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Wednesday night dinner

Wednesday is here and I am going out to dinner with my friends tonight. I am really looking forward to it. I am not sure who all will be there but I am hoping Amy will make it. She moved to Seattle a few years ago and doesn’t get down here very often and I usually miss her so it has been a couple years since I saw her last. She is in town working and hoping to make it tonight. I really have met some wonderful people over the years. I started getting ready at 4:30 enjoying every minute getting ready. WE are going to Mothers Bistro downtown Portland.

I got downtown and found a parking spot 4 blocks away. It was a little cold out but dry and the walk to the restaurant was nice, it is so nice to be able to just be out as Susan and do everything other woman do. I got to Mothers Bistro and went in. I was the first one here and as I didn’t know how many were coming so I just waited. It was only about 5 minutes and Melissa and yes Amy walked in. It was so great to see her again, here is a picture of us, it been so long. Well the three of us went in and got a table and sat and talked as we waited for Cassandras and Julie.

It was just the five of us but we waited a little while to order as we thought one otgher girl might show up for her first time out. We had a nice time just talking and being a smaller group we could alll talk together. We talked about our Cruise to Mexico next October, Cassandrfa booked her flight so the rest of us our going to book ours. Melisssa, myself, Julie and Cassandra are now all planning on flying down as our female self whch will be so much fun and a new experience. Something I have alaways wanted to do. Just think a few years back it took all I could do just to get out of the car, now I have traveled to Las Vegas, checking in and out of hotgels as Susan and by this time next year I will be able to say I flew on an airplane as Susan.

Well the other girls didn’t show up so around 7:30 we all ordered our dinner and yes our waiter was awesome. He remebered a Julie and Cassandra from the last time gthe group came her although it was my first time. Now I ordered the chicken and it was really good, they have really good food here and the price is not bad for what you get. I would recommend Mothers Bistro for a nice dinner out. We also talked about Diva Las Vegas which the dates are now official, it will be Sunday April 15 to Friday April 20 2018. They will start talking registrations after the 1st of the year so sign up for their mailing if you are thinking of going. It will be so much fun, there is so much to do in Las Vegas. I am trying to talk Amy into going next year as I think she would have fun.

These gatherings are so much fun and I now Amy likes it, she always wantged us to go more places and it is funny not long after she moved we started going to new places. Of course she pretty much goes where ever she wants as Amy where she lives. She also like all of us have grown so much as our female selves. It really is great to have such wonderful friends.

A couple of the girls ordered dessert and I was good and passed although Juile talked me into having a bite of hers well more than one bite. I really do need to start watching what I eat as I do want to lose some weight by our cruise next October. WE had a freally lovely evening and we took some pictures, our wonderful waiter even came over and took a picture of our group so we could all be in it. We even got one oof gthe waitresses to join us in the picture, she was also wonderful also. We really were treated great here.

It was about 9:30 when we left, tghey actually closed at 9 but didn’t rush us out. There were a couple other small groups still there so we were not the last to leave. Now Amy took an uber here and as her hotel was on my way home I offered to drive herf back which was nice as it gave us a chance to talk a little longer. It was sad to see the night end but I had so much fun with everyone.

Thanks for reading and keep up with whats going on in my life on my most recent blog.

December 1, 2017 Posted by | Dinner out | , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Tuesday night dinner with a friend

Well it is Tuesday afternoon and I have a chance to go out to dinner tonight, Amy is in town for a couple nights and I finally have a Tuesday night free so it was a great chance to go out and do something different. Amy and her friend were going to meet at South Pacific which is a restaurant where the old Tiger Lilies use to be at 4 and hey invited me to join them. Now I don’t normally get out this early during the week as it is hard to get home early enough and get Susan ready but today it worked out and I was home by 3 so I decided to go. A quick shower and close shave and I was onto doing my makeup and was all ready by 3 and out the door. Now it is a little different leaving home so early in some ways it is easier as the neighbor kids are not home yet and a lot of my neighbors are still at work.

