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My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

Friday out as Susan and more shopping

It is Friday and I have another day off so it will be a Susan day. This will make 3 days in a row, Wednesday night dinner and Thursday out shopping and now Friday. I started getting ready with the hopes of being on my way by 9 am which I didn’t make. It was about 9:30 when I left. My plan was to go to Washington Square and walk around and do some shopping, not really looking for anything I need but more to be out and see if I can find something I need. I got there a little after 10 and parked by Nordstrom’s and went in. the mall was not really busy yet so it was easy to walk around. I checked out several stores and looked ay some clothes but nothing I really wanted, well there were a few things but they were not even close to my size. I spent a little over an hour here before leaving.

Now I wanted to get closer to home to avoid traffic but I did stop at Fred Meyers. I have only gone to Fred Meyers a couple times over the years but several if the girls were telling me they have a pretty good clothes selection. I didn’t find anything but it was still fun. From here I drove back close to where I live and went to a Starbucks. It is one I have gone to a couple times before. Cassandra texted me to see if I was out and wanted to meet for dinner and of course the answer was yes. We decided on Old Town pizza downtown Portland. Now the funny thing is I went through Portland on my way to Starbucks so now I will be going back to Portland. We decided on an early dinner about 3 so I had a little over an hour at Starbucks so I was able to write my blog from Thursday.

It was about 2:30 when I left for Old Town Pizza. I got back downtown Portland and I actually found a parking spot right in front of the door to Old Town Pizza. Now it was pouring down rain so I sat in the car for a few minutes but it didn’t let up so I broke out my umbrella and went in. now Traffic was bad so Cassandra was a little late.

Cassandra finally showed up about 3:30, it was great to see her again. This is her second time out this week which is awesome as she has not been out much the last 6 months. Now I will get to spend a lot of time with her as we are going to Diva Las Vegas together, 12 days as Susan. I will of course be Susan the whole time, Cassandra with only be Cassandra in Las Vegas, we talked about Diva Las Vegas and signed up for the events we want to do. We are both really looking forward to it. We have I think 7 from our group going plus a couple thinking about it so it will be a lot of fun.

We ordered pizza and had a really dinner. It really was nice to get together with her for a few hours. It was about 5:30 when we called it a night, now I probably won’t see Cassandra till March 26th. I will go get my nails done that day yes, my acrylic nails and then go over to her house late afternoon. Cassandra and her wife are awesome and let me stay there the night before we leave. We are hoping to be on the road between 2 and 3 am as we are planning on driving all the way to Las Vegas on Wednesday morning. Now I am really looking forward to getting my nails done, this year I am going to try a little different look a coffin shape. I have been looking at pictures and am still deciding on a color, I really like the bright red but a deeper read is also nice. Color aside this is the shape I am looking at getting. I just know it will be awesome to have them for 12 days. I really wish I could have my nails like this all the time.

Now I did get a selfie in the car before I left for home. Now this time of night I was caught in rush hour traffic so it took me an hour to get home but it really was a fun day out.

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March 10, 2019 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Thursday and a day of Susan

It is Thursday and I have today and tomorrow off work so they will be Susan days. I do need a couple things so I figure I will do a little shopping as it is something to do. Now again the difference between my male self and Susan. My male self is not a big shopper, I go to the store, get what I need and go home. Susan on the other hand likes to walk around and shop. The two things I really need is foundation and lipstick, yes, I have my favorites. So, this means a trip to Walmart and a trip to Nordstrom. I got up early and worked out, yes, I am going to try to get back in the habit of working out as I want to lose some weight and also get in shape more as I am not getting any younger. I started getting ready about 7:30 am and was on my way by 9:30. Now as I said I want to go to Walmart and Nordstrom’s which is at the mall. I figured I would start at Walmart as there is a Super Center at Wilsonville and then I can come back to Clackamas Town Center to finish off my shopping. I was on my way and even ow there is still traffic so it took a little while. Now the funny thing is it turns out the Walmart is in Woodburn which is about 12 miles further. Yes, Portland does not have a Super Center as the city felt they did not pay enough and would not let them build in the city. They have since changed their minds but with all the Super centers around the city all they have built in Portland are a couple small neighborhood Walmart’s. well it took a little longer to get to Walmart but that was okay.

