Awesome Friday night with Friends.

Well after missing last Friday night out with my friends I was really looking forward to tonight. Friends are so important in one’s life and after a long hard week at work what could be better than spending a fun night out we the people important in your life. Well I started getting ready and it was sunny out but by the time I was finishing it was dark and I could hear thunder and see the lightning which I really do love, just something about a good storm this girl likes. Well I pulled out of my garage and it was raining so hard I knew I didn’t have to worry about any of my neighbors being out and even if they were they would never see me through the rain. Going down the free way cars were only going about 30 and trust me that was plenty fast for the weather. About half way to the P-Club I ran out of the rain, funny as behind me it was dark and in front was sunny but I could still see the flashes of lightning behind me and hear the thunder and it was going the same way I was.

I got to the P-Club and found a parking spot right in front, love my small car. It was not raining yet so I got out and went inside and walked over to where Cassandra, Chris and Robyn were seated. As I said hi to them we saw a big flash of lightning outside and herd the thunder which was so loud it rattled the window so everyone in the club looked outside and that is when the bottom fell out. It started to rain so hard you couldn’t really see across the street and we are literally talking a minute after I got out of my car, this girl got lucky because as hard as it was raining the 15 feet I walked between my car and the door I would have been soaked. It was cool though as we were inside and could watch it all through the windows. The heavy rain lasted maybe 20 minutes before it let up.

Victoria, Diane and Christy showed up after the rain eased. It was great to see Diane, she was in town for work and didn’t let any of us know so she just showed up and surprised us all. She is a lot of fun to hang out with. Well Chris had his tablet and pulled up our group page (Rose_city_t-girls) as Cassandra had made a new folder called memorable moments and went back through all the pictures in our group and picked out some of the more interesting pictures, about 100 of them. We have pictures that go back 5 years in our group, 1,000′s of them. I was fun to look back and see the different looks, wigs and how we have all progressed. It was a nice walk down memory lane for us.

Well by this time we were all getting hungry so we ordered dinner, I got a salad. So we all ate and enjoyed some girl talk while we ate and of course a couple of the girls started playing pool. By this time other girls started showing up and I could already tell we would have a good turnout tonight. At one point I tried to count and got 26 but some may have left or not shown up yet so I am sure there were at least a few more, we pretty much took over the one section.

Olivia showed up I met her through Brooke, her and I are friends on facebook so I knew she would be there. She is a GG and it turns out her boyfriend works just across the street from the P-Club. She had on this really cute retro 70′s look outfit that she made, how cool would that be to be able to make your own outfits. Well it was time for shuffle board so Diane and Olivia played Cassie and me in a game it was a really close game and in the end they won by 1 point

Jan and Lynn also made it and brought a few girls they met at Esprit this year. They stayed in town to go out with our group tonight. So I guess maybe 5 or the girls that were there were not from our group but they still count. At this time we had girls playing shuffleboard and both pool tables.

Jennifer made it also so I had a chance to talk with her. She actually filled in for Diane when we were playing shuffle board when Diane went to get a drink. Jennifer actually scored 8 points on the one turn she did so in reality since they only won by one point it was Jennifer that won the game. She was on the same end as me so it gave us a chance to talk while we played.

Maya and Darla also made it, they are a really cute couple together and of course Darla had to show us her ring. Turns out Maya purposed and they are engaged. The big question is who gets to wear the wedding dress. Cassandra made a toast for the group.

Sophia and Lorna also showed up, seems they make it every few weeks. They are a great couple also and I enjoy talking to them. Problem is with such a big group which was great I didn’t notice them show up so it took me a while to get over and talk to them. We chatted for a few minutes but then I had to get back to my shuffle board game. Next time will have to be sure I can sit with them and talk more.

Well as I said we had such a big group I ended up standing most of the night and as I wore my 4″ heels by about midnight my feet were so soar I did what most woman do, I took them off which really did feel good. I got a chance to sit and really talk with Diane and heard all about her trip to Southern Comfort last year and even saw some great pictures. I may have to go to that one of these years if I can work into my vacations. Any way it was nice to talk to her and I learned a lot more about her. It is funny as we live these duel lives and we really do have wonderful close friends but we still keep things private. Some of these girls I consider my best friends but there are still things they don’t know, some have never seen my male side even in a picture but then I don’t have many pictures of my male self.

Well it was getting late and time to leave. It turns out that Olivia’s boyfriend’s birthday is this weekend and she was going over when he got off to surprise him. She had present for him and a card which she had some of us sign. It is funny signing a Birthday card for someone you have never met. Any way as we left she wanted a couple of us to go across the street to where he works and wish him a happy birthday so Victoria and I went. They were closed by this time but he came out and we all wished him a happy Birthday and Olivia gave him his presents which he opened. They really are a cute couple together. I wondered what he thought about his girlfriend showing up with two T-girls of which he has never met to wish him a happy Birthday. Well we said our goodbyes and it was time to leave. It was now after 2 am but what a fun night.