I got to the restaurant about 4:20 and they were not busy at all of course it is still early. I joined then and Amy introduced me to Jeannie. Jeannie was awesome and treated us like any other lady which is always nice. We just sat there and talked and of course had a snack. They had got these umbo shrimp wrapped in bacon and they were incredible. It only seems like I was there for maybe a half hour or so but soon it was after 6. Jeannie got the waitress to take a couple pictures of us. This is the three of us together. Looks like Susan has made a new friend which is always nice.

Amy was going to Beaverton to the Golden Crown Restaurant for Chinese food as that is where the motel she stays at when she comes to town is. Now it was a bit of a drive but I was already out as Susan and didn’t want to go home yet so I told her I would join her, actually I had already made up my mind pretty much before I left hoe as I brought my GPS unit with me. Yes I need that to find my way around I am blonde after all.

Now Amy knew where she was going so she left while I programed in the address to m GPS unit so she had a couple minutes head start on me and yet I got to the parking lot before she did and that included driving past it as it came up faster than I thought. Anyway we parked next to each other and went in.

Amy has been coming here for a while now and knows the bartender and several of the regulars so we sat at the bar for a while and she introduced me to them. We sat and talked and waited till 7 to see if any others would show up but none did so it would be just Amy and I for dinner. We went and got a table and ordered and talked some more. Amy actually went out to lunch with her future daughter in-law last week for the first time and she really liked Amy but then what is not to like. Her son still hasn’t met Amy yet but I am sure that will change soon, how awesome is this. Any way Amy told me all about it and all the fun she is having where she moved. I am happy she is doing so well but we all still miss her down here though so it is great she gets to town every other week.

We had a great time and a wonderful dinner but as before it went by way to fast and soon it was 9 pm and I still had a 30 minute drive home. It was sad to see the evening come to an end as we were really having a fun time. I will defiantly have to try to get out again with her and Jeannie. This is a Amy & Susan 4-29-2014picture of Amy and me from earlier. What a fun night, thanks to both Amy and Jeannie for including me in their night out.

April 30, 2014 Posted by | Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Super Bowl Party at Cassandra & Peggy’s

Well Super Bowl weekend is here and it is time for the big fun. Not so much the game but the Rose City T-Girls Super Bowl party. This is the 3rd year Cassandra and Peggy have hosted a Super Bowl party at their home. How wonderful is that they will open their home to our group, we love you two.

Well I was running late as normal so I had to rush to get ready. Yes again under an hour from start to finish of course I knew what I was wearing my white skirt and black top as I think it is so cute. I also knew how I was doing my makeup so that helps. I was ready to leave by 1 pm now the problem was it was a really sunny Sunday afternoon and would you believe it a couple of my neighbors were out mowing their yards, it’s winter grass does not grow, any way I was not about to wait so I just drove off. I kind of watched them and they never seemed to look towards my car so don’t think they saw me.

I got to Cassandra and Peggy’s house just before 2 and had to park just down the street and walk up. I really wonder what their neighbors think when they see all these tall girls in high heels going to their home. Well I went in and there were already about 20 people there. Well I went around and said hi to everyone, some it has been a long time since I have seen them and even a few new friends to meet. Well to start I got out my camera as what party would be complete without pictures so yes there will be several pictures in this blog.

I got to Meet Sandy as she came down from Olympia just for the Party. She is really nice and looks really good. It was nice to talk with her and get to know her better. I got a picture with her and Dana (Sandy left, Susan middle and Dana on the right). I have known Dana for awhile but she does not get out very often when I am out so it was great to see her again and talk with her. The three of us chatted for a bit and then it was time to play Jenga, if you have never played it is a blast and Cassandra bought the big blocks, they are the size of bricks. It was so much fun and I was not the one to knock it over even though I thought I would. The person right after me knocked it down. Just so you will understand the size of this game I will include a couple small pictures. These blocks could break a toe especially if you are wearing open toe heels. Maybe we should come up with steel toed heels for this, but then who would see are pretty toe nails.

