Susanmillers Blog

My life as a heterosexual crossdresser.

A day as Susan

Well I had the whole day free today and I thought what better way to spend it than as Susan and of course that means going someplace as I didn’t want to just sit at home. So of course what could I do that would take most of the day, shopping of course. Well my plan was to be up by 7:30 and on the road by 9 well we all know that didn’t happen. It was almost 8 when I rolled out of bed and by the time I was ready it was 9:40 as Susan does take longer to get ready especially in the morning.

Well I decided my first stop would be Kohl’s just off Hwy 217. I like Kohl’s and there prices are not bad. I got there just a little after 10 and went in. I started looking at their dresses which they didn’t have many and of course all their clothes. I even checked out their purses, interment apparel, makeup and jewelry. I didn’t see anything I really liked so I left.

My next stop was Burlington coat which is also just off Hwy 217. I looked at shoes first as I have gotten a couple pairs here that I liked. They had 2 pairs I really liked but they were both narrow and just wouldn’t fit so I went to the clothes section. They had a few dresses but all just 1 or 2 sizes too small for me. I did find a really cute black skirt that looked like it would fit so I went and tried it on and it did so I just had to buy it plus it was only $12 so I really couldn’t go wrong.

As I was leaving the parking lot I noticed just up the street was a Ross Dress for Less so I went there next. I looked around till I found their dresses, they tend to have one of the better dresses selections around. Well I found 2 really cute dresses that were my size so off to the dressing room to try them on. Both fit me well and this time I really looked. The last time I bought a couple dresses here I only looked at how they fit in my shoulders as that is always where I have issues. Well it turns out when I wore them they are well really short especially when I sit. These are better as they come down to mid-thigh. So up to the check out to buy the dresses, well they only had one cashier so I had to stand in line which really doesn’t bother me anymore. So far it has been a good day.

I left here and it was almost 12:30 and I was a little hungry but all I really wanted was a snack so I found a Starbucks out by streets of Tanasbourne as that is where I am I going shopping nest. Now I have been to this Starbuck’s once before but it has been a couple years. I got a Danish and a hot chocolate and of course I have my computer so I took care of some e-mails and then spent a little while surfing the net. Well I also had to get a picture so I tried a couple selfie’s in the car. Still not good at it but this was the best one. Well time to get back to shopping as I have a couple more stores I want to hit before I head home.

Well I drove to a shopping center just off Hwy 26 at 185th as there are several store there including a Target, Ross and DSW shoes. I thought about going into Target but decided to go right for Ross Dress for Less. I actually parked between Ross 7 DSW as I plan on going to both.

I went into Ross and they were pretty busy but I made my way back to the racks of dresses. They had a really good selection and I found 2 really cute one, a maroon lace one and a red and black and both the right size, same as the ones I bought earlier but I still went to the dressing room to try them on and it was a good thing. Even though they were the same size they were way too small. One I couldn’t even begin to get on. Wow how can a woman’s dress size very so much. One reason I don’t buy stuff online. I was disappointed as they were really cute and it was not that I could fit in them if I lost some weight it was all in my shoulders.

Well I left and walked next door to DSW. Now this is really a good shoe store and they have a huge selection and the prices are fair. One of the sales man asked if he could help me find anything and I told him I was just looking so he said let him know if I needed anything which was nice. As I was looking I found this really cute pair of open toe 4″ spiked heels, they were awesome. Now they had a size 11 and a size 10 so I was thinking I had it made. Well the 10’s were just too tight and the 11 to lose and as they had no straps they just slipped on I was out of luck. Of course I did try both twice to make sure.

Well it was almost 4 now so I decided to head towards home as I was going to be in rush hour traffic now. Traffic really wasn’t that bad and I was where I wanted to be by 4:15 and I was hungry so I stopped at a Panda Express. I like them as they are a little healthier than a burger plus I can eat it with a fork as not to mess up my lipstick. There were only a few people inside eating, most were going through the drive through so I didn’t have to wait to be helped. I got my food and sat down and had a nice dinner. As I was leaving a nice man held the door open for me, I am sure he knew I was a t-girl but he still treated me like a lady which was nice.

Now I had one last stop, Starbuck’s I have to go past my favorite Starbuck’s which Julie texted me closed and they moved across the street so I figured why not stop and check it out. Well it did move about 3 weeks ago and it is really nice and twice as big and has a drive through so now instead of just 2 people working here they had 5. They did a really nice job the only thing that is not great is most of their tables have stools with no backs. They do have like 3 tables with chairs and on the far wall a few more tables with a bench along the wall and chairs on the other side. The bench is nice but too deep as you cannot lean back and still reach the table. They are a lot busier though.

Okay one other selfie that wasn’t too bad. Well it was a fun day but as always it hast to come to an end. I spent maybe an hour at Starbuck’s before heading home. What a fun day.

Thanks for reading.

October 21, 2014 Posted by | Out and about as Susan, shopping | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday is here and time for some fun

Well it has been a busy week and I have been working late every day so I was really looking forward to Friday and the end of the week. It was almost 6 when I got home so I knew it would be a rush to get ready tonight. It was straight into a shower and then onto my makeup. I did rush a little but took my time on my eyes as that is important. I was ready and out the door by 7.