Sunny warm Friday night with friends 5-11-2012

Well it has been another long week and yes I did not make it to Starbucks again this week which makes like 4 weeks in a row so I was really looking forward to Friday night with my friends. I was finishing up my makeup which is something I really enjoy, I know some GG’s will disagree on this but then they have been doing their makeup every day for many years and I only get to do it 2 times a week for the last few years so for me it is still really fun. Any way I looked out my front window and my neighbor lady was across the street talking with those neighbors standing at the end of their drive which is right across from my driveway and they were watching their kids, 5 of them riding their bikes in the street so they were facing my drive. Now I know I said I knew at some point they would see me and I would just deal with it but there is a difference between them just accidently seeing me and pulling right out in front of them so I was wondering what I was going to do. Well I still had to get dressed and put my nails on so I had time to think about it. Well 10 minutes later I was all ready and looked out the window and they were all gone so I was out the door as fast as I could. With the warmer weather I can see this will make it a lot harder to get out.

Well I got to the P-Club and Cassandra and Chris were there, now I was worried we would have a small turnout being Mothers Day weekend, Happy Mother’s Day to all you Mothers out there. Also being a nice sunny and bright day and then the fact the group is going to Harvey’s tomorrow night I just felt very few would be out but Cassandra kept telling me it was earl and she was right as we had a great turn out. At least 25 that I counted and maybe a few more I missed.

Well I was hungry and so Cassandra and I ordered dinner. I was going to have a salad as I really do need to watch what I eat but Nicole told Cassandra they are defiantly getting rid of the ribs so we both ordered that and it turns out we got the very last two. Kristy showed up next and she also ordered or tried to order the ribs but they were out.

By about 9pm girls started to show up and our group was growing. It was time for shuffle board. Cassandra and Barb challenge Victoria and me to a game. The table was really bad so Cassandra got a towel and cleaned it all off and then we re-salted it. This made it a little more challenging as over the last several weeks I had gotten use to the slow spotty conditions. Cassandra and Barb took an early lead but Victoria and I came back in the end and won by 5, really good game.

Victoria Sinclair also came out; yes we have two Victoria’s. The funny thing I have noticed is most T-Girls only have or use a first name so can be confusing when there is more than one girl with same name. I thought about my name Susan Miller and how I came up with it. Susan was a really cute girl I had a huge crush on when I was 15 and could never get up the courage to talk to her plus she had a boyfriend but I also really love her name so I am Susan. A lot of girls I have found picked name this way. Anyway I got a post office box so I could order things and then added Susan to my box, now the funny part is I had just emptied my new box and all that I had was junk mail from the last people who had it. When the guy at the counter asked me Susan’s last name to put on the box I was looking at the mail and the last name on it was Miller and that just came out. I guess if I had not had the post office box I would have never even thought about a last name. Wow got off track there.

As I said Victoria Sinclair came out and it was great to see her. She has a business called over the rainbow and does makeovers for T-Girls, teaches them how to do makeup, cloths, and wigs and even will take them out for evenings so she had two girls with her. One was Becky and she is up from the Bay Area on her way to Esprit which is a transgender event in Port Angeles every year in May. Any way Becky was in town for the weekend on her way there and came out with our group. It was great to get to know her as she seems really nice. We had a good chance to talk for a while. The other girl was named Rachel and it was so awesome to meet her. She has been crossdressing in private all her life and last Wednesday was the first time she has ever gone out, she went to Victoria for a makeover and then went out with the group to CC Slaughters and tonight was her second time out. Now I know what you are thinking as everyone has a first time out but you see Rachel is 82 years old and is just getting out, how awesome is that. I didn’t get as much time talking with her as I would have liked but I think she is moving here to Portland so I should see her out more and get more of a chance to talk with her and get to know her.

The highlight of the night was a group of about 10 women that came in and sat not far from us. As normal Cassandra was the one who just walked right up to them and started talking with them, god I wish I could do that? Any way once she broke the ice she pointed to the group and I took that as an invitation and went right over and started talking with them. They seemed totally fine with us as a matter of fact they soon all had their cell phones out and were getting pictures with us. I bet there must have been 50 pictures taken by them. Well I could not have that so I went and got my camera and came back to get pictures with them. Well turns out this blonde forgot it had been a while since she changed her batteries and the camera went dead but not before I got one picture. I guess one is better than none. This is Denise and she was totally awesome. It is so cool to meet people like her and her friends.

Well tomorrow night, Saturday our group is going to Harvey’s comedy club again. I think we have 14 that have said they are going and a couple more maybes so it should be a fun night so there will of course be a blog for that.

Next weekend Susan has to work all weekend so no P-Club for her but that being said I am for sure going to find a way to go to Starbucks as I need at least one night out as Susan.

Thanks for reading and have a great weekend!

Friday night with my friends

Well it has been another long week for Susan so she was really looking forward to an evening out with her friends. I got to the P-Club about 7:15 and Cassandra, Chris, Diane and her friend Christy were already there. It was great to see Diane again as she is in town for the week. She in traduced me to her friend Christy, seems they went to High School together and reconnected on Face book. It is so cool what the internet has done for us as far as connection and keeping in touch with friends. It was nice to Meet Christy, she is really nice and I enjoyed talking with her and look forward to talking to her more.

