walked the 4 blocks and it was a little cold out but not bad.

I got there and Cassandra was already there. We had a chance to talk a little while we waited for others to show up. We talked a little about Cristine, Turns out the funeral home was able to contact her children and one had called Cassandra. We also talked a little about Diva Las Vegas which is only 4 weeks away. We are both looking forward to going again this year. We are booked at The California downtown.

Melissa showed up next and the 3 of us talked some more as we were waiting for the 3 remaining girls to show up. Melissa is planning on going to Diva Las Vegas this year with her wife. so we will have at least 8 of us there from our group. Bambi and Kris showed up and finally the last girl showed up so there was 8 of us here tonight. We talked for a little bit before ordering dinner.

Now it was pretty busy here tonight so it was also fun to people watch. Our dinners came and the food was awesome although I did eat more than I should have. One of the reasons I can’t seem to loose weight. I did skip dessert though. After dinner we talked for a little but before some of the girls left. Soon it was just Cassandra, Melissa and me left. We only stayed maybe 10 minutes longer before we all left. It was a good night out with my friends.

February 24, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

The Escape on a Saturday night

Saturday night and our group is going to meet the t-girls in Salem at Southside Speak Easy. Our group has several members that live down there so we have been trying to go down there and visit them also although I have not made it yet. Actually I have only been there once before back in 2008 to meet up with Alice who I have known for many years, here is a picture of us from 2009. I really want to go here again. It is funny as I really stated this blog for myself to look back on the things I have done as Susan which it is really good for, I never thought others would find it much less read it. I am really happy that others have found it and follow my time as Susan and I hope that you enjoy my blog and maybe find it helpful in some small way.

Any way I have to get up early Sunday and didn’t want to stay out to late. well the girls in Salem don’t meet till 8 and as it is an hour drive down there I would only be able to stay till 9:30 so I didn’t want to make the drive for such a short time out. I decided I would go to the Escape and have dinner and see if ant others showed up. I got there by 6 and it was not very busy but they did have one of the tables reserved. I ordered something to eat off their breakfast menu. Then I got out my computer to pass the time to see if anyone else showed up.

It wasn’t long and Elaine showed up and joined me. It was good to see her again and always nice to not be by yourself. It wasn’t long and Rachael also showed up. The three of us talked for a while which was nice. It started to get busy about 7:30 as the group that reserved the other table showed up, there must have been 20 of them maybe more. They were a group from the SCA, I had to look it up on line as I had not herd of it before. They turned out to be a really fun group.

Karaoke started a little early tonight and the other group were reallot good at singing. Jan and Lynn also showed up so there were 5 of us here tonight. It was a good night. One of the girls from the other group started talking with Jan, I think her name was Verna. She is into fashion and learning to design clothes and she wanted to make something for Jan. She talked to us for over an hour. She seemed really nice and it was fun talking with her about fashion. Wow time went by so fast tonight before I knew it, it was 11 pm. So much for my being in bed by 11. I paid my bill and said my goodbyes.

It has been a great weekend and really a good week out for Susan.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.

February 19, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

out for a Friday night at Sweet Home

It is the end of the week and I am looking forward to a fun Friday night. It is always good when I can get together with friends and just be out as Susan. Now I did make it out twice this week already, once to a PFLAG meeting to hear Cassandra speak about our group and of course Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry. This means with going out Saturday night I will have been out 4 times this week as Susan. Now I hope over the next few weeks I will get out even more as I do need to do some shopping as I need a few things for Diva Las Vegas which is coming up fast, 5 weeks away. There is still time to register if you want to go to Diva Las Vegas. Check out their web page if you want more information and also check out the photos from past years. The years I went are 2010, 2011, 2013, 2014, 2015 so you can look for me in some of the pictures. You can also read my blogs from those years here, 2010, 2011, 2013, 2014, 2015. It really is a wonderful time. Now My friends and I are staying downtown at the California hotel casino this year which is owned by Boyd Gaming, we wanted to try downtown and the room rates are a lot better. We are really looking forward to it. we will be there for 8 nights.

Well back to Friday night, I got a late start getting ready so it was a little after 6 when I left home. I got to Sweet Home and luck was with me as I got 1 of the 3 parking spots in their lot, first time I haven’t had to park on the street in a long time. Robyn, Chris and Roxy were already there as they are the early crowd. I joined them and ordered dinner and of course got my computer out and took care of some thing I had to do. I may have to get a new computer as mine won’t do the update to Windows 10, for the last several weeks it downloads it but wont install it. I have to take the battery out a couple times each day to get it to reinstall the previous version but than this computer is over 5 years old.

We talked and of course I played on my computer, it was a typical Friday night out with my friends. The bar was a little busy for as early as it was which is always good and there were some new faces in the crowd. Chris and Robyn played pool as always, they are both pretty good.  Robyn played some video lottery  but didn’t do well this week.