I got there a little before 7:30 and found a parking spot right in front. Chris and Cristine were already here which I knew they would be as I was late. Chris had his computer out as he gets here early, usually be 5 or 5:30 as he comes right from work. Yes he doesn’t have to go home and change.

It was kind of quiet but as the other group was celebrating all their October birthdays tonight I figured they would have a good turnout but it would be later. Jodi was here tonight, she Bartends on Saturday and is awesome, she usually leaves about the time we are getting here but tonight she stayed the whole night which was nice. I got to talk with her for a bit. She played several games of pool and won most of them, she even beet Chris once.

A couple came over and talked with us, I can’t remember their name for sure but I think it was Rachel and Bill, but they were really nice, she told me how beautiful I was which always makes my night. They spent most of their night playing video poker which was just over the half wall from our table. Every time they would go to the bar to get a drink they would stop and talk with us. Roxy also showed up so we had 4 of us from our group tonight.

Shyrl from the other group came over and talked with us for a while. She hasn’t been able to make it here for a few weeks so she was really glad to be here tonight. She was telling us about the birthdays in their group and all the activities they have going on, sounds like they have a few more weeks before their whole group will be back here on a regular basis. They really are nice and such a fun group.

Another girl from there group came over and talked with us, I think her name was Angela. She also told me how great I looked and loved my eyes which made me feel good. I have really been working on getting the Smokey eye makeup look right. I think I am getting better but still not totally satisfied with it but this makes me feel like I am almost there. We talked about makeup for a bit and how I did the eye makeup, I still think it is funny to be sitting in a bar and talking makeup but I enjoy it. She also told me what great cheekbones I have, and I will admit I am blessed with nice cheekbones, probably one best feminine feature. I gave her some tips on contouring to help bring out ones cheekbones.

Laura Mims also showed up, she is actually the lead singer in a local group here on Portland, Laura Mims and tin whiskers. She loves to sing and is really good. She stopped and gave us all a hug and talked with us for a while. She is really nice so I was glad she made it out as it has been a while. She asked what we were singing and Chris told her his songs, he was going to do some Pink Floyd songs tonight, I told her I was too afraid to go up there by myself and the only way I sing is with someone else. She told me we should sing together and I said I would so she went up and put our names on the list.

Well Karaoke started and of course Chris was one of the first to sing and did great. There really are some good singers here. Laura went up and sang a song and was wonderful and of course the other group had several people that sang and all did great and even the few that were not well the best they still got up and sang and had fun. Well it was getting late and Roxy and Cristine left so it was just Chris and I left from our group and Chris was going to leave after his next song. I was also thinking I would leave.

Well Laura and my name were called to sing and I was a little nervous. Now I have sang a few times with others here but the song Laura picked out was a duet which means she sings one par and I sing the other. The song was “Summer Nights” from the movie Grease. Luckily I love the movie and I know the song which helped. Now Laura sang much better than I did but I think I did okay.

Well when we were done I thanked her and told her I actually had fun. She said she would come up with another song we could sing next time she was here. I am actually looking forward to it as it was fun. Who knows maybe someday I will sing by myself.

Chris sang his song and then it was time to leave. I went up and paid my bill and then said goodnight to my friends here and left. It really was a fun night and a great way to start a weekend. I am looking forward to next week as I plan on getting out several days and doing some shopping. I still haven’t figured out a Halloween costume yet and that is only a couple weeks away.

Thanks for reading.

October 18, 2014 Posted by | crossdressing, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Wednesday night dinner with my friends.

Well it is Wednesday night and I have the chance to go out as I don’t have to get up as early tomorrow and I was looking forward to it, I haven’t been out on Wednesday night since August. I got downtown before 7, parked and walked the block to Fox & Hound. Chris, Roxy, Cristine and Julie were there. It was great to see Julie again as it has been a while. She gets out mostly on Wednesday while I get out mostly on Friday.

We chatted for a bit before we decided to walk over to House of Louie for dinner. I actually like going out and walking around even if it’s only a couple blocks. We got to House of Louie and it was empty so we had our choice of tables and of course. Of course just a few minutes after we got there two other small groups came in so we were not the only ones there.

We had a nice dinner and good conversation and I got a chance to talk with Julie. We talked a lot about Diva Las Vegas next year. The hotel we have stayed at has or is changing their name again the end of the month. It will now be called the LINQ so in the last 3 years it has gone from the Imperial Palace, to the Quad and now the LINQ as they are just finishing a complete remodel. We are all excited about it as we have had so much fun the last few years.

Well about 8:40 we left and walked over to CC Slaughters, Dee and Rachel were there they were talking to a couple that was there also, there names were Sherry and Richard and they were really nice, Sherry was taking more pictures then us which so of course I had to get some pictures with her. This is our group with someone in a costume and we still don’t know who she is. But from left to right is Kitty in guy mode, Cristine in front of her, girl in costume, Sherry, Julie, Me and Rachel

Another girl showed up named Helen, seems she has come out several times on Wednesday nights so the other girls knew her. We introduced our selves and talked for a bit, she seems really nice and had on this really cute black and white dress. Diane also showed up, she has not been out for a while as she was in a car wreck but it was good to see her out again and to talk with her.