I had a good chance to talk with Cassandra and Cristine about their trip to Diva Las Vegas. They had a great time. They did a lot of fun stuff such as going down town Las Vegas to the Freemont experience. I have been there a couple times as my male self but never as Susan. There were so many people there and they got lots of pictures. I was sad I couldn’t go this year but glad they had such a good time and I look forward to going with them next year plus hearing all their stories plus reading some of my friends face book pages about Diva Las Vegas and Alexis blog it was kind of like being there. I have also seen so many wonderful pictures.

Well it was time for dinner and they still had the ribs on the menu so I ordered them and they were so good. The meat fell right off the bones so I could eat them with a fork which for Susan is really important as I hate getting my hands or worse my face messy and heaven forbid I mess up my lipstick. Susan has her priorities and looking cute and pretty is at the top of the list.

Well other girls started to show up and we had a pretty good turnout, maybe 12 to 15 girls in all. Some of the girls played pool but the real game was shuffle board. Bobby and I challenged Diane and Kelly to a shuffle board game. We won both games the first easily but the second game was really close.

We had several new girls show up which is always great. One was named Tabatha and she was really nice. I enjoyed talking to her. It is always so nice to meet new people and get to know them. I think that is one of the great things about this group as it gives us a chance to meet new people. I have met so many wonderful people and although we all share a common interest in the way we dress and present ourselves we are all different in ways too. It is these differences that make us all special and create such a unique and wonderful group.

Michelle was also another new girl that showed up. Talked to her a little but not as much as I would have liked but that is because we started playing shuffle board, Michelle was my partner so she was on the other end of the table. I look forward to talking to her more the next time she is out with the group. I hope they all join our group the Rose City T-Girls. Cassandra gave them all her card and invited them to join. We also told them all about the Cinco de Mayo party Saturday night and I think, hope they will all show up.

The rest of the night was fun and yes I even played a game of pool against Diane. It was a close game but in the end Diane was the winner. I really need to work on my pool game I think that is why I like shuffle board more as this girl is way better at that game.

The cool part of the P-Club is some of the regulars come over and talk with us throughout the evening. We are pretty much accepted as regulars there and people treat us that way. It really is a fun and accepting place for our group to go. If you are ever in the Portland Oregon area on a Friday night feel free to come join us.

It was a really fun night and as always it went way to fast. As we were paying our bills there were 3 men at the bar that started talking to us. They were okay with us but wanted to know why we liked dressing this way so we talked with them for probably 15 minutes. I think this is really important to be willing to talk with people and answer their questions as this is how people find out about us and who we are and this I think brings a greater acceptance of all.

Well Saturday night our group is having a Cinco de Mayo party which should be a lot of fun and I am really looking forward to it. I had hoped to get a new outfit for the party but just didn’t have a chance to go shopping but I do know what I am going to wear, actually I have done a lot of thinking about the party and know just the look I want. It will be such a fun night. The bad part is I will have to leave about 5:30 on a Saturday night and if the weather is nice I am sure my neighbors will be out working in their yards which will be a challenge.

I also plan on going to Starbucks this week as I have missed the last 3 weeks going there. It really is a nice relaxing evening out. Also next Friday at the P-Club and then next Saturday for our monthly night out at Harvey’s comedy club so Susan should have a busy week ahead.

Thanks for reading and have a great week.

Slow night at the P-Club but still fun

Well it has been another long week at work for this poor girl and she was ready for the weekend. A couple of our girls are still down at Diva Las Vegas and a couple more our out of town for the weekend so not sure how many will show up tonight. Speaking of Diva Las Vegas tonight is the last night and the big farewell dinner at the Bahama Breeze restaurant, such a fun place. Cassandra texted me from there and sent me a picture, looks like her and Cristine are having a good time. I can’t wait to hear all about it.

I got to the P-Club about 7:10 and went in, not many people were there and I was the first of our group so I got our usual table and sat down. I took my time looking at the menu and settled on the BBQ ribs. I have wanted to try them for a while and never think to order them till I have already ordered. Now what to do as I was still there by myself, now the P-Club does have several TV’s around so I was kind of watching them and also the pool game going on as I waited to see if anyone else would show up. Now I knew Victoria, Jenn and Stefia would be there at some point as they had e-mails or posted in the group that they would but the question was when and how long I would be on my own. Well it was about 30 minutes and then Barb showed up and I was no longer by myself.

Cindy came by and took our order, one of the good things about it being slow, and I ordered the ribs while Barb got the nachos. Well Cindy came back as it turns out they were out of the ribs and worse than that they are discontinuing them as it turns out they didn’t sell that many. Cassandra and a couple other of the girls will be sad as they really like them. Boy I should have gotten them last week; well I went with the chicken tenders instead.

Well about 8 Victoria and Bobby showed up so we had 5 now. Funny a few years back this would have been great to have 5 girls out but somehow it seemed small after having 15 to 25 on a Friday night. Well we decided to play some pool and it turns out Barb was the big winner. I think she won 5 in z row before she lost. I lost twice to her; the first game I made a really good shot, a 3 way combination and made it the bad part is I also scratched the 8 ball on the same shot.

It was about 9 that girls started to show up, Cassie, Julie, Trish, Samantha, Stefia and Jenn, I know I am missing someone as we were all joking around about how many were there and there were 12. Well with this bigger group it was time for shuffle board. Stefia and I were partners against Jenn and Victoria. It was a good game but the Jenn and Victoria won. The table still had way too much salt on it and the pucks would not slide consistently. The second game was Victoria and me against Jenn and Stefia, this time I was on the winning team.

