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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Friday night the 13th out with friends.

Well it has been a really busy week for my male self so I was really looking forward to Friday night and spending time with my friends. I did make it to Starbucks Thursday night but these were the only two nights I had opened this week. I was able to start getting ready just a little earlier so I was ready to leave about 6:45. One of the nice things about the P-Club is I am only 20 minutes or less away and really don’t have any bi traffic issues getting there. I got there at 7:15 and there was no street parking and only a couple spots in their parking lot so I grabbed the one closest to the door and went in. inside they were a little busier than normal but not enough to explain all the cars. Cassandra and Chris were already there so I joined them. The night was going great and even the whole day had been good. I have never figured the whole Friday the 13th thing out but then again I am not a superstitious person male or female. We sat and talked for a while and soon others T-Girls started to show up.

I went up to the bar and ordered some food; I had eaten pretty well all day so I went for the Chicken strips as I was really hungry. This also gave me a chance to talk with Nicole for a few minutes. She is one of the bar staff and just so awesome. She was all excited as she is leaving on vacation in a few days and will be gone for two weeks. She is going down to Belize to get some sunshine and warm weather. I am sure she will have a blast but we will all miss her the next couple Friday nights.

Now our group was really starting to grow, I would guess we had 20 to 25 there and had a blast. Even Jan and Lynn made it which was a surprise as they both had to work late, Jan did come in boy mode. This is something I have yet to do. Funny as easily as I go out as Susan I am still scared to go in boy mode even though I know it would be fine.

Olivia also made it out as she was in town. She also came as her male self. I have met her a few times over the last couple year. She doesn’t get out much as her wife is totally unsupportive of this side of her. It was nice to talk with her and get to know her a little better. I remember the first time I met her at Embers. It was her very first time out and she was so scared, reminded me so much of myself. I think I spent most of that night chatting with her. I really hope she can work things out as her female side is just as much who she is as her male side. I hope she comes out more with the group when she is in town.

Mindy was also there, she is a GG I met a little over a year ago. Now here is the soap opera, Mindy was there with her fiancé Andrew, his ex-wife and her boyfriend and also Mindy’s dad. Mindy is such an awesome girl and very supportive of us T-Girls. It was funny as the first night I met Mindy she had come to the P-Club with her boyfriend at that time and Maya. Now Mindy has always been a cowgirl and that night Maya had talked her into wearing a dress and heel. Turns out that was the first time she had ever worn heels and a dress so several of us spent the night helping her learn how to walk in her heels. It was such a fun night. Any way tonight she had on a really cute black dress and these awesome boots with 3″heels and she was walking around like she had been walking in them all her life. Just goes to show you can learn a lot for a T-Girl. Mindy and I even played a game of shuffle board which was nice as it gave us a good chance to talk. I won of course but then Mindy had never ever played.

After Mindy and I played shuffle board Her Fiancé’s ex-wife and her boyfriend wanted to play but didn’t know how so they asked me to explain the scoring and help them. So I was like the referee at the shuffle board game as they played. Really it didn’t take them long to figure it out but I stayed and watched the game which took a while as they also had never played and didn’t score many points at a time.

Brooke was out again which is so nice as for a long time she was unable to get out. I know firsthand how hard it is to want to dress and go out and not be able to. Just think of something you really like to do, something that make you really happy and relaxed and then imagine not being able to do that. It is the same way for t-girls. It was nice to chat with her as she is also going through a rough time. I think that is why our group is doing so well as having a support network and friends you can hang out with and talk to is so wonderful and important.

In all it was an awesome night as normal and a great way to end the week and start the weekend.

Thanks for reading and hope to be out again this week at Starbucks.

Diva Las Vegas is about 100 days away if you are thinking of going not too early to start planning. Still waiting to see if I get vacation but I am hoping as I really want to go back again this year, so much fun.

January 14, 2012 Posted by | P-Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Another fun Friday night out with my friends.