Julie and I played a game of pool and I won using my great strategy, I let her sink all her balls so there was nothing in my way to sink mine at least this is what Julie thought and I was happy with that as it sounds better then I just couldn’t sink a ball. Even with that I won because she missed her 8 ball shot and left me an easy shot but a win is a win. After that I played doubles with 3 guys. My partner was Curtis and he was really nice and he actually made some good shot so we won in the end so I had a pretty good night playing pool.

Now I had to get one picture with Sherry as she really was fun. I actually has her stand up on a step so I wasn’t so much taller than her. Most of our group had left by now but we were still having fun. Bo one of the Drag Queens that is the host here came over and played pool also and talked with us. She is really nice and always fun to talk with.

Well it was time for Sherry and Richard to leave so I asked if I could post our picture on Facebook and my blog and she said sure but she wouldn’t see it as she didn’t know my Facebook name so I gave her one of my business cards I made up with all my info on so she could find me. They were really a nice couple to hang out with.

Well it was about 11 pm when I called it a night. Julie and I both left together and walked to the corner before we went our separate ways. I had about a block to walk by myself but I was fine of course I pay attention to who is around which I would do even in boy mode. It was a really fun night, I will have to try to get out more on Wednesday nights.

Thanks for reading.

October 16, 2014 Posted by | CD, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A smaller group out on Friday.

Well it has been another long week for my male self, things keep coming up that interfere with my Susan time so I was really looking forward to tonight and getting all dressed up. It is funny how something as simple as doing my makeup and getting ready can be so much fun and enjoyable, I know lots of woman that think otherwise and maybe if I had been doing makeup since I was a teenager and doing it every day maybe and that is a big maybe I would feel different, but when you only get to do it part of the time and it is something you are looking forward to it becomes special. Any way I started getting ready a little before 5 so I could take my time and enjoy myself plus maybe I could get out a little early which of course didn’t happen.

I was already about 6:45, the only issue was the neighbor boy was outside shooting baskets in the street. Well a few years ago this would have terrified me and I would have sat in the house till it was dark and he went inside or at least taken my wig off and put a coat on over my dress and did the best to not let him see my face but tonight I just got in the car and drove off. Now I will say as he saw me pull out he walked to the curb so part of the time he was facing away from me so he may not have gotten a good look but the important thing was I was out and on my way.

I got there just a little after 7 and it looked really busy, the parking lot was full and I had to park about a half block upon the street, it has been a long time since I have had to park that far away. I got inside and they really weren’t that busy for all the cars outside. Anyway Samantha and Chris were both there, Samantha had e-mailed me as she was in town for the day and wanted to know if we would be out tonight. Which we are every Friday but still I good to check, if I was driving 2 hours to go out I would also want to make sure where and if the group would be out.

It was good to see Samantha again and she will be back in a couple more weeks also as she has to come back to Portland to get her fishing reel she is having some work done on. Yes she brought it up a couple weeks ago and dropped it off as Samantha so she will pick it up that way also. Funny how the more we go out the more confident we get and the more natural we feel. It was nice to get to talk with her though.

It wasn’t long and Lilly showed up, I knew she was coming tonight as she messaged me on Facebook as she was getting ready, we were both doing are nails at the same time. She has a farther drive though. It was nice she could make it out again, she is our group’s newest member. Her wife is supportive of her dressing which makes it easier for her to get out, her wife has actually came out with her a couple times also.

Cristine also showed up a little later than normal, she got caught in traffic tonight so we had a smaller group than normal even Roxy was able to come out for a while after she got off work so there were 6 of us but still fun. Chris played a few games of pool and won most. The bar was a little slower tonight as the other group that comes for Karaoke had another event going on out of town so only a few of them made it.

We talked for a while and had a great time, even talked about Halloween and our Halloween party which is fast approaching. I need to really start thinking of a costume for this year. I am trying to figure out if I should just buy on or try to create one on my own, but either way I am running out of time. I guess in a way it was easier a few years back when being Susan was my costume but as Susan has become such a normal part of my life now I need a female costume and yes I prefer the cute ones.

Well one of the ladies we met last week was here again tonight and came over and talked with us, and of course we couldn’t remember her name nor could she remember ours so we reintroduced ourselves, her name is Peggy so hopefully I will remember it.

Well about 9:45 they set up the Karaoke and a few of the other group showed up so we had several people who sang including Chris who did a good job as always. One of the girls in the bar got Mark the Karaoke host to sing Achy breaky heart and he did a great job and most of the bar was singing with him.

It was a fun night and as always it had to come to an end, by 11:30 it was just Chris and I so Chris played one more game of pool and then we paid our bills and called it a night. It was a little after midnight when I got home, what a great way to start a weekend.

October 11, 2014 Posted by | crossdresser, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Saturday night at Harvey’s Comedy Club, what a great way to start October.

Well it is Saturday night and our group’s night out at Harvey’s Comedy club. Now we had 14 sign up to go so a little smaller group than normal but it would still be fun. Now some of us meet at Fox & Hound first and as Cassandra would not be going tonight as she is running the Portland Marathon tomorrow and has to be up early I started getting ready at 4:30 as I wanted to be ready to leave by no later than 6 so I could be there by 6:30.