Jenn and I decided to play pool now neither one of us is going to make a living playing pool but we had fun. Jenn won the first game so we had to play again. The second game was mine I had a stretch where I sunk 4 balls in a row and even with that Jenn only had one ball left when I sunk the 8 ball to win, but hey I won a game.

The rest of the night was spent talking and a few of the girls danced. Jenn had gone earlier in the day and got her ears priced. She was so happy she was showing them to everyone. It is funny how we all do this when we have or do something new. I think this keeps us all young and happy as we can share things with our friends.

It was great to spend the evening with friends, I can think of no better way to end a long week then that. Well about midnight girls started to leave and our group got smaller. It was after 1 when we got down to the last 4 of us and I was ready to call it a night as it had been a long day plus I have to get up at 8 am Saturday morning as I am getting a pedicure with Peggy but that will be another blog.

It was a fun night and I am already looking forward to next weekend as not only will we be at the P-Club Friday night but Kathy, Mandie & Danielle our hosting a Cinco de Mayo party on Saturday night. That will be a blast. I also hope to make it to Starbucks this week as I have missed the last two weeks, I wonder if they are done with their remodel. Well I plan to find out this week.

Have a great week and thanks for reading

Slow Friday night at the P-Club

Well it has been another busy week for this girl, no midweek outing to Starbucks so I was really looking forward to Friday night with my friends to help lift my spirits. This Sunday starts Diva Las Vegas and the fact I couldn’t go this year really got me thinking about it. You see if I had gone Thursday night I would have gone to the nails salon and gotten acrylic nails for the trip and would be living full time for the next 10 day. Friday we would have drove down to LA and gone out Friday night and Saturday shopping or maybe even Universal Studios like last time. I got a text from Cassandra that she and Cristine made it to LA and I know they will have a fun week so looking forward to hearing all about it. Next year I will be there for sure.

Well I really tried hard to get ready early so I could be to the P-Club by 7 but got there just a few minutes past. Chris was the only one there so far so I joined him and we started to talk. Chris texted Cassandra to see where they were they were already down there as they left at 4:30 am for the drive. I went up and ordered some food, Nicole was off tonight and for the life of me I can’t remember the name of the girl filling in as I have only met her a few times but she is very nice also. I must say that the P-Club staff is really great no matter who is working. We weren’t sure how many would show up tonight as Cassandra and Cristine are the ones who are out the most regular in the group and they are both gone for 10 days. But 7:30 came and a few girls started to show up. Kristy and Bobby were the first two, then Robyn and Teresa. It has been a while since Robyn and Teresa have been out on a Friday night so glad they could make it.

Kim showed up, she is Peggy’s hair dresser and very nice. She was meeting one of her friends there and they were going to hang out with us, how fun is that as it is always great to have some pretty GG’s in the group. Well her friend showed up a few minutes later and she is also very nice but as I am Blonde I can’t remember her name. Actually I have a hard time remembering names one of the reasons I like to put them in my blog but as I am blonde that is the excuse I am using. It looks like we may have a good group after all. In all we had 13 I think which is smaller than normal but just a couple years ago 10 or more was an awesome turnout for our group.

Jen, Trisha and another girl showed up (another blonde moment on the name). It is always good to see them. Gave me a chance to talk with Jen some more and see how things were going for her. She started her hormone therapy a couple months ago and she has started telling everyone about her transition. I give her credit for that as it takes a lot of guts to be so open to people. Any way things are good and pretty much everyone so far has been okay with her transition. It is funny as you think that people would have such a hard time with a change like this but the 3 girls I know best (Teresa, Victoria & Jen) which have gone through it have all had great reaction and support to it. I worry so much about my family, friends and neighbors finding out and I really think for the most part it would be no big deal to them but it is that fear of the unknown.

Well it was time for shuffle board so Jen and I challenge Kim & Teresa to a game. Now Kim has only played once before so Jen and I had a slight advantage. Teresa and I were at one end and Kim and Jen the other. We had a fun time even though the table had way to much salt on it that the pucks did not slide very well but both teams had to deal with this. Jen and I won so we took a break and went back and talked with the group.

Later on Kim and Teresa wanted a rematch, this time Kim and I were at one end and Teresa and Jen the other. During the second game I was giving Kim some tip, strategy on the game. Well Jen and I won again but the third game was a different story as Kim used my tips and really improved, Kim & Teresa won the third game. We all had a fun time.

It was after 10 when Jan and Lynn showed up, Jan in boy mode. It was great to see them and sit around and talk some more. Victoria also showed up, she had been out of town on business and had just flown in to PDX so on her way home from the airport she stopped in to spend a little time with the group. The P-Club really is a nice place to hang out and spend time with friends. It has a nice relaxed atmosphere and the people there are great. One guy came over and told Kim how pretty she was and really looked passable, we all laughed as she is a GG. I told her she should have said thanks in a real deep husky voice but even so the fact he came over and complimented her in our group shows that we are accepted there. The rest of the night I kept telling her what a passable girl she made.