Well as you all know I always go out with my friends on Friday nights to the P-Club and this week was no different. I had to be to work really early and had hoped to get a nap when I got home before going out but ended up working late so it was a really long day. Other than spending time as Susan with my friends I don’t think there is anything else that would have got me out of the house. Well as I said I had to rush to get ready, I had hoped to be to the P-Club by 7 as I knew some of the girls would be there by then but as it turns out I was lucky to make it by 7:30. It really does take longer to get Susan ready than my male self, a lot more thought goes into it from the dress, shoes, wig, even the bra, panties and nylons and of course the makeup, shade of eye shadow, and lipstick. As a guy it is pretty easy, what’s clean. Girls really do have way more choices and are able to express themselves so much better.

Well it is funny as last Saturday when we were having dinner at Henry’s and talking somehow we started talking about Shannon, she is a GG (genetic girl)that used to hang out with our group maybe 2 years ago. Well any ways Tuesday of this week we got a request from her to join the group, funny how things like that happen. Well I got to the P-Club and Teresa, Cristine, Cassandra, Chris and Shannon were all there. I joined them and we all talked for a while, it was nice to talk with Shannon again. She is still with the same boy friend, she brought him to Embers on their first date to hang out with our group, and it was his first experience with T-Girls. I remember talking to him and made the statement “Do you know what we all have in common?” then told him we all use to look just like him before we started dating Shannon, both his and Shannon’s mouth fell open.

Brooke also showed up. She has gotten out several times in the last couple weeks which is awesome as prior to that it was about 5 months she couldn’t get out which I knew was hard on her plus we all missed her. I know how I feel when I have to go a few weeks and keep Susan put away, going that long would be very hard. It is strange how much a part of my life (or any T-girl for that matter) my female side has become. It is part of me, part of who I am and what makes me who I am, male or female Susan and my male side are both there. For me I would not be a complete person without both sides of me. I think when I realized this and accepted this is when I truly became happy both male and female. It also made it so much easier to be Susan and go out as to me Susan is just as normal as my male side and I think people pick up on that and don’t challenge you very often then. The key is to be happy with you, beside life is too short to be unhappy.

Teresa was there which was really nice as she leaves Monday for Thailand for a month, she is having SRS and she is so excited about it. She has been planning and looking forward to this for a year now. We will all miss her and look forward to her safe return. It is cool her sister is going with her so she won’t be alone which is also nice, Teresa’s Sister is very supportive of her as is her whole family.

Victoria, Michelle, Jan, Lynn, Kristie, and Bobby all showed up and I know I am missing some as I think we had 15 there. It was a fun night as always but then again when you are out with friends it is always a good night. A few of the girls played pool and a few danced. For the most part the P-Club was pretty quiet and slow most of the night, I would guess it was maybe 11 before it started to get a little busy. I think being the weekend after Thanksgiving and with holiday shopping and the Christmas tree lighting in Portland people were just busy.

Well we Cassandra brought a cheese cake in honor of Teresa’s new life that will start soon, it was a caramel cheese cake and oh so good. We all had a piece and had a toast to her.

Later on Cassandra and Cristine, mostly Cassandra challenge Victoria and I to a game of shuffle board. She is so competitive in everything but of course Victoria and I could not turn down the challenge. Cassandra was the first to score, 11 points on her first turn and you only play to 21 so she was really into the game and of course she was talking as if they had already won. Well Victoria and I kept our cool and just played and soon we were up 18 to 11 and that seemed to quite Cassandra down. In the end Victoria and I won 21 to 16, it was a fun game.

The rest of the evening we sat around and talked and took some pictures, strangely the pictures I took with my camera, I m not in any of them. How could this happen, well I am sure I will be on some ones camera when they post their pictures.

Well it was getting late about 1 am when we decided to call it a night which for this girl was time as I had gotten up at 2:45 am this morning after going to bed at 11:30 Thanksgiving night. Any way turns out Shannon doesn’t have a car and got a taxi to the P-Club so I offered her a ride home. Turns out she lives about 30 minutes away from the P-Club in the opposite direction, but still happy to give her a ride as I would not want to leave anyone from our group stranded for any reason. Any way by the time I drove her home and then drove back to my place it was a little after 2 am, so by the time I got to bed I have been up for almost 24 hours which is unbelievable for this girl as I am not as young as I use to be.