I was ready to leave a little before 6 and as it only take 25 minutes I was right on schedule or at least that is what I thought. Turns out they had a really bad accident on the freeway and it was shut down which I didn’t know and I got caught in it. Turns out it took me a little over an hour to get there so I got there right at 7, of course there is a bright side as because it was after 7 I didn’t have to pay for parking. Now I normally always find parking on Everett but they had a wedding going on down there so I had to park further down 2nd so I had a 2 block walk but it was a nice sunny day and I enjoyed it.

I got to Fox & Hound and I was the first one there so I got a drink. I also set Lynn a text about the freeway so she could find an alternative route. Cristine showed up so we got a table to wait for the rest of the girls that show up early. Lynn and barb both showed up so there were 4 of us now. We all had a drink and talked waiting to see if anyone else would show up. Well about 8:20 the 4 of us left and walked over to Harvey’s, it’s a 7 block walk but it was a nice warm night and a good night for a walk, plus I wore my boots with 3″ heels so walking was easy.

We got to Harvey’s about 8:30 and there were only a few other people there and only Jan from our group so we got a table to wait for the show. Jeanie, Amy, Sophie, and Lorna showed up so we were up to 9. Kim our favorite came out and talked with us and to see how many we had. I told her to plan on 10 as that is what it was looking like.

More people came in and soon it was packed in the lounge with people waiting for the late show. About 9:20 I walked out and got our tickets. Well it was finally time for us to go into the show room and for some reason it was really slow going in. there was one big group of about 25 they were trying to get together. Well we finally got in Kim came and got us and brought us through the line so we got to walk by everyone. It was great she was here tonight as she was off last month when we were here.

The show finally started and the MC for the night was actually really good. Now the Headliner tonight is Dante Rusciolli who we have seen before and the opening comedian is Rebekah Kochan, turns out Rebekah is Dante’s girlfriend. Well Rebekah was the first to perform and she was really good, well worth seeing. Dante was next and he was awesome as always. If you get a chance to see them you really should.

We had a great time and as always it went to fast and soon the show was over. Kim came over and sat and talked with us for a while which was really nice and of course gave us all hugs as we left. Well after the show we walked through the Lounge as Dante and Rebekah were out there celebrating as it was also Dante’s birthday weekend. As we walked in Rebekah came over and hugged us all and thanked us for coming and so did Dante which made us feel good. We ended up staying and talking with them for maybe 15 minutes. Rebekah told me how much she liked my hair and soon she was showing us some pictures of her from a movie she did where she wore a long red wig. It was just a really fun night.

Well we left and walked back towards Fox & Hound where we had parked, it was still nice out so I was enjoying the walk. We got back by Fox and Hound and said our goodbyes and I walked to my car, it is amazing how at ease I am walking around. As I was getting into my car another car with 2 guys in it pulled in nest to mine. I was started my car and looked over and they were waving at me so I waved back. The driver actually blew me a kiss. I just waved again and backed out and drove off but I was thinking. I have had guys hit on me before but that was in person and I am sure they knew I was a t-girl. Now it was dark here and I am sure they didn’t get a good enough look to tell that so I am thinking they thought I was a GG. If that is true I wonder what they would have thought had they found out.

It was a really fun night. Now I need to start thinking about Halloween which is less than a month away and I need to come up with a costume. Any way thanks for reading.

October 5, 2014 Posted by | crossdressing, Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Friday night out with friends the first Friday of October

Well it is the first Friday of October and I was ready for a fun night out as I worked a lot of extra hours this week. My goal was to get out early so I started getting ready a little before 5. I did my makeup and it looked good as I spent extra time on my eyes doing the Smokey eye look and it came out really good so I am getting better. I was all ready by 6:15 and out the door, now with leaving a little earlier I hit more traffic so I got to Sweethome about 6:40.

Chris and Cristine were both there already with their computers out so I got mine out too. The 3 of us chatted while we were each online doing things, I was catching up with e-mails and Facebook. It is funny as I went through some of my contacts and think back on them. Some I have never met in person and only know them by their female names and yet feel they are close friends. Some I have not seen in years and wonder how they are doing, the good and the bad about online friends, you can be friends with people you have never met from all over the world which is great but if you lose contact through the internet you can never find out what happened. I started going out because of a wonderful friend I made online named Alice in the early days of Susan she really helped me get out and meet people some of whom are my best friends now. I guess I just want to thank all the people in Susan’s life, you have all in some way big or small helped shape Susan into the young lady she is. I guess the biggest advice I can give to other t-girls out there is find some friends who will support you as that is what true happiness is. Well back to my Friday night out.

Now I have had men hit on me before and offer to buy me a drink which is the one part of being Susan I am not comfortable with as I have no interest in men but tonight I had the most straight forward man hit on me. he walked over and told me I was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen which hast to make you feel great as what lady does not like to hear that especially after making the extra effort getting ready. I thanked him and told him as flattered as I was I was not interested trying to be polite. He then leaned in and whispered in my ear about himself and what he could do and well let’s just say things a lady would never repeat or put in a blog. I am sure I was turning red even under my makeup. I again thanked him but politely said I was not interested at which point he again told me how beautiful I was and then walked off. Now I know how woman feel sometimes.