Well a little after midnight our group started to dwindle as girls left. By 1 am it was just Jan, Lynn and I left. We were getting ready to leave when Brooke showed up so we all sat back down and talked some more. Brooke has a new wig that really looks great on her. Before we knew it it was closing time. We all went up and paid our bills and said our goodbyes. It was a little after 2 am when we left. I was so tired as I had gotten up for work a 4 am so I have been up for 22 hours now. On the drive home they opened the bridge for a ship or something but there I sat for about 15 minutes so it was almost 3 am when this girl finally got to bed. But it was such a fun night and I got to spend time with my friends so how better to start a weekend.

Thanks for reading and have a great week.

Friday the 13th at the P-Club

Well it is Friday night and I am ready to go out and spend a fun night with my friends. After missing last Friday I have really been looking forward to tonight. Most of the day was sunny and warm so I decided to wear my little white skirt with a black top but by the time I got all ready it was raining out but who cares so I went ahead and wore it as I still felt it was cute even if the sun had gone away.

Now today is Friday the 13^th so I wondered how many girls would be out as I know some people are very superstitious about these things, myself have never really paid any attention to these things as I feel if something is going to happen or go wrong it will. Well I left my house and started down the street and as I got to the corner here comes my next door neighbor around the corner and right by me. This is the same neighbor who saw me leaving the house last year and asked if I had lent my car to a friend a couple days later. Not it was not bright sun light like last year so not sure how good of a look she got at me but I am sure she could tell it was not my male self driving. It will be interesting next time we talk while out doing yard work which with the weather will be more and more now. But this was not going to stop my fun or ruin my night as Susan did not care, she will let my male self deal with it later.

Now I got to the P-Club right at 7:30 and there were already 5 or 6 girls there and for the first time in a long while I was there before Cassandra. Well more girls started to show up and I think we probably had 12 to 15 girls there which is a little smaller than normal but I am blaming it on being Friday the 13^th.

I had a good chance to talk with Cassandra and Cristine about their upcoming trip to Diva Las Vegas, I am so jealous of them as I really wanted to go again this year. I guess I will just have to live vicariously through them for the week. I know they will have such a wonderful time. Cristine has gone through the airport there several times bit she has not been in the city itself since the 1950′s so she is in for a real treat. They leave next Friday morning so they will miss the next two Friday nights. I so look forward to hearing all about it and seeing their pictures.

Diva Las Vegas is a get together of Transgender people from all over the world. It is not a convention like most are but a vacation. They have events all over the city and it is not centered around any one place or hotel, they do have 4 hotels they recommend just so you know where people will most likely be but you can stay any place you want. There is no fee to attend you just pay for the things you want to do and you are free to participate in as many or few events as you want. It really is no different than going on a vacation with your friends. The last two years were so much fun and I made some awesome friends there, I will really miss not seeing them this year.

Well we all ordered some food and just sat around and talked, I had their chicken tenders as they are easy to eat without messing up my lipstick which is very important. I think T-girls are more worried about messing up their lipstick then GG’s are as all the girls in our group drink through a straw. It is funny to see all the beer glasses with straws sticking out of them.

It was a quieter night at the P-Club then the last time I was there but we still had people that came up and talked with us which is always nice. I guess we are now regulars there and seem to be treated as such. I made a real effort to try to talk to all our girls at some point this evening which is a little easier with a smaller group but I still think I missed one or two as they were also moving around chatting with people. It was a very enjoyable evening.

The other strange thing is I think this is the first time we have been there that no one from our group played pool or shuffle board, the whole evening revolved around conversation. It was very nice and as strange as it sound the evening went just as fast as always. It really amazes me how fast the night can go when you are with friends, we were there 6 hours and it just flew by.

Well it was late, after 1:30 when the last of us left. We all went up and paid our bills and I found out something new, turns out if you open a tab for your food and drink, when you close it out at the end of the night and leave a tip the tip goes to those still working. The reason I bring this up is Nicole who by the way is awesome usually gets off before they close but she is the one who always serves me and most of the group and the main reason I leave a good tip. Now I find out she has not been getting them all the time. Don’t get me wrong the other people there are awesome also and deserve a good tip but I did not know this, I guess it is the blonde in me showing through. I so love using my Susan credit card that I never really have cash in my purse but this will change as I plan on having some money so I can tip her if she leaves early.

Well it was a fun night and we all said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. It is always sad when such a fun evening ends. Saturday night I will see some of them again as we have tickets to Harvey’s Comedy club. There are 7 of us going for sure and 4 more maybes. I hope Saturday evening we have more sign up as it really is a fin night out. I will of course have my camera and hopefully remember to use it but then again I am blonde.

Thanks for reading and have a great weekend.

Awesome Friday night and no we did not win the Lottery

Well it was the end of a long week for me so I was ready to spend some fun time with my friends. I really think having good friends will brighten anyone’s day and make you feel some awesome inside and trust me I have some really great friends. Cassandra sent out a group text to see if anyone wanted to go in on some lottery tickets for the big drawing tonight. We had to buy them by 7 pm so you either needed to be to the P-Club before 7 or text her back you wanted in and would pay her when you got there and of course I sent her a text. $5 for a chance at a share of 640 million was worth it to me. I also made every effort to be there before 7 and I guess the thought of winning money did it as I was at the p-club by 6:45. We had 11 people in the pool so I guess when we split it we would each only get $55 million but still a good shot. Cassandra bought the tickets and I also bought some of my own.