There was so much food, Chris made his Clam Chowder which is awesome and also hot wings which I am sure were just as good but hey I am a girl I can’t eat messy food and risk messing up my lipstick or getting something under my long pretty figure nails, beauty first. Jan made a pot roast which was really good also. Peggy made this fantastic bread dish, it was a round loaf of bread cut in a checkerboard design and then had bacon, melted cheese and butter on it, so wonderful but I never asked about the calories as it is Super Bowl weekend and calories don’t count. There was so much food and it was all so good. I brought my normal Vegetable tray and some pop to drink. I really did eat more then I should have especially when they opened the apple pie. After that I did try to be good and stayed away from the chips and went to the apple slice tray as that is healthy, sliced apples dipped in caramel, yum.

When the game started you could tell who the football fans were as they were in the big room watching the game while the rest were in the other room talking about important things like makeup, clothes, wigs and the like. Yes I was in this group as I am not a real big football fan.

Once again the cameras came out and I got a picture with Kristy. Now she has crossdressed for many years but only been coming out in public for a little over a month now and boy has she gown in herself confidence. She actually came out to almost everyone she know which really took some guts, something I just cannot do. She also had on this really cute black and white dress. We had a good discussion about lipstick and how to keep it on. I told her how I do my lipstick which I posted in my last blog and it really does stay on really well. Even when I got home tonight my lipstick was still good. It is so much fun talking girly things.

We had a really good turnout; I would guess 40 to maybe 50 of us there. It is so nice to spend the afternoon and evening with such wonderful friends. The game was good and it was a close one from the yelling I could hear in the other room, Cassandra even had a couple football boards, you pick squares and then based on the points at the end of each quarter and game you can win money. No skill involved as the squares are picked before numbers are drawn so it really is blind luck to win. Not since I know nothing of football and being blonde this is my kind of bet so I put $20 in and sure enough in the 3rd quarter I won. Yep you guessed it I won $20 so I broke even which for me is a win.

After the game more pictures were taken and I got one with Amy. We both had on black tops which made us almost look like sisters. I just need to get her to wear high heels so I don’t tower over her so much, makes me look like a giant next to her. It was such a fun night I was sad to see it end but as I have to be up early for work it was time to leave. I said my goodbye’s about 8 and I left. Now as I said I parked just a couple houses down the street and what I left out is Cassandra and Peggy live on a hill. Now walking up the hill in 4″ heels was actually easy as the heels almost made it like walking flat but going down was another story. I bet the steepness of the hill made it feel like I was walking on 7″ heels I was almost falling forward and could only take very small dainty steps. It took what seemed like forever to walk to my car as I was doing my best to walk femininely and not fall on my face. Hope no one saw me.

Well I would like to Thank Cassandra and Peggy again for a wonderful party and opening their home. You two are awesome.

Well it is almost 10 and I have to be up for work in 6 hours so must be off to bed, thanks for reading and have a great week.

February 5, 2012 Posted by | Party | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Fun night with friends.

Well it was another awesome Friday night, I so look forward to them as I get to spend time with some of my best friends. I have said it before but to me it is not really where we are or what we are doing as long as I am with friends. Well I started getting ready at 5 pm as I wanted a little extra time to get ready and enjoy myself. I really enjoy the whole art of being Susan and that includes the getting ready as well as the getting undone at the end of the night although that part is always a little sad. I don’t want to be Susan all the time but I do wish I could be her a little more than I do at times especially when I have to miss one of my chances. Well I left my house a little after 7 and was to the P-Club before 7:30.

Well there were no parking spots in their lot and I found one on the street at the end of the block. I went in and they were packed, it turns out one of their regulars was having her 50th birthday party. Now I was a little over dressed compared to the other woman there as I worn one of my favorite black dresses, 4″ heels and my red lipstick. Well I walked through the club up to our normal tables which 2 were still open and sat down; I was the first one there. I was also very careful to walk as feminine as I could in my heels as I am sure people were watching. I waited about 10 minutes and still no one else had arrived so I walked back through the crowd and stood in line at the bar to order a drink and food again very careful of my walk. Now what I means about my walk is you can walk in heels but woman can do that walk where they place one foot in front of the other with a little swing to their hips which does take practice in 4″ heels and I can do it but I have to be thinking about it as it does not come naturally to me. While standing in line Michelle a GG I met here a while back came over and gave me a hug and said how nice I looked tonight. We chatted while I got my drink and then I was back to my table.