Now we had one of our biggest nights out at Sweethome in a long time so I am going to just try and name them all at once and hope this poor blonde doesn’t forget anyone. Chris, Cristine, Cassandra, Jan, Lynn, Lilly, Petra, Michelle, Laura, Joan, Alicia, Robyn, & Victoria so we had at least 14 of us here.

Laura came up to Portland for a couple days as she had some vacation time and she is spending it as Laura, how fun is that. I am trying to talk her into going to Diva Las Vegas next year and she is seriously thinking about it. I think she would have a blast as every year we have gone has been so much fun. I got a chance to talk with her a lot tonight and learn more about her which is always a fun night.

Lilly also came out tonight by herself as her wife has to work early Saturday. It was nice to see her again. She is one of our newest members and this was her 3rd night out with the group. As with all of us her male life has interfered with her female side but that happens in life and we need to make adjustments as it is our male sides that allow us to enjoy and support our female side. Lilly, Laura and I talked for quite a while.

Now there was a girl at the bar with her boyfriend and she thought we were awesome and came over to get a picture with us. I bet she took at least 25 pictures with us on her phone and of curse f she was getting pictures with us I had to get one with her. She even had her boyfriend take some group pictures with all of us. She was trying to get a picture of her boyfriend with us and he was not too sure so I went over and put my arm around him so she could get a picture and he got a big smile on his face and turned a little red. She was really fun and we talked with her for a little while.

Alicia also made it out tonight, she has been really busy with her work and family so she has not been out in a while as the summer months keep her busy. I hope now that it is the fall things will slow down for her and she can get out more. Her wife is supportive but she has 2 kids which don’t know so she has to go to Victoria Sinclair’s over the Rainbow to dress before she come out, she would love to tell her children so she could just dress at home but that is a big step. By the way Over the Rainbow is a transgender service here in the Portland metro area that does transformations for transgender and they even have a bed and breakfast and storage spaces you can rent to keep your female stuff in and you can go there to change. It was nice to spend time with her again.

There were some girls and guys at the bar and Cassandra started talking to them at first but soon a few of them were talking to us and really curious about us. Like always you relate to people based on what you know, one of the girls thought we were all drag queens. We had a good conversation and explained the difference between the different groups in the transgender community which our group is really blessed with as we do have members from every part of the community so we are very diverse. The one was so cute as she would ask a question and always ad I am sorry I don’t want to offend you. Now this is how I feel and am sure most of our group feels the same. As long as you are sincere and honest and really interested in knowing about the transgender community I am not going to take offence if you word something wrong, this is how we learn. Now if you are doing it to be negative or put me down then I would. I realize that most people have never met a t-girl before and really have no idea about us and talking to them and answering questions is how we bridge this gap.

Well Karaoke started and we had a fun night, Chris and Lynn both sang, by 11:30 our group was getting smaller. I got a chance to talk with Joan a little, she is really a fun lady and always has a joke or two. It was about 12:30 and it was down to just Laura, Chris and I left from our group. We all paid our bills, while I was paying mine the one girl I had talked to earlier and answered questions was at the bar getting a drink, she even offered to buy me a drink which was sweet. She invited me to come join her and her table, she was here with her friend and their boyfriends all of whom we had talked to earlier. I thanked her but it was late and I had been up since 4 am and was really tired at this point so I told her maybe next time.

It was a really great night out so many friends and we talked with several people who had not met a t-girl before which always make the night good.

Thanks for reading and have a great day.

October 4, 2014 Posted by | CD, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Saturday night out with friends

Well I was going to go out tonight with my friends, Cassandra, Cristine and I decided last night to go out to the Escape Bar & Grill Saturday night for pool, Karaoke and to watch the Oregon State Beaver football game. Now I have only been here once before with Julie so I figured it was a good chance to try my new wig, well not really new as I bought t a while ago but have never worn it as I am not sure how it looks on me. We were meeting at 7:30 but I had really hoped to be there earlier.

I started getting ready a little after 5, after my shower I did my makeup and did the Smokey Eye look and it actually turned out really good so I guess practice does help. As I was getting dressed I could hear my neighbors outside. The lady from across the street and the lady next door were standing in her driveway talking while her 4 kids were pulling weeds out of the driveway. Now I know both the ladies know about my dressing but not sure about the kids. They were standing right next to the street facing my driveway so they would have a good look at me as I left and it was still light out. Luckily the kids were facing away from my drive so I figured I might as well go so I got in my car and opened the garage door and drove out. The one neighbor looked right at me and waved so I waved back. Will be interesting the next time I talk with her as although they have known for almost 2 years now but they have never been right out front by the street when I have left so this was their best view of me leaving.

I got to the Escape Bar & grill right at 7:30 and went in, Cassandra, Cristine and Michelle were there already. It was great to see Michelle as she does not get out that often at least on the nights I do so I got a chance to talk with her a little. She ordered a large Nacho plate and we all snacked on it but I was hungry so I ordered some Taco’s and a side ordered of Tater tots to share. All the food was good and their prices were reasonable.