Well e did have a good turnout tonight and some of the girls got there early like me and we all talked about the money we would win which was fun, kind of like when you were little and would talk about all the great and fun things we would do when we grew up. Well in case you didn’t know we did not win so we are not all mega millionaires.

Well we had our normal group of girls plus a few more that come out every now and then so maybe 15 to 20 of use there. We are normally the biggest single group of people there but not tonight. About 8 pm a few people started to show up and put tables together for a birthday party and they kind of took over the place. I would guess they had 40 people in their group and all between 21 and 30 years old. They were having fun and really paid no attention to us so we went about having our good time.

We all ordered dinner and sat around and talked. I had a chance to talk with Cassandra about Diva Las Vegas and she is planning on going even though I can’t which is great as I know she will have a great time so Beverly if you are reading this yes Cassandra will be there and staying at the Imperial Palace. I am still sad I can’t go as it really is a fun time.

Later on about half of the group from the birthday party came up to play some pool and shuffle board. Cassandra being her awesome self just started talking with them, god I love that about her. I need to get better at that. Well it wasn’t long and we were all having a fun time together and they were totally at ease with us there. A couple of the guys challenge Cassandra at pool, yes Cassandra won and they were fine with that. The girls in the group all seemed to love us and thought we all looked great which we did by the way. Funny thing was there were probably 20 girls in their group and only one of them had on a dress the rest were in pants of some sort and only 2 of them had on heels as to our group everyone had on a dress or skirt and heels. I guess it just takes a real man to be really girlie.

Anyway I was talking to two of the girls and they brought up the heels. Seems they have never worn heels and figured they would break their legs if they did. I assured them they would be able to walk just fine and showed one of them the basics on walking in heels. Got to love YouTube as that is where I learned. So here we are me in my heels and her in her flats walking back and forth a few times. Now for the funny part the other girl borrowed her sister’s heels and asked me to show her. She really did look awkward but no more then I probably did the first time I wore heels. So we walked back and forth a couple times but that was it for her. Turns out her sister’s feet are one size smaller so her feet were done and she took them off but promised she would get a pair and bring them back for another lesson.

There were lots of pictures taken and of course the night was almost over when I realized none of the pictures were on my camera so I got it out really fast and got a few pictures. It is strange as that was always the big thing when I went out, had to have pictures now it is more about being out at Susan and spending time with friends and chatting with others.

Later on Darcy came over and we sat down together and talked for about 20 minutes or more which was really nice as it gave me a chance to learn more about her and her friends. She was really an awesome person and I am glad to have met her. It was a shame I was so much older than her as she was totally fine with our way of dressing but still I feel I made a new friend. Really hope her and her friends come back again.

Well it was almost 2 am when we finally left. Cassandra and I were the last two to walk out. We had both parked right in front on the street. Another GG came out of the club behind us and told us how awesome we looked. I think she said her name was Lalaunie (I guessed at the spelling) but we chatted for a minute. She told me I had perfect skin and looked flawless which made me feel great as it had been 8 hours since I put on my makeup. Now I will admit it was dark outside and rainy and she had been drinking but the compliment still stands. It was an awesome bight all around.

I won’t be out next Friday do to work but hopefully Saturday as Cassandra and Peggy our having a monthly get together at their home the first Saturday of the month and if the chance happens maybe once during the week but right now it looks as though Wednesday night might be the only chance I have. Any way thanks for reading and have a great week.

Friday evening with my friends.

Well it has been another long and busy week so I was so looking forward to tonight and spending some quality time with my friends as Susan. It really is amazing how just getting ready as Susan reduces my stress. Someplace online I saw the statement that crossdressing is hard on you and complicates your life and I guess to a point it does but that being said there are so many good things about it that makes it all worthwhile. One of the hardest parts was learning how to do my makeup; GG’s (genetic girls) grow up from a young age and get lots of practice and help from their friends, sisters or mom. I on the other hand had to learn it all on my own as I have never told anyone. The most complicated part is keeping the two sides separate; it really is like living a double life. Like anything worthwhile though it is all worth it as I truly have the best of both worlds. Think of all the wonderful things we have today, it is all because someone put in the hard work to find them or create them. Just because something is hard does not mean it is not worth the effort.

Well it is official; I could not get time off this year for Diva Las Vegas so I will have to miss this year. It is sad but I am already looking forward to next year and making plans. I will miss seeing the wonderful ladies I have met there and of course the not being Susan for a whole week and no acrylic nails although I am sure I will find a chance to get them done at least once this year.

Well I got all ready to go out to the P-Club with my friends. Today was really nice and sunny and when it was time to leave it was still really light out and my new neighbor across the street was out washing his car. Now I have not met him yet so I had that going for me. I opened my garage door and as he turned his back to me I pulled out and onto the street just as he turned back. I know he did not get a good look but I am sure he saw what looked like a woman driving my car but as I said I don’t really know him so he will probably just thing she was my girlfriend or wife. With the nice weather and longer days now this will be more of an issue. It was nice having 3 vacant houses by me but not anymore as they are all full.