It was about 9 and the other group that comes for Karaoke started to show up, Heather was out tonight and it is always good to see her. It was a good crowd here tonight. Roxy was the first of our group to leave as she works on Saturday. and soon Chris also left about 9:30.

Two guys came over and sat at our table for a while, I think there names were David and Michael but I am horrible at remembering names. They talked more with Robyn them me as they had all been in the military so they had a lot in common. It was a good night.

It was a little after 10 when Robyn and I called it a night. It was a great start to the weekend.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.

February 18, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner at Who Song & Larry

Wednesday is here and I am going out to dinner with my friends, we are going to Who Song & Larry. We have gone here several times and it is always a fun night with good food. I was looking forward to dinner. Now I started getting ready taking my time and I had my Red and Black dress all set out to wear. I started doing my make up and it turned out really well. Now it was time to get dressed and of course I changed my mind and went with my black and gold dress instead.

I got to Who Song and Larry by 6:20 so I was early as we were not meeting till 7. Well early or not I decided to go inside and wait for others to show up. now as I entered there was a group of about 8 young ladies guessing early 20’s there waiting for a table and they were all in dresses and heels. I really love it when I see other girls all dressed up. As I walked by them I saw Jan and Lynn sitting in the bar so I went and joined them. Now Cassandra called me about 6:35 as she was caught in traffic. I checked with the host and turns out they were really busy with a couple big parties. I told her we had 8 tonight coming and she told me it would be about an hour. I told her that was fine as our girls were caught in traffic.

I went back and joined Jan & Lynn in the bar. The group of girls came up to get drinks while they waited for there table. Now as I said they were all dressed really nice but the one had pink hair and it really looked cute on her so I just had to tell her how cute her hair was, she thanked me and we chatted for just a moment. It was just about 7 when Cassandra showed up. Now the 4 of us talked in the bar as we waited, both for the rest of our group to show up and also our table. Bambi and Kris showed up so we were up to 6 now. The lady came over and told us they had a group just leaving and would clean the table and get it set up for us as soon as they could and thanked us for being so nice about the wait. I really didn’t think anything about the wait as we were having a good time talking. Our table was finally ready and we were shown to it. It was a little before 8, wow it didn’t seem like were waited that long.

Joan showed up right after we sat down and it wasn’t long and Kim showed up. Kim is our favorite waitress from Harvey’s and have come out with us before to Who Song and Larry’s. It was good to see her here in a social setting as at Susan at Who Song & LarryHarvey’s she is working but tonight we can talk more. It was a really fun night with good food and conversation. Now as I said we have come here several times before and we always get the same waiter but tonight he was working a big party in the back room so we got another waitress named Leah and she was really nice and treated us well.

Now I really did eat to much as they have the best chips and salsa as they make them fresh here so the chips are warm when they bring them to the table. I could make a meal out of them. For dinner I had the all you can eat Enchilada’s, really good.

After dinner we sat and talked for so more. The night went by so fast, it was hard to believe. soon it was after 10. As we were getting ready to go I took the opportunity to get a couple quick selfie’s. As we were leaving Leah our waitress wished us a good evening and called me by my name which was nice.

Susan at Who Song & LarryIt was 10:20 when we left. it was a fun night out with good friends. I stayed out a lot later then I planned but it was worth it although in the morning I may not feel the same way.

Now my little advice to all, be happy with yourself and who you are. If you cant’s find joy and happiness in yourself other people will not change that. Also find supportive friends that you can get together with, talk and go places. The more you go out the easier it becomes and it will open a whole new world to you.

Thanks for reading.

February 16, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out, who song & larry | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Tuesday night out for a meeting

It was a quick night out, Cassandra was invited to speak at the monthly PFLAG meeting so several of us from the group went to support her. It is a national support group for the LGBT community with chapters in every state, there are actually several of them across Oregon.

I got there about 6:30 and they were already setting up. It wasn’t long and Cassandra and Peggy showed up. Cassandra was going to talk about our group the Rose City T-Girls and of course the P-Club issue we had several years back. Now we did have 7 of us from our group here tonight. Now being a support group I can’t talk about what happened here but is was an interesting evening. It is really to help the family and friends of LGBT people. The meeting went 7 to 9.

It was a well run meeting and very accepting of all. if you do have a family member or friend that is gay, lesbian, or transgender and need help or information this support group is a good place to get help.

February 15, 2017 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Cristine celebration of life

Tonight Saturday February  11, 2017 our group is having a celebration of life for our dear friend Cristine who passed away on February 2 2017. She has been one of our groups longest and supportive members over the last 10 years. It will be hard but we want tonight to be a celebration for her. Cassandra and Peggy are hosting it at their home which so wonderful of them, thanks so much.