Now as I had a new wig I had to get pictures before I ate so I had Cassandra take a few. The first one the flash didn’t work but I like the picture even though it is a little dark as the low light I think softens my look. It was funny as Cassandra didn’t even notice my new hair style till I asked her to take my picture as I had a new wig, know I know how woman feel when they change their hair style and no one notices.

Now as this was a last minute decision to come here tonight as we didn’t post it in the group till late this morning I wasn’t sure how many would come out but we actually had a good turnout tonight. Laura was the next to show up and it was good to see her again.

Now it was my turn to play Cassandra in pool and I broke, I didn’t sink any balls on the break but I really spread them out so when it was Cassandra’s turn she sunk 5 balls in a row so I was way behind. Now I managed to make a good comeback and I got down to just 1 ball before she sunk the 8 ball and won. I did have fun playing though.

Petra and Michelle showed up next and they are always so much fun when they come out and Petra was the one who beat Cassandra at pool, well actually Cassandra had on ball left when she accidently scratched the 8 ball to lose. We sat and watched the Oregon State football and Oregon took the lead right from the start but that was all they managed to do, then ended up losing 35 to 10 but it was still fun to watch.

Laura also showed up, yes we had 2 Michelle’s and 2 Laura’s out tonight so we had a total of 8 of us. Laura and I talked for a while which was nice. She even asked me about Diva Las Vegas as she is thinking of going next year which would be great. Now the bar was slow early but by 10 it was really busy when they started Karaoke. Laura from our group sang a couple times and did a great job as always. This place has some really good singers also. It was a really fun night.

It was about 10:30 when I decided to leave so I went up to the bar and had to stand in line to pay. While I stood there the lady in front of me told me how beautiful I was which made me feel good as who does not like hearing that. I talked with her for a few minutes till she paid her bill. I paid my bill and then it was time to say goodnight to all my friends and head for home. It was a really fun night as how can dressing up really pretty and going to a bar to watch football not be fun.

Thanks for reading and hope your weekend was as awesome as mine.

September 28, 2014 Posted by | crossdresser, Escape Bar & Grill, Out and about as Susan | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Friday night out after missing 2 weeks

Well I was so looking forward to tonight and going out again with my friends, I have missed the last 2 Fridays do to family matters. As a matter of fact except for a couple hours I got to be Susan and get a pedicure last week I haven’t gone out with my friends since our Harvey’s night on September 7 and that is a long time to go without my girlfriends. Now a quick note about my pedicure as I find it interesting. The nail polish I picked which was a really bright pinkish purple made by China Glaze seems to look different in different light. Outside in the sunlight it really is a bright deep pink with just a hint of purple but inside under normal light it looks more a bright red and inside under florescent lights it takes on more of a dark red. Now all the colors look good don’t get me wrong but I really wanted the bright deep pink color so just a little disappointed.

Well as I said I have really been looking forward to Friday and going out tonight all week so I got home and started getting ready a little early about 4:30 with a nice long bath and of course a really good shave all over so my skin would be as silky smooth as I could get it plus it was so relaxing to soak in the tub. It was about 5:15 when I got out of the tub and started my makeup transformation. I spent an hour in a half of utter relaxation doing my makeup and getting read, I really love when I can take extra time getting read. The look may be no better than when I do it quicker but I feel way better about it. It just make the whole experience so much nicer.

Well it was 6:45 when I left my house for Sweethome looking forward to a fun night. I got there right at 7 and found a parking spot right in front, I brought my computer tonight as I was not sure who would be out other than Samantha from Eugene who had e-mailed me she was coming up for the day. I went inside and sure enough Samantha was there along with Cristine. I did check a few things on my computer when I first got there while I was also talking with Samantha but after about 15 minutes I had done what needed to be done on my computer so I put it away so I could focus on my friends more.

It was great to talk with Samantha again she is becoming more confident in going out as we all are. I guess a couple of her neighbors have seen her now from a distance although she has not talked to them about it. I think back a few years when I would never leave the house till after dark and I figured no one would be looking out their windows, yes the after 10 PM time. I had fun in those days, don’t get me wrong but I was missing so much. Not to be able to go out during the day you miss so much. I so love the freedom that comes with self-acceptance, yes a couple of my neighbors know for sure and there is no way for me to know who else knows but that is a price I am willing to live with so I can enjoy all parts of my life and Susan is a big part of it. Samantha had some errands to run up here and she came up early and did them all as Samantha, way to go girl.

Well about 7:30 Cassandra showed up so we had 4 of us tonight. It was so much fun to see my friends and spend some time with them. It is funny as I don’t really think about the fact I am dressed as a female or even that my friends are dressed as a female. We are just people out for a fun night like everyone else. Most of the time I forget how I am dressed as Susan is such a normal part of my life.

It was a quiet night here as the Karaoke group was small and those that did show up didn’t till after 9 but still a fun night out. We got a chance to talk with Paul the owner for a while, he was telling us the show Bar Rescue is going to do a show here in Portland and they are contacting all the bars but he figures his is too small as it is just a neighborhood bar to be on the show.