I got to the P-Club and found a spot in front and went in. Cassandra, Chris and Samantha were already there so I joined them. We talked for a bit and I broke the news to Cassandra I could not go to Diva Las Vegas this year, I hope she still goes. Well I was hungry so I went up and ordered some food from Nicole and wondered if she would say anything about me being there last night in male mode or had she even realized it. She gave no indication she knew I had been there so it was good. As a matter of fact I said hi to Cindy and also Paul who had also been there last night and no sign they knew either.

Veronica showed up next which was nice as it has been awhile since she has made it out on a Friday night because of work. It was nice to sit and talk with her; she even showed us a picture of the truck she is driving now. Several of the girls from our group are now driving truck which is good as they are working but it cuts into their time out with the group so any time they make it is wonderful.

We had a good turnout, maybe 15 to 20 girls from the group which is good as it hard for some girls to get out before it gets dark, yes Crossdressers tend to be more of a night people. I remember years ago I would never leave my house before 10 pm as it had to be dark and late so people weren’t likely to see me. It is a shame because I think we are more worried about what others think then they really are.

Olivia Brooke’s friend from last week and I guess my friend also now showed up with her friend Sarah, I knew she would be there and was kind of watching for them but never saw them come in but turned around and they were playing pool. Guess I am not very observant. Anyway I went over and talked to Olivia and met her friend who is also really nice. We talked for a bit and then I let them get back to their pool game. A little later I went back and talked to them, Sarah was wondering about some of us who had rings on our fingers, she said they looked like wedding rings. I explained some of the girls were married and others were just something they liked to wear. Now I do were a solitaire ring and yes it is on the second finger so it does look like a wedding or engagement ring. I have never really given it much thought why I wear it there other than that is the only finger it fits on. I also think it helps me feel more feminine it also I hope will keep men from approaching me but in the flip side it may be why woman also don’t approach me. I may have to think on this more.

There were two GG’s that walked by us and smiled. Now I did smile back and wave at them which was good for me as I am still working on being more outgoing. Cassandra on the other hand walked over to where they were sitting and just started talking to them, wow I need to really be more like this. Well I also went over and talked to them but it was really because Cassandra did it first. They were pretty awesome and thought it was great we were there and if this was what we like to do that was great.

Well it was getting late and Nicole was leaving for the night so I just had to know so I went and asked her if she had recognized me last night. She let out a big, “that was you, Cindy and I were trying to figure out who you were since you kept calling us by our names”. She said when I left and stopped right in front of her and said good night she was thinking I was one of as she put it her girls. So what I took away from this is if I had not called them by their names I think they would not have realized it was me.

Well it was time to leave and Olivia and her friend Sarah needed a ride home and since they only live about a mile away and pretty much right on my way home I offered to give them a ride. I would never let someone I know walk that far at 2AM in the morning, male or female just not safe. It was nice to have someone to chat with even for such a short distance. It was a fun night and I look forward to next Friday.

I should make it out to Starbuck’s this week either Tuesday or Thursday so I have that to look forward to also. Thanks for reading and have a great week.

A little different blog tonight

Well I have always wondered if people would recognize me but this can be a hard thing to figure out. There is always a risk every time I go out someone who knows me will see me and will they recognize me. For me whenever I look at myself that is what I see male or female I see me. What would others see? My hope is there is enough difference that if see out of the normal way people see me they would not figure it out but how does one find out?

I have asked a few people who know me as Susan but have also seen me as my male self and have heard the answer it would be hard but then again they know both sides of me and have seen both my male and female self so not really a random encounter. So what to do?

There really are just two options. First I could go someplace as Susan where people only know me as my male self and see if they recognize me. This would be a huge risk because if they did then my secret life would be out. The other option would be go someplace where only Susan goes as my male self and see if they recognize me which would be a little safer. So I have thought about going to the Starbucks as my male self just to see but have not been able to work up the courage.

Well tonight I had things I had to do and could not dress as Susan and go to Starbuck’s but as luck would have it I was going to be only a couple miles from the P-Club where I have gone almost every Friday nights for two years as Susan. This was my perfect chance to see what would happen and if they would recognize me in male mode. It was a little before 7 when I got here with my computer in hand and went in.

Cindy was working the bar and I did not see Nicole. I know Cindy as she works some of the Friday nights but Nicole would be the real test as she works almost every Friday. I went ahead and ordered some dinner from Cindy and there was no sign that she recognized me at all, even when she brought my food to the table. I picked a table close to the bar so I was not hiding in the corner. At 7 pm Nicole came in and started work.

Nicole walked by me a couple time and I said hi to her by name and she replied hi back but still didn’t show any sign she knew who I was. So far it was going well. Well I saw Nicole at the bar and went up and ordered another drink from her again calling her by name. She got me my drink and still no sign that she knew who I was. This made me feel good as maybe if I ran into someone they would not know who I was.

Now the big question is what now. As I leave do I tell her who I am? Do I just leave without saying anything? I could tell her I will see her tomorrow night and see if she figures it out. It really is an interesting question. Well whatever I do it has been an interesting hour here and a little strange as this has always been a place just for Susan. Well must be going now, thanks for reading my first blog about being out as my male self.