Now the celebration is from 7 to 11 but I was going to get there early to see if I can help Peggy and Cassandra set up. Now I started getting ready early so I could be on my way by 5. I got there just about 6 Peggy was finishing up getting everything out and Cassandra and Veronica were all ready. Now I am not even going to try and name everyone here tonight as we had over 30 show up to remember and celebrate Cristine life. NO I did walk around and 20170211_190449take pictures as I wanted to make sure and get a picture of everyone who was there, I did miss several people though so hopefully Cassandra got the as she was also taking pictures. I set my phone on a shelf in the dining room so I could get it easy when I saw new people come in. Now I did manage to get one selfie of myself.

Now by 7 there were a lot of people who had showed up but people would be coming all evening long, some came early and left and others later it was really wonderful to see so many friends here and even some of Bobbie’s family showed up t support him which was wonderful.

Now the food that Peggy and Cassandra had was wonderful, all finger type food, chips, dips, meat balls and of course wonderful cupcakes and brownies. It was awesome and of course I did eat more than I should have especially the desserts. Yes I have a weakness for sweets.

Now Cassandra had a bunch of pictures of Cristine on her TV, 100’s of pictures of her and of course pictures of her with us her family. In a way it was like she was with us all night long. I kept finding myself watching the pictures of her and there were a few time I got a little choked up but we didn’t want this to be a sad event.

I did get to talk with everyone here at one point or another so it was a good night. Even got to meet a few new girls that Victoria brought out. One of them Michelle will be going to Diva Las Vegas, her first time so I will see her again there. By the way we booked our rooms for Diva Las Vegas, we will be staying at the California Hotel Casino in Downtown Las Vegas, it is one of the Boyd Gaming casinos. They have 3 hotel casinos downtown. One of the things if you go to Las Vegas get a players card if you gamble as you do get some good comps. There were lots of Pictures of Cristine when we were in Las Vegas in years past for Diva Las Vegas. We really did share some wonderful times over the years, so many wonderful memories. Even though she is gone from this world she will always be with us in our hears and memories.

By 11 people were leaving and we were down to a smaller group about 15 and we were standing in the kitchen talking about all the wonderful times we had with her. I had planed on leaving at 11 but I just couldn’t bring myself to leave. I really wanted to be with my friends tonight. It will make for a short night but it is worth it. We talked for over an hour. I was looking through the pictures from last night and decided to try and list everyone I can that was there, Veronica, Bambi, Kris, Cassie, Kim, Peggy, Cassandra, Cindy and her wife Alice, Teresa, Laura M, Laura H, Lisa, Bobbie, his Sister and Partner, brother and his wife, A couple of his friends, Chris, Roxy, Melissa, Sophie and her wife Lorna, Barb, Kate, Michelle, Jan, Lynn, Marla and her girlfriend, Jamie and her girlfriend, Amber, Shadow, Victoria and a couple of t-girls she brought out for the night, and I am sure I have missed some. Thanks to all who showed up tonight, Cristine would have loved it.

It was 12:15 when I called it a night, I have a 45 minute drive home so it will be about 1 am when I get home which is the latest I have been up in a long time. On the drive home I had a chance to reflect on the evening, I was thinking about the times I had been out with Cristine and even though it would be late when I got home I was going to post the pictures of the night on our groups Facebook page. it is funny as I was about half way home when I was thinking about the pictures when I realized I had left my phone with all the pictures on the shelf at the party so I had to turn around and head back and hope Cassandra was still up. That is the one bad thing about cell phones as if you lose the or just leave them someplace you are really cut off. I couldn’t even call and let them know I was on my way back.

It was about 12:50 when I got back and luckily Cassandra and Veronica were still up cleaning the kitchen of course Cassandra had cleaned up and was back to her male self. I didn’t stay long just enough to get my phone. I was so glad they were still up and I didn’t have to wake them up to get my phone. This is the first time I have left my phone someplace, not a good feeling. Needless to say it was after 1:30 am when I got home so it really was a late night. The pictures will have to wait till Sunday now as I needed to get to bed.

Thanks to Cassandra and Peggy for hosting such a wonderful event and opening their home to us all. and also for all those who showed up for Cristine.

February 12, 2017 Posted by | Party, T-girl, transgender | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Manicure and then out to Sweet home

It is Friday and I am looking forward to a fun night. It has been a long day but I still need to get a manicure and as long as I am out I will be off to Sweet Home. I called Dream Nails at about 4:15 to see if I could get in at 5:30 and that was fine so I had an hour to get ready. Now I really love taking my time getting ready usually an hour and a half but when needed I can get ready in 45 minutes if needed.

I was all ready by a little after 5 so I had a little time before I needed to leave for the nail salon. I got there about 5:20 and Anna was ready for me. Now they were a lot busier then the last time I was here. there were 4 woman and a man getting pedicures and one getting her nails done. I really do love going to the nail salon as it is such a relaxing fun time.