I got to Walmart and went in, I got a cart as I figured as long as I was here, I would do my other shopping also, seems a waist to drive this far just for lipstick. I wandered around the store for a while and got some food and cleaning supplies. It really is nice being out just doing daily stuff like shopping as Susan. Life really has changed over the last 10 years. I use to go shopping for Susan as my male self (trial and error), then I got comfortable as Susan and only shop for Susan as Susan, and now I am shopping for my male self as Susan. I guess I have come full circle. Now with the things I need for my male life it is now all about Susan.

I went to the woman’s department and I am looking for some Loggins. I really like these for a casual look although I do wear a linger top as I do need to cover a little of the leggings, I don’t have the perfect shape for Loggins so I need a little help. I found them and they were only $5.98 a pair a good price so I got two. Now it was over to the Makeup section. These are now little sections within the store, one way in and out and a checkout register. I guess they are having an issue with theft. I found my favorite lipstick (at least my favorite right now). My two favorite colors are Maybelline super stay lip ink in color “Pioneer“, which is a wonderful red color a little brighter red great for an evening out. This is me wearing this shade. my second favorite color is Maybelline super stay lip ink in color Ruler, this is more of a darker red like a brick red. I think it is an all-around good red for anytime. These lipsticks really are long wear, you can eat, drink and they stay on. Even soap and water doesn’t take them off, I will have to use baby oil and a cotton ball to get it off. Now I had to pay for this here in the makeup section and then go to the front for the rest of my purchase

I left here and drove to Clackamas Town Center and went into Nordstrom’s. my first stop was the MAC counter. Now I have seen men working here before but today it was just two men working. They were both very pleasant and helpful and asked if I wanted to try anything. I really did but didn’t want to mess with my makeup so I just told him what I needed. All my makeup are what would be callled drugstore brands, Maybelline, Covergirl, Loreal, but for my foundation I really like the MAC Studio fix. It is a full coverage foundation that still looks natural and yiu can build layers if you need mire cverage. In my mind it is worth the extra money as I don’t havve to use asa much. Now that I had my lipstick and foundation I was good so it was out into thhe mall for some fun shopping.

I wandered around looking it really was more just being out. I did go into Victori’s Secret to look around. I have two bras I bought here and they are fabulous, the most comfortable bra’s I own. They are a little pricy though $49.95, now they had signs up for a sale, buy 2 get 1 free. they are called So Obsecced pushup bras. I looked around and couldn’t find them so when the young lady came and asked if I neede help I told her what I was looking for and she told me they were not getting them any more. I can’t tell you how many times I have found things I like only to have them discontinued.

I left the mall and drove to Wendy’s for a late lunch. After that I went to Starbucks, I went to the one by my house. I haven’t been to this one for a while as they close eary but it is during the day and as I have to be home by 3 it works out. Now I wrote my blog for Wednesday night dinner and then just surfed the internet. I did go onlie to Victoria’s Secret and they stll have some of the bras I like in selected colors so I ordered 3, 2 plus my free one. Now I don’t do a lot of online shopping but when I do it is fun, I used my Susan credit card, and I am having it shiooed to Susan at my address. I stayed here till 3 before going home as I have some things I have to do tonight and I can’t do them as Susan. I did get a selfie today too. The lipstick I am wearing in this picture is Maybelline super stay lip ink in Fighter which is a a brown color with a touch of copper, a good daytime color.

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March 8, 2019 Posted by | Nordstrom's, Out and about as Susan, shopping, Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Wednesday night dinner at Mothers Bistro

It is Wednesday and that means dinner out with my friends. We are going to Mothers Bistro, we have been here many ties but they have moved to a new bigger location a few blocks away so in a way it is kind of like a new place. I really like their food so I am looking forward to it. They are what I would call mid-range on price between $9 and $28 with most in the $18 to 22 range. I got home a little late so it was a rush to get ready. I really wanted to leave by 6 as I did not know what the parking would be like at the new place. Now I can get ready in 45 minutes if I have to just not as much funs as taking my time. It was about 6:15 when I was ready and on my way. Melissa had made reservations for 7 pm for 8. We had posted in the group and had 8 say they would be there but we also had a couple maybes which makes it hard to plan.