Cassie and Rose also showed up so it was good to see them out also. Got a chance to talk with them which is always nice, it is funny as Susan I love to sit and talk but as my male self not one of the things I do. Cassandra and I talked about Diva Las Vegas next year which is March 22 through March 27 2015 so mark your calendars. This is such a fun event so if you have never heard about it check out their web page Diva Las Vegas. We are planning on doing the same thing again next year, leaving on Friday and driving to LA so Cassandra can see her family in male mode of course and then on Sunday driving to Las Vegas, I will of course be Susan 24/7 for the trip again so I can get my acrylic nails. We even talked to Cassie about t and she is thinking of going. I am hopeful we can get another big group to go again next year as we had so much fun the last couple years with so many from our group going.

Well it was almost 10 when Karaoke started and as I said it was a smaller group tonight so again they went through those who sang fast so they got more chances to sing. By 10:30 it was just Cassandra, Cristine and me left so I knew it would be an early night. Cassandra left and then Cristine so I went up to pay my bill. One of the ladies sitting at the bar told me how beautiful I looked tonight which always makes one feel good. I thanked her and talked with her for a few minutes while I paid my bill. It was just before 11 when I left for home. What a fun night it was.

Tomorrow night Cassandra, Cristine and I are going to another place called Escape, kind of a last minute decision so we will have to post it in the group and hope we can get a few more girls to come out as it would be great to have a big group out. Plus I need to make up for not dressing much the last few week.

Thanks for reading and have a great day.

September 27, 2014 Posted by | CD, Sweethome | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A day for a pedicure

Well I really didn’t think I would be out this week as I was supposed to be out of town but things changed and although I don’t have a lot of free time this week I had a few hours this morning and Susan decided she needed a pedicure. Now I have wanted to try a nail salon a little closer to where I live called Dream Nails. Now this is really close to where I live and I usually don’t go out as Susan to places within 5 miles of home for fear to running into someone I know. Anyway I was up by 7 this morning and got all ready and was ready to leave by 9, now as I said this was a last minute opportunity so I had not made an appointment so I did call at 9 when they opened to see if I could get in and the lady said they could get me in so I left home for the nail salon. I got there in less than 5 minutes as I said this is really close to where I live.

I parked and went in, the lady there asked if she could help me and I told her I had just called about getting a pedicure so she told me to pick out my color and showed me to a pedicure seat. The color I picked out was a really bright pinkish red color by China Glaze, I normally always do OPI but today I picked by the color alone. She asked me if I wanted the regular pedicure or the deluxe well as it has been awhile I went for the deluxe. She started on my feet and a couple other ladies came in that work here. This is actually a big nail salon as they have 9 pedicure chairs and 8 manicure tables and according to Yelp they are always busy.

Now if you have never gotten a pedicure it really is a must to put on your list of things to do. It is so relaxing as they massage your feet and lower legs. She trimmed my toenails and trimmed back the cuticles. One thing I really liked is on the back counter they had several machines for sterilizing the tools they use, this is the first salon I have gone to that did this. Once this was done she rubbed oil on my legs and feet and used a pumice stone to remove any rough skin on my heels and foot. Then she put a green past on my legs and wrapped them with a hot towel. She let this sit for a few minutes while she got a couple plastic bags with a liquid in them and then came back and wiped away the green paste. She then had me put my feet in each of the bags which turned out to be paraffin wax. This was really warm on my feet.

While my feet were in the bags she started to massage my lower legs with oil and creams. Really relaxing. She also complimented me on how my legs and feet looked which made me feel good. After about 15 minutes of massaging both legs she took the wax off my feet and did the same oil and cream massage on my feet. When she was done with this she went over and came back with 2 hot stones and then used those to rub my feet and legs. This part was nice but not something I would go out of my way for.

While she was doing this another lady came in and asked one of the other girls if she could get a pedicure and also told them there were 5 of her friends on the way and they all wanted pedicures so the other 2 ladies started getting things ready for the group coming in, I was surprised that with that many all coming at once together they didn’t make an appointment.

As she was finishing up on my foot massage 2 other ladies came in, part of the group. The lady, I wish I had gotten her name started to paint my toes and the color was awesome, a really bright pink with a touch or red in it. She did a great job and it took about an hour. She then took me over to a chair so I could put my feet under a fan to dry while they started on the other group which by now was 5. The cost was only $40 which really was not bad at all, plus a tip of course. It was about 10:30 when I left the salon.

Now as I said I didn’t think I would be out this week and I only have a few hours this morning and early afternoon so I didn’t want to go right home. I needed a lip liner so I figured a quick shopping trip to ULTA which is only about 10 minutes away. I got there and went in and looked around a bit before getting the lip liner and going to the check out. On my way home I stopped to get something to eat, went to a Panda Express as this is a fast food I can eat with a fork. I was here maybe 20 minutes or so.

I was on my way home and it was a little before noon and I still had an hour or so, so again I pushed my comfort level and stopped a t Starbucks I have never gone to before, one that is only a block and a half from my house. Now i parked and went inside and to my surprise it was really busy, they had 5 people working and I had to stand in line to get my drink although most people were getting their drinks to go.

I got my drink and sat down at a table by the door as it was the only one of 10 tables open. So now I am on my computer catching up on things. I have been here about an hour and it is a steady stream of people coming in so I keep wondering if one of my neighbors will walk through the door.

Well I must be going as I have things my male self needs to do in a couple hours so I need time to get home and clean up all traces of Susan. To my surprise I didn’t see anyone I knew while I was here but there were a lot of people who came in and went out.