Well I plan to go to Starbucks Thursday night and out with friends on Friday and may try to squeeze in a shopping trip Tuesday if things work out. Have a great week and thanks for reading.

November 26, 2011 Posted by | P-Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Dinner with friends at Henry’s tavern

Well Saturday night I was meeting several of my friends from the group downtown Portland at Henry’s Tavern, now I have never been there before but several of the girls from the group had been there and said it was nice. I was really looking forward to this as I love going new places. We had reservations for 10 of us at 8 pm but were planning on meeting there at 7pm. Not knowing the parking situation I got there a little early and as luck would have it someone pulled out as I came around the corner so I found a spot really easy and only 2 blocks away. Now it was really cold out about 35 and of course I wore a short skirt and heel so the 2 block walk was a little cold.

I got to Henry’s right at 7 pm and went in; they were really busy with maybe a dozen people waiting. I checked with the hostess to see if anyone had checked in yet and they hadn’t so I went to check the bar which turns out is huge and has an second floor. There were no seats in the downstairs part of the bar and only a few in the upstairs but none of our group were there so I went back and took a seat by the door and waited. It was only a few minutes when Peggy and Teresa showed up so the 3 of us went to the bar on the second floor and found the one open table. It wasn’t long and Cassandra, Victoria, Trisha, Jessica and Cassie showed up. We were having a good time just talking when they told us our table was ready so we all went down to the restaurant part. We were still waiting for Lynn and Jan so we held off ordering for a little while and just continued our conversation. We were having a fun time.

There was a both right next to our table with for ladies at and soon Cassandra was chatting with them, turns out one of them was having a birthday, Betsy the other three were Holly, Ingra and Brooke. Well we all sang happy birthday to her and the next thing you know Cassandra is sitting next to Holly and Ingra getting pictures with two of them. It is amazing how Cassandra can do that. Well of course not wanting to miss out on a photo op I went and sat next to Brooke and Betsy and got some pictures. You can see all my pictures with different looks on my Flickr page. The girls were really awesome and didn’t seem to have a problem with us there.

We ordered food and everything looked good. Their prices are a little more than places we usually go but the food was awesome. I had their Macaroni and Cheese and it was awesome. Jan and Lynn finally showed up and joined us. Our waiter well he was awesome too, always referred to us as ladies and even offered to take some pictures of us so we could all be in the picture. It was a real enjoyable dinner and before we knew it, it was 10:30 pm; I don’t know where the time went. It seems every time we are out in a group the time goes by so fast. Well we spent a little time deciding where we wanted to go next and settled on Fox and Hound so off we went.

Now parking downtown Portland on a Saturday night at that time is almost impossible so several of us talked about car pooling down to make it easier so I rode with Trisha and Jessica, funny thing is everyone else just drove themselves. Any way the three of us walked the 2 blocks to their car. And it was really cold out by now especially my toes as my heels were open toe type. It was nice to have someone to walk with since it was so late out. Fox and hound is not that far away so it didn’t take long to get there.

We ordered some drinks and then just sat around and talked some more. Fox and Hound is not a really busy place and gives you a nice place to just sit and talk. It was such a fun night, just a group of ladies enjoying friends. They also have a pool table but none of us played pool which surprised me as some of the girls really love pool.

Well before we knew it, it was 1:30 am again the time went by so fast. We all walked out and said our goodbyes. Trisha and Jessica gave me a ride back to my car. Jessica had a pair of heels that were just a little too big for her and kept slipping off her heel. She also let me borrow her shawl that I liked for a bit which was really nice of her. As it turns out we wear almost the same size except that my feet are a little wider. I tried them on when I got home and the toes are tight but I had the same problem with them slipping off my heel of course I had on nylons so that may have been the reason they slip off. Maybe I will try them without nylons and see if that fit a little better.

It was such a fun night several of us talked about maybe doing a dinner once a month at a different restaurant which I think would be an awesome idea. We even talked a little about Diva Las Vegas and I think this year we may have several from the group go.

Thanks for reading

November 20, 2011 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment


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