I got downtown at 6:40 and found a parking spot one block away. It still amazes me how easily I get out of the car as Susan now. I walked to Mothers Bistro and went in, Melissa was already there. The new place is probably twice the size of the old place which is nice as the old place was always busy. Our table was ready so Melissa and I went and sat down to wait for the rest of the girls. Now of course I had to get a quick selfie as I really am trying to get a picture each time I go out. It wasn’t long and girls started to show up, Joan was first followed by Cassandra, Barb, Jennifer, Patty, Andi, and Jackie so we actually had 9 tonight.

It was nice to get to talk to everyone as we were at a round table. Jackie is from Alaska but gets to Portland occasionally and Andi is from up by Seattle and also comes to Portland. It was nice to get to talk with them again. Patty is one of our newer members and this is her first time out with the group so it was nice to get to know her, she seems really nice as are all the girls in our group. Jennifer is also one of our newer members, I think this is her 3rd time out with us so we are getting some new girls out which is awesome.

Now I got to talk more with Cassandra as she was sitting right next to me and we got talking about when we first were going out and the thrill we felt, the adrenaline rush we got, excitement, fear and so many other emotions all wrapped together. We both miss that feeling as it really was a wonderful feeling but then again now days we go where ever we want and that is also wonderful. We got on the topic as she has a t-girl friend she has been e-mailing for more than 10 years but has never met. Well this girl came out to her wife and her wife is somewhat supportive so she is going to Diva Las Vegas with us. From the sounds of it this may actually be her first time going out and Cassandra says she is so excited about it. I think back to my first Diva Las Vegas, yes, I did the whole thing as Susan from the day I left till I got home and it was wonderful but also exciting and scary at the same time. There is a big difference between going to a LGBT bar or club or maybe a small restaurant, or even a Starbucks and walking into a hug hotel casino as they are like mini cities. Going to Diva Las Vegas really opens the world to you as if you can do this you can do anything.

Our waitress came over and took our orders, she was awesome and we had her as our waitress at the old location and she remembered us of course, we are a little hard to forget. Now I was looking forward to their Chicken Parmesan which I had last time but it turns out that was a special of the month when we went there and tonight, they didn’t have it, a little bit of a letdown but as I said they have a really good menu with several things I like so it was easy to pick my second choice, BBQ pulled Pork with mashed potatoes. We all ordered and then continued talking. Even with 9 people being at a round table you could pretty much talk with everyone which was nice.

We talked about how we have grown over the years and it is funny as some of the girls in the group are my best friends and know more about me then pretty much anyone including my family. When I first met the group and made friends with some of them, I really didn’t tell them anything about me or actually I made up stuff about me (little white lies). Trust me if I had it to do again, I would not have made up things. It is a lot of work to keep it straight and eventually it catches up to you so my advice to girls just starting out, don’t make things up or lie, be honest. And by that, I mean if someone askes you something about yourself either answer it or just tell then it is not something you are comfortable telling yet and that is all you need to say. If they are interested in being your friend, they will accept this as they have been in the same spot at some point. Cassandra and Julie, I have known for years and they truly are my best friends as they really do know pretty much everything about me, we have gotten together both as our female selves and male selves, they really are ore like family. Also, Jan and Lynn as they know my male side also. I really do have so many close friends in the group, Melissa, Barb who I don’t think have met my male self yet but I would have no problem with it. Our group really is one big family and 11 years ago when I met the group I would never have though that possible. If you are in the Portland metro area, Oregon, or come to Portland you really should check out our group the Rose City T-Girls. We do require a picture of you so we know you are real but it is only visible to members. I really think it is the best group there is but I may be a little bias.