Friday night with my friends 3-16-2012

Well it was Friday night and after missing the last two I was so ready to spend time with my friends. It is strange as going for a while without being Susan is hard but I really think what I missed most was spending time with my friends. It is amazing how much a part of my life they have come. I really think I have closer friends as Susan as I can be myself with them and yes Susan is a big part of who I am. Don’t get me wrong as my male self has some good friends but I have to hide such a big part of my life from them. In a way it would be so cool if everyone knew about all of me. I know I will never be able to just walk up to one of my friends and say, “hey guess what I like to do on Fridays, I dress up as a woman and go out”. The girls that can do that have way more guts than I do. But I really believe that I hope they will find out and I say this as I use to never leave the house before dark and if I did I would wear sunglasses and leave my wig and lipstick off till I got away from my home. Now I still look out the window before leaving but I leave all the time fully dressed while still light out so if any of my neighbors are outside or looking out their windows they are going to see me which leads me to my next question. If they have seen me would they come up and ask me about it or just keep quiet. I guess it is possible they already know and don’t know what to say to me either.

Well for Friday night I did get out a little earlier than normal and made it to the p-club by 7:15 and got the last parking spot on the street right in front of the door. Walking in Nicole was behind the bar and I said hi to her, she is such a nice person. Cassandra, Bobby, Chris and Robyn were already there so I joined them and my night began. It was truly relaxing to be out with them again. I ordered their Chicken basket for dinner and we sat there and ate and enjoyed a little girl talk. Cassandra asked me about Diva Las Vegas and I still can’t give an answer. My odds of being able to go have improved but still lots going on at work. I am still really hoping I can make it, I have not signed up yet but really must by April 1 so I guess that is the line in the sand for me.

Well by 8 others had shown up, Kristy, Kelly, Samantha, Maya & Victoria. A couple men that have played shuffle board with us before came over and wanted to know if we would like to play, Victoria and Cassandra were the two that played and of course they won the game. It is nice that some of the regulars will interact with us even to the point of approaching us first; it really makes us feel like we are part of the bigger group there. It was great to see Maya out again and had to get some pictures. A friend told me I needed to try a sexy pose rather than just standing there so I did and got a picture. Well it turns out I need a lot of practice at posing so instead of that picture here is a way cuter one of me and Maya.

Later on Jenn, Trisha and another girl showed up. They have a MTF support group at the Q-center on Friday nights and Jenn always stops in afterwards to spend time with the group. We all sat at a table for awhile and just talked. Jenn and I talked for awhile, she has come a long way since she first e-mailed me last fall. She is going out a lot more and has told most of her family about Jenn. It really is cool the friends we meet online, it is a shame that we did not have the internet and e-mail when I was younger as it really does make it easier to meet people.

Later on Brooke showed up on Brooke time, a little joke between those who know Brooke and Brooke. Now as a crossdresser I have never once said anything to a GG I was dating about how long it took her to get ready as I know firsthand it takes time but Brooke is the exception, it can take her 3 hours or more and a lot of it is trying on different things to wear. I even think most GG’s would think she was taking too long but what is important is she made it out. She had a GG friend of her which was going to meet her there, turns out she had been sitting at a table about 20 feet from us reading a book for about an hour waiting for Brooke to show up. Anyway Brooke introduced her to all of us, her name was Olivia. She seems really nice and totally okay with the transgender thing.

Later on we wanted to play shuffle board so Jenn & Kelly played Olivia and me at Shuffle board. It was a good game and Olivia and I took a big early lead but in the end Jenn had a couple good shots and in two turns got 17 points to win the game. Now I am not making excuses but Olivia and I did have the blue pucks so they didn’t match my red nail polish which was distracting for this poor blonde plus I had bumped one of my nails getting out of the car so it was loose. Very hard to play when you are worried about a loose nail coming off as that would be disastrous. The good news I made it the whole night without losing the nail, I am such a girl to worry over this. Towards the end of the bight I had a good chance to talk with Olivia, she is really nice. We had a good conversation and I found out about her boyfriend and past boyfriends and even shared some about my past girlfriends. It was like to girlfriends talking and sharing their feelings. I think that is one of the greatest things about Susan as my male side is not a big talker and does not like to share feelings or talk about relationships past or present. As Susan I am more able to open up.

It was a really fun night with only one bad point. One guy who likes to hang out with our group and play pool, (not part of our group thankfully as he can be very annoying) had a little too much to drink and had to be escorted out. The bad part is when the bouncer got him to the door he set his drink on the floor and the bouncer went back to get his umbrella the guy kicked the glass like he was kicking a foot ball and the drink and glass went everywhere and as such a small scuffle broke out between them. A couple of our girls got some of the drink on them and even one got hit in the back with some of the glass, no cuts though. But as such the bouncer called the police which he had to. Well as we were leaving Cassandra and I apologized for his action and it was so nice to hear them tell us it was not our fault, they knew he was not part of our group. Our group always acts well there and tries to be upstanding ladies when we are out. I guess there will be issues and this is the first since we have been going there which has been almost 2 years. Just glad it was not one of our members.

Well we actually stayed till 2 am which is the latest we have been out in a long time but also made me one tired girl as I got up for work this morning at 3:45. Bed will feel so good tonight.

Well I probably won’t make it out this week to Starbucks but will be out again next Friday. Have a great week and thanks for reading.