Anna worked on my nails and did a wonderful job, this time she didn’t even ask me if I wanted my nails trimmed back she just filed them down a little and evened them out. They look beautiful and just a little on the long side for my male side. I will have to file them down some in a few days. It was about 6 pm when I was done and left the salon with my beautiful nails. They would look so much better with a red though.

I got to Sweet Home a little after 6, Robyn and Chris were already there. I little later Roxy showed up so there were 4 of us tonight. We had a nice time although I was really getting tired now as I have been up since 3 am today. It was a little before 10 when I called it a night. It was a fun evening out.

I will be out again Saturday night as our group is having a celebration of life for Cristine who passed away a little over a week ago.

February 11, 2017 Posted by | Dream Nails, Manicure & pedicure, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Rock bottom

It is Wednesday and the group is going to the Rock Bottom Restaurant for dinner. The group has gone here a couple times before although I only made it once. It is a nice place and really big inside with 3 pool tables and a couple shuffle board tables. It really is a nice place to go and very friendly and accepting.

I started getting ready with the hopes of being early. I was on my way by 6 but when I got downtown it was hard to find parking which is the only bad thing about this place. I finally found a parking spot 3 blocks away. Funny years ago I would have not gone unless I could park close to where I was going. Now it was pouring down rain so with my umbrella I started walking to the Rock Bottom.

I got to the Rock Bottom and Cassandra was already there. Now we knew a couple others would be there as they had posted in the group they would which was nice. Always hard going someplace and not knowing how many will show up. It turns out we had a good turnout tonight, one of our bigger Wednesday night dinners. Amber, Laura M, Melissa, Bambi and Kris showed up. We talked for a while before ordering dinner.

I ordered a pizza which was really good. As we were finishing dinner Victoria and Shadow showed up so we had 9 here tonight. They ordered dinner and we all moved over to the pool tables so we could play a few games. Several of the girls played while I opted for a hot brownie and ice cream desert. It was so good. If you are looking for a fun place to go for dinner with some friends this is a place to check out.

Now I had only planned on being out till 9 as I get up early for work but we all know how that goes. I stayed and watch some of the pool games and talked with some of the girls before leaving. it was about 9:45 when I left. it was still raining not as hard as earlier but still pretty hard so once again I was walking the streets with my umbrella. Again I was thinking about how far I have come. A few years ago I would have been scared to death and never thought of walking the streets of Portland at night by myself.

I got home a little after 10 and got ready for bed. It was a wonderful night out with my friends.

Thanks for reading

February 11, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out, McMenamins | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Super Bowl Sunday at the Escape

Super Bowl Sunday is here and our group s going to the Escape to watch the game. Now I am not a big football fan but it is more about being out with my friends. The game starts at 3:30 but Cassandra was planning on being there by 1. Now I had things I had to do Sunday morning so I didn’t even get home till Susan Miler on Super Bowl Sunday (1)about 12:10 so it was a rush to get ready. Now I knew what I was going to wear and how I was going to do my makeup it went a lot quicker. I was on my way by 12:50 so it was one of my faster times getting ready.

I got to the Escape about 1:15 which was good as there were all kinds of parking right in front, one of the reasons I wanted to get there early. Turns out I was the first of our group to get here. Cassandra and Amber arrived just a few minutes after I got there. Now the 2 big tables were reserved so we pulled 3 of the small tables together. Now we really don’t know how many will show up.

I ordered lunch which was really breakfast as the Escape does breakfast all day. Now other people started to show up as it got closer to the game but from our group it was just us 3 and I was beginning to wonder if we would have many girls out. Now I took the time to update my blog from Saturday night when we went to Harvey’s while Amber and Cassandra played pool. By 3 pm it was starting to get busy and a few more of our group showed up.

By game time we had a good turnout, Bambi, Kris, Laura m, Laura H, Michelle, Sophie, Kate, I know I am missing someone as I think we had 11 here. Now the bar was packed probable 40 to 50 people here but the funny thing was there were maybe 4 men and the rest were woman. it is really something to see so many woman cheering for a football game. The first half of the game was really one sided. The second half went to the other team which tied it up right at the end and went on to win. They set a record as no team in a Super Susan Miler on Super Bowl Sunday (2)Bowl game has come back from so far behind to win. It really was a good game and that comes from someone who doesn’t follow or watch football.

It was amazing how fast the day went by. Soon the game was over and the bar was a little quiet as most people left as soon as the game was over. A few of the girls stayed to play pool after the game but as I have to work Monday I called it a night. It was about 7:45 when I left. wow the day went by fast. I was here 6 1/2 hours and it felt like just a couple. I guess time does fly when you have fun. It has been a good weekend.

Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night and going out to dinner with my friends.

Thanks for reading

February 7, 2017 Posted by | Escape Bar & Grill, Holiday, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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