Soon other started showing up, Cassandra, Bobby, Cristine, Robin, Amy, Samantha, Sophie and her wife Lorna, and even Monica, sorry if I missed someone. We all ate dinner and had a great time. The lady celebrating her 50 birthday brought over some cake she had left over for us which was very nice, we all wished her a happy birthday and chatted for a bit.

Amy and I played a game of shuffle board and this week I won which made up for her winning last week. Some of the girls would dance and a few played pool but I was just having fun sitting and talking with my friends which is funny as my male self is not that big on just sitting and having a conversation. Veronica and I talked for a bit and I got to hear about her job as a truck driver and what she has been doing.

Robin and I also talked and got to find out about her transitioning to full time. She has told a few key people where she works and will go full time the end of the month. She is also changing her name and she has chosen Victoria which is very lovely but will take time to get use to calling her Victoria.

Soon I was at the table with Victoria, Monica, Sophie and Lorna and we were all talking. Lorna and I are not dancers so we really got a chance to talk as the other 3 kept going out to dance. Lorna has some great stories and so wonderful that she is supportive of Sophie.

This lady came over and wanted to compare heels as she was worried w3e may have hotter heels then she did. She was really fun and really had these bluish 5″ heels with platforms, they were really cute. We talked a bit before she left to join her friends.

A young girl came over and started talking, she thought I was so beautiful which again made me feel great, what girl does not love hearing that. We chatted for a bit and I could tell she thought we were all gay so I worked it into the conversation that we weren’t and that for me I just like to be Susan sometime but most times I am my male self. She thought that was great and I even got a picture with her. I really loved he eyes as she has the little wings that give that cat eye look that I just can’t seem to get the hang of.

Another couple came over Lisa and Frank, Lisa had been dancing with Robin, and Amy and sat and talked with us. Frank wanted to play some pool so Robin played him first and he won than Cassandra played him and won 3 games in as row. They were both really nice but Lisa had had a lot to drink so I think she may not even remember us being there last night.

A little later this guy came up and wanted to know if we would take a picture with him and well you all know how I and most T-girls feel about our pictures being taken. We could not get out of are chairs fast enough and pose with him. His girlfriend took a couple pictures and he thanked us and they left.

It was getting late and Tawny came back to say goodbye and gave me a hug and asked if we could get a group picture so again out came my camera and several of us posed with her, Veronica, Susan, Tawny, Robin and Cristine. This was great as it gave me a chance to take a couple pictures which I have not done for a while. It was a really fun night and We left the P-club about 1:30.

Veronica had taken a cab to the club as she had planned on drinking and didn’t want to drive which is very responsible. I think all the girls in our group are very good about not drinking and driving which is awesome and I have always told them I would drive them home if they needed as I don’t drink. Anyway I gave Veronica a ride back to her hotel and we stopped at Shari’s as Veronica was hungry plus I thought it would be fun to stop there and it gave us a chance to chat some more. It was also fun for us to walk into Shari’s in our short dresses and high heels. We did get some looks but no one said anything. I had a piece of pie and Veronica had breakfast and we sat and talked for maybe 40 minutes before leaving. Veronica’s hotel was just the other side of the parking lot so I dropped her off and then went home.

It was a really fun night and all because of my awesome friends. I am one blessed girl that way. Any way have a wonderful week and I am sure I will make it to Starbuck’s this week but probably Wednesday or Thursday night.

September 17, 2011 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, P-Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Susan time again.

Well Susan found some time for herself Friday night. It always seems the summer is so busy and this year has been no exception. For a girl who gets out twice a week to go a month with only 3 times is hard. And it looks like the next several weeks will be just as hard for Susan to get out. I really like the summer as it is so nice and warm and one can wear all the cute summertime cloths but I will be glad to see fall come and things slow down so I can get back into my normal Susan time out.

Well as I said Susan has been out so little she was really looking forward to Friday night so I took extra time getting ready which is always so relaxing. It is strange how in normal life we rush through things like getting ready in the morning and I if we all slowed down and took the time to enjoy the little things how much happier we would all be. Now I admit for men there is not a lot of things we do to get ready and I think that is why I so enjoy being Susan.