Our food came and we had a wonderful dinner with great conversation, I rally like these dinners out over going to a bar or club as you really do get to talk more and get to know each other better. It is funny as my male self I am not a big socializer or like to sit and talk but as Susan I really do like this so there are little differences between my male self and my female self. Jewelry is another one, as my male self I don’t even wear a watch but as Susan if I forget my bracelets or ring, I just don’t feel right. After dinner we sat and talked for a while before we called it a night. it really was such a fun night out and I am looking forward to my next outings. I have the next two days off and that means some Susan time and some shopping. I need a few things for Diva Las Vegas but also just want a little time out.

Now I have been thinking a lot about Diva Las Vegas and how I want to do my nails. I always get square which I like butt this year I am thinking of doing a slight coffin shape. This is how I have had them done in years past (yes these are my nails) on the left. This is what I am thinking for this year, on the right, what do you think. Well I have 2 weeks to think about it and decide.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is new in Susan’s life.

March 8, 2019 Posted by | Dinner out, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , | 3 Comments

Susan time on Sunday

I once again had some time on Sunday and that means Susan goes to Starbucks. Now I have thought a lot about this lately as I have had several questions as to why I like going to Starbucks as Susan. I really can’t explain it. I will spend an hour or more getting ready to go to Starbucks for a few hours. The funny thing is though other than the time I spend getting ready I really don’t think about the fact I am Susan when I am at Starbucks. Yes, the girls who work here know me and call me by Susan and when I am typing on my computer, I can see my pretty nails and every so often my hair falls in front of my face. Other than that, I don’t even think about the fact of how I am dressed, I am just me. Now I will admit Susan is a big part of my life and who I am but she is not all of me, she compliments and completes the person I am. It really is that simple and complex at the same time. I kind of look at it the same way as you would do anything else that you have to get ready for. Someone who runs gets their running shoes on, their running gear, warms up and then goes running, while they are running, they are not thinking about what they are wearing they are just running and doing something they like, being who they are. It is the same for me. Well back to my night out.

I was looking forward to my Susan time as I had family in town this weekend and couldn’t go out on Saturday night. I really wasn’t sure about today as I didn’t know how early they would leave but as luck would have it for Susan, they left about 3 pm so I figured I could get ready and be to Starbucks by 4:30. Now as I have said many times there is something so relaxing as I do my makeup and transform into Susan for a few hours. I was ready and, on my way, and got to Starbucks about 4:20 so I had about 4 hours if I stayed till, they close. Now not going out last night I didn’t have a blog post to write so I was just going to play on my computer, catch up on e-mails, some of the blogs I follow and surf the internet, in other words just some relaxing time.

Now they didn’t look busy so I was able to park right in front and went in. they were a little busy but there were a couple tables by the windows so I sat my computer down and went and ordered my drink, a sweetened green iced tea, I would save the hot chocolate for later when it gets colder. Now this Starbucks has a drive through but there are still some who come in and get drinks to go. Really Starbucks is a good place to people watch. I caught up on my e-mails, I am bad at responding to them, I have a bad habit of looking at them and telling myself I will reply later and then they get lost till I clean my inbox. I also looked over the events for Diva Las Vegas as they are out now. I am really looking forward to going again this year. It is the one time a year I live as Susan for 10 to 12 days. So much fun. There is still time to sign up and go to Diva if you are interested. Looks like we will have a little smaller group from Portland this year maybe 6 to 8 but it will still be fun.

By about 6 it started to get cold by the window so it was time for my Hot Chocolate, this gave me a little break to stand and walk around a little. Soon I was back at my table and it was still cold, it is just above freezing outside and the windows here do not block the cold. New I was smart enough to have my computer plugged in so it was fully charged so I moved to a table in the middle of the room to get away from the window. It was still cold as it was windy out and every time the door opened you could feel the cold air. I am so ready for spring and warmer weather. I stayed till almost 8 before I was ready to leave for my warm house. It was still a fun time out. Now I am looking forward to Wednesday night dinner, we are going to Mothers Bistro downtown Portland. They just moved to a bigger location so it is kind of like going to a new place but they have really good food. After that it will be Thursday and Friday as I have the days off and plan on some Susan time shopping. There are a few things I need for Diva Las Vegas and I just want to see if I can find a new outfit or two also.

Thanks for reading and be sure and read my most recent blog to see what is knew for Susan.

March 7, 2019 Posted by | Starbucks | , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

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