It has been a fun day and my toes look great.

September 18, 2014 Posted by | crossdresser, nail salon | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Fun Saturday, night out at Harvey’s Comedy club with friends.

Well it is Saturday and tonight is Harvey’s Comedy Club and I am really looking forward to it but first things first. Last night I broke my last set of nails so this morning I need to make some new ones. It took me about an hour to file and prepare my nails and tape them on the board so I can put the nail polish on. I do it this way as I can do 8 sets of 10 nails at one time but today I only did 7 sets. It took me another 45 minutes or so to paint them with 2 coats of color and then the clear top coat for shine. I used my 3 favorite colors from OPI, 3 sets in “O’Hare and nails look great” which is my favorite bright red, 2 sets in “Pompeii Purple” which is a really pretty pinkish red and 2 sets of “got the blues for red” which is a darker wine red color. Now I had the rest of the day for them to dry before I get ready for Harvey’s tonight.

I started getting ready at 4:45 for tonight as I wanted to have extra time and maybe get downtown earlier then 7, well it took a little longer getting ready which was okay as I really enjoy this part of it. I wore my new dark blue dress I bought a few weeks back when I was out shopping. It is a really cute dress and just like the other on just one small problem. I bought them at Ross Dress for less and they were my size but as I have learned woman’s sizes very so I tried them on to make sure they fit in my shoulders and they did and that is how I determine fit and I don’t look at anything else at least till now. when I hung the dresses in my closet I noticed they were shorter then my other dresses but till I put it on tonight I didn’t realize just how short till I put it on tonight but I still wore it I would just have to be careful sitting down. I put on my new nails and they looked beautiful, I hadn’t noticed how bad my other nails looked lack of shine so I was happy.

I got downtown Portland right at 7 and parked and walked to Fox & Hound. Cassandra, Peggy, Cristine, Jan, Lynn, Laura and Petra were all there already so I knew we would have a great night. Peggy had on this really pretty red dress and looked awesome as did all the girls tonight. I sat next to Peggy and got a chance to talk with her which is always nice. We ordered drinks and a snack but I was going to wait and eat at Harvey’s.

It wasn’t long and Teresa, Laura and her friend Jeni showed up. Now the funny thing is we have 2 Laura’s both of whom came tonight and both have a friend named Jeni who have come out with the group, well I had seen the post and for who was coming tonight and had them backwards. A little later Lilly and her wife Chrissie showed up. They came out a week ago for the first time and met a few in the group but I was glad they could come out tonight and meet more of the group plus I knew they would enjoy tonight. I introduced them to all the girls and we all had a nice time talking.

About 8:15 Cassandra, Peggy, and Cristine headed over to Harvey’s and the rest of us talked a little more as we waited to pay our bills. It was about 8:30 when the rest of us left for Harvey’s. It was a nice warm night out and I always enjoy the 7 block walk through downtown. Tonight was also going to be fun as it is the first time Laura and her friend Jeni and also Lilly and Chrissie have been to Harvey’s. We had a nice walk and had a chance to talk more.

We got to Harvey’s and there were already people in the lounge waiting for the next show so it was probably good. We sat around some more and talked and Lilly and Chrissie got a chance to talk more with Cassandra and Peggy which I really wanted as I thought it would be good for them to meet them as Peggy has been so supportive of her husband Cassandra and really all of us girls in the group. I think that is the best thing about our group as we can talk and get support from others who are just like us. We really are more like a family. The rest of the girls going tonight showed up, Sophia, Robyn, Michel and her friend so we had 16 in all tonight.

Now as more people came in I was more aware of how short my dress was but I did see several other girls with dresses as short and maybe a couple even shorter than mine. Well it was time to go in and of course Berry the owner had our tables all set up. Normally we text Kim our favorite waitress but she is on Vacation tonight and not here and we miss her but we hope she is having a great time. The young man who waited on us was really good and treated us great which is no surprise as we are always treated great here but we did miss Kim so it will be nice next month when we see her again.

The show started and as always it was great. They only had 2 comedians tonight, the featured and the headliner no MC tonight. They both did a great job and we all laughed so hard but I think the headliner was just a little better. Both picked on people in the audience, some that were talking instead of watching the show and two girls that were on their phones texting. It was great as I think when a comedian can interact with the audience and do jokes off the cuff while on stage is great.

After the show we all walked back to Fox & hound. I was going to stay out just a little later tonight as Sandy was driving down from up north to go out in Portland, she couldn’t make it early enough for Harvey’s so I was looking forward to seeing her. We had only been at Fox & Hound for a few minutes when Sandy came in. she had been over at CC Slaughters. It was great to see her again.

We all sat and talked for a bit and then a few of the girls left. We had a great time and it was nice talking with Sandy. I really wish I could have stayed out later. It was almost 12:45 when I finally called it a night. Sandy was going to go back over to CC’s for a while before she made the drive back home. It really was a great night out.

The dates for next year’s Diva Las Vegas are final it will be March 22 to 27 2015 so mark your calendar, it is such a fun event. If you have never heard about it or know what it is check out their web page.

September 7, 2014 Posted by | Fox & Hound, Harvey's Comedy Club | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment


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