I got to the P-club right at 7:30 and Chris, Amy and Norma were already there so I joined them. We all ordered something to eat and just enjoyed some quiet conversation for a while. Soon Cassandra, Cristine, Bobby and Robin showed up so we had a small little group. The P-Club really is a nice place to go because it has so much to offer. It has a dance floor, (not always the greatest music), ping pong, two pool tables, lots of TV’s if you want to watch one of the games and shuffle board plus it is big enough inside that even with the music you can still carry on a conversation without yelling. The staff that works here also is wonderful to us and really even the customers for the most part have been great and make us feel welcome.

Well a couple of us played pool and shuffle board, I played two games of shuffle board and lost both. Amy was really hot last night and was always knocking my puck off if I put it close to the end to score a point. Still a lot of fun though as it was all about being out with friends.

The P-club had a live band last night and once they started playing about 10:30 it did get a little loud inside. The music really wasn’t to my taste but it did bring a lot of people in which is good for the club. There were lots of girls there that were really dressed hot and we would check them out both for how cute they were but also what they were wearing and how we would look in the same outfit. It would be so cool if I could wear some of those outfits but I have to realize with my height and size some things just won’t work on me and that is okay.

Later on we started talking about different things we as a group have done and could do in the future, Cassandra is always looking for new ideas as our group has grown so much and not everyone likes or wants to do the same thing. We have 219 members now and I would say about 25% of them go out on a regular basis which really is amazing.

We also talked about Transgender people and who they are and the differences that make us such a diverse group. It is strange as some are so hung up on the term they are called such as transgender, t-girl, transsexual, crossdresser and these terms can be important as they define who we are but what I have found is those outside our community really do not understand or know the difference. Most people do not know the difference between the terms. In other words if your only exposure to our community is through a drag show then if you see a guy in a dress you will think they are a drag queen. Now for me I am a croddresser. I like to dress and present myself as female. I do not want to be female full time or change my body to be more feminine but if someone refers to me as a drag queen or transsexual I do not take offence. Now if I get the chance I will tell them and explain the differences but I cannot fault them for not knowing something but yet some T-girls get so upset over this. There are members in our own community that don’t fully understand everyone.

I had a transsexual woman e-mail me who could not understand how I could want to dress and look so pretty and not want to be female. The best I could do is say it was what I wanted and how I felt. Even I don’t fully understand transsexuals, and what I mean by this is I can understand the belief they are female in a man’s body or their desire to be female full time but the emotions they go through.

T-girls as a group all share a common bond, we love femininity and being female in some way be it one piece of cloths to fully dressed but we are all individual in why. The reasons I dress may not be the same for you, what is right for me is not for you and what is right for you may not be what I want. That does not mean one way is more right or better. I do what is right for me and I expect others to do what is right for them and as long as we all look at it this way and except the person for who they are then we really do have the best community around.

I have got a couple emails where people state they always wanted to ask but were afraid of offending someone. Now I believe there is no such thing as a stupid question. Now the only way you will learn something is to ask and as long as you ask in a respectful way (no name calling) then ask away. It is a shame that people have this fear about offending someone simply by asking a question, I guess we have become too politically correct. Yes we have the right to dress how we want and we expect others to respect that but that does not take away your right to ask us why. Who knows by talking to us you may find we are no different than you and we may become friends.

September 10, 2011 Posted by | P-Club, transgender | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night at the P-club

Well Friday night our group the Rose_City_T-Girls was meeting at the P-club (formerly called Portsmouth pizza and pub) on Lombard in Portland Oregon. We have been going here on and off on Fridays sense the summer and have so far had good experiences every time. one of the things I really like about the P-club is they have something for everyone, two pool tables, a ping pong table, shuffle board table, dancing and even some pinball machines which make it nice because when we have big groups there is still something for everyone to do and Friday night we had a huge group, probably the biggest I have seen out in a long time.

I got there at 7:30 and went in and they were not that busy which is nice because we can get tables by the pool tables so I sat down and it was only a matter of minutes before other girls started to show up. We immediately put two tables together for our group because we knew more were coming and we were right we added a third table and even that was not enough. Let see how well I do with remembering who all was there, Maya, Cristine, Michele, Brook, Cassandra, Chris, Bob, Mellissa, Catherine, Jamie, Sandy, Barb, Norma, Diane, and Amy. I know there was more but my mind is blank right now so sorry if I left your name out. It really was hard to keep track as we had more than could fit at our 3 tables and we were soon spread out across the club playing pool, ping pong and shuffle board. Yes this girl did play all three and in 4″heels, the ping pong was the hardest as you really can’t make fast moves in them.

Maya talked me into playing ping pong with her and she is really good at ping pong. We started off just hitting the ball back and forth for a while and then decided to play a game. The first game I did okay but ended up losing 21 to 13 so we played a second game and this game I came closer but still fell short 21 to 17 but it was a lot of fun. I know Maya took it easy on me which was nice and we had a fun time. Next I went down as it was my turn to play pool.

I played 4 games of pool won 3 in a row and then got to play Cassandra; she is probably our best pool player so she is the one everyone wants to beet. She can talk a really good game but can really back it up with her play. Anyway Chris and Cassandra made a bet who would win; I was the 2 to 1 underdog which is okay as I am not that good. I ended up losing but came close, we were both on the 8 ball and missed a couple times as neither of us wanted to leave a shot for the other if we missed. But it was a really good game.

After this I had to sit down for a while as my feet were sore from all the standing and moving around. This was nice as it gave me a chance to talk with some of the girls. Maya, Barb, Brook, Mellissa and I were at the one end of the table and we had a nice little conversation which I so enjoy. I really think just sitting around talking is so much fun and gives you a chance to really get to know others and what is going on in their lives. I really wish I had more time to talk with all the girls in the group but with such a big group doing so many things at once it is hard and I really don’t want to miss talking with any of my great friends. So if I missed talking to you please grab me the next time we are out so we can chat.

I got to talk just briefly with Jamie and Catherine when they came in but was playing pool at the time. It was great to chat with them both as I have met both before and they are so wonderful. I really hope they can come out some more with our group. Jamie brought her friend Sandy which was her first time out. It was really nice to meet her and did talk to her for a little bit. She seemed like she was having a really good time and I am sure she will be out again. Like I said we have such wonderful girls in this group.

Well it was time for shuffle board so several of us went up to play. We played teams and Diane and I were on the same team. We won the first game and lost the second game so we played a tie breaker and lost by 1 point. I did score two 5’s which is really hard because it is the corner of the board and almost impossible t5o get the puck to stop there. Now I must admit one of the 5’s was for the other team as I tried to knock one of theirs off and can you believe it, it stopped right on the corner. Mine landed on the 3 point but as the point always goes to the high score mine didn’t count so instead of my team getting three points we got nothing and the other team got 5, this was the game we lost by 1 point. I guess though I should count this as a win as I scored their points?

Any way by this time it was getting really late about 1:30 and our group was dwindling down. We were all getting tired and ready to call it a night and sure enough Cassandra found two cute GG’s to talk to, I don’t know how she does it but soon we were all over talking with them, after all who does not want to talk to cute girls even if they are half your age or more. Their names were Evie and Lisa and they were just wonderful. We sat and chatted with them for probably 30 minutes and told them all about us and our group. The thing they found most interesting was that some of our girls are married and that we are not all gay. I really think that is the common thought is that crossdressers are gay so it is so nice to be able to talk to them and explain about who we are. I really think once they understand who we are it helps remove any possible misunderstandings. It was a fun night and of course I had to get a picture with them. From left to right is Diane, Evie, Susan & Lisa. They were awesome to talk too.

Well by this time it was after 2 and they were closing up so we all paid our tabs, the bar tenders know most of us by name how cool is that and all headed for home. It was about 2:45 when I finally got home, what a fun and late night. Well tonight (Saturday) is our Christmas party and as I got up really late I am not going out shopping for a new dress so I guess it will be my short black dress tonight. It should be so much fun and I will have more pictures for sure.

Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day.

December 11, 2010 Posted by | Portsmouth Pizza & Pub